#writitngthestorm

[archipelagoobitch]

I wanna burn my hands,

Pull out my swollen gut,

Throw my shattered heart away,

Blow my brain into pieces.

This pain

This overwhelming pain is taking control of me.

I cant feel the blood on my tongue.

I am at lack of desire.

Constant digging has left my calluses crimson red,

My eyes match the darker shade.

I feel my breath being sucked out of my lungs

My soul being ripped out of my chest

I am spiralling into my thought wheel

Theres no way i can make it stop

The voices in my head seem to feed on my words

Its been five days

Five days since the thunderbird hasnt roared again

I think the spring has departed

Five days and the moon's still in its cresent

I see it losing its light night by night

Five days and I cant seem to let go of my bed

Beethoven doesnt soothe me anymore

Whitman's words seem futile

And Bukowski's growing over me

I think of how you held me that day

Told me the misery can never seep in

If u held tight enough

Leaving no cracks and gaps

Bandaging every hole in my heart

Well I couldn't.

-S