that feeling when u finally stop caring about the 3D >>>
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š. DIARY ENTRY 12.5ļø“JUNE 5, 2024
dear loass diaryā¦
tumblr cut me off so this is actually a second part to an already existing diary entry. pls pls pls read the first part before this one (click here to read).
ā andddd that brings me to yet another point (the yapping isnāt over yet yāall), I am the god of my reality. let that sink in, the sole creator. and Iām thinking so so so SO small. literally, go look at my list of desires on a previous tumblr post and youāll see Iām not asking for anything out of the ordinary, my dreams arenāt big in the slightest. yet I feel like Iām asking for so much?? ppl are manifesting ginormous mansions, private islands, stardom, supernatural abilities, bringing ppl back from the dead, and all the wealth you could ever imagine and I think a normal life is reaching too high?š Iām not sure what this is, maybe itās my self concept? but itās definitely the biggest and dare I say the only actual āobstacleā in my road. I need to rlly get it in my head that this is nothing, and that I can actually achieve so much more.
note to future self: youāre the god, so itās not possible for a single desire to be unattainable or above you. and desires, regardless if itās a new pair of shoes or becoming royalty, are all the same. youāre the one that places the value on them, youāre the one that says one is ābiggerā than the other, at the end of the day theyāre all just things you want. and theyāre all attainable. it IS possible for you to be what you want, the fact that you want it is proof that you can conceptualize it, which is cold hard evidence that you can have it, be it.
sometimes I get a little tired of this though. how many times do I have to go through this cycle of feeling worried and then realizing I have nothing to worry about? why canāt I break the cycle? itās like I have to remind myself sooooo often about the same old things. when will I not need reassurance anymore? but maybe I should have a little more grace for myself. even if Iām confident in my knowledge of the law and even if weāve been through this before, I am both god and human. and so doubt and dread come natural to me. and who doesnāt need a reminder every once in a while? who doesnāt lose sight of the goal occasionally? maybe me being anxious isnāt the problem and maybe I should stop treating it like it is a problem. because if I go back to what I know at the end of the day, isnāt that what matters? I shouldnāt beat myself up for being worried, because if I was my desired self would I even care that I was? I wouldnāt. sure doubts donāt feel nice, but they donāt get rid of my desires or āprogressā unless I decide they do. they donāt do or mean anything unless I decide that they do. okay, Iām getting tired of writing now and Iām trying to quit thinking about manifestation and instead spend that time actually manifesting so, see ya soon!!
kisses, Tiffany
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š. DIARY ENTRY 12ļø“JUNE 5, 2024
dear loass diaryā¦
this couldnāt have happened any longer than ten minutes ago but Iāve finally felt what itās like to be nailed to a state. and let me tell u this, it wasnāt the state I wanted. Iām sitting here on my bedroom floor rn, my actual diary laid out in front of me along with some pens. I was about to journal, mainly because I was feeling anxious about my circumstances, but hereās the thing. Yesterday, I made the goal to really live in imagination and try to be in it as much as I can. I wanted to know what it was like to be completely nailed to a state. Not even to get anything but because I want to and because it feels nice. anyways, back to that anxious feelingā I was thinking to myself āwait why am I feeling anxious? this doesnāt even make any sense I was happy with my state and my imagination yesterday-ā until it hit me that I already was nailed to a state, the one I was trying to let die. the one that was home to my ācircumstancesā. the way I saw myself, saw my life, the thoughts running through my head, the plans I had for myself, the way I felt about my reality was all a perfect match for the state I didnāt want. and it was at that moment where I really felt the realization hit me. yk, the 3D can feel so real at times with all of its five senses and stuff that sometimes, I forget itās a state. and Iāve always wanted to know what it was like to completely bask in a state, so to have realized that Iāve already been capable of doing thatā that Iāve already been doing that, was just soā¦eye opening? and it kinda answers my annoyance, I was wondering why I still felt so worried when the truth was, how was I supposed to ever feel something else if that was the state I was so aligned with? I saw an example on another tumblr postā Iāll link it here āthat said how someone wealthy like Elon Musk was used to being in the state of being rich, so it would be hard for him to fall into a state of poverty. I am so used to this stateā the anxiousness, the incapability, the not being satisfied āthat I merely fell into the sowf, and then climbed out of it. and because I quickly stopped identifying with it, because I went from having it to worrying about the things of my unwanted state, I was back in my unwanted state. and ofc, the thing that started this whole realization, I was thinking about things and my desired self. I was thinking about how I embodies my desired self yesterday and how that felt soā¦ like, far away? ig? like it felt like it could never be me and I was surprised that I felt like I could ever be anything other than what I am now. and thatās actually the moment when I realize I had nailed myself to this state. now, thank god for this realization because it was just what I needed to snap me out of this cycle of worry. this means two things, 1. nailing yourself to a state is way less complicated than it sounds, itās totally natural and 2. I am capable of completely embodying a stateā u might be thinking, yeah no kidding we all can, but sometimes u just have to feel something in order to truly know it and thatās my case āand if I can do it with my unwanted state then I can sure as hell do it with my desired state. because whatās the difference? actually, Iāll tell you what the difference is. all states are equal, theyāre neutral, nothing but a state. but I unknowingly decided to place one on a pedestal, I decided that because I wanted my desired state I would be harder to embody. but itās just a state. and Iām reality, Iām imagination, I can make whatever I want come to life, whether the state seems desirable or not. thatās just how it goes, all states are available for me to occupy and then manifest. and I need to understand that, I need to get it in my head that happiness isnāt above me, that it should be natural and normal for me to haveā tumblrs telling me that this is getting too long so thisāll be continued in another post #yappertron3000 š¤ (click here to read part two)
kisses, Tiffany
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š. DIARY ENTRY 11ļø“MAY 31, 2024
hey yall, hereās a diary entry I forgot to postšš itās a bit unorganized and I switch povs at some parts?? Like I go from writing in my little tumblr diary and using I, me, my and then I somehow forgot all that and started yelling at my future self ššš enjoy and just, reader beware, I didnāt reread this so if this is completely incomprehensible my bad š¤·āāļø
dear loass diaryā¦
okay first, from now on, Iām only going to use the term āreal worldā in reference to imagination. I feel like for me, that term is too synonymous with the 3D, and thatās just stupid because the 3D isnāt even the real world. I mean, ig itās because so many ppl talk about growing up and going into the āreal worldā or how ppl talk about how the āreal worldā is a cruel place and all that so ig thatās where the association comes from but no more!!
i have a horrible habit of doing this, when things start to get a bit tough and Iām in a stressful situation, at first I think āitās okay I have xyz already solved and taken care of in imagination!!ā but naturally, tough times bring out the most desperate parts of ourselves and that desperation leads me to brush off my imagination and think āokay but thatās not actually my real life.ā which, I donāt even think I have to explain how bad that is. hard times help us see our true emotions and feelings so that just shows that I only identify with imagination when things are easy. itās like I think that imagination can fail me, that itās possible that trusting it was the wrong choice. because thatās what this is really all about, I canāt identify with it because Iām scared to trust it. part of me fears that if I turn my back on the 3D, imagination may not reward me and my life will be an even bigger mess because I neglected it for the 4D. but that canāt happen unless I let it. manifestation doesnāt require a back up plan, itās the solution. the law of assumption is a literal law, no one and nothing is an exception. that makes failure impossible (which ig means fearing failure is kinda silly now that I think about it). and even if Iām not entirely certain or still a bit scared, today Iāve realized that I finally want to put a stop to not identifying with imagination. I really wanna give my all to imagination. Iām so sick of identifying with the 3D and Iām finally ready to acknowledge how truly stupid that is. I wanna be faced with adversity and still know and love the fact that everything is done in imagination. I want to actually view myself as my desired self. I want to view every aspect of my life as the way it is in imagination. whenever I think of anything, I want the version of it in imagination to be the first thing Iām reminded of. itās okay to identify with imagination, itās okay to accept that itās the real world, itās okay if the 3D is an absolute disaster and you still trust imagination. putting so much faith in imagination is going to be scary because look at the world we were raised in, the law of assumption goes against all of it. itās only natural to be uncertain at first but taking the leap of faith requires bravery, be brave by trusting and identifying imagination.
kisses, Tiffany
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ą©ą§ note to self: doubts are NOT a reason to give up on your manifestations
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hello, Iām Tiffany and this is my manifestation diary! If you havenāt read my previous diary entries yet, recently Iāve come to the realization that Iāve overcome all of my obstacles and there truly is nothing in my way except for me. So I made the decision yesterday to put my foot down and take the leap of faith, in other words, stop putting off manifesting my dream life because of fear. now this account will hold not just my diary entries but also the documentation of my journey to finally and seriously manifest my dream life.
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¤š. ā° Ū« š»āāļø ā Ö“ ą© Ė DEFINING THE OBJECTIVE
I want to make the end goal a bit more clear, the term dream life is both pretty straightforward and a bit vague. what would I like my dream life to include? how would my dream life make me feel? and ofc, Iām not just manifesting my dream life, Iām manifesting my dream self. what would my self concept be? how would I like to be?
tiffanyās dream life check list - what it means to live my dream life
attend my dream school
be 100% perfectly healthy (physically, mentally, emotionally, in every way basically)
have good eating habits and a good relationship with food
have perfect straight A pluses (revision to previous grades as well)
have the perfect friend group for me
healthy, super soft, hydrated, moisturized, smooth clear skin (and elimination of acne genes) (body + face)
perfect tangle free hair at all times, pretty, voluminous, bombshell hair
a healthy, perfect, loving relationship with everyone in my family
own a super cute and fluffy golden retriever puppy
high paying jobs for my parents <3
have a rolls royce with a pink exterior
grow taller
have every single clothing item Iāve saved on Pinterest
have my YouTube channel blow up
complete head to toe desired appearance
desired lifestyle
perfect eyesight
be super good at makeup and have all desired products
have a gorgeous bedroom
have a very active and lively social life
have the perfect, most ideal school, social, and home life
completely healed phone addiction
have a lot of desired hobbies that Iām very good at
have a fun and eventful life, always have fun plans and something going on
be on the right track career-wise
elimination of social anxiety and shyness
high self esteem and confidence
be more in touch with my culture
be a complete master at manifestation
huh, this is shorter and less serious than I thought itād be, ig this was also a way of getting out of my own head. I thought manifesting my dream life would be a bit challenging for some reason, but ig a dream life rlly isnāt as complex as I thought it was. I mean now I feel silly, itās just a dream life! nothing more than a lifestyle and a few personal fixes. I feel like I just got humbled.
šš. Ź ā¹ Ö“ā²ļø šÆĶ É THE OUTLINE
alright, I know what I want and I know how manifestation works. but just to make sure I donāt over complicate anything or things dont get confusing, Iāll create a sort of plan or outline. Little steps I can fall back on if I get a bit lost.
step number one we have covered, have a desire
step number two, put your foot down and make the firm decision that you have it. this decision is for good, nothing u do can take this decision away so donāt u dare worry about āruining progressā or āmessing upāā uāre better than that.
step number three, once youāve decided itās done, itās done. the only and I mean it when I say only thing for you to do is to act like it. imagine you, the creator of your reality, making the decision that you have something only to then be like āis it coming?ā ādo I have it?ā BE FR!! act like you have it, think like you have it, and see the world as if you have itā because you do. you decided you did, didnāt u? Itās ur reality, what u say, goes. and no, youāre not acting like u have it to get something out of the 3D, youāre doing it for your sanity. Because you deserve a break, you deserve relief, you deserve to be the you that has it all!! let yourself be in the sowf because why shouldnāt u be certain you have it? donāt entertain anything that says u donāt. getting in the sowf is easy, u deciding u have it is all the confirmation u need. thereās no reason for u to not be certain u have it.
sowf = knowing that u have it
step number four, optional not necessary but itās really gonna help and is fun. immerse yourself in the new story. experience it!! have fun!! u finally got what u want, u finally r who u want to be, so choose to live that life!! try methods for the sake of fulfilling urself (never to make anything appear in the 3D, u know better, 3D desperation doesnāt get anybody anywhere.) try out methods to have fun and be more familiar with having what u want.
thatās it girl, thatās all u gotta do, thatās all u ever had to do. decide it, experience it, assume it. u donāt always have to feel āgoodā or āhappyā u just have to know u have what u want, u just have to assume. the goal is to truly know that u have it, to be faced with the 3D and still know it in ur bones u have what u want. u deserve to trust urself like that, u deserve to be fulfilled like that, and u deserve those things from YOU not from the 3D. U deserve to feel secure in urself, donāt let ur security come from the 3D. loa bloggers mean it when they say the materialization is simply the cherry on top and I get that now. For me, itās about being able to depend and trust urself, to rely on urself, and in that way everything else comes off the pedestal.
āļø : ahhh I forgot to finish up this post yesterday but here it is!! Iām so excited!! part two to come soon ā”
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š. DIARY ENTRY 10ļø“MAY 22, 2024
dear loass diaryā¦
just came to the realizationā¦ actually I donāt think thatās the right word because I think I knew this before, it only just sunk in now. Anyways, there is absolutely no reason for me to want or desire something anymore. Itās literally all within me, if I want something I can give it to myself like that (apple pls make a snapping fingers emoji). and one big problem I have is I get stuck in a cycle. Iāll be demotivated or feel sad about my circumstances and not having what I want ā> which leads me to writing about it here ā> which leads to me feeling better and realizing how silly I sound ā> which leads to me saying Iām gonna fr cut the crap and start manifest nowā> and then it repeats. But girllllllll why do I do this to myself, thereās no reason to want!! thereās no reason to desire!! why do I pretend like there is!!! I need to grab myself by the shoulders and give myself a good shake. Because like u already have it like frā¦ so why r u acting like u donāt????? Thereās nothing to tap into, itās already u!!
kisses, Tiffany
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š. DIARY ENTRY 09ļø“MAY 20, 2024
dear loass diary..
Iām not sure why, but I have a belief that goes against my better judgment. I know that there is no way to fail at the law, āfailureā is just persisting in the assumption you donāt want. There is no way to truly fail because weāre always manifesting, always persisting in an assumption, the only way to not get what u want is to choose it. And I firmly believe in that, it makes a lot of sense to me. So WHY is it that literallt the second I have the intention to manifest something, i fear failure. Why does a small part of me believe Iām not going to get what I want? I think that maybe Iām not doubting that Iāll be get what I wantā i mean, Iāve never really had a big successful manifestation before so maybe Iāve put success on a pedestal but that can easily be fixedā¦i hope āi think Iām doubting myself. Not in a way where I think my manifestation abilities are inferior, but because of past and fairly recent experiences. Iām double minded, i never stick to my assumptions, Iāve never fully embodied a state, and okay as Iām writing this all I canāt help but think āwhat am I doingā because this is all so simple like why am I freaking out. Sure Iāve never been able to successfully stay loyal to an assumption but that doesnāt mean itās hard. I always hesitate to manifest because Iām so tired of how much i lack discipline but is that what I wanna let stop me? Itās not like itās permanent, itās fixable. Just because I donāt believe in my ability to put my foot down and take the leap of faith doesnāt mean I canāt. Excuse the corniness but my past doesnāt define me, change is allowed to happen if I let it. So I should expect more from myself. I should expect better from myself. Yāall having a manifestation diary is great I just did a total 180 by simply typing my thoughts out I love it here.
anyways, just like my assumptions I also chose my conception of self. I hadnāt even realized I was persisting in the assumption that I couldnāt do it. Idk why I saw that as such a fact. Anyways, here it is in writing, Iām putting my foot down. Im actually going to do my best to manifest my dream life and manifest correctly. Putting my foot down is a decision and only I can defer that decision, only I can get rid of that choice. Iām the only one that gets to chose failure or success. So what reason do I have to not take the leap of faith?
Iām going to actually do it
kisses, Tiffany
(Just watch yall, soon my diary entries will be full of stories from me living my dream life)
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š. DIARY ENTRY 08 ļø“MAY 18, 2024
dear loass diaryā¦
Iād say Iām pretty close to the end of my manifestation journey knowledge wise, Id say thereās very little I havenāt learned. The only thing there is is for me to then guide myself and not rely on the knowledge of others, which Iāve been pretty good at lately. Which means thereās literally no excuse, I know how the law works and Iām confident that I know how the law works. So why am I not manifesting what I want? I feel like thereās this resistance. Iāve figured things out and set things straight, thereās no confusions anymore. So why canāt I actually apply my knowledge? Especially when I was most excited to have my desires around this time of year? Iāve been wondering that these past couple of days after I caught on to my resistance to even begin the manifestation āprocessā and I think that right there is a reason all on its own. I see manifestation as a processes for some reason even though I understand that itās not. Weāre not manifesting or creating anything new, weāre just becoming different versions of ourselves. Itās not a process since we embody those versions instantly. So why do I see it as something tiresome, why do I see it as pretending, as unnatural? Its like part of me thinks happiness is beyond me (or behind me, is more accurate) so to embody a version of me that is incredibly happy would be nothing but pretending. I think Iām too used to being this down in the dumps kinda person, to the point where itās holding me back from being something more, something I want to be. It feels weird to be like āhaha everything is perfectā and then not have feelings, real and genuine feelings, to match that. But I rlly donāt know how to embody it, I can explain it on paper but enacting it is something different. Maybe Iām just not used to it? Maybe Iām coming at it from a way that stems from desperation and force? I mean to be fair, whenever I felt like I wanted to become my desired self it was always when I was desperate to know if things were going to be okay so Iād force it. Another idea that crossed my mind was maybe itās burn out? I mean Iād been actively consuming the law for almost 3 years and as my knowledge has grown, Iāve been learning everything and anything 24/7 for the past 9 months. My knowledge has grown and become stronger, stronger than its ever been but maybe now Iām just so tired. Iām tired of constantly feeling like I donāt have something and I need to get something, and those feelings have been tied to manifestation. Literally the other day I was like āugh I know I need it and that I wanted it but like I kinda want nothing to do with it rnā in regards to my dream life Iāve been manifesting. My life has been constantly revolving around manifestation, what I lacked, and what I wanted and now that I know Iām near the end, that I can basically taste the finish line, Iāve burnt out. I donāt want anything anymore. I just want to feel like things are okay, in imagination, in the 3D. I donāt want a āmental dietā or to visualize anymore, I donāt want to keep reminding myself to see things from the eyes of my desired self. Maybe the thing I actually need to learn is how to let those things come naturally, how to not feel stressed out or desperate when manifesting. And I suppose I could jist decide that itās easy, that Iāve already become the desire version of myself. I just feel like Itās all a chore rn. Even tho manifestation is supposed to be enjoyable. Someone make a wikihow for how to recover from manifestation burn out.
kisses, peachkkuma
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š. DIARY ENTRY 07 ļø“MAY 15, 2024
dear loass diaryā¦
I just fully realized that Iāve been doing this like five minutes ago, so I had to write it here to get my thoughts out, make sure I donāt forget my realization, and hopefully have an epiphany.
So, context first. Iām sick rn and I remembered a specific part of one of Nevilleās lectures where he said something along the lines of how a sick man wanted to be healthy so all he did was focus on being healthy. (semi-unrelated note to future self: Notice how I put āALL HE DIDā as in, that was the only thing he did? Thatās because thatās the only thing he needs to do!! itās all about having genuine awareness of obtaining your desires, stop over complicating it and trying to make excuses when u know damn well thatās all there is to the law). After remembering that I was like, āyo why donāt I try thatā because why would I want to be sick?? So anyways I was like trying (emphasis on the trying) to imagine myself as my healthiest self and only be aware of being healthy. After two minutes of that, I decided to call it quits and thought to myself āhope it works.ā GIRL WHATTT?? Thatās my problem right there, Iām pretending even in my own imagination. I think I have myself fooled, that Iāve deceived myself into thinking that I believe I have what I want in imagination when I DONT. Right after my so called imagining I literally had the thoughts of a person who was sick, was aware and focused on my illness, and just overall identified as someone who caught a cold. and then, thatās when the common sense hit me and I was like āwait, who do I think Iām fooling?ā Itās like I thought just because these circumstances exist in the 3D doesnāt mean they canāt also be in my imagination. It fr is like i see the 3D and 4D as something separate when thatās not at all the case. Because those thoughts of me being sick? That was a state, the was who I was in imagination. Who I am in imagination. Life truly is imagination. And I rlly feel that now. So, future me, let me try to help u out by telling u how to actually get into ur desired state and maintain it:
1. Decide u have it
āI have xyzā BOOM ur done, itās done, because creation is finished. There is nothing to create in the 3D or the 4D, it already exists exactly the way u want it to, waiting for you. So act like it.
2. State ā instant gratification
Iām gonna hold ur hand while I say this, states arenāt here to be a relief or a distraction. Theyāre not meant to temporarily ease any anxiety u have. So stop treating the sowf as a temporary escape from the 3D, itās real. and if u keep up this bad habit, if u start seeing the sowf as just a way to shut up ur worries without actually knowing itāll come to pass, then youāre on a dangerous road that leads to believing the 3D is the real reality. And yk that itās not.
3. Actually maintaining a state
U r meant to see the world from the perspective of ur desired self, the u that has it all. Why do u think itās called the law of assumption girly? U gotta assume u already got it. My thing is, I have too much going on in my real life and I think āI donāt have time to be in the sowf I have too much on my mind.ā Thatās a problem because one, ur allowed to be a part of the 3D. U donāt have to pretend it doesnāt exist. And two, Iām identifying with the 3D and itās circumstances. News flash, the 3D doesnāt just disappear the moment u say an affirmation or visualize a scene, u still have responsibilities. The trick is knowing thatās not u. U donāt have to be thinking like ur desired self 100% of the time so donāt expect urself too. Deal with ur stuff, but know who u actually are, who YOU chose to be. To maintain ur state, do whatever helps u feel like ur the u want to be. Revise ur day before bed, think the thoughts ur desired self would think, but donāt force anything. Forcing urself just means u feel like u donāt have what u want, and so ur desperate to get it, if u feel like u donāt have it, donāt force a method. Instead remind urself that itās already done, itās been done.u already decided that u had it, nothing can erase that decision except for u.
4. Getting used to it
Everytime I think of ur desired self remember that THAT IS U!! Not someone u could be or will be soon, BUT YOU RN. If u donāt feel that way, itās because u identify with the 3D and ur past assumptions of urself, and we already discussed how thatās a huuuuuuggggeeeee no. Donāt force urself into getting used to it because, again, force means wanting to get something out of the 3D. But thatās not the real reality, so why want something from there when u can have what u want rn? Remember that ur imagination, ur awareness, ur consciousness, whatever u wanna call it wonāt lie to u. Itās the most accurate reflection of both u and ur life. What u experience in there is ur real reality, whether that be the one u want or not. So girl, get used to being who u want to be. Itāll feel so weird at first, uncomfortable rlly. Cuz ik myself, the only way Iāll get in the state is if I keep myself in check. (going on a mental diet is okay if ur not doing it for the 3D, future self.)Iāll probably just be asking myself 24/7 āwould my desired self think/react/feel like that?ā And honestly, thatāll probably be the only way Iāll learn. Once u start correcting urself, for the sake of wanting to be ur desired self, itāll come naturally. Both the habit of being in the state and ur manifestations
The law wasnāt mean to be tricky, how could it be when itās literally called the law of assumption? There rlly isnāt much to it except assuming u have what u want by helping urself believe u have what u want, so stop trying to think thereās more to itā that itās not that simple or easy. Ur wasting ur time with everything else, the overthinking, the wondering about the when and how, the over complicating, and the wondering if u did it right. Just be.
kisses, peachkkuma
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š. DIARY ENTRY 06 ļø“MAY 11, 2024
dear loass diaryā¦
itās very late at night and I should probably go sleep but I have to get stuff off my sleep deprived mind first. (reader beware, I have no idea what my fingers are about to type but thereās a high chance itāll be a mess because of how tired I am)
so, as a human being, ofc I have my moments. One of those moments being a āugh, why is it so hard to identify with being in the sowf?ā. Which, first, I think itās important to normalize (eeeeuuuughhh I hate that word) having those small moments. Thereās a difference between having limiting beliefs and little doubts here and there. Youāre human, itās bound to happen. Just know that nothing has been messed up or stopped. Back to my original point, I was thinking āwhy canāt I identify as the version of myself who has xyz?ā Until randomly and unexpectedly I had a thought that said āwhy is it so easy for you to identify with not having it?ā And Iām not gonna lie, I was gagged like I ate with that response. That had never come across my mind before, certainly not when I was in the middle of a āaaauuuughhh why is this so hardddddā kinda moment. Anyways, letās answer that question. Obviously thatās because of the 3D. Since I am always acknowledging or interacting with it, Iām gonna find it easy to identify with it. But just because somethingās easy doesnāt mean itās what Iām supposed to do. I have to remind myself that this, my circumstances, my situation, my 3D, my senses, whateverā it has the same value as imagination. Now, despite me knowing imagination is where ir all happens and is the one true reality and is superior to the 3D in every way, I may or may not but most definitely am subconsciously holding onto the embarrassing habit of seeing the 4D as less than or not as real as the 3D. Anyways, I wasnāt stuck in the 3D, no not at all. U can never be stuck in a state or reality since u have all the ability to change it. I was choosing the 3D, choosing my circumstances, choosing my physical and limited senses. Because thatās all I can do, every thought, assumption, belief you have all stems from a choice u made. I chose to accept my 3D and so those thoughts came. And so the assumption that I was stuck came. So ofc, if I can choose the 3D then I obviously can choose imagination, can choose my desires. But then came another thought āerm, choosing my desires is hardā GIRL NO ITS NOT!! I mean it when I say itās not!! u think itās hard because ur still prioritizing what u can see with ur physical senses.Just imagine, see what u want as if u had it in ur minds eye and remind urself that it is real. Entertain the thoughts ur ideal self would entertain because u are her. U already are everhthing, just choose it.
alright, good night yāall Iām gonna go to sleep and hope that any of this was comprehendible.
kisses, peachkkuma
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š. DIARY ENTRY 05 ļø“APRIL 30, 2024
dear loass diaryā¦
though April has treated me well, reflecting on the month led to an accidental reflection on my loass journey. as I was reflecting on this month, I was a little down because āit didnāt reflect in the 3Dā. I know, seeking confirmation in the 3D is stupid but ofc I felt a little deflated. Anyways, thatās not what made me open up tumblr and start typing an entry. I remembered that thoughts are reflections of ur state and my thoughts were all anxious and worried and intimidated in regards to my desire. Stuff like āomg aprils already over and it still hasnāt manifested.ā thatās a clear indicator that Iām not š
āāļøš« in the sowf like I thought I was. I think often times I take me intending on being in the sowf as me actually being in the sowf. But thereās a difference, itās either ur in the sowf or ur not. And after that realization, at first I was like āthis sucks, why canāt I just be in the sowf? Why is it so hard for me?ā I donāt blame myself for thinking that, it felt like I was more out of the sowf then I was in it. But then I started to actually ask myself, why canāt I be in the sowf? Whatās stopping me? Nothing but me. Whenever I think āugh other ppl become fulfilled so easily why is it so hard for me?!!ā I never expand on it. I never actually think about it, and if I had, I wouldāve realized itās not hard. I just wasnāt letting myself, it was more familiar and comfortable to just be hung up on the fact that I canāt get into the sowf ācorrectlyā, which just comes from how I think that I canāt manifest deep deep down. anywaysss, another thing is that Iām so obsessed with being in the sowf but not for a good reason. Though I donāt like to admit it because it goes against the law and my understanding of it, I am unfortunately and seemingly unconsciously obsessed with getting what I want in the 3D. Is it because Iāve been in the loa community for so long? Is it desperation? Or is it because the inner man is starving? Who knows, all I know is that I need to change my intentions. Even when I tell myself the 3D doesnāt matter, I do it to detach for the sole purpose of making my manifestation coming faster in the 3D. I just know all the loa bloggers would be sick of me bro, I would be too ā¼ļøā¼ļøš£ļøš£ļø cuz this is just stupid. The innate desire to experience things in the 3D has yet to be replaced by the satisfaction and relief of imagination. I think itās cuz I just donāt imagine as much as I think I should. I want to start imagining more, so the inner man wonāt starve and I can actually identify with having what I want. And not just to get things, but so I donāt have to feel bad about the 3D. This time I want to detach myself from the 3D not to make things come faster but so I can actually thrive in imagination. I think Iām tricking myself. I think that part of me is fooled into thinking that when I imagine Iām secretly doing it for the 3d. But the part of me with a better understanding of the law, a smaller but growing part, knows that Iām imagining so I can actually experience what I want to experience. Idk, I canāt shake the feeling like Iām lying to myself. Like when I say Iām doing it for fulfillment Iām actually doing it for the 3D, I donāt mean it like that but for some reason I think it. But I need to realize that it is possible for me to do things without the purpose being the 3D. I also realize that no matter how much I cry beg scream plead or whatever the 3D isnāt changing because Iām not the one physically changing it. The only, ONLY, way is for me to change self. So why canāt I do that without worrying about the 3d????? I hate that Iām not having a full circle moment rn.
Iām asking myself why do I get so upset when the 3D doesnāt change, and the answer is because Iām changing self with the intention of changing the 3D. And in that way, Iām not changing self at all. So howwwww do I stop obsessing over the 3D? I think this is just coming from me āfailingā at manifesting and never seeing an actual desire manifest into the 3D, so I feel kinda helpless. But if I want to experience it, I donāt need the 3D for that. And that is what imagination is for, giving yourself what the 3D canāt. And if u persist in that imaginal identity, if u keep saying āthat is meā in regards to it, the 3D changes because youāve changed. Because why should u let go of the identity u love? Why not persist in it?
Yooooooo everything just clicked for me letās goooooo bro
okay I lowkey sound like Iām tweaking here šš this is more of a rant, thatās why itās unorganized and has a ton of spelling errors but at least I was able to apply my knowledge and soothe my worries š
long story short, safe to say Iām no longer questioning the role of the 3D and imagination
kisses, peachkkuma
(just looked back at this and GOOD GRIEF this is long I gotta take it to a publisher or something god šš chatterbox ahh tumblr post)
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š. DIARY ENTRY 04 ļø“APRIL 26, 2024
dear loass diaryā¦
Iāve definitely fallen victim to instant gratification in regards to manifestation. In fact (āļøš¤) I think itās why I struggled with the law for so long. I had a desire and I used methods to satisfy myself in the moment, just to get my doubts to shut up. when the gratification wore off, I went back to doubting because I thought my progress āwore offā. I thought that gratification was what I was supposed to feel all the time, and if I didnāt feel it, it meant I wasnāt in the sowf. But thatās obviously not true. Sowf means knowing itās yours, the only satisfaction involved is knowing itās yours. itās not meant to be an emotional thing. I donāt have to feel āhappyā or ārelievedā all the time, I donāt have to feel that way to know I have it, to be in the sowf. Methods should be used when u want to feel good, not to shut up doubts. Not because you feel like u have to get something. Manifestation shouldnāt make u feel restless, ur supposed relax knowing that thereās nothing left to do because creation has been finished. I think I just need to remind myself that I know how the law works, all that is needed is me to have loyalty to the fact that I have what I want. I donāt need to constantly do methods, thatās never what this was about, thatās not how youāll fulfill yourself. Fulfillment isnāt this big euphoric thing either. Donāt confuse fulfillment and the sowf with instant gratification.
kisses, peachkkuma
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š. DIARY ENTRY 03 ļø“APRIL 21, 2024
dear loass diaryā¦
I havenāt made an entry in three weeks because right after my last one, I decided to delete tumblr and rlly focus. and I got into the sowf and rlly felt the effects of no longer over consuming. Iāve decided to end my streak tho, due to the fact Iām only in the sowf 10% of the time. oh well, progress is progress.
my main loa struggle today has been other peoples assumptions, other peoples realities that are being and have been pushed onto me. because when someoneās worried about you, and youāre trying to manifest your problem to be solved, you canāt do much to reassure them everythingās fine. and then you worry about them. what a horrible cycle. itās crazy how that works, how someone elseās reality becomes yours for a bit, and thereās a small moment where you actually believe their reality is yours. but itās not, so I came back here to ground myself. Ideally, I wouldāve liked to do that without the help of tumblr, but writing it out feels good and Iād like to catch up on some posts.
kisses, peachkkuma
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š. DIARY ENTRY 02 ļø“APRIL 2, 2024
dear loass diaryā¦
My main struggle 1000% is the sowf. I feel like once Iām in the state, Iāll feel relief like Iāve never felt before. Iām expecting something euphoric. But I know that is not the case, I always have. The sowf is about knowing. I just feel let down when a positive impact isnāt made on my emotions, even tho itās not about emotions. I think what Iām looking for is āloveā. To fall in love with a state, to feel relief and joy. But, I havenāt found a way to give that to myself yet. It feels like I donāt even know where to begin. Iād love to give myself an experience, a state, that I both believe in and makes me feel good. But I truly donāt know how Iād do that? What would I imagine? Maybe I need to actually sit with that question for a bit instead of just throwing it out thereā¦
I also feel like when Iām confident, when I experience the knowing, itās barely ever about knowing I have it. Itās often times knowing itās going to come or will come. Never really present. My state, the state I identify with whether I want to or not, the one that Iāve nailed myself to, is one of uncertainty and a sort of emptiness. Im always certain that I havenāt done enough, even tho I know the law doesnāt work like that. Itās not about constant repetition or effort. So why do I feel that way? Itās not like I constantly want to affirm or visualize or work for my desires through any way or form but at the same time, doing these methods kind of fulfill me. But not in the way they should. Instead, they make me feel like Iāve done something to make it come. Not make me feel like I have it now and am one with it.
So, the main question: why do I feel like I canāt I identify with the sowf? I think I feel like itās just not possible because i feel the same emotionally. But I am capable of identifying with a state. I am rn. And i need to stop forgetting that. Because at the end of the day this isnāt anything but a state. Itās not reality, itās not the 3D, itās a state. Iām glad I got that in my head but I seem to forget it when itās important.
Im getting to tired to write but Iām definitely going to reflect on my state and my desires state after this. Lord free me from my problems with statesšš
kisses, peachkkuma
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š. DIARY ENTRY 01 ļø“MARCH 27, 2024
dear loass diaryā¦
I think one of my biggest problems when it comes to manifesting is that I think itās all above me. Iāve been in this community for so longā despite manifestation actually clicking for me 8 months ago āand so Iāve put it all on a pedestal. now it just seems like Iāll never be able to even feel like Iāll have my desires, let alone have them. I see people talking about how they feel satisfied imagining or how they get into the sowf and I just have never been able to do that. But at the same time, Iāve never actually stuck around long enough, never persisted for long enough, to actually feel good when manifesting. Itās like I use manifesting as instant gratification. Iāll satisfy myself for a while and then go back to my unwanted state. the worst part is, I see the sowf as something temporary. Itās almost like I subconsciously intend on not staying persistent in my desired state.
to switch gears for a second, thereās something else on my mind. I wonder why I feel like I havenāt manifested. Like I havenāt made any progress. I know, really know, that the 3D isnāt confirmation. So why am I treating it like it is? is it out of habit? I feel like Iāve over consumed so much loa content that I donāt even know anything anymore. everytime something makes sense my brain goes āwell that loablogger actually said so and so about thatāļøš¤ā anyways back to my main point, who said I didnāt have what I wanted? that I wasnāt in the end? That the manifestation isnāt complete? no one, so why is every thought in my head āI havenāt manifested yetā āIāve been slacking with manifestationā. and donāt even get me started on how I treat manifestation like itās a verb, like itās simply just conscious repetition.
creation is finished point blank period. as soon as I desired my desire way back when, it was already made. the state where I live everyday like I want to already exists. Thereās nothing I have to create. The state where every little desire I have coexists with each other and is in my posession already exists!!! all I have to do is be conscious of it! embody it! so why is that so hard? Me not having my desire is also a state, Iām not even experience the 3D Iām just experiencing my state. and that state, my current one, the one where I donāt have what I want, the one I identify withā is just a state. And I feel that to be real, despite it being unfavorable I unintentionally fulfilled it. This is what I am conscious of and is what I am assuming, thatās all. Itās just a state. Favorable states are no different.
feels like I kinda had a full circle moment here šš
kisses, peachkkuma
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