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[unitlychee]

why did I feel vacant in filled spaces. im emotionally shut down. my longing for sanity was merely treaded by weary thoughts and transgressions. one day i will be okay.

[unitlychee]

im numb but not that numb, i wanna fall harder into the abyss of destruction. why do i keep falling back into the loop. Help me.

[unitlychee]

my sweet orb… I’ll do my best to protect you. although im not alright, your happiness is all I care about. blind me from insanity my sweet orb.

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i don’t know how to feel. I want to cry but after crying I still feel sad. the manuscript in my brain is damaged. my parts are missing and I’m entering insanity.

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the plane of emotion took off. the numb feeling is turbulence. may it land safely or it’s a long cycle of insanity. please land plane, I just want to be okay.

[unitlychee]

i find myself being on autopilot for most of the time. it’s easier to fully dissociate and live in my thoughts pleading for sanity.

[unitlychee]

was it over? the comfort of my damaged boy gone? was once a beautiful home now a damaged nightmare. fuck i miss him.

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it’s the part of me that thinks it will get better but it’s the familiarity that keeps me comfortable. i can start fresh and hope for a better ending or self loath in my warm damaged hole.

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I've been processing feelings and emotions for days. my subconscious has been ripping the manual script pages to my brain

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mki I’m gonna be sharing my insane thoughts here and twt.