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I got an allergic reaction from something - absolutely now clue how - & now my whole body is itching

this is torture

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never not reblogging this bc it literally happened again... while we were on vacation together

friends making plans without you in front of you is next level betrayal

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just saw this post again & it's funny bc I got ghosted shortly after posting

so I'm talking to somebody right now and it's exciting bc we have a lot in common - life values, views, favorite things

I just really wish I could talk about that with someone

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the way I devoured those 12 grapes under the table at midnight

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I got asked what I wanted to do on my birthday this year because it's a weekend this time. and I simply don't know

party would mean waiting till midnight and I don't like the attention. I don't know who I'd invite anyways, a party with less than 10 people who don't fit together seems pointless

not doing anything seems pathetic

hangout with friends would mean I'd get annoyed because I eventually will be ignored even on my birthday

and it's a Sunday so a day trip doesn't make sense either

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sometimes it's the small things that hurt the most

like seeing your friends do the activities you suggested you'd do... without you

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It's so funny seeing my post from a year ago... because nothing has changed 😂

I still need new friends

I still haven't finished my bachelor's thesis

My friends still rarely text me first (which means I rarely text anybody)

They all had a great summer because no one asked me to do stuff with them

I hate this and yet I feel like I can't change it

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Sext: do you want to go to the book store? I'll buy you an iced coffee and any books you want

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I need new friends

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maybe I'm just unlovable

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friends making plans without you in front of you is next level betrayal

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idk what's worse; being ignored on accident or being ignored on purpose

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now that I'm diagnosed with adhd it feels like I'm a fraud, like imposter syndrome for health issues

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that heart breaking moment when your friend likes books from your most hated author 💔😂

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that one person who has all the time in the world to do literally anything else on their phone BUT to text me back

thanks for that