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Hiiiii Everyone!!!

We moves to @the-eden-collective

Now we can send asks and likes and follows from there!! And give everyone their own sideblogs!!!

See you guys there!

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How do people control the body alone, this shit is hard for 16 of us.

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We downloaded simplyplural again to keep track of us. Rereading everyone's information from when we were newly discovered, and Rammy's description is the most vulgar thing I've ever seen. She scares me.

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A guy's talkin to me online because he thinks I'm cute, but I'm face first in a bowl of ramen noodles scarfin it up like a wild animal because there's a dog in my brain who needs that for her enrichment.

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Patches did a great job fronting today. They kept the body fed depite thier discomfort, and handled themselves alone for a very good minute :)

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Our stepdad is mad now and I'm not quite sure how to handle that. Being in front was nice for a bit, and I don't want to leave, but this is stressful.

To be clear, he is not the one in wrong. He almost got attacked again by the dog that attacked him a month ago (and that the police haven't done anything about).

Chime isn't fully here, but he's trying to help me out.

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I'm not used to being in front for so long without it being three in the morning. I have mixed feelings about it.

I get to draw, eat, talk to people online. I get to walk around and move. I get to be in control for a bit, without the stress of having to strain that control.

But... on the other hand. I can feel my nails and hair and hands and feet. I can feel my organs move and my heart beat under my skin when I should only feel soft plush fabric sliding over my cotton innards and plastic armature. And it is nauseating.

I have to feel the weight of all the self hatred and self loathing I hold for us, taken physical form and filling our lungs and chest cavity like a horrible grey fog.*

But maybe it would do me some good to try and use our lungs to breathe fresh air. Maybe it would do me good to walk around and try being a Person in a Body for a bit. Maybe I should try getting used to it so I don't feel like throwing up because there is liquid inside the tubes of my body (Vanilla cream soda).

I'm... not used to being in a human body. I'm not quite sure how to remedy this.

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Ftlog do we have to start tagging our posts with "proship dni"?

"You're impending on my free speech!1!1!1" YOU MADE ME THINK INCEST WAS OK WHEN I WAS 13. YOU ACTIVELY INVITE CHILDREN INTO SPACES THAT SEXUALIZE THEM. YOU LED A PEDOPHILE STRAIGHT TO ME AND MY FRIENDS. GO AWAY.

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I'm fronting right now and I can feel our body's organs I don't like it

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Today, Shoom raged at a game so hard that he pulled me to front. And then I raged and pulled him back to front.

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Being a system makes you immune to "send this to x people or you TURN INTO A GRAPE ON MIDNIGHT" things, because all you have to do is think, and x amount of headmates have already seen it.

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Hohihi while I'm in front I wanna give a biiig thank you to ALL of my other headmates!

Thank you to Shoom for being our host and not being scared that you're several guys in a trencoat.

Thank you Chime for being our therapist and taking care of us.

Thank you Patches for holding our anxiety and trauma and self loathing.

Thank you Theresa for taking care of us.

Thank you to Rammy for helping us socialize.

Thank you to Puppy for helping us comfort ourselves when we're stressed, and holding anxiety.

Thank you to Bonnie and Shooter for being our protectors and defenders.

Thank you to Doc for studying us.

And thank you to Lucy and Arc for just being there and talking to us.

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We've learned that Rammy (Who has since become a pseudo-socializer) likes watching Fashion Styling. This is not an interest for anyone else in the system.

We are happy she enjoys these. We make compromises to watch her favorite stylists in return for her socializing for us.

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We came out to our dad as plural today. We explained sort of how we worked, and what our functions were.

He was surprisingly accepting. He suggested we get therapy, but instead of it getting rid of us, he wanted it to help us function better. He has something similar, we learned.

Genuinely so happy this went well.

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Chime!!! It's Chime! He's an Internal therapist, and an Ameliorator!!!

Day 1/? of making flags for plural terms that have no flag (according to Pluralpedia). For the time being, if you want to request a flag be made, please COMMENT or REBLOG (do NOT send it in my asks)

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Ameliorator: An ameliorator is a headmate who provides support to other headmates during moments of extreme distress by talking to them. These moments may include flashbacks, panic or anxiety attacks, PTSD episodes, and other intense periods of panic.

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Guzzler: A guzzler is a headmate whose role is feeding and/or hydrating the body and/or system. They can look for food, learn to cook, scavenge, etc. Some might be assisting other headmates with eating disorders, feeding the body so they won't have to personally experience eating or have to engage in it if that's too hard for them, or they might help headmates in headspace to eat, if eating is necessary to keep their forms alive.

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Internal Therapist: An internal therapist may do a number of different things, but this role is generally centered around helping other headmates. An internal therapist may help other headmates to process emotions in a productive manner: and assist them in effective, honest, and safe communication regarding issues.

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Reliever: A reliever is a headmate that helps the system release pressure or stress via fronting. They may simply spend leisure time in the body, or handle any other task while maintaining a more relaxed mindset.

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Idek if this is a thing, but shoutout to therapist headmates. Headmates spawned from caring for other people, headmates who were there specifically because the system started becoming the therapist friend. For us, being the therapist friend was harmful to us. Taking the brunt of other's trauma, ended up giving us second hand trauma.

So, to any Therapist headmates out there, thanks for existing. And what we've learned from Chime: don't try to help every person you see. You have to be able to help yourself first. Don't hurt yourself or risk your mental state just to be a friend or stranger's therapist.

There's a reason you need eight years of school for that.

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shout out to those alters that fronted once then dipped🙏🙏