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"樂-STAR" TEASER IMAGES — hyunjin.

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seventeen wallpapers! part 1

part 2 will be out tom!

reblog and like if u save, no reposting!

(if u want) follow my fashion acc on ig @ myworldofwoozi

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dino; seventeen {simple}

like or reblog if you save and don’t repost. /by nati ♡

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Unmasking, especially after masking without realizing it for the majority of your life, is SO HARD.

I recently started grad school, and I’ve become friends with a lot of people who understand my brain and it’s SO SO relieving and I’m SO comfortable around them. I love my friends from before grad school, but the friends I’ve made in grad school just GET IT in ways my undergrad friends don’t.

Most of the time.

But even then, sometimes I feel like I’ve shown them too much. That I’ve said too much. That I’ve become too much for them. That even though they get it, I still have to hide parts of myself to keep them from running away.

I feel like I’ve let my guard down too much, even though all I’ve done is be myself and say what I want to say and do what I want to do.

I can feel my walls coming back up and that’s scary. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to fully unmask.

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fic recs 10 :)

been a while since i’ve done one of these!

HUSH by mareas | M | 6K

ushisaku. the author’s tags say “in my gdrive this is titled fingers in mouth wip in all caps” and yep, that’s about it! romcom vibes, funny and so fucking sweet oh my GOD. sakusa is a disaster in love.

fingertip pushups by asynchrony | G | 1.8K

koganegawa character study about discipline and success, featuring his relationships with datekou. did you guys know i love koganegawa with all my heart because i do. he’s So important to me.

ordinary light by fathomfive | T | 1.7K

hirugami character study about the wall scene and what comes after that explores the torrent of relief that comes with realizing you don’t have to destroy yourself. this one’s a bit heavier and contains depictions/discussion of canonical self-harm, but man. MAN. this one’s so good and it hits you full-force in the chest.

Self-Preservation by adorations | T | 5K

tsukkiyama, background kagehina. yachi gets dumped by her girlfriend and the first year quartet come together to comfort her over alcohol and unconditional support. tsukishima loves his friends very much, even if he doesn’t say it much out loud :’)

would you still love me if I was a worm? by radishafterdark | E | 1.5K

daisuga. suga poses a question and daichi gives him an answer, interspersed with bits of trivia. love is stored in the bizarre hypotheticals and bantering with your partner! soft and sweet. they’re a little odd but they’re a little odd together.

A Sign of the Times by matchumu | T | 7.8K

osamu-centric with mentions of sunaosa and sakuatsu and a concentration on the miya twins. osamu at 17 meets osamu at 27 in a dream and gets some reassurance. woaugh. him. them. gestures vaguely but passionately.

fireside by Anonymous | T | 915

iwaizumi and oikawa are rival college professors, but even rivals can playfully remind each other to take care of themselves. pre-relationship iwaoi with a fun take on their dynamic.

It Only Takes a Taste by TeddyBear_TebbyDear | T | 11.1K

ukatake coffeeshop au. five times ukai tries to get his favorite customer’s number and one time he actually does. this one is so sweet and their characterizations and dynamic is so!!!!!!!!!!!! wow. them. written by the lovely @teddybear-tebbybear !!

what never was, i build and seize by vastlight | T | 4.9K

suna character study with sunaosa following suna’s love for volleyball and how he grows up and settles into his own skin. interesting non-linear style with Impeccable vibes.

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haikyuu is just so…. there are so many pairings and each has a different dynamic and each dynamic is just so intriguing and complex and beautiful? domestic parents daisuga, childhood friends mutual pining iwaoi, childhood friends kuroken but diff from iwaoi (I don’t have to explain that), fanon enemies to lovers sakuatsu, soft asanoya, loyal deep romance bokuaka, outcast-but-not-to-me ushiten, lesbians in the sausage party anime kiyoyachi, lemon boy by cavetown tsukkiyama, rival best friend soulmates kagehina ?? ????? it’s insane to me. plus a found family from each school with its own dynamics. plus everyone in the fandom is so sweet bc everyone understands the SHEER CAPACITY for pairings and stories just…. wow….

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friendly reminder to my AFAB folks with ADHD:

your medication does not work properly when you’re on your period

because of lazy, misogynistic research practices in the testing of ADHD medications, it has only been discovered recently that hormone imbalances during your menstrual period essentially cancel out the effect of your medication.

(if you want to know about the aforementioned lazy research practices, the scientists doing the testing for adderall and vyvanse only used male mice and AMAB humans to test them on because the hormonal cycles of female/AFAB test subjects “affected test results, causing data to be inconsistent”.)

so yeah, if you feel horrible and sad and like you can’t get going while you’re on your period, that’s why :)

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One of the times that I think I feel like I’m “too much” is when I’m making plans and I’m excited or stressed about it. I feel like I always end up overwhelming the people involved.

Like I’ve already gone ALL IN on these plans. I’ve looked up everything and found lots of different options and what would happen depending on which option we choose BUT at the same time, I still want your input so I bring them up to you and wait somewhat impatiently for your response BUT at the same time, I’m still looking at MORE options so I’m going to keep sending/talking about more options.

So I end up bombarding people with options.

But like. I’m excited? And a lot of times, at least for me, my friends and family don’t offer up any options so I’m doing all the work anyway? And I don’t mind EXCEPT for when they’re like “okay slow down!”

So yeah

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Here have a heap of official nalu as I lull myself to sleep

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The new Yona chapter is SO GOOD! If anything bc my guy Hak and Yona are FINALLY reunited.

By woweeee Suwon’s reaction to Hak showing up and passing out on him? The dragons and Yona’s reaction? THE SCENE AT THE END !!! I have been well fed this day.

Also, Yona carrying the sandbags all by herself? the water tribe general interaction? Good STUFF y’all.

I just REALLY love this story, y’all.

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The shame and embarrassment you feel when you share something you’re interested in or that brings you joy and people don’t share that same excitement or worse they think you’re being too much

So then you just decide you can’t be excited about anything or share how much you’re truly obsessed with something

Gotta love that RSD double whammy !

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Note to Self: Allow yourself to exist for your own needs and desires.

I feel like I’ve been existing for others forever. Like actually, I can’t remember a time where I put myself before others. Ya know what I’ve discovered about that?

It’s utterly exhausting.

There’s this whole warped idea in my head that in order to be a good, kind person, I have to help others whenever possible. If there’s something I can do, even if it only causes more trouble or pain or anxiety for myself, I should do it. I have to do it to be a good person.

That’s such bullshit.

I’ve come to realize that existing for others might as well mean I’m not existing at all. And not in the sense that I shouldn’t be alive, but in the sense of “what’s the point?” Why am I doing so much for others when I don’t do anything for myself? But even just writing that sentence makes me feel intense guilt.

But why should I feel guilty? Seriously, helping others exist to the point that I basically don’t only means that I’m letting people down later. I’m only hurting myself and in turn, causing stress for the people who care about me. Or building resentment towards others. Or letting people down bc I’m too tired to function sometimes. Or preventing myself from moving forward bc I’m trying to pull others along. Why should I feel guilty for trying to be happy and doing things that make me happy?

I always think “I can handle it. If it eases other’s burdens, if it helps other people, I can handle it.”

But I’m so tired.

Being a good person doesn’t mean that you’re completely selfless. Selfishness is necessary in order to exist in a happy and comfortable state.

So, here’s to trying to put myself first.

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“We are not just dragons who have inherited the bloodline! We will fulfill the desire the dragons of the past wanted to fulfill but could not!”

    *:✼✿　ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ ʙɪʀᴛʜᴅᴀʏ ᴋɪ-ᴊᴀ❣ (ᴀᴘʀɪʟ 06)　✿✼:*ﾟ

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for real for real tho. one time in my last year of college I wrote a 15 page grant proposal, research and all, in 24 hours and I got an A

people in my life have always misunderstood the sheer power of last minute panic. “you can NOT start that assignment the day before it’s due!!” like no offence but procrastination gives me anxiety-induced superpowers your little mortal schedules could never

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