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an alter intro I guess.

Morgan 🔮

she/her

protector

I hold alot of anger, and am very forward and direct. I was just recently recognised as part of the system but I've been around for a moment. I like spirituality, and watching people deal with their karma. if you have any questions, feel free to ask

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i wanna tell a close friend of ours that we're a system but we're all afraid. it wont be happening anytime soon -🐊

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some things thatve been happening:

rye and zomb intergrated, we dont know much about the integration but as of right now theyre still going by rye, and the 🌾 emoji

we won a giveaway yesterday! for an art print and some stickers

we have a job on monday at a volunteer rescue working with exotic animals. idk how long term this will be but we'll see

the stray cat and our dog got spayed and nuetered, respectively

yeah thats been life. wanted to update here for archive purposes -🐊

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when ur in a bad enough headspace everything is making u upset -idk who i am rn

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1. Julian! (I'm the 🪐 emoji)

2. The body is hella tired but I'm feeling pretty good about myself

3. Oh, rye (🌾) is near ig?

4. Pretty chill, it's fun to annoy people in the fronting room

5. I think rye said sunny? probably

6. It's a chore, its a task and I don't enjoy draining the bodies energy but when I get to interact with other people its fun :D

7. I dont know my fruits /j Probably strawberries tho, they're a system favourite

8. Oh idk about gender but my pronouns are He/They !

Quick check-in for the systems and questions for whoever’s fronting:

Who’s fronting right now?

How are you feeling?

who’s co-fronting if anyone?

How’s the inner world for you?

Who’s (if anyone) dormant right now?

How do you feel about fronting?

What’s your favourites fruit?

What’s your gender and pronouns?

Okay that’s it for now, have a nice day :))

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do yall want intros? some peeps really wanna do intros - 🌾

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trying to unmask is so hard :( i keep finding myself saying things that i would when i mask when really im just trying to chill as myself. whyyyyy must our mask attach to our sense of self like that ?? -🪐

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sometimes when brain power is low i just scroll thru my tumblr unseeing and then i feel bad that i didnt read thru the like 50 parahraphs cus apparently we like to follow more talk-y blogs

i do the same with instagram

like why do follow these people if i dont read their words /lh -🐊

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System ask game!

Send an ask to whoever you rb it from to share the fun!

🦒 Do you have an inner world? If so how big is it?

🐈‍⬛ If you have an inner world did an alter consciously create it? And is anyone able to change it at will?

🦝 Who is the most responsible person in your system?

🦋 Who fronts the most?

🦢 Do you mostly communicate externally or internally?

🦮 Do you have any animal alters?

🦇 Do you have any parts/fragments that aren't fully alters/headmates?

🦄 Do you have supernatural beings in your system?

🐖 If you were to be in a relationship would all of your headmates/alters date that person?

🐭 Do most of your alters/headmates have the same or similar style/aesthetic?

🪱 Do your alters/headmates have different sexualities? Do any contradict?

🐇 Do you know what your head count is?

🦥 What is something that instantly makes someone switch in?

🐴 Do you have child alters/syskids?

🐆 If you have syskids/child alters do you have more adults/teens or children in your system?

🦔 Does anyone in your system age regress/dream?

🐶 Who has the best memory in your system?

🦊 Do any of your alters have their own blogs just for them?

This post is only for truamagenic systems

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anyways if we can take anything from this, its ok to rest. and sleep, and make time for yourself. even if the people blow it out of proportion, i believe in you to be strong and take some time to rest and mature. u deserve it. take it easy ma dude, but take it -🌾

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i really do dislike how everyone is twisting bts' words. they never said hiatus or disbandment. they said "we're taking a break from group things to mature as our own pieces so when we come back together it is better and we work together more coherently towards a new end goal" (paraphrased obviously). all the media and fandom freaking tf out is stupid. we're still getting content. chill. -🌾

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no one follows this blog but uhhh if anyone ever wants intros just,,,, let us know? even if it is just an emoji guide -✒️

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we found a stray cat in the garage today. ahes a tortoise shell and her back leg is lame. she is also flea and tick ridden. shes not even full grown, i feel so bad for her.

im really really tired

im also on day 3 of making a dish towel. i got 30 rows done today because most of it i was oitside sitting with Ele (the stray) -🌾

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a headache and frenetic anxious energy? at 11 pm? when i have to be up and functional tomorrow?

help

-🐊

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when there's fighting in headspace......... call that an altercation

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somtimes is great that i usually front at night! that means i dont have to mask as much and i can just cuddle in bed.

other times is really lonely, i wamt to be happy with someone!! but that means theyd have to know and thats really scary :(( -🍪

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For me, one of the suckiest things about having DID is that the disorder is covert.

I’m a social alter, its my job to help our host (and everyone else) with social situations. But that means that I can’t be myself around other people. I have to strike this balance between being social and confident, which are my traits, and still acting like the host. Even when we’re talking with someone who knows we’re a system, the covert nature of the disorder makes it harder for me to be open that I’m fronting, not the host. It makes it hard to openly be myself.

Usually I’m okay with it. I’m an alter in a system, we all have to make sacrifices, and I’m okay with that. But sometimes it can get really tiring having to pretend to be someone I’m not. 

I don’t know what the moral of this is lol. I guess be patient with your system friends, many systems have a hard time being open about themselves no matter how hard they want to be :)