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i fucking hate emotions

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TOMORROW IS HALLOWEEN!!!

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10/29/2024 Weekly Coping Techniques To Practice:

- actually say out loud my affirmations

- affirm myself by saying phrases such as the following: “it’s going to be okay, (name)” “in the whole picture of your life, this is a small blip on the radar”

- notice which state of mind I’m in

- physically say which state of mind I’m in. for example, “(name), you’re in emotional state of mind right now”

- ask myself how I can bring myself back to wise mind, then follow through with my plan

- and most importantly, breathe.

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fuck it. 400 notes and i'm gonna come out as agender to my friend

(no spam rb or comments)

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I think people should be allowed to sleep in the same bed in a non sexual and non romantic way. I think cuddles can happen non sexually and non romantically. I think most acts of affection are non sexual and non romantic until you make it sexual or romantic (other than the obvious things like actual sex)

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I have a theory that homeschooled kids are "weird" because they're actually neurodivergent kids who never had to learn to mask to make friends

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found heaven by conan gray is a lgbtq+ anthem fight me

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"Ableism sucks" until someone is walking slowly in front of you. "Ableism sucks" until you're listening to someone with a stutter get stuck on a word for longer than a minute. "Ableism sucks" until someone asks you to repeat yourself over three times. "Ableism sucks" until there's a kid in the supermarket having a meltdown for a reason you can't tell but based on a glance it's probably just a toy they can't have. "Ableism sucks" until someone's breathing loudly next to you. "Ableism sucks" until you have to explain the joke you just made. "Ableism sucks" until someone asks you to add plain text on a post with lots of fonts or typing quirks. "Ableism sucks" until it's inconvenient to be accessible.

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do I like them or do I just want the attention?! figuring that out before we actually date because I’m not tryna mess w someone’s feelings like that!!!!

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telling disabled people (specifically disabled adults) to just get out of the house, attend events and make friends is easier said than done because;

1- a lot of disabled people can't leave the house. it's as simple as that.

2- if they can leave the house, they may need carers who may be bigoted and may not feel comfortable bringing them along to events for specific minority identities

3 if they have a supportive carer/ if they can go out alone, they may not have reliable access to transport (cars can't always fit mobility aids, public transport is notoriously inaccessible)

4- if they have access to transport, it's still not guaranteed that disabled people can enter an event, be that physical barriers, sensory overwhelm, dietary restrictions

5- if a disabled person can get into a venue, who's to say they won't encounter ableists, overt discrimination or not. this is an even larger concern for disabled people of colour, queer people, or any other minoritised identities.

6- even if the people are lovely, a lot of events are set in evenings, a time when a lot of disabled people feel even less safe when leaving the house.

I'm sure there's more. this doesn't even include trying to keep in contact with people and everything else that comes with relationships, but I just want to highlight that disabled loneliness and isolation is a huge issue with so many factors. don't try to dismiss it and tell us to 'just go out'.

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Nobody is mad at me.

Nobody is mad at me and if they were, they would say so.

Nobody is mad at me and if they were they would say so and if they haven't said so then it's not my responsibility to read into their silence.

Nobody is mad at me.

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the idea of gender is so uncomfortable to me. I don’t align with any gender, I hate gendered pronouns, it all just feels weird and uncomfortable. Like I’m definitely not a girl, but PLEASE DO NOT call me “he”. It’s so tiring being in a constant state of confusion and discomfort because everything feels wrong to me.

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not having autism or adhd makes 99% of posts on this site about being neurodivergent worthless guys please please please

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me when my English teacher gives me like 3 different essay brainstorms (which includes writing thesis, all general points, counterpoints, etc) in one week

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"You're handling things so well!"

No hun I'm handling things so QUIETLY. There's a fucking DIFFERENCE.

Honestly fuck you.

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You don’t have to be resilient.

You don’t have to fight to defy the odds.

You don’t have to define success in the way the rest of the world does.

Baby, you are sick. You don’t owe anyone your resilience and you certainly don’t owe anyone an inspiring story. Rest. Do nothing. Live slowly and gently. You don’t have to keep fighting against your body like this.