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did you ever predict something will happen ,sensed

that something was off,but prayed to whoever will

listen that your intuition was wrong?Do you

remember the days where our observations

were details and not horrible truths?

Do you remember when You couldn’t see

the twitching eyes or the clenched fists or

the terrible stare.Maybe it was our

realisations that caused reality to shift ,to

morph into both our strongest intuition and most

despairing nightmare.

a messenger destined to relive a painful death

a sign of a dark omen that people despise

Our minds will forever isolate us

our nightmares are never so far behind

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Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934

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Unpopular Opinion: Reading spoilers before starting a book actually makes it more enjoyable. (Yes, I wanna be emotionally prepared! 😭)

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Nobody thinks what i think

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Everything is temporary but the girlies regretting their haircut is permanent!

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Does anyone else have an list of 10-15 untouchable thoughts that if you let yourself remeber or think about them for even a second it’s excruciating or is this a me thing

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It's not learning new things, new habits that's hard, it's UNLEARNING old patterns, old perspectives that's hard.

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Self-destructive tendancies are hard to get out of. It's okay if that takes a while to unlearn be patient with yourself. These habits are years and years of things that you drilled in your brain, of course you're not better tomorrow! Start being realistic

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My issue with people is i don't want to be with someone just because I'm alone. I'm alone but not lonely. If you're not making my life any better in any way i don't want you no matter how alone i am. I'm good by myself and that's my roman empire 🎀

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Like you're just a mediocre person with a mediocre personality and everyone is just so interesting and no one notices you if you're there and no one misses you when you're gone. Like you're only existing while everyone is Living.

do you ever feel like you’re just sort of 

there

like all your friends go out and do things and get into relationships and like people that like them back and have fun and do stupid things with their best friends and instead of doing all that you’re just sort of this mildly entertaining thing that people take an interest in once in a while but they wouldn’t really care if it was gone

like you just sort of exist but you don’t really mean anything

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how do you reconnect to life after being disconnected for so long

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they were right btw. you have to dig yourself out of your grave over and over again

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I'm a girl's girl but i absolutely hate insecure grown-up women with all my existence. They see a girl having a good laugh and call her "Too much". They see a girl being happy and chatty, they hit 'em with "you talk too much". They see a woman with good communication skills and then call 'em "Clever". Pretty woman? "she's drawing attention". Career driven woman? "She's too driven, she will never be a good wife/mother". House wife? "She's so spoiled she spends her husband's money".

They don't just project their own insecurities on other women, they choose to be this toxic person every single day. I can only imagine their hearts black with hatred for all the things they can't be. They're just toxic people who are too lazy to heal themselves and be a better person so they comfort themselves by finding flaws in others.

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Most anti phone advice is so inane and regurgitated to me but one thing I’ve been thinking about for days is “social media is okay, but the real danger comes in when you think your phone should be your go to during your limited pockets of leisure” like that’s literally the truest thing ever

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All my mornings are Mondays stuck in an endless February:)

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I learned this the hard way that real productivity is accepting the imperfections in your day and doing the next right thing instead of beating yourself for not being perfect throughout the day.

your life is not an optimization problem