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Had the dumbest fucking dream - for some reason, I am friends with mads mikkelsen (he is not an actor in the dream, in fact, he is very hannibal-ish), and both of us just got back to his house (looks eerily similar to my old house) after the funeral of the parish priest of the church we both go to. And I'm getting water, my back turned away from him, and he very wistfully goes, "He passed just as my prescription ended. I won't be having to take this anymore."

I don't know what 'it' is, so I turn around and approach him from behind to look over his massive arm clothed in a black linen shirt with the sleeves rolled up (:)), and it's a box full of little vials and on the box it says 'Holy Water', and with marker writing on it that says 'As prescribed by [name of priest who just died], PhD. Take once daily.'

I'm dumbfounded, coz what the fuck?, but I didn’t want to be rude so I'm not sure whether I should address the holy water, and just as I'm about to comfort him over the death or something, he goes 'It was to keep away demon possessions - guess I'm just an open vessel now....'

And it's all so stupid coz on one hand I'm like 'bro this is so weird, why are you so weird', and on the other hand I'm so horny for this guy, I'm like 'whatever you say babygirl, just hold my hand.'

My god, this is so stupid and pathetic. It's so funny.

Anyways, in conclusion, pretty privelege is real, even in dreams.

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Am at a church thing. This is essentially a boomer rant sesh.

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Just came to the end of another game of monopoly. Me and my siblings are no longer talking. My mum's pretending to be in a telenovella.

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You know, sometimes I don't want to be a bad bitch, I want to be a frail woman suffering from melancholia, who must be handled with the utmost care, lest she falls away into a spell of demonic possession.

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people are so disappointing sometimes.

i mean, they are also the best. and the worst.

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Contradiction is truth. And it isn't.

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I think the problems of most, if not all, modern science, is that we seldom see our own existences as a part of vast science we are uncovering, as in, we don't see/situate our selves into the framework of science.

So this causes a dissonance, a huge one at that, in our pursuit of knowledge.

What you need to understand about everything, and I mean everything, everything, the things we know and don't, is that it's all an equation of tense - an equation of opposing strengths, with opposing cores that pull/push each other.

examples and more on this statement -

what force is, between 2 objects - between is the important word. that interaction is the core equation. this effect of and effected on binary that each of the nodes of this model are - this is the core principle of everyone.

so this push and pull, iterated over varied numbers of iterations is what manifests as (at different levels) - love, force, light (emitting and absorbing), life (birth to death).

At any level tho, this push and pull can have 2 possible results - either maintain this equilibrium or fall away, essentially to infinity. - you see, 0 and infinity - 2 extremes

All of these levels are looped over and over - as in, because of mutation, and not because of it (see, heisenberg's uncertainty principle), there is no beginning and end, just a continuous loop - but this is a contrary argument to the binary structure - here then again we'll have ideological push and pull - 2 opposing ideas. so it loops again.

at an screenshot/obeserved section - all the binaries will at a point to this spectrum between the 2 binaries - see, the co-existence of spectrum/continuous and discrete means that the core truth is beyond us, but our closest approximation is - 2 binary points and the spectrum (continuous) between them.

2 binary points + their continuum => looped infinity (again, ideological break, so level-spectrum continuous)

kinda like the little man in the sun hypothesis

the standard model, or any current structures of studying quantum shit will not extrapolate in any amount will reveal universal truth for us, it has to mutate, change from current form to something new.

it has all the data, the answer is staring at us - but alas, we are too vain. Too vain to consider as flesh, as meat, at just at the mercy of arbitrary nature, ego less, pride less, on our knees, begging, in pain, but grateful and loving all the same, will we truly see. truly get it - this is the tragedy of it

we are doomed, from the beginningless beginning, we were doomed.

it's a wretched life, and I'm grateful for it. - frankenstein's monster wanted his life, regardless of it's misery.

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Someone better like this shit, because I might be going through hell, but if it isn't at least funny, what's the point?

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Spoke too soon.

I have fucked up.

Officially.

This is it.

There is no coming back from this.

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The horrors have assembled and are procreating. Never thought I'd not enjoy an orgy.

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I have intimately known misery, and yet learned to be kind, but bureaucracy makes me want to engage in criminal activities for creative purposes.

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Mathew: hey thomasine! Thomasine: fk off. Narrator: this is a love story.

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Experienced feelings in public. Led to me crying. Currently harboring mixed feelings about entire ordeal.

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I have fucked up.

Officially.

This is it.

There is no coming back from this.

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This needs a disclaimer. Fuck.

I'm sorry, this photo is actually everything to me like wow HOLY FUCK this man is SO, so fine!! 🥵🥵🥵

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Bruh.

So my sister is on insta and so am i, and we follow each other and i was watching reels and a the ss showed up where it's like 'my daughter is fine. No, your daughter reads smut during breakfast with a straight face." And she had liked it.

Like, bitch i don't need that information in my life. I have changed your diapers.....

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Oh my gawdddd! Did you guys know that spider monkeys are real animals? Apparently, they are a kind of monkey.

I just thought it was a weird word association that the century-old sparkly danger boi said to the horny personality-less teenage girl.