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are you ever like damnnnnnn why cant it be easier

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I'm so depressed. I'm so very lonely. I want to make a post on FB as like a cry for help, but it'll just be seen as attention seeking and cringe. So I'm posting here.

I moved to a new city, I can't find a job, I'm food insecure, I have no gas money, and a very reluctant partner who wants me to help myself for us to be in a healthy relationship.

I'm physically disabled and mentally ill. Every day is painful for me, some worse than other, but it's been really bad lately. My mental health is deteriorating, I can't afford to take care of myself. I barely eat one meal a day, I can't even afford caffeine. Now I'm not going to be able to afford my 4 psych meds in a few days, so the withdrawals are going to hit really hard.

Oh and despite not eating, I'm gaining weight. I'm not even hungry most days why do I keep gaining? It's breaking my body and my spirit.

I'm so lonely, my partner thinks quality time is me sitting in the room while he plays online games with his friends for hours a day, while I maybe get an hour long show to watch with him every couple days. Idk why I'm even venting this part, I came to terms with it several months ago that he's never going to give me the quality time I want.

Not only did I move to a new city, but my best friend in the whole world moved states away a little over a year ago and surprise, now he has cancer and I can't go visit him because I have no money and no job.

There are more days than not that I believe I would be better off dead. I used to self harm as a teenager, and the urge has been strong to start up again. Good thing I'm about to be out of my meds though I guess, because I've been considering downing the full bottles.

I feel like I can't talk to anyone about this. My partner just gets awkward and says for me to tell him what I want him to do and I'm like?? Tf you mean. I can't talk to my mom because, while good intentioned, will always just say pray or look to God. And I don't want to bother my friend who was on the brink of death himself with my own wanting to die.

I think about it often. Crashing my car off a bridge, taking pills, walking out into a lake. I just want this endless cycle of suffering to end.

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That's So True by Gracie Abrams and Taste by Sabrina Carpenter feel like two sides of the same coin to me

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I hope you're okay :(

Not doing too great tbh. I got a concussion and now my life is falling apart but by bit. Just taking life one day at a time right now. Thank you

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Early 2000s Desktop Wallpapers!

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I am a shell

Just a husk

There's nothing inside me

No personality

Nothing to love

The being that resided in my shell

Was unfed

And left to die

Reach in there

The being can no longer bite

It can't hurt you

But you can no longer hurt it

The being is already beaten

The being is already dead.

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Hey everyone, I'm having trouble affording my depression medication this month. It's a little over $17 and I desperately need help getting it by tomorrow. Please send anything if you can help

P*ypal harham1996

V*nmo harham96

Message me for phone number for zelle if you need to use that

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Hey guys, who wants to get piss drunk with me and die from alcohol poisoning? /j maybe

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current mood

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Yeah that about sums it up

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[shares 2 traits with a character] this is absolutely insane we are the same person

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being on tumblr for a long time but never reading homestuck like

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this is literally me on tumblr.com