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[bikenesmith]

🧠 🧲 a beginner's guide to comics cherik 🧲 🧠

it's finally here! i made a guide for cherik fans who have never read x-men comics + don't know where to start 💜 it covers backstories, character studies, krakoa, & more! everything has summaries, images, and beginner difficulty ratings. read here! (there's a condensed list at the end that you can copy/paste for your notes and such!)

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everyone say thank you yunho fansites!

[the-indigo-symphony]

Lately my mind keeps drifting to that phenomenon of people getting really into hypno videos that would claim to be able to hypnotize you into thinking you were someone completely different, and all the people who reported that it worked for them. Except later they would report that sometimes they would suddenly shift into this other identity at inopportune times even when there was little or nothing to trigger the hypnosis. All this was especially common for hypno videos focused on specific medias such as MLP:FIM (this phenomenon is probably best known for occuring in this fandom, in fact), but I've also seen people saying the same for hypnosis regarding real or mythological creatures. And I am also thinking about those authors of the Structural Theory of Dissociation of the Personality (leading theory on how DID develops) saying that a similar phenomenon to the division of self/personality in DID could possibly occur through other means like hypnosis. And how hypnogenic is a very niche origin term that exists.

... Anyway I hope all those folks who probably accidentally made themselves into systems (or at the very least, gave their unknown kintypes a weirdly strong boost) by watching hypno videos are doing well.

[butchcockiness2]

we still on for my headmate holding your headmate down and forcibly injecting her, sorry, "him" with estrogen later? yeah like 9pm next thursday sound good? ok great. what's--what do you mean you just realized it's gonna affect you too? are you committed to forcefemming her or not? alright good. see you soon, princess--uh, i mean buddy

[kadonneet]

Link Click episode 5

[nevadas-night-time-novelist]

I have something sad to admit… I’m in love with

My little Tony Ravioli ❤️❤️❤️ my skrungly

His hair isn't even on straight, hes a disaster and I am going to pelt him into the ocean for the crime of being

[jimmyscanongf]

me seizing the nearest person to talk about dungeon meshi at them

[dreamworldstims]

Sorry, I haven’t had enough energy to do much, I promise I’ll update again at some point!!

[doomsdayprophetofficial]

not that anyone is asking but i am deeply fucking afraid of the future lol. the world-sentiments towards americans are piss poor and most days i’m actively on the hunt looking for ways to hopefully gain some sort of citizenship elsewhere to escape what is clearly the early stages of a fascist regime with no clear end in sight. i literally am so beside myself with worry at this point that i can barely sleep and i try to keep it to myself but it just bleeds into everything i’m doing all of the time, even scrolling on this fucking website. and the worst part is, if we are so hated everywhere (as goes with refugees of countless other places), that means that in all likelihood, leaving means a life of misery (tho staying means a life of rights stripped away and oppression). it’s so overwhelming i don’t even know what to do. i don’t want to leave this life that i have spent 27 years building behind me, but only being 5 months into trump and it already being this awful is only a window into how much worse it will get. idk. i always thought if we came to this place i would just KMS but i somehow had to reach the “i want to be alive” arc just months before he was elected. there is obviously so much bad shit going on in the world and sometimes it fweks stupid to complain when i think about how much worse it could be but if action isn’t taken, unfortunately i am leaving the door open for even worse to come. idk. Idk!

[bikenesmith]

Despite [Xavier’s] previous insistence that he is only whole when able-bodied, he comes to terms very quickly with his return to disability: “My back is shattered, a parting gift from the Shadow King… It appears… if I am ever to achieve my dream… I will need all of you… to walk me there” (Nicieza 23). In the span of a single panel, Xavier acknowledges that he is once again disabled, accepts it, and asks his teammates for help. Due to his previous elation at becoming able-bodied, one would think he would require more time to adjust, to shift his identity once more from “able-bodied” to “differently-abled.” The ease in which Professor X resumes his disabled identity lends itself to the notion that being able-bodied, not disabled, is a plot device. He takes more time to adjust to using his legs than he does to losing them, a pattern generally reversed when other characters become disabled. This smooth transition back to disability implies that his truest identity is as a disabled man.

crippled crusaders: disability representation in the superhero genre by cassandra nicol is a central inspiration to my reading of charles xavier's disability (as is the text itself). is charles ever "re-abled”, or is his disability a chronic illness that dramatically waxes + wanes?

(this is a rewrite/expansion of a previous post that includes many more textual examples + visual aides! also posted on twitter here)

(also check out this amazing xxplastic--cubexx commission ouchpotatoex gifted me that is related to this concept 🥹)

the dominant, most objective[?] read is that charles becomes abled, is disabled, + becomes abled again ad nauseam. yet this narrative trend has also licensed a reading where charles’ disability is, functionally, a chronic illness that flares due to outward stimuli.

whether charles’ paraplegia is due to physical injury or a brain/astral issue isn’t clear, having been complicated over the years by the many ways the text chooses to able + re-disable him. in any case, his paraplegia began after his spine was crushed by a giant rock.

what makes the most sense to me is leaning into that ambiguity. its both — either mental or physical injury/ailment can cause him disablement. the back + forth of charles’ paraplegia signifies he’s uniquely in danger of that specific symptom — paraplegia/spine issues.

like injury or damage to the spine, injury or damage to the brain can lead to quadriplegia or paraplegia. the brain + the spine, the central nervous system, they’re basically extensions of each other, and are some of the most important parts of your body.

from this one can extrapolate that charles has a particularly “weak” spine, and it’s likely to give out if he experiences intense physical OR psionic injury. and as an x-man, he risks that quite often.

before i go further, here's a list of all of charles xavier's ablements + disablements & how they happened. 😭 yes that's an ELEVEN POINT LIST. re: resurrections i counted both his x-force + inferno resurrections as one item. let me know if i missed anything.

methods of disablement + re-ablement

disabled by spinal injury

abled* from new body cloned from tissue

disabled by spinal injury

very briefly abled by contraction of techno-organic virus

disabled by fading of techno-organic virus

briefly abled** by xorn's healing

disabled by xorn removing healing

reabled by wanda's depowering

killed by cyclops

transfers soul into fantomex's abled body

resurrected into abled clone bodies

*: unable to walk for a time due to psychic disablement

**: requires cane to walk

the strongest evidence for charles’ disability as psychic/neurological AND physical chronic illness exists in his story beats post-brood saga, during which his body is destroyed and his soul is transferred into an abled clone-body made from his tissue samples.

however, charles finds that he is not able to walk/walk consistently, despite the fact that there is nothing "wrong" with this new body. in these panels (and in the ones in the coming tweets), charles + lilandra discuss the mental/neurological element of his disability at length.

charles goes through an arduous physical therapy process trying to circumvent the mental barrier, which causes him excruciating pain, and experiences sharp fluctuations in ambulatory ability. it’s basically outright said that his disability is not just in his body, but his brain.

(interestingly, soon after, his health is a central subject once again, after he survives a violent hate crime & hides the injury + resulting health issues. those health issues are then exacerbated by another severe injury at the hands of the strucker twins. thus headmaster mags)

i also think the “ease” with which charles moves from ability one state to another that nicol mentions is important to this. to be clear: we have seen charles agonize over his disability, and especially losing his ability. it’s undeniable that it impacts him emotionally.

but charles doesn’t go through the intense “grieving” process many newly disabled ppl do — the kind he went through himself while recovering from his first spinal injury (see uncanny x-men #309). as nicol points out:

In Xavier's next appearance two issues later, he is seated in a golden wheelchair and seems insistent that his disability not hinder his participation in X-Men adventures. Instead he emphasizes his usefulness with his telepathic powers, declaring, "I too shall be coming. Though I am crippled once again, my particular talents may be needed there" (Portacio and Byrne 6). His disabled status is stressed through a visual weight of the word "crippled," both bolded and italicized in the comic panel, similar to how "whole" was stressed when he became able-bodied in 1983. But here, "crippled" is not laden with judgment. It is merely an acknowledgement of Xavier's condition. This smooth transition back to disability in some ways rectifies his description of "able-bodied" as "whole," as Charles insists that even paraplegic once more, he is still more than capable of being an X-Man, and he is still the most powerful mutant in the world. Regardless of the state of his physical body, Charles knows that his disability need not impose limitations on his actions; he harnesses his role as leader of the X-Men and his disability is, effectively, relegated to background information.

of course, this is in part because charles had already been paraplegic for years, but it can also be read as him just being ready for it. seeing it as an eventuality, a familiar state that he will return to throughout his life. a chronic disability that exists whether or not he can walk.

There is one more major instance in which Professor X becomes able-bodied. In 2002, a mutant named Xorn restores Xavier's ability to walk (Morrison, "All Hell" 32). This is the most short-lived instance of Xavier being able-bodied. Only a year later, Xorn is revealed to be Magneto in disguise, one of Professor X's oldest enemies; Xorn removes the nano-sentinels that had been holding Xavier's spine together, crippling him again (Morrison, "Planet X" 19). Later, once freed from captivity, Xavier reappears in a chair with alien-like legs, giving him 21 autonomous movement (Morrison, "Phoenix Invictus" 27). This time, he makes no mention of his return to paraplegia. He is in full command of the X-Men, and has again made a smooth identity transition from "able-bodied" to "differently-abled." The fact that this occurs once more stresses that to be disabled is part of Charles Xavier's truest identity, and that being able-bodied is a temporary plot point rather than a character trait.

so what does this mean in the krakoan age, the most recent and recognizable instance of charles' "abling"? we've already been shown that a newly grown physical body doesn't necessarily mean that it does not come without his disability.

is the disability a “symptom” of charles' telepathy? is it imprinted in his mind/soul/whatever you want to call what cerebro catalogues, or the form charles takes when transferring into new bodies? is a krakoan-made body uniquely "stronger" than past ones? (R-LDS notwithstanding)

throughout all of krakoa era, there’s never been any mention of what charles feels about making his bodies ambulatory. the closest thing we have to that is the knowledge that he brought his own wheelchairs with him to krakoa (which somewhat supports a "chronic illness" reading, at least).

the fact that charles brought his wheelchairs with him to krakoa.....in a paradise allegedly free of death or sickness he still prepares for his needs to change, as if its an immutable part of him that could resist miracle drugs + literal resurrection.

(but isn't it SO classic x-men bullshit that we only get that insight in the backdrop of an ableist plot where a villain is punished and humiliated.....by being dis-abled? lmfao. in duggan's marauders, disability is considered a punishment worse than death.)

via xuân’s resurrection in new mutants, we know that its possible to have your physical disability preserved when you’re resurrected. so it must have been an active choice of charles' to be resurrected into an abled body.

personally, i find charles' choice to be resurrected in an abled body to be in-character. he's done it before, he frequently mourns his ability to walk, & has always enjoyed running + abled sports. the lack of discussion and attention to this choice is the problem.

imo the best outcome for charles, an iconic disabled character w/ a long complex history w/ his disability, is to canonize this complexity by revisiting the aforementioned story beats and reframing his disability as an intrinsic part of him that he experiences whether he is ambulatory or not.

understanding charles xavier's disability as a chronic disability that simply has fluctuating presentations + support needs is a far more compelling idea than continuing with this on-off-switch thing that only serves to trivialize + erase disability.

some last points:

beyond charles' specific issues, telepathy can by itself already be seen as a disability as it causes issues that are similar to neurological disorders (migraines, fatigue, fainting, pain, visions/hallucinations, etc).

the serum plotline in xmdofp (2014) is clowned on for not making sense but i guess this lowkey works as an argument that it does??? charles' physical disability being connected to his telepathy has precedent. "well in the comics — ☝️🤓"

end of post! if you want to read cassandra nicol's paper check it out here! (if you don't have access to it through a library or institution, message me for a pdf!)

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Trial and Error: First (ish) Impressions

- not one song under 3 minutes we're bringing the pop back into k-pop god BLESS

2) We Don't Stop: This song is hip hop and rock in one and I think really solidifies xikers' niche in 5th generation as experimenting with different hip hop and rock genres in one. The post-chorus is actually genius bc of how they pace the song, like it gives us time to breathe before throwing all this craziness at us

3) Red Sun: The way I will be working out to this song... we always expect anthemic songs from Kq groups and this is it. I feel like I'm about to take down my enemies in a cyberpunk dystopia.

4) Supercalifragilstic: CLUB BANGERRRRR CLUB BANGERRRR ain't none of them can be at the club but they KNOW. I am a TSRONG believer that every bg should have at least one club banger and this one is xikers'. Im not too well versed in genres but this is definitely a subgenre of house/edm 😁

5) Every Flavor Jelly: they put yechan in front of a mic and said "go crazy" and bro took it personally. ALSO BRIDGE 😭😭🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾 IS SO HEAVENLY

6) Break a Leg: God, teen rock BOP. I don't even know the lyrics but I feel so goddamn emo I have tears in my eyes on the train. They will always know how to close a fucking album. Jesus fuck. Okay. Im actually gonna cry.

I am just overly impressed by how ROCK SOLID this release is! Everything is so tight and seamless and there are no/negligible weak points. Xikers has not even had their first year anniversary yet they have such a strong understanding of their selves, individually and as a group. Even when they go into different genres its successful because they don't lose their selves. At all. There is such a strong sense of identity and authenticity in all these songs and it builds up to a journey that I was all to happy to go on. Hats off xikers, as of rn, Trial and Error is my AOTY.

[the-indigo-symphony]

I saw a great post about consent and amatonormativity earlier that made me think of how teaching consent and platonormativity are also at odds, but to avoid derailing that post, I'm making my own here

All statements about consent are muddled by platonormativity, because platonormativity depends heavily on a lack of consent. Friendships are established without consent or communication, only assumptions and personal decisions. Going without friendship, even temporarily, is seen as a horrible thing and symptom of great mental distress/a horrific mental state, and so people are pressured into them at all times from a very young age, if only to appear normal. The very idea of rejecting friendship baffles the minds of most – and when they get over that bafflement, they sling accusations and insults at the one who rejected it. There is no consent within platonormativity.

When people are raised in a culture that teaches them there is no need for consent in their relationships, they internalize that. Discussions of consent in relationships must acknowledge that most relationships are built on a lack of explicit consent.

Like what the original post that inspired this said, you cannot preach that consent is vital and "you can always say no" and then continue to live your social life in a way that completely disregards it as a necessity, always insisting that those without friends are "missing out" at best and "horrible, heartless people who are probably secretly serial killers" at worst.

[opaqueelysium]

Hello, my name is X. I made this sideblog to post a lot about machinery, horror, and religious stuff. My tagging system is very uncreative but I try to tag every post appropriately.

[kadonneet]

[rpsense]

guys should i make my one white muse an eminem fc

[nevadas-night-time-novelist]

okay but why's doc under Krinkles' name and not Madness Project Nexus like all the other plushies are