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Comic about seeing my gf in the sunlight

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ACTUALLY MADE ME CACKLE

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After thinking it over, I have decided, that I do not want to be a system anymore. Problem solved.

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Another comic about us and our singlet partner (brunette girl)

For clarification purposes, the pink haired girl and Ethan are both alters

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A comic we made today about our various methods of hitting on our partner

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lots of us feel this way

i don't even feel real

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posts that arent about did but should be

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Ocean

go to this random coordinates generator and say in the tags how you would fare if you were dropped where it generates without warning. i’ll go first i’d be dropped in the middle of the fucking south atlantic ocean and perish

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oh my god? this happened to me and i justr remembered? but they went dormant in high school so its been like 8 years since I've seen them

plural culture is watching ONE video and then immediately forming a british butler that's supernaturally summoned by a silver bell (scp-662) to be a physical caretaker

thanks brain?

~ 🎠

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love it when i switch in and an anger holder has totally laid into someone they dislike and you just get to. deal with it. because it's your body and brain and you get to take responsibility even if it wasn't you that did it.

Broooo anger holder culture is fucking hating one of the host’s friends but you can’t say shit cause the host loves them💀💀

Every time I front I hover over the block button fr

Constantine did briefly block one of my partners a few days ago

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i get this. especially since not all of us are dating host's gf, or even comfortable around her.

Like, we feel so bad for the host’s boyfriend because she will periodically just disappear and he’ll be stuck with some random person who has her body, like that must suck. I kinda want to force a switch for him but I know she switched out for a reason.

-either Leo or Hunter

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I've always been self-conscious because my system is. Terrible. By this I mean that we have almost no communication, and when we can communicate, it's vicious arguments. To be honest, though it only works for some alters, having outside accountability is nice. Arguing in front of people who are safe, who are able to call out behavior, sometimes makes us behave ourselves and realize that we are all human, and even if we share a brain, we deserve respect.

We don't have any in-system relationships so I can't shed light on that.

-k

I have a question for traumagenic systems in specific!

Do you guys have in-system unhealthy dynamics? Like unhealthy romantic relationships and stuff? And if yes how you guys deal with it? Cuz i have two headmates who have a weird romantic relationship and its borderline unhealthy (not toxic, just... Unhealthy), but it stopped one of our headmates from searching for toxic people outside the system so idk if this is a good thing or not, i'm confused, I don't understand about this, i would love some light on it.

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me when i switch while cooking/drawing and I'm like wait what

DID/OSDD culture is a subtle switch happening and only noticing it because you immediately get way worse at whatever you’re doing

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i relate to this but at a different angle lol

i get really fully invasive traumatic memories that make me believe/see the world around me as if it was a moment in time however long ago and so one second I'm in my apartment washing dishes and my partner is talking to me and the next second the scene around me morphs and >insert description from op<

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The body's mother keeps talking about our school and if we have actually been doing it and whatever, I am 25 years old and haven't done school in years I'm just tryna get my morning coffee pls leave me alone-⚠

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This experience is so inconvenient when we're talking to someone not every alter has met yet and suddenly someone switches in and this random person is talking to us very excitedly and we're just really confused and nervous about it

-Kay

Plural culture is "Huh where am i? Who are they- Oh wait...right..."

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I can't really say what switching is like for the rest of my system, but for me it's usually one of two things.

Switching after extreme dissociation-- the typical staring off, dissociating, no one can snap me out of it, etc etc, body feels weird. maybe I lose a foot or a leg. or my head, sometimes, just isn't connected to my body. Then I blink a bit and bam something is *different*, my body feels different. Usually, after 30 seconds to a few minutes I'll forget what the alter before me was doing/feeling completely, but during the switch I can generally see their memories and sometimes their emotions.

Switching after,,, idk nothing? Just chilling, usually focusing really hard, and then all of a sudden there are voices or I'm Suddenly Here or someone is suddenly co-con whether I can hear their thoughts or not and I'm just like oh hello.

Some of my other alters have different experiences but I don't remember what they are and no one is in the front with me right now so I can't ask.

-Kay

I’m on a roll with posts today, so I’m going to keep going.

To those who have already interacted with my post on amnesia thank you so much for the information and suggestions, I really appreciate it. But I do have another question for you guys.

When you switch, what does it look like? For me I start to find it really difficult to focus on anything when I switch out. I go into a dissociative catatonic state where I’m processing everything but I can’t move anything -not my eyes, not my fingers- unless I am fighting very hard. Once I get to that point no one can break me out of it but myself and I don’t usually try very hard because I’ll only come back for a minute or two before dissociating again.

But when I switch back in, it’s totally different. I am fully functional the entire time and it can really hard to notice unless I realize I’m acting different.

It maybe important to state that I don’t typically lose control or consciousness when I’m not in the front. I am still very much there, my personality and everything about me is gone. But I still retain my memories. It’s basically PDID but I try not to use that term because I live in the states and it isn’t recognized here.

I just wanted to know if anyone experiences something similar when it comes to such a big functional difference between switching in and out.

Thanks in advance.

-Apollo still

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Fictive culture is having a breakdown in front of everyone at rehearsal because you want to go back to a home you can never go back to, and you want to see a family you’re never going to see again.

And being told “We’ll be your family” by the system’s friends was very sweet, but didn’t make you feel much better because they’re not your family and they never will be.

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