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Es fühlt sich einfach alles so schrecklich egal an ..Früher habe ich noch Aagst gehabt, Angst davor alles zu beenden, doch Jetzt?!

Jetzt ist es die Angst meiner Familie schrecklich wehzutun ...dieser Gedsnke hält mich hier ..

Aber ansonsten ..ich fühle mich so unglaublich leer ...so traurig aber irgendwie auch komplett emotionslos..

Ich weiß einfach nicht weiter ..

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Langsam...langsam, komme ich ans Ziel ...

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Lange habe ich es ohne es ausgehalten ..Aber es gibt einen Punkt...den jeder von uns kennt ..an dem es einfach nichts mehr gibt...nichts mehr, was einem kurzfristig mehr Entlastung gibt, als die Klinge durchzuziehen ...😔

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if you have ever suffered from…  

• depression 

• anxiety 

• eating disorder 

• self-harm

• ocd 

• bipolar 

• feelings of guilt and hopelessness 

• suicidal thoughts 

can you please reblog to show support for people who also suffer. you are not alone.

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fasting moods

fuck fuck fuck ow hungrey

YEAH IM DRINKING COFFEE AT 4:30 PM DON’T QUESTION ME

weirdly, I’m ok!

EVERYTHING IS GREAT! I’VE LITERALLY NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY! DOPAMINE IS FLOODING MY BRAIN!!!

snzzzz

does smelling food have calories???? does toothpaste have sugar??? which zero cal sodas break fast??? Hey Google-

cold cold cold hhhhhhh cold

see I’m fine! I can even exercise!! It’s like I’m barely doing anything at all!!! *passes out*

sorry I have to pee again

*stares at fridge* *fridge stares back*

frantic thinspo scrolling on every platform you own

feel free to add

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I AM SO SORRY...

I'm very sorry about not posting that much in the last few days...I felt like not be worthy to write anything...

In the last 3 days I had no self-control abut my meals...I ate too much ..and now I feel horrible... Monday I'll start a new 3 days fast is anyone interested to join ?!

Stay strong..

Love vanelli💗

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Eating disorders have many faces

They can look like fearing carbs and fats and they can look like carefully planned ‘junk food’.

They can look like drinking litres of water and they can look like a fear of liquids.

They can look like constant adrenaline-fueled activity and they can look like being unable to move.

They can look like strict regimes and they can look like a jumbled mess.

They can look like constant checking in mirrors and they can look like a fear of your reflection.

They can look like loved ones begging you to change and they can look like nobody knowing there’s a problem. 

They can look like drips and tubes and they can look like being physically healthy.

They can look like relapses and recovery attempts and they can look like never changing.

They can look like countless behaviours always changing and they can look like the same thing every day.

They can look like isolating yourself from the world and they can look like an active social life.

They can look like years of treatment and they can look like never getting help.

They can look like understanding that there is a problem and they can look like complete denial.

There is no one image of someone with an eating disorder, as there is no one image of someone with a broken leg, someone with cancer, someone with a virus.

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Hard pills to swallow

Some of us will never have a thigh gap or a very large one because of our bone structure

Some of us will never have a snatched waist because of our body shape.

Your body shape wont change when you lose weight it will only become a smaller version of it

Some of us will never have the hollow cheeks, an obvious jaw line, slim face, high cheek bones, etc because of our face shape

Some of us will never have the bony hands that so many desire because we werent made to have them

Some of us will never have the obvious ribs or small ones because they come in different sizes

Some of us will never have what someone else has!!

No matter how much weight you lose it all comes down to the blue print of your body.

No one is made the same, some of us are similar but never the same. Do not compare yourself to someone who is nothing like you. You will never be them and they will never be you. Focus on the best possible version of you that you can be. You know your body best, you know what you can and cant have you just dont want to admit it. Accept yourself and improve yourself with what you do have:)

You wanna know what i have?

I have boney hands but not a snatched waist

I have a thigh gap but not a slim face

That is normal and fankly every single person in life wishes they were someone else.

Stay safe

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AM I THE ONLY ONE?

I'm struggling with myself, I'm scared of doing sports because that would mean gaining muscle. That, in turn, would mean that the weight would go up. On the other hand, muscles also mean higher calorie consumption, so greater fat burning ... Please tell me this is not just my problem ?! And then I just think to myself, "What kind of stupid nugget are you?"

PLEASE TELL ME I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE ?!🙈🙈🙈🙈

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GUUUYYSS I JUST FOUND OUT THAT CALCIUM HELPS TO GET RID OF FAT😳😳😳

I'll try it a few days and will give you a feedback ..

"Calcium is also very important for the metabolism. It ensures that less fat is stored and that the macronutrients in the blood are better used. Calcium also increases the amount of fat that the body converts into energy to raise body temperature. An increased body temperature stimulates the metabolism and burns more fat."

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Please Reblog is Your Blog is Safe for Non-Binary People.

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Please don't juge me.. Unfortunately I know that I still have a fat stomach and yes, unfortunately my ribs are still not clearly visible ... But believe me, I'm working very hard on it ... Please support me on my way to the perfect body 🙈🙈🙈 I would also be very happy about your help ...

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Okay guys... I am nearly there...

Today I ate less then 200kcal and already burned 2200 kcal. Please support me on my way to perfection!!

Ana..I'm on my way....

Do you have any assistance fore me ? Please comment...

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I really need your help.

I'm going mad...Whenever I try to get rid of my food and throw up, very little comes out.So far I have lost 10 kg, 15 kg are still missing to perfection. Please help me, give me help to vomit better and, above all, to vomit more.

Please help me...

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Ich brauche eure Hilfe, ich verzweifel immer mehr...wenn ich mal esse fühle ich mich so schrecklich. Danach versuche ich immer mich zu übergeben, aber es ist schrecklich, egal wie sehr ich es auch versuche ich bekomme immer nur wenig Essen wieder raus...Bitte helft mir, wie kann ich mehr und leichter erbrechen ? Ich habe bis jetzt 10kg abgenommen es fehlen noch 15kg zur Perfektion von 40kg...helft mir das Ziel zu erreichen..