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Formerly named citrus-writes!

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Hia! To celebrate me coming back to writing lately, im going to be rebranding the blog a bit! Don't worry, the writing and rules will be the same, im only changing my username and the visual theme of the blog!

For the theme i'm thinking; red, pink, white and maybe cyan. Possibly roses as a motif.

For the new name, im thinking something related to vanilla? I think it suits me more that citrus

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hi!! Which yanderes would be most open to bringing their darlings outside/in public?

Which yanderes would bring their darling out in public--

// For all of these, this is with the assumption that darling hasn't tried to escape in a long time or ever, has earned their yanderes trust, and if they do try to escape, they will be kept in the house again. If these criteria aren’t met, I don't think any yandere would risk bringing their darling outside. //

Yanderes who would bring you in public willingly and frequently-- 

Yanderes who like to show their darling off, they like other people to see you two together, they like how even with others around your eyes never stray from them. And they like to treat you to little things because you're so good, and you deserve to be happy (when and how they allow, of course). And when you're so grateful to go out, smile wide and eyes shining, they find more and more reasons to bring you outside. These yanderes prefer you to be wherever they are, and likely bring you along on any outings they take.

Chrollo, pakunoda, pariston, leorio, neon

Yanderes who will bring you in public as a reward--

Yanderes who aren't in love with the idea of bringing out outside, afterall so much could go wrong. But if you’ve been particularly good- sweet and affectionate and obedient- then they’ll humor you for a day out of the house. In most cases, these yanderes will let you choose where the two of you go, and they will do anything in their power to make sure you have a wonderful day. Of course, you won’t be let out of their sight, and they’ll be on high alert all day long, but it’s worth it to make you happy.

Shalnark, machi, franklin, silva, kurapika, hisoka

Yanderes who will let you in the yard, but never in public--

These yanderes want you to be happy, and know that never being allowed outside could hurt you mentally and physically, but they can’t risk bringing you into public. Too much could go wrong and they can’t stand the idea of someone else seeing you when you are supposed to belong only to them. The compromise is to let you into the yard frequently, giving you time in the fresh air and sunlight without risking the chance of you intersecting with someone else. It’s a perfect compromise, in their eyes. 

Phinks, uvogin, illumi, nobunaga

Yanderes who are never letting you out of the house-- 

Yanderes who hate the very idea of ever letting you see the sun again, are offended by the notion of you existing outside of their home. You belong to them, and you’ll stay right where they want you- in the house. These yanderes are likely to become hostile if you ask to go outside, and once you’ve been denied, it’s best not to ask again. Most of these yanderes will see your desire to go outside as a desire to get away from them, even if it really is just an innocent desire to get fresh air. Best case, they’ll open a window for you to sit in front of.

shizuku, feitan, kikyo, milluki

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Sorry for bothering you, but for the requests you’re keeping, are the numbers the order you’re doing them in? Like starting with the crazy child reader? (Which I’m excited to read.) Thank you! Drink water!

Hi! The order there in is actually just (roughly) the order of them in my inbox, from newest to oldest. I’ll admit, I don't do requests in any certain order, just in whatever order I get around to them. 

For me, it’s hard to stick with a schedule, so I tend to just let myself work on what I feel like. Most times, the ones that take the least time are the ones I do first, since they’re easy to write. Such as requests that sort the yandere into categories, or yandere reactions to things. Full on drabbles take much longer. I do have quite a few wips in my docs right now, but no promises when they’ll be done. I'm coming out of a long period of inactivity so I'm taking it slow.

thank you so much!

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Yandere Garma Zabi

a/n: I wrote this when I wrote the char yandere overview, but it took me awhile to edit because I wasn't super confident with it. still, garma is my boy and I needed to write something about him. this is based mostly off of garma's personality in origin, but is applicable to the 79 series as well.

Garma Zabi-

-Garma is a yandere who is dependent on his darling's validation, spoiled and entitled, whose emotions are prone to cloud his judgment. He is a yandere who won't accept anything less than his darling’s full and undivided affections, and is likely to lash out or break down if he doesn't get what he wants; not out of anger, but out of despair.

-garma is likely to approach his darling in a normal setting, having possibly seen them before, or at least having watched them all night. He assures himself he’s not nervous to talk to them- why would he be?- but his heart is pounding. It’s like something has changed in him and he can’t pull his eyes away from them.

- While normally charismatic, he finds himself more nervous than he should be. His palms are sweaty, his heart races, he practises his words in his head. You’re nobody, but he feels tongue tied. It’s embarrassing how he hesitates, how he can hardly think of anything to say beyond a standard greeting and a smile. It’s unbecoming of him to be like this.

-if you're kind to him despite it, he falls for you for your kindness; desperate to remain in your good graces, desperate for more of your kindness. If you’re rude to him, he’ll fall for your attitude; desperate to prove to you that he should not be dismissed so easily. Either way, the second your eyes meet his, your fate is sealed. He’s hooked on you. 

-He makes a point to stay in the conversation as long as he can, and even after that he keeps an eye on you. He’s enthralled by all that you do- everything you say and every expression that crosses your face and every movement you make. And he makes careful note of anyone you talk to.

-he knows immediately that you're his, that you're perfect for him and that you’ll be happy together. It’s almost delusional, how quickly he’s convinced that you're his future. Garma has always gotten what he wanted, and he’s sure this will be no different. He’s determined to not rely on his family's help for this- he’s more than just a Zabi heir, and he’ll prove as much to you. While many things in his life have been granted to him by the right of his blood, you’re different. Something he wants purely for himself. Despite his nerves when first meeting you, he knows you better now, and he’s certain he’ll easily be able to sway your heart with all the knowledge he’s picked up by his extensive digging into your personal life.

-he thinks of you all the time- frankly, it distracts him. At dinner, at any gala, at meetings- at all times, his mind drifts to you. All he really wants is to be back in your company. You motivate him though, to pursue greatness not just for the nation of Zeon, or for the recognition of his family, but for you- so you’ll smile at him and maybe be proud and maybe offer your little praises. It pushes him further and further. Most people have no idea what has caused this sudden ambition in him; what had cast aside his nervous and fidgety manner and instead replaced it with an anxious and overzealous -frankly, reckless- desire to achieve greatness. 

-it can’t be a coincidence that this is the same time you appeared in his life. No matter who you are- a civilian of zeon, a civilian of earth, a political figure, a soldier- it’s impossible to ignore the effect you have on Garma. the men under his command notice, and his family as well- though their reactions vary heavily. Gihren finds this a trivial distraction to garma, Dozle is overjoyed that his younger brother has found love, Kycilia is amused regardless of the outcome, and Degwin is cautiously optimistic for Garma. It’s likely that at least a few of the Zabi’s are aware of how deep Garma’s affections are; aware of the obsessive tendencies that walk the line between ‘adorably devoted’ and ‘dangerously enamored’.

-he finds a reason to be around you, or pulls strings to bring you closer to him. Wouldn't it be crazy if you were offered a job at the Zabi’s family estate? Or aboard his ship? Or in his fleet under his command? You couldn't possibly turn down such an offer. You wouldn't. You’d better not. Isn't it crazy how every party you attend he happens to also be in attendance of? And how you’re suddenly invited to nearly every party held by the upper class of Zeon. It’s almost too crazy a coincidence to ignore. But you wave it off, afterall, it’s conceited and paranoid to think that a member of the Zabi family is nearly stalking you. No one would believe you if you told them, so you push any worries from your mind and count yourself lucky to be in good company.

-when he’s able to spend consistent time around you, it’s easy to tell what sorts of things you like- from jewelry to foods to little trinkets to clothing. He loves buying you gifts. He has no problem spending hours picking out the perfect gifts for you; agonising over colors and patterns and how you may read into it. Would it be too obvious his love for you? Too subtle? Any worries you have about accepting gifts from your employer or commanding officer will be waved away, dismissed by him because he’ll make sure you don't get into trouble, now that he’s in your life, you’ll have nothing to worry about. You think to yourself that he’s arrogant to think so, but he’s right. 

-As soon as Garma Zabi enters your life, you notice things start to get easier for you. At first you don't put two and two together, but every now and then he’ll say something about a new event in your life that you're certain he shouldn't know. He waves it off carelessly as you forgetting you’d said it, or him hearing it from someone else. But something feels wrong. Garma has been kind in a somewhat awkward and nervous way, he’d certainly never given you reason to think badly of him. But you think of how present he’s become in your life and can’t help but wonder if it’s deliberate.

-Garma starts to take up an excessive amount of your time. You don't notice the way he creeps deeper and deeper into your life, how he starts to be around you all the time. At first it’s welcome, he’s smart and he’s funny and he’s kind. His little mannerisms are cute and he seems to really listen to you when you talk, like he really cares. All welcome qualities in someone you would spend so much time with. But the more he lingers around, the more you wonder why. He’s a Zabi heir- and what are you? What makes you special? That horrible feeling that Garma isn’t all he seems grows by the day.

-Garma is exceedingly vulnerable with you. It’d surprise you, somewhat. The Zabi family had a fearsome reputation, and he was a competent commander on the battlefield befitting of that name. But there’s something a little bit more open to him than his siblings. Softer eyes and an underlying air of insecurity. He seems to want to be open with you, hopeful for your support whenever he offers any information on himself. Anytime he shares an opinion, he glances towards you to gauge your reaction. When he offers to take you somewhere, he eagerly awaits your response, hoping for all encompassing joy. Garma has become obsessed with receiving your affections and praise, your smile and laugh have become something integral to his life, and if he does not get the reaction he’s hoping for, he’ll often sulk and throw fits when he’s alone.

-he encourages the same vulnerability from you- eagerly supporting any opinions you have, happily helping you with any problems you face, supporting you in any facet of your life. It’s easy to fall into dependency on him- the man who supports you endlessly and who wants to spend every waking moment with you.

-Gamra is volatile if he doesn't get the attention and support from you he’s seeking; the unconditional affection he thinks he deserves. Any criticism or coldness from you sends him in a panic, desperately trying to earn back your lost favor, desperately trying to appeal you to his side of things. He does everything he can think of that could help you see him in the light you saw him in before- scrambling to make amends and win back your praise and affection. There is no length he wouldn't go to to earn a smile or word of praise from you. The desperate scrambling you coax from him with just a single look is the confirmation that you needed to know that Garma isn't right, and hasn't been for a long time.

-Garma is a yandere who is dependent on your affection and praise and adoration to feel secure. He has always been his father’s favorite, but his siblings never saw him as competent or worthwhile, and a lifelong desire to earn their praise has spiraled into a desperate need for outside validation. Be it from the people of Zeon, or you; his most beloved. Being deprived of these things makes him emotional, reckless, nearly manic in his attempts to fix things. From begging to your forgiveness, to desperately trying to make amends, to pursuing military victory at all costs. anything that it takes to earn your admiration. It seems like bad things happen whenever you try to pull back from him. On some level, you're responsible for his emotional state. On some level, anything he does to earn your love is your fault.

-upsetting him is a mistake; not because he will hurt you, or even those you love, but because he has secured a place in your life and has gotten you accustomed to his gentle demeanor, his effortless calm, and seeing him fall apart hurts you more than you’d thought it would. Most times when he breaks down like this, you realize it was never worth it to begin with. Whatever he might have done or said, whatever you might have done or said, it’s not worth all the heartache. You almost always find yourself running your fingers through his hair and gently reassuring him. 

-it doesn't surprise you when he tells you he loves you, but you still hadn't expected it. Everything he’d done these past months has implied as much, and maybe it should have been obvious; maybe it was willful ignorance on your part for not noticing. But once he admits his feelings for you- with that hopeful, desperate looking in his eyes- you know you can't turn him away, even if you want to. He’s elated when you return his feelings, so happy his hands shake when he holds you.

-whether or not you’ve fallen for him, it’s impossible to turn him down at this point. And even if you did, the results would be catastrophic for you. He would kill your family and friends, he would kidnap you, and you’d almost certainly never see the light of day again, not to mention all the innocent people who could be hurt by the backlash of his breakdown. So really, it’s fantastic for both of you that you share his feelings. 

-you’re a pillar of support in his life, and he does everything in his power to keep you near him at all times. When you're away from him he feels he can hardly breathe, like there’s something missing and his anxiety eats at him. Where are you? What are you doing?

-life with Garma is easy, he is every bit the prince he appears to be towards you. Most days, he’s the soft smiles and the hopeful look in his eye when he takes you by the hand. And most days, you’ll thread your fingers with his in the display of affection he was hoping for. That’s all he wants afterall; for you to love him, really and truly. Were you really so frigid that you couldn’t offer that? Decidedly not, as you settle into his side and lace your fingers with his without being prompted.

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hello, sorry to bother u but i wanted to ask if u still do matchups…!!

Hi! Thank you so much for asking! I’m not currently doing matchups.

I’ve been missing from the writing scene for a good while and want to work through some of my requests, as well as try to get my writing spark and motivation back. I tend to get a lot of matchups requests when they’re open, and I don’t want to risk overwhelming myself right now. I’ll make an update post and add matchups to my options on the rulepage when i’m taking them again. 

Thank you so much for your support!

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Asks that remain in the inbox!

Hi, i’ve gone through my inbox these past few days, and have decided on the requests that i’ll be keeping in the inbox, the rest have been tossed out. If your request is not on the list, feel free to request it again! The fandoms I'm taking requests for are; mobile suit gundam, hunter x hunter, ddlc and fire emblem three houses.

Hunter x hunter

Platonic yandere phantom troupe with rambunctious child reader (platonic)

Reader with yandere phantom troupe as kids (platonic)

Kortopi, uvogin, shalnark falling for troupe member reader

Yanderes most open to bringing their darling outside/ in public

Chrollo, feitan, shalnark and phinks with darling who loves them, but is hurt by an offhanded comment they make

Yandere troupe with a darling who is a killer

How the phantom troupe would fare with a neurodivergent reader

What would makes phinks snap at or lash out at his darling

Phantom troupe when they darling is normally affectionate, but an offhanded comment they make upsets their darling very deeply

Phantom troupe pre kidnapping; darling tires to distance themselves, but then confesses their feelings

Phantom troupe with darling who has a nervous tick like stuttering or fidgeting

Obsessive feitan

Darling commits suicide

Part two to my fic where chrollo noncons reader; now he deals with the aftermath of his actions

Yandere chrollo when darling is sweet to him while he’s in a bad mood because she’s scared of him

Yandere chrollo with a darling who he grew up with in meteor city

Yandere silva headcanons

Chrollo, hisoka and illumi react to someone calling their darling a milf

Illumi with a darling who is easy to manipulate and take advantage of

Kikyo talking to illumi’s darling

Punishments from yandere phantom troupe

Nsfw- 

phantom troupe reacts to being bitten

Sitting on chrollo’s face

Feitan with a scent kink

Phantom troupe + hisoka; forced blowjob 

Choking with phinks

Darling refuses to show reactions or make sounds during sex

Machi when her darling invites her to bed

Darling loses a fight with hisoka and pays for it

Illumi and darlings first time, darling is scared

Other fandoms--

Doki doki girls and reader on their period

Yandere black butler character of my choice with spoiled reader (platonic)

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I wish I could add images while on anon to express my joy. I was crying and buzzing with excitement while reading the Char Drabble!! I’m glad to hear that you enjoyed writing it as well. It’s so good, you literally couldn’t have done a better job.

Sorry to add to your inbox while you’re doing some spring cleaning, but I look forward to reading more of your stuff. I enjoy a lot of the other fandoms you write for as well haha.

Omg thank you sooo much! I’m so glad that someone is enjoying my gundam fics. To be honest when I first wrote for it I thought literally no one in the world would ever read it but me. But I've gotten super into gundam and I can't get it out of my mind. It means so so much to me that someone liked the fics I wrote so self indulgently.

And thank you for supporting the other fandoms I write for as well! I love writing so much, and I love taking requests and seeing how I can express my thoughts on a character! 

Requests are open once again, so feel free to send something in! I write for: gundam, hunter x hunter, doki doki literature club, and fire emblem three houses!

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Hello I tried my best to look at everything with your rules and what you usually are comfortable with writing, but I might have missed something, and so if this request makes you uncomfortable, please yell at me.

But I’ve been going through a lot of your HxH writings, specifically the headcannons with the phantom troupe, and it made me think of something. You’ve written for a reader who needs meds (I believe it was based around antidepressants but if I’m wrong I’m so sorry), but how would the Yandere’s in the Phantom Troupe respond to a darling like me, who needs to take birth control due to painful periods? Like, I know that many have headcannoned that there’s the Male Yanderes who’d want to get their Darlings pregnant, but would their opinions change if birth control helps their Darlings quality of life?

I’m so sorry for ranting but here’s a summary of my yap: How would Male yandere Phantom Troupe respond to their Darling taking birth control to help with periods, and would it change their minds if they wanted to get their Darling pregnant.

Again I’m so sorry if I misunderstood your rules and please feel free to block or hate me. Also I’m sorry for saying sorry so much I’m just Canadian and afraid of saying the wrong thing.

Yanderes opinions on birth control--

I actually don't think many of the yanderes in hxh want to get their darling pregnant in the first place. Most don't like the idea of having to share their darling's time and attention, and most don't adore the idea of parenthood to begin with. For this reason; i actually think most yanderes would be ok with their darling being on birth control. Some who are more opposed to children might even encourage or force their darling to take it.

I think if anything, several yanderes don't want to use condoms specifically (most will, if you put up enough of a fit about it), so darling using other forms of birth control are actually ideal for them, as they can avoid pregnancy without having to worry about condoms. 

-uvogin, phinks, shalnark, feitan, milluki and hisoka are in this category. 

Several yanderes are obsessed with their darling's well-being, wanting their darling to be pampered and happy at all times. These yanderes will almost always prioritise their darling's wants and needs over anything else, and will go out of their way to minimize their darling's pain when they can. With this in mind, they will allow birth control for the good of their darling, and will also do anything within their power to comfort their darling through any pain that remains.

-chrollo, pakunoda, machi, franklin, and leorio are this type.

Yanderes who don't have strong opinions, they will get birth control for you if asked, but likely never think of it themselves. It’s not that they don’t worry about you when you’re in pain, but I don’t think they are very proactive about their attempts to comfort you through your period. In the case of the girls, they don’t consider birth control because they can’t get you pregnant. In the case of the men, they don’t think very much about your period besides doing what they can to comfort you when you’re in pain. Either way, if you want to be on birth control while you’re in their care, you’ll have to muster up the courage to ask.

-neon, shizuku, pariston, milluki

Yanderes who are a little resistant to the idea, for one reason or another, and need to be convinced. Maybe it’s the inconvenience, maybe it’s the negative side effects it could have on your mood or health, maybe it’s something else… but these yanderes need to think about it before agreeing. It’s a big decision to take medicines for anything, and they want to look into all of your options before committing to something.

-illumi, kurapika, silva and kikyo 

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i love your writing! i wanted to ask which troupe members would like a darling who baked? thank you!

hxh characters i think would particularly adore a darling who bakes are:

Chrollo, kikyo, machi, uvogin, nobunaga and pakunoda

Are yanderes who I think would be particularly charmed by a darling who bakes! They love to see their darling engage in a beloved activity, and it’s wonderful that the hobby isn't outdoors or social in nature. Because truly, they would hate to take such a beloved thing from you. They love to watch you happily working at the oven, happy despite everything. They are absolutely over the moon if you made anything for them- either specifically for them, or just allowing them to try what you make- they adore being about to share this with you. They say preparing food is a labor of love, and that sharing food with someone can be adjacent to sharing your heart with someone. To them, it certainly feels that way.

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I’m the same anon that liked the Yan!Char profile! I’d like to request a drabble or headcannons for Yandere Char x (Gender neutral) Childhood friend reader. Char would do a lot to keep his past from his darling, but I’ve been ruminating on the idea of them finding out anyways. Maybe they use to be childhood sweethearts but separated after Char and Sayla’s escape to Earth. They reunite years later but, Char doesn’t realize who his darling is until sometime into their relationship. I Imagine much of his childhood is a blur to him.

When darling confronts him about his identify, I wonder if he’d be face with the vulnerability of being seen? The fear of losing his Darling’s affections? Or maybe he’s more stunted by the idea that they love him anyways.

Sorry if that’s too long or specific. You’re free to change the prompt with however it inspires you! Thank you for letting me be indulgent in your asks💕

Yandere char x (gender neutral) childhood friend!

Warnings: typical yandere obsessiveness, nothing besides that! Honestly, this is rather cute 

An: I absolutely loved writing this! Char is always a fun challenge to write for, and the childhood friend trope allowed me to write him a little softer than he’d normally be. Also, I went ahead and made him a bit of a yandere as a kid too, I thought it suited what we saw of him as a kid in origin.

feel free to send in more requests if you'd like!

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Even as a young child, Casval had had quite a crush on you. He didn't know what exactly made him so drawn to you, and as such a young child he would simply resort to keeping those feelings tucked away out of sight. It was embarrassing, how you made him feel. He hated the way he felt nervous in your presence and how your kindness made him fluster. It was unusual for him to be shaken, and he didn’t like it one bit. You make him act so unlike himself he can’t help but hate it.

Your parents had been friends of his parents, most likely his mother; who was sweet and kind to everyone around her. And of course, one day they brought you into his life- you; standing in the foyer in your coat to ward off the chilly air next to your family, who talked to his mother. You’d seen him on the staircase and had given a little smile and a wave. Casval wasn't the smiley type of boy, at best putting on a polite facade and at worst keeping his stone faced demeanor. But he offers you a little wave regardless. It’s Artesia who actually manages to help you and Casval connect. She’s younger than the two of you, but she would always make a point to be near the two of you- the children of Deikun weren’t often able to play freely with their peers, and both of them were in dire need of a friend- Artesia wore this openly, but Casval was much more closed off about the fact. 

It’s not easy for him to open up, even when he was young, but you found a way to break through his defenses. Maybe it was a quick wit, maybe it was ceaseless kindness, maybe it was unwavering determination to befriend him regardless of his cold demeanor. But no matter the cause, he finds himself warming up to you. He did his best to keep it hidden- tried to find more reasonable explanations for his warmth towards you. Excuses like ‘your family was close with his, it would be inconvenient for there to be bad blood between the two of you’ and ‘artesia considers you a dear friend, he would never push you away if it pushed you from artesia as well’. But his parents, and likely your parents, and even artesia knew the truth. That Casval had a little crush on you. 

Likely unknown to them, was the depth of Casval’s feelings for you. There was a part of him that was innocent with youth, that could be flustered just by your hand grazing his, and a part of him that couldn’t help but smile at the sound of your laughter, so bright and beautiful. But also, there was a part of him that hated anyone else you spoke to- that hated the idea of you having other friends. Part of him felt hot with anger when your parents would take you home in the evening- take you from him. It wasn't right, and it wasn't normal, but Casval was able to keep the majority of it hidden from view. He was just…protective of you. And you were oblivious to it. He wanted to keep it that way. It wouldn’t do for you to realize how you’d seeped your way into his mind and heart, and it wouldn't do for you to realize he had feelings for you. Not if it could possibly take you from him.

That’s why it’s so tragic when the death of his father tears him away from you. It’s a whirlwind of chaos happening all around him. His father is dead. They say the Zabi family is responsible. His mother is locked into a tower. He and his sister must flee to earth. Casval knows that amongst all this chaos you must be out there too- he hopes you’re alright, in a rare moment of optimism- and then scolds himself for thinking that. He can't afford to worry about you right now. You’ll be alright, your family will care for you. He turns his mind away from you as best he can. He likely wouldn't be seeing you, his dearest friend, ever again, and he has to be ok with that. 

In the years that follow, he thinks of you less and less- not as a natural result of passing time, but by conscious effort to keep his mind away from trivial thoughts like ‘what if’. You were gone from his life now, likely having forgotten all about him, likely convinced he had died, and maybe you’ve even found happiness of your own. He doesn't let himself think about it if he can help it. He hates the idea of you being happy with someone else. He hates the idea of you forgetting him. Sometimes, when he can’t help it, he wonders if you ever think of him.

That’s why it’s amazing, unbelievable even, when by chance in a room of hundreds, he sees a familiar face. Your face. It’s been years, and you’re older now- grown attractive with the passing years, with a voice that draws him in and a way about conversation that keeps his attention focused only on you. He can’t take his eyes off you, even behind that mask he worries someone will notice his staring, worries you’ll notice- but no one does, and you don’t either. How have you come back into his life after so many years? Could such a thing really be by chance? That his childhood friend- childhood sweetheart, if he was being honest- just happened to be in the same palace at the same time as him, despite the years and the distance that had separated you all this time? No, it’s not by chance at all, and Char won’t waste the opportunity to finally make you his.

He approaches you- he’s witty and charming and you seem glad for the good company, likely bored with the simple minded and uptight company that this gathering had drawn. Char is glad that you so happily accept his company. It was better if this goes according to plan, he’d hate to have to use other means to draw you towards him. It’s much much better if you just come to him all on your own, simply because you enjoy his company. Of course, his reputation likely helps; the red comet. He preens a bit when you call him that. Of course you’d be impressed with all he’d accomplished, but he’s much more interested in what you have been up to in the time he’d been absent from your life.

He pries as much as he can without coming off too strong, glad to hear that once the chaos of Deikun’s death had settled, your family had been alright and you had been able to live a safe life. He happily listens to you speak of your hobbies- a few of which you still enjoyed from childhood, and his heart seemed lighter at the prospect that the person he had grown so close to in his youth was still the same. In a lot of ways, you were. Time had made you mature, and had changed some things, but Char is thrilled to find that so much of what he loved about you remained the same. Love- surely that was a slip up in his mind; an exaggeration of his feelings caused by his excitement at the prospect of you in his life once more. Nothing more. 

You’re oblivious, of course, to who he truly is. Char feels confident of that by the way your nerves are alight with the newfound interest, the way you seem drawn in to him but cautious all the same. And that was for the best- Casval was dead and gone, and you remembering him would do neither of you any good. All that remains is Char Aznable.

He devotes a fair bit of time to spending with you- maybe more than was appropriate; if you factored in all of the time he spent thinking of you and plotting your next meeting, practising his honeyed words and his casual grace- making a point to set up another chance to see you, and quickly becoming close with you once more. You seemed almost eager to spend time with him, and he allows himself to indulge in the idea that you might be charmed, at least slightly, by him. Your friendship felt familiar to him, a comfort he’d thought he’d lost long ago. Everything he had known in his childhood- his parents, his home, his friends, even his younger sister- were gone to him now. But you have returned. Char seems to fit perfectly into your life, like he’d always been there, like your heart had always had a place just for him.

You talk about your childhood from time to time, rarely of the Deikun family, but occasionally you do. And when you speak of a boy named Casval, Char takes the chance to pry just a bit. He feigns ignorance on the subject, but you fill him in slightly from your perspective. To his surprise, you don't talk about Casval and Artesia through the lens of politics but through the lens of a fond memory. You talk about the afternoons you had spent in their company, the way you had been so happy. Char keeps his reactions carefully controlled, he can’t risk seeming overly interested, but equally avoids dismissing your story. He drinks in every word. Something you say about him- about Casval- stands out. The way you describe him; there’s a fondness in your voice, as well as a sadness, and the words you use seem soft with affection. Your voice seems suddenly present, though still warm, when you speak, “He was my first love.” you turn to Char then, like you expect some kind of reaction. 

Do you hope he’ll be jealous? You’ll have to try harder. He fights down the smile that threatens to cross his lips; your feelings are evident to him in that moment. For all the little flirtations between the two of you since rekindling your relationship, you’d been falling for him as he had for you- or more accurately- you’d been falling back in love with him. 

You carry on, turning back to him, with the softness of your words now shining in your eyes. You seem emboldened by your recollection of the past, as if you’ve come to a revelation. If he had the chance, he’d tease you about discussing your past love life so openly, and with the man you were nearly courting, no less. But it was charming, he would assure you, how you could love so deeply after so long. It’s one of the many things about you that he’s grown fond of.

Before he gets the chance, you speak once again, “you must know that, though.” your voice is light, almost giddy with a sort of joy, spoken quietly. It takes him by surprise. What? What could you possibly be on about now?  He watches the shape of your lips around the syllables that follow, unmistakably shaping the name he’d left behind. His real name. “Casval.”

A million different revelations reach him at once. You know who he is. You’ve always known who he is. You know who he is and you still told him of your crush. You’d confessed your love for him. You meant to confess your love for him. His name- his real name- sounds perfect on your lips. You know who he is and you love him, and you always had. 

Being seen for what he is- who he is- is strange. For a second, it brings forth a claustrophobic sense of dread. You remember him- when he was childish and small and fumbled uselessly with his words in your presence. You remember him when he was a spoiled child with an ill mannered tongue and a frigid gaze. You remember his family and what they stood for and what had happened to them. For such a split second, he feels as if you can see him in his entirety, aware of all of his plans and schemes and ambitions. But the easiness of your words assure him otherwise. You wouldn’t speak to him so easily if you knew all the creeping thoughts he swallows down.

He should be upset by this- if he can’t even hide his identity from one person, how can he possibly hope to fool the rest of the galaxy. If you’d known, why had you played along? If you’d known, why wait until now to tell him so? He realizes that something in his plan had gone horribly wrong, and it was you. Reaching out to you had compromised everything. He doesn't regret it though, not really. If you were going to reveal him to the nation of zeon, you would have by now. Instead, you breathe the words in a quiet tone, just between the two of you. A secret between just the two of you. He lets a smile play on his lips.

Char reaches forward, into the space between you to take your hand. It fits in his perfectly, like he knew it would. You don’t pull away. “You’ve figured me out, hm?” There's a lilt of humor to his voice, comfortable despite the sudden reveal. As if you hadn’t surprised him a bit. But he knows his words are only half true- he’d never fooled you to begin with. It’s disconcerting, that you can see right through his ruse, that you figured him out and now he knows he’ll never be rid of you- nor you of him. Because now he could never let you go. Char Aznable- once Casval Rem Deikun- had been a constant in your life, and would remain that way, he’d see to that. 

For now, the two of you stand hand in hand, all at once everything between you feels different. You’d been confident moments ago, but now your heart stutters with the knowledge that you had passed the point of no return. Char is suddenly so certain of what your future held, and you for once are unable to tell who was standing beside you. Casval had returned to you, but not as he was. The man beside you now is unmistakably Char Aznable, no one else. 

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You have no idea how much I adore your Char fic! I am also very aware how dead the gundam fandom is, but it’s still a bit bewildering to me that a franchise this old and such a popular character has scraps of x reader or even oc x canon on the internet

So it made me really happy to see your post, especially it being Yandere content! I enjoyed Origin a lot. The style is so cool and learning about Char through that lens made him really appealing. You made my entire week, thank you!

Thank you so much! I’m so glad to hear that the fic I wrote made you so happy!

It means a lot to me that you liked it, especially with how inactive the gundam fandom is. I actually just got into it in the past few months, and it’s been weird being obsessed with a franchise that has such little content lately. Char was so fun to write about, I hope to write more for him in the future, both yandere and otherwise. (I also have a few other characters I hope to write for.)

If you’d like to see any more for Char, or any other character from gundam origin or gundam 0079, feel free to send a request!

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yandere Char Aznable

a/n: I recently watched mobile suit gundam, and mobile suit gundam origin, and I loved it! in fact, i loved it so much i had to write a tiny little profile on yandere char! i wrote this all in one sitting, and without much proofreading, so forgive any mistakes. i just had a lot of motivation to write this. i know gundam is a dead fandom but it brought me a lot of joy to write.

Char Aznable-

-the calculating type of yandere, outwardly cold and aloof but secretly obsessive and doting. deeply controlling and possessive. Char is completely lucid- he knows what he doesnt is wrong, and that love shouldn't look like this, but he finds himself unable to care as long as he gets what he wants. Because of this, he isnt bothered if you are bothered by his behavior, he knows you’ll come around with time and constant manipulation from him.

-likely to approach you and try to charm you in a normal way before trying the full yandere approach. It’s likely he’s seen you around once or twice, and you caught his eye each time. It’s strange for him to have his interest drawn by someone, so he indulges in talking to you. He doesn't really expect anything to come of it, but once he talks to you he’s hooked and can't let you go. 

-he's naturally charismatic, so he has optimism that he can sway his darling without resorting to manipulation, blackmail, kidnapping or murder. Because honestly, he’d rather you think highly of him without fear if at all possible. 

-it's easy for him to sway most people to his side; he can always make people see the best in him. Not to mention all his prestige from his years in the military and as a mobile suit pilot. For that reason, it's likely he'll be able to capture his darling's heart without much work. 

-its likely his darling wouldn't agree with the things he does, so he doesn't take the risk of letting them know the real him. Not Casval, and not the Char who will do whatever it takes to reach his goals. Instead, you meet the ace pilot, the red comet, the war hero. Anything below that is carefully hidden from view. 

-he knows all the right things to say; offering just enough about himself to make you comfortable enough to tell him about yourself, eagerly taking in every word. It’s like everything you say is a new victory, a new opportunity to pry deeper into your life. It’s amazing how easy it is to talk to him, you thought he’d be intimidating, you thought he’d have better things to attend to, you thought he wouldn't have time to listen to you talk about your favorite books or foods or even funny little stories. But he seems interested in you in a way no man ever has been. It’s strange how even when you share more than you should, for some reason, you don't feel embarrassed, you just feel heard, listened to. It feels like talking to an old friend. Maybe you don't mind that, or maybe you’re suspicious; but no matter how you look at him, you can’t find anything out of place. Maybe you should just forget about your worries and accept the newfound attention he gives you.

-he wants your admiration; he wants you to think highly of him. I don't think he needs his darling's praise exactly, but he’d certainly like it. He wants you to blush and smile when the red comet talks to you like you’re the only one in the room, he wants you to be flattered by the attention. On some level, he’d like for his darling to be in love with him. It’s not a need at the start, he’ll settle for you simply being compliant or even skeptical, so long as you aren't too difficult. But as time goes on he does everything in his power to make sure you fall for him.

-but if his darling doesn't fall for him- either they can see the cracks in his facade, or their heart is not so easily won- he won't hesitate to resort to violence and manipulation. 

-I think at first it’s a subtle pressure. Everyone around you expects things from you; everyone would consider you a fool to reject Char Aznable. Everyone tells you how lucky you are to have caught his eye. How happy you’ll be with him. But for some reason you can't believe them- you feel something is off about him, like there’s something no one else can see.

-And not only that, but your friends seem distant lately, like they don't care for you anymore. In fact, it seems like everyone around you just doesn't have time for you anymore. When loneliness sets in, as well as the creeping worry that something is wrong with you that drives people away, maybe you’ll be more receptive to his company. Afterall, he is kind, and funny, and he always makes time for you. Maybe he’s the only person in your life who really cares about you.

-he will do whatever it takes to make his darling his. If he has to isolate you from everyone in your life, if he has to have you removed from any social or political position you’re in, if he has to kill everyone you love, if he has to steal you away to his side- all of it is worth it if he can have you. In fact, he doesn't even feel bad for it. Seeing you cry is…disquieting, but he’s sure you’ll calm down with time. Time heals all wounds, afterall. 

-he doesn't like to hurt you, avoids it even. there’s always something else he can do to make you yield; violence is almost never needed. But he scares you regardless. Something in him is so cold when he’s not putting effort into making himself seem loving and kind. When you upset him you can see the facade drop, can see him turn into somebody else. This is who he really is, you realize in those brief instances. The Char you know is a lie. If you say something he doesn't like, he’ll ask you to repeat yourself. It’s best not to, to assure him that it was nothing, that you hadn't said anything or that you hadn't meant it. If you do something that displeases him, he’ll make you say aloud what you did; he’ll make you explain aloud to him exactly what you did even knowing he’d be angry. It’s best to apologize and beg and plead with him, say it was an accident, say you didn't mean to, say you didn't know he’d be upset. Maybe he’ll take pity on you.

-if there’s one thing Char loves, it’s seeing you beg. Maybe it’s the assurance that making him happy is important to you, maybe it’s knowing the power he holds over you, maybe it’s how you look just a little bit pathetic- pathetic, but still so perfect- maybe it’s some sick thrill that comes from the tone of your voice and the endless streams of ‘please’s’ and ‘Char’s’. No matter the reason, beg and he’ll almost always humor you. He’s aware of what you’re doing, but if it’s worth sacrificing your pride he’ll oblige you.

-life with him isnt bad once you settle into it, all things considered. He treats you well, not quite spoiling you, but certainly making sure you’re well cared for and never in want for anything. He loves to show you off, is proud to call you his and is eager to let everyone know as such. He regards you warmly, speaks to you like he cares for you above all else. It’s easy enough to see him as a lover- once you can see past all the horrid things he’s done- and with enough time and pressure from Char, you will. 

-The man who has enacted such horrors will feel more and more like a myth as time wears on. Because your Char is kind. Your char is handsome. Your Char is so gentle. He treats you like you’re glass, but never with disrespect. He treats you like you’re worth all he’s done for you. 

-once you’ve settled well enough into his affections, he loves to have you near him at all times. At parties thrown in his honor, at meetings you shouldn't be allowed to attend- but you’re allowed because he insists- even in his ship. He wants you at his side. No matter where you are, he needs you as near as the circumstances allow; a hand on your waist, an arm around you, your hand in his. If you’re somewhere private or relaxed enough, he loves to have you sit in his lap- it feels intimate without being vulnerable on his part, but of course he’d never force you and he’d never use it to degrade or embarrass you. Afterall, being with him isn't a punishment and he’s adamant you don't see it as such.

-sometimes it’s hard to believe he loves you; after all the lives he’s taken, after all the people he’s hurt, after all he’s taken from you. How can a man like him love at all? How can a man who feels no sorrow or remorse or warmth feel love? It’s best not to ask him these questions, no matter how they burn in your mind. When the words leave your mouth you can see his demeanor shift- even with his eyes covered, you can tell he doesn't like what you’ve said. He’ll ask if you really think so lowly of him, and it’s best for you if you yield and assure him that you don't, that you just misspoke. 

-sometimes you do believe he loves you, but you can't figure out why. What about you was so special? What had caught his eye? Couldn't you be replaced by anyone? You wonder what he sees in you. It’s painful to love someone so renowned and respected when you feel like you’re nothing at all. He reassures you when your mind wanders like this, that you’re the only one he could ever love, that his heart has never beat for another. These words flatter you, but they speak a truth that is both exciting and terrifying- that he can't feel anything for anyone but you.

-he doesn't revel in stealing away your freedoms, and is careful to never let you lose the spark he fell in love with, but he has no qualms about taking from you either. It’s best not to upset him, because he knows you better than you know yourself, and if you upset him he’ll surely make you pay for it. Even when you think you have nothing left to lose, he’ll find something more to take. 

-While he rarely lets himself dwell on it, he’s lost a lot in his life- his parents, his adoptive father, his real identity- and he’s determined not to let you go now that you’ve caught his eye. It’s likely he doesn't realize just how afraid he is to lose you. The conviction not to lose you gives him strength and resolve to do anything it takes to keep you at his side forever.

-it’s possible Char himself doesn't realize how deeply he feels for you- he knows he cares for you, and that he hasn't cared for anyone in a long time. He knows he sometimes can't keep his mind off of you- even though his thoughts used to be so singular. He knows he wants you near him every second of the day, and that even when you're near you can never be near enough. But he doesn't notice when his attraction spirals into obsession, doesn't notice when his interest becomes love, and doesn't realize when he ceases to merely want you and now needs you like he needs to sleep or eat or breathe.

-in his mind, he downplays how important you are to him. Promises himself that you are a luxury that he could part with if needed. That you would never get in the way of his goals. That you aren't a liability or a weakness. If he could admit to his own faults, he’d be forced to realize that he never should have let you get so close to him.

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We hit 1,000 followers!! Im so insanely greatful (and insanely sorry i havent posted in forever)! I cannot believe how many people read and enjoy my writing! Im so so blessed!

I love you! And your fictional fave does too!

Thank you all for being here!

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WE MISS UU

Thank you so much!

Ive been slowly coming back to writing, i have a few drabbles for this blog started! Im hoping to have them posted within the next few weeks, but dont hold me to that!

Ive missed being on here so much! Ive missed chatting and responding to asks, so if yall want to chat please go ahead!

Ill probably try to answer some of the matchups in my inbox, ive got quite a few to work through. As well, i have a few other things im working on too!

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Hi!! Do you accept requests for Kortopi?

I do! Feel free to send some in!

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Thinking about a specific free use dynamic between a yandere and their darling, where the yandere is so hopelessly in love and desperate to please their darling, they offer their body up to their darling entirely. Anything their darling wants to do to them, they'll gladly accept.