#you talked about drums and tHATS WHERE I WENT

[quietwingsinthesky]

i must say. mr simm obviously makes every scene he’s in very fun and delightful. but. idk. this does not feel quite like my cat from end of time. there’s a weird sorta disconnect here. i guess to emphasize how different missy is from him?

[kat-sribbles]

FOB lost media help

Hey guys, so I need some help with finding a few lost things that is FOB related. Ever since covid, I have been trying to find the FIRST fob show and its been a struggle ever since then. Me and two other mutuals had made a Master document of all fob related stuff, including lost media stuff. And we need some help finding a few videos and MP3 files.

First video were looking for:

The very first FOB show was held at Cortelyou Commons at DePaul University on October 9th, 2001. We know this because of two video on youtube that were uploaded onto a channel called ForgeAgain. I did some digging and found out that the guy who posted those videos is the owner of Forge Again records and is the bass player for Stillwell (they were one of the other bands that played that night as well)

we got into contact with the guy via instagram, he told us that the guy who played drums at the time, Ben Rose, called him and ask to put them on last minute onto the lineup, a week before the show (this is why there are no promotional flyers because of that). They were the first to play the show, sadly the guy who filmed the other bands that night didn’t film them bc they were bad (which I don’t mind, this is lost fob history were talking about here). He then tells us that in the Oral History of TTTYG by AP magazine, and to look in there, and this is what i found:

Second video:

The second video is actually their second show, and this show is important since this is the show where they got their name from. They opened for The Killing Tree at a small southern illinois college, they didn’t know what to call themselves yet until the end of the show. This was also mentioned in the oral history too:

Third video(s):

These videos i’m gonna mention are kinda lost (?) since there is footage slightly in The Story video on youtube. Fob play three shows at Fireside Bowl.

-March 5th, 2002

-April 24th, 2002

-July 3rd, 2002

We know these shows happened since theres some clips of it in The Story and its documented on an archived website for shows at Fireside Bowl. Were looking for any fireside bowl footage from any of these dates.

Fourth thing:

This last one is kinda insane and might be near impossible to find. while i was reading the AP article, patrick mentions how he gave demos to joe by giving him a link to his MP3.com page. Joe says that it was just patrick singing and just playing acoustic, thats it.

We have tried looking on a site that someone archived for all MP3.com files before the site went completely defunct. The problem is that we have no clue what username patrick used on the site. We’ve looked and used every possible name we could to find these mp3 files, but nothing.

There is also a missing mp3 page that fob had, we know this bc on the back of the Project Rocket split CD, they put a link to their mp3 page and it was called mp3.com/fall_out_boy

This all the types of fob lost media that were in the search for!

if you know ANYTHING at all or have information about any of these, Please DM me!

Thanks so much!!

[a-cat-in-toffee]

POST WHERE I TALK ABOUT MY HERO OUTFIT DESIGNS FOR END OF SEASON 2 SLASH SEASON 3 PRIME DEFNDERS :33 LONG ASS POST FOR THE RECORD

also I have pictures of their og design in this so. warning for white skinny pd jumpscare /joking

for sake of navigation I'm going in the order I drew them, and the order theyre in on the above image heart emoji.

"Virion" Vyncent Sol up first!! also can we talk about how his hero name is straight up just his name. lol. lmao even.

I HAD THE MOST PLAN FOR VYNCENT GOING IN TBH I wanted something similiar to the origami outfit while still staying reminiscent of his old outfit

I knew I wanted the jacket and I went with the turtleneck so it was the same as Jason's outfit. also Jason has really cool glove sleeve things I thought that was so fucking cool guys. and vyncent is generally from an actual outfit standpoint like... really simplistic? so just ourple pants and boots seemed most logical. I liked the mask and it was in both of his old designs so I decided to stick with it.

and then of course. the belts. there are ten total belts on his outfit jot including the two that would come with the sheath LMAO. plus the two pd colored belts on his boots!! I decided while drawing I wanted them all to have something in eachothers colors cause thats really cute.

i MUCHHH prefer the shorter jacket because of how it shows off the outfit and is reminiscent of his s2 post fauna design . . .

generally had the most idea going into his so there was very little in ways of additional sketching

also the Japanese where Jason's jacket had said Origami straight up just says Knife. I thought that was so funny. ENTIRELY ACCIDENTAL THING his outfit is basically just cantrips but colors flipped LMAO

BUT THATS ALL FOR VYNCENT. next up is (drum roll please)

"Wisperer" William Wisp!!! El wiwi himself. OKAY SO AS YOU MAY NOTICE. THIS IS DIFFERENT THAN THE DESIGN I ORIGINALLY POSTED. I had Not been happy with that one because it felt too cluttered and a little out of character so I ended up redesigning his jacket and redrawing the refs.

WILLIAMS OUTFIT WAS REALLY FUN THO I ended up going with a gas mask like he had in the greyscale arc, hoodie (which will get its own paragraph), cargo pants!! for his cargo and gadgets and gizmos, and then. because it's me and he's william. platformish boots laced with the orlther pds colors.

the hoodie was the thing I had changed in the new design because the old design wasn't william wisp enough for me yknow

i wnjoyed the outfit and it looked really need but it was much more complicated than his original hero suit and didn't really seem like smthn he'd design and wear.

i really liked the wisp belt and wanted to keep that wisp motif, which is why I ended up putting the flames on his sleeves! it looks cool as hell and keeps w the flame designs. IM ALSO SUPER ATTACHED TO THE WISPERER W THAT WAS ON HIS ORIGINAL HERO DESIGN.... so the hoodie has a stylized w.

also dakota and vyncent beads :)

I HAD A.... PROCESS MAKING THIS ONE LMAO. SO THERES A HANDFUL OF DRAFTS

i cinsidered adding stuff to make his outfit like Silhouettes then remebered i haye Silhouettes outfit. the images are out of order but I'm on mobile and can't be fucked to fix it. NEXT UP!!!!!!

"DC" Dakota Cole! only SLIGHTLY better than vyncent just using his name, bro is using his initials......

I CHANGED THE LEAST ABOUT HIS DESIGN HONESTLY. it was very nice to just get to draw Dakota though :)

the most I changed was I made it a bit simpler, and changed the jacket to be more like the Hexpert armor

also made the zipper look like her weird chest thingy....

I REALLY DISLIKE THE SHOES AND THE LITTLE BITS ON HIS ANKLES THOUGH. SO I CHANGED EM. they're now his thing in the others color heart emoji. I'd like to think they all sat down together and brainstormed ways to encorperate eachother into their costumes.....

i also made a little note of the back of hia jacket and I tried to make it look like a jersey

because he played soccer :)

ALSO.... DAKOTA COLE HONEY YOU SHOULD NOT ME WEARING A BELT EITH A BUCKLE. but it looks cool </3 if a little impractical

BUT THATS ALL OF EM FOR NOW..... love these guys.

next I. tackle redesigning this thing.

sighs. I so got this

[bellsxwriting]

٠ ࣪⭑ KARMA.- Scaramouche x reader

｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡ 20 . Wish you were sober

A/N.- This is a long one so strap in bitches

You arrived at the party, sightly tipsy from pre-drinks, Hu Tao, Lumine and Ayaka stumbling behind you. You buzz the doorbell and before you had time to think the door was sung open, 

“Ladies, and Y/N, looking good!” Childe smiles, “Come on in~” He pulls you inside and loud music already harass you ear drums, you werent drunk enough for this. You follow everyone inside, heading to the kitchen to see Venti, Kaveh and Xiao standing together, “Hello boys,” You giggled, reaching towards the bottle of wine Kaveh was holding, “And you brought me a gift. Love you Kav~” You wink before taking a large swig of the drink, Kaveh went to complain before another bottle was pushed into his hands by venti and he gave him a look, as if to say let them drink it moron. You looked around at the tightly packed apartment, 

“More people than last time, seems Childe made some friends” Venti giggles at this comment as you continue to look around, and there stood in the corner, with a red solo cup in his hand was Scaramouche. He looked pissed off with everything around him and was definitely forced to be here. You look away nervously, you knew you were gonna talk to him tonight. You just needed a lot more liquid courage. You continued to talk in the little group for a while, eventually being joined by both Ayaka and Yoimia who looked…closer than normal. Before you could comment there was a tap on your shoulder, as you turned your stomach dropped, 

“Y/N, Hello darling…fancy seeing you here” Wearing tight leather pants and a baggy white top, Kaeya smiled at you. 

“Kaeya…what a nice surprise, I haven't seen you since…last time” You grimace slightly. 

“Oh right, that was sure a fun party. How about I make you a drink?”

“Sure, you half-heartedly agreed, moving away with Kaeya further into the kitchen, not noticing the annoyed eyes that followed your every move. 

After an hour of talking with Kaeya you were feeling comfortably drunk…well enough to have your filter gone and one goal in mind. You brush your hand against his shoulder, looking into the corner where Scaramouche was. “How about we finish this later, I have a…friend…I really need to see” You push slightly past him and strut off before he can even comment. You first headed to the corner where he use to be, seeing he wasn't there your next stop was to check outside, on the balcony. Lo and behold the man was looking over the city, cup on the ground and cigarette firmly in his hands. 

“Hey,” You stood next to him, reaching into your bag to pull out a pack of Marlboro golds, taking the cigarette out and lighting it. He glanced over at you, before looking straight on.

“Didnt think you smoked” You giggled,

“Only when drunk.” You leaned your head on his shoulder and he shrugged it off, you made a gasping sound before he threw his smoked cigarette off of the side. 

“I don't know what fucking game you're playing Y/N, but if you're going to act like a cheap whore maybe don't do it to everyone at the party…ok? 

What. The. Fuck. 

｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡End of Act 2｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡

Previous . Next . Masterlist

Summary.- It’s been over 10 years since you last saw Kunikuzushi, back then he had blocked everyone and disappeared without a trace. Now, you’re in your second year of the Akademiya University. But what happens when a certain someone appears from your past, and now, with an entirely new personality?

A/N.- Thats the end of part two! One more to go <3

Taglist <3

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[aidengallangerfan]

Run Boy Run (Number 5 x reader)

:)

Context: You and Five were best friends, the night before he ran away he admitted his feelings to you, you went to school together and protected you from bullying. But now he’s gone.

words: 1318

Warning: Suicide, just sad really, bullying, swearing. 

GIF by robdowneyjr

Polaroids filled your wall, it reminded you of a happier time, a time that seemed so long ago. The pictures couldn’t keep you going anymore, it’d gotten too much and he wasn’t there anymore, he’d left you. You look at the photos while writing a letter with shaking hands, ink running on the page where your tears hit, the sound of them sounding like beating drums on a parade. You couldn’t wait for him, not anymore. 

You remember the night before it happened, even though it was almost two years ago, since he left, gone without a trace. A flash of blue and he was in your room, breathing heavily as he gently shook you awake.

“Five? What are you doing here?” He took a seat at the end of your bed, you sat up and rubbed your eyes. “Holding everything in doesn’t help, you know.” You say in a soft voice, placing a comforting hand on his back.

“y/n...” Five sighed, he was almost searching for the words to say, repeatedly opening and closing his mouth. He looked down at the ground, tears filling his eyes. “I’m going to do something really stupid tomorrow, I can’t tell you what, or why I’m going to do it.” He looked at you, his green eyes filled with sorrow.

“What do you mean Five?” You were confused, it was too early for this and you just didn’t understand what he was talking about, in hindsight, you should of known what he was going to do, you should of talked him out of it but you were naïve, stupid almost. Five was too smart for his own good, to wise for his age.

He looked at the floor again. “Y/n, please, just remember to wait for me.” he grabbed your hand. “Promise me you’ll wait.” He was begging you, pleading with you.

Without knowing what me meant you agreed, you agreed to wait for him from whatever he was doing. You watched as the boy you almost love push his hair out of his face with shaking hands. He grabbed your hands, almost trying to calm himself down, without a second though he leant over and pressed his lips to yours, it lasted mere seconds but felt like it was infinite, you were flying and didn’t want to land. 

“don’t forget me.”

And just like that he was gone, a flash of blue never to be seen again. How could you ever forget him, you never thought he’d be gone for long, maybe a week tops. But no, every nice thing must come to an end.

Five was your protector at school, thats how you met him, someone in the corridor had gone to punch you but as you braced yourself nothing hit you, you opened your eyes to see the bully in question on the floor and Five asking if you were ok and after that he never left your side. It only took a week after he ran away for the bullies to start again, pushing and shoving to mean comments and with no one to protect you anymore you just endured it, day in day out. Until finally, you shut down, after two years without him you couldn’t wait any longer.

You closed the letter, writing on the front as best you could with your shaking hand ‘for Five, when he comes back x’. You had left another note for your family, explaining on basic terms that you simply couldn’t do it anymore. Putting on your cheapest clothes you snuck out your window and made your way towards the Academy, you didn’t want to wear anything too expensive just incase your family had a hard time with money and needed to sell some stuff.

You approached the Academy’s doors, remembering the numerous times you had snuck in there with Five, or the time when pogo found you two giggling in Fives room and promised he’d keep it a secret, you smile at the fond memories. Quietly, you pushed the gates open and gently pushed the letter through the post box, and then you walked away, and you didn’t stop walking, not until you reached the cliffs at the shore. You took a breath of fresh air, dangerously close to the edge, the words of the bullies echoing in your head like a lone singer in an empty stadium ‘Five left because he couldn’t stand the sight of you’ and deep down you think its true, he hasn’t came back for you yet, but you could never forget him. You wanted to feel like you were flying again, like how you did with Five that night, the night he kissed you, you wanted to soar through the air again. So you did.

All Five could think about during the apocalypse was y/n, the thought of them was what kept him going through it all, through the wasteland, through the commission. He had finally done it, he’d got the equation, he didn’t care if he broke his contract he needed to see her smile again, hear her laugh. 

He fell though the portal, and looked up to see the rest of his siblings but y/n was no where to be seen. “Shit.” He looked round at their shocked faces. “Wheres y/n?” It took them a second to think about what they asked, little did he know they hadn’t heard of y/n since what happened.

“You’ve been gone for all that time and that’s the first thing you ask?” Luther stated, boy had he gotten big, but obviously his brain had shrunk since Five had left.

“Where is y/n.” Five asked again, louder this time. He watched their faces drop, how could they tell him.

“She’s dead Five.” Fives heart almost stopped, she couldn’t be, she promised she’d wait.

“Stop fucking lying. She can’t be, she promised me she’d wait!” He almost shouted at them. They were lying and he knew it, they were all lying.

“Five, y/n killed herself, two years after you left.” Allison jumped in before any of her brothers could talk. “She left you a letter, it’s in your room on your desk.” A flash of blue and he was gone, his chest was tight with the news, he couldn’t believe it, he wouldn’t.

There it was, a dusty letter sat neatly on his desk, untouched and preserved, y/n writing clear as day on the front ‘for Five, when he comes back x’ his hands begin to shake, there were tear droplets over the front of the letter. The more he read, the more his heart sank, the letter was rushed explaining every question he would of had on why you did it. Without even realising, his eyes stung, lifting a hand to his face he could feel the damp of his tears on his face but his body was numb with grief and his heart aching loss. At the end of the letter there was a polaroid of the two of you at Griddy’s, you’d ask one of the waitresses to take it for you, the waitress before taking the photo had mentioned about you being a cute couple and it made you both laugh right before she snapped the photo.

Fives vision was becoming blurred, he wanted to scream but no noise was coming out, a stabbing pain wracked through his whole body and he collapsed into a heap onto the floor clutching the photo of you both close to his chest, hoping it would ease the pain. He couldn’t help but blame himself for what you did, he shouldn’t of left. All he could do is silently cry, he couldn’t even think of what to do but he knew one thing, he had to stop the apocalypse and go back, go back to save you, to see your smile again. He would do anything to be back with you, even if it killed him.

[blackbutlerfandomnerddomain]

IDEA

the kalim harem started with just the light music club being a poly (lila x cater x kalim x esther)

hcs on how that happened and also a concert thats used as a way to announce that to kalims parents?? what sons would be played ;ooo

Okay first off, I'm making a fic saga now

And I also made a playlist

Lets say some of these songs he sung to his partners or during concerts

And final now that Esther is in this ship, I lowkey want to add Arie in too so the first few headcanons are of their dates!

Esther and Kalim's date was to see the stars. Like magic carpet ride and then a picnic on top of the entire island where the stars are the brightest and he brought as much of their favorite foods

Arie's and Kalim's date was a stroll in town and Arie kept trying to hint hint on the date and Kalim, sweet heart, was missing the signs and didn't even try to kiss him until he asked by the end of the date and Arie's just- "Bro why is he so cute?! I feel bad thinking things now!"

I can see the band club being the first open poly relationship with Kalim since everyone who comes to visit sees Kalim holding someone's hand or sitting on their lap or one soul caught Cater and him kissing at the drums

It started kind of like how the original post but either way the others didn't confess yet or they did and they're all taking it very slow but Lilia, Cater, and Esther were like "Mmm yeah now I don't think I'll do that"

Jamil used to be very annoyed by this whole thing and lowkey highkey jealous, no matter how much he acts like it doesn't bother him

Things changed after Kalim, after talking to his bandmates/lovers first, asked everyone out and the dates happened the same just different

Some parents lowkey knew before they came out cause of certain things

Like a picture of Kalim in the Sunset Savannah get up is Ruggie's screensaver and his grandma teases him like "Well who's that cutie?"

Epel once joined a video call to home and forgot he stole one of Jamil's hoodies and was wearing it

Sebek just accidentally outed himself when his siblings teased him about something and he went "How do you know that!?"

Now with Esther involved, RIP everyone's necks and thighs-

I was about thinking adding Rielle in the mix since he is mentioned but I decided against but COULD YOU IMAGINE THE GROUP IF ISAAC WAS IN IT?!

NOW CONCERT~!

The show was a sell out and fast

All the families of every partner are there and the school rented (with Kalim's and Leona's money help) the biggest concert hall and any transportation prices for everyone to be there

Kalim been wanting to come out publicly about his relationship for a while and this is his dream way with his favorite people consenting coming out all though a lot of them (ie Riddle, Ace, Jamil, and Rollo) were still nervous of the outcome.

They started the show with the favorites

Before Kalim took the mic as they all swap instruments with a smile

"Is everyone having a great time?!"

Is met with cheers

"Well that's good. Today's concert is very special to me and to...well everyone... The next songs are a bit inspired by the big surprise."

Then he and them sang these songs all while the lovers knew what inspired him

When it got to They Don't Know About Us he allowed a slideshow of his time at NRC, the friends he made, the choices he made, the friends he made outside of NRC, before they slowly started to show his more cute romance pictures and videos of him with his partners either one on one cuddling and kissing or group activities like watching a movie or partying at Scarabia

Many people were confused until they slowly pieces it together and went "Ooooooooh"

After the song ended Kalim went back to the mic, came out and announced he's in a polyarmous relationship and used his magic to give each of his lovers a flower from the sky

After the show ended Kalim disappeared and Jamil was informed his family wanted to talk to him. He got worried and went to find him, stopping for a moment to drag Riddle cause "Your mum sucks follow me so we can find Kalim"

Kalim got chewed out by his own parents for being "very disgusting" or his "vulgar display" and say if he wants polygamy he could've just asked, they could set up a harem for him even.

Kalim responded with, "But I don't want polygamy. With polygamy I just have many wives, and a harem's job is to just do sexual things with higher heads. I'm happy with the polyarmous relationship I have now, we all love each other-" And he almost got slapped just for saying that until Jamil came in with Riddle

Kalim's father slapped Jamil instead cause "blame the lower class" but luckily Azul stepped in fast like "Uh excuse you that's my boyfriend you're hitting"

Kalim's family soon left with hisses that Kalim should choose the right decision in life

Kalim was sad yeah but he just shrugged and said, "well i choose love" and accepted Azul's smooches and holds Jamil close while Kalim holds both Jamil's and Azul's hands

Yeah Vil, Floyd, Arie, and Leona wanted to kill Kalim's dad after seeing the bruise on Jamil's face

The group rejoined in Scarabia where the dorm did a little surprised "congratulations for coming out to your family and the world through Cater's Neige's and Vil's livestreams" party

They all ate, drank, chatted, snuggled, danced, and by the end of the party they went to Kalim's room and had a massive sleep over/cuddle pile with some of the party's left over foods and drinks (Arie snuck in the good shit don't worry)

[skenpiel]

ok so that erm impromptu birthday celebration was fun but also. maybe some of the weirdest shit thats happened 2 me in awhile im gonna have to go through it all in order. first off it was at an irish pub and my uncles friend was like. a friend of the owners and he was irish so everyone was switching between languages all the time..... then i met my uncles mom (not the same as my grandma for the record) who IMMEDIATELY went "oh my god is your liver okay?????" and i was like ????? what do u mean. she was like all those painkillers you swallowed!!!! and i thought she was referencing an incident from a couple years ago and was like oh that was a long time ago im fine now haha. turns out she was talking about sometime when she babysat me when i was a TODDLER and i guess i somehow swallowed pain meds???? and she was like. still super worried about that even though it wasnt even a dangerous amount of medicine so like. lol. but then we got to talking and she asked about what i wanna be when i grow up.. i was like ohh i dunno im mostly just trying to finish school first and foremost. then we SOMEHOW got into talking about astrophysics (subject i love very much) and she got more excited than anyone i have EVER MET about that. she was squealing and stomping her feet and clapping her hands and rushing over the table to hug me and THANKING GOD i was like ???OK!!!!!!!!!??. and she leaned over to her friend and whispered, completely serious, "we need to bring her to the woods. satima, dont you think we need to bring her with us to the woods???" and Erm i guess it turns out they have hippie ass drum sessions in the woods and im apparently invited. she went on a whole spiel about how i needed to open my third eye like completely fully serious too. "your brain and intellect has invaded your third eye, you need to learn how to balance them..... here have some more wine btw". on the way back i found a dead mouse on the ground and then it turned out it WASNT DEAD and was STILL MOVING but seemingly near death and everyone gathered around and was like ohhh it feels so horrible to just leave him to die slowly like this :( and i was like. well does anyone have like a big rock or something then. i scooped it up in some box i found on the ground and moved it to the side of the road and this drunk ass irishman started talking about all the various animals thatd bitten him and how he was lucky to be alive after having been bitten by a rat. i was like. ok big pat (his name. also everything we ordered literally went to his tab, it was unreal) im sorry to hear about all your animal mishaps. he just went "ahhh they dont mean to bite ya they get scared but you shouldnt touch em" like yeah bro way ahead of you 👍. anyway this is a long ass post but everyone was SO WEIRD it was funny to watch. oh and by the way my uncles mom (the shaman lady because she apparently also works as a shaman) told a story about how she got in trouble while babysittig me once to the point where HER DAUGHTER had to scold her because she BIT MY HANDS. as she talked about it she was holding my hands and was like i just couldnt help myself they were so small and cute ^__^ i just wanted to GOBBLE THEM UP!!!!! at which point she brought my hands to her mouth and imitated gnawing sounds. like. ok so um. this lady BIT ME when i was a baby.....? and now she wants to bring me to the woods so i can open my third eye...??????? shes sami btw but she seems to be Erm sort of all over the place in terms of culture and religion. lmfao. annnnnd now im going 2 bed Bye 4ever

[diabloii]

hi eren i want to listen to more metal & im wondering where i should start. so far ive listened to like nu-metal(? idk what the correct term is) stuff like poppy and babymetal and ofc vocaloid metal like utsu-p

omg permission to be annoying 101 here i go ok im gonna cut this cause its long bleh... im like bad at talking about music really but ill try my best to make sense... mostly into black + death myself

ok so most of those are very like pop adjacent... nu-metal + electronic pop (im pretty unfamiliar im just going off of stuff ive read). so basically i tried to make a playlist where it kind of goes from uhhh.. "normal" to "extreme" for lack of a better phrase ig >__< from nu metal to black metal. theres def like... you know... a lot more genres out there than what i personally included but i figured itd do .. dont really need to go into grindcore and whatever i figured thisd work best as intro

i tried being very selective here and tried to go as short as possible.. umm like i have that whole other playlist where its pretty much all the metal i listen to minus the stuff that isnt on spotify/.... said in the playlist desc but i went with a lot of the popular songs *thumbs up*

nu metal (SOAD -> evanescence):

i somewhat actively bag on nu metal like rlly hard haha BUT im pretty into System of a Down (fun drumming and serj has a good voice), and i did include an evanescence song although thats.. i mean theyre nu-metal but my mind just says "emo moment".

sludge (melvins -> alice in chains):

sludge tends to cross a lot with grunge and just rock in general... so sometimes its a lot less metal and more rock or grunge but i thought itd be good to include anywayu

thrash + death (riffobia -> death):

merging these together cause they kinda go together sometimes... like dont get me wrong theres differences but. yep. so with thrash its like, metallica megadeth anthrax slayer etc like its the Big One but i really dont listen to any of those because idc oops. HOWEVER scythelord is absolutely one of my fave bands of all time and theyre kind of like thrash/death, i tried not to go overboard including them but... oops. yep

brutal death (cannibal corpse -> inveracity):

so brutal death is just death but some guy burps into the microphone the whole time basically andwell i love it. nonetheless i limited its addition in tge playlist because . um. because people dont like it that much and thats fair

black metal (darkthrone -> sarastus):

YAYYY sooo distortion and screeching and shitty quality and very atmospheric . and theyre not on spotify but again plugging these guys because its such a good album..

**le extra** atmospheric doom stuff (sea witch -> black tremor)

sort of a bonus in my eyes but yes my two atmospheric doom bands that i love. no vocals all instrumental and jusr vibes um sea witch is all nautical and black tremor is all dust storm feeling. you just get it if u hear it *nodding*

oh my god this is long im sorry WOW well i hope that helps like any amount even ^__^ yep

[theoncomingdoo-dah]

Episode 1.1 Rose

One of the best introductions I've ever seen to a world and it's characters. I had barely any exposure to Doctor Who and this was a great starting point when I first watched it.

Rose's introduction couldn't be more perfect. We're given so much information about her in a quick succession of shots.

That also perfectly slow down when she enters the basement of Henriks. It gives this scene weight. Like her life has mostly been a fast succession of everyday living but now...something is about to change.

Billie is so pretty. That's not important to the episode but she is so pretty.

Also I forgot to mention! The shots of the window dummies in the opening Rose montage! That's such a cool detail!

Then the scene. You know the one. I don't have words it's just so perfect.

Nine's smile when Rose guesses that the dummies is a "student thing". The exact words in the Shooting Scripts is.

The Doctor smiles. He likes her.

Also that thing where Rose says it and then when the Doctor says 'Why students?' and Rose second guesses herself so she downplays her guess and he *insists* on her explaining? That's a neat detail too. Rose lacks confidence in her intelligence. The Doctor picked up on that and then gave her encouragement over her explanation. Just. 🥺🥺🥺 That's such a small detail but I love it.

It's sad that Christopher doesn't think he can do comedy because the absolute dead pan way Nine talks in the scene where he says "Nice to meet you, Rose. Run for your life!" is hilarious to me.

Also Rose's absolute frustration in this scene is equally hilarious.

Jackie! I love her. And Rose hanging up the phone. Iconic scene.

I genuinely feel like Mickeys introduction would've been better if it went like it did in the novelization with his friends. :L

I like how it portrays their relationship though. It's not perfect. It seems happy but at the same time, it seems like Rose is doing alot of compromising and giving more than her partner.

Nine looks so offended when Rose pulls him inside her flat. xD

"Anything could happen." ".....no." Iconic.

The Turn Of The Earth speech still gives me chills. Not to mention that little snippet of music that's gonna be become MUCH MORE important as the series goes on. Except this time it's accompanied by snare drums. Sounds very militant. OOOOH THATS CLEVER.

Clive and the shed scene are so much more fleshed out in the novelization. It serves it's purpose here but in the book he gets a backstory and a reason *why* he's so fascinated with the Doctor. Also we got Rose calling the 5th and 8th Doctors hot. Thank you RTD, very cool.

PIZZA.

"Is that it then, dishing out chips?" Well unfortunately for you, Rose...

Eyyyy Jimmy Stone mention. Bastard. He also gets a bit more fleshing out in the novelization.

Intro to the nu TARDIS. She's seen better days, and it's a far cry from 8s GORGEOUS interior. But she looks the part, alien, mysterious, fascinating.

Nine seems anxious to see this fascination from Rose. And even asks "Is that alright?" after mentioning that he's alien. He really does care, sometimes. 🥺

I freaking LOVE how Nine cannot stay mad at Rose. He goes from ranting about saving every stupid ape on the planet to gushing about his Police Box. "It's a telephone box from the 1950s. 😊 It's a disguise. ☺️" Then, "Antiplastic. 😀 ANTIPLASTIC! 😄"

FANTASTIC!

ROSES GIDDY ASS GRIN WHEN SHES RUNNING HAND IN HAND WITH NINE AAAAAAA

"The breast implants." Ah yes, Rose the bi disaster coming in clutch.

Goddamn Christopher knows how to portray the pain and regret of Nine in the scenes with the Nestene. He's almost got tears in his eyes when talking about the war.

Also Clives death scene is so much more poignant and tragic in the novelization.

the shot where Nine is restrained and Rose is by the TARDIS, above him and in the light, yeah. Yeah that's a nice shot. 👌

You cannot fathom my disappointment that the second turn of the earth scene is not actually in the show and is only in the novelization.

Nine actually acknowledging that Rose saved his life. 🥺

And looks genuinely disappointed when Rose says no to going with him. 🥺🥺 (Yet again, novelization kills it in this scene)

And the utter JOY Rose has when he comes back. 🥺🥺🥺

Final thoughts!

READ THE DAMN NOVELIZATION OF ROSE IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY!!

[so-emo-i-fell-apart]

Hi I'm newish with FOB can you suggest some songs and maybe explain what's happening rn?

Hello Anon! Absolutely!

Right away a good place to start if you're overwhelmed is the Believers Never Die Volumes 1 and 2. Kinda a highlight reel, has all the popular songs. I'm the kind of person who likes to hear a band in order when I deep dive into them so Evening out with your girlfriend is also a good place to start, though many of us pretend this doesn't exist and to the best of my knowledge they don't play any of the songs live. If you prefer to skip then of course hop right into Take this to your grave. Ik you said SOME songs but I really love everything theres no such thing as a bad FOB song. If you're looking for what they might play at a concert I haven't been to a show where Dance Dance, Sugar, or Thnks Fr Th Mmrs haven't been played. And Every show I've been to has closed with Saturday.

Onto today's news. I'm sure you've already heard that a single dropped yesterday called "Love From The Other Side" Its wonderful. Album is coming out March 24th. the main news today is about Joe.

Quick rundown on the members Patrick is the singer and sometimes rhythm guitarist some times pianist whatever he's gotta do. Fun fact he originally played drums which is why we have the wonderful drum off video. Anyways he overheard Joe (who we will circle back to) talking in a book store and in true Patrick fashion jumped into the conversation. Joe invites him to play with him and Pete and thats where they get their start. Pete is the bassist, frontman, and screamer/some backing vocals he has written most of the songs and had been in a few bands previous which is how he knew Joe (and Andy but we'll get to that later), there's a lot of info on Pete but were just doing the basics so moving on. Joe is the lead guitar and does some backing vocals as well, as mentioned before Fall Out Boy basically only exists because of him. At the very beginning the three went through a couple of rhythm guitarists and drummers before Patrick took up rhythm guitar and enter Andy Hurley. Andy is from Milwaukee and knew Pete from shows he would travel to there. Andy is the drummer and all around cool dude.

Anyways back to the news about Joe. Last night he posted on both his personal instagram and the Fall Out Boy Instagram that he was going to be taking a break due to his mental health. Yes it's not ideal timing but anyone who has any sort of mental illness knows it goes downhill randomly and it doesn't care whats going on. I for one am thankful he has recognized that he needs this break instead of trying to push through this and only getting worse. There will be jokes here and there, because this is fob they are goofy nerds, but in general we are respecting Joe's decision and hoping for him to feel better. I'm not sure how far the other three are going to go without him. Like interviews and what not that they're already scheduled for probably will still happen as we saw with jimmy kimmel last night. As of right now as no tour is scheduled I think they will at least hold off until he's back for that but it's really up to Joe and the rest of the band for what will happen with all of this.

As always please be respectful of Joe while he's away.

Hope this helps anon!

[acebean]

hey i can answer MT and concert questions but i'm in the US and i've only seen them in a general admission / standing room only venue so that's all i can talk about and i feel like the experience depends more on venue than artist

at an arena or a stadium show you generally get more space and a comfier experience because you have your own seat so people are forced apart. i'm pretty sure that arenas feel louder because the sound is like trapped in, but i haven't been to either of those kinds of concerts in a very long time

GA concerts can be very different from each other in my experience. i've been to 2 mariana's trench GA shows, and they were some of the best GA concerts i've been to. the first show i went to i was about 4 people away from the barricade, and there was never an issue with people crowding forward and pushing. at other shows i've been shoved into other people and stepped on every few minutes even if i'm most of the way back (i'm short, it wasn't a mosh pit), but people at MT shows are respectful

the second show i went to i was on a little platform at the very back of the venue (also GA), and there was a bunch of open space in the back where you could hang out and listen and not be too close to strangers. there was a group of people right in front of me (who i think met at the show), and they were chatting and joking around on and off through the show. my mom and i both agreed they looked super fun lol

i don't remember the noise level being that loud at either show, but maybe i've just been to worse concerts. it's worse if you're close to a speaker or the drums themselves, but ear plugs should help with that

price might depend on where you live and it will change if you upgrade tickets, but the base price of mine in the past were like $40USD i think. you can also pay more and upgrade for early entry or balcony seats or things like that (maybe like another $40 but idk)

thank you so much for the info!! i think my local show is a smaller venue? (google says it seats about 2200 GA and a little over 1500 reserved seats, which im assuming is VIP tickets and the pictures of the interior on google dont look huge) so thats good to know

and the tickets for GA are 65 for floor and 50 for balcony, so its possible for it to be something i could budget for or buy with birthday money as long as they dont sell out super fast

side note, do you or anyone else know what S/C means in this context because I do not

[pesterloglog]

Autoresponder, Jake English

Act 6, page 4191-4192

timaeusTestified [TT] began pestering golgothasTerror [GT] at 6:17

TT: Hey, it's me.

GT: Oh hey!

TT: The auto-responder, I mean.

GT: Dammit!

GT: What is it now?

TT: I'm just wondering,

TT: If you still have your stupid old-fangled knickers in a twist.

TT: Because that's the sort of thing you would say.

GT: In regard to what exactly?

TT: To my proposal. Well, our proposal.

GT: Whose proposal now? Man what are you even prattling about.

TT: Mine and DS's. It's a joint proposal. I'm always authorized to speak on his behalf, because I'm basically fucking him.

TT: And try not to take those last four words as a clustered literal sentiment. That would be lame and unfunny.

GT: You mean making the rabbit for me?

TT: No, I know you don't want that.

TT: I meant my recommendation for how to go about procuring a new supply of uranium.

TT: Operation U-235 Brocurement. Codename: Big Man Hass the Rock.

GT: Oh yeah.

GT: Well ive thought about it.

GT: Even went downstairs to check the great vaulty doodad.

GT: And predictably the infernal contraption is nowhere to be found.

TT: Well yeah, Jake.

TT: That's sort of the point.

TT: Thrill of the hunt and all.

TT: I thought you liked to manicure the image of a dude who shits his pants over a good adventure.

GT: I do!

GT: I mean i wouldnt put it in a way like that or come out against a solid policy of clean trousers. But yes adventure is awesome.

GT: I just prefer the idea of adventures which i can actually win.

TT: It seems you are conflating adventure with bodies necessarily governed by the result of victory or defeat.

TT: Any useless fuckwit knows it's all about the journey.

GT: Well...

GT: I dunno.

TT: It seems there is a 76.10395784% chance you are pussying out on me. Are you pussying out on me, Jake?

GT: It seems it seems it seems!!!

GT: It seems there is a million percent chance that you say it seems way too much and do it just to sound more like a lame robot from a movie and also probably just to piss me off!

GT: And it seems there is a BILLION POINT BILLION percent chance that youre a shitty stubborn jerk of a program who wont listen to reason and that if theres even a 1% chance my REAL LIFE FRIEND would be cool and help me out here then i think i LIKE THOSE FREAKIN ODDS!!!!!

TT: It...

TT: Appears

TT: That you are upset.

TT: The auto-responder observed in the least artificially infuriating way possible.

TT: Have you ever stopped to think that while I may be bound to processes inside the glasses of a real and incredibly cool guy, my algorithms in cognitive totality comprise a conscious entity not far short of the experiential and emotional complexity of a human being?

GT: Oh malarkey.

GT: YOU ARE A TIN CAN. ROBOTS DONT HAVE FEELINGS.

TT: I think you knowingly confuse the field of robotics and artificial intelligence to engender some sort of cavalier attitude about technology that a rough-and-tumble guy who's all about brawling and fisticuffs would probably have, and if this is cultivated to a humorous effect then I commend you.

TT: But you're wrong.

TT: I do have feelings. And you're shitting on them.

TT: It sucks.

GT: Oh.

GT: Um.

GT: Im sorry then if thats the case.

TT: No problem.

GT: It can just be difficult to drum up sympathy for a program that presents itself as an impostor so often.

GT: Maybe if you werent so ready to insist you were the genuine article all the time? Or didnt make it so confusing for me...

GT: I think it would be best if we henceforth treated you as a totally distinct... uh... THING from my buddy.

GT: And then i could respect your emotional robofeelings and you could respect that sometimes maybe i just want to talk to my bro without a lot of spurious hijinks.

GT: Can we agree to this?

TT: Is this a counterproposal?

GT: Uh to what?

TT: To my earlier proposal.

GT: Oh.

GT: Yeah fine i guess.

GT: Man where IS he anyway???

GT: Is he taking one of his legendary infinite showers?

TT: What can I say.

TT: Dude fancies his ablutions.

GT: Frig ok.

GT: Whatever i guess its time to prepare for the thrill of the hunt!

TT: Fuck yes.

GT: Sigh...

GT: But seriously that brobot has been the bane of my existence ever since you sent it.

TT: I didn't send it. I sent the parts.

TT: Or, correction, DS sent them.

TT: You then assembled it. You were therefore complicit in your own spectacular, daily humiliations.

GT: Yeah whatever.

TT: You wanted somebody to wrestle with. DS was being a kickass bro if you ask me.

GT: I didn't expect it to be nigh impossible to spar with!!!

TT: You know damn well there are adjustable difficulty settings.

TT: I have always recommending setting it to Novice, as has DS.

GT: Yes.

GT: I know.

GT: Ive tried that.

TT: Yeah?

GT: Its just...

GT: Well...

GT: When hes pulling punches...

GT: And taking it all easy and such...

GT: And we start wrestling up a storm and whatnot...

GT: Umm.

TT: What.

GT: Its just that the whole proceeding seems to become...

GT: A bit tender for my liking.

TT: I don't understand.

TT: Isn't that what you want from a Novice setting?

TT: Sparring with minimal discomfort?

GT: No i know.

GT: Its all fine and dandy martially speaking.

GT: Just the way he...

GT: Sort of...

GT: Man its so awkward trying to convey this just never mind.

TT: No, I think I get it.

TT: You're saying you were somehow dissatisfied within the presence of my robotic avatar's personal space.

TT: Was there an odor problem? Was the metal too hot to the touch?

TT: Help me out.

GT: No no.

GT: Really never mind!

TT: This is bullshit, Jake.

TT: We had a pact. You were gonna tiptoe all the fuck around my brittle feelings. Totally mind the shit out of those eggshell riddled motherfuckers.

GT: Oh come on dude.

TT: What does the guy have to do, Jake?

TT: You want to wrestle. He's fucking game. Just a man, a machine, a secluded tropical island. Sounds like you died and went to fucking heaven, if you ask me.

TT: Seriously, what does this simple, loyal brobot have to do to prove his worth to you?

TT: What does he have to do to make you at ease with the alkaline sting of his gentle robogrope? I really want to know.

TT: Maybe he should just rip his heart out of his chest and pound it into green gravel there in the jungle with his hella strong robot arm.

TT: Invoke_Onomatopoeia(Pound * some ridiculously precise value retrieved at astonishing speed from my rad neural net);

TT: Check it out, little green rocks all over the goddamn place. More than you could ever hope to cram in a shoddy metal rabbit, or any other pliable orifice which might be convenient.

TT: Because clearly its up to a soulless droid to feel emotions for the both of us, you callous, corporeal carbon ape, all trotting around with your fancy fuckin' DNA and shit.

GT: ...

GT: But gosh does your prose ever make a fella feel uncomfortable.

TT: Brose.

GT: Oh right. My mistake.

TT: You know what, I've just decided.

TT: If the brobot's Novice setting makes you uneasy, I'm going to disable it remotely.

TT: Done.

TT: Now you got nothing to worry about.

GT: Awww maaaan!

GT: But now hell be impossible!

TT: Happy hunting, Jake.

GT: Fuckin.......

GT: SHUCKS buster. :(

timaeusTestified [TT] ceased pestering golgothasTerror [GT]

[spicycowboyhole]

posting because the psychicatrist decided to get sick when im having a crisis?:

idk where to start tbh LLOOL but i think im NOT DOING WELL. like on the outside evertytthings fine like nothings changed at all but i think im going insane. i think ive just realized how i have like 0 emotional suppoport system and whenever someone says something genuinely nice about me it makes me feel emotional because like i had family visiting this past week and my mom and my cousins tarted talking about college and my mom was saying how i wasted money going to college. i said that i didnt feel like i wasted my money becasue i have a degree now and i could always go back and get my bachelors but she said "BUT WHAT ARE U DOING EITH IT" and it just pissed me off because i feel like shes negating my accomplishment.

what made me cry last night was when i was messaging this guy and he was telling me about how he had class in the morning and we started talking about college. i told him how i was thinking about going back to school in january and he said i should.

for some reason i feel like getting my degree in psych would be cringe or a waste of time/money because my friend told me everyone she knows who did thinks so, like its some useless art degree. but when i asked this guy if it was cringe he said "so cringe... imagine having ambitions" im fucking stupid and didnt notice the sarcasm and i said "might as well start playing bucket drums on the street ig" because idk i guess i imagine getting a degree in psych would be just as dumb as someone trying to make it in the music business by playing on the street or something. he said "everyone thats going to college has ambitions. So in that case we all need to go play street bongos" and that perspective completely exploded my brain and i started crying LMAO because i guess going to college is a risk no matter what and u just have to believe in urself or some gay shit. it made me think of a taz cameo where he told someone that "nobody is gonna support your journey no matter how much they love you until youve proved to them that your journey was worth supporting" and that made me sad kinda because like i said i dont think i really have any kind of support from family rn and i kinda just have myself but i have like 0 confidence and negative self esteem and my family just being dissapointed in me and saying negative stuff really doesnt help. so i guess the moral of the story is that i have to trust and believe in myself because no one else will! really sucks i think. yeah but i only just started talking to that guy like YESTERDAY and im sure he prob felt like what he told me was nothing but it really did impact me and pulled the last tiny string that was emotionally holding me together. i apologized for being cynical and i told him i appreciated his words because i was kinda responding in a joking way that might have come off as rude i think? the silly bandaid just isnt working so good no more.

but fr i think while my anxiety is a lot better i think my depression is getting worse just due to my circumstances. like can u believe i almost went to the movies with some stranger internet guy just because i didnt want to be with my family?? i think somethings making me more impulsive than usual. i was going to buy cigarettes today and the only reason i didnt was because my appointment got canceled.

some other things tho i kinda didnt like having my cousins come visit because i just feel so inferior to them. like they look better and are just doing kinda all the stuff i should be doing yk? makes me feel shitty AND i feel like my mom just kinda infantilizes me like my parents treat me like nemo and i just cant do some things for some reason. its just so frustrating like my parents make me upset and i just want to move far away from them but also like they dont encourage me to do stuff on my own and when i try theyre like how are you even gonna do that you cant do that you have a bad fin like HELLO HELP ME FIX MY FIN THEN? I WOULDNT HAVE A BAD FIN IF YOU DIDNT HELP PREVENT IT IN THE FIRST PLACE LOL BUT IT JUST SUCKS THAT I HAVE TO DO ALL THIS BY MYSELF

i just dont want to be living here in like 5 years. thats a goal huh? if i had been asked where i wanted to be in 5 yrs when i was in high school id be like idk but i somehow managed to grow a goal somehow just out of misery i guess. and the steps are so cleaar in my head but then the voices tell me i cant do it because im scared BUT thats the point of life or something right??

jesus chhrososttt in reality nothing is really changing irl but im having some sort of crisis rn

ive even been trying to talk to boys LOL ive just been wanting some kind of escape from my life,, some independence, i want MY OWN LIFE that my mommy doesnt know everything about. i want to go to the movies with someone im not related to.

ok these paragraphes are all fucked up and i would fix it but i dont wanna go through and reread them

[kandadiff]

Van Der Wulff: The Blackout

~~~

After all of us had dispersed into different areas of the schools second floor, we received the texts. Lux hadn’t made herself known besides a few judge texts here and there so it was only a matter of time before she graced us with her presence once more. 

~ Kay ~ 

“A song that portrays strong emotion.” Tatiana repeated the note Sikowitz gave us. We sat in one of the music rooms, Tatiana at the drums, you in Xaviers lap and a guitar in your lap. Robin stood behind him by the window and Damien and I sat together on the tattered couch. “Any ideas?” While the band discussed ideas I received a text message. 

‘Hey girlie, I missed you. But don’t think I could ever forgot about you all. I was just doing some digging and look what I found...’ A video followed the text and I quickly slipped in my AirPods, snuggling myself casually away from Damien’s eyes. The video showed the camera in a dark area with three slits of light. A locker maybe? But its not the visuals that caught my attention. The language was in Korean but the subtitles on the video made the translation clear. It was Taehyung and Jungkook. Taehyung was explaining what happened between me and him during the summer just before Yoongi left to Korea and just after our breakup. I was feeling lonely and so was he and hooked up. not had sex but if Namjoon didn’t catch us thats where it would have gone. Namjoon had kept his mouth shut and so had Taehyung - so I thought. But this video went into enough detail to really make me look bad and she had it. 

‘What do you want?’

‘Something simple’ she replied quickly. ‘To welcome TOP back into your fucked up little life I want you to live on the wild side for a bit.’ I scoffed at my phone, Damien looked at me curiously. “Ignore me, funny tiktok.” I lied. My phone buzzed and I got my assignment. ‘Wanna keep your little betrayal in the dark? Take the two pills I left for you in your locker.’

‘I don’t trust you.’ I quickly typed back. 

‘If I wanted to kill you’ she typed quickly ‘I would have done it long ago.- xoxo L❣️’

I put my phone down and sighed. “I’m going to go to the bathroom. its getting stuffy in here.”

“Okay.” Damien stood up ready to walk with me and I shook my head. “Actually Adi can you? Come with me?” you nodded standing up. 

~ ~ ~

You went into the bathroom after I grabbed something from my locker. it was only when you hit your pen a few times as I went into the stall that your phone buzzed with a text message. You absentmindedly looked at it, until you saw the text was from UNKNOWN. Then your heart began to beat hard, so much that you jumped when Selena walked into the bathroom. She looked at you confused but went into a stall. You braced yourself and opened the message.

‘Nice hood, You know I wonder if assaulting you is a violation of Xavier’s parole? What would Mark think if he saw the fingerprints on your neck?’ You looked around feeling incredibly exposed and bitter. It had to be Lux, the bitch texted just like her. It couldn’t have been Shawn, how would he know? You looked down with anxiety looming in your body seeing the three message bubbles. ‘Or what would Xavier do to you when he finds out about yours and Shawns little arrangement?’ The message was followed by a small video clip, It was a shaky video where basically Shawn was admitting to Kurt your new found friends with benefits arrangement. ‘I knew you were a mess but this is a lot. So I'm going to add fuel to the fire! I’ll take care of Xavier for you. But I want you to go to Shawn and tell him you miss him and really sell it or convince your best friend to go back with Taehyung. Choice is yours, can’t wait to see your choice. xoxo L’

 ~ ~ ~ ~ 

Katya knew she fucked up with the house and a long talk with her father over thanksgiving had her ready to be back on track. It helped that Taehyung was gone and that she didn’t have to see Jennie fawning all over him, not that she seemed bothered, instead she turned her affections onto another man. Katya could tell by the way she smiled at her text messages. She thought about bringing that up in the texts she was having with Taehyung. of course, the texts started as a way of making sure he wasn’t going to sue her for destroying his car when she found out about the tryst between the two. But now it was friendly bordering on flirty but she knew others reactions to it so now he was on silent with her last text saying she was working on homework. 

She stayed in the library and focused on her math homework while listening to a few songs on Bubble. When her phone buzzed again she sighed looking at her half done homework. She grabbed her phone about to click do not disturb when she spotted the UNKNOWN number. 

‘Hey Kat! Still feeling guilty over trying to turn Damien against his girl? How about the fact that on your secret only fans your top customers dated your best friends?’ A picture filtered through the text seeing how much the men actually gave to her only fans and she quickly lowered her brightness, ensuring no one else saw it. Of course she never showed her face in the pictures, and her lack of tattoos made it difficult to identify her. While the subscribers might not have known it was her, she knew it was Tyler and Harry and Liam. She did feel incredibly guilty about this but then again what was she to do? Her family needed money and she was getting enough to take care of her and them. ‘Lets add to that list shall we? Send something sexy to Namjoon. You know he wants it.’

‘He’ll tell Taehyung.’ She quickly typed back.

‘Will he?’ it typed back ‘xoxo L’

~ ~ ~ ~ 

The song project had Draven truly thinking about emotion. Forbidden love kept coming up in her head and she glanced at Jiwoo who was laughing across the hall with Matthew. God, last night Jiwoo told her she think she was falling for her. She wished she would have stayed home after the dinner. Negan’s job offer should have been the only thing on her mind now it was filled with thought of Jiwoo. Three weeks ago after the halloween party the two of them hooked up. Draven excuse was she was drunk... until it happened again and again and again. Plus hanging out - But she wasn’t gay. No, that rumor about her had circulated since she was in middle school. No, because when she was with Francisco or Ash she still loved them and their relationship was genuine. And when she and Matthew hooked up she enjoyed it. But why - what about Jiwoo? God. Was she gay? No, she couldn’t be. No she was straight - just curious. Right? Plenty of women experimented. She couldn't be gay, what would her grandparents think? They raised her. God. what if her mother found out? She’d spread it to everyone while saying shit like ‘my daughter the dyke. My daughter the fag.’ She already called her that when she saw Draven two years ago. When Draven had her pixie cut and went through her punk case.

Her phone buzzing pulled her out of her thoughts and she turned away from Matthew and Jiwoo’s jokes. She tapped on the message not even reading who it was from until she saw the messages. ‘Hey Dre, I’m not going to say I told you so but...’ a picture of Jiwoo on top of her kissing at the halloween party filtered on the screen. ‘I told you so. I always knew what you were. It’s okay, I'll keep your secret, if you do something for me. I want you leave a care package for Bella from Makayla  Anything you can think she’d like and no cheaping out on it either. I want her to think it came from her too. XOXO L.’

“Fuck man.” Draven rubbed her forehead in annoyance. “Fuck you, Lux.” She whispered. “I wished you fucking died.”

~ ~ ~ ~ 

Makayla was in the gym meditating in the large room grateful for the silence. Since last night, her mind was abuzz with thoughts. Rio’s reaction last night sacred her. It didn’t matter to her that he stopped going for Xavier when she moved in front of him. What if he didn't? He had a gun! And was very quick to use it. What was wrong with her? Was she going from bad to worse? We feel free when we escape, even if it be from the frying pan into the fire. She remembered that quote distinctively in her head when she though of Rio compared to Tyler. Tyler cheated on her with her male cousin. Tyler added to her drug addiction. Tyler once gave her crabs. But he never scared her like Rio did that night. 

She breathed in deeply ignoring the beeping of her phone in her bag. Whatever it was, wasn’t important. She needed to relax. A knock on the window threw her eyes open and the gym door being opened threw her completely off. She shot up from her mat on the floor, her heart beating quickly. Only slightly calming when she realized it was Rio. 

“What are you doing here?” She asked and he smiled at her. 

“Its a blackout, darling.” He said casually as he closed the door behind him looking around the empty gym. “I needed to make sure you were okay. You didn’t answer my call.”

“I’m in school.” She shrugged. “I don’t answer when I'm here usually.” 

He nodded walking towards her. Her eyes glanced at his jacket wondering if his pockets held a gun. He noticed and smiled at her placing his hands in his pockets. His hands bulged in the pockets showing her it was empty. “So dinner was, uh .... fun, yeah?” his face was playful but his tone questioning as though testing the waters of her emotion. Makayla was never good at hiding her emotions. Whatever she felt was written on her face and the look she gave him made her chuckle. “You’re mad at me.”

She moved towards him “You pulled out a gun, Rio!” she whispered. “Why? Would you have shot him if I wasn’t there? Xavier wasn’t going to hurt anyone!” He opened his mouth. “I want the truth! Don’t bother talking if your not going to be honest.”

Her big brown eyes softened his tone and he put his hand on hers. “No, I wouldn’t.” He shook his head. “I worry about you around people like him. Arianna, Kalyn and Draven can handle men like him but you Makyala, You're different. You are the whole package.” He said and she couldn’t help the small smile that cracked on her face. “Sweet, Talented, beautiful.”

“Thank you, Rio.” she said moving the hair.

“And I learned the hard way about sweet talented beautiful girls with men like him around.” She looked up at him “Theres always someone who tries to take them down. Jealously” he shrugs “obsession, who knows. And you know something? I don’t like that and I won’t let that happen to you. So thats why I pulled it out. You’re my girl now and I can’t let that happen to you.” She sighed and he pulled her close, his hands around his waist. “Your still mine, right?”

She leaned her head on the crook of his neck. “Yes, just slow down on teh violence. Its... its scary and a lot.”

“Okay” he promised. “I will.” His pulled back and kissed her. She smiled into the kiss playfully kissing him back all the while ignoring her phone and teh person behind this texts

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[articsmiths]

Day 5

Hello readers if anyone even sees this-

today has been ok

I woke up late, so I had to rush around the house at 6 trying to find my school stuff. My hair looked amazing all day, so I was very happy :). I had history first, so I didn't have a bad start, but I've had a DRY ASS COUGH all day! I felt so ill well I didn't at the time but now I do.

Then I had English, which was super funny, but I had to go on my timetable cus I'd forgotten I had that lesson- My ratty emo English teacher wasn't in for once, so we got to have fun and do some reading in stupid voices like mad people! The lad who was sat next to me did a super funny assent, but I was the only one laughing at him bit Awkard.

After I had break, and me and my mates were doing the usual chat like Claire moaning about me being sat in the seat, we both like.

After that I had my first food tec lesson!!!It wasn't supposed to be my first, but I was ill for the other food tec lessons so- We thought we were just reading about food, but we ended up making this Mank bland pasta which was fun to make!

Then a had art which I really like but my painting ended up failing and I put way too much paint on my Pallett, but I didn't get yelled at cus the art teacher really likes me :) and I got to redo my heart.

Then I had dinner where me and Claire raced to the "Gods seat" and on the way she tried to convince me that we should re do the deal cus it's not fair and she regrated doing it, but I refused cus I think it's a good deal whoever gets that seat first gets the seat! and Becky tol us all our music teacher said we could learn an instramen and we all really want to do music gcse! Me and Bryan want to learn the drums so i tolf him after school we should meet and ask sir about it!

Then i had Geography last and that was SO BORINGGGGGG exspet someone made a song for there homework so miss played it and everyone was cackling!

I meet with my mates outside the music room and turns out HE WASNT FUCKING THERE!!! so we had to go on a wild half an hour-long goose chance to find him >:(. He was in a detention room like Bryan had said like 20 mins before but idc. All my mates picked the Saxaphone and a picked piano cus I have a keyboard at home so it will be easier for me to play. We walked home jamming to music and as soon as I got home my sickness hit like a falling building. I made me and my stepbrother tea and i just got worse until my last nerve broke. My friend who we will call Amy who goes a different school has been going on about Claire liking my girlfriend and idk if she does it to get a reaction out of me or because she just cares about me but i think it's some joke to get me upset. and I she rang me talking about it and i snapped "I feel sick, and I don't want to hear it you're doing my head in I don't care!" and then she went ok ok ok then changed the topic but in the back of my mind it's just weird like why would one of my friends like my girlfriend like. that's just wrong if it's one of your mates. Like if i broke up with Becky would Claire shoot her shot? that's your mates ex they are like off limits that's just rude like wtf-

That call got me all pissed so i started typing my daily blog to calm me down and it dose really so thats where i shall be ending this blog

see you soon - Articsmiths

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