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Characters are like piñatas. The real fun begins when you break them

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The cousin of "he would not say that:" he would not keep saying that. It was a one off funny line for one particular situation. Every memorable line does not need to become a running gag.

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Make sure you don't accidentally punish people for communicating their needs and boundaries. When someone cares enough to have the uncomfortable conversation, that's a compliment and a clear sign that they are invested in the relationship. Yes of course it's uncomfortable to hear that something you've been doing has been upsetting someone you care about when that was never your intention, but people generally only bother to have these conversations with the people they want to keep around - the people they trust to care. If they just didn't like you, they'd probably just try to avoid you. So make sure you don't make it into a more punishing experience than it has to be. Try to see the care and the trust behind the criticism, even when it triggers uncomfortable emotions. It's a good sign that they're there telling you.

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come on gimme things to sort. i'm so fucking good at sorting come on lemme sort

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You're not actually a better friend for not articulating and respecting your own needs, limits and boundaries. Your lack of communication and boundaries is not some impressive sacrifice. You're not doing anyone any favors by acting like you're okay with things you aren't okay with. You're just building burnout and resentment that will eventually damage the relationship in question. And when you eventually snap and walk away because you silently overburdened yourself to be a "good friend", it won't be the other persons fault

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my blog is just one long love letter to myself and all the people i used to be

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trying not to give in to anxious thoughts tuesday

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I AM SOMETBING PRETENDING TO BE HUMAN i have always been something pretending to be human i have always pretended to be human i have always been more thing than person i am something pretending to be human

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Sometimes it is your fault.. Sometimes you don’t listen well enough, you’re selfish, you’re rude and you aren’t always right. Sometimes you fucked it up and tbh that’s okay. It happens, learn from it, apologize and keep it moving. Just because you fucked up doesn’t mean you’re a bad person. Don’t dwell on it

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i don’t like how endings in real life come on so suddenly without making sense, without much warning. one minute you’re in the middle of something and the next it’s all a very long time ago and you’re a different person and none of it is ever coming back

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One thing I really appreciate about my therapist is that she stopped asking me a long time ago, “and do you think that [anxious thought] is rational?”

Because she knows. She knows I grew up in and escaped a high control group (cult) before. She knows that when I’m noticing things other people are scoffing at, I’m the canary in the coal mine beating my wings to try and escape the cage before I get dragged under by the people around me who are refusing to see the signs. Either because they believe it will never happen to them or because they don’t see it as a problem.

And she knows I can’t run. Not really. So instead her responses are, “it’s good you can acknowledge you feel this way, but let’s try and focus on your breathing and what we can do to help you get through today,” because that’s really all I can do at the moment. And I know it’s all a lot of us can do right now too.

So if you need permission to do nothing but the bare minimum to survive today, here it is. Take one step at a time, one breath at a time if you need to. And outlive the fuckers no matter what.

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I think it's actually very buddhist of me to have no object permanence. No emotional attachments when I physically can't make myself keep anything in my mind. "It's all in your head" nah ain't nothing in my head. Can't hold grudges or resentments when people who wronged or annoyed me just stop existing for me the second they're out of my field of vision. No thoughts head empty, I am free.

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“never too late to be who you might have been” by sara yukiko mon | still from i saw the tv glow, “there is still time”

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have we tried sitting completely still in a dark room, my liege?

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y'all not to doxx myself too hard but irl i have spent some time in my life in mental health recovery, and i am here to tell anyone who needs to hear it that people with multiples & schizophrenia & psychosis & BPD are fun and interesting and lovable people and my friends

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People say “phase” like impermanence means insignificance. Show me a permanent state of the self.