#would i deactivate this account?? idk lol

[tarotmantic]

having an absolute field day rn learning that a writeblr i beta’d for got cancelled three years ago

[littlestpetgoth]

do you happen to have a discord server, or know of any good HS discord servers? i think itd be fun to meet other HS fans but idk where to look lol

when i first started posting online again i joined the mspfa server and posted to the art channel every now and then. my interactions with people were sparse but at the time i thought it was fun to have some social interaction with other mspa fans for the first time in my life. id consider joining it again but i haven't been feeling very sociable after i deactivated my old twitter so i dunno when i would try. i gained some traction there by sharing my oc verita, she was very popular and is the reason i got peoples' attentions. i remember someone even made a theme song for her and i thought it was sooo cool lol..

i think i must have gotten really lucky, during the time i was hyperactive(?) and posted a loot of art of her and requests of other peoples' characters with her, people really liked my fantroll designs so i got further attention from that.

i think people also liked my animations? idk. i gained like, 6k followers in a really quick period, at a time in my life where i was really unstable and was trying to strip myself of someone who plagues my thoughts. i deactivated that account and have since been really anti social lol.

i used to have one server that was pretty active, it was dumped on me by the person mentioned prior so i really resented it. eventually i couldn't take it anymore and deactivated the server on impulse..

ive since made a new server, it's kinda private and basically dead since i stopped checking in on it every day. i dont really have the energy i had earlier this year ive been pretty worn out and brain dead, but i feel a lot more relaxed at least. i mightt consider inviting new peopple to it? i haven't decided if i want to or not, it's just me moderating (and also ko but he's really only a mod to approve of people who send intros when im not available)

i feel lucky that the group of people i have in it are really nice and well behaved : ) maybe ill offer to invite people again. if you want to join to can dm me and ill check you out, see if i want you in..

sorry for the ramble im not really the best person to ask about this!! i really only have any friends in the homestuck community because people approached me first, although some were really unsavory individuals im still grateful for the opportunities i was given because of it.

[permanently-changing]

what do you like about tumblr so much?

at a base level - pretty pictures, yearny text posts, and moots in the notes makes my dopamine machine go brrr...

The answer to that changes, or has changed over the years. 201X (idr what year I started the past iteration of this blog...2013?) PC is different than 2024 P-C.

In some sense it is the community, argue about that in my DMs if you want but there is some of that here. When you see the beloved and say hiiii, or therapy moot comes on and likes/RB the shit out of you, hot dog moot drops a 🌭 meme in your DMs (yes, I have a 🌭 moot, no I don't need anyone else sending me 🌭 memes, the 🌭 thing went as far as it needed to.) I don't follow a lot of people and I don't talk to most of you, but I like seeing what you post and what your vibe is, and that ❤️ on your personal post means we care about you and what you got going on. IDK that this place would be what it is if we could only RB??

There's a post (there is ALWAYS a post) that is something like "...maybe we're all just saying this is how feel about this, do you also feel that way..." And I love that, whether it is just sharing shitposts, or the Beastie Boys, or ducks, or something heartfelt and personal. We in some ways just want to see who else feels that way. You know? The anonymity of this place changes the dynamic compared to other social channels and I love that about this place.

We all grow and change and there is a part of this hellsite that I attribute to that in my life. I understand my kinks better. I see and appreciate new art. I learn things about other people and cultures. I am a different person because of some of you. Yes I could probably have done that elsewhere (and I do, tbc) but the fact is I also did it here.

Without attributing TOO much weight to this, there is an creative expression aspect of this place and a meditative quality to scrolling (for me, ymmv as we all use this space differently). We aren't Picasso up in here, but to some extent we express ourselves in different ways with text posts that we write (over the years I've had a private blog that I write on), images we like/RB/Upload, etc. And (again, for me) sometimes I want to shut my brain down and just scroll pretty pics and hit the like/RB button. I joke that it is a spiritual practice.

But what about the NSFW posts/blogs??? I've had an active NSFW on here the whole time I've had "this" account. Originally I was more into those as sexual/horny posts but really titposts are just shitposts or aesthetic blogs with bewbies and dicks in them. They're just posts, tbh a good yearning/longing post will fuck you up more than a nsfwpost.

I could probably go on about this beloved hellsite but I'll stop for now. I appreciate the question, I assume it was sparked by my somewhat "truth in jest" response to the asks the other day (I'll love you if...you understand and appreciate my relationship with Tumblr).

Thanks, Anon.

also, like all good tumblrinas, I think about deactivating and leaving *almost* every damn day, lol

[strawberrysturniolo]

Idk if you or one of your followers would know who im talking about but please help me here lol

so I followed this smut writer here who wrote a fic about matt getting frustrated at the reader because they were fucking but he kept slipping out of the reader’s pussy and so they were teasing each other about that. But i don’t remember the writer’s username and i think they might have deactivated their account

i follow wayyy too many people to go through all my following but if someone knows who im talking about please let me know their @ or if they’re still around

WAITTTTT I READ THIS BUT I DONT REMEMBER THE @ SOMEONE HELPPPPPPP

[sailingshellsgames]

Well, that was really not how I thought this weekend would go 😅

I think I’m going to make this update in bullet-point story form, so I can have a laugh about it at least.

How this weekend went:

Oh, the redirect from my old tumblr url to the new one doesn’t work on mobile. Let me turn off the default setting so it’ll work.

Clicks button.

Immediately the screen refreshes, signs me out and shows me the tumblr homepage.

Huh, that’s weird, let me log back in. Wait... why is nothing happening when I log in?

Search for my tumblr’s home page, find nothing.

Oh. It’s gone. Uh, okay, um, don’t panic. It’s just over a year of work gone (at this point I’m sure you can imagine how I’m feeling 😂).

Frantically email support, search for other account recovery methods, find a page on reddit that seems like it could help. Update the Hosted Forum post because idk if the tumblr is gone forever and that’s the only other place people can reach me. Create reddit account, accidentally get the account banned as a robot because I don’t have enough of something called karma and edited my post too much, probably. Create a new account, trade karma with kind strangers on a separate subreddit. Post again to the “help my tumblr was deactivated” subreddit. Realize not for the first time that I don’t know how reddit works. Distract myself by hanging out with a friend because there’s nothing else to do but wait and hope.

And finally, the person who runs the tumblr support of that reddit page commented on my post that my account was reactivated. I’m impressed with their response time - I didn’t expect them to be working weekends so I’m grateful for that. So yeah, that’s been the past couple days 😂 All’s well that ends well and I’m proud of myself for not freaking out too much but dang. That was a lot lol.

[jemgirl86]

I'm not surprised by the drop, I'm mostly surprised it made the list because, among other things, people don't reblog, they don't interact. You can post a meta about the ship and you'll get 8 likes on a good day. Also, controversial opinion, it wasn't fun going into the tag for awhile, like it seemed you were shamed for shipping it. There were sideways comments even among Sambucky shippers. There was also a blogger who was bullied and called fake black for shipping Sambucky more than Sarahbucky

Hey, anon. I’m probably about to be more long winded than I should, as usual lol.

So, okay, I expected the drop too, but not like this. A good chunk of people who were around last year or even earlier this year were Stuckies who showed up due to TFATWS because they were just happy that Bucky was in the vicinity of a man again. They didn’t care about Sam, and they barely cared about Bucky, and I didn’t expect them to stick around too long once it became clear to them that people were going to pushback against their nonsense.

There’s a lot of folks though who I think just flat out stopped interacting. For example, I personally think a lot of people are still reading and enjoying fic and headcanons, but like you said, they aren’t reblogging or liking, and they certainly aren’t leaving kudos on ao3 and that’s the part that is kinda shocking to me.

When I first started being active in this fandom, the more established people here were so friendly to me. When I posted a snippet of my first SamBucky fic, people with big followings were so receptive to it and reblogged it and said such nice things, and that was months before the show aired. Idk… I guess what I’m trying to say is, I expected the fandom to go back to the size and engagement that it had before the show, I expected it to drop off in that way, but I didn’t expect things to be the way they are now with little to no interaction on posts and fics, here and on ao3.

You’re right: the tag wasn’t fun for a while. I mentioned on another post, that at one point last year I deactivated my blog because I was tired of the fandom racism and needed a break. I came back about a month later, used the same name, and followed the accounts I knew I could trust under my new blog. I also remember the SamBucky vs SarahBucky issues, and as someone who’s written fics for both ships, I didn’t get it, but I can see why it would have turned people off. Sidenote: someone accused me of antiBlackness the other day because I don’t ship Namor and Shuri, so, I get that people can be idiots.

I’m really rambling now, but I’ll say that my personal theory is that some people left because of racism, and some people left because they were really stuckies the whole time, and some folks left over other fandom drama, BUT MOST people who don’t interact anymore don’t because they don’t understand the give and take of fandom AND they, I don’t know how to exactly say it, but they don’t know how to fandom period. If Anthony and Seb aren’t on a press tour or if Sam & Bucky aren’t on a screen in front of them, it’s like they can’t still like them. It’s weird.

They’re my ship and I’m a stick beside ‘em though, lol. Catch me at the theatre with the other 3 SamBuckies like @glittercake said lmaooo

[psychelis-new]

This is really random, but I love your blog. Your readings are fantastic and so are you. I'm scared you might deactivate in the future :( Plesse promise me you won't :( A blog I followed deleted their account and I couldn't even say goodbye so, I just don't want that to happen again. Of course, you can do whatever you want, but I'd really miss you 😭

Aw this is such a sweet message, thank you so much lovely!<3

For now the plan is to not deactivate ofc, I still have something to do/say or at least I feel this way. I cannot tell you what will be in the future, but I will ofc try my best to say goodbye properly if that day comes. For how I feel atm, deactivating here would mean moving somewhere else though... IDK anyway but, you can stop worrying for now :) (I have at the very least the 7 colors serie to end LOL I cannot leave it halfway, that's not me hehe)

Take care and enjoy your summer/winter/whatever season you're living into. Sending hugs your way!<3

[majaloveschris]

Can I point out that if she were to really post a story on ig then regret, she can opt to simply delete the story. It takes maybe two or three taps on the screen…

To delete the whole ig account takes way more effort and time. It was planned y’all. People are painting her to be a victim and Twitter users are trying to trend her name lol idk it’s all too convenient. I am not condoning people sharing her pics or video either. But also isn’t their more nudity in some of her movies?

And I called it that her fans would make it the CE fandoms fault, which also makes me wonder about another anon’s theory abiut the crazy fan letter was a setup too. It makes me sad.

Also people claiming the video was a deepfake or her account was hacked… again, there are easier ways to get rid of a story or hacked account on insta than by deleting ur whole account. Just sayin.

Thanx for being the one with the tea 🫖

I once deactivated my account, and it definitely takes time, at least a few minutes, so the fact her account almost disappeared immediately could indicate she had the job done before, so all she had to do was click on the button to deactivate it.

Nobody—not Chris nor his fans—forced her to make the video or to post it.

[randomjreader]

Can you exsplain what’s happening with bash and joe like what did he say and why is there so much drama? I’m not on twitter so idk what’s happening lol

Basically, Bash did an interview where he was asked what it was like for him to play a bad Ben Hope. He talked about how it was tough to channel a character like Ben, and he hoped that people would be able to (and this is what I THINK he meant to say) empathise with what it's like to struggle with internalised homophobia and what it could lead people to do. However, because the original interview was done in Italian or something, it went through multiple translations and some people thought Bash was trying to justify Ben's actions against Charlie, which invalidates SA survivors. People started to hate on him, send him death threats and all. Finally, Bash recently addressed the hate and clarified that he definitely was not justifying Ben's actions, but I think some people were still really mad.

As for Joe, he liked some tweets in defense of bash and also started blocking people who were being aggressively hateful and all that. Those "fans" started to hate on him really badly, and Joe ended up deactivating his Twitter account.

Update: I've been told by @victoriaspriing that allegedly, the tweets Joe liked were disregarding SA? I didn't see the tweets so I can't say much about it, so anon if you have any questions about this its probably best to ask her :)

Edit: okok so one of the tweets Joe liked was apparently by a person who was defending Bash, but that same person disregarded SA victims in their other posts; unclear is Joe was aware of this or not

[truffulacore]

I posted 399 times in 2022

67 posts created (17%)

332 posts reblogged (83%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@rocky-the-rockstar

@krestomansi

@ofcrowsandkings

@shimomcdragon

@atlasllm

I tagged 319 of my posts in 2022

Only 20% of my posts had no tags

#truffula flu - 128 posts

#ramble - 62 posts

#swag - 60 posts

#entre - 38 posts

#rocky - 27 posts

#one - 22 posts

#onceler - 18 posts

#swagtre - 17 posts

#camp weehawken - 16 posts

#archive rambles - 15 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#and his thneed pedal that uses truffula tufts to convert that frequency into ones audible to the human ear and it makes music sound amazing

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

i feel like there should be a revival or redone version of truffula flu! i would totally participate in it lol

that would be pretty cool tbh, though I feel like camp entre itself probably won't get a revival. But tbf the AU itself is still going and there's a few blogs related to truffula flu that are currently active. Although it'd be really cool if it became like really big again (I wasn't there in 2012 so idk How Big it was compared to now but I'm pretty sure it was definitely more of a thing back then) but yeah I'd be up for that lol (although I'm terrible at RPing and also don't really have a character I could use for it ajdjdkd)

Also I heard there's a discord server for truffula flu? Idk much about it but I'll try and find the link lol

14 notes - Posted June 15, 2022

#4

I love truffula flu so much I wish 2012 was real

24 notes - Posted June 13, 2022

#3

drew some swags on one of the sweet bags at work

28 notes - Posted July 16, 2022

#2

Yo hi uh do you have any tips for reading Truffula Flu, where to start, blogs to check out, anything I should know, things like that?

Yeah sure, I started with Entre's blog and just read through it backwards lol

Then I just read each character's blog individually (I feel like there must be an easier way to read them all in one go but I haven't found that way yet. I read somewhere you could make a new account and follow just the blogs and then scroll to the bottom of your dash, but I tried that and it took ages lol so I just stuck with reading them separately)

here's the starting pages of some of the main blogs (for Camp Entre at least):

Entre

72

Ted

Rocky

One

Dave

Audrey

Beanpole

The Lorax

for the deactivated blogs, I either just relied on their interactions with the other characters or went on wayback machine but tbh I couldn't find much stuff for Bitter or Prisma. But I'll put their links anyway + Swag's:

Swag

Bitter

Prisma

anyway I'd say start with Entre's blog to get like the general story and then just go from there. Also it's better to read it on desktop (or on mobile but just not through the app) bc it's just sort of easier to navigate that way 

but yeah hope this helps :):)

51 notes - Posted June 9, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

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[annislittleshopofhorrors]

That shower video “someone” made has bothered me for months. I’m sure no one wants to rethink on this but I have some thoughts about the whole thing that may or may not be delusional. But really with everything that’s happened, is anything too far fetched ? Lol

So when you post a story to IG, I think it allows like an under 60 sec uploading time. Within that time frame, I think you can still delete the post without it being fully uploaded and seen by your followers (someone correct me if I’m wrong).

What if - “someone” made her shower show and then preemptively uploaded it to her IG story but as it was still uploading, SS and deleted it (again, I do not know how and if this is actually possible to do before the story completely uploads) and then deactivated.

After the deactivation, she knew ppl would be checking for her as they have for months. As ppl are wondering what happened to her, suddenly some dummy account on twitter (or was it tumblr? Or IG) asks if anyone else saw her post that story…and then the SS of the story are leaked. Idk if there was ever an actual video that made it around (I HOPE NOT) or if it was always screenshots only.

The source of the SS conveniently disappears or is never really traced? but the work is done. The pics are spread and there’s hope that ppl will feel sorry for her or that she’ll go viral and make the news (she doesn’t lol).

Her trolling friends are mysteriously silent and never address the situation. Her fans seem determined to ignore it completely and instead focus on her deactivating bc she was being bullied. (Which she was, TBF, but if she willingly posted a story like that on Beyoncé’s internet unprovoked I have to wonder about her priorities). Nobody around her orbit wants to address the situation but she then pops up on twitter two days later (that timing…so convenient).

Now I can’t prove any of this happened the way I described, but I have an even stronger inkling the truth may not be too far, bc of the most recent sister IG story.

Again - a mysterious SS appears out of thin air looking oddly like it might have been tampered with. Where did that second X on the top left hand corner come from? That’s not in regular IG stories or even screenshots of IG stories. Did her sister REALLY post a story tagging Cap A? Why would she have done that if not to make it so obvious where she was? And how did a private account IG story suddenly make its way through cyberspace when nothing from her sisters account has ever leaked to blogs b4? Surely if ppl had been checking for her before, there would have been other stories she posted - esp when they were together in Paris or elsewhere.

This SS has a backyard backdrop that would not mean anything to anyone unless it’s eagle eyed stalker fans who can recognize the man’s backyard (IDEK wanna go there). Then add that location tag…obvious trolling bc if it were just the background without the tag, I’d give her the benefit of the doubt. Assuming that the sister’s following would not see that post and know she was in his backyard. She adds the cap moniker tag and now the hint is clear as day. Then the SS gets sent to multiple tumblr blogs that are CE/fans. Get ppl talking, angry, riled up. Then “someone” follows a person who has a connection to her famous bf. It all unravels from there.

Now..why do all this? Why would you go thru all this trouble to troll? She could simply post a pic from his backyard herself. She could have posted a pic or video from inside his house in his bathroom showering if she really wanted. If she’s his SO, she’s allowed to do some of that within reason. IMO, she very much wants to keep up appearances that she’s super private and respectful of his privacy and she doesn’t troll. She’s above that and not like all of those other clout chasing women. However - by physically posing for that awful video, she literally proved she was proactive in creating that content. It’s not like it was a candid where she was doing something and was unaware she was being filmed. She posed willingly - that video was going to someone or somewhere intentionally. Her sister allegedly posting from his backyard and tagging that also means she wanted ppl to connect the dots.

Maybe all this is delusional overthinking on my part. There’s no way I can prove any of this is true. But I just don’t trust this chick. Can’t explain it.

Sweetheart, I hope you didn't wrote this long essay right after you woke up. 😅

[queenheritageposts]

not me getting kinda sad seeing the number of dead and deactivated blogs on these posts (i mean it happens to all fandoms eventually. but still)

naurrrr you’re right 😭

it is an interesting observation on how big the fandom once was

i can’t say much about 2018 and earlier considering i didn’t become a queen fan until 2019 but even then 2019 and early 2020 a lot more blogs and accounts i feel like were still active with queen content

but like you said it happens 🫡 probably due to the hype of bohemian rhapsody dying off and after the awards some people simply got bored with either deactivating, abandoning or remaking their blogs and moving into different interests and since nothing big as a movie has been released then it’s inevitable the fandom is gonna slow down especially with a band that doesn’t make new music anymore for over 20 years and the lead singer has passed away and the bassist has retired

heck, i fell off of queen for a bit around late 2020 and didn’t come back until 2022 lol

i highly doubt the fandom will ever get to the big state it was around the film’s release unless bohemian rhapsody 2 gets announced which uhhh

anyways it’s sad but i am glad to be around again and even if it’s not the bustling fandom it once was on here, i still enjoy being a queen fan and enjoying their music ❤️ and it’s still neat to see who still sticks around or even the newer fans!

and besides even when i was in my first phase of being into queen and the fandom was still big let’s just say the fandom was hectic to say the least…instagram fandom was discourse abound lol it was chaotic time but at the same time i do still miss what a more big fandom brings at least on tumblr; seeing so much cool fanart and people having fun discussions about their albums it was pretty cool! while ofc people still do this, it seemed to have been to a much bigger extent during bo rhap’s release, but i am also at the same time glad that era is over and things died down a bit

but back to your point it is kind of sad to see all these blogs either be inactive or straight up deactivated

sometimes i find these blogs that haven’t been updated since like 2019 and it’s an interesting time capsule of once was the queen fandom lmao

these inactive blogs are like dinosaur footprint fossils…in a way idk

anyways watch as i am wrong and bohemian rhapsody 2 and like another unreleased hasn’t seen the light of day 2 hour documentary from another tour of theirs just gets dropped on us

i hope bo rhap 2 never happens but getting another documentary that nobody has seen in half a century would be cool though

also unrelated and apologies for all these tangents i went on, but i want to one day make a queen iceberg video that sounds fun honestly 🤭 and also queen lost media too? maybe i can make some posts about those topics one day idk, but i do plan on probably debunking a fake story post on here that has over 100k notes so stay tuned 👍

[dannythedog]

I used to run one of the bigger blogs two or three years ago, I won't reveal my identity, but just know I'm still here and I still lurk because even though this fandom has many issues, I still love the boys and wanna stay updated.

I personally deactivated my blog bc I got tired of people sending me racist/xenophobic slurs on anon all day every day. Sometimes they would forget to get off anon first (or maybe it was accidental) and I would see who they were. I can definitely confirm it was a group of 3-4 other (bigger) gvf blogs, but I see no point in revealing their identities now because they've also deactivated since and it'd be like stirring old shit for no reason.

Idk why people are so fixated on always making you seem like a bully. Yes, there are bullies running gvf fan accounts, you're just not one of them lol. Anons y'all are coming for the wrong person.

I’m sorry that this happened to you :( I wish that we could all just chill out. We don’t have to like each other, but it’s not hard to be a decent person

[g-kat423]

One of the main reasons I haven’t been writing other than a lack of motivation is due to bg3 consuming my life.

I bought bg3 at launch and I knew I would get invested so I refrained from playing after only getting to the grove to focus on other things, mostly writing/content creation/streaming.

Then I got myself into a rut and decided to start playing bg3 again and what I thought would happen has happened. I literally don’t want to do anything else. I take breaks of course, mostly because the steam deck’s battery is crap unless you want to be tethered to a wall and in my house the outlet placement is ass so I either have to be in bed or sitting on the floor so I’ll usually play for an hour or so when the deck tells me its low on power and then I take a break. During my breaks I’m reading/watching things about bg3.

I have a feeling that this is going to become my next major interest and will eventually replace Alcina. I’ll always love her character of course, but it’s been three years and this is the 2nd time I’ve felt my interest fading. There’s only so many fics you can write or read before it doesn’t even feel like the character anymore and there’s so many overdone tropes that I’m also guilty of. Idk where I’m going with this, I still plan to finish my fics and to get around to those requests but after that I’m probably going to move on from making Alcina related content until my own inspiration strikes again because I’ve been forcing it for a while now. It’s partially the reason I deactivated my TikTok accounts. TikTok has a habit of putting you into a niche so if you post outside of that you don’t get many views and since my Alcina content always did well I kept trying to find ways to make content about her even while cringing at myself. Honestly feels good to be away from the pressure of trying to grow an account.

Sorry for being so long winded lol. Anyway bg3 updates, in my durge play through I’ve slept with Astarion and Lae’zel 2x each. I pursued Astarion at the goblin party since I raided the grove and originally only intended to romance him, but then Lae’zel randomly came onto me after fighting the hag(I think she must have enjoyed all the murder and I have high approval with her even though I kept seeing she was disapproving of things now and then)and I didn’t deny. Neither have said anything about the other nor wanting a relationship so I’m just going with it. I also loved how Lae’zel’s sex scene was basically “eat my pussy.” Lmao. Love that for her.

[bigolgay]

Hey… cheery thoughts are happening.

Suicide and stuff I guess.

So just so you all know, if I ever die I won’t just leave you hanging and wondering what happened. I’m gonna tell my mum that she’ll have to let people on here know lol. And then tell her that after a bit I want her to deactivate my account lol. It’s weird. Being suicidal and having online friends who don’t really know who you are? Like I love you people a lot and the thought of leaving you all wondering what happened to me is… very suck. Like i dunno how people would react feelings wise but I think (?) some people would wonder about me? Every once in a while. And maybe a couple would grieve? And I don’t wanna leave anyone without answers yk?

So with all my sads happening atm, just wanted you to know I wouldn’t leave you without answers or whatever.

I’m not planning anything btw. Just wanted to let you guys know I guess? Idk.

[bisluthq]

lost online friend anon here - I think I’m more affected by it because her reasoning was needing a break from fandom and falling out of the hyperfixation, and I totally get that, in fact I’m a bit jealous tbh, but she deactivated her account without warning after her messages and I feel upset. I think it’s also the fact that she’s out there touching grass and I know I should be doing that more too lol but fandom brings me comfort and so did our friendship. I just feel hurt that she didn’t feel like we could continue talking outside of the context of fandom despite us talking for years about personal things too. Idk, this just made me confront how online I am and I think I need to pull a nat but don’t know how lmao. A lot of my hobbies are tied to media consumption.

I mean she's probably gonna be back because that's how it works like we've all been round the block enough to know you go but then you come back. Maybe you take a new name and whatnot and maybe you just come back lmao like that's eventually gonna happen. We've all been on this ride before like lbr.

I think it's crummy that she didn't like give you her number before she peaced if you've been friends for years. That would hurt a lot. When I was like not active here and when I was deleting Insta and shit I made sure my FRIENDS had ways to contact me. But also like you can't know other people's thought processes idk and like absolutely online things bring us comfort and that's okay like we shouldn't have to justify what we enjoy doing.

I think give yourself space to grieve, know that she'll almost certainly be back lol because onlinerism is a syndrome not a disease so you'll never be cured of it, and find new online friends to talk about weird hyper fixations idk.