Don't say a word, just come over and lie here with me. 'Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see. I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe. There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me.
So young and full of running, all the way to the edge of desire
Steady my breathing, silently screaming,
"I have to have you now"
18+; Cut for length and content.
Celeste sat in Julian's nearly finished office at the makeshift desk, a board bridging two sawhorses, making a list for their contractor.
She was in a bit of a time crunch. They were leaving tomorrow. Of course, her bags had been packed for days. It was more the prospect of actually going that made her feel harried.
She had been milling around the shop for days, making sure that everything was ready for Asra. And, when she wasn't fussing there, she was worried about the clinic's progress. But it was all nerves.
The past few years had been a test, to put it mildly.
Now that all the fires were put out, she didn't quite know what to do with herself.
Going away with Julian seemed like as good a plan as any. To get out of her head. To get some perspective. There were no more Devils left to fight. No more ghosts were lurking in the dark night. She was as free as she would ever be again.
She had only left Vesuvia a few times. To Nopal, with Asra. To the south, with Muriel. One, painfully short. The other, agonizingly long. The prospect of leaving a was daunting. But the way Julian framed it, even knowing that he had a particular way with words, seemed appealing.
Her note finished, she looked around the room. Light streamed through the window. Fine dust covered every surface. But, even in an unfinished state, there was so much potential here. A place of healing. Where she could get back to who she was meant to be.
Julian stepped into the door frame, leaning against it, grinning broadly. He had been positively giddy for days. She knew that if he could have left days ago, he would have done.
"Are you almost ready, Lovely? Goodbye dinner with Nadia in about an hour. You're going to want to change..."
Celeste gave him a quizzical look, eyebrow raised. "Goodbye...oh. Oh!" she exclaimed, remembering. "Oh, Julian. I'm sorry. I completely forgot. I have some loose ends I need to tie up before tomorrow morning. Give them my regards."
The wind appeared to go out of his sails a bit, tilting his head. "Are you sure, Lovely? Nadia will be disappointed. Portia, too."
She sighed, nodding, sorry to have let him down. "I...Yes, I'm sorry. I promised Asra and Muriel..."
"We can be late if you like. Nadia may even appreciate a spot of fashionable tardiness." Julian pressed. "I can come with you, and then we can go together."
"No, this is something I need to do alone. You go. I will see Nadia when we set off tomorrow." She stood, dusting herself off. She crossed the room to him. Julian straightened. Celeste slipped her arms around his waist, inclining her head to him. He straightened and gathered her in, long arms draped over her shoulders. "Nervous, Doc?"
He shook his head. "I have been waiting years for this, Lovely. I'm beyond ready."
Celeste smiled up at him. "Me too," she replied. "Ready for our next adventure." And she hoped she sounded sincere. Though, in his reverie, she doubted he would catch her apprehension.
She went up on her tiptoes, and Julian bent to kiss her. It was soft and sweet. She could feel his mouth fixed in a perpetual smile—the happiest she had seen him in their entire relationship. For all her apprehension, this was worth it. Seeing him so delighted.
When their lips parted, his forehead rested against hers, his grey eye heavy-lidded. "Thank you for coming with me. There's no one else I'd rather go with."
Celeste felt her cheeks go rosy. She could never resist this look. It melted her. "I love you, Julian," she whispered.
"I love you, Celeste.." he murmured in reply, voice going husky.
She sighed, sobering at his tone. "Let's wait for your desk to get here before we christen the office? I don't much relish the idea of splinters in my backside before we get on the boat."
Julian laughed, still heady. "Whatever you say, love. I have other ideas for your backside, anyway."
----
Celeste stood in front of the mirror, desperately trying to get her hair to behave. Any other day, she would have been happy to throw it up in a bun and go. But, tonight was different. She wanted to look memorable.
Just now, she knew she'd make an impression. Though, it would likely be more of a nightmare than a daydream. She had fussed the waves into frizz.
She tapped her nails impatiently on the counter, tongue pressed into her cheek. She closed her eyes for a moment and drew a deep breath.
Every moment that ticked by added to her nerves. Her trepidation. She had fought to keep herself placid. Convince her self that she was ready. Keep a brave face.
She did want to try. To see something new. Be something...else. See what she could be outside of this city.
She had fought against herself for weeks. Her anxiety was getting the better of her on more occasions than she cared to count. Despite Asra's encouragement. Despite Julian's joy. She couldn't shake the dread.
She opened her eyes and stared at her reflection. "Nine years, Celeste. You can do a few months away. You can. No Lucio. No Morga. No demons. No devils. You can do this." she scolded herself. "Pull it together." she spat, steeling herself.
She was shaken from her pep-talk by a heavy knock coming from downstairs.
"The hell?" she said, confused and irritated. The shop had closed early. The sign was clearly posted. Asra had gone to the hut, and Celeste had planned on meeting him and Muriel there. To say their private goodbyes.
She shook her head and moved her hands back to her hair, deciding to ignore the knock. But, another hard rap came. She called out a warning, hoping that her voice would carry.
She had quiet for a moment, but then another loud bang came. She groaned and tied her dressing gown, harried. She turned and moved quickly from the bathroom, down the stairs, swearing viciously.
She rounded the front counter, yelling. "Hey, motherfucker! We're closed! Read the goddamn sign!"
But, the knocking persisted. So, in her thin white slip of a dressing gown, she cast down the protective wards and flicked the bolt open, throwing the door open in one fell swoop, still swearing. "Listen, you feeble-minded son of a...Oh."
Muriel stood in the doorframe, looking amused. "Yeah, you're closed. Loud and clear."
Celeste blinked up at him. He was...dressed. Muriel was dressed. And well-dressed, to boot. It was no masquerade outfit (a look she had taken no real pleasure in if she was honest. Much too frilly and fussy. Not at all her Muriel.), but it was clean, and it fit him well. A buttoned-down white shirt. Black pants. Boots. Hair braided back. He was impossibly handsome. But that was just Muriel. Impossible.
Celeste was shocked. And Muriel's blush was growing with each moment she spent staring at him.
"I...Asra, he...helped." he stammered, unable to meet her gaze any longer.
Celeste nodded, still stunned. "...he did a hell of a job."
"Can I..." he jerked his chin, begging for entry.
"Oh, yes! I'm sorry!" Celeste stepped aside, shaking her head to break the spell. "I just...I'm astonished. This is a surprise."
Muriel ducked his head in the entryway as he stepped in. It was then that Celeste noticed the bouquet in the crook of his arm. Wildflowers. She pressed a hand to her chest, her mouth falling open anew. "Muriel...did you bring me flowers?"
He grunted his confirmation, extending the bouquet to her. They were wrapped in odd, blue paper. She took the bundle from him, bringing a finger to stroke the delicate petals of a coneflower.
"Thank you, sweetheart. They're gorgeous."
"They're flowers. You're gorgeous." Muriel replied. Though, her hair did appear as if she'd had a struggle with a raccoon. A smile pulled at the corner of his mouth. She barefoot, wearing just a white silk dressing gown. Hastily tied and barely covering anything of substance.
Celeste blushed at the compliment, her eyes falling back on Muriel. "Flatterer."
She stepped to him, and he stooped, bowing to kiss her. His fingers under her chin, drawing her up. For a moment, all her dread fell away. Rough fingers, the scent of myrrh, slightly chapped lips. Home. Muriel felt like home. Peace and safety and love.
When they broke away, her eyes fluttered open. He was smiling down at her. A full, genuine smile. It was disarming. More superb than any flower this world could conceive.
She drew a breath, trying to sober herself. "So, are you here to escort me to the forest? Is Asra joining us here?"
He shook his head. "No, I thought I would...try something else. Just us."
"Oh? What...did you have in mind?" she said, eyebrow raised.
"...Just go get dressed," he said, not wanting to reveal too much.
Was Muriel acting playful? Coy? Was Muriel...flirting? She lifted her hand to his forehead, pressing her palm against the skin. He pulled back a bit, confused.
"Just checking for a fever." she teased. "You don't feel sick. But you are behaving...oddly."
Muriel snorted. "Go, get dressed, please."
Celeste raised her hand, relenting. "Okay, I'm going. Let me put these in water..."
He reached out and took the flowers back, almost looking panicked. "I'll take care of that. Please, go get dressed."
'Ah, yes. There he is.' Celeste thought, laughing to herself, shaking her head.
---
Celeste had wrestled her hair into compliance and dressed. A simple black dress buttoned up the front with wide lapels and a flared skirt. She was shuffling through her jewelry box while Muriel watched, reclined on the bed.
She found a pair of simple seed pearl earrings and held them in her palm, appraising them. Good enough. She slipped them into place, then went back to the jewelry box, trying to find the matching necklace.
She heard Muriel shift behind her as she shuffled through the box.
"Try this."
Celeste gave a "Hm?" as she turned to face him.
A small, wooden box in his hand.
She immediately felt her knees go weak, and she stumbled back, bracing herself on the dresser, her eyes wide. Heart thudding in her ears. "Muriel?!"
Muriel, for his part, looked genuinely bewildered. "Wha--are you okay?"
"Is that...are you...are you pro--" she stammered, eyes locked on the box in his hand, torn between panic and elation.
"Pr--Oh. Oh!" he barked, his panicked expression matching hers when he realized what she thought was happening. "No! I'm not...I mean..." He opened the box, presenting it to her.
It was an herb locket. It was meant for holding charms. Golden. Swirling metal tendrils in an orb shape, held with a tiny clasp. She could see the tiny chips of myrrh held inside. It was elegant. So much more sophisticated than the bundles she carried, even now that the curse was broken. Celeste straightened, catching her breath, reaching her hand out to touch it.
"Oh, darling," she whispered. "It's lovely. Thank you."
"You're not disappointed that it's not a ring?" he asked, watching her expression.
"That feels like a trick question, and I decline to answer." She said, meeting his eyes. "I love this. It's perfect."
Muriel nodded. He couldn't disagree with her assessment. It was, in fact, a loaded question. And, he was lying to himself if he said he hadn't considered it.
"Will you put it on for me?" she asked, turning around, lifting her hair from the nape of her neck.
He lifted the necklace from the box, reaching past her to lay the container on the dresser. He brought the delicate chain around her throat. He fumbled with the tiny clasp. Big fingers not quite adept with such diminutive closures. But, he fastened it.
Celeste ran her fingers over the charm and turned to look up at him.
Her eyes were soft. They were reflecting devotion and love.
"It suits you," Muriel stated plainly, bringing his hand up to cup her cheek, running his thumb along the soft flesh.
"All these gifts. I feel...utterly bereft. I feel like I should give something to you."
He shook his head. "Stay with me. That's all the gift I need."
Celeste was satisfied with her self that she didn't flinch at his answer. Though, it stung badly.
"I'm always with you, Muriel. Always." She responded voice sweet, and placid.
Muriel knew her well enough to know when she wasn't engaging. That was alright. He had all night to drive the point home.
"Are you ready?" He asked, breaking the tension.
Celeste nodded. "Lead the way."
----
Celeste knew precisely where they were. She had made this journey many times. Never with Muriel. It made no sense to her.
Her arm was linked with Muriel's. She could feel the tension radiating off of him. He was better in public, but he wasn't exactly great. Curse or no curse, he would, by and large, prefer to go unseen. He was staring straight ahead and ignoring the onlookers' stares.
"Em...Sweetheart? Angel? Light of my life?" Celeste said, growing more concerned as they forged forward. "Why exactly are we going to the South End?"
"Going on a date." He replied. Succinct.
"In the South End?"
He nodded, eyes still fixed on the road ahead.
"Muriel, darling? Are we going to The Raven?" she ventured.
He grunted his confirmation, and Celeste's eyes went wide, turning her attention back to the road ahead, blinking slowly.
Celeste wasn't sure what to say. She wanted to ask him if he had lost his goddamn mind. But, when it came to Muriel and trying new things, she was always cautious about redirecting him. It was important to her that he did try something.
But this seemed like a lot. Especially when she had fully anticipated spending the night in bed.
She had spent her fair share of evenings in the Rowdy Fucking Raven. Things were rarely, if ever, calm. Hence the name. She could pray for a quiet evening. But, she could easily see this becoming a nightmare for Muriel.
When they finally came to the tavern, Muriel paused outside the door—steeling himself.
"Muriel," Celeste said, bringing her free hand up to his bicep, giving a gentle squeeze. "Vesuvia is a big city. There are a lot of places that aren't The Rowdy Raven. We can even just...walk around. Go back to the shop. Go to the hut..."
"No. I can do this. You come here, don't you?" he asked, but his tone was a bit shaky.
"Yes, and I've ended up having to patch up more idiots after barfights than I care to recall. It's what pays for most of my drinks. I'm practically on the payroll." She replied.
"If you can do this, so can I," he said, seemingly finding his resolve and moving to the door.
Celeste shook her head and followed behind, bracing herself for impact.
It was, thankfully, still relatively calm. There was a band playing. Not a particularly good one, but serviceable. Quite a few patrons, but nobody actively bleeding that she could see. Blessing enough.
Barth looked up from drawing a drink, and his eyes fell on Muriel. The liquid flowing into the tankard continued to rise, spilling over the rim of the container. Utterly shocked at the man who had entered. Several other heads turned as well, eyes going wide. One of the musician's timing went wildly off as he was distracted by the newcomer.
Celeste waved and called out the barkeeps' name, trying to break his reverie. "Barth! Any way we can get a corner booth?"
The man blinked and shook his head, swearing at the spilled ale and righting the tap. "Oh! Cela, love! You've got the run of the place! Your usual?"
She nodded. "Dark and stormy. And Mead for him?"
"You got it, Angelface."
She pulled Muriel along after her to the back corner. She found the booth occupied by a regular. Quite drunk. Quite asleep. "Randall?" she said, sweet, tapping the man on the leg. "Gotta get up for me, darling. Barth has something for you up at the bar."
The man stirred. He was groaning loudly in protest.
"Randy," she said, a bit more authoritative. "Move your ass."
The man made another heinous groan but lurched up. He was blearily shifting out of the booth, muttering something under his breath. Celeste shook her head.
"Tell Barth to get you a black coffee. On me." She said, patting the man on the back as he stumbled away, waving her off.
Muriel watched her, shocked to see how easily she navigated the chaos.
She slid into one side of the booth, and Muriel took the opposite side, looking her over.
"Oh, you thought I was joking about being on the payroll, didn't you?" she said, lifting an eyebrow, teasing.
He nodded, not quite sure what to make of it. He had seen the woman drink. After one glass, her cheeks and nose went red. Usually, after her second glass of wine, she required someone to hold her hand so she could walk. Not precisely standard barroom fare.
Barth personally delivered their drinks, smiling broadly. "So, Angelface. Tomorrow is the big day, isn't it? Come for some liquid courage?"
"It is. You coming down to the docks to see your best customer off?" She smiled back.
"You or Doc? He's the best, but you're my favorite." The man winked. "Will he be joining us this evening?"
Celeste pulled a face. "Doubtful, unless he comes down for last call. But, I have a feeling he's getting the top-shelf stuff tonight—dinner with the Countess."
Barth nodded, looking impressed. "Well, I don't know if I can get away. But I'm glad to see you tonight. And, the Big One, too." He said, turning to Muriel, who had been watching the exchange, rapt. Barth extended his hand. "Good to meet you..."
Muriel lifted his hand to shake Barth's but did not respond. Barth's eyes fell back on Celeste.
"This is my Muriel," she answered for him.
"It's good to put a name to the legend, Muriel. Welcome to the Raven." Barth finished, clapping his other hand over the top of their joined hands, giving an affectionate pat. "Well, I'll let you get back to it. Whistle if you need me." He finished, releasing Muriel. He moved to the other side of the booth and leaned in, kissing Celeste's cheek. "Take care of yourself, Love. Gonna miss you something fierce."
Celeste turned to kiss Barth's other cheek, reaching down to squeeze his hand. "Keep the place standing. I'll be back soon."
When Barth had departed, Celeste extended her hand across the table to Muriel. He took her hand, stroking his thumb across her knuckles.
"So, do you want to tell me why we're here?" She asked, searching his face.
"Because I want to go on a date with the woman I love."
Celeste made a noise of understanding. "So how long did you and Asra sit around prepare this for me?"
Muriel's brow furrowed. He knew it wasn't precisely opaque, but he had hoped she'd be somewhat more receptive to the attempts.
"Don't blame Asra. I...wanted you to see me..." he trailed off, trying to find the words. "See me try. Do the things that you do with--"
"Julian." she finished for him, eyebrow raised.
He nodded. She sighed.
As the pieces started clicking into place, she picked up her drink and took a long sip, eyes closed.
The past few weeks had been a strain, to put it mildly. Muriel had taken the initial announcement badly. He had been tolerant of her relationship with Julian. But leaving Vesuvia, together, for months was more than Muriel was prepared to deal with. So, he hadn't. He had all but refused to speak about it.
Muriel made more trips to the city to see her. When she stayed at the hut, he kept her as long as he possibly could—holding her tighter—fucking her longer and harder. Silent but desperate pleas.
He had lost her twice. Death. And that should have been the end of it. But, she had come back to him. Only to be ripped away by his curse all over again. He finally had her. He wanted to respect that she was learning to navigate the world with the new knowledge of her own past. But, he also wanted her. And he had her. And he did not want to let her go.
Asra was part of the deal. That was how it was meant to be. Julian was not. And now he was stealing her away.
"Muriel, I am coming home. This isn't forever."
It was his turn to drink. He didn't drop her gaze as he imbibed.
When he was sated, he sat the tankard down and took a sharp breath.
"That's something else I wanted to discuss with you...Home. Whose home are you coming back to?"
Celeste narrowed her eyes, trying to parse what he was asking.
"I'm coming home to Vesuvia," she unsure of how to answer.
"Are you coming home to the shop? Home to Julian's apartment? Or home...to me?"
"I always come home to you, Muriel. I also live at the shop, and I stay with Julian," she said, shaking her head. "What are you asking?"
"I want to give you a home. Our home. I want you home with me. I am asking you to stay with me."
Celeste had emotional whiplash already. First, from what she thought was a proposal. And now, this, which also felt like a proposition.
"So, you're asking me to move into the hut permanently?"
"Not exactly."
Celeste pressed her tongue into her cheek, baffled, her irritation growing.
"Why today, Muriel?"
"Last-ditch effort," he responded, more quickly than either of them anticipated.
Celeste released his hand and crossed her arms across her chest.
"Elaborate, please," she said tersely.
"I don't feel like I need to. I want you to stay with me. I want to have a home with you. It seems simple."
"When I'm with you, I'm home."
Muriel drew a deep breath. "I want more than that. I want you to choose to stay with me. I want to build a life with you. I want to give you a home. I love you. I want you to stay."
Celeste softened, deflating a bit from her incredulity. "I want to stay. I do. But... I need to do this. It's a few days in the grand scheme of things. I will come home to you."
Muriel closed his eyes, considering his words. "What...do you need to do that I can't be with you for? Why do you have to leave me?"
"Would you come with me if I asked you to?" Celeste retorted before taking another drink.
Muriel blinked at her, reeling a bit. That was a response he hadn't considered. Going with her? With Julian?
When he didn't respond, she made a vague gesture of dismissal. "I guess we're at an impasse, then."
They sat quietly for a long moment, drinking. Muriel extended his hand again, searching for hers. Celeste relented, giving his fingers a squeeze.
"I don't want to argue with you. Not today." He said, low, his eyes downcast.
The music shifted. A slow song. There was a shuffle of chairs and barstools as the dance floor occupants adjusted. Some joining with their partners, others falling away to make room.
Celeste sighed and moved to stand, hand still connected to Muriel's. He eyed her warily.
"It's not the Masquerade. Everyone is drunk. Come on." she said, coaxing him out.
Muriel narrowed his eyes but followed. When he stood, Celeste took both his hands, pulling him backward toward the dance floor.
She pulled his hands to her waist and moved her arms around his torso, finding her favorite spot. Head on his chest. She heard a familiar wolf-whistle from the bar and gave a laugh. Barth, cheering them on.
Celeste took the "lead." Whatever that looked like. They simply stood in the circle of each other's embrace, swaying to the music. No attempts at dipping one another. No spins or twirls. No fancy footwork. Just nearness.
Muriel's hands were firm at her waist, looking down at her as they rocked. The way her eyes fluttered shut, and she breathed him in. As if there were no one else in the world watching. He could feel the eyes, but just now, he could push their stares away. The lantern light playing in her hair. Her skin glowing. Cheek just the slightest bit flushed from drink.
His Celeste. The great love of his life. In front of all these people, completely at ease in his hands. Never afraid of him.
When the music subsided, there was a smattering of laughter. For the musicians, Muriel thought and turned to the stage. When he found all the eyes on them, he blushed wildly. Celeste laughed, shaking her head.
"Why are they...?" he asked, bewildered.
"It's not every day they get a folk hero in their bar."
"Hero?" His tone was incredulous.
"The imprisoned Gladiator that defeated the devil himself? It's a favorite story around here." She said, giving his hand a squeeze.
"You know it wasn't quite that simple," he said, looking down at her.
"Smile and wave, Darling. Your public adores you." she teased.
"Give us a kiss, Love!" Barth called out from behind the bar, and there was a swell of other voices, cheering them on. Some glasses and tankers banging on various table tops. A low chant of "Kiss, Kiss, Kiss."
Muriel blinked, caught off guard. Celeste smiled up at him. "Should we--"
She was suddenly off her feet, swept up in his arms and dipped low for a kiss. Celeste scrambled blindly, hands trying to find purchase on him. His lips were heavy and hot against hers. His hand at the back of her head, his other arm around her back, holding her aloft and horizontal to the ground.
After a long moment, he released her. She was breathless, heart pounding. The din of the crowd was deafening. He carefully lowered her back to the ground. His face looked positively mischevious.
"I'd like to take you back to the shop now." Muriel said, husky.
Celeste nodded rapidly.
He had her by the hand and moved swiftly for the door, Celeste had the presence of mind to look back at Barth, who waved her on. "On me!"
---
They practically fell into the shop once Celeste managed to wrestle the door open. Muriel kicked it shut with a bang. Muriel hoisted her up onto the countertop and was immediately on his knees in front of her.
He was thwarted by her crinoline and groaned, frustrated. Celeste was fumbling with buttons, not quite able to manage them. "Fuck the dress," she said breathlessly. And Muriel nodded, his hands coming to her lapels and yanking roughly. The fabric rended like paper under his hands, leaving her exposed. She shed the sleeves, and he tugged the crinoline away, tossing it aside in a heap.
His mouth was on her in an instant, and her legs were over his shoulders. Muriel could feel her boot heels pressing into his shoulders, drawing him into her. He brought his hands up to her waist, holding her in place, so she didn't slip off the counter.
His tongue parted the outer lips of her sex, and darted out to find her clit. She was already soaking wet, her fluids drenching his mouth. Celeste hissed above him, her hands in his hair, the braids falling loose from the various stops they had made en route to the shop, unable to suppress their need.
His lips closed around the bud, and he sucked gently. She was calling out his name above him, held securely in place, but still tensing and writhing, back arching. He ventured a hand upwards, finding her breast and cupping it, thumb finding her nipple, brushing his calloused thumb across.
He could feel his cock straining against the trousers, painfully. He fucking hated these clothes. All these buttons and fastenings. He pulled away from Celeste's cunt, and she whined. "Just-- just a second," he said, releasing her breast and reaching down to find the buttons at the fly. He managed to undo the top fastenings and slide them down far enough to allow his member to spring free. He gave a satisfied sigh when he could take himself in hand, stroking.
He returned to his ministrations, tongue seeking out her canal. Dripping with desire. He lapped away the slick with long strokes, thrusting in and out of the hole, drinking her in. She was so warm and wet, and the smell saturated his senses, overwhelming him.
"Muriel..." Celeste hissed, trying to draw him up. He pulled back and stared up at her, mouth slightly agape, eyes heavy-lidded. She didn't need to ask. He knew.
He pushed himself up off the floor. Celeste's legs were still on his shoulders, but she shifted herself so she could lay back on the counter, head falling over the edge.
The counter put her at the perfect height for him. He moved his hand along the planes of her stomach, feeling the way she fluttered under his touch with anticipation. He slid his fingers through her curls, noticing, for the first time, that she had groomed her pubic hair. The smattering of dark curls on her stomach shaved away and the shape altered. Refined.
He clenched his jaw, staring down at the smooth skin, running his fingertips over the bare spaces.
He felt something inside him snap, and he grabbed his cock in hand, finding her entrance and thrusting roughly. Celeste made to cry out from shock, but her breath was caught in a cough. The violent contraction of her body sending her cunt into a spasm around him.
Muriel rocked into her with long, slow strokes to accommodate for his initial roughness. But, his hand stayed firm on her stomach, not allowing her to rise, keeping her down. He could feel himself moving within her.
Celeste was pressed against him, barely able to move, legs straight up. Muriel was deep inside her from the first stroke. She was still trying to catch her breath, but the shock was giving way to pleasure. The exquisite stretch of being filled by his cock. She felt each inch as he withdrew. The ridges and veins, the swell of the head. Moving fluidly inside her, coated in her slick.
Muriel's movements became more frenzied, with each keen and gasp that came from Celeste's lips. The wet sounds that came from between her legs. The thud of his hips against the backs of her thighs.
She came for him, wetness surging from her, her walls clenching as he continued fucking her, hitting her deepest and most sensitive places.
When he was close, he withdrew from her and took his cock in hand, stroking himself to completion. Hot, thick spurts of come on her belly, on her mons. He groaned with each spasm, head falling back.
When he was spent, he took a deep breath, bracing himself on the countertop. He looked down at Celeste, covered in his seed. He released his cock and reached up to take her by the wrist, bringing her hand to the sticky mess, drawing her fingers through the substance, making her spread it across the bare places that she had shaved.
Celeste was still in a haze from her orgasm. But she realized, even in her daze, his point. She should have known he wouldn't have been pleased. She sighed to herself, allowing him to move her hands.
When he was satisfied, he pulled her up, sliding his hand under her back and drawing her up. He brought her fingers to his lips, drawing them into his mouth, sucking away the remaining come. One finger at a time. Celeste watched the display. Soft lips wrapping around the digits. Tasting himself on her skin.
When her fingers were cleaned, he drew her hand up to his neck and leaned in to kiss her. It was positively chaste compared to his previous actions. Soft and tender. When they parted, he pressed his forehead against hers, staring intensely into her eyes.
Celeste stroked her fingers across the nape of his neck, a ghost of a smile on her lips.
"Mine." Muriel whispered. Not a question. An assertion.
"Yours. Always yours." Celeste replied.
Momentarily satisfied, Muriel pulled back, hitching his pants again, situating his softened member. When he was settled, he moved to sweep Celeste into his arms. Bridal style. Celeste laughed and wrapped her arms around his neck.
"Bath," he said shortly, moving towards the back of the shop to the staircase.
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Celeste had always been a big fan of the bath in the shop. It was ridiculously large. Now that she knew Muriel, she assumed it was an accommodation Asra had made just in case. It wasn't nearly the size of the baths in the palace, of course. But she didn't need a swimming pool. She liked being pressed up against Muriel, between his thighs.
He was stroking a soapy cloth over her body. Lazy, languid circles. She was melted against him, eyes closed.
"Cela?"
"Hm?"
Muriel sat the cloth aside and brought his hand to the necklace, rolling the orb between his fingers thoughtfully.
"If it had been a ring..."
"...I would have said yes."
Muriel sighed.
"Then, I'm asking."
Celeste tensed, and her eyes shot open.
"Why?" she asked, dubious.
"Because I love you. Because I want you..."
Celeste stared up at the ceiling, measuring her response carefully. "Okay. I will marry you...but I'm leaving tomorrow. We can plan the wedding when I get back."
Muriel swore. "God damn it, Celeste."
Celeste made a noise of confirmation and planted her hands on the sides of the tub, pushing herself out of the water, stepping out. He caught her wrist, but she wrenched out of his slippery grip.
"I'm not doing this, Muriel," she said, beyond exasperated. She was offended. She grabbed a bath towel and wrapped herself in it. "I'm having a hard enough time, I do not need this from you. I am going, and you'll either be here waiting, or you won't."
Muriel was up and after her, watching as she swept out of the bathroom while he fumbled with a towel. "Celeste, we love each other. Why do you insist on leaving me over and over again? I'm so...tired of being left."
"You don't think I know that? Don't you know how selfish I feel? But I have to do this for myself. I am going. I have to go--"
"You don't." Muriel bit out. "Once you wept to leave me. You fought against death to get back to me. And I have been patient. I have given up everything for us. And I have been tolerant. But, there was always supposed to be an end to this...you were my promise, Celeste. We're supposed to be together."
"I didn't make any fucking deals, Muriel. I had nothing to do with any of this," she shouted back. "What you and Asra did I am grateful for, but I am not indebted to either of you. I made no deals. I stood by your side. I fought alongside you. I went through hell. You made deals. Not me. And if I want to get on a fucking boat and go be something else for a couple months, I'm going to do it."
Muriel stood to his full height, eyes hard, jaw set. Then, in an instant, he was going down the stairs, sending Celeste reeling.
"Where are you going?" She called after him, following after.
When she caught up to him, he had the bouquet in his hand, unwrapping the flowers from the blue paper. Celeste watched him, eyebrow raised. He thrust the paper at her.
"What is..."
"Fucking look at it." he spat.
Celeste laid the paper out on the countertop, squinting at it.
They were plans. Blueprints.
She clutched the towel to her chest with one hand and stroked the lines on the page with the fingertips of the other. It was a house. A cabin.
She looked up at Muriel, who was scowling.
"I want you to stay. I want to make a home with you. I love you." He growled.
"Oh...Muriel." Celeste said, righting herself. "This is for us? This is our home?"
"Stay," he stated, his tone still biting.
"You're building this for us?" Celeste asked, her lip trembling.
"Stay," he repeated, his harshness fading. "I need you to stay."
"We can still have this. I am coming home." Celeste felt the first tear fall. "I want this, I want the same thing you do..."
Muriel drew a shuddering breath. "Why do I keep losing you? What am I doing wrong? Why do you keep leaving me?"
"I don't know how else to explain the distinction between going on a trip from which I will return and leaving you," she said, trying to keep her composure. "I love you. I don't ever want to leave you."
"But you don't love me enough to stay." he retorted. "Not enough to realize that I want you. I will give everything in the world away for you. I want to give you my whole heart for my whole life."
"You have had a decade to love me. I didn't know...I need to leave for a little bit and see the world with clear eyes. I just...please. Understand."
"I'm trying. I am. But I'm tired. I'm ready for you. I'm ready now." Muriel pleaded. "Please don't leave, Celeste."
"Come with me," she said, crossing the room to him, looking up into his eyes. "You're free, too. Nothing is holding you here. Come with me. See the world with me."
"I will go anywhere with you. With you. I will not go with Julian."
"I made a commitment."
"You made a promise. To me. Long before Julian."
"I will keep my promise. I will."
"When? After he takes you halfway around the world where I can't get to you? Gets you pregnant? He decides that he doesn't want to come home? That he wants you to stay with him?"
"Why don't you trust me? I am coming back."
"I trust you. I don't trust Julian. And I do not trust him with you in the slightest. He will try to keep you. And I won't be able to get you back."
Celeste shook her head. "I don't know how to make this better for you. I love Julian. I love Asra. But...you have to know that I choose you. I choose us," she paused, wiping tears away. "But, I deserve your respect. I deserve to take my time."
Muriel nodded, defeated. "Then, I guess you're going. There's nothing left to say." He stepped past her, back to the staircase.
Celeste was frozen in place, watching him go.
After a long while He descended the stairs, dressed. He stopped in front of her, silent tears falling.
He placed his hands on her shoulders, fixing his eyes on hers. "Stay with me, Celeste. Stay."
She was shivering, trembling. "I can't." she forced out. Her tone all regret.
Muriel nodded, his heart broken. "Fine." He spoke, his tone cold.
And then, he was gone, across the shop and out the door in an instant.
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Celeste stood, side by side with Julian at the docks. The ship behind them.
Portia and Nadia to one side, hands clasped. Portia nearly in tears as Nadia repeated all the ways in which she would be missed.
Asra stood in front of Celeste. He had been apprised of the rudiments from the previous evening's activities. First by Muriel, then by Celeste. His eyes were sad. Because she was leaving, of course. But, because he had hoped that it would work.
Asra would never be the one to hold Celeste. He felt it would be hypocritical to do so, after all she had put up with. And now, all she was contending with regarding her new-found knowledge. He knew the peace that came with being away from the strains and stresses of daily life. To retreat. To be free.
But it still hurt to see her go.
"You're going to come home to me, right?" Asra said, trying to force a lilt into his voice.
Celeste nodded. "Always, Asra. My Heart." She placed her hand on her chest. "I'm always just a heartbeat away."
Asra leaned in to kiss her, and she wrapped her arms around his neck, fighting back the urge to break down in tears all over again.
This was supposed to be a happy day. A fresh start.
Asra's grip was tight, holding her to him, his kiss feverish. His mind calling out to make her stay. Find a way. Do whatever it takes.
But, he had already done that. He had found a way to keep her.
Celeste was his.
But, most wonderfully, she belonged entirely to herself. Free to choose. To live her life. And how lucky they all were to have her. That she chose all of them. Loved all of them.
His heart had been a gift. It wasn’t a life sentence.
When their kiss ended, their foreheads were pressed together. Hearts beating in sync.
"I love you, Asra," she whispered.
"I love you, Celeste. Oh, how I love you." Asra replied, his voice wavering.
From above them, there was a sharp whistle. Mazelinka, looking equally amused and irritated. "Alright, Lovebirds! We're pushing off!"
Celeste's eyes went wide with panic, pulling back from Asra, looking over his shoulder. Asra caught her gaze and turned to follow it.
There was nothing. A line of well-wishers, offering similar sentiments to their loved ones before they boarded.
No Muriel.
She sighed. Asra felt his heart skip a beat. He turned back to her, giving a sympathetic look. "He...hates the docks." He offered.
Celeste gave a rueful laugh. "Well...he hates...something, that's for sure."
"Sweetheart...no. He...doesn't hate you. He could never hate you."
Julian's hand fell on her shoulder, giving an affectionate squeeze. "If you want, I can tell Maz to hold off a little longer."
Celeste drew a sharp breath and shook her head. "No...It's time." She said relenting. Turning to smile up at Julian. "We're free, Julian. As free as we'll ever be again."
He grinned broadly. "Oh, you lovely, lovely woman."
Asra caught her free hand and gave it a squeeze, tears threatening to fall. "Be safe. If you need me..."
Celeste laughed and nodded. "I'll be surrounded by water. I know where to find you."
She leaned in to give him one last kiss. Delicate and short.
Asra released her hand and looked up to Julian. "Take care of my Heart, Ilya," he said, his tone a warning.
"You have my word, Asra," Julian said, sincere.
Maz whistled again, less amused this time, staring down at Julian with a hard look. He smiled back, unphased, but when he turned to look at Celeste, she could see the slight dread on his features.
"Time to go?" she asked sarcastically.
Julian nodded. "Before she finds things to throw."
---
Celeste stood with Julian at the side of the boat. His arm was around her waist. Julian eagerly waving at the remaining wellwishers.
Asra and Nadia stood side by side after vowing to watch them over the Horizon line.
When the boat finally began moving away from the dock, she rested her hand over her heart, and Asra mirrored her.
Then, Asra felt his heart drop and saw Celeste's face shift.
Muriel stood at the top of the docks, watching as the boat was unmoored and began to move away.
Julian, to his credit, did rush to the captain to try to convince him to stop and was met with a firm, hearty "Fuck you. No."
Asra rushed up the docks to Muriel, who met him halfway.
"You didn't stop her?" Muriel asked, eyes wide.
"How the hell was I supposed to know that you were coming?" Asra retorted, looking back at the boat that was well away from the dock now. He whirled back to Muriel. "What is...do you have a bag?" Asra's mouth fell open, looking at the satchel that Muriel was carrying. "Oh, fuck."
"Can I get to her?" he asked, trying to figure out what to do.
"I...don't...Nadia?" Asra said, looking for a solution.
Nadia shook her head. "I'm afraid not. They generally won't turn back." She said, her tone compassionate. "We might be able to send another boat after them? Meet them at their next port?"
Muriel sighed, shaking his head. "I thought I had time."
"Muriel, we can figure this out," Asra said, reaching out to rest his hand on Muriel's arm. "We can get you to her."
"No." he said, setting his jaw, eyes going dark.
"Muriel.." Asra began, but Muriel turned and walked away, eyes cast down.
Asra looked back at the boat, then to Muriel. He swore, and chase after him, calling his name.
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Celeste stood, shocked. Cold all over. Portia stood at her side, a hand on her back, trying to settle her down.
"Can...can I get off?" Celeste asked, her voice shaky.
"No, I'm sorry, sweetie! But, I'm sure Nadia will figure something out." Portia offered sweetly.
"I can swim. Can I jump?"
Julian came back from the captain and his eye went wide. "No, you may absolutely not jump."
"Julian...he came. He won't understand. I have to go back." She broke away from Portia, rounding on Julian.
"I know, I know." He said, catching her by her upper arms. "Nadia will figure something out. We've got Malak. We can send word back. It will be fine."
"He won't understand..."
Julian's sympathetic expression shifted, eye narrowing. "He's a grown man, Celeste. He made a choice. You asked him to come, and he waited until the last possible moment to make a decision. He'll be here when we get back, or he'll figure it out."
Celeste sobered a bit. She couldn't argue with that. She sighed, looking back over her shoulder. The docks further away with each second.
And Muriel, followed by Asra, retreating.
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