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My best friend

Who do you spend the most time with? My wife.

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The Darker, The Better

🍫 Describe your dream chocolate bar. 🍫 I love the food that tastes good, and is healthy for the body and brain. To think, 26 years ago I drank vodka when I was depressed and woke up feeling like my head was being crushed in a garbage truck. Today I just have to remember to brush my teeth before going to sleep. I was shocked to learn that any chocolate is good in so many ways. Many sites have…

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Living my own life

The biggest fear I had was essentially living my own life which originally boiled down to: Conquering my own mind. Due to my epilepsy and bipolar conditions, my greatest fear is essentially in my own head. I have Complex Partial Frontal Lobe Seizures, or in other words: In a seizure, I have aimlessly walked all around a grocery store, stripped down to my underwear at work and tried to go to…

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Trust

What quality do you value most in a friend? Being an INFJ of the Myers-Briggs personality business, means I am really weird quite often. Trust or the destroyed trust has caused me to dive off the depression edge of sanity.  But then I watch a Animal House and get over it..

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Seeing Hope Through Bloody Eyes

When it seems like you’re surrounded by negativity,  just hoping for the best seems painful.  The worst thing, I have done in my life is not use my mouth. Talking, venting, unleashing, airing, rattling, screaming, whatever verb you like.  Holding those emotions inside is the worst thing I’ve done to myself. Just hearing myself speak often makes me realize how stupid I was.  If I can speak with…

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A Joke Led to my Life's Direction

I was being a smart ass at a high school retreat, and it turned into my main goal. When asked what our plans were, I only stated, ‘go to heaven’.What gives you direction in life? The “Teens Encounter Christ’ weekend was a retreat for my high school.  We were instructed to write what our goals were. Everyone was writing down what they planned on studying once they left high school.  I myself…

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My favorite lil things 💵🙏🏿🚲🌄

What are your favorite emojis? I really only use emojis for myself on my calendar. 💵 is for payday, always going to help me out of a nasty feeling of debt at least for the day. 🙏🏿 is for when I have to do something that scans me and feel like I need help from my higher power above., and Sundays. 🚲 & 🌄 are for a day off and I get to exercise outdoors. The roads in Central Missouri are lined…

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Any Million $ Mansion

Wealthy places just give me the creeps when I’m surrounded by it.  What place in the world do you never want to visit? Why? I think it stems from one of my favorite Biblical verses —- Matthew 6.24 “No one can serve two masters. He will either hate one and love the other, or be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon. I grew up always wondering if you always wanted…

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The Bible

At first, I could not think of a single book, then I started my daily prayers and realized I in fact already read passages from a book on a daily basis Biblical verses, I have continually.  In fact I pray daily and some passages I read daily with my daily prayers. Believe me, I’m no saint but the passages help me deal with life’s disasters when they arise. It helps me from sleeping into a sea…

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Small Gifts Can Trigger Big Discoveries

I’ve kept one hobby that I picked up after quitting alcohol, which is wood carving. Lately I’ve been able to do it more regularly.  I had been making jewelry but got tired of it. Consequently, I started making knick-knack figures and then also carving on things like pencil cups. In time, I’ll carve an empty cross with a cavern at its base. A spirit figure will come out of it & head towards…

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I wouldn't care.

My tombstone?If you could have something named after you, what would it be? After my life, some decisions like that would have to be made. My attitude like this could easily be seen as a form of depression, as if I was ashamed of myself. Also it could be seen as not wanting any publicity. However I would argue that it is simply humility.  Also if given a choice in naming something, I would…

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An Image of Depression

I myself always had trouble with depression. However, it only became serious until I was about 45.  I was going through my divorce, and it appeared I was going to be fired.  I was suicidal and checked into St. Luke’s Psychological Hospital. This is when I fully embraced my mental illness and started learning about myself. I’ve read that this is when that many suicides occur. Barring extreme…

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A Negative Influence

Who was your most influential teacher? Why? I graduated in the ’80’s. There was a priest in my high school who taught the religious class in high school. I obviously went to a Catholic parochial school.  I learned a good number of things from his class, and enjoyed his lectures. I even still have a chair he sat in during confessions. They were going to throw it out, but I retrieved it from the…

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A Combination

What tattoo do you want and where would you put it? I would get these two Christian symbols and have them on my inner wrists.  I would do this because they would remind me to pray – hopefully when I’m about to get angry.  Simply just to remind me to take it easy and simply ask for help to clear my mind. When I get angry and act out, I almost always beat myself up, and feel like a complete jerk,…

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Spiritual, Trying to bear a cross with gratitude and not contempt

Due to my epileptic seizures, as a child I always felt touched by God.What is one word that describes you? I remember being around 10 years old, and going in our backyard.  I was going to stare at the sun. I heard that a Native American tribe would give a feather to a brave who could stare at it for an hour. This is probably complete fiction. Regardless of the truth of that tale, I was scared…

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Compliments are at the end of my hand.

It’s actually just my ring and homemade bracelet.What was the best compliment you’ve received? At one time my homemade bracelets got all of the compliments. After I got married it became my ring, which actually kind of annoys me. It’s too flashy for me.  I honestly would like a plain wooden one.  Then out of the blue, a bank teller complimented my bracelet.  It made me feel better than all of…

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Advice from two sports stars

How has a failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success? “Always turn a negative situation into a positive situation. and I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can’t accept not trying,” from Michael Jordan “You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take. and Procrastination is one of the most common and deadliest of diseases and its toll on success and happiness is…