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1/4/25

The life of someone

Living with a chronic disease

Is the life of someone

Almost always in pain

During weekdays and weekends

Workdays and holidays

Pain always comes first

It trumps your wants

It trumps your needs

It overshadows your plans

It overshadows your desires

As John Green said

That's the thing about pain

It demands to be felt

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23/9/24

Today x Tomorrow

Today was really hard

I read for a while

I watched for a while

I cried for a while

I was in pain for a while

I was sick for a while

I learnt to live for a while

Hopefully tomorrow will be better

Hopefully, tomorrow will be less hard

Hopefully, tomorrow I'll live more

Hopefully, tomorrow, I'll be healthier

Hopefully, tomorrow will be tomorrow

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Still obsessing

Looking forward to season 2

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If you are looking for the person whose life would end without you, then look somewhere else.

If you are looking for the person whose life never started without you, then look at me.

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7th to 8th January

1st Drama of 2025

4 ⭐️

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Slowly Slowly

Surely Surely

Until the next Crisis

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STAY WITH ME

Stay with me

Not because of my love

Or because of my good parts

Not because of my bright light

Or because of my nectar

Stay with me

Because of my ugly parts

And my rotten core

Stay with me

Because the parts you can see

The parts you can hear

The parts that at the end of the day

You find revolting

Do not make you heave

Do not crush your soul

Do not make you question

Love and humanity

Don't stay with me

Because my good parts are that good

Stay with me

Because my bad part are not that ugly

And they're parts you can stomach

After a long, hard day

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I'm in pain

Always in pain

Sometimes physical

Sometimes emotional

Sometimes both

And I live

Within the margins of my pain

There, I find life

Love

Friendship

Sorrow

But always

It pulls me back

And I find myself

Knee-deep

Within my pain

Is this all there is?

Is pain always going to be central for me?

Or is my life

My love

My friendships

My sorrow

Big enough

To dwarf my pain

So far

It's rarely happened

But is there hope

That it will?

Or is my pain

Always going to be

My centre?

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Eat Clean

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— storydj

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— k.p.k

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Success in your studies isn’t about cramming the night before or relying on last-minute luck; it’s about consistent effort and dedication. Every time you sit down to study, you’re investing in your future self. Remember, the small, daily efforts add up to something great. So, take a deep breath, organize your notes, and tackle each topic one step at a time. Your journey may be challenging, but it’s also incredibly rewarding.

There will be days when motivation is low, and distractions seem endless. On those days, remind yourself why you started. Think about the goals you’re striving toward, the knowledge you’re gaining, and the growth you’re experiencing. You’re capable of more than you realize. Stay disciplined, take breaks when needed, and don’t forget to celebrate your progress, no matter how small. You’ve got this!

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AIMEE WAI

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Barely taking a step forward

Just to be thrown back two steps backwards

Is it that bad trying to be independent

Secure

Responsible

Is it bad to wish it ends?

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Going through old journals and realising I was always in pain. Always.

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July 1st 2024

Pushing ahead.