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Höstdepressioner (Autumn Depressions) - Lifelover - Translated Lyrics

Utanför blåser vinden bort de gula löven (Outside the wind is blowing away the yellow leaves) Medans jag ligger på min smutsiga madrass (While I lay on my filthy mattress) I ett övergivet och fallfärdigt hus (In an abandoned and ramshackle house) Där fönstrena är krossade (Where the windows are broken) Och jag fryser nu så om de kalla nätterna när jag inget täcke har (I'm so cold during these frigid nights when I don't have a blanket)

Och jag fryser nu så om de kalla nätterna när jag inget täcke har (I'm so cold during these frigid nights when I don't have a blanket) Vet du vad en sakletare är? (Do you know what an object finder is) Vet du vad en sakletare är? (Do you know what an object finder is) En Sakletare, det är en sån som letar efter saker (An object hunter, it's one who looks for things) En Sakletare, det är en sån som letar efter saker (An object hunter, it's one who looks for things) En Sakletare, det är en sån som letar efter saker (An object hunter, it's one who looks for things) Vet du vad en sakletare är? (Do you know what an object finder is) En Sakletare, det är en sån som letar efter saker (An object hunter, it's one who looks for things)

För att släcka törsten vänder jag mig (To quench my thirst I turn) Till de ljusbruna pölarna i asfalten (To the light brown puddles in the asphalt) Och min mage är tom sedan flera dagar tillbaka (And my stomach has been empty for many days)

Jag är den frusne vålnaden i trasiga, (f)rostiga kläder (I am the frozen wraith in torn and frosty clothes) Som vandrar obemärkt likt en skugga genom den (I wander unnoticed like a shadow) Isblå stämningen i taden utan ljus (Through the ice-blue atmosphere in the city without lights)

Skjut mig i underarmen med heroin (Give me a shot of heroin in my arm) Eller sätt en kula i mitt huvud (Or put a bullet in my head) Och ge mig en snabb flykt härifrån (Just give me a fast escape away from here.) Och så lämnade kapten Enstöring jorden (And so captain recluse left the Earth) För att aldrig nånsin komma tillbaka (To never come back)

Lyrics: Spotify

Translation: Lifelover - Höstdepressioner (English translation) (Not full)

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M/S Salmonella - Lifelover - Translated Lyrics

Baksmällan sitter kvar sedan gårdagen (The hangover from yesterday is still there) Det gör även spyan på toalettens vägg (So is the vomit on the bathroom wall) Jag vandrar runt likt en zombie i tristessen (I walk around in boredom like a zombie) Hela tiden möter jag nya ansikten, vilket stör mig (Meeting new faces all the time bothers me) Bandaget stinker av sårvätska och var (The bandage stinks from exudate and pus) Men jag kan inte låta bli att lukta kontinuerligt (But I can't help to constantly smell it) Vinden blåser kallt, och jag får lust att hoppa ned (Blowing cold wind, I feel like jumping down) Bland de krossade isbitarna (Among the shattered ice cubes) Jag har skickat dig ett vykort där det står: "Farväl" (I have sent you a postcard that reads 'Farewell')

Lyrics: Spotify

Translation: Lifelover - M/S Salmonella (English translation #2)

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03/08/24

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Sweet Decadance - Psychonaut 4

Again, one of Psychonaut 4's most popular songs yet deserving of that spot. A long track of 11:58, it is so experimental yet follows the blueprint of DSBM perfectly. The length of the track allows many different compartments to create a wonderful gloomy atmosphere.

With lyrics sang in both Russian and English, I will be interpreting the English version.

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This song has intricate theatrics that fully immerses the listener within, lyrics providing much depth yet easily understandable. Many DSBM bands pride themselves upon their secluded and often incoherent themes and that's where Psychonaut 4 shines through, their easily understandable lyrics allows a wider range of audiences to enjoy and connect with their work. Within DSBM circles, Psychonaut 4 is revered either as a legend or a sellout and that mostly tributes to their way of artistry; through many of their songs it is evident the care put into lyrics but they do not go out of their way to exclude audiences in an attempt to seem "edgy". That's quite admirable actually.

'Sweet Decadance' starts with a melodic rhythm and an interview dialogue. Female interviewer questions a man about his admittance into the hospital, specifically the psych ward. (Note: 5150 in the song refers to a California Welfare and Institutions code) They speak about the man's past hospitalizations and from the conversation, the man's frail mental health comes into realization.

One minute in, the song turns heavy with screeching Russian lyrics. 'Sad thoughts are hanging over me like rainclouds' continuing with the anguished theme, the lyrics portray the man as depressed plague with inescapable sadness, the next few lines of lyrics enforce this speculation 'I feel like I'm going to put my head into a noose' deeply haunted by his woes, the man seeks suicide as a purgation. 'I'm tired...of insomnia...of sad poetry...of pretending I'm okay.' Weighed by life itself, everyday actions become tiring, every muscle moved is painful. Devoid of energy, the man lacks motive. To cope with this depression he is 'drinking myself into oblivion in bars' but even this lacklustre coping mechanism is wearing off, as the oblivion of alcohol dissipates, he feels his agony increase trifold, the alcohol becomes one of his problems and he grows tired of that too. Caught between desperation of a temporary catharsis and the knowledge of increased pain his debilitating depression makes the choice for him--a choice of stagnation. 'It's like the world isn't mine, it's numb, it's numb, it's numb' he slowly recedes into the turmoil of his own mind, out of touch with reality.

Devoid of life, of strength he seeks death as he questions 'When will I rid of myself' at this point, self-inflicted death seems inevitable, only a matter of time before he relieves himself of this life. 'When will I stop thinking about death' and here he questions the timing of his death, when will he make the move--breaking out of stagnation?

The next bit of the track is melodic with smooth, comforting guitars and a quiet mournful chanting of 'Oh, my sweet decadance, Oh, my darkness, Painful goddess' this chanting repeats a couple times. This sweet yet painful thing can be understood as either the alcohol the man consumes or death itself as a purging device. Either way, it is evident that the man is conflicted; one side of him clearly relies on the thing to relive him of pain, but yet, this goddess create more pain. And with this mournful chanting, an atmosphere of desperation is created.

Unlike most songs, Sweet Decadance is dialogue rich--providing theatrical contexts. The outro dialogue is especially interesting as it comes a bit jarring compared to the rest of the track. Perspectives are switched as the man speaking now is talking towards the man before and as the listener, it almost feels as we are the man from before. Speaking of an anti-alcohol treatment, the speaker talks of the negative effects of alcohol along with discouraging the listener with putrid descriptions of its taste and smell, appealing to olfactory, olfactory, and auditory. The treatment seems to be effective as now 'I'm pouring some vodka, disgusting vodka, disgusting stench', alcohol is no longer desired. However the pretence of this dialogue is still vague, either the man has received help and in the process of healing or alternatively, could this be the final moments before death. Could this be dreamt of languidly in a state of paralysis.

Personal Opinion: As always, it is a pleasure to analyze Psychonaut 4's works; always so theatric, it is easy to immerse oneself in the scene, to emphasize with the feelings of anguish. I feel that this song is perfectly executed and story-telling heavy even for them. It is out of the ordinary but has the core principles of DSBM. So much of emotions are conveyed, not only through lyrics but the melodies of the track; the highs and low; the softness and the edge. It is a wonderfully painful track.

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Band Review - Whimsical Weeping Creatures

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One of our fellow tumblrs, Whimsical Weeping Creatures is an underground Hungarian lofi bedroom skramz/DSBM.

Their current discography consists of one EP and one single, both released in 2024.

Their EP titled '+Demo+' consists of 5 tracks:

+intro+ 01:50

Daydream 02:05

Outrun the Devil 01:23

corpse of a core memory 03:02

ribcage lullaby 03:5

Most recent release: TUTELTEARZ 02:00

Whimsical Weeping Creature's whole discography is filled with raw, lo-fi productions that pulls the listener in, a touch uncomfortable. That's the thing with most DSBM inspired works--it's meant to be raw; it's meant to invoke deep hidden emotions, and Whimsical Weeping Creatures has done just that. Their tracks are wonderfully melodic yet there's a clearly distinguishable edge to it.

+Demo+:

Perfect length, long enough to establish an atmosphere and still short enough to draw the listener in and not bore them. The first track '+intro+' starts off the EP in a melodic way, creating a brooding atmosphere that builds up in future tracks. Throughout the track there are light and whimsical components that clash with the deep drone; almost giving a backrooms vibe. This track is dreamlike yet dark, creating a perfect atmosphere to build upon in later tracks. 'Daydream' starts off light but soon screeching voices appear, anguished as they speak of their suffering. Through the sparse lyrics a picture is painted; one many can relate to, of a need for catharsis, an escape from life. Dark in subject, this track continues the pattern of light notes bouncing rhythmically in the track, the dreamlike state continues. 'Outrun the Devil' is more cryptic lyrically, this track is heavier, the heavy vocals continue but instead of lighter and lo-fi music, this track turns towards black/dsbm. It's a welcomed change, merging organically within the previous 2 tracks. 'corpse of a core memory' is the lightest and most melodic track so far, starting off very soft and slowly crescendoing. The softness of the song encourages the feeling of vulnerability along with lyrics alluding to missing the past, perhaps childhood where everything was simpler, perhaps a happy memory, anyhow; nothing is the same now and the vocals screech painfully, in mourning. Last track 'ribcage lullaby' starts off the softest, akin to a lullaby but soon the same anguished vocals follow suit and then, it suddenly becomes more aggressive. The lyrics in this track can be understood in many ways; love so dedicated one wants be digested; a more metaphorical way of cohesion; suicide? This tracks ends the EP with the last 30 seconds of decrescendo; slowly withering.

TUTELTEARZ:

A track that is on the heavier side of their discography but still remnants of the lo-fi melodic side remains. TUTELTEARZ is painfully real, the scratchy production pulls the listener in. The lyrics speak of pain and love; it could be understand that the speaker is in mental or physical pain 'I don't even know who is it under this all' can be understood as not knowing oneself. Slowly withering away into anxiety or depression loosing grasp of reality as it is known. Nevertheless, the second half of the lyrics infer a yearning for someone, most likely a lover that the speaker says 'I'll just listen every beat and dream something for you'. Perhaps through their pain the speaker needs a lover to love them or for them to love someone, a place to put the good of the world in. Contrastingly, this track could be very metaphorical and speaks nothing of what I have inferred; that's the beauty in art.

Persona Opinion: I found Whimsical Weeping Creatures during one of my endless Tumblr scrolling; always on the lookout for more music and bands, I listened to their discography. It's experimental for sure; putting together very different genres that fit together very well. There's comforting components and also new sounds to keep you stimulated. I enjoy their scratchy lo-fi sound a lot; I think it makes the tracks a lot more personal. Overall, the way I interpret or understand their songs may be widely different but I enjoyed them; patiently awaiting new works.

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Sweet Decadance - Psychonaut 4 - Translated Lyrics

[Intro Dialogue - Interview between two people]

There's gonna be a hearing tomorrow to see whether or not there's any legal basis why you have to stay here I'm not crazy If it was up to you would you like to leave the hospital tomorrow? I'd like to leave the hospital tomorrow because I've got things I gotta do What brought you into the hospital? I turned myself in on a 5150 because I felt like killing myself Okay, so you came here voluntarily? Mhm, so I could stop killing myself And what was going on that you felt like killing yourself? It was three o'clock in the morning, I couldn't sleep, all the same thoughts kept racing through my mind over and over again. I just wanted them to stop, period Have you ever any suicide attempts? Oh yeah, I have a couple when I was 19 Okay. Are you usually able to ask for help when you start feeling like that? No, I was never able to ask for help before Okay, so this is a new thing, your coming into the hospital Yeah, the way I came in here is unlike any other way I've ever come into the hospital, asking people to please help me so I do not kill myself

Нависли, как тучи, печальные мысли (Sad thoughts are hanging over me like rainclouds) Сдавила горло немая тоска (Numb grief has squeezed my throat) Я чувствую, скоро сломаюсь (I feel like I'm going to break soon) Суну в петлю голову я (I feel like I'm going to put my head into a noose) Я устал от бессонницы долгой (I'm tired of the long insomnia) От грустных стихов я устал (I'm tired of the sad poetry) Я устал казаться нормальным (I'm tired of pretending I'm okay) Я устал, я устал, я устал, я устал, я устал, я устал, я устал (I'm tired x7) Я просто устал (I'm just tired) Я устал, я очень сильно устал (I'm tired, I'm just so tired) Нет уже сил по барам спиваться (I'm tired of drinking myself into oblivion in bars) Но и нет сил прекращать запой (Yet I don't have the strength to stop) Нет уже сил хоть за что-то держаться (I don't have the strength to hold on to anything anymore) Весь мой мир словно не мой, немой, немой, немой (It's like the world isn't mine, it's numb, it's numb, it's numb) Ни рыдать не осталось желания (I'm not willing to cry anymore) Не ощущаю живым я себя (I don't feel alive) Я чувствую, скоро сломаюсь (I feel like I'm going to break soon) Суну в петлю голову я (I feel like I'm going to put my head into a noose)

Когда перестану я думать о смерти? (When will I stop thinking about death) Когда же избавлюсь от самого себя? (When will I rid of myself) Вошь я дрожащая или право имею (Am I a trembling louse or do I have the right) Убить... самого себя? (The right to kill...myself) Когда перестану я думать о смерти? (When will I stop thinking about death) Когда же избавлюсь от самого себя? (When will I rid of myself) Вошь я дрожащая или правда посмею (Am I a trembling louse or do I have the right) Убить (To kill) Убить самого себя? (The right to kill...myself)

Oh, my sweet decadance Oh, my darkness Painful goddess Oh, my darkness Oh, my sweet decadance Oh, my darkness Painful goddess Oh, my darkness My sweet decadance Oh, my darkness Painful goddess Oh, my darkness Oh, my sweet decadance Oh, my darkness Painful goddess Oh, my darkness Oh, my sweet decadance

Oh, my sweet decadance

[Outro Dialogue]

Сейчас товарищи, вы погрузитесь в гипнотическое состояние (And now, comrades, you're going to be submerged into the state of hypnosis) И вам будет произведено антиалкогольное внушение (And you're going to be exposed to the anti-alcoholic suggestion) Сядьте поудобнее (Sit comfortably) Расслабьтесь (Relax) Закройте глаза (close your eyes) Спать! Сон! Глубже, приятней, погружайтесь в сон! Спать! (Fall asleep! Sleep! Deeper, nicer, submerge into sleep! Sleep!) Алкоголь является ядом для нервной системы и психики (Alcohol is a poison for you nervous system and your psyche) Особенно при вашем неважном состоянии здоровья алкоголь является ядом для всего организма (Especially given the general unwell state of your health, alcohol is a poison for your entire organism) Глубже в сон! Даже сама мысль об алкоголе вызывает у вас ощущение неприятной реакции (Submerge deeper into the sleep! A mere thought of alcohol now invokes a feeling of an unpleasant reaction) Глубже спать! (Sleep deeper!) Oh, my darkness (Глубже!) (Deeper!) Painful goddess Каждый из вас берет в руки стакан (Oh, my darkness) (Everyone of you takes a glass) Стакан с водкой (A glass of vodka) My sweet decadance Попробуйте понюхать! Попробуйте понюхать! Поднесите к носу! Поднесите к носу! (Try to sniff it! x2 Bring it closer to your nose! x2) Нюхайте отвратительный запах! Отвратительная реакция! (Sniff in that stench! Disgusted reaction!) Спать! Спать! Сон! Сон! Спать! Легче, легче, легче стало (Fall asleep! x2 Sleep! x2 You feel better, better, better) На счет пять выйдите из состояния внушения, однако отвращение к алкоголю останется, останется непреодолимо! (On five, leave the state of suggestion, but keep the loathing of alcohol, keep it insurmountable!) Сейчас легко, приятно. Раз, два, три, четыре, пять! (It's easy and nice now. One, two, three, four, five!) Почувствуйте себя легче, свободнее (Feel better and free) Я наливаю водку, отвратительную водку, отвратительный запах! (I'm pouring some vodka, disgusting vodka, disgusting stench) Водка! Водка! Водка! Водка! (Vodka x4)

Lyrics : Spotify

Translation: Reddit

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I'll start writing it and put it in queue within the next couple days.

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I Love (To Hurt) You - Lifelover

Melodic yet heavy-hitting track from Swedish Depressive Black Metal band Lifelover's second full-length album 'Erotik'.

Sparse of lyrics but not of introspection, 'I Love (To Hurt) You' narrates the perspective of an ostracized man. With lyrics originally sang in Swedish, I will be interpreting the translated version.

Click Here for Lyrics & Translation

The song starts out melodic with simple guitar riffs, creating a dark and moody atmosphere. Lyrics come in 'Yesterday was too much' can be understood as alluding to addiction, perhaps the speaker had drunk too much or overdosed. 'I don’t want any more' pained by their overdose, the speaker grows sick of the feeling of inebriation and as they wake up of their lethargic state they see 'This stone floor-cold city', it could be the city itself is bare and minimalistic or it can be inferred that the speaker feels alone in their pain--waking up from an overdose with no one to lean on. 'An institution for dying flesh' 'Joy-sterilized by apathy' these lines reenforce the feeling of desolation, the city is a shell for death, the joy sucked away and returned with apathy. The speaker and all the others in the city are all victims of this apathy. 'Monotonous death-bringing concrete' once again, many minimalistic architecture are made with concrete and this city, this structure brings apathy to its inhabitants. This apathy is akin to death.

'My heart barely beats' 'I get nauseated when moving' the speaker references their deadly trip yesterday, suspicions of overdose becomes illuminated. Feeling both the physical aftermath of an overdose and the painful alienation that comes with it, the speaker is clearly struggling.

The bridge comes on 'A hermit wants to live alone' 'A hermit wants to live alone'. The speaker refers to themselves as the hermit, through third-person descriptors they share their isolation. 'I’ve reached a conclusion, there’s no place for me in this world' the apathetic city is too cold for the speaker, they give up hope for connection and resorts to isolation. 'My book isn’t for sale, and I don’t want to be disturbed by anyone, goodbye!' devoted to isolation, the speaker denies human connection.

The song ends with painful screams, descriptors of 'ash colored soul', 'A city, a block of misery', and 'Continuous woe', these lines all strive to define an already known truth. Devastated by the coldness of society, the speaker chooses isolation. They no longer hold out hope for change nor connection, resorting instead in this perceived normality.

The last line of the song 'I love you' could be translated as a message to a physical lover. One spark of warmth within a cold city, the flower that sprouts between concrete slabs. Or more metaphorically, the love the speaker holds is towards their once existent hope of humanity, their hope for warmth that was destroyed by this apathetic state.

Personal Opinion: This is one of my favourite songs to play on my guitar, simple in riffs and technique, it still creates a perfect ambiance. Lyrics wise, I don't speak Swedish so it was interesting to translate these lyrics (thanks to Genius) and try to form my own understanding of this song. The lyrics are relatable; in this capitalistic society many feel left behind and uncared for by their large and busy society. Many times you struggle with mental health or physically and find no one to turn to, this apathetic isolation drives people to find comfort in uncomfortable things--drugs, alcohol, sex etc. With these unhealthy coping mechanisms pain will increase and so will the need to cope again. With this never-ending cycle, it is easy to self-isolate. I intemperate the ending of the song similar to suicide, stuck in pain and alienation, death seems like heaven.

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hate to be that person but the lyrics for I Love (To Hurt) You are out of order '-.-

Hello. I did notice there were 2 different orders and I chose to translate in the order that was posted in the original language (Swedish) that was on Genius, I changed the order to the English one for now. If you speak Swedish and would like to tell me the actual order I'd appreciate it.

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I Love (To Hurt) You - Lifelover - Translated Lyrics

Det blev för mycket igår (Yesterday was too much) Jag vill inte mer (I don’t want any more) Det enda jag ser nu är (The only thing I see now is) Denna stengolvskalla stad (This stone floor-cold city) Kärnan till dessa rader (The core of these rows) En institution för döende kött (An institution for dying flesh) Glädjesteriliserad av apati (Joy-sterilized by apathy) Monoton dödsbringande betong (Monotonous death-bringing concrete)

Mitt hjärta bankar genstridigt (My heart barely beats) Kväljningar uppstår vid rörelse (I get nauseated when moving)

En eremit, vad står det här? (A hermit, what does this say?) En eremit vill leva ensam och isolerad (A hermit wants to live alone) Han får varken åsyn eller vju från andra människor (He can’t stand the sights or sounds of other people) Jag har kommit på en sak, jag passar inte in någonstans på denna jord (I’ve reached a conclusion, there’s no place for me in this world) Min bok är inte till salu, adjö! (My book isn’t for sale, and I don’t want to be disturbed by anyone, goodbye!)

En själ färgad såsom aska (Ash colored soul) En stad, ett block av misär (A city, a block of misery) Kontinuerligt elände (Continuous woe)

Jag älskar dig (I love you)

Lifelover – I Love (To Hurt) You Lyrics | Genius Lyrics

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Witch Club Satan - Self-Titled Signed LP

Witch Club Satan is an unsigned/independent Norwegian Black Metal band from Norway. Their main themes are feminism and witchcraft, Witch Club Satan also addresses many sociopolitical issues through their songs and platform.

Witch Club Satan's lineup is as follows: Victoria F. S. Røising (Bass), Nikoline Spjelkavik (Guitar), and Johanna Holt Kleive (Vocals and drums).

Formed in 2021, Witch Club Satan put out their first self-titled album on March 8th, 2024. This album includes 12 tracks and spans 44:12 minutes.

Personal Opinion: Witch Club Satan is one of my current favourite bands as they have taken a traditional genre of metal and made it theirs. Unlike many modern Black Metal bands, Witch Club Satan perfectly emulates the traditional Black Metal sound while putting on a beautifully theatrical and impactful performance. Witch Club Satan's sound is polished with a raw edge, through these tracks both melodic, mournful sounds are communicated softly along with anguished passionate screeches. Between fast-paced songs are those that seem almost out of place with their Melodic Black Metal sound. Witch Club Satan is one of the rare bands that are creating their own sound within the Black Metal community and I eagerly await their new projects.

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Let the Ocean Take Me - The Amity Affliction

The Amity Affliction is a Post-hardcore/Metalcore band from Gympie, Queensland, Australia. Many of their songs deal with highly personal subject matter such as depression, suicide, and substance abuse.

The Amity Affliction's current lineup consists of:

Joel Birch – lead vocals; lyricist 

Ahren Stringer – co-lead vocals; bass

Dan Brown – rhythm guitar; lead guitar; backing vocals

Joe Longobardi – drums 

With current (2024) touring musicians:

Tim Beken – clean vocals, bass

David Parkes – drums

'Let the Ocean Take Me' is The Amity Affliction's fourth studio album, released on June 5th, 2014. Spanning 10 tracks in 41:04 minutes, the theme of this album revolves around depression, anxiety and eventual self-discovery. Inspired in part by a near-death experience on 2013's Vans Warped Tour, the album takes the listener through a treacherous journey. With many references to bodies of water; The Amity Affliction portrays a feeling of helplessness and suffocation water clogging up the airways.

'Pittsburgh' starts off the album, alluding to their Warped Tour incident where lead singer Joel Birch’s near death experience occurred. Due to extreme dehydration and too much alcohol, Joel collapsed and suffered a seizure.

'Don't Lean on Me' is one of the most popular tracks from this album and also the origin of the album name. Baring their vulnerabilities, as Birch and Stringer take ownership of their despair they beg the listener to 'please don't drown with me' and 'let the ocean take me' seemingly accepting their deathly fate.

Soon though a turning point occurs within the emotional turmoil with 'Never Alone,' themes of fighting together and defeat of loneliness. The song ends with a voicemail with tales of substance issues and a longing for relation.

'F.M.L.' continues the trend of defeating their emotional turmoil but with doubt 'when will this ever end?' the narrator is unsure of their life path but 'I've got to find my way back again', they are willing to try.

'My Father's Son' continues the trend, with the narrator's introspection into their anger and its source. 'Give It All' ends this turbulent album with the message of juxtaposing ideas; one of defeat but also those of success.

Personal Opinion: The Amity Affliction was one of the first metal-adjacent bands I've ever listened to. Their deeply personal lyrics about depression and anxiety spoke to me during extremely turbulent and lost times. In some ways, The Amity Affliction was my gateway into metal music. I find their music to be melodically enjoyable and cathartic as the vocals conveys raw and real emotions. A while ago, I attended their 10th anniversary tour for 'Let the Ocean Take Me', it was an ethereal experience seeing such an emotionally honest performance.

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Too late to call an ambulance - Psychonaut 4

One of the most popular songs from Georgian Depressive Suicidal Black Metal band Psychonaut 4. One of my personal favourites and also the song that inspired this blog name.

This track originates from Psychonaut 4's third full-length album 'Neurasthenia'.

A poignant and introspective song, 'Too late to call an ambulance' delves into the story of dealing with the tragic aftermath of suicide. Bringing the listener along with them as the main character of the song discovers the scene 'he did not leave a note, they usually leave', this first sentence sets the scene for a suicide. The lyrics after suggests the person that has passed had not bothered to clean their room, hinting at a lethargic headspace common in depressive episodes. 'The smell of alcohol' and 'particular smell of blood', it is known now that something tragic as occurred. The alcohol indicates the dead's issues, codependency with alcohol to drink the pain away. White faced and yellow teethed, more indicators of poor health heeded; the dead was suffering. Acceptance, 'there's nothing here to do' the narrator concedes that the dead cannot wake and there is no point trying to save them. Now the narrator reflects upon the dead's life 'he just got tired of being a bastard' this further drives the dead's self-loathing, to the point in which they committed suicide. Ending the painful turmoil of life was 'a huge cut on his arm' and then 'it's all over with him'. Leaving the listener is the lasting sentiment of helplessness; no matter how or when death comes, it is too late to call an ambulance.

Personal Opinion: Despite being Psychonaut 4's most popular song and seemingly overplayed, I feel that this song has deserved that spot wholly. Painful yet melodic screams poses as a juxtaposition against the sometimes aggressive yet sometimes mellow music. The lyrics are sinful; dripping with pain so raw there is fresh blood dripping from it. Perhaps from personal relation, I feel a deep connection with this song. Many that have struggled with self-harm or suicidal ideation may understand the feeling of their pain echoing back to them. Artistic yet raw, this is one of Psychonaut 4's most masterful work and one I hold dear to my heart.

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KoRn 25/09/24

This was one of the best days of my life