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Family

Surely people come and go, but not family. /unless family ends up being in a really bad position/.

/I’ve been planning to post since it’s really been a while since I got my computer back from vacation, but internet here (PH) sucks, most of the time, the peak reach only 200-500kbps, shitty internet providers -- fucking expensive and what do we get? They say it’s fast and guess what? I believe they’re talking crap; false advertising. lol/

Okay, I didn’t take up summer term this year, so I’ve been with my lovely lads, spending time with them, therefore I won’t graduate on time. I even still have to talk to my program’s program chair, since I hadn’t enrolled the petition course I got into /occurred during first few weeks of April, but by that time, confusion still striking me whether to take up summer term or spending time with my family -- I’m going to live in a dormitory till graduation, and that’s 1 year left, funny right?/. A bit of happiness yet loneliness sensation when they told me about it, I’m happy ‘cause finally, I can be responsible and independent /I’m more of a couch potato when they’re around, especially when my mother’s around, she’s a workaholic. Though when I’m with my siblings or with my father, I do most of the household chores, I feel like cleaning and such/, I get to manage to save money especially during this time around, sis’ 18th birthday coming soon eh! But sure it’ll be a lot of hassle, and gonna miss my lads’ cooking! Maybe I’ll practice cooking at my friend’s house so I could cook them good meals and not just adobo, menudo, nilagang baka, tinola, and morning meals /and I keep forgetting their recipes/. 

Just talking about this feels like being childish, but I don’t care, I’m lucky enough to have a family and having a good bonding moments with them, including the cliches, pointless arguments/fights. 

P.S I love being loved and part of the family, but speaking of family, I don’t know why I don’t feel like having a family of my own, having wife and kids, I just don’t feel like it.

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"It's HIGH NOON" - McCree, Jesse (Overwatch) tbh, I really want to start once again exploring digital art. Maybe I could start off with this one. Then maybe! / just maybe / I'll make the rest of the characters provided in the Overwatch. I wouldn't be able to start digitalizing my art till around this May. Hopefully, my span time would last that long.

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Sorry I haven't posted anything lately. Unfortunately, I'm miles away from my computer to post midnight thoughts, to post-process the wilderness and shit, not to mention the Tumblr app in this Windows Phone of mine is left behind years ago; outdated /whether the OS is Win10 nor Win8, especially Win7/ , somehow using browser is much better than the app itself. P.S: Tumblr, please update your app not only on iOS and Android, but also in Windows. Thanks a bunch!

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Perception to humanity

The impressions of people towards their own kind truly amazes me, from worse to good, racism to feminism, you name it.

Expanding my knowledge from it by doing so in experience really does it job to know people and their personality. I avoid the unnecessary conflicts when gaining perception to others but when it do, adjusting may be required in order to maintain sanity to self and maintain relationship to others, though emotional manipulating is my last resort. Sometimes it’s working but most of the time I really have no idea, I must admit it seems to working well, despite studying from few years to decades of psychology, I hardly understand the different sides of humanity, this is what makes people extraordinary from the rest of the living beings in Earth. Unfortunately, it is also the downfall of the humanity, war is the effects of it, from back in Stone Age to Middle Age, even up from today, their diverse culture and the scope of their understanding differs from thousands of others. Fortunately I observe people and can’t help but to notice that it drastically changed by embracing and respecting others’ way of thinking but it doesn’t change the fact that the situation will be constant. I’m afraid there will be a time that another war will broke out, knowing the today’s generation of technology, I believe it’ll be far more cruel, and more blood will be required to pay the price.

Not to mention that there are among people that dying to reach the top, staking the life itself just to be satisfied, letting others fall to their demise.

I will no longer be surprised about the human race, I incite them to unite, unfortunately, that might only happen when they are struggling, begging, clinging to life. How easy for them to die yet difficult to live; scared in death but letting themselves suffer in situations and problems facing. They are scared of death since nobody could ever tell the tale afterlife.

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playing nice

I’m terribly sorry I wasn’t able to post or continue the blog challenge and everything but right now I really want to open up right now. Cos tonight’s been cool and at the same time, fucked up.

Why? I’m having hard time keeping my patience, it’s wearing thinner every night as I ride in the tricycle /tricycle is a motorcycle with a side car as a form of transportation for those who didn’t know, kind of a norm here in the Philippines and in some countries/ and I’m quite annoyed for their rules, specifically the required fees to pay just to ride a very tight-packed tricycles. I’ve been commuting half of my entire life and the drivers of the said tricycles isn’t asking for the same fee, I’m sure to say they’re quite biased, as their fellow men, some aren’t afraid to argue that I’m not paying the right fee but I’m paying right as a citizen of this country, cos of course, I want better for this country, but unfortunately, there’s still quite the number of those isn’t cooperating well, hard-headed, getting back to the topic, call me kuripot or a person who’s thrifty but limited for being kuripot because just to fetch a ride to a tricycle in order to get home, I require 12 pesos but some drivers are just like what I said, hard-headed cause my home’s pretty far than the rest of passengers, some drivers offering me like 13 pesos or 15 pesos, aye pal i get that they require money in order to live just like the rest of us but c’mon, i’m not even working and very dependent to my parents to finish college and everything, I also know that my parents are working hard just to give us proper life for the future, i’m even bothered to ask them for extra money cos i know that they have to adjust, we’re not rich nor that poor but i don’t want them also to suffer, why even i’m saying this? what’s my point behind all of this? it’s because they’re not the only ones that having problems in this shitty life, keeping up with society just to live normally, i say this world is very dull, but i can still see colorful colors hiding behind the less-saturated sepia-like world, if portraying it in the picture, i say the world and people living within is like a damaged photo, but just need like to recover it; therefore remastering the photo into like it was shot yesterday /courtesy of the words to my professor/. I’m admitting that I’m a nice person inside out, but also as a person, I have my limits and doesn’t resort to violence as much as possible; or getting myself in a situation full of hate cos i don’t really want that.

my point is, those drivers, I know they’re suffering like everyone else, but please avoid resorting to harsh words, cos words are powerful and able to leave a scar and might not heal.

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DAY NINE: WHAT’S MY BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE?

I have no idea what’s to brag about my physical apperance.

(Note: I’m posting two blogs today so I can somehow keep up with the challenge and ends this before the end of January, and no, I’m still hangin’ around here at Tumblr, and I waaaant to post my 3D works here)

I don’t really know what, my best physical feature, my eyes isn’t dat lovely cos I believe it looks sad even when my mood is neutral,my nose? nope! I find it big, my lips? not even a word, cos I find them also big and the pros of having big lips is you don’t have to duckface your lips when you need to /I only duckface when I want to troll a photo -- hope you get my point/ , my face? absolutely not, thanks former pimples, despite my hardship to remove y’all, some of you made a trademark, that will surely boost my self-esteem I guess. my bod? No, I’m kinda skinny and at the same time have a little bit strong body /i thank my soccer days, also my track’n’field days, also my tennis days, kinda sporty back then, but not anymore 🎶 / my hands? well, my right hand isn’t cute anymore cos of scars /but not that much scars/. What, my dear friends is my best physical feature is my, skin. IT’S SMOOTH AF AND I DON’T USE LOTION, I HAVE THE SMOOTHEST SKIN IN MY FAMILY THANKS TO ---- no I’m just messing around, but I do have a smooth skin, and despite my working hands, it is still smooth, but the downside is its dryness. There this one time that after my allergy back in New Year, I had a dry skin problem, like it’s shedding, near my elbow part, both arms. Thanks to the time, it stops and instead my palm hits it.

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DAY EIGHT: WHAT ARE MY WORST HABITS.

‘Worst’ Habits, everyone has their own negative side that which is a nuisance to everybody.

(Note: I’m terribly sorry lads, I keep pardoning myself but what a hectic schedule I have this term, but do not fret, cos I’ll keep you posted as soon as I have the time)

Last-minute person: I’m not good at meetings, seriously, when there’s a meet-up at this place, I might be the last person to show up because if you read my post few days back, I hate that I’m the one, waiting. If the situation emerges, like despite my last-minute skill, and everyone or most of the people I’ll meet up isn’t still in the location, I guess I’ll give a kudos to my maturity and kindness to people he he. it’s meeting up with someone important and very urgent event, well, that’s a different story, I might come a little early, and when I mean early, I mean, right on time.

Don’t get me anggrryyyy: I avoid getting angry no matter what, cos you know, I hate conflicts and fights, those kind of stuff, I really don’t like when I’m angry, I don’t get to hurt people but what I mean is, my mouth /no, I don’t bite people nor showing them my tounge sarcastically/ and my brain /and no, I don’t have psyhic powers or powers that’s relating to the brain/, the reason for that is I’m saying words that just what comes into my mouth /no, I’m not going to give another corny joke/ and it makes people hurt emotionally, I don’t really like getting someone hurt whatever kind of -tionally it is, like physically, emotionally, technically, etc etc. If it’s something else, like arguing, the said statement is also applied aaaannd I won’t stop correcting people just to prove my point unless it bores me.The good news is, after getting angry, it’s just few minutes away before I calm down and we’re good friends once again /it depends on the situation if my trust about the person is affected or not/.

Cleaning: I like cleaning, trust me but only if I find the area or an object unappealing to my eye. But when I clean things, oh boy, not a single speck of dust you’ll see in the air.

Wearing the same fucking outfit: It’s not like what the title says, I mean I wear the same outfit like a uniform like, white polo shirt on monday, blue polo shirt on tuesday, black polo shirt on wednesday with a jacket /more-like black or white jacket/ so on and forth, and repeat, same white polo shirt again on monday -- you get the point /don’t worry, it’s already washed before I wear it again/. It kinda annoys me cos of I prefer wearing  but I fucking love polo shirt cos for me, it’s half-formal, half-not, and perfect for any weather /I’m living at a tropical country/

Staying up all night and wakes up late: I love when staying up all night, gaming /since the internet that time around is immortal/ as long there’s internet, I’ll stay all night long, if not playing, I’m reading articles or watching facts or like “10 photos that shouldn’t exist” or “Alien conspiracy” videos that can be found in YouTube, if not, I’m watching either anime, or kdrama /cos you know, their plot and cinematography is better than in my country/. The downside though, is that I’ll wake up after 8-12 hours of sleep, and it’s very difficult for me cos I love sleeping and continuing my dream.

i believe that’s all for my worst habits /horrible facts about me isn’t included, it didn’t make it for the list/ and have a long weekend. Ciao ~

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DAY SEVEN: WHAT’S IN MY BAG

Okay! I’m skipping “Day Six: My pet hates” cos you know, I practically don’t own a pet, and I told y’all that I’ll post twice for compensation but writer’s block occurred due to the Day Six blog. Sorry to disappoint you all. Sad

(Note: I’ve been really busy these past few days because of Thesis and all, like re-doing the papers and not a single speck of idea what to write for weekly paper of what my group has done for this week and for the previous one. Darn it, I’m having trouble with my grammar a lot this time around)

College student like me, obviously has something in my bag. Like what? An umbrella /trust me, I only use it when rain’s pouring down hard/. What else, a notebook, err, I mean, hand-sized notepad, for taking down notes since I told to myself that I should take studying more seriously cos the H.R department might get disappoint in my grades /cos we all know, most of them based your college life in grades and some of the events you’re parted in, and in some students like me, our portfolio/. Hmmm, I believe that’s all in my bag, not much.

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DAY SIX: YOUR 5 SENSES RIGHT NOW

What is this supposed to mean? Well, regardlss of curiosity the meaning of the blog for the day, I suppose I’ll do the format like one of my friends.

(Note: I’m truly sorry for not posting yesterday, I got home pretty late due to classes, but t’was fine, it made my day fine as a sword. NO worries, I’ll post later the Day seven for compensation)

Okay, where to start? Sight I guess.

SIGHT: I’m in the dining room, with a countless pills of vitamins and medicines aside the table /and no, we’re not sick -- just in case something happens and the vitamins? you know their purpose/. a bunch of 1.5 litre water container /cos my family, they’re very health conscious/, each one of us have at least one said water container and obviously, I don’t bring mine to school COS IT’S HEAVY AF; too hassle to carry around. My youngest sibling, well, she just shared her dream that is very weird but dreams tend to do that. Lastly, this computer + my phone, typing this blog as for this moment and my phone? Well, just waiting for a notification to pop up.

SMELL: Nothing I guess, except the smell of the shampoo dwelling in my hair.

AUDITORY: The pleasing sound of the heavy rain, oh how it makes me sleepy and comfy, the continual, gratifying sound of the keyboard, it really gives me the vibes like I’m typing a typewriter /except it’s more smooth and less gaps/, lastly, the corny jokes(facts?) of my said sister.

TASTE: The bland taste of water I just drank a while ago.

FEELS: /Mentioning the keyboard again/

It’s not really much for share today cos I have no classes for this day, and I do have class today, I might post another long-boring-corny post. That’s all friends.Ciao.

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DAY FIVE: 10 SONGS I LOVE RIGHT NOW

‘sup everyone? Today’s about 10 Songs I love Right Now. I’m really into music, just like everyone else, but the taste to it, are totally different. I believe people have different alternative patterns they’re into -- if you know what I mean.

(Note: I’m truly sorry for not posting this yesterday, it was because I can’t login with the usual response: “There was a problem logging in” all day long and also, I’m not including classical songs into this one, sorry)

#1: Trees by Twenty-One Pilots. Now this song is my jam! Every time I’m feeling sad, lonely /you know, feeling sentimental/, I play the song to ease myself up, I really should make a music video out of this, I just need the clearer version of it /cos I don’t have the original version, sadly, I only listen to Spotify and YouTube/ and also, I don’t have yet the skill for what I have envision for the music video, and also the cast. Why I love this song? Well, I said the first reason, that the song eases me up and secondly, it’s because it reminds me of someone I like, that I want to know her, I want to see, I want to say, hello. Okay, enough with the corny line. Next song coming right up!

#2: Lua by Bright Eyes. The first time I heard this song in the game called Life is Strange, this song really strike me up due to the meaning of the song, it’s about escapism /if there’s such a word/, I find the words how to escape using drugs and alcohol; like in the line “The mask I polish in the evening, by the morning it looks like shit”. I play this song whenever I want to be alone or feeling negative to myself /I play this song and the Trees by repeat every time the negativity or feeling of loneliness emerge/ What a way to escape reality.

#3: What a Wonderful World by Louis Armstrong. This song somehow contradicts the previous song, Lua by Bright Eyes. Fortunately, if you look into the meaning of it, with Louis Armstrong formulated the song, despite people are selfish; using others for their own benefits, countless of people dying from starvation, corrupt Government officials. I say this song is to appreciate the nature beauty of the world and the pros living in the world, in the good way. Also, in the last line, it shows the children’s innocence, their beauty, and that they’re will be in-control in the future with more knowledge obtained than the previous generation, with a hope given that they’ll lead for less selfish world, and much more better world.

#4: The Heart of Life, by John Mayer. I believe this song teaches you how to stand up to your own two feet once again after you’ve been slammed with unfortunate events, that you have to be brave to do things because it’s worth it in the end /especially if you’re planning something big/. Additionally, it taught that you’re not the only one in the fight.

#5: Can’t Help Falling In Love by Haley Reinhart. I love the melody of this song! /I also love the original by Elvis Presley but this one feels me like crying/ This song enables me of fear of falling in love fast, but can’t help it. Nobody can conquer love, Love conquers you, that it will come for you like a river. How scary to fall in love.

#6: Demons by Imagine Dragons. This song depicts reality, where “man is made for greed” which if you look into the people, every one has a greed. Hence a beast inside -- I’m bad at explaining, I know. Anyway, it shows that people have a good side but also have a bad side. With you not around, they’re just bad as they slowly stab you in the back. Oh how cruel people can be.

#7: Santa Monica Dream by Angus and Julia Stone. Based on the lyrics, I believe it’s about separation, once together but aren’t anymore /listen to the song so you’ll understand why I love it teehee/

#8: Her Diamonds by Rob Thomas. Fighting with someone you love, I remembered reading what Rob Thomas said “It's actually a song about a girl who is very ill. it's a song about empathy and dealing with that with someone you love” /I copied that from one of my documents, don’t go bother asking why/. I find the song unfortunate to Rob’s wife that unable to do anything but to fight for it, and Rob watching her suffer helplessly.

#9: Eternal Flame by Human Nature. I love this song! How smooth the song is. This song is about a person is in love with someone and lets that person to know what he feel towards her and will always protect her. It also says that she’s the one that made his day shine, how she lit up his life once again.

#10: Bloom by The Paper Kites. This song lets me know that you want to tell them how you feel, but you’re lost in words, also to get closer to them, unfortunately, you’re scared AF like a puppy lost in rain.

BONUS song: Fool Again by Westlife. I’m not going to let Westlife slide through the songs I love! But this one tops the list, I know it’s a little bit corny, but this song doesn’t relate to me yet, hopefully.

That does it for the 10 songs I love right now! Some are actually have been one of my favorites long time ago, if you noticed, most of the songs I love are about reality and love. Adding to that is you’re wondering why I’m saying the meanings per song, it’s because in that way, I love the said songs. Ciao!

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DAY FOUR: WHAT AM I AFRAID OF?

Day Four of our 31 Day Blog Challenge! 27 days to go! Wippee! and it’s about Fear, we all have at least one. The agony we’ve been living through.

(Note: I’ll continue adding this kind of thing ‘note’ before the content of my blog, kind of my signature I guess. Another thing, I already made this Day four blog but my browser crashed and it didn’t saved so expect this post is far less awesome than the others)

Judgmental of others, I believe you already noticed this one if you read the ‘note section’, I hate being judged especially if tell it straight to my face, that’s why my fellow bloggers, if I’m going to judge someone from their actions, I tell them by suggesting or encouraging them that “this action may be better” since I know it how exactly it feels when you’re being judged or criticized and /I don’t know ‘bout the others, but for me, I lose confidence and self-esteem when someone is/ makes me feel that I’m no valuable, that I can’t do it. There are times where it happen, but I usually let it slide and bring it to laugh /’cause, laughing is a good way to hide that you’re hurt -- you get the point/

Explosions! Surprises! I hate being surprised especially when it’s just to make fun of me or just to annoy me, and unnecessary explosions! Just like surprises, explosions is another way to surprise me, like putting a balloon near to me and popping it! /I just used the word explosions just to exaggerate it, sorry/

First touch to animals, I’m pretty scared when touching an animal /I already explained this so I won’t bother explaining the whole details/ because I don’t know when they’re going to bite me, scratch me, or anything that will hurt me. Fortunately, once I touched them, the fear is gone for that certain animal.

Love. I’m one of the people that are ‘torpe’ /no explanation on this one, sorry/

Commitment. If you’re thinking of only love, then you’re wrong. It covers everything, ‘cause I know once I stopped committing, then I’m done.

I’m afraid that’s all I could share for tonight! and I would love to add more ‘fear’ about myself but school’s starting tomorrow, also require to sleep early this evening! Until then!

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DAY THREE: MY FAVORITE QUOTE

The most beautiful thing in the world is cannot be seen nor touched, but felt in heart.

Wowsers! It’s already the 3rd day for my 31 Day Blog Challenge!

(Note: I can’t believe I’m still doing this kind of stuff, but whatever, sharing is kinda my thing back in the past)

Now I don’t know who made the quotation, but I still remember the time I first time I read the quotation /and no, I didn’t see in Google/, I was around 7-8 years old (?) and it was in one of the stalls of a mall, the one nearest to my house; It was a stall for decorations, full of ... I don’t know how to describe it except using the ‘decorations’, anyway, I saw a bunch of quotations until my very own eyes saw that, until then, it was my favorite quotation. I find it extremely difficult to explain the quotation, also I believe you get my point right? Besides, it’s not like 31 Day Blog Challenge said that I could explain what it’s meant for me.

Now, I might unable to post for tomorrow ‘cos I have a sky to pass by, but no worries, I’ll do what I can. /can’t disappoint the challenge for dis/

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DAY TWO: 20 FACTS ABOUT ME

Yep! And it’s day two alright for the 31 Day Blog Challenge!

(Note: I’m non-native English speaker so you might hit a few spots about my grammar, why use English instead of Tagalog? Well, I’m more comfortable expressing or writing in English -- and also everybody would understand, I hope)

FACT #1: I have a stitch in my right eyebrow, I was too young to remember the incident but I believe it’s not that fatal. Sometimes, it’s unnoticeable but when it does, it makes me look like a delinquent, especially when my mood is sour (but that rarely happens).

FACT #2: I’m a heavy sleeper. Obviously, it’s already causing problems to my academic life so as an alternative means, I have multiple alarm clocks prepped to annoy my deep sleep.

FACT #3: I talk to myself, like a lot. No wonder how my skills at social interaction have gone to worse. It’s more like how to enhance my speech especially in public, so I wouldn’t get ashamed of saying the wrong set of words, ‘cause we all now WORDS ARE POWERFUL as fuck. I believe now you’re getting my point, good! To the next one!

FACT #4: /related to the previous fact/ I look at the mirror, especially when alone. Now I don’t know why I have this habit, but usually after looking, given after a couple of seconds, that’s when the Intrapersonal communication kicks in, though I believe it’s a common thing to others as well.

FACT #5: what else, ah yeah! There are things that we want to do called hobbies. One of them is ... I actually don’t know, I play sports, music, games, but just for fun and I wouldn’t call them hobbies, the reason of is it’s tremendously exhausting /you might think I have a lazy ass, unfortunately, no/ the only fact sports isn’t one of them is the reason I sweat easily /yea I know, pretty disgusting, but hey! It also means I’m healthy -- too much hassle to explain/  Nevertheless, there are photography, film, drawing, it may traditional or digital art, I can’t brag that I’m good at said hobby but as experience passed by, the more I’m able to express and draw art. Another hobby is film, I admire film and would love to create films that able to inspire others and gain knowledge to others the power a film can be.

FACT #6: Bipolar, some people who knows me might not aware that I’m bipolar /and no, bipolar is not my name/  I’m -- f%&# !! I forgot the meaning of dictionary meaning of ‘bipolar’. Gotta leave this out early to search its meaning.

FACT #7: I hate waiting. I’m one impatient lad, believe me //thanks to maturity, I’m in control of it// but ironic as it is, I tend to be always the one everyone else waiting COS YOU KNOW HOW LONELY YOU WOULD BE ALONE WAITING FOR OTHERS but you know, I do it to others, how funny.

FACT #8: Just how many facts I should put? I’m running out of sweat typing. Oh speaking of sweat! Do you know I sweat a lot? Oh yeah, I already told you two facts behind. so 8 down! 12 to go!

FACT #9: You’re still here, you just can’t stop reading huh? Well, that makes the two of us, since I love reading! Yep, I love books, I prefer fiction though, there is also one time I read an fan ficti-- /wait! gotta keep my man’s pride, no pun intended to fan fiction authors and readers/. Sadly, I don’t have enough money to buy a book, so I just borrow one! In fact, I forgot I haven’t able to return someone’s book since I’m not finished reading the book, the downside ‘bout me reading books is once I stopped reading any book, my stupid ass will bore me to continue reading the book /and no, I’m not lazy -- believe me/.

FACT #10: I. love. chocolates. Did I forgot to mention I love chocolates? Well, now you know. Be grateful since you can put chocolates in my locker and tell me to meet you under a tree only to know it’s just a prank made by you and my friends.

FACT #11: Did you know every night after-school I look at the stars and gazes upon the beautiful Orion the (hunter) constellation! But I don’t look at the Orion as most people do. It’s a secret how I depict it. //I only look to the Orion only when I’m in transportation, at home, and sometimes when I’m around in my college school//.

FACT #12: I don’t reply at my own posts or someone else posts that much. Isn’t there a time where your post became so famous that a lot of people commenting at it? Well, I’m not the type of lad that would reply every. single. comment unless you give me a sense of humor or a sarcastic comment will do as well to make me reply to it.

FACT #13: Run like in the Temple Run! Once you stop, you’re dead. In terms of almost everything and anything, once I started something, /I think I already explained this earlier, oh never mind/  I don’t want to stop doing it or else, I will be too bored to continue what I’m doing. Take a guess! Am I writing this without stopping continually? Well, congratulations! You’re right and also wrong. True I’m doing this non-stop but wait, waiiiit! The exception is like when you got power-ups like in the game, where you’re invulnerable to die. Of course that’s when my parents asked me to do something /yes, I’m still living with my parents, and I don’t mind ‘cause it’s in the culture, mostly of the Filipinos/ I understand if you’re a little bit confused but I get that.

FACT #14: Do you want to live in one big house? Or do you want to keep it small? Well, if it’s the big house, congratulations! I’m happy for you! Well, if it’s a small house, still congratulations! I’m also happy for you! But personally, I want to keep it small, why? It’s because its low maintenance and I could get anywhere of the house especially if there’s an emergency.

FACT #15: Ugh if it’s not only of the challenge I would stop at fact # *beep*. Anyway! This is more-like another continuation, regarding the fact #14, what is it? What if I got myself a family and how will we work it out? That’s a different story, it’s obvious I don’t want big spaces between furniture, but here’s another fact, I will always make way for the better, hell with my dream if others hate it, what I want is that things that could work out between people -- it’s confusing because of my statement but yea.

FACT #16: Did you know I also want to be a politician? Yea, what I’m doing right now is definitely a suicide this could be used against me in the future, but do not fret, I always want to improve someone’s lives, and not like a selfish, corrupt politician who only cares is about themselves and not for the people. I also want to be an astronaut! Ambitious as it may be, my hopes for it isn’t getting near for all we know you gotta be known either in your local area or worldwide.

FACT #16: I use reverse-psychology, definitely I’m not abusing it. When necessary, I use it to gain access to self and to others.

FACT #17: Commitment? I love it. Actually, I’m more afraid to it. Don’t bother knowing.

FACT #18: I love kids. Believe me, I do. /no, I’m not using reverse psychology on this one/

FACT #19: Love huh? I try to avoid it as possible, for I might disappoint the next.

FACT #20: /As you notice I’m running out of facts about myself/ I’m always afraid touching animals at first. Okay okay, animal-lovers, I do love animals, but I’m afraid to get hurt by them /like getting bitten, or scratching me/ but believe me, once I touch them, I will take them away from you mwhehe /ofc, I’m just kidding, I can’t do that, but I cannnn hmmm/

I believe that’s all folks! 20 facts about who? Of course, me! Okay, enough with the corny lines and jokes. Until tomorrow then.

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DAY ONE: INTRODUCTION AND RECENT PHOTO

‘sup everyone? Well, doing this 31 Day Blog Challenge will truly expose my identity here at Tumblr, so I’m probably going to create another anonymous account sooner or later lol hehe.

(Note: this photo is my latest and recent photo but lately, I had a haircut, how unfortunate since I’m not a fan of posting selfies -- you get the point)

So here it goes, I’m Yvanne Tristan Marcellana, born on 23rd of March 1998, born from the Philippines, and currently taking B.A Communication - Multimedia Arts at Malayan Colleges Laguna. Umm, what else to say for my introduction? Not much but I take this 31 Day Blog Challenge will do it.

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True friend ^▽^

LIFE… SO FAR.

So, I’m going to try out something new. Hahaha

Sooooooooo, pretty much, this is going to highlight what goes on in my mind, so buckle up, sit back and try to understand what happens in this fucked mind. HAHAHA

So, to start, I’ll talk about myself. I’m currently a college student taking up a degree in Multimedia Arts. When it comes to the Program/Course that I have chose, I have no regrets. Arts has really been part of my life and I’m intending to keep it that way. Currently in the Philippines. Originally from California. Have 8 siblings and just started a relationship. :)

So, let’s start. I want to open up something and its my opinion on what’s going on in this world from my perspective. I know people have different perspectives about what’s going on and I completely respect that. But pretty much, all I have to say is that I’m a youth living in a world of chaos and if we try to speak out, we’re going to get punished. The amount of bullshit we have to go through everyday, The world is literally falling apart. The only place we feel comfort is in the arms of those we love and who love us back. Family and true friends. When it all seems grim, that is the only time you will see who is really by your side. It has been bothering me ever since this year started. Oh, that’s another thing I wanted to talk about. This year. 2016. One of the most fucked up years this world facing at the moment. With the amount of innocent deaths has made my heart shatter plentiful times. But for me, this year, I’ve learned a lot. To start, I enter the year pretty banged up from last year. I recently went through a break up. Was lost with what I wanted to do in life and had no one to talk to. But, as the year started, it still wasn’t good. I still didn’t have that much friends to open up to. I actually got a serious anxiety attack from family problems and as my life goes on. I wonder, how the hell did I end up here? I mean, at the moment, I’m okay I guess? I just keep on thinking about how my life would’ve went if certain events never happened. Also thinking about alternate realities. Different universes and perspectives. I don’t know. Fast forward a bit, to when I felt like I had a purpose in this world. It all started when I joined an Org. in my school. It was a film making org and woah, I never knew that that would change my life forever. I’ve met a new set of friends that I can actually trust. Unlike past experience from my highschool where I ended up with back-stabbers. Yeah, still kinda pissed about that But, forget about that. Anyway, going back to topic. Damn, my heart actually felt relieved. I actually found friends… wait, no. I actually found a second family. People with different backgrounds who all of a sudden, met up. Out of now where. The people who I call Fam. The people who has my back as well as me having theirs. I have no regrets in joining that org. If i didn’t I wouldn’t be here today writing this long ass message, and I’m not even done yet. HAHAHAHA Another thing I want to mention. There are these 2 girls, who I never knew would be one of my closest friends. I met them through one of my classes and I can tell from the start when how we talked to each other, I knew that we would get a long easily. We’re classmates in almost all of our subjects and like dude, they’re like family as well. The 2 sisters I never had. They have helped me through a lot and I’m grateful to have them in my life. So, not only have I met my official second family but, I’ve met someone as well. Hehe, if any of you have seen my recent post, this is the girl. The girl who I can say, brings me a smile just when I see her. The girl who I keep on saying is the one. Yes, I’m going to do my damn best to keep this girl in my life. I am going to protect her from anything that even tries to harm her. I know she’s a strong and independent woman. Hahaha but you know, I’m always gonna be there for her. No matter what. I love her with all my heart and I’m going to keep her in my life, and last but not the least. My family. People who have been with me from the start. From the day I was born. I know we aren’t a perfect family. We aren’t the best family. But, in my eyes, I don’t care what we are. As long as we’re still here on this earth, I will love all of you to the bottom of my heart. Losing a mother was tragic event for all of us. I hope you can all forgive me for not coping up and still dwelling in the past. I’m sorry for not forgiving. But, just give me time. Time is all I need and I will learn. I’m sorry for everything. But, not matter what, I will love all of you. Till the end.

CONCLUSION :P

Soooooo, there goes all my drama. HAHAHA But you know, 2016. You weren’t so bad after all. But, seriously fuck you. You’ve been a bitch to the world. So, to conclude, all I want to say to all my fans LMAO, I mean, to my fam. I love you all from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for being there for me and for supporting me in everything I do. I know sometimes I can be a insensitive bastard sometimes and I’m sorry for that. Just know that if ever any of you need help, never hesitate to ask me. I can always lend a helping hand. Well, that’s all for now. This is Gino signing out. Peace. :)

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Nothing.

Girl: why aren't you texting me?

Boy: Too tired to type.

Girl: You're my type but I never get tired of you.

Boy: Sorry, what did you say?

Girl: Nothing. :)

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