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violet-1scrazy · 2 months ago

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THE DEMONS😈

Hi sweetheart! Can I request a drabble with Armin + Drain You? nsfw or sfw, whatever comes out first <3

Drain You by Nirvana

warnings: nsfw. MINORS DO NOT INTERACT I'LL HAUNT YOU. very angsty. very angsty. be careful. drinking. hate-fucking(?). cheating(?).

Armin was okay.

He was smiling and shiny after tomorrow’s incident when you two broke up. He was… normal. In today’s classes, he was normal; answering all the questions Mr. Smith asked, asking questions when he couldn’t understand a topic, debating with Mr. Smith about the meanings of the elder myths about the Walls. He even did his damn assignment. His eyes weren’t puffy, his face wasn’t flushed. He was normal.

Or so you thought.

There he was in your shared, now his, apartment. Liquor in his hand, he was holding a photo of you two taken at the Nirvana concert you went to in Mitras. The frame of the photo was cute— you two got it from IKEA, it was plain white but had your notes on it saying “NIRVANA FUCKING ROCKS! And we’re cute <3”. It was a beautiful day. You two screamed from the top of your lungs, ended up having sore throats, and losing your voices for two days. It was also caused by the sex you had after the concert. Armin fucked you to the mattress and he fucked you hard. Sloppy kisses, bruises all over your thighs and neck, scratches all over his back… It was a beautiful day and a perfect night.

But here he was, holding that picture, tears falling onto his cheeks slowly. “Fuck you..” he mumbled to himself. Chugging the whole glass of liquor, he threw the frame to the very end of the room. “Fuck you!”

He was angry. Angry at you and your bullshit excuse. “Focusing on your grades? Fuck, my ass!” he screamed to the empty room. “I’m here dealing with your shit and being the fucking top student, you slut!” He was laughing hysterically now. “I do know that you fuck Eren! I do know that you love him! I do know that- I do know-” he sobbed. The lump in his throat was hurting him now, blocking him from screaming. He cried a bit more. Chugged more liquor, throwing more stuff around. He even punched a wall causing his ring finger to broke. Then he took a deep breath and went to study for tomorrow’s quiz.

And now, a couple of days later, after the midterms, he doesn’t even look at you. Doesn’t even acknowledge your presence. He is the top student at Sina University with a 3.98 GPA. He gets all the girls, especially those in the mythology class. He is more reckless nowadays, almost like a narcissist. He doesn’t care about anyone but himself. He was always good as a student but he is the best now. That’s when you realized you were just a stepping stone for him. And he stepped on you, he stepped on you harder than he fucked you.

“I hate you Arlert!” you say as his pretty dick goes in and out of you, hitting your cervix each time and touching all the right spots. “I fucking hate you!”

He laughs, his pretty laugh is the only thing you could never get over. ”I know baby,” he says, kissing your temple and pacing up his speed. “But you’ll cum on this cock like you used to do. Right?”

Your trembling legs are the answer he was looking for. “That’s my good girl.”

a/n: THANK YOU SO MUCH NICOLE <3 I LOVE YOU AND I HOPE YOU LIKE IT :')

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violet-1scrazy · 2 months ago

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Secret | Armin x Reader | AOT

Summary: "Dating in this world? Damn near impossible. Falling in love in this world? The most idiotic thing two people could do."

Warnings: It's Attack on Titan. Death, blood, destruction is kinda hard to avoid. Angsty and fluffy though.

A/N: I have absolutely know idea where this would take place lol, you just have to go with it, it's AOT we all know none of them have time or the energy to date. Oh also this is my introduction to the AOT fandom I guess? Welcome AOT fandom to my blog. :)

WC: 1.8k

Love is truly the only thing that can make a genius turn into a rambling idiot, which was the reason Armin was stumbling over his words trying to convince Levi that you perform better on Armin's squad.

Dating in this world? Damn near impossible. Falling in love in this world? The most idiotic thing two people can do. Keeping a relationship a secret in this world? Risky as hell. Both of you would face consequences, both of you would never be on the squad again and you knew Armin couldn’t handle that.

“She’s an asset on every squad.” Levi sighed, and he wasn’t wrong. Besides Levi and Mikasa you were always coming in and saving people.

You loved the thrill, the challenge, could you be slightly crazy? Maybe.

Did it make you extremely reckless? Yes.

Did that cause immense anxiety in Armin and make it the reason he needed you on his squad so he can know if you’re okay? Yes.

“She’s used to being on my squad for the past few months.” Armin sighed, trying to steady his breathing, trying to keep his cool.

“Can she have a say?” you groaned hearing the two of them decide whose squad you should be on without any input from you.

“No.” Levi glared looking over at you, Armin giving you a confused look wondering why you wouldn’t want to be on his squad.

“I’m just saying,” you took a deep breath, you hated when you weren’t on Armin's squad. You couldn’t protect him if you were on any other squad however the two of you are Scouts first, partners second. “If Levi needs me on his squad this time, I need to be with Levi’s squad.”

Armin closed his eyes as he looked at you, taking a deep breath rationalizing what you were saying. It wasn’t safe if you weren’t on his squad, he was distracted if you weren’t on his squad. Then again maybe he would perform better knowing he had to hurry and get back to you.

“Precisely. Sasha and Hange are both down right now, it’s too risky to send out the my squad first when we’re this low on numbers.”

Armin was still quietly debating whether to tell Levi about your relationship as a last resort. Would it help or would it make Levi demand you on his squad for this mission and every other mission? “Fine.”

“One hour y/n,” Levi spoke to you as he walked out, leaving you and Armin alone in the office.

You felt guilty for not defending him, not agreeing with him but if he wanted to keep the two of you a secret he had to get used to it. Anyone who was thinking clearly would know that Levi was correct, that you were basically three scouts in one. Armin still had Mikasa in his squad so you knew his squad would be fine.

“Armin,” you whispered quietly walking up to the table, your hand gently gliding against the edge.

“I know.” he sighed looking over at you, his hand gently gliding over the table to yours.

His bright blue eyes trembling looking into yours. He hated knowing that your squad leaves first and his follows as back up until the rendezvous point. “Please y/n, please don’t be reckless.”

“I don’t know what you mean,” you chuckled trying to brighten the mood, trying to bring back a little bit of sparkle in his eyes.

“Y/n,” he swallowed back a tear, “I need you to promise me you will follow Levi’s orders exactly as he says them.”

Armin knew Levi trusted you most out of the rest of the scouts, knew Levi saw you as a younger sister despite how much he tried not to form a relationship with you.

You just had that effect on people, gave people a reason to smile, to risk forming any type of relationship in this world.

“I promise.” you smiled as your fingers danced under Armin’s plan. “Now you need to promise,” you paused, walking close to him, your fingers running through his hair as you looked at him, “...you’re not going to let this distract you. You’re going to find me at the rendezvous point.”

Armin sighed resting his forehead against yours, his hand cupping your face, “I promise,” he whispered as he gave you a kiss. A sweet, long, soft kiss; a kiss that told you you were his entire world, that he loved you even though the two of you haven’t said it yet.

“Kiss me like that again and I might miss departure.” you smiled as you leaned up and kissed his cheek.

“Don’t tempt me.” he chuckled, taking a deep breath as he placed a long kiss on your forehead.

“I’ll see you soon okay?” you smiled, fighting back tears in your eyes as you walked out. You would never let Armin see you cry over this, you knew how much that would wreck him.

You weren’t sure how it happened, you weren’t sure how no one saw the little hoard of titans that walked out of the forest. You weren’t sure how you and Levi along with maybe four others were the only ones left in your squad. Maybe because if the six of you ran into titan’s again, their shocked state would leave them frozen. You and Levi would have no choice but to flee with or without them.

If you and Levi didn’t work flawlessly together, if the two of you didn’t use each other to spring off of, didn’t know what the other was thinking without having to verbally communicate it; without a doubt you two would be the only survivors. If you would’ve been on Armin’s squad instead, you weren’t sure if Levi would’ve made it out with just a few scratches.

The two of you sat against the trees, watching the four scouts huddling near the small fire. The two of you weren’t talking, you didn’t have to. You knew what the other was thinking, thinking about how the two of you are the reason you’re both alive, the reason you can look at the four scouts still breathing. The two of you tried not to think about Armin’s squad following suit, no doubt bearing witness to the blood, the limbs, the carnage out in the fields.

“The two of you are idiots. I hope you know that.” Levi whispered as he looked over at you.

You chuckled, a hoarse chuckle after not using your voice for a few hours. “How long have you known?”

Levi stretched, leaning back into the tree he was resting on, “Wasn’t till he actually talked back to me.” Levi took a deep breath shaking his head, “only you would give him the courage to do that.”

“He’s protective.” you blushed looking down at the ground, your fingers playing with the grass.

“It’s going to get the two of you killed.” Levi warned looking back at the four scouts watching the fire, “or it’ll get other people killed.”

You sighed looking over at him, “I mean it’s been a year,” you smirked, testing the waters knowing Levi was going to hate that it took him this long to figure it out.

Levi groaned as he looked up, watching the stars twinkle in the sky. Out of any of the guys in the Scout Regiment, Armin was probably the best out of all of them. If you were going to be stupid enough to fall in love in this world, he was a little glad it was with Armin, “Keep it a secret.”

“Thank you.” you whispered, hearing the stomps of horse hooves in the distance. You looked up, seeing the absolute horror on everyone’s face as they reached the six of you.

Armin immediately jumped off his horse and ran over to you, kneeling down to you. His eyes weren’t the usual bright blue, they were dark. His cheeks stained with dried tears, his entire body shaking as he looked at you. His heart stopped each time his eyes found a scratch, a drop of blood, the gash along your shoulder.

“What happened?” he whispered looking at you but talking to Levi. He didn’t blame Levi at all, he knew that missions like these had a chance to be a suicide mission, it’s why he was so worried about it in the first place.

“Ratio wise, we didn’t stand a chance.” Levi replied back, not taking Armin’s question personally.

“Armin,” you whispered as you stood up, holding out your hand, “walk with me.”

You looked over at Levi who gave you a light nod, standing up as well to talk to Armin’s squad and relay the the information.

You pulled Armin into the forest, the light from the fire still visible. Armin followed you, stopping and leaning against a tree as he pulled you into his arms, tightening his grip when your arms wrapped together above his shoulder. He nuzzled his head into the crook of your neck, holding you as if it was the last time he ever would, holding you as his body shook from letting tears out.

“I looked at every one.” he choked out, “saw each face, looked at every arm, every hand.”

You fought back your tears as your fingers traveled through his hair. Your head resting against his chin. “When I didn’t see you, I still didn’t know if you were alive. The only thing that kept me going was knowing you were with Levi.”

“The two of us are kinda unstoppable.” you chuckled, smiling when you felt him lightly laugh along.

Armin wiped his tears as he looked up at the sky, “I need you to stay on Levi’s squad,”

“What?” you gasped, shocked that he would flip the switch so quickly.

He sighed looking back down to you, “You’re safest with him and I know that now.”

“Are you sure?”

“I’m sure. You’re,” he took a deep breath as he rested his forehead against yours, “you’re my motivation. My reason to live. My reason to complete these missions.”

“And you’re mine.” you smiled, letting the tears fall from your face, while Armin’s fingers gently wiped them away.

“I love you, and I need to make the smart choices for the both of us even if it kills me.” he whispered before leaning down to you and kissing your forehead.

“I love you too, whatever choice you make for us, I trust you with my life.” you smiled, leaning up and meeting his lips. “We better head back.”

“I fear I may have been a little too eager to see you in front of Levi.” he chuckled as the two of you walked back to the rest of them.

“Oh he already knows, we’re not in trouble.” you giggled as you dropped his hand and ran off away from him, “He wants us to still keep it a secret though.”

Armin’s jaw dropped as he watched you run off after dropping that bomb, his eyes immediately searching for Levi so he could apologize for his actions and also express his gratitude that the two of you weren’t in trouble.

Falling in love in this world? The most idiotic thing two people can do but Armin was committed to being in love with you.

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violet-1scrazy · 2 months ago

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ENUF.

Armin trying to sacrifice himself compilation

(or having a sacrificial mindset)

Training Corps - When Armin falls behind in a running drill, Reiner offers to take Armin's pack. Fearing Reiner will be docked points at his expense, Armin runs past and snatches his pack back from Reiner: "I'm no one's burden, you hear me?"

Training Corps - Armin tells Eren and Mikasa he's still planning to join the Survey Corps, promising he won't hold them back: "I'd rather die than become a burden"

Battle of Trost Arc - running low on supplies, Armin insists Connie and Mikasa take his and leave him to die by his own blade.

Battle of Trost Arc - Staring down the barrel of the Garrison, Armin feels like a burden on Mikasa and Eren: "at the moment of truth, I was a coward...I was always so weak. I still haven’t earned the right to think of myself as their equal...I’d only end up slowing them down."

Female Titan Arc - down one horse, Armin volunteers to be left behind to fend for himself, allowing Jean and Reiner to continue the mission.

Female Titan & Clash of the Titans Arcs - Armin's guiding philosophy: "Someone who can't sacrifice anything can't change anything" (first expressed while speaking with Jean S1 E20)

Return to Shiganshina Arc - Armin devises a plan to defeat the Colossal which requires his death to succeed, lying to all of his friends so they can't stop him.

Rumbling Arc - Armin gambles his life to make Connie see reason, expecting his plan to work while accepting possibility of death.

Rumbling Arc - Whatever this was. Not necessarily sacrificial, but certainly. concerning.

Rumbling Arc - Armin volunteers to stay behind and hold off the Rumbling, facing certain death.

Rumbling Arc - Facing down his best friend, Armin returns to his guiding philosophy: "Those who can't abandon anything, can't change anything"

Rumbling Arc Bonus - Armin vs Armin

I wanted to include all instances of survivor's guilt as well, but tumblr does not allow enough photos for that. so, I made another post!

And that's all I could remember! Please lmk if there's anything I missed. I count:

5 sacrifice attempts

4 "Someone who can't abandon..."

7 instances of survivor's guilt

6 instances of feeling like a burden

4 instances of explicit self-loathing

In conclusion? therapy. ASAP.

Sorry Armin <3

[survivor's guilt post]

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violet-1scrazy · 3 months ago

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THE COST OF LOVE. - Armin A.

Word Count: 1,700+

Pairing: Armin Arlert x Reader

Summary: Y/N, a skilled soldier, fights in the war against Marley. After being injured by a gunshot, she continues to battle alongside her comrades. As the fight intensifies, she boards the airship with her group, hoping for safety, but things take a tragic turn.

Warnings: Mentions of blood, guns, killing, character death, ANGST (lmk if i miss anything)

‼️PLEASE READ AUTHORS NOTE‼️

Chaos.

That was the only word that could describe the state of this place. Eren Yaeger has declared war on Marley. This war was started to take revenge on the people who bestowed all of the numerous tragedies upon Paradis.

The 'devils' of Paradis swarmed Marley like flies. Their new-and-improved regimental uniforms helped them blend into the night. Their ODM gear were equipped with these new guns that were easy to weild around. These 'devils' fought. Fought for not only their life, but also for the ones their foes killed in cold blood.

Warriors from each side used their power of the titans. Jaw, Beast, Cart, War Hammer, Attack, Colossal. Their roars echoed in the night.

Y/N was a skilled veteran from the scouts 104th cadet corps. She swung from house to house with her ODM gear. Marleyans began to fight back with their rifles. Y/N wasn't prepared for this. She weaved through the bullets flying around her. The grapple of her ODM gear lodged into a parapet on top of one Marley's building.

Puffs of gas shot out from her gear, sending her to the roof. As she moved, a Marleyan stood on the soil below her, their gun trained on her. Just before she reached the top, they shot their gun. A bullet lodged into her arm. This disrupted her movement, sending her tumbling down on the roof.

Y/N sat up, clutching her arm and gritting her teeth. "Damnit." She muttered under breath. Blood oozed through her knit fingers, heating up her cold hand. She sat herself up, back pressed against the parapet. The sound of gunshots rung in her ears, the screeching of ODM gear distinct. "This won't stop me." Those four words repeated in her head.

Her thoughts were interupted when she felt the roof start to rumble below her. When she looked up, her eyes were met with the night sky being illuminated. Once she turned her head to the right, her ears were bombarded with the sound of an explosion. Bright yellow and orange light met the dark sky, nearly making it look as if it were day time. This meant the plan was on the right track.

"Armin..." Y/N whispered to herself. She looked towards where the explosion came from to see the Colossal titan. Armin took out Marley's back up. Thousands of soldiers wiped out in the blink of an eye. Ironic how Armin caused Marley's port to dry up from the explosion, leaving the surrounding area a glowing red. The Colossal was truly a god of destruction.

Y/N knew this wasn't the time to sit around and mope. She couldn't let Armin distract her. Y/N shot her ODM gear again, swinging with her un-injured arm. She unloaded her gun into the bodies of Marleyan shoulders, watching them drop dead. Once her gun was empty, she found and grouped up with Jean, Connie, Saha, and other cadets. Y/N assumed they took down the Cart titan.

They all hunkered down on a roof along the path of lights that were placed to direct the air ship. Y/N took the time to reload her gun. "Jean, It's here." Connie broke the silence. "Yeah. It's right on time." Jean replied, Y/N felt hopeful.

The plan was to grapple onto the bottom of the ship and eliminate enemies from below. As the air ship passed above the building, the group lodged their ODM gear into the base of it. Y/N pushed off the roof, swinging into the night sky. She pointed her gun at her opposers below, firing her gun once more. She winced as the vibrations of her gun shot up her arm, her gunshot wound aching.

The air ship flew above Marley's internment zone, street lights illuminating the ground below. The city was destroyed, buildings crumbled, debris in the streets. Y/N felt a pang of guilt and shame looking down but she had to remind herself what these people did. All of the lives they took.

Y/N was brought back into the moment once they were instructed to get into the air ship. "C'mon Y/N!" Jean reminded her. Y/N took one last look at the place. Her rage and ambition pushed the feeling of remorse down. This wasn't the time to feel bad. With Jean already climbing through the open door, Y/N took a huff of the air before retracting her ODM wire and heading towards safety.

Y/N felt a large sense of hope. She prayed to the gods that Armin would be inside the ship waiting for her. She just wanted to be with him after all of this chaos.

Jean and Connie reached their hand out for Y/N as she grabbed onto the netting just below them. Y/N smiled. She was happy all of the people she loved the most were okay. Sure it was kind of selfish, but it was what she felt in the moment.

Y/N reached her bloody hand out for the two, everything felt like it was going right. That was until one Marleyan soldier aimed their gun. Aimed their gun at Y/N.

The boom of the shot rang into the night. The bullet trained on Y/N flew through the air. The bullet pierced her skin and ultimately landed lodged into her chest.

Y/N's hand faltered but Connie and Jean acted fast. They reached and grabbed onto her blood covered arm and hoisted her into the ship.

They laid her on the floor, her blood creating a trail from the door. Y/N could barely talk. All she could think about was Armin. She didn't care about the hands that were patching her wound. She just wanted the hands holding her to be her lovers.

Meanwhile in the head of the ship, Armin was watching Levi discuss their alliance with Zeke after disciplining Eren. Armin fidgeted with his fingers nervously. "Is Y/N okay? Is she...alive?" those words repeated in his head. He didn't care about the words the people around him were saying.

"She's bleeding out! Get some bandages, hurry!" Jean yelled out to the others around him. Sasha kneeled beside Y/N, holding her hand. "You're gonna get s-some help okay!" Sasha rubbed her thumb on Y/N's hand. Connie's brows furrowed with worry as he looked down at them.

Y/N's eyes looked panicked as she focused on the brown haired girls words. She couldn't move at all, her chest burning with pain. The blood from both her gunshot wounds mixed on the wood floor. A cold sweat broke out on her forehead and palms.

One of the cadets grabbed bandages and brought them over to Y/N. He quickly turned her to her side, wrapping the wound in the center of her chest. "Stay with us Y/N!" Sasha clutched the girls bloody hand.

The moment those words hit Armin's ears, his heart dropped.

The blonde haired boy quickly turned around and ran out of the room. His breath caught in his throat as the feeling of dread washed over him.

The door opened loudly and his eyes were met with Y/N's body laying on the floor. His heart pounded in his chest. "Y/N!" Armin cried out, not caring if he disturbed the others. He rushed to her aid, Mikasa following just behind him. Jean and Sasha stood up and backed away from Y/N.

"Y/N." Armin said once more as he kneeled beside her. His hand found hers, clutching it tightly. His eyes immediately looked to the blood pooled around her on the floor. His knees, now were drenched in her crimson.

Her ears rung loudly as she laid there. The blood that flowed from the hole in her chest was overwhelming and painful. Y/N's teeth clenched, her vision a blur. Out of all of the voices that were mixed with the throbbing in her ears, one voice stood out. Armin.

"Y/N, can you hear me? S-Say something please.." Armin snuck his hand around the back of her neck. His eyes dared to spill tears as he spoke, his voice cracking. Mikasa sat opposite of him, holding Y/N's other hand.

"Armin..." Y/N managed to utter out, her voice barely above a whisper. Small tears left Y/N's eyes, dripping down to her temples and into her hair. Her hands weakly grabbed Armin's and Mikasa's. The boy momentarily felt relieved as he heard Y/N speak.

"I'm right here." he spoke, "I'm right here." He reassured her, rubbing his thumb on the back of her hand. Y/N's face showed less and less emotion every second that passed.

Armin was at a loss for words. There was nothing he could do but watch her pained expressions as tears fell down her face. "Y/N, hold on please. I can't do this without you." His hand moved away from under her and to her cheek, carressing it.

Armin's touch was usually soothing and comforting to Y/N but when his fingers brushed along her skin this time, her whole body was wracked with pain. It's not his fault though. The blood oozing from her chest and arm stained the bandages wrapped around her.

Y/N's sight grew darker by every passing second, her eyelids felt heavier and heavier. The ringing in her ears dulled down.

"It'll be okay." he continued, desperately trying to convince her but also himself. His voice cracked as he spoke, his bottom lip quivering.

Just before Y/N's grip of Armin's hand faltered she squeezed it three times. Her arm then went limp, the weight being held by Armin. Her breathing slowed, as her gaze went to the ceiling, her eyelids lowered enough to almost fully cover her eyes.

With his other hand, Armin ran his fingers through her hair just like he usually did, holding her hand delicaitaly with his other.

Her body laid still now, her heartbeat slowed and her chest basically stopped moving. Armin was losing her, and he knew it. He could do nothing silently cry by her side, praying that somehow she would make it through this.

With one final breath, Y/N died. Died with the person she loved most holding her. His hands soft as silk, just as she remembered. His eyes, as blue as the sea were drowned with salty tears.

As much as Armin tried to hold back his cries, he just couldn't anymore. He let himself cry, not caring if anyone else in the ship witnessed him mourn his lover.

He sobbed, holding her hand tightly in his own as he whispered those three words over and over again in her ear.

"I love you."

Author's Note (PLS READ‼️) : PLEASE give me feedback, i need to know if u guys liked this💔 my inbox is open so i encourage you guys to send me prompts. i can write for aot, jjk, scream, demon slayer, twd, lad, i think thats it for now but PLEAASSEEEEE lmk what u guys thought of this

THANK YOU IF YOU MADE IT THIS FAR ILY❤️

i genuinely pulled all of this outa my ass bc i thought of this prompt randomly at midnight

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