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Having curly hair makes ana way more easy, like I can just spend 3hrs styling my hair instead of focusing on food. Or I can scroll through Pinterest and look at all the different styles and colours of braids I can do.

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my dad bought soup today so that's all I'm gonna be eating for the near future 😋

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Uni is starting to look like this all over again and I don't care anymore. I just want to 🌟ve cause there is no point in trying to make people like me, it is exhausting.

I don't think I actually have friends. Like I just know people well but if someone put a gun to my head and ask who my friends are or they'll pull the trigger. I genuinely wouldn't have an answer cause like, I don't think most people care about me other than my family and my boyfriend. It's kinda sad but I've kind of accepted it and I'm just gonna have a funeral with my dad family, my boyfriend and people that claim to know me, but wouldn't invite me to their parties or to hang out.

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Hey...

Hey, I've been gone for a while and it's mainly cause of I've been adjusting to uni, making friends and shit. I met a girl with Ana and she doesn't know I have it so I'm just gonna secretly compete with her. I don't think anyone knows about it cause I don't talk about food and we share food (but they don't know that's all I eat😛). I kinda want to break up with my boyfriend but I also wanna kms so I don't think I should be making any discussions rn.

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First dday of uni

im hhaving my first day of uni tomorrow, I've made a good few friends but none of them know about ana. I'm excited to start learning something I'm genuinely interested in and not just required topics, I'm gonna foucus on my studies to ignore food and I'm going get back into roller skating as a form of exercise cause walking is getting boring.

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Im ggoing into uni very soon so I need to buckle down cause I haven't had my surgery yet(cause of planning complications) so I'm still gross and fat. I don't want to be the fat girl anymore, I was the fat girl in primary and, high school and I'm not gonna carry that with me to this new chapter.

Wish me luck everyone. ✨

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Minor Update:

I'm actually going in early January because I had to renew my passport and that was a whole ordeal. I'm still planning on posting before and after pics. This doesn't mean I'm not going keep trying to lose weight but it means I might be able to get to my gw and stay there

I'm going to Turkey for plastic surgery.

I don't really know how the community as a whole feels about this kind of stuff but I'm really excited to get this done. My mum offered to get this for me since I was 15 and this year I gave in. I'm getting a breast reduction, liposuction and any extra skin will be removed. I'm not sure if everyone on here will agree with this but I don't really care.

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measuring my worth by my body weight and my academics has bitten me in the butt(and also motived me). Today was my final award ceremony and I got no awards for anything, the qualifications to get an award was to get above 80% average, and I almost got it with English but I was 3% off. So now I'm just gonna ⭐ve and foucs on my studies and see what happens.

(the rules for the fast is omad and eat more burn 20 cals more than what I ate)

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I will fucking whack anyone who says "uh uh uh recovery is impossible" BITCH!!! STARVE YOUR OWN ASS, DON'T SHOOT DOWN INNOCENT BYSTANDERS!!

I fucking loathe y'all. We are sick, but telling someone crying out for help that recovery is just a daydream?! Fucking disgusting.

You can go to therapy, you can go to a hospital, you can ask your family and friends for support, you can team up with another ana and be recovery buddies.

Recovery is possible. Maybe you will hear your ed every now and then in the back of your mind, but that is nothing compared to freedom and health. Or, maybe, you will fully recover, and never suffer from this again... That is also an option <3

Dare to dream, dare to be free

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I'm going to Turkey for plastic surgery.

I don't really know how the community as a whole feels about this kind of stuff but I'm really excited to get this done. My mum offered to get this for me since I was 15 and this year I gave in. I'm getting a breast reduction, liposuction and any extra skin will be removed. I'm not sure if everyone on here will agree with this but I don't really care.

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“boys don’t like skin and bones”

okay well i do so

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I don't think I actually have friends. Like I just know people well but if someone put a gun to my head and ask who my friends are or they'll pull the trigger. I genuinely wouldn't have an answer cause like, I don't think most people care about me other than my family and my boyfriend. It's kinda sad but I've kind of accepted it and I'm just gonna have a funeral with my dad family, my boyfriend and people that claim to know me, but wouldn't invite me to their parties or to hang out.

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New Gym

My older brother is trying to get me back into going to the gym and it's honestly working. We've been talking about it and what our goals are (I wanna lose fat, duh and he wants to build muscle). We're both gonna keep each other accountable and motivate each other. He's honestly the best brother in the world.

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i sswitched from vape to cigarettes and it's honestly been a life changer. I get more steps in and I go outside more. I get nicotine is bad for you but I like to look at the glass half-full. ☺️🚬

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i don't count the calories on edibles. Like edibles are my life, I can not for the life of me see them as calories.

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it's gonna be my 18th birthday this month, it feels so unreal like, I shouldn't be a legal adult, I don't know who my favourite musician is let alone who to vote for or how to budget.

Anyway I'm really trying to get to a good weight for my birthday which is on the 20th, so I'm gonna try that one diet I tried before wish me luck.

(if you want to use the diet it's posted on my blog)