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Me every single refeed day

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See I’ve got the firefighter autism base game but I also have the math extension pack

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This disorder is fucking Wild I’m sitting here logging my food and I’m dreading it and certain that I’m over my limit and like.

MY ENTIRE DAY OF FOOD IS 735 CALORIES

WHAT

That’s. So much lower than I thought it would be??? And 36% is protein???? Literally how???

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RE-BLOG IF….

- You FULLY support recovery and WANT people to recover.

- You think people should AVOID “@na coaches” AT ALL COSTS.

-You are against “f@t-sp0” . (becosue it’s just down right wrong.)

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I’m not gonna lie I genuinely think the only reason I ended up with Ana is that the thought of binging horrifies me. Like no judgment whatsoever to anyone else but the second I think about the food going into my body I want to vomit. Idk I can’t loose control like that it would end me I need to at least feel like I’m in control

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Call me Orpheus the way I’ve got that gender dysphoria body dysmorphia combo

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Reminder to Click for Palestine today!

Thank you for your aid!

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I’m going to end my life wtf why is everything terrible I’m supposed to be having fun and instead I’m obsessing over the calories in my food and terrified of how out of control I am. I can’t weigh myself and I feel like I’m going to die I just want to starve but I have to eat or else my aunt will start asking questions and I can’t do this I need a fucking scale right fucking now

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Vacation is such a double edged sword on one side it’s great because more walking and I only eat once a day but the other side is that fuck I do actually have to eat and I can’t weigh myself and most of my food options are literal crap

Help

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So the thing about going from literal alcoholism to getting sober is that yeah actually five months sober will wreck your tolerance. One beer and I’m drunk

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Wassup motherfuckers, you know the dril by now, I got t-worded. Used to be > corporealxangel. if you don’t recognize that one I don’t blame you, I didn’t have it for very long, I was decrepitxangel before that

plz reblog this so I can (again) find all my mutuals !!

tagging some of the ones I can remember: @zombspidey @mamabearwonders @r4z0rberry @totally-not-artie5 @gruesomeghost-b0y @blackkat @h-0-n-3-y-d-3-w @r1pp1ng0utmygvtz

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Treat? Idk what to call it: 305 kcals

Cookie (165 kcals)

Ice cream (140 kcals)

Total: 1,513 kcals

Water intake: 6 cups (64 ounces)

I’m gonna have a really chaotic day today and this will make me feel better so I’m gonna track what I eat and update this every time I eat.

Breakfast: 268 kcals

Piece of banana (10 kcals)

2/3 teaspoon of peanut butter (48 kcals?)

Iced coffee with oat milk (30 kcals)

Dunkin’ egg white omelet bites (180 kcals)

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Dinner: 420 kcals

Slice of pepperoni pizza (345 kcals)

Toppings off a slice of pepperoni pizza (50 kcals)

I’m gonna have a really chaotic day today and this will make me feel better so I’m gonna track what I eat and update this every time I eat.

Breakfast: 268 kcals

Piece of banana (10 kcals)

2/3 teaspoon of peanut butter (48 kcals?)

Iced coffee with oat milk (30 kcals)

Dunkin’ egg white omelet bites (180 kcals)

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Lunch: 520 kcals

Mocha Java monster (220 kcals)

Green beans (70 kcals)

Bumblebee chicken salad kit w/ crackers (230 kcals)

I’m gonna have a really chaotic day today and this will make me feel better so I’m gonna track what I eat and update this every time I eat.

Breakfast: 268 kcals

Piece of banana (10 kcals)

2/3 teaspoon of peanut butter (48 kcals?)

Iced coffee with oat milk (30 kcals)

Dunkin’ egg white omelet bites (180 kcals)

[wtfevenami]

I’m gonna have a really chaotic day today and this will make me feel better so I’m gonna track what I eat and update this every time I eat.

Breakfast: 268 kcals

Piece of banana (10 kcals)

2/3 teaspoon of peanut butter (48 kcals?)

Iced coffee with oat milk (30 kcals)

Dunkin’ egg white omelet bites (180 kcals)

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Ed’s really got me panicking over eating a total of 600 calories in a day like bitch that’s not even enough for an infant but like I want to fucking cry this is awful

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Ughhh I managed to go a little over 48 hours without eating and only drinking coffee and water and it felt so good but I fucking ruined it by going out with my mom and sister and now I feel so fucking disgusting and uncomfortable and I hate it