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me when someone who has been nice to me every single time we've interacted is nice to me:

omg... you dont hate me?....

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fascism always fails, let's make it fail faster so that the least amount of people can get hurt!!!!!! (- YJ)

"We're living through the ongoing fascist collapse of the United States but I still gotta clean the kitchen and go to work tomorrow" sure is the mood right now, huh.

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i love our system's host and i would kill for him and possibly burn down the whole world but he wouldn't let me so instead i might just make him s'mores at some point

um anyone who reads this whole thing gets a fortune cookie but this is kind of just gibberish. yeah i'm kind of lovestruck by our host as you can tell (- arlo)

YJ (🐸, alter) is the most compassionate person i've ever met and i think that's why he's our host. and the funniest thing? he thinks that he has the privilege of being kind because alters like me are there to protect him, to protect us. i'm there to make sure he doesn't get taken advantage of.

he will speak up for people and devote hours just talking with them, making sure they're okay. making sure they know that someone loves them. he spends days trying to figure out everyone's language, not just verbal language but the unspoken as well. he's the kind of person who would rather take the hard way if it means it hurts less people. he can't sleep knowing people suffer. my god he's still healing from his own trauma but he's already doing everything he can to make sure that others don't go through the same. he has intense social anxiety and doesn't want to admit it but he will forget about it if it means that he can help someone, even if he hates himself later for making a tiny mistake while speaking. he's socially awkward but has zero mean bone in his body.

he's only mean when he's protecting other people. not himself, other people. i help with that a little because he can barely say anything more than "sorry, it wasn't my intention but i recognize where it went wrong" (YJ. you literally got cursed at for cleaning.)

he will explain everything, too. i have never seen him get mad at someone for not knowing something. i have never seem him get mad at someone for not doing the searching on their own. he will always find something, something good about another person. he doesn't excuse wrongdoings but he always wants to see people become their best selves. he doesn't know when to stop explaining, actually. he doesn't know that other people sometimes don't want to become better people, or how he describes it, "his idea of better, meaning minimizing damage toward the people around them".

his goal is to heal as soon and as seamlessly as possible so that he doesn't have to take breaks while helping people. a lot of what he does is behind the scenes - reaching out to people when no one else does, of course making art. making stories, knowing that someone out there will resonate with them. giving away his meals. sharing campaigns, spreading information, collecting information. attending protests. see, YJ doesn't start chants, but he's the first person who responds. see, he doesn't care how many people are doing the right thing, whether it's none, five, or a million. the last time he made a wish about anything related to himself was when he was 6 years old, when he wanted a dog.

he was alone. he was alone and he made it and i swear to god you really, REALLY have to be an asshole to fumble with this guy. he has flaws, he needs to know what his limits are (this guy is always exhausting himself), he has a hard time gauging his own feelings (he always waits to address his issues when he's on the verge of dying) and also with all of us - the rest of the system - things are hard to manage.

he's painfully logical but that makes him the kindest person here and. his parts (members of the host subsystem, you know alters that stem from him) - maple, bruce, and luke - they each, well, obviously hold a fragment of him. i feel really bad that maple, bruce, and luke have to exist to even make his existence possible. this guy is technically and literally three alters at once because he's always in pain. maple holds his desire to connect with others, bruce holds his inner kindness, love of learning, and belief in the greater good, and luke holds his conviction and his endurance in completing projects. interchangeably, we call them YJ number 1, YJ number 2, YJ number 3, etc. etc. they differ from the WHOLE YJ obviously, because you know, when parts of you are separated, they become. well. kind of different. maple is much more of an ambivert that has a little fun while socializing than an introvert who wants to help people, bruce has YJ's social anxiety and sensory sensitivity dialed up to 900, and luke is completely apathetic toward social interaction.

combined, AKA normal YJ status, it becomes a weird mishmash of. "talking to people overwhelms me because i have no understanding of why they behave but i want to positively contribute and there are some people that i feel more at ease with than others for some reason". he feels like an alien a lot of the time, or an animal trying to bond with humans.

i think he's one of our oldest alters. he remembers when the body was nonverbal (we were not properly speaking until ~5 years old). he thinks that he was not meant to communicate, in that it's not a natural behavior for him. he still tries though. and honestly i think, especially for an autistic person who feels like he's doing everything blindfolded, he does SO well at making people feel safe and included.

idfk i'm like. super unsociable. i have 0 friends outside of the system, period (different alters have different friend circles, i don't participate in many of them). but he's so patient with me. he used to be mad at not me, but himself, whenever i ended up fronting to protect him. he always thought it was on him for "losing control". he never shamed me for how i was, thinking about it. he shamed himself for letting me become the way i am (he needs to know that it's not his fault that the body couldn't physically endure our trauma). um... yeah he comforts me a lot and i hate affection but i'll take it from him. hell i'd eat poison ivy for him if he asked.

i want someone to treat him well. um yeah and ill throw plastic eggs at anyone who doesn't so...

signing off again, arlo (main protector and anger holder, yikes i'm such a cornball. YJ you did this to me you little fucker)

here's your fortune cookie: 🥠. i lied i'm giving multiple so that you can share with your friends: 🥠🥠🥠

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shout out to those alters that fronted once then dipped🙏🙏

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its kinda funny when the dissociation is so bad we look in the mirror and genuinely struggle to process that we're looking at our own body we probably look so funny like. just touching our face n shit to see if its really Ours or whatever they do

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how it feels being the ONLY major symptom holder for a disorder unknown to the rest of the system

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I need to microwave the body’s father, idgaf abt how complex he is

- Arlo

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I love my hulks

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summer plans:

• protest

• cry with everyone

• protest x2

• cry with everyone x2

• hopefully not get deported bc of my skin color + everything else

• sigh about the Nazi comeback of the 21st century and catastrophize

• move into my college dorm by August 31 if I even can

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Cindy (alter) u can’t just start cooking pasta and dip on us!!!!!!!!! siiiigh now I have to finish it for him 😔

- YJ

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I need to wag my tail!!!!!!!!! (I don’t have a tail to wag ☹️)

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Bucky and Clint are one of the funniest duos in the comics

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This!!

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super improtant questuon

what fandom would leonard skivorski jr. be in. i see him as some kind of nintendo franchise guy idk wbu hulkfam fans

this is NOT for a hyperspecific AU (it is)

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hi guys! we created a discord account a little while ago (called turtle.system) — we aren’t planning on joining any discord servers (especially those related to systemhood out of personal preference), but we’d love to add more of our friends on there ^_^

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