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People often assume I'm a bore just because I'm quiet and take a while to open up. But they don't know that behind this dull exterior, I hide a colorful world. And if you knock on my door and be patient enough, I'd gladly welcome you to this rich inner world I hide within.

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The Unlikable One

I am well aware that I'm an unlikable person. People usually hate my guts and I feel that a lot. Quite honestly if you tell me this 10-15 years ago, I'd really feel sadness. I was such a people pleaser back then, I tried to dim my light to make other people feel comfortable.

If there's one great thing that I've accomplished in my life, that is to have accepted myself, and understand myself better than before. I've lost a lot of people in my life because I knew I couldn't keep up feeding other people's ego. Also I suck at communications.

And my personality is strong, I can be easily known as someone who is always angry. At first I was ashamed of this, but I realized, that the people who never made an effort to see through the source of that anger is never meant to stay permanently in my life.

I have learned that my anger is protecting me from abuse. My anger is valid. I have to be angry to keep my sanity, it helps me weed out the wrong people from my life.

I am also someone who is unable to maintain an energy that is all sunshine and rainbows and shit, it's simply not how I function.

I grew up and I'm tired. I've felt a lot, I cared a lot and now I'm tired. I no longer have that mental space to worry whether people like me or not. To be fair, I like fewer people.

At this stage, I am slowly learning to embrace myself more. I appreciate the good intentions in my mind. I forgive myself for being mad at simple things. Simple things that are usually not "simple" as it have deep roots. I do not understand this about myself before, but now I am seeing it better.

I am a feeler, I feel too much. It is a curse as much as it is a gift. I know when people lie, I can feel it in my gut, but I like disappointing myself by letting these people walk over me and give them the benefit of the doubt. I want this world to be a better place by making change, and wanting to help people, but at the same time, I find myself thinking that we no longer deserve to be here.  Sometimes I am able to help people with their problems, but I'm unable to help myself at the same time. Mostly I need help, but I refuse to be helped. I have experienced giving people warmth while my heart was breaking and suffering coldness inside. I can be sometimes a perfectionist while being imperfect myself. I was an absent friend but at the same time, they mostly occupy my mind. I am a nagging sister while all I want is peace at home.

I am a walking paradox and I admit to being a work in progress. But I will no longer invalidate myself just because it's not the "standard".

As someone who is unlikable, it's perfectly fine. I sleep at night soundly knowing that the decisions that I've made so far has taken me into a path of self understanding. I no longer want to be in deep with people who has not invited me there psychologically.

I have forgiven myself for being difficult sometimes, it's not entirely my fault. I've been raised into thinking that I have to adhere to everything that I'm told and be decided by other people that I'm rebellious when I don't align with the usual. I have dealt with narcissists most of my life, and I have come to fear myself that I too have become one. As I've said before, I am still a work in progress and I'll do the best in my power to not become the people that I hate.

I don't know how much long I have in this world, but I know that one day, I will walk out of here at peace with myself. And I will remember, how profound the life that I've had, and what an incredible journey it has been.

So for now, happy birthday to me 🥳

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Re-reading "The Alchemist" to my baby girl because she wasn't born yet when I read the book the first time 😆

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Growing up watching the women in my family go through this and take it out on their kids, I refuse to follow in their footsteps. Single life until I find someone worthy. No I will not "lower my standards" as they keep telling me just cause your ass settled for trash.

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FUNDRAISING ₱50K TO SAVE 40 POUND DOGS FROM EUTHANASIA!!!

REPOSTING FOR SWS (STRAYS WORTH SAVING) ADOPT DON'T SHOP

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We are raising this amount to be used for tomorrow's expenses to save the 40 Tanauan pound dogs from euthanasia. As an update, dogs #4 and 21 have adopters already, while dog #8 was found by the owner after we posted the photos.

MORE ADOPTERS ARE BADLY NEEDED! PLEASE CONTACT US AND BE PART IN SAVING LIVES!! Those willing to adopt, please message the page or Nico Gueco or Kathrina Gueco.

Chinabank

SWS Good News Foundation Corp

137500012221

Gcash - 09176363824 (Melanie R) or 09129141555 (Melanie G) or 09560553566 (Antonia) or 09176363931 (Patricia)

Paymaya & Coins.ph - 09176363824

Paypal: paypal.me/straysworthsaving or straysworthsaving@gmail.com

Unionbank

109452801813

Melanie Ramirez

Bank of the Phil Islands (BPI)

1289494037

Melanie Ramirez

Banco de Oro (BDO)

002280238329

Antonia Ramirez

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SWS DESPERATELY NEED YOUR HELP TO SAVE 40 POUND DOGS FOR EUTHANASIA TOMORROW!! WE BADLY NEED ADOPTERS FOR ALL 40!!

The city vet of the pound in Tanauan, Batangas sought the help of SWS to attempt to save the dogs surrendered or reported to them for catching. A total of 40 dogs are scheduled to be euthanized tomorrow, before the Holy Week.

SWS has been announcing that the shelter is full and we cannot accommodate new rescues, much more 40 rescues from the pound. This is why we are begging those who have room in their homes for an additional blessing to adopt even one of these rescues!

WE BADLY NEED 40 ADOPTERS TO SAVE 40 POUND DOGS FOR PTS!!!

To those who can adopt, we can arrange transpo to your home. We will also have them vaccinated (first shot). To those who want to go to the pound itself, we will welcome you there. I will personally facilitate the adoption tomorrow at the Tanauan pound starting 9am.

Those willing to adopt, please message the page or Nico Gueco or Kathrina Gueco. PLEASE BE A PART IN SAVING THIR LIFE! WE ARE OUT OF TIME! Only 21 photos are posted here as the City vet is also finding adopters for the others.

To those who can help us with the expenses involved, like the transpo, dog food, vaccinations, anti0rabies shots, treatment (as needed) and meds (as needed), we will truly appreciate it! Surely, the Lord will repay you!

LORD, PLEASE SAVE ALL THESE 40 POUND DOGS!

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REPOSTING FOR SWS (STRAYS WORTH SAVING)

ADOPT DON'T SHOP

SWS badly needs help for food for 250 dogs waiting for homes.

Please be the reason no dogs get hungry.

Pls donate thru

Chinabank

SWS Good News Foundation Corp

137500012221

Gcash - 09176363824 (Melanie R)

Paymaya & Coins.ph - 09176363824

Paypal: paypal.me/straysworthsaving or straysworthsaving@gmail.com

Unionbank

109452801813

Melanie Ramirez

Bank of the Phil Islands (BPI)

1289494037

Melanie Ramirez

Banco de Oro (BDO)

002280238329

Antonia Ramirez

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Happy Holidays!

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MAGWAI