#you won't bring me down

[jackfromthefairytale]

something about jack harkness's growth, from being absolutely prepared to die to becoming unexpectedly immortal, to outliving everyone he knew, to playing with life and death like little dolls, to finally coming to respect death when it took the man he loved

just jack, understanding so completely that his immortality might keep him alive indefinitely, but also that it is a curse that he wouldn't wish upon anyone no matter how lonely he gets, only wanting more time to say goodbye to ianto and still not getting enough at the house of the dead. jack coming to accept ianto's death and letting himself grieve and move on, and fighting on behalf of ianto's right to stay dead and not be dragged back when torchwood really wanted to

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

my greatest achievement in DA2 is maxing out Carver's friendship

and all it took was begrudgingly kissing a little templar ass in act 1 because Carver didn't want to plan a prison break if my Hawke got his ass arrested for being stupid.

[who-is-page]

Life is hard! Consider buying my stuff!

My life isn't quite falling apart, but things have gotten really tricky lately. One housemate (and their super destructive, permanent houseguest) is refusing to pay their share of rent or utilities for the next three months, and another is refusing to pay their full share of rent for that same amount of time and is making us cover around $75 every month, and I'm having to double-up my hours at work while still being a full-time student (and also one of my professors, who we're 99% sure is using ChatGPT to generate her citations because none of them exist and we pointed this out, hates my guts and has been grading me really harshly and forcing me to go full-sail on every assignment to ridiculous degrees in order to pass this required class).

My spouse is working on getting full-time at their job, but it looks like they won't be able to until December, and we also have no idea how much rent is going to increase this year-- my guess is it's going to go up another $500, same as last year, to a total of $3,000, so things are gonna get really fucking bumpy until around January, probably.

So basically, if you like the work I've done, consider throwing me a tip on Ko-Fi or buying my stuff on Itch.io:

(Also I promise we have more stuff lined up that we want to polish and publish, life has just been super-duper fucking busy! There is so much more going on right now than what I've mentioned here, especially in terms of surprise medical bills and other horrible surprises. And we haven't forgotten about Inky Paws issue 2, either, which we're still hoping to have done by December and which will STILL always be entirely 100% free to download, no matter what our living or money situation looks like. That will never ever change, so please don't worry!)

[sysig]

Care for your sparring partner (Patreon)

Bonus:

[buttercuparry]

Crack? Do they smoke crack? Is that it?? 😂😂

I mean tumblr should really know better than to recommend me bullshit like these.

[pinkieroy]

TO ME, the way Imogen feels about Liliana is close to Roman agreeing to kill Logan and then ending up on the floor after the confrontation, it's not a "she is lying to get allies/lying to herself about giving up on her mother" or "she has 100% lost faith in her mother" it is the messy middle ground between it, she is always going to be her mother's child and it will always be complicated, she knows the right thing to do is to fight her and what she stands for, that doesn't erase the expectations she had of her, that doesn't erase the pain of seeing her fall short.

But what I really want to emphasize with the Roman comparison is that she is saying those things without her mother in the room, once they see the other again I feel it will be a lot less straight forward than that, and that is important to me because a parent-child relationship hardly ever is, doesn't matter how old the person is or how much the parent has screwed them over or disappointed them, the face to face confrontation is bound to be messy as fuck

[7more]

you ever hear a song lyric and then start teething like a dog

[heyitsmemel]

...... mehhhh personal complaining in the tags (tw illness)

[purgetrooperfox]

how come you do post much about gaza?

assuming you meant don't*? because this makes no sense otherwise? anyway

that you don't see my activism doesn't mean it isn't happening. tumblr is a terrible platform for activism, so I don't use it for that

[neon-glowing-rainbow-stims]

Posts here will likely be on hiatus for a couple weeks as I finish up the semester <3 I'll be back soon enough!

[criscura]

Nothing will make you feel like more of an absolute failure of a human being than not being able to get technology to work right

[dandyshucks]

okay its going under a readmore bc its messy and a lot, i'll try to keep it succinct though. CW for some discussion of the ongoing g.enocide and things around that topic

so one of the friends is someone I've really respected and admired because they're a very intelligent well-spoken and kind-hearted individual. i've really been impressed with how they think about things and with their ability to write really fantastic essays (that they often share with this friend group because they're in school and enjoy sharing their work with us because a lot of us are interested in the things they write about). about a year ago, this person went through the process of converting to j.udaism and we were all very excited (and continue to be happy) for them. they've been really happy with the process and the community they've found and it's been really good for them.

however! this person has since stated they are a z.ionist! and they've said that it just means that j.ewish people should live in i.srael, it doesn't mean they support the i.df or what is happening in p.alestine currently. but I'm just... baffled at how they can think that non-p.alestinians occupying the country could EVER be done peacefully. it has ALWAYS been colonization. it was never going to be done in a peaceful manner.

do j.ewish people deserve a safe place to exist? absolutely! but I do not think, ESPECIALLY now, that that safe place can ever be located in p.alestine. I'm not the most educated or well-read individual, I've done a bit of reading over the past few months but my memory is shoddy and I consistently forget almost everything I've read, but as far as I can tell, this has been a non-peaceful occupation (...can occupation ever really be done peacefully in reality? i doubt it.) from the very beginning. p.alestinians were being kicked out of their houses from the start.

and to add onto the messiness of this all, I am the only i.ndigenous person in the entire group. I am the only one coming at this from an i.ndigenous perspective. and because of my perspective, I am ALWAYS going to be on the side of the population that first lived and existed in a place. i am always on the side of l.and back, i am always on the side of the first peoples. anything less would be essentially agreeing with colonization.

so it is just incredibly uncomfortable to be the only i.ndigenous person in this group while the rest of the group has discussed and expressed sympathy with this person for holding self-professed z.ionist beliefs (I do not believe this person has done the right reading to fully understand what they are saying, which is so strange because they are usually so good about educating themself). and I feel like if I try to say anything to argue or simply question this person, I'm going to rock the boat too much and make Everyone uncomfortable and the entire thing will blow up and fall apart around me. so my options seem to be either: a) say something, b) say nothing and stay in the group, or c) say nothing and quietly leave the group. none of which feel like good options!

and it sucks so much because there are people I genuinely do like in this group, and I've liked this one person and respected them since I met them, but they're really .... showing themself to be an unsafe person at the end of the day. I keep feeling like maybe I'm not seeing something or maybe I'm missing something, but I've looked at this from multiple angles and while I do absolutely see where they're coming from and even sympathise with some of it, I disagree with them on a fundamental level.

(also it seems really fucked up for them to be newly converted to j.udaism and endorsing what is essentially colonization and lowkey ignoring the fact that PEOPLE ARE BEING GENOCIDED RIGHT NOW so maybe we should not be discussing "but where are all the j.ewish ppl going to live :(" until the bullets and bombs stop at the very least(????????), while I've been indigenous and dealing with the consequences of attempted (and still ongoing!) genocide and colonization my entire life)

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: March 26

"Songs About Rain" by Gary Allan

[khlur]

i know i'm reacting emotionally and stereotypically and i'll probably regret what i said 2 days from now. it's bcs one of my closest friends on my MSc sent me an ELEVEN paragraph very emotionally heavy VERY dramatic and incredibly snide and accusatory message (bringing my family into it and essentially trying to get me to perform my identities in a way she expected) about something SHE misremembered, something SHE was projecting on me. because i asked for help wrt something that i did not know was a trigger for her. very much on the heels of other ppl lashing out at me for things i did not deserve to be lashed out at for. things i have apologised for and tried to make up for too.

[niteshade925]

[depressedraisin]

every time article makes a thinly veiled remark abt how *people* don't think AM's "newer" stuff won't work for a stadium tour or whatever istg a part of my soul dies