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a star going supernova or whatever. i don’t care it doesn’t even bother me i don’t think about it at all

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Before every appointment (minus for my allergy shots) my body gets so stressed and triggered because of medical trauma and my mind becomes more negative and pessimistic. I get so frustrated with everything and I am very short tempered with things that become out of my control— my pain, dropping things, stuff not working correctly, my inability to be calm because my body goes into fight or flight.

I feel scared and I hate admitting that because it feels like a weakness that I cannot overpower, but instead it takes over every part of me, forcing me into the darkest space in my mind because all of the memories I have of being gaslit, called crazy and being dismissed. To me being dismissed triggers my problem with abandonment (due to my bpd) and it makes me angrier that they even think about ignoring me and leaving me to just get worse.

I can’t stand doctors, I can barely handle nurses— like the one who congratulated me for losing so much weight even though I told her I was literally starving. I hate not being in control, as if I have any control over my own body. It’s so unfair, it’s demoralizing and exhausting to live in a body that doctors just think is stressed. Like yeah of course I’m stressed, my body is always going AHHHH and you calling me crazy or dismissing me obviously will make it worse.

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"i'm literally tweaking" "are you restarted" "you sound acoustic right now" "this has crackhead energy" "my ex is such a narcissist" "i'm going nonverbal for an hour" "intrusive thoughts won"

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Okay look. Stephanie Meyer contributed four (4) cool things to the contemporary fantasy genre, which I shall now list here in the hopes of getting it out of my system. In descending order of importance:

1. Writing a story about a girl who wants something. Plot driven by a woman’s (non-vilified) desire. Truly dreadful execution but still a good idea, sort of a literary incarnation of the “he a little confused but he got the spirit” meme.

2. The fact that when Bella becomes a vampire she can still breathe but “there’s no relief tied to the action” which I remember verbatim because it fucking slapped. The idea of human physical sensations being partially defined by our mortality and the sensations still exist after you become undead but your experience of them is fundamentally different because you no longer need any of it? Extremely cool. The closest Meyer came to taking an interesting stance on vampires being dead.

3. Werewolves are immortal but they can literally stop whenever they want. That shit’s hilarious. Curse of immortality who.

4. The fact that vampires don’t sleep or get tired so their communally-raised baby doesn’t have a crib because she is always in someone’s arms. That was extremely cute and there’s a different, better book contained somewhere in that specific concept.

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I love you cripples, cripples I love you

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reblog to give the person you reblogged it from a good night’s sleep (maybe)(please)(I’m begging the universe)

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Endlessly diabolical how you can't say words like rape and suicide uncensored without either being criticised by idiots or punished by conglomerates.

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recently gained the spoons to be on tumblr again!! would love recommendations for a mini sjw interested in disability justice and also fermented internet chaos

-friendly neighborhood creature on wheels (may bite when agitated)

hey! here are some blogs i can think of rn that i like :)

@compassionatereminders

@cane-you-dig-it

@briarpatch-kids

@talkethtothehandeth

@bebsi-cola

@wheelie-sick

@crippled-peeper

and more but my memory is shit am i can’t remember usernames lmao

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Malnutrition is a bitch

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it’s okay if you don’t want to answer, but are you also mentally disabled as well or do you “just” have physical problems? I wanted to follow some neurodivergent people and I really like you’re blog

(also I AM 18 and older I do not know if you allow younger than 18?)

I am professionally diagnosed with autism (level 1) adhd, bipolar 2 and bpd, I also have a diagnosis of GAD, but I think I might’ve gotten an upgrade and am too scared to ask for help about it. I had to get the life altering combo— the five for one special. And that’s on trauma.

I don’t really talk about these conditions much since this is a blog mostly about physical disabilities, and I had a hard time accepting my BPD for a few years because of stigma, but I literally don’t care if people judge me for being cluster b. And I know better now that BPD doesn’t make someone bad.

If you demonize cluster b disorders— including NPD, you don’t belong here.

Minors may follow/like/rb but do not try start a platonic relationship with me.

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Oh why I oughtta—

Raise your hand if you have also been personally victimized by the barometric pressure changes 🥲

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nooo I don’t have IBS/lh, I have mesenteric ischemia from my arteries being twisted and narrowed— I also have celiac disease that causes severe reactions to gluten and therefore even more intestinal issues

Take care 🫂♥️

Everyone with gi issues deserves a kiss on the forehead right now

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ah jeez, i’m unfollowing him now. i had no idea he was picking up the field mice and bopping them all on the head

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You say you’re supportive and understand of disabled people but are you supportive of people who have urinary or fecal incontinence? Are you supportive of people’s disabilities when it has to deal with something like a biohazard or something unsanitary?