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Been a while since I've been in a suit but it literally feels like time never passed at all. Now it's back to practicing and practicing and... practicing! Thank you @mariachiarcoiris for this INCREDIBLE opportunity. Can't wait to keep the momentum going on my journey to being a recovering mariachi violinist and singer, haha. Here's to the next chapter!!! 🍻🍻🍻 #mariachi #mariachiarcoirisdelosangeles #dtlaproud #losangeles #dtla #mariachiarcoiris #music (at DTLA Proud Fest) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1nEU9CgBH1/?igshid=17mc5cwvwqywc

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Fried Mac and Cheese Balls

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Steps to Letting go of Painful Memories

1. Before you can let go, you must face whatever happened and accept that it is part of your past experiences. Suppression doesn’t work as a long-term solution. It can only be a band aid that brings temporary relief. Talk to someone you trust, or write about it in your journal. You need to share what has happened, in order to move on.

2. Identify the lessons you have learned from what has happened. There’s always a lesson – so look for what you’ve learned. It doesn’t make it better – but it does lessen its power.

3. Write the lesson down on a piece of paper and repeat it to yourself when you’re hit by painful memories. For example, if you’ve been scarred by abuse, then you might write something like: “My experience of abuse does not determine who I am. I’m a stronger person now, and that is not my destiny. I’m choosing my own future, and the person I will be.”

4. Repeat this mantra often so it takes root in your mind. Allow it to be stronger than the bad experience. Say it often – till you mean it– then you’ll start to feel you’re freer. Persevere and keep on fighting when the old memories return.

5. Seek to be a person who’s a peace with themselves. When peace is your focus, old thoughts and memories have much less power over how you think and feel. However, seeking after peace must be a conscious, constant choice.

6. When the past tries to intrude focus firmly on the present. Ground yourself in what’s happening around you in the room, and try to breathe deeply - and deliberately relax. You are here in this moment; you’re not living in the past.

7. Forgive – for your own sake. Try to heal from what happened – then let resentments go. You don’t want them in your life for they’ll just tie you to the past. You may need some help with this – but it is worth the daily struggle. It is a powerful tool for moving forward, and being free.

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If there's one thing you need to do before anything else...

... it's forgive yourself.

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Fear does not have to stop you. Don’t let it. You don’t need its ugly head in your life. Instead, allow for it propel you forwards. Use it to make you stronger. To power your engines. To add fuel your inner fire.

~Nicole.Addison

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Wow! Thank you for this!

During my first month with my therapist, I was given this worksheet to read and work on. She noticed that while I was talking with her, that my thoughts followed a lot of these. I wasn’t aware that my anxiety had brought me down paths of low self-worth and stinky thinking.  After a couple of weeks of talking with her, she gave me this worksheet to work on. 

While, at first, I thought these weren’t going to work out, I was very surprised to see just how easy they were to use . My homework at that time was to identify which sort of thinking I used on the regular and which ones would best challenge them for me. So, what do you think? Do any of the maladaptive thinking patterns sound like you? which ways would you like to untwist your thinking? 

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#GoodMorning errbody!!! Hope you guys have a great #HumpDay & go for all the things that make YOU happy. Not with the permission of anybody else, no validation from anybody else, but you're doing it because YOU see it for you. We're capable of achieving so much more than what we "think" we deserve. The end goal is NOT complacency! We're only limited by ourselves. Don't allow your mind to keep you in a box and limit everything that you're MORE THAN CAPABLE of. There's still so much more out there for us to get. #DontGiveUp . . #GoodMorning #Again #SorryToPreachSoEarly #LoL #JustFeltThisHeavyOnMyHeart #PlusIJustGotAHaircutACoupleDaysAgo #YouKnowHowThatGo #Haha #Anyway #DoWhatMakesYouHappy #LiveForYou #YouDontNeedApproval #YouGotYou #AndYourClosestFriendsAndFamilyGotYou #DoSomethingGreatToday #YouGotThis #MoreThanYouThinkYouDo #PharmacyTechnician #InTraining 😂 #LoveYourself #IllShutMyPreachingAssUpNow #Thanks #ScrollOn 😋 (at Montebello, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuG6IxvnwRb/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=66mu30dgtuty

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L-I-T-E-R-A-L-L-Y me!!! Dance and all. 😂😂😂 Good Morning everybody! . . #GoodMorning #CantLetGo #Emotions #EmotionsEra #MariahCarey #Lamb #L4L #Lambily #Diva #Queen #Singer #Vocalist #LoveStory #Funny #NickCannon #Dance #YoullLiterallySeeMeDancijgToSongsLikeThat #ThatIsOfCourseIfYouHaventAlready #YouWill #LoL #HaveAGreatDay #DoWhatYouGottaDo #GoGetWhatYouWant #DoALittleDanceWhileYoureDoingIt https://www.instagram.com/p/BtyTc_3HZmc/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ilsr1nrnuhip

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You're not always gonna be everybody's cup of tea, and that's OK. You weren't put here to have everybody like you; you were put here to vouch for yourself and to do the things that you have to and want to do! Don't let other people's energy deter you from you being you! And don't take things personal when it comes to their reaction about you. It's got absolutely NOTHING to do with you and everything to do with them. PERIODT! 😁 . . #GoodAfternoon #DoYou #BeYou #LoveYourself #BeYourself #BeGenuine #NotEverybodyIsGonnaLikeYouForYou #ButYoureStillYou #KeepThatSameEnergy #RememberThat #Aquarius #AquariusSeason #Focus #LetsGoGetEm #HaveAGreatDay #DontLetTheAmargadasGetYouDown (at East Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtjzpjDneBj/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ioe2ym0ub78e

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So this is what #Level28 looks like for me! I've learned so much not only about people in general, but I'm glad I took the opportunity to learn a lot about myself as well. I learned within the past year that I won't ever have things figured out the way I want to because nobody is born knowing everything. You learn at your own pace and it shouldn't be something to rush. I've learned that I'm not the best communicator when it comes to reaching out or asking for help (that's more so due to my stubborn nature). It's something I struggle with a lot even up to this day but my motto is this... when you mean something to me, I'll always be there for you when you need me. I'm just built that way. Now I'm taking these realizations with me and applying them to these new and exciting adventures I'm taking on this year. First orders of business are starting AND finishing Pharmacy Tech school and FINALLY getting back into my first love: Mariachi! I see so many new opportunities for me this year being that it's my "special" birthday (turning 28 on the 28th). All I have to do now is make sure I'm FOCUSED in what I want to accomplish, but never forget to have FUN in the process. Here's to 28! Thank you to all of you who have stuck by me and have chosen not to give up on me. Y'all are the real MVP's for real! Thank you, luh you, bye! 💙 (at East Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtMpYfEH3tL/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=19u517vv9t536

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Just a little reminder to us all.... 🙂 . . . #MondayMotivation #DailyReminder #Patience #EverythingInDueTime #WorthTheWait #KeepGoing #YouGotThis #DontGiveUp #MindsetOfGreatness #Repost @mindsetofgreatness #HaveAGreatDay https://www.instagram.com/p/Bs6XF_4AZXY/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1vpduipmzep70

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I for one can not stand politics. But political satire is a whole different thing ESPECIALLY when it comes from one of my FAVORITE SHOWS OF ALL TIME @familyguyfox! 🤣🤣🤣 . #TV #FamilyGuy #Funny #Politics #PeterGriffin #BarackObama #BringBackMyPresident #AnybodyButThatRacistAndSexistMFer #iAintGonnaDignifyHimWithAHashtagByName #ImpeachYouKnowWho #PoliticalSatire #PoliticalSatireAtItsBest #MichelleObama #SheTheOneWhoReallyNeedToRunForPresident #SethMacfarlane #ComedicGenius #ImDoneNow #ThankYouLuhYouBye https://www.instagram.com/p/Bstn2DCHFHK/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=19vj824uf8sdj

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Thought I'd get in on the fun. Haha. The closest to 2009 I could find was an old picture from 2010 so don't judge me. 😋 Time flies, ladies & gentlemen. Make every moment count! Never lose sight of what you love the most. Looking back at my old picture made me remember just that! . #10YearChallenge #HowHardDidAgingHitYouChallenge #GlowUpChallenge #IG #Aquarius #AquariusSeasonIsComing #Mariachi #Music #Violin #iThinkItsTimeIMakeSomeMoreChanges #ToBeContinued #HaveAGreatDay https://www.instagram.com/p/BsoVE8igH6Z/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=195cm8evx16tx

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I've had a love/hate relationship with rain for a while back in my teen years, but I've come to appreciate so much more now. Yeah you may" not be able to go out so much" but it's an extremely beautiful thing. Plus it's something we can't control so those people who don't like it just gotta put up with it. Again, not looking forward to driving while it's raining, but we still got money to make. If you can, just take a minute to stand, sit, or lie still at home in your room and listen to the rain. It's really quite tranquil. Then you can go back to your Netflix shows and what not, lol. Bring on the rain, please. And thunder/lightning if you got. I've BEEN ready! 😊🌧 . #Rain #BringItOn #iLoveTheRain #IKnowImNotTheOnlyOne #NoSamSmith #LoL #LARain #ItsGonnaBeABeautifulThing #ItsAllInHowYouLookAtIt #Perspective #BeCarefuleWithThemDriversTho #UseAllThe #Caution #YesMariahCarey #Lmao #OkImDoneWithThat #ButStill #EnjoyTheRain #JustBeSafe #2019 #Aquarius #IG #Instagram #InstaRain #LA #LosAngeles #Friday #FridayNight #WeekendVibes #WorkVibes #UghToThatPart #ItIsWhatItIs #Laugh #Live #Love #OnlySometimesTho #LoL #Jk #Alright #ImOffThisHashtagThing #UntilNextTime #ThankYouLuhYouBye https://www.instagram.com/p/BshnoxTAIfK/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=q7pwxrd9cdm8

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I'm still tripping out to be honest. You could have asked me to bet all I have on today being Wednesday, and I would have lost it all! 🤯 lol. Again, Happy New Year everybody (7 days late 😇)... but STILL! Haha. Make it a great, exciting, and memorable 2019! #HappyNewYear #2019 #Aquarius #AquariusMan #AquariusSeasonIsComing #ThisIsGonnaBeAwesome #iCanFeelIt #SoMuchHappeningThisYear #28OnThe28th #CantLetThatOneGo #PharmacyTechSchool #MyMariahchiReturn #WaitForIt #iKnowImGonnaBeBackBetterThanEver #LotsOfResolutionsThisYear #CantShareTooMany #HoldingMyselfAccountableForItMoreThanAnything #AnotherVideoToComeAboutOneOfThemTho #StayTuned 😁 #Aight #ImDoneNow #ScrollOn #YoureWelcome 😂😋 (at East Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsZreCsgid6/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1u6l3mlpfmpuq

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Still can't believe the last day of 2018 has arrived! It's been a hell of a year to say the least. I've learned a lot all this year but thankfully it's been a huge step up from last year. I've seen a lot of patterns within myself and I've made the conscious decision to change some of the things that hold me back from being the best me that I can be (still). Here's to 2019 and the OFFICIAL 28 Day countdown to my "special birthday!" 😄😄😄 Be safe out there tonight, everybody. And Happy New Year to you!! #2018BestNine #Goodbye2018 #LastDayof2018 #2019 #Midnight #HappyNewYear #StaySafeEverybody #ButEnjoyItToTheFullest #28DayCountdownStartsToday #28OnThe28th #Aquarius #AlsoStartingPharmacyTechSchoolInJanuary #BeyondExcited #GoodbyeToSleepTho #LoL #Anyway #BestOfLuckToYouAllIn2019 #LoveYouGuys #EachAndEverySingleOneOfYa #ThankYou #RememberImStillHere 💙 https://www.instagram.com/p/BsD4-wqAgds/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1gghf1oglkycx

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When we breathe deeply, we are no longer stuck in the past. We no longer have to worry about the future. We just are.

Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin | IG