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Okay even with Kanye West’s recent X posts and the title of his newest song, I was still not prepared for the visuals of the music video, the chorus, or what happens at 2:09.

(Highly recommend not playing this out loud in public)

Link to the video on Rumble

It’s genuinely sad what’s happened to him, especially with the fact that he apparently doesn’t have anyone around him who has his best interest in mind and cares about him enough to steer him off of this self-destructive path.

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I keep saying alles ist in Ordnung but the truth is that alles ist nicht in Ordnung, alles hasn't been in Ordnung for a long time, and if I'm being honest I can't remember the last time alles oder irgendetwas in Ordnung waren in this goddamn place

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Hello, everyone, I have a some thoughts and questions for those who have been through RAMCOA, more towards Monarch-type experiences, but anyone who has gone through similar experiences will help me understand more.

Last week, I went to the mall with my family, it was a neat time, but I went into a store (Miss A, an ultra-cheap cosmetics store) with a checkerboard floor as our last stop. Now, if I wasn't developing a book around the subject, I wouldn't have paid any mind to it. But, as we were leaving, innocent things, like the playground being decorated with a fox and a rabbit had a dark hue (context: for my project specially, rabbits and wolves are prevalent in Samuel's life, both in system and events).

Watching movies is tricky now. All the time, you hear about celebrities and politicians being part of "The Illuminati" and such, with many of the conspiracy theorists having flat-earther levels of "out there." They speak some truth, but they are stereotypically way off. But, once you see the sings for the first time (like checks), it's impossible to not see it. As an artist, I only wonder, "We creatives have all this talent and drive, but to use it for this?"

I know not everyone in the industry knows all the signs and symbols, but I've learned that you can make anything mean anything under the right context. For example, some of Samuel's alters stay away from a Wolfsangle, while others are drawn to it, as they mean different things to different alters. (Wolves, keep away; humans, come fourth.)

I also had a dream a while back about a group of sisters who seemed to be well-off, with a mansion and outdoor garden. However, they didn't know that they were victims of "Monarch," to simply the terms. "I thought I was just normal," one said.

This situation is similar to that of the testimony of a woman who had gone through what you may know as Satanic Abuse, which, for those who are unaware, is not necessarily ritual abuse, but can be if it's done ritually (on a holiday like Halloween or Christmas, for example). She had gone to a sleepover (like a "normal" teen) and someone had microwaved some leftover pizza, which reminded her of the smell of death, which is a very distinct smell that I have had the fortune of not knowing. However, she did not know why it smelled in such a way until she recovered those memories.

So, my question sort of boils down to this: before realizing that you were a system, or recovered any significant memories of abuse, would you have considered your life "normal?" Do or did you have an alter/part that had a very different "normal?" I have heard that, with DID proper (with amnesia), some alters have very different lives. Though I have parts myself, I don’t black out on a regular basis and I suppose it wasn't necessary.

Another topic of curiosity that's been on my mind, probably since the start of this journey, was how one relates to art and entertainment (movies, music, TV, video games, ect) when such things are used as anchors to programs. For example, the Wizard of Oz movie is considered a household movie for its introduction to technicolor, but is also one of the hallmarks of Monarch Programming. I have been told that Pokémon Emerald had been used or tied to this, which saddens me as a fan of the series, especially of the Hoenn region where Emerald is set (one of my other blogs is an oc fan thing, it's very dear to me). I think, to keep it succinct, my question is: if someone were to watch The Wizard of Oz or a similar movie, could they possibly get to a point where they could watch it all the way through and form an opinion on it despite the trauma?

I ask this because I am an artist who likes movies, games, TV shows, etc. However, I also want to be mindful of what I create. My current storyline with The Monarch Effect isn't as overt with the common symbolism, but the concepts are still there (my current question is whether Samuel's family are actually Nazis or is Aryanism a better descriptor of their beliefs, and how that follows). I've even found a Nazi-era red riding hood film that employs a similar black & white to color and back technique before The Wizard of Oz did, though not as impressive. The Little Red Ridinghood story, as well as plenty of other German tales are stand-ins for the more commonplace stories used in programming scripts.

I'll end it here before I veer off topic, so I hope that

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also stuff i forgot to mention maybe

most severe abuse victim circles specify the type of abuse/trauma instead of RAMCOA, idk why RAMCOA is now circulated as a popular topic/term, it kind of personally makes me uncomfortable that this information is known by lots of people, i dont like people knowing about severe abuse because that makes me and others like me more vulnerable if they know how we operate somewhat. but thats me personally! idk

its rare for abusers to be self aware like this, its not IMPOSSIBLE but rare

separate abusers and abuser groups arent all unifiedly connected to eachother from around the world, may or may not have clarified this idk i forgot. just incase. (aka: this is not a "elites/cults controlling the world/abusing children/whatever" type antisemitic conspiracy type deal)

they will also often justify child abuse, same as any other abuser

ritual abuse means ritualistic, as in repeatedly-occuring in the same way ocd has rituals. but also ritual abuse as in religious rituals under religious abuse are a... thing, theyre more often christian than satanic though and not what anyone thinks when they think religious ritual LOL. again, legitimate abuse is heavily removed from pop culture scifi occult satanic ritual abuse conspiratorial bullshit, and more realistic/down to earth

there is not one unified plan/instruction, "ramcoa carrds" describing stuff like programs list, "alpha," "beta", whatever, thats just describing trauma + fear + conditioned responses, its not like abusers have a guide book or they actually use this terminology or they know of all this stuff, its just words to describe a specific phenomenon, "alpha" = conditioned response and compulsion to obey abusers etc. "delta" = an implemented conditioned response related to fight response. "beta" = S/A type conditioning. "zeta" = desensitization, normalization, justification, "liking" of abuse/viewing it as good. ETC. its just conditioning + specific beliefs "implanted" (abused into) them. "theta" = religious abuse conditioning. "omega" = sui/SH conditioning. and so on. Some are rare though. and there are other "programs" (which is to describe specific conditioned responses/implanted beliefs due to trauma/abuse, etc) that are just... specific to your own case?

most/99% of cults do not do this kind of conditioning/programming, its very rare, dont get me wrong

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i don't know if you guys are still active or not, but if you are, i'm going insane right now and have nowhere else to go, so hi.

im losing my fucking mind. i'm splitting very badly and am in the middle of a BPD episode, so take everything I say with a grain of salt, but FUCK man.

our partner system got mad at us for making a friend. not even somebody we talk to necessarily, just a mutual. they *flipped* out on us and lost their minds, and are currently still flipping out on us as we speak, despite it having been over a day now.

i don't fucking get it. they have friends. why cant we have friends?? our relationship is already weird because we're minors with a three year age gap (us on the lower end of it, being 14). it's easy to make us uncomfortable because we have trauma and are paranoid we're being groomed and controlled, and they *know* of this paranoia and still do this kind of shit where they very blatantly try to control us.

ive brought this up with them, I told them it made us uncomfortable as soon as it happened and tried to communicate it, but they immediately shut us down and explained how we were somehow in the wrong for "waking them up to that." waking you up to WHAT?? I didn't give you any devastating news, I told you we MADE A FRIEND. CRAZY FUCKING CONCEPT, I KNOW.

i don't even know what to do with them at this point. I'm stuck comforting them after they threw us into an episode and trauma response. I honestly am just appalled that they're acting this way. this is something we've talked to them about a number of times and they continue to do it. gross.

We are still active- well one mod is, the other mod's system is going through smth so they can't handle the vent page. Anyhow-

We.. honestly understand that situation, and it is really difficult. We were lucky enough to get them to mostly listen, and when they started up again our protector was plain out like "nope. Bye. Goodbye. No more of this.". It's.. difficult to get out of, but I wish you the best, if anything you could try to break up but obviously I know its hard and isnt always on the table for most.

Also, Not to make it worse, but it might be grooming. Our system was groomed by someone three years older than us and they mainly would manipulate and gaslight or guilt trip, and honestly your situation reminds us of our own

Grooming by definition is:

"Grooming is when someone builds a relationship, trust and emotional connection with a child or young person so they can manipulate, exploit and abuse them. Children and young people who are groomed can be sexually abused, exploited or trafficked. Anybody can be a groomer, no matter their age, gender or race."

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So we definitely need more positive representation of DID, but you know what would be funny? Mildly inconvenient representation of DID.

Oh the world is ending and you need to know about this one specific thing? Yeah I have a guy for that but he doesn't feel like fronting right now

Sorry what's happening rn is this the bad guy? Yeah I just switched in idk what's going on

I know you're dating one alter but we're currently co-con with another alter who hates you so idk how I'm feeling rn

And just who do i think I am? It's funny you should ask that I actually don't know right now

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"I don't think its healthy for me to message you anymore. I don't know if it was ever healthy for me."

Unwelcome Ozian pressuring me to tell him more about my sexual abuse. He likes talking to kids about sexual abuse, he wants to hear stories of child rape.

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That post about 30 year old coming of age stories?

I’ve been thinking about it all morning. What would the plot points be for that? What makes a 30 year old coming of age story?

Old folks sound off in the comments

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Hello Everyone,

I'll be away next week on vacation.

I want to leave you with some thing to read:

Stalker: A person who stalks: a person who pursues someone obsessively and aggressively to the point of harassment.

The Stalker Papers

Thank you to those who know the truth and suggested I share.

Oz

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That post that's like "stop writing characters who talk like they're trying to get a good grade in therapy" really blew the door wide open for me about how common it's become for a character's emotional intelligence to not be taken into consideration when writing conflict. I remember the first time I went to therapy I had such a hard time even identifying what I was feeling, let alone had the language to explain it to someone else. Of course there are plenty of people who've never been to therapy a day in their life who are in tune to their emotions. But even they would have some trouble expressing themselves sometimes. You have to take into account there are plenty of people who are uncomfortable expressing themselves and people who think they're not allowed to feel certain ways. It also makes for more interesting conflict to have characters with different levels of understanding.

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Samuel

L - Dietrich, R - Sammy

I don't know if I've actually posted what he looks like yet, so here he is. Maybe more in the future?

Extras under cut (tw on various things, but nothing graphic)

Spoiler-sensitive lore dump:

Samuel and Dietrich are both hosts, but in completely different contexts. Samuel is the regular, day-to-day, while "D" is involved in things related to "family business." Their legal name is (Dr.) Dietrich Samuel Müller, with Samuel being a preferred name since Dietrich is usually associated with their abusive father. System-wise, they both have subsystems, with Dietrich's having more branches.

Dietrich and Sammy are completely unaware of each other, and would hate each other if they met.

Sammy is really just Samuel but younger (about 17-20), and likes party and be the center of attention. He usually spends his time pretending he's a rockstar.

Though not shown here, there is a 4th main alter called "Doc," who usually handles surgery work. Samuel is the social side, while Doc handles the technical aspects, such as leadership and telling people what to do. Needless to say, Doc is very abrasive and quick to anger. He also has a bit of a god-complex.

Samuel, Sammy and Doc are the closest group, as they all appear most often. The Sams are the closest, while Doc takes on their phobias, such as blood.

Dietrich's main trigger is moonlight, with the wolf/werewolf/ulfednar motifs all throughout the system. Some alters are wolves, including the Big Bad Wolf, a threatening persecutor that prowls the inner world. Many other alters that populate the inner world are based on Brothers Grimm stories and other German fairytales. Much of their purposes are still being fleshed out.

Samuel is a vegetarian as meat makes him sick as a psychosomatic reation, where as Dietrich's side is typically more carnivorous. Wolves will never eat plant foods. Cheese is a house staple, and there's probably moldy food in the fridge.

Samuel can't really remember anything before college, and usually forgets he's German.

The reason Samuel associates his name with good things is because it's what his family's maid called him. If the core exists, he would be the most related to it. He calls himself a Christian, hoping that there is a god of some sorts.

Their body is 5'3"

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I appreciate yours too. Seeing both helped me step up myself.

In regard to him being agressive, I don't remember anything specific right now other than his accusations that one's programming experience wasn't actually programming, but nothing really towards me. He's gatekeeping a specific trauma that likely varies from person to person on different levels. From a writing perspective, that was one of the things I realized when I couldn't fit everything in the context of a victim born to German Neo-Nazis. A system based on Oz or Wonderland directly just wouldn't make sense, being that they aren't German stories.

RAMCOA can happen anywhere greedy people are willing to lie and hurt others to protect themselves and those like them.

Unwelcome ozain, UWO, nwo, was taught how to trauma bond others to them. They groomed me for years starting when I was 15 years old. They knew my age. This is a message of caution, I wasn't sure how to warn people, especially minors. stay safe. 

@michaelmyersbignaturals @nessieac @apexriftologist @hey-pretty-mama-its-johnny-bravo @buttercup-smile-afternoon @dual-domination @some-teeth-in-a-trench-coat @rbjr @pieisnotreal @chibi-blue-scapula @krozakerie2 @selkies-song @ragebot @dragons-under-the-bookcase @ships-bynoa @ramita730 @dejdreamer @eggingtontoast @realisticflyinglesbian @hypergamousangle @snacklepack @madhatterene @strangeharmonyharmony @jaretths @yeuleist  @unlucki @absent-still @icrimsonium @just-a-pansy @for-the-love-of-flowers @classicrockmusic7625  @h-ika75 @bbcphile @pathfinderswiftpen @betterthanakickintheteeth @nastyblasty @hearth4days @globalconsciousevolution  @aditipanchal @strkid @somewherenothingcaneatyou-blog1 @tatisthoughts @illimitable-freedom @furiousgoldfish @royal-specialty @dreamstuff @goodnastygirl @reba-sheba @fatedprophetess-perfectstorms @entbloesst

Another user told me unwelcome ozain is "known to groom". My experience interacting with them has been horribly traumatizing.

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This was a hard thing to come to terms with, but I'll speak on it. I've had to do some thinking, and realizing the red flags, but it's been so long it can't effect me that much.

@unwelcome-ozian My trust has been broken.

I began writing The Monarch Effect around 2020, when I was still in high school. At the time, I had just discovered I was a system while researching D.I.D. and dissociation, as well as RAMCOA. Reading through material was hard and confusing, and, of course, I had questions. However, as I was still new to the D.I.D. community and the concept of being programmed, I had this unfortunate conception that I could trigger someone and hurt them at any random time. Since UWO was seen as an authority, I went to him, hoping that I could understand the concept better.

Sooner or later, I felt safe enough to ask him for help with my own issues. I did not have a solid support system at the time, and I thought he could understand what I was going through. But, looking back, boundaries were not put in place. This is the internet, you cannot trust everyone you meet with your issues.

I can't say I was groomed per say, as I never brough up sexual things and neither did he, but I definitely feel like I had to treat him as this celebrity type person, someone who took pity on little 'ol me. This was similar to another experience I had with a person (a man in his 40s) on HelloTalk, but by then, I had people in real life that I could go to and warn me.

But it wasn't him that actually helped me understand RAMCOA and DID, but the writing process itself. Sure, I used research materials as a guide, but from what I understand now, "programming" is not as clear cut and has different definitions and connotations depending on the context. People are complex and all have unique experiences, and just because you are a victim doesn't automatically make you a good person, especially if you perpetrate abuse, intentionally or not.

Instead of encouraging me to talk to an adult, such as a parent or my therapist (who I've since come to understand her perspective), he instead affirmed me and my hardships, speaking in a way that made me feel like I had someone who had my back. However, I also felt like I was bothering him, and would apologize profusely. It was a while after (sometime last year) I realized I was depent on him and soon stopped talking to him since. A yes-man will only get you so far in life, but I didn't know who my real friends were at the time. UWO was not my friend.

Thankfully, I did realize who my friends were over the past few months, particularly since my Tumblr hiatus (I love this site, but it's called a Hellsite for a reason). In that time realized that I was dependent on a particular friend of mine, but only after they abruptly cut me out of their life entirely. I am glad that I kept my distance with UWO, or NWO as @justforratkings referred to him as, because Lord knows what would have happened then. Instead, I was too afraid to bother him, and eventually realized I needed to just focus on myself and not rely on the opinions of others as much. I have also since gotten better at journaling my thoughts in a physical notebook, as well at the negative effects of venting out into the open void of the internet, hoping for someone to come and make me feel better (yeah, don't do that).

UWO did not help me, only gave me small bits of things that seemed pretty clear, but still left me confused. I just wanted straight answers that didn't resort to reading through harsh things just to find what I needed. My system ended up being more helpful in understanding, since many of my alters appear as my characters, and help me at times as "actors." (It's also the likely reason I have so many that look like Samuel in different outfits).

I've since talked to @justforratkings and also asked UWO about the situation. UWO called them a stalker and told me to contact the authorities, which was strange considering their ages. The last message to me was "do what you feel is best for you." So, I did that by blocking him on the account I talked to him with, my main. I never really got any responses on this account anyway.

It's an ironic parallel to Samuel, the main character of The Monarch Effect. He used to be a sad puppy type character until I realized he works better narratively if he starts off as a villain, at least from the perspective of Carlos, the detective who wants him in jail no matter what. In the beginning of this journey, Samuel was once a victim of circumstance and has since evolved into someone much less empathetic and good natured, and more selfish and a perpetrator of generational abuse. I thought this would be him straying away from UWO, but now it's almost as if they've become more similar. Write what you know, I guess?

TL;DR Unwelcome Ozian is not as helpful as he seems. He'll say he supports you, but won't actually help you move forward all that much. He's just another person on the internet, and should regarded as such. It took me until now to realize that.

Unwelcome ozain, UWO, nwo, was taught how to trauma bond others to them. They groomed me for years starting when I was 15 years old. They knew my age. This is a message of caution, I wasn't sure how to warn people, especially minors. stay safe. 

@michaelmyersbignaturals @nessieac @apexriftologist @hey-pretty-mama-its-johnny-bravo @buttercup-smile-afternoon @dual-domination @some-teeth-in-a-trench-coat @rbjr @pieisnotreal @chibi-blue-scapula @krozakerie2 @selkies-song @ragebot @dragons-under-the-bookcase @ships-bynoa @ramita730 @dejdreamer @eggingtontoast @realisticflyinglesbian @hypergamousangle @snacklepack @madhatterene @strangeharmonyharmony @jaretths @yeuleist  @unlucki @absent-still @icrimsonium @just-a-pansy @for-the-love-of-flowers @classicrockmusic7625  @h-ika75 @bbcphile @pathfinderswiftpen @betterthanakickintheteeth @nastyblasty @hearth4days @globalconsciousevolution  @aditipanchal @strkid @somewherenothingcaneatyou-blog1 @tatisthoughts @illimitable-freedom @furiousgoldfish @royal-specialty @dreamstuff @goodnastygirl @reba-sheba @fatedprophetess-perfectstorms @entbloesst

Another user told me unwelcome ozain is "known to groom". My experience interacting with them has been horribly traumatizing.

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“There’s no way that person could be a predator. They’re so kind and helpful and give so much to the community! You must just be lying to tear them down!”

Let me tell you about Mr. Larry, the old band director when I was in high school.

That’s not his real name, but you get the idea. Everyone loved Mr. Larry. He was that fun, quirky teacher that all the students loved. He talked about how much he loved his wife and showed the class pictures of his cats. He danced on a busy street corner dressed as a pizza slice to cheer on students doing the charity run. He was very understanding and easygoing and always took that extra step to help a student who was struggling.

But there were always rumors about Mr. Larry. A few girls over the years had reported inappropriate incidents with Mr. Larry. Nobody believed them. He was so nice and so charitable. How could Mr. Larry possibly be *that* type of person? He must not have meant what he did. Maybe those girls just misunderstood. Or maybe they were just lying.

There was no evidence, after all, so the rumors stayed rumors. It was easy to accept, that way. Nobody wanted to believe Mr. Larry was capable of such things. What they didn’t know was the story of the girl who deleted all of her texts with him because she was afraid she’d get in trouble if her parents saw them, or the girl who didn’t realize what she’d experienced was sexual abuse until it was too late.

Mr. Larry was the same way for years. Nobody believed the rumors until he was arrested and put on the sex offender registry after one girl finally managed to prove her abuse to authorities.

But do you think it ended there?

Even after Mr. Larry was found guilty, so many people refused to believe it. His coworkers, students, parents. Instead of accepting that predators are capable of hiding behind a kind and benevolent persona, they instead spun a narrative in which that teenage girl was purposely seducing Mr. Larry, that it wasn’t really his fault. They called his sexual assault and grooming of this girl a mistake and tried pinning the majority of the blame on her. Because Mr. Larry was just so good and nice. Someone like him could never be a predator.

There are a lot of Mr. Larrys out there. Mr. Larry could be a teacher, a coach, your coworker, your next door neighbor, anyone. On the internet—because this pattern is extremely common online too—Mr. Larry could manifest as that chill person in your DMs, your “fandom mom,” etc.

Don’t brush off a warning because someone was nice to you. Remember Mr. Larry. He got away with it for so long because he built himself the reputation of a kindly and generous father figure. But he knew exactly what he was doing. Don’t fall for it.

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