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So beautiful! Which one would you pick? 😍🔮😍

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Super full moon in Virgo

Tonight’s moon will be the largest, nearest and brightest in 2019. Which means it’s gonna have a giant impact on us.

At 0 degrees Virgo signalling potential and unlimited opportunity. A good time to seek beyond this dimension and open eyes to reality.

Become aware and let go repetitive thoughts, overthink or worrying. the enegry from the moon can help you see past your ego.

This moon is about grounding, breaking bad habits, reflecting an releasing. you can also send blessings to those in need and meditate on intentions.

February’s moon is called the Snow moon by native tribes on north and east  since the heaviest snow falls during this month. Others called it Full Hunger moon since the weather made it difficult for hunting.

This moon since being close is sending out large amounts of energy which can cause us to feel irritated, pressured and/or frustrated. To stay calm you can always meditate or you can put that extra energy to use and do things you been putting off for a while. Don’t forget to breathe!

The energy from the moon will encourage you and guide you through your fears. It’ll also clear things that no longer serve you. It’ll naturally pull you away from things so pay attention to things that go out of your life at this moment. Doesn’t matter if its clutter or a person when it’s done you’ll feel a renewed freedom along with vibrant energy. Don’t forget to heal old memories and wounds by really sitting with yourself expressing all emotion. 

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I don’t want to be like everybody else...hurting, and drowning in their hurt.

I don’t want to be like everybody else...Taking medication to numb themselves. I want to do it as natural as possible.

I don’t want to be like everybody else...I want to love my body and loose the weight naturally. No waist trainers, supplements, dieting pills and tea...

I don’t want to be like everybody else...

I am NOT like everybody else.

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Its not your job to fix anyone but yourself.

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Journal Entry: What’s the point?

Yesterday I spent the night at my moms house, she wasn’t there, it was just my brothers and sister. And my fiancé got upset because I stayed the night over there instead of coming home and guess what? It was nice to have a break away, do you know why? Because all he does is come home from work, play the game, go on his phone, and then go to sleep. Literally. It’s boring. Yesterday when he got home from work he got on the game and played until 2-3 in the morning. Then while I was sleeping he decided to make so much noise getting settled into bed. We finally fell asleep. The next morning do you know what his daily routine is? Taking his phone and pooping for 30 minuets to an hour. He might shower while being on his phone so add another 30-45 minutes. Then around 12:45 he’s off to work. And you know how much time he spends with me? None. No quality time, no eye to eye conversations, just all phone and distractions. And now I ask myself, why do I have to come home to this when I can be at my moms house with peace? I should’ve stayed.

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I’ve grown so much in the past year. Trust me when I say that it truly does get better :)

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Congratulations, you didn’t graduate.

Before you kill me, listen to what i am about to say:

With everyone graduating this year, i noticed myself feeling down because i am just now starting this summer. I felt like i was behind because everyone else is already graduating and i still haven’t started. So i wanted to let you know:

It is okay that you didn’t graduate.

It is okay that you failed an exam.

It is okay that you failed a class...or 5. 

It is okay that you are starting college late,.

It is okay. Do you know why?

You are supposed to go at your own pace. This is NOT a competition. Start over, retake the class, but take care of your metal health before ANYTHING. Do not allow other peoples success overcome you. At the end of the day you have to move at your own pace, and the day you stop worrying about someone else’s pace will be the day you will succeed. 

Blessings, 

Brianna, xoxo 

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This video just made me question my whole existence. So much knowledge, perspectives, and experiences. It is an hour long, but i promise its worth the watch. 

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A (Huge) Change In Life.

I know, I know. I posted an entry that said I wanted to be an Obstetrician, buuuut I changed my mind. I’ve decided i’m going to go a different route. I’m still going to be in the nursing field. Just not an OB. I am going to study for a Midwife nurse or an NICU Practitioner (the nurses that stay in the room with premature babies). Either way i love babies, and i want to be able to care for babies and mothers. I haven't yet decided where i want to be attending, but i will start doing my pre-reqs at my local community college in order to even QUALIFY to be accepted into a Nursing Program. I can take that at any (non-universal) college i want, in any city or state. So im excited to get the ball rolling and see how many times an hour i cry from studying (: !

Why is this a huge change?

Because if anyone knows me, they know that i am a very minimal and shy person. I do not do anything that put me in the lime light because i am afraid of attention. For the longest i have had anxiety and depression and that wouldn't allow me to do anything but lay in the comfort of my bed. At one point in my life, i couldn't keep a job because i was too afraid to go to work, and when i knew i wasn't going to work, i was too afraid to call in because i have already missed a whole week of work. So the fact that i am stepping out of my comfort zone and picking a profession that would force me to talk to people, let alone help women have birth, is crazy to me. The whole idea of moving out of Sacramento to pursue my college education just blows me away. But one thing is for damn sure i can say to myself: I’m so fucking proud of you, Brianna. You got this. Don’t let anyone make you believe you cant do it. If someone does, CUSS THEY ASS OUT. :)

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