#‘brand’ because for some reason i always have to be a brand when im posting. or anywhere. but when i get really high i turn into a human

[javierduffy]

is there anyone else out there who has so much respect for people who make insane, out-there aus/ships that are so far from canon that all of the content for it is supplied by their own mind and if yes do yall see ME as one of those people

[honeytonedhottie]

how to stack ur pretty doll dollars⋆.ೃ࿔*:･💵🎀

a lot of us grew up thinking money was the root of all evil and that money was something that was stressful, selfish and vain. but u need to change the narrative, money is freedom, power, and pretty once u stop fearing it. this is how im stacking my pretty doll dollars…💬🎀

WHAT IS YOUR VISION ;

what are u stacking ur doll dollars for? for luxury? for freedom? security? sometimes its a mix of a whole bunch of reasons but just jot down a couple reasons why stacking ur doll dollars is IMPORTANT to you. its easier to stay committed to a goal when u have a reason.

journaling and creating a vision board can help you visualize ur goals and bring them to life. as someone who practices the law of assumption, the way that u talk and think about a specific thing is how you'll continue to experience it which is what i'll touch on a bit more in this post.

once you've created the vision you'll need a budget to match the vision, not just the bills that ur dealing with in the current time. think "the bigger picture" what are we working towards. and budget not to restrict but to give every doll dollar a job which is what we're talking about in the next section.

GIVE EVERY DOLL DOLLAR A JOB ;

make a cute budgeting page on ur notion or find a cute budgeting app/spreadsheet with pretty pinks and creams and something that totally matches ur vibe. if something is pretty to look at i feel like im 99% more likely to use it and i'll enjoy working in it more.

create cute categories for funds to put ur money into. think of every dollar as an employee that is here to work FOR you and your dreams. make categories that are suited to you. some of my basic ones are :

weekly fund (what i have to spend during a week)

business fund (what i invest into either my business or put into different things like stocks, real estate, dividends and the money that will work for me)

glam fund (a non-negotiable for me, the money i put aside for my maintenance for my beauty)

savings (i don't keep my money in a regular savings account because most reg savings accounts don't earn very good interest, instead i put my money into a HYA or high yields savings account)

i use betterment for my high yields savings account because theres no minimum deposit so you can start with literally $5, AND betterment has an interest rate of 4% which is really good…💬🎀

WEEKLY MONEY RITUALS ;

have a day where u have a money check in. light a candle, open ur planner and go over spendings and savings and all things like that. track whats going out and whats coming in and whats growing for you without fear or anxiety bcuz everything works itself out for u and ur literally abundance personified. (thats the kinda mindset we need to have towards money)

check if ur making progress with ur goals, if what you're doing is effective and do some research too! part of being a doll who stacks her money is staying educated so keep urself in the loop and take knowledge bcuz it's so important.

KNOW YOUR SPENDING POWER ;

i won't get tewww into this because i have LOADS of content about shopping smart and intentionally but i'll reiterate cuz it is TRUE. buy what lasts. don't go for the cheap shit cuz in the long run it won't last, don't buy knock-off, time ur spending strategically for sales so u can get the most for your dollar.

ask yourself, will this add value to my routine? is this on brand for me? do i really actually want this? practicing delayed gratification is always a helpful tool. to save for luxury instead of impulse hauls.

DREAMY INCOME STREAMS ;

get ur moneyyyy girl. there are literally so many ways that u can make money and making good money does NOT have to be hard either. u can make content, u can babysit, u can start an etsy, u can sell digital goods and SO much more.

monetize on ur talents, look around at ur resources. what do u have RIGHT now that u can do something with. bcuz stacking ur doll dollars doesn't mean overworking urself, it doesn't necessarily even mean working rly hard. it means working SMART.

SAVE SMART ;

on ur banking app, automate ur savings so it grows on autopilot. i've already gone into why having a high yields savings account is more fruitful than a regular degular savings account. another way to save smart is with a savings challenge. for example putting aside $5 a day to ur vacation fund. treat saving as pampering ur future self and making sure that shes good and doesn't have to worry about anything.

to close off : u don't need to be wealthy to think like ur wealthy. ur supposed to have the mindset before u have the bank account to match. keep ur thoughts in check, stacking ur doll dollars is about control, confidence, MINDSET, and creating a life where you're comfortable one pretty girl coin at a time…💬🎀

[anchorandrope]

I need to know why L's sisters are always the ones making trouble on social media and looking for attention. I really don't understand why them

Look, im going to give you an answer from PR because that's my life so why not lmfao. And since i've worked with one influencer recently, i have no doubts regarding what is happening at this point with louis' sisters.

Im going to try to explain this as short and succinctly as possible. and im really sorry to say this but this is how things work in real life, i beg you to leave your parasocial relationship with louis aside for three seconds to think coldly about the situation, because i know perfectly well how some of you take every statement made related to louis. several statements can exist at the same time, not everything is black and white, etc. thank you...

Some of you may ask, why always the twins? and there is, actually, an answer to that question. The answer, believe it or not, is not because Lottie is older than the twins. Partly her age is related, but it is not the reason itself... let's see:

Lottie started working as Lou Teasdale's assistant during the OTRA Tour, and since then and thanks to her, she got in touch with many important job opportunities that another teenager who does make-up well wouldn't have.

She has been in Fashion Week, worked for Selena Gomez, etc. Everything from a very young age. Today, she doesn't live exclusively from social media, as many believe. Her income is not only from "being an influencer", she has her brand tanologist, she published a book.... In Lottie's case, social media is a fundamental communication tool that allows her to obtain opportunities that generate income, but it is not her entire income per se.

On the other hand, Daisy and Phoebe were too young to take advantage of job opportunities at that time (1D days) because they were kids... they, again it may not seem like it, didn't have the same level of important job opportunities as Lottie had at such a young age. Lottie was at Fashion Week when she was 17... the twins are still very young and their proper working careers are just starting.

Phoebe and Daisy started their modelling careers in 2020 and to this day, they are involved in social media, promoting products (swaps) and modelling in small photo shoots. They haven't really had a big job opportunity like Lottie has had.

Unlike Lottie, they did not have the same visibility from the start and their income comes exclusively from social media. Modelling and swaps/promo are things they do through social media, their working tool is Instagram/TikTok. They need that platform for their income.

Now, if you have social media accounts set up as public and as a content creator you will know this, but for those who don't: those who create content on social media in this way (influencers, among other cases) have their own tool that helps them most to calculate how much they will earn and that is metrics. The famous "professional dashboard/insights" from Instagram for example.

To hire an influencer (in addition to doing a previous investigation of who you should hire) you should ask them for their metrics so that you can reach an agreement on the amount of money for that exchange/interaction/etc. A fixed base number is set, but depending on the reach, the more money they receive is directly proportional to the amount of interactions and views that post has had. Like on instagram if you share the post as branded content, the company you tag can see your metrics.

The fact that the twins are the ones who post content that they know people will go to their stories/posts/comments to see or will make them follow them on their social media is not a coincidence because the amount of people who interact with them (whatever the reason, as your personal reason is not seen on a metric lol) is what generates them revenue, quite literally.

Yes, it can happen that once in a while as something "casual" because they are people, but not as a generality and even less so when a few days later they do another promotion or they are in one. What is going on and whether it is right/morally correct or not are two different questions, by the way.

This is what happens, welcome to the world of influencers! It doesn't matter if you agree or not, if you like it or not, or whatever, those are your personal opinions (which are perfectly fine, we all have them) but... that's how it is. lol.

I personally don't think it's right to use babygate as a method of generating interaction, and just as I brought it to the attention of the clark family, I will bring it to the attention of the tomlinson's. the child is a huge victim of this, everyone is violating his right to privacy and honestly its disgusting to see after like 9 years. It seems to me that gaining interactions (that lead you to gain money) with such a horrible situation and with a child seems to me something that people should be ashamed of, to be honest. Beyond babygate, imagining that larry and babygate never existed, it's wrong to do this, it goes way beyond fandom, which i think is something a lot of people don't truly understand.

if you really want the twins to stop posting this kind of shit, im sorry to inform yall that the only solution to the problem is going to be to stop following them, stop looking at their stories, stop liking and viewing their posts, stop commenting, etc. any viewing/interaction is reflected in a metric, check it out for yourself (besides there are more metric apps than just the ones IG/Tiktok gives you). If you spread a screenshot taken by someone else or stuff, you are not interacting directly with their account, so it's not the same ofc, but if someone doesn't understand how it works, they will go and see it for themselves and and they will generate interactions. It's impossible not to have them on the radar, i know, so at least i ask yall to focus on what's really important, and not on every idiotic thing that happens, because that way they just make it worse, literally.

[ot3]

have u read the homestuck epilogues? what do u think of them if u have? and do u have thoughts on june egbert

when the epilogues originally dropped, i read candy but i did not go on to read meat because the experience of being a homestuck fan at the release of the epilogues was a pretty miserable and i saw no reason to prolong it.

i did not categorically hate everything the epilogues were attempting to do but i think they are fundamentally and irredeemably flawed for one extremely big reason: you can not release something as the official continuation of a work while also insisting it is not a piece of the canon. it felt like they wanted to have their cake and eat it too in a way that completely undermined the entire work. they released it with faux-ao3 tagging/styling, but weren't brave enough to actually release is on ao3. it had to be elevated Above fanwork, but if you got too upset about it they could always just point out 'well we said it wasn't canon' to deflect legitimate criticism. plain and simple, it all felt like cowardice. release something intentionally designed to provoke and antagonize a dedicated fanbase and then retreat to twitter to complain about how nobody can understand and appreciate REAL, SERIOUS, QUEER ADULT CHARACTER WRITING. but like. real, serious queer adult character writing still needs to be good and I'm not sure the homestuck epilogues Were that. having characters you know to be 100% fictional and are now being written by a brand new set of people pretty much look at the camera and say "if you think my character writing is OOC it's only because you don't respect my interiority as a human being" rang extremely fucking hollow to me.

i think it should be obvious to anyone who has been following me for any amount of time that i don't want or need sanitized and saccharine character writing to be pleased and my issue was not that the epilogues were dark, it was that they felt confused and contrived.

being a homestuck fan took up all of the formative years of my life, without exaggeration. it was the main thing i was into from ages 14-21 and has been incomparably important to me. so it's next to impossible for me to separate my feelings about my epilogues from what it felt like to be a homestuck fan during the absolute clusterfuck of these things dropping, especially since i haven't revisited them since. one event in particular that really soured me was an official homestuck team member who i was decently good friends with asking me to delete tweets i made criticizing some aspects of the epilogues. i found to be an extremely unprofessional to do as someone who is on the payroll of an IP speaking to a fan of that work, regardless of whatever terms we may have been on. additionally, i found the way she + the epilogues writers responded to criticism of the epilogues from the pretty significant demographic of teen fans on twitter to be at best condescending and at worst actively cruel.

it felt like a bunch of people who wrote shock fiction about a beloved cast of characters - something they were fully within their right to do, to be clear - but then could not handle the extremely predictable reception to it. my eventual homestuck reread is penciled in for 2029 and if i can bring myself to [re]read the epilogues at that time, im going to. we will see how my feelings change then

as for june egbert: love her, but this is once again soured by the way post-mspa era homestuck treats the concept of canonicity. john egbert is my number one favorite fictional character of all time. if you tell me "great news, she's a girl now" i am in fact overjoyed by that. i think its something that adds a lot of texture to the character. but i don't like people treating it like it's canon when it just simply isn't. i don't think you get points for portraying a transfem character until you have actually... portrayed a transfem character. i do not keep up with hs2 for reasons that are probably pretty obvious so i'm not sure if anything has changed, but to the best of my knowledge june egbert is not yet canonical there either. it's very frustrating.

but you see what i mean about canonicity: ignore the fact that we haven't discussed june egbert's gender in a single actual piece of fiction. the toblerone says she's real so she is! ignore the fact that the homestuck epilogues are official works that were on the shelves at barnes and fucking noble, they're "beyond canon" because weve put AO3 headers on. it feels like lategame homestuck treats canonicity like a switch it can flip completely independent of the works they are making, in whatever way is convenient for them. if the HS2 team (shoutout to floral, one of the best to ever do it and nobody deserves to be writing homestuck more than them) ever does get around to making june egbert canon, i will be standing by to pop bottles.

[gayestcowboy]

fantasy dildo recs please? im trying to find one that isnt like $100 but is still good and reputable and wont fill my body with microplastics. ive been looking at neotori and they look great but;; the price;;; anyway yeah recs please?

hi! i have a lot of information for you.

first off, my specific recommendations of fantasy toy shops i’ve bought from or know to be reputable: uberrime, wandering bard, twilight meadow creations, strange bedfellas, pleasure forge, pp sculptors, batbites, xenocat artifacts. all of these shops have toys under 100 usd. uberrime especially has a huge selection including non-fantasy, realistic, and dual density. my top 3 fantasy toys right now are TMC’s ambrose (mini), wandering bard’s shadow demon (x small), and uberrime’s ardor dragon (small). highly recommend ambrose to transmascs with bottom growth. also it looks cool as fuck. mine is bright green and yellow.

second, this google doc is a masterpost of fantasy and fantasy-adjacent sex toy companies (created as a list of alternatives to bad dragon) and is organized quite well, and includes some shops to be wary of. it was last updated in 2022 so it’s outdated, but it’s massive and still quite useful. safe fantasy toys dot com also lists body safe toy companies, although you should still check reputability of the company before you buy (some of the companies listed on the site should still be avoided for various reasons— try cross checking with the google doc, browsing reddit, etc). all of the specific companies i recommend in this post use platinum silicone only, but if you go searching for other toys make sure to avoid jelly and other porous materials because they cannot be sanitized properly and will store bacteria. just like with piercing and body jewelry (another one of my special interests lol), it’s always better to pay more for safety when it’s something going inside your body. reputable stores will always list the material, and tend to have pages on their sites with even more specific information on their silicone. shipping also affects the price, especially international shipping.

also, when youre shopping for fantasy toys, make sure you check the sizing. smaller toys are frequently under 100 usd. many fantasy toys tend to be quite large anyways, especially knotted toys (many small knotted toys still have diameters of 2”+ which is usually too large for me personally. for reference i think the average human penis is somewhere around 1.5” diameter.) there’s so much diversity in fantasy toys that you will probably be able to find toys that fit your desired length/girth and are still classified as small and therefore less expensive. if you’re new to fantasy toys or have trouble with insertion (or even just have an average sized vagina/rectum), small fantasy toys can be cost efficient and accessible and more fun than more standard toys. many stores will also sell b-grade toys at a discount for minor cosmetic flaws that don’t affect usage. also, there’s a pretty big market for secondhand toys/dong sales on twitter, reddit, etc so if you’re willing to buy secondhand, that can be more cost efficient. quality silicone toys can be properly sanitized by boiling and other methods. for more cheap options— good glass toys can frequently be under 50 usd, and are easy to sanitize. also, tantus isn’t quite a fantasy brand, but it’s very high quality and has some great toys on the cheaper side (i love the tantus magma). and if you want a really good cheap vibrator, the romp hype is amazing and only 35 usd.

i am by no means an expert, just incredibly autistic, but i hope this helps! i’m always happy to try answering questions about sex toys!

[marymary-diva17]

Abandoned sully (4)

A brand new day has risen on pandora and so much has changed in one day,now your birth family and clan are now here seeking refuge. They also came with company of other clan seeking help as well, these clans hold the adults who deemed you as evil. Now they were able to see the person you had become without them in your, lives and also facing some of consequences of their actions as well.

Y/n " ........" You had woken up and got ready for the day, as you had left you home it didn't take you that long you to come across tonowari and Jake as they were speaking outside about something with their right hand warriors. As there had been some much needed information, from last night you needed to past on to them. 

Y/n " good morning" as you stood there being civil towards them, as right now you don't wish to cause any fights. 

Jake " good morning" 

Y/n " I came here to tell you that Tupia had organized some members of the clan to teach you our ways of life" 

Tonowari " oh that good what of the olo'eyuthans we heard about them a bit last night" 

Y/n " he is away at moment with some of our warriors and other members of the clan training but they will be back soon, and then he will decide your faith even more with the votes of others" 

Tsu'tey " thank for you last night and yesterday you went out of your way to help us" 

Y/n " your welcome" 

Jake " the avatar's thank you for your help yesterday" 

Y/n " it was my duty to help" 

Tsu'tey " it seems like Tupia words last night is  true we are still being watch like last night" you soon turned around and soon caught some warriors and hunters watching the group every move. 

Y/n " it okay I can deal with them from here on now return to your post and watched over there, if anything bad happens I will call for help" the warriors had nodded their heads and soon walked off giving the group space. 

Jake " hey maybe at some point you can teach us the language here" 

Y/n " you have come one of people here to learn the language or be trusted with learning how we speak" 

Metkayain boy " that rude" 

Tonowari warrior " boy m get inside the house right now" the warrior had taken his inside right away, he didn't wish for his child to do anything else to upset you or the whole clan. 

Y/n "it okay everyone has rights to use their voice" 

Jake " umm would you like to join us for breakfast we have enough"

Y/n " I will have to decline the offer tokru Makto there was some other matters I need to deal with, I will be around when the humans needs help ... oh yes tell grandmother for me that Tupia will like to have a meeting with her and the omatacyia elders" 

Jake " what the meeting about as it seems like you know about it already" 

Y/n " I'm not allow share that information sir I bid you all goodbye" you soon ran on tree branch and soon took off disappearing leaving Jake there wondering and feeling hurt, as Tsu'tey place a comforting hand on his shoulder. As you were walking away jake didn't like the idea of these young navi boys from this clan walking up to you, and whispering something to you. 

Later that day 

Y/n " you called for me grandmother and Tupia" 

Tupia " yes we need to have some words with you, the elders and us are worried for you safety" 

Y/n " worried that someone will do something that could harm, even more" 

Moat " yes some of the omatacayia are shocked that you are still alive and made it this far in life"

Y/n " well that nice and thoughtful of them"'

Y/n " the reasons im still here is because im a child of eywa even due I don't like like the average Navi or avatar"tears were falling down you face as you were doing your best to wipe them, away. 

Moat " my sweet granddaughter don't let them see you tears, you are beautiful in my eyes since the day I saw you and you will always be beautiful"moat had place comforting hands on your face making you smile. 

Moat "  out of all your siblings you were the youngest to tame an ikran, you and made your first hunt and it was massive .. it feed the clan for a long time ... you have a special connection with eywa that might be greater then any tshaik I have meet"

Tupia " child you have your own life and clan here it won't be easy for them to strip that away from you"

Y/n " thank you" some wood spirts has started showing up floating around you and making you laugh.

Y/n " grandmother what the matter it like there something on your mind" 

Moat " yes it your sibling and parents they were talking about you last night" 

Y/n " what do you mean talking about me last night grandmother" 

Moat " well it seem like your parents are mad that you have been living here and that I didn't tell them you were here" 

Y/n " where did they think you took me the humans didn't take me in as they didn't want to lose, favor with Jake and the other navi" 

Moat " yes in your parents mind I have helped taken sixteen years of you life as I choice to keep the news of where, you were living to myself" 

Tupia " it was for the best your daughter and her mate had given up their rights when they agreed to tonowair offer" 

Y/n " I ran into some of the elders today and they asked me why i was being helpful towards, the one who looked down on my when I was just a baby" 

Tupia " what did you tell them" 

Y/n " I told them I was doing what I had been taught since I was young it the navi way to help those, but when it comes to making amends for the wrongs it won't be easy" 

Moat " you are wise for your age my child I know you will do great when you become an adult in the eyes of the clans and the great mother"

Y/n " thank you" 

Moat " now about your siblings" 

Y/n " I really wish to have a relationship with them grandmother but I have a feel jake and neytiri might use that against me .... I spent as far I can remember seeing them being a happy family seeing Jake stand up for my siblings but not for me ... neytiri loving my siblings and caring for them saying they were special .... But I was not special enough to keep" 

Tupia " we know life has been hard for you and you have faced and overcome challenges that not even toughest warriors have done" 

Y/n " thank you and I will keep overcoming these challenges... I will do what I can be helpful towards the two clan but not everything will go back to what it was when I was baby" 

Moat " yes we know that and that is something everyone will now have to face as the adults were the ones making the decision... now they are facing their responsibility of these actions" 

Y/n " understood now if you excuse me I have some other task I need to deal with as I think I'm heading on a new journey today" 

Moat " be safe out there my granddaughter and let the great mother guide you" 

Y/n " thank you" you soon had left Tupia and moat to have their conversation was you were running around the village doing your usual task of the day. You had some small interactions with the adults of the omatacayia and metkayaia clan but kept to yourself most of the time, as you and them did get along that much.

Y/n " umm let see what I can caught today for dinner" you were standing on a rock looking doo wn at river that was holding fishes that were swimming around. You soon were waiting for the perfect moment and soon fired your arrow taking out two fish in now swift move. 

Y/n " thank you mow you go back go to the great mother" you had resist the pray that you had been told by your former mentors, as you killed the fish and thanking eywa for the good hunt. Soon enough you brought out a fish and placed it on a string. You soon caught some other fish for the elders as their children were away and your promised to look our for them. 

Elder 1 " thank you y/n you are so generous" 

Y/n " you all took care of me when I was young and I learned from that, and I also promised your children I will look out for you until their return" 

Elder 2 " you know young lady you have the skills of young tshaik" 

Y/n " I'm no tshaik sir I can never be like Tupia or my grandmother" 

Elder 3 " who said you had to be like them child you can be your own tshaik not all tshaik have to be the same, you can form a new path of tshaik verse the one that had already been made" 

Y/n " we will have to see what the great mother has in store for me ... oh here are some herbs Tupia said you have to take them" 

Elder 4 " what if we don't take them"

Y/n " thank you will have to deal with Tupia, your kids, and me"the elders soon took the hersb knowing it was not worth a fight, with all the names you list. You soon took of towards you home with you fish for dinner along with you bow and arrow as well. 

Jake and neytiri 

Jake " she has grown so much since we last saw her" 

Neytiri " I don't know if she has taken the rights of passage yet maybe she doesn't have a ikran yet, maybe we can help her get one and bond with her" 

Jake " are we sure that will work" 

Neytiri " we helped our three other kids learn the way we can help her as well she our daughter as well, we already lost so many years with her" 

Jake " I do want to teach her more English it seems like he doesn't know any she only speak navi, and maybe I can teach her something about the human world as well" 

Neytiri " we can get the children involve was well amd maybe mother will help us as well ... I need to have my baby in my life she can't be without her mother and father, 

Jake " don't worry neytiri we will get her back we will find out who she staying with and asking them she can, come into our care and stay with us her family by blood and dna"

Neytiri "we should speak with the older kids and see what we can do to get our daughter back I won't miss anymore milestone in her life" 

Jake " listen to me we will take this slow with her we don't knows what she has learned over the years" 

Neytiri " I won't lose my daughter again jake I can't lose her again" 

Jake " we are not going to lose her again my love she had always been our daughter and she will always be our daughter" Jake and neytiri didn't know you knew more about the situation then they had thought and you always knew a lot about the human world and language as well. You were even more skilled then any omatacayia and metkayaia child. Them and the newcomers had yet to see you were more skills then they saw when they first meet you. That night before everyone had meet to slumber you went to speak with Tupia about an important matter, and she was shocked about what you had asked of her and tried speaking to her about. She said she will speak to her family about what you asked her before she fully agrees to your wishes.

[unityawareness]

This is why.

to the people that just simply want better for themselves or are confused about loa and shifting or the people that know their god but dont always feel like it or the people that are just so over with life that this is their last resort of some type of liberation, the reason you are not getting what you want or seeing your intention instantly or even seeing it at all in the present moment... because you lack intention or because you have turned your intention into an identity.

people think them manifesting their little sp, manifested seeing a butterfly, brought in a good opportunity, changed a situation,seeing red cars everywhere, changing peoples fucking views of them and their moods, a whole brand new house or SHIFTING FUCKING REALITYS to fucking hogwarts, is just a cute little hobby they have as a small little tiny human with a cute little belief and capability they hold for themselves, that they are a cute little tiny peice of controll in such a big vast universe.

no. you are bigger than the universe itself, you are what the THOUGHT of an existence of a universre arises in, to where YOU are now aware of.

I see all these pages and posts of people that are taking their desires or their accomplishments and turning it into an idenity, a dream, something they arent right now. or a hobby. something they like to fantasize about. a comforting idea. for some people, one they bring to "life" but dont own in its entirety.

there are 3 reoccurring, most common people that seek loa or shifting.

the first group of people are:

"i have questions about what i want"

"i am going to post/read tumblr with intention to uplift me"

"i seek motavation"

"im watching it happen"

"im becoming"

"im on a journey"

"im manifesting"

"im shifting"

"i am doing blank"

-from the person who implys "not yet" instead of "right now"

that is what you identify with if you do any of those things with intention to GET.

then theres the people that are like:

"i am a shifter"

"i manifested blank"

"i follow law of assumtion"

"i have a good mentality and thats why things are right for me"

"im a good manifester"

"i manifested this"

"i shifted here"

-from the person who has taken their truth, their essence and turned it into a human identity. and look, i know it can be hard to accept and understand, what we are truly, when learning about all of this through a language. a made up language by the way. but lets not undermine what we really are. we arent the human in essence. it is just one of the infinite experiences of ourselves as awareness.

then there are the tramatized, sad, or just overall disrespected in their existance or autonomy.

"why do bad things always happen to me"

"im never enough for anything"

"why cant i be like them"

"i wish blank"

"i never get it right"

"im unlucky"

"im delusional"

"i give up"

"im jealous"

"i hold resentment"

"i wish i could do what they do, but i dont belive in myself to be able to do it so im just going to hate on them and make them feel low because thats how i feel. they deserve it to feel bad about themselves because thats what happened to me. even if they dont deserve it, it dont care, because no one cared when it happened to me... and i didnt deserve it."

-from the person who never got to be seen and loved unconditonally, there was always conditions to things that were supposed to be birth right. these people are hurt, at a fundemental level. these are the people coming to loa and shifting because they want an outlet, liberation, meaning, purpose, vision. they are accostumed to lack mindset and want to feel free in some aspect.

there are also the haters, who just want to hate, they are also hurt, and though, yes they can be annoying, they are valid in the sense that they are trying to do the same thing others are doing, but in a way they are more used to: negitivity, unfairness, belittling, denial and self depravation. which are all just things they have been accustomed to their whole life. and, if you are that person, you dont have to be what your past has made you, you get to chose to be someone you can be thankfull for. the friend or parent or sibling you needed when nobody was there for you. you can look in the mirror and see yourself, every single age since birth, ask yourself if this was ever what you truly wanted to be. as your present self that and ask that little boy or little girl you once were. the pause in between the question and the answer you said... is the true answer. and what does it take to be somoone you would like to be? choice and presence.

ive learned so much knowlege from the stillness and acceptence of this truth over the past 2 days than most people would only accept after 2 years. because it not about how long it takes the mind to get used to it, or when the mind accepts it enough for the result of that effort to show up infront of you physically.

its about how stern are YOU going to be as the one aware with the knowlege of the FACT that the mind you think is you, is the mind that does whatever you tell it to from your awareness of it.now.

it doesnt take time, it takes presence. and in that presence is a choice. what is YOUR choice?

also ask yourself: who is it that feels like they need to be something to have something?

the answer is the human, not awareness.

ask yourself: who is it that needs to have an identity?

the answer is the human, not awareness.

once you understand you are the one that sees more so than you are the one being seen, effort vanishes.

journeys dont exist unless that is what you choose. take what you think a journey is right now and look at it. you think you have to learn and remind yourself and really repeat it to yourself to let yourself fully experencie it. but no, if you see what you want why would it take a journey to experience it? the real journey was everything you did up untill you became aware of what you wanted.

so when people say "you have it now" its not some grand thing, its nuetral like everything else you have in your life you see around you. you have everything now.

its like if you know and are aware of having bananas in the kitchen. do you have to say "i am a banana eater" to be the person that eats bananas? did you have to say "im going to look at banana posts on tumblr to feel motavated to go get and eat the banana? did you have to ruminate and fantasize about what your kitchen looks like and in which angle the bananas are placed to go get the banana? did you remind yourself the entire day up untill you chose to go to the kitchen and get a banana.... that you already have bananas? like hell no. same applies for the thing you have illusioned you dont already have, or the dr you think your not in. or life you think you dont yet amount to. nobody was anything or had anything before the thought of the existence of that thing. all that was ever left to do, was to go get the damn banana.

and to the people that are scared they wont get what they want. when you became aware of that banana and thought to go eat it, were you worried that you might accidently eat an apple instead because they are placed right next to the bananas in the kitchen? like seriously? do you look at the damn banana anxious that somehow... someway.... you might intend and chose the eat the banana but the UNIVERSE might have you taste and feel an apple when your biting into the damn banana. hell no. its silly.

stop trying to identify everything.

what you "do" now, is stop. be still for a moment and look around at everything that was once a thought. your phone that was made because of someones thought, the fact that you have this phone, which was also a thought before you had it. the fact that you have tumblr open right now, which was a thought before you opened the app. the house or building your in that was made from someones thought. even your own throught you had however long ago that brought you to the exact location you are in right now, reading this from. the thought of being here before you actually were, like the thoughts your parents had to concive you through the act that creates human life, before you existed as a fetus, how your mom thought of being pregnant before she took the pregnacy test, how you were a thought of life and birth before you were actually birthed. if you think of this long enough and go back far enough to where you are met with the ONE. the singular point we are all sourced from. the banana that was sliced and diced and controrted into humans, animals, planets, galaxies, human minds, ideas, philosophy, science, physics, fantasies, evil, good, religion, communities, DUALITY. it expanded infinitely and now, all exists in the present moment but.... even tho all of those things have happened to the banana... does that mean it isnt a banana anymore? well to that question i ask you this. if you reversed all of that, and saw it like a movie in reverse... what would the end scene be? the one and only....banana. i know using a banana as an example is unserious but you get the point of the analogy.

there is no moment other that whats right infront of you, so what do you select, NOW. with no past, no future, no memory, no ruminating about the future.

who are you now that you are present in the choice of that decision?

if you had who you have been being as a person, written down on paper... and someone else read it and saw you for who you are in reality, is that the person you say you have chosen to be? if not, choose now through presence, not hope.

i know all of what im saying is basicly just non-duality, but even that keeps you limited in language for someone who is just discorveing all of this information. saying its non-duality as a term with a definition makes it feel like a journey, something you have to embody or learn, not something you already are. If you are trying to learn or accept or practice non-duality, you are doing it for the mind, the human. not you. the one that already is. the one aware of the human that is trying to be. aware of the human who is in self depravation of itself. all that is left to do, is to experience. what do YOU select?

if you read to this point, you know the truth. i am now in your awareness because you thought of "clarity" in some form before this moment. and now, here it is. are the the confused one? are you still the seeker? are you the one in denial? all are you as the one aware of them all. but... WHAT. DO. YOU. SELECT. reguardless what you think, this truth remains. are you going to claim it FULLY?

[campbyler]

our chapters average at 27,000 words, the total fic length is already 3x the average novel length, and we lost one of the authors working on this fic. it must be so nice to only have to endure the wait for a chapter to be uploaded so that you can interact with it rather than being the one to actually write it.

im going to be cruel (no pun intended) to be kind: this is such an intense externalisation of blame. you are the ones in control of the fic length; the chapters could handle some heavy editing and it wouldnt make them any less wonderful (such as regarding the descriptions of mike and will's internal thoughts, not the action between the characters themselves). fic is free and its a gift to be able to read works that inspire our hearts and minds while we wait for the show, but then again, when at the stern of a juggernaut work such as this, one that will inevitably have many followers chomping at the bit on tumblr as well as ao3 (as you designed it to have!), you surely must be aware of something that only usually exists in professional marketing spaces involving customers + brand IP: the relationship between consumer and creator, and what they can give each other.

not 'owe each other' - nothing is owed, except perhaps basic human kindness. fans want your work, and its free, so we should be grateful; likewise, you want readers, feedback and clicks, and that should be free, too. but in order for this to work smoothly, there has to be fair give and take. i mean, if you wanted to monetize the fic i'm sure many people would pay to read it, but thats beside the point here.

what fans of this fic simply want is the same honesty and self-awareness from you that they might expect from any artist who has embarked on such am ambitious project. and this doesnt just mean transparency about potential uploading dates (which is already much appreciated by the majority!), or notifications about how hard it is to balance work and life (something most people on the planet struggle with). it means total honesty and hard answers. people like to know where they stand. plenty of writers (both professional and fan alike) abandon works for months, years at a time, and if the work is THAT good, people will always be thrilled to see a return. it's the mucking people about that is what destroys relationships - no matter how good your reasons are.

your fic is wonderful and very, very memorable. you could take a big, undefined hiatus and people would, im sure, return, including me. seeing you admit that you have been prioritizing this fic over your mental health does not inspire confidence either, or even comfort - do i want to read something that has caused the creator such harm?

i think everything about this process would be happier for everyone if you set boundaries that work for you and didn't place blame elsewhere. after all, as you said, it's just a fanfic. it doesnt matter if you don't finish it. it doesnt matter if it takes all the way to s5 for 10.2 to release. everyone would, though, appreciate you taking a stance and being consistent (and therefore fair) to both yourselves and the readers.

please feel free to not post this publicly or do as you wish with it.

hello! thank you for your feedback and for sharing it in a way that is both kind and respectful. you make many valid points that i agree with -- we are in control of the word counts and could stand to edit down more, and we do recognize where being transparent about the reasons behind the chapter delays might not inspire confidence or comfort. i do, however, think that isolating one response/chain of responses to a particular ask is a little unfair, so i'd like to provide additional context.

i do not think that it's fair to say that we haven't been honest, self-aware, or fair, because we have been incredibly transparent throughout the entire run of the fic (over a year) about our writing process. just last month suni said she hadn't been working on 10.2 at all because abby had been visiting her house, and readily took ownership of that fact. there was a 4-month wait between chapters 9.1 and 9.2, and i was very open about the fact that i simply needed a break for at least the first of those months because i didn't want to write it. we have continued to maintain several times that we are not abandoning the fic, even if it takes longer between chapters, and have tried to stay as active as possible on the blog because we know that seeing us interact with asks Does inspire confidence. if you just scroll down and see how we have answered other asks inquiring about the upload, we responded kindly and respectfully.

what you interpreted as externalization of blame in that one (1!) ask response was me trying to provide perspective to someone who clearly lacked it. we understand that people will be frustrated about chapter delays, especially if we keep pushing them back, and this is also something that we have received feedback about before and tried to implement; however, it is also a double-edged sword where if we don't give an estimated upload, people get upset, or we give an estimated upload that we think is completely reasonable for us to achieve and then hurdles get in the way, whether it's writer's block or work or time with friends. i absolutely get the frustration on the receiving end, but something i have learned from being in this fandom for two years is that a pretty big majority of those who are interacting with fanworks are not creating it themselves, hence why my response -- while snippy and annoyed, because i was matching the energy, and will not apologize for that -- was contextualizing the whys behind the chapter delay: the chapters are long, the fic is long, we are down one entire body from where we started. the intention was not to shuck blame off of ourselves, but i get that intentions don't always translate into effect, so it's understandable that it was received differently.

we don't always respond to things perfectly. when we have a million and one asks inquiring about the next upload, one stray one that comes off the wrong way is likely going to set us off, because we are people, and this is not a job. we have set a boundary by disabling anon, and again, i cannot stress enough how much i appreciate that you've come to us with this feedback off-anon and with respect and decency. i get where you are coming from and again, agree with a lot of your points.

the only other thing i want to make clear is that this fic, no matter how much attention its garnered, should not be treated as a creator/consumer relationship that mirrors anything where the exchange of money is involved. not only is it unfair to apply this standard to fanworks, where it is illegal to monetize such content, but the entire purpose of fanworks is to celebrate what you are a fan of together. when you apply expectations on either end -- i am a fan of this work, therefore, people should create timely content for it; i am creating this fanwork, therefore, people should interact with it -- defeats the entire nature of fan-created work as a whole. while we have continued to be vocally grateful for the love and support our fic has been shown, we both maintain that we would continue writing and continue uploading even if we were getting less than half of the amount of interaction that we do. it's nice to have interaction, but not necessary, because we what write and post is done because we love it, and it's shared so that we can look back on it, so our friends can enjoy it, and anyone else who might want to. we are, of course, excited to share that world with anyone who cares -- we created the blog and the promo because we wanted to share it -- but that does not mean that the relationship between us and our readers should have expectations. we are all creating and enjoying this work for free for the sake of love for the characters, as the star trek obsessed housewives of the 60s (and the law) have intended.

i feel like this response is a bit jumbled so i apologize if anything isn't clear or hard to understand. thank you again for your time!

[lambouillet]

I'm actually so glad to have talked to people who knew just being brave enough to say something was enough to get people talking.

I'm definitely not the most eloquent person, i just ramble on until something comprehensible comes out, and click post. So i may fumble my words often even as im editing this lol but again,

I am very passionate for world building story and narrative, ive always loved to get ideas and expand them to their full potential and cotl is one of those things that is absolutely perfect for my brain with the added bonus of my own life experience as a spiritual abuse survivor, to me, for a game about cults, i barely see people utilize the multitudes of layers it has, its history, its relationship with the state, the mysticism, the people in them, it all can play together to narrate such a rich story only if there was still an importance and respect being held for it, not only just to know more, but to understand it beyond just whats on the surface, because not only does it really pain me to hear that we are omitting such a fundamental thing about the world of cotl, we are also erasing what little survivors have that resonated with them, as silly as it sounds, and I think thats a fault that comes with the apathy and self importance hyper individualism has that makes people prioritise worthless comfort at the expense of other people, i shouldn't have to say this its a shame that i am really but i promise you that being curious and empathetic does wonders for storytelling; Caring about other people will make you an effective storyteller. You're not being reprimanded when the people you're writing about want to educate you on these things.

It really does nothing but harm people who want to acknowledge the underbelly of what is, in the title, a cult and dismiss it just because you personally find it uncomfortable, Its very, very shameful to come around saying this to other creatives who are just acknowledging topics already in, or related to the game, and also very telling when you prioritise your personal comfort without a second thought. Instead of sitting with the uneasiness, you do not stop to hesitate to show idiotic disdain and contempt for people who may just be calling attention to abuse that is inherent cults especially when you have no way of knowing the background of the other person is. The fact that we can't talk about this without having some people take it so personally to back potential survivors into a corner of silence is alarming.

Ok like Alright? take it from me, Ive already said it a hundred times, but the reason the game resonated with me as much as it did despite its silly and more laidback approach to cults is because it made me realise that in many ways, that i grew up in a similar type of by fanaticism, a very specific brand involving folk Catholicism + spirituality in a country that's already very much controlled by religion and superstition, that it terribly impacted me in ways that'll follow me for life as well for many others I've known. and while I'm not gonna go into specifics, most of all is a tangible real thing about it to me is the abuse and something I can't get rid of, especially when it's being used as an aid in my work. And it will always be there! Even if it's not apparent.

Regardless, it's something I hope to portray well in all my work and will still talk about extensively, even in a humorous lense. Lightheartedness does not equate regressing into blissful ignorance, and it does not mean that you have to willfully look away to get to it, because with all things in real life there's a nuance and a multifaceted ness to it that I think is being greatly undermined here. You don't have to but it helps to think more critically about the things you're consuming and look inwards and then outwards to the people who's stories you're writing about.

[jealousmartini]

"Haven't you ever seen skin like mine?" A vault

Skin clarity + glow | Skin tone | skin clarity

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⋆.˚ Skin clarity .𖥔˚

My skin is just so clear and beautiful, I can't help staring and feeling it. I am just in awe at how wonderfully blessed I am to be born with such perfect ideal skin. It is so gorgeously smooth, and while its firmness keeps me looking young and perfect, it is still supple and has a slight bounce to the touch.

I mean my skin is so perfect some friends ask me what brand of skin care I use to get my skin so even and glowing like it does, but truth be told.. genetics and positive assumptions about myself I guess😭?? I've never had any reason to use skin products because my skin has always been naturally flawless, and ive never had any reason to doubt myself because literally look at me- i am the proof. That's just my nature. But every now and then, I'll get gifted high-quality skin korean care sets and expensive most wanted skin moisturisers with the most delicious and entising scents by my mum "just in case" but also because the process is fun😋

It's also so fun being able to eat whatever I want without ever having to worry about my skin because nothing could ever affect its perfectness. I just eat what I want, and the after-effects are like a couple of crumbs on my lips and still looking pretty😭

But some people do be jealous tho🙄. "There is no way she can eat what she likes and still look that good" one says and "what about the acne? Has she even gotten a spot once?" another says. And it's even better when I post pictures or videos cus haters really be out here doing there best to convince themselves and everyone around them (like the clowns they are) that skin is impossible to look that perfect and it HAS to be makeup or it HAS to be a filter or she MUST have gotten some surgery of a kind and they all couldn't be more wrong lmao. I just be existing and nothing else and i am just that naturally radiant😂

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⋆.˚ Skin colour.𖥔˚

I've had people pointing out how dewy and golden like my skin is like all my life and I never even thought about it until now. Well, I kind of always knew that I have the most gorgeous, jaw dropping skin colour that ranged between a deep caramel tan in the light and like a golden brown in the dark; I've been getting remarkable amounts of compliments both in person and on social media about how glorious my skin colour looks. It's kind of overwhelming but ive been fighting though it.

skin colour in the dark | skin colour in bright lightings

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1 dimple is ♡shaped | I sweat= I shimmer | cutest mole marks

⋆.˚ Unique features.𖥔˚

— Glittery skin when I sweat

I have a rare phenomenon that only 0.0001 in the entire human population have, with my skin where if I am to sweat, my skin will have a light glittery coat. Scientists have recently come to find out that the glittery coat left behind by the sweat is a natural skin protecting barrier. This is incredibly useful for preventing skin problems like rashes, strawberry skin, and uneven skin texture. Scientists have not found a name for this yet (im scientists and don't know what to call it)

— ♡Shaped Dimple

Another rare phenomenon for people to get is dimples. Only 0.01 of the entire human population have dimples, and an even smaller number of people (me) have a heart-shaped dimple. There is nothing scientific about this tho, it's just fun to look at

— Beauty marks / moles

I have a couple of cute beauty marks on my body and face. Also somewhat rare, somewhat not lol. Nothing more to add😊

@theshifterbear @livingmydreamlife5555 @4ellieluv

This was lowkey entertaining to script especially the unique features one too. ONTO THE NEXT!

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

someone needs to investigate the link between hentai and furry because from the furry art i sometimes see on this website, most seem to have pornbrain. they almost always have the same anime like drawing style, im always embarrassed they call themselves artists when there is nothing creative about that drawing style. im sure there are some furries who treat it like cosplay more than a sex thing but it very much is a sex thing. if you type in furry in tumblr search bar you will see kink shit within the first few posts, and of course enlarged breasts. furries do have a zoophilia and zoosadism problem in their community too, unsurprisingly. how many kids first introduction to kink is through furry stuff online? you take these characters appealing to kids, often even from kids shows, and sexualise them in the wildest ways possible. my first exposure to vore was through furry fetish „art“ on this website when i was a minor still.

none of this has anything to do with being same sex attracted. and i think most trans people would also be offended to be compared to people who have a fetish for (cartoon) animals. and „dressing weird“ and „looking different“ are not inherently lgb characterisitics.

this is why i hate the term „queer“. to me its not a slur because im german and we have no equivalent (to my knowledge), the literal english term was introduced here as an umbrella term - we even have a „queer beauftrage“ („queer deputy“) in the national government. „queer“ is always associated with lgb and now trans people (who are already two different groups with divergent interests and the only reason we‘re historically tied is because transvestites used to be homosexual). now all sorts of kinksters and „sexual minorities“ attach themselves to this. we already have an issue with how bold both bdsm and pedophilia groups are in germany. they love that „queer“ is associated with gays and lesbians and their valid advocacy for same rights, same sex marriage, and so on, which gives legitimacy to the tqa++* since gay and lesbian acceptance has increased since the 2010s (and now back to decreasing because of gender nonsense and worse, these other groups), while at the same time not meaning same sex attracted which allows anyone considering themselves a „sexual minority“ - such as furries - to call themselves „queer“, leeching of the legitimacy of the gay rights movement while at the same time undoing progress of the movement by branding same sex attracted people „queer“, weird, different, basically the same as having a fetish. fuck off!

[honeytonedhottie]

celebrity energy⋆.ೃ࿔*:･💅🏽

so i got an ask about this a while ago and i wanted to make a post about it but i went on hiatus 😭 so im making the post now. thank you to the anonie who asked the question that inspired this post and i hope you see this cuz it answers ur ask...💬🎀

THE TRIPLE C'S ;

while making the notes for celebrity energy (the big C) and i was able to umbrella it to three main points. those points being confidence, cuntiness, and charisma.

confidence ; celebrities need to have undeniable confidence in themselves and their abilities. they're famous for a reason and they know that. work on ur self concept and watch ur confidence sky rocket.

cuntiness ; to be cunty is to be feminine and aware of urself. be cunty in the things that u do and the way that u handle urself. to be cunty is to find the perfect balance of inner strength and delicateness. cunt = refined.

charisma ; authenticity is the heart of charisma. be authentic and dont be afraid to take up space.

ALL ABOUT IMAGE ;

to have celebrity you need an image to put forward. this is where the power of social media comes in. your social media is like your brand. in this day and age social media is such a powerful tool not only for networking but also for getting u into places that u wanna get to.

in order to do that though u need to learn how to formulate ur own distinct image and advertise it expertly on social media.

PERSONAL BRAND AND REPUTATION ;

to further touch on those points ur social media IS your brand. this section kind of ties in with the next but im trying to distinguish between the two. so ur personal brand is what u do. so lets say ur rly SUPER smart and ur known for getting A's on like everything.

that is ur personal brand and that comes with a reputation that u may or may not feel obligated to uphold. but its important to uphold a reputation of some sort. with that being said be careful of what u post on ur social media because DIGITAL FOOTPRINT IS REAL. and when people look at ur social media they're seeing a representation of what ur putting out to the world so always be mindful.

WHATS UR SIGNATURE ;

you need something about yourself that’s gonna set you apart. the way that you walk the way that you dress the way that you do ur makeup etc. decide what kind of energy u wanna serve, and SERVE IT. i choose to serve princess energy and i could write a whole separate post on that but find someone who serves that same energy so that u can learn from them.

remember, dont introduce urself as a vibe that u cannot maintain

but back to what we were talking about what is your SIGNATURE. what makes u or people think "yea thats so (insert ur name)" is the way that u talk or the way that u carry yourself. make sure to refine urself and be ur own distinct individual.

and dont be afraid to play around with signatures, ur allowed to have a few or one singular one, dont limit urself and keep trying until u can create the perfect one for you…💬🎀

while on the topic of signatures i wanna touch on STAR QUALITY. learn how to market urself not only as a person but as ur own brand. star quality is the perfect blend of (talent + training + confidence)

POLISH YOURSELF ;

refinement refinement refinement. u need to be studying yourself and you need to be able to see urself from other point of views. seeing urself from other point of views can be so refreshing and useful and it rly helps when ur trying to polish urself.

take impeccable care for urself and constantly show urself that u love urself. polish the way that u talk and the way that u carry yourself so that u can be exuding so much you-energy. its basically taking ur signature and the energy that u exude -> and refining it.

you have to create the energy before fame comes. if u wanna have celebrity energy u have to start getting comfortable with putting urself out there which leads me to my next point...💬🎀

KILL CRINGE ;

when people call u cringe thats like them exposing their fear of being seen and analyzed by the world. they're upset because ur putting urself out there and they're insecure, but thats for them to fix within themselves. so dont take it personally when someone calls u cringe.

furthermore ur fear of being cringe is holding u back because ur always overthinking everything and u won't let urself do anything even if it'll help you because ur worried it might be cringe or ur worried what other people think so nip that in the bud and let urself live! u might have haters but dont let urself be ur own hater.

SOME MORE SOURCES ;

THE IMPORTANCE OF BRANDING

MIRROR WORK + AFFIRMATIONS

[musashi]

was talking to my girlfriend about an old friendship that ended badly and i figured it out: i personally cannot get along with an incredibly specific type of Guy that sounds SO overly specific when i put it on paper but i cannot stress enough to you that i at least have attracted multiple of this type of person and never once been able to stand them

i don't even know how to describe it but it's like

egomaniac but not upfront about it. obsessed with being the center of attention but not ballsy enough to just own it.

HAS to somehow pull the conversation back to them no matter what, but again, can't just say 'EVERYONE PAY ATTENTION TO ME' and has to instead make a scene

will often Do A Munchausen to achieve this effect. this can range from bragging about triggering their own allergies, to telling chat about every injury they receive (amount suspiciously high), to refusing to mute on vc when they're sick and loudly symptomatic so everyone Notices Them

KINNIE EDITION: has kintypes. refuses to actually experience their kintypes. will make their friends assign them these kintypes via the weirdest brand of manipulation possible, because that means people are Paying Attention To Them and Memorizing Their Personality, Which They Totally Have

EXAMPLE: fictional character is a fiery redhead who hates eating tomatoes and wears incredibly expensive victorian suits. Annoying Person will (in spaced out succession, so as not to be suspicious!) rant about how much they cannot stand tomatoes, did you know that today the subway guy put tomato on their sandwich when they asked for none? two weeks later they will talk about how they always wanted red hair. in a month they will start sending exact replicas of the victorian suits in question to the chat, "omg i neeeeed her"

friends will usually be like "um are you kin with Fictional Character?" and annoying person will be like omg no no whaaaat why would you even say that?

this game of theater will continue until they make a scene that is big/funny enough that their friends will tell the story later. "omg remember when Annoying Person figured out they were kin with Fictional Character in the middle of an argument? hahaha"

every interaction they have resembles this. just making a huge scene while the people who Know It's Cringey Attention-Seeking politely ignore them, meanwhile the more innocent and faithhearted people pleasers in the chat lap it all up.

i obviously don't get along with these people cause im rude and have .2% empathy on a good day and pretend theyre not there

for some reason this makes them want my approval even more

i suffer until they realize i'm not breaking and then they write a callout post about me or, more often than not, start just straightup shit-talking me to our mutual friends in private

again this is SO specific like reading this you have to be like 'wendy you clearly had a specific person in mind writing this post' but NO I LITERALLY AM TALKING ABOUT LIKE 4 DIFFERENT PEOPLE I HAVE KNOWN LIKE WHY IS THIS A PERSONALITY TYPE AND HOW DO I MAKE IT LEAVE ME ALONE

[t00nyah]

SO! A THING ABOUT THE ART CHALLENGE I TALKED ABOUT IN MY LAST POST...

we ended up trading characters. LMAO. it was so funny how we just were like WAIT CAN I GET THIS ONE PLEASE PLEASE

SO. ABOUT MY COOL AND AWESOME IDEAS.

if you're an old t00nyan...you know splatoon changed me as a person.

but there's one particular thing i really like making characters based off...

SEA SLUGS. (please stay till the end the final artwork is the best thing i ever drew and is like the equivalent of me learning splatoon style AND there's umm something cool you need to know.)

so. literally everyone knows i love sea bunnies for looking so so so cute and silly. i always say white lizards are like sea bunnies to me. and as you all know i love gathering a lot of facts and applying them to the character.

first, i've decided to make it somewhat atypical to what people are more used to see...as far as i know yellow sea bunnies are more common than white ones. and it works! the character looks way better than when it was white haha. speaking of appearance, of course they're small, sea bunnies are teeny tiny!!!!!!!!!

from what i've read for this challenge, apparently sea bunnies use jellyfish stingers for self-defense, huge if true bc that's why this fella holds a jellyfish. they highly depend on stunning predators to outrun them in my vision. also, um. wiki mentions that the sponges sea bunnies feed on contain toxins that can be used in cancer treatment, so you know what that means. in MY concept it's like... them being a rotting iterator's last hope or smth, which would be funny because being toxic also equals to being a little shit personality-wise. imagine your last hope is a creature that won't stop throwing jellyfish at you.

next one is a cabbage slug! it's a very pretty one!! i actually have a splatoon oc Elysia based on them haha.

this particular photo was my reference for the blueish palette but they can be veeery colorful and veeery pretty...

i don't have anything in my head for this one, i just felt like i HAD to make an elysia crispata slugcat. they're just nice, herbivore, love sunbathing and just enjoy being here!

so. last one is like my MAGNUM OPUS. at first i didn't even consider it. i wanted to make an octopus based one for branding reasons but then i saw this shitter.

im sorry im not actually mean to them but. this guy is a blue dragon. i randomly saw them and went 'oh yeah they exist, wonder what they'd be like. could be a cool design.'

THE RESULT...

IS THIS GUY.

so. blue dragons, apparently, prey on bigger predators and then store their most dangerous venom to use it on their next prey. but it also ends up even more deadly that the predators'.

so i went okay. if that's not a cool concept, i don't know what is. and then...things went kind of too far.

introducing to you: The Weaponeer.

food requirement: 8(10) [quite obviously eats corpses with 1/4 pip from blue fruit and stuff]

they're fast, (NOT as fast as rivulet, but faster than hunter, probably like 1.45x) have bigger lung capacity (~4.25x, a lot, but not as much as rivulet has) and have a 'special ability' of sorts

the Weaponeer is a master in self-defence and knows well how to utilize its' predators' weapons as their own. they can deshell overgrown(!) centipedes, demask vultures and steal king vultures' harpoons (without needing a spear, practically like a maul but it only works for this and only due to the Weaponeer just knowing how to do that more practically)

their base damage is 1.0, BUT using harpoon spears multiplies it to 1.5 (although i think it lowers throwing skill considering it's heavy and giant, they can't exactly throw it, it's more of a melee weapon. it probably slows them down too?)

i have a little campaign idea too! so, wiki mentions them being washed up on the shore sometimes...and that felt like an idea.

the Weaponeer is a capable and very confident slugcat, but they are lost far from home in Deserted Faraway - a result of some poor planning of the Ancients. once a river, now a cavern full of adapted to new circumstances living beings. the region has two subregions, one of them being a cave system and the other being the remains of the iterator that was doomed right from the start. when the Weaponeer arrives to Deserted Faraway, it's already its own blooming ecosystem.

im really proud of how this menu art turned out! i hope i will get to draw more artworks like that someday...when im not that busy, haha. it did take me an entire DAY to finish this one.

i intended to sell them initially just bc they ended up pretty cool so...THAT'S WHAT I'M DOING. i sadly can't really...actually...sell them for money...which is very fucking dissatisfying.

BUT. but. if you know me you know i'm desperate for OC fanart, so if you really want them trading for art is an option!!! my dms are open :]

but yeah, thanks for looking at this, it took me a while and im actually proud of this project!!

[glowstickhaloboy]

i mean its no secret who i am since i heavily advertised my audio drama on this blog, and thats written under my real name obviously, so im gonna talk about last weekend

my father offered to take me down to the cemetery and show me where all our family’s people are buried. as someone who has struggled with understanding my blood connections for a variety of reasons, i jumped at the chance.

he shows me a few branches of people from as far back as his father’s grandparents’ generation. while we’re walking, i make a joke about how all these people lived so i could turn out trans. (NOT self-deprecating. in the most literal and appreciative way, but still a joke because not every part of being trans is easy and my dad has been with me every step of the way. it’s its own separate post how much my dad loves having me as his son. anyway.)

so i meet clinton and elizabeth, and earl and hattie (yes im REALLY white), and then we go over and meet some of the pipers, who i actually knew when i was extremely little as my great-grandparents. i always knew my middle name came from this evelyn, so i brought it up, and my dad said, “yeah, you were named after both of them, her and her husband, james. but everyone always called him by his middle name fred for some reason. but because of them you were named jaimie evelyn.”

bro i was like what. do you ever feel like life sends in patch updates to retcon shit??

i was like you have NEVER told me i was named after this man. you have ALWAYS told me that you and [That Woman We Don’t Talk About] just liked the name jaimie?????

he was like no, you were named after both my grandparents on this side.

ok????? i guess thats canon going forward whatever, im named after two people instead of just my middle name

personally i always liked the idea of naming someone from scratch, for lack of a better term, and i always thought that was what happened with me, but in that moment it all kind of sunk in that at the end of their lives these people would’ve met this tiny little baby-blond brand new person who still needed lots of help with everything from eating to sleeping to speaking, and my parents made a gesture that said their time in this family will continue to shape the future of it

and jaimie evelyn grew up, found his way back to their graves, and stood there as a complete person. he weeded strangers’ headstones covered over with leaves on the way. from all the way back then until now, he turned out alright.

the thing that got me thinking about all this was how much i appreciate still carrying both those names forward through transitioning. i get nervous handing over my ID in public because even though i am typically correctly gendered by strangers, its always a gamble whether they’ll see “evelyn” now and take offense to that feminine tag. if the person im “supposed” to be will crumble before their eyes and they’ll start to see the rounded afab features. i dont want the name evelyn to feel like a “giveaway.” because. thats me.

but i was getting dressed for work this morning and thinking about how, when things were different, its possible my father thought his “daughter” would not want to have been named after a man. maybe! maybe it genuinely was an accidental miscommunication, too. maybe he did say it right once and i forgot. maybe the world is the matrix and im the main character and it got retconned. all equally possible!

i remembered him stressing the timelines of the women in our family when i asked about them. there are several different surnames to remember from wives like hattie and elizabeth. i was glad to be told their names and to honor that part of them, too.

so i was standing there in front of the mirror doing up my buttons and thinking about how much i adore being jaimie evelyn, named after james. it’s very satisfying to be who i am now and to know i was given the mantle of a male relative’s name. i’m accepted. i’m the next. but i also would not give up evelyn for the world. i’m all the men and women of my family. there will be others after me, but this time is mine and im living it to the fullest. while keeping both names.

i just think there is plenty of honor to be had in embracing males with explicitly feminine names, from feminine roots. not because “it could be a man’s name too!”

because its important that i was named after evelyn. if i hadn’t been named after her, who would have?

if someone sees the name jaimie evelyn on my license and thinks they’ve caught onto my cheap trick, thinks im a creep who can’t afford to get my name changed but would if i could, thinks im a liar who wants to bury the person i was and live life as an impostor — i wouldnt be able to explain anything to someone like that, but i just want the world to know that you actually couldnt pry jaimie evelyn out of my hands.

my family gave me permission to be here, to be myself, and they are letting me define what the mantle now is.

even if i didnt have their permission, it would be no take-backsies, so thats good. but im very hopeful for a future wherein these lines continue to be blurred in such a way that all the stigma of sexism and transphobia are stripped away and the notion of simple honor and pride are carried forward

lets all be who we are, okay????

[pookieismissing09]

ok guys i never post on here but heres my take on the sturniolo space camp situation if anyone gives a fuck

SORRY THIS IS SO LONG I DONT EXPECT ANYONE TO READ EVERYTHING NO ONE WILL PROB SEE THIS ANYWAY 💀 ill prob delete this icl its just a lil rant 🥰🥰

and if u disagree with me idc im just expressing my opinions 😭 read the whole thing so i can justify myself before u start attacking me

before i say anything im not just sticking up for nick just because im a fan of the triplets. like some people are only sticking up for him because they hate to admit that he would ever lie or do anything wrong- and they’re defending him with no reasoning other than “he would never 🥺” like stfu. what im saying is that i don’t know for sure whether the ‘bee better’ guy is telling the truth, for all i know he might be chatting utter shit. but if he is telling the truth, then im saying that i understand nick lied but its not necessarily a negative thing.

so like first of all i dont see the issue with nick not being the founder of the brand. like yes i understand its ‘morally wrong’ to lie and its misinformation but i think we will live… it doesnt make any difference to the products or the people who buy them. like ik people say that they only bought it to support nick and they wouldn’t have bought it if they knew it was just some random brand, but its not just some ‘random brand’- they are still supporting nick cos he gets payed for advocating it. by purchasing the products, theyre keeping the brand afloat which means nick will get payed for being the ‘face of the brand’ and doing a good job at advertising. or in simple terms, even if nick isnt the founder of the entire brand he is still a huge part of the company and is definetly getting a fat bag from all of this. like yall are acting like you wouldnt lie if a company said they would pay you to do so- bffr we would all do what nick did.

and the other main thing is everyone is complaining about the price all of a sudden. like if you are all protesting about how nick has nothing to do with the origin of the brand then surely he also wouldn’t be able to control the price? so according to everyone saying the lip balms are not his idea, don’t be mad at nick for the ridiculous pricing if he apparently ‘had nothing to do with it in the first place‘. and aside from that, the pricing literally had nothing to do with the fact that he lied about being the founder- it would probably cost the same either way so why are people only getting worked up about the pricing now that he is being ‘exposed’? like honestly people are just looking for excuses to say he’s a bad person like what 😭

and ik this doesnt have anything to do with spacecamp, but in general these days everyone is saying how the triplets don’t put any effort into their content anymore and only do it for the money. i think you are forgetting that youtube is their full time paying job. doing youtube as a hobby and doing it as a career are completely different- and most people find that when they pursue their hobbies as a career choice they start to enjoy it less since they feel under pressure to perform a certain way (and don’t come at me for saying that because im “babying” the triplets, piss off).

put it this way, people that have high paying jobs that sit in an office all day don’t do that type of work for their enjoyment- they only work in that environment because they want to receive a larger income instead of having an enjoyable job with a poor wage. this is exactly the same as the triplets’ situation, i doubt very much that they actually do youtube for their personal enjoyment. at the end of the day they have to pay the bills and youtube is their only job- its not always going to be fun like it used to be (both for them and for us watching).

and for all of you thinking ‘well they shouldnt be youtubers if they cant entertain people’ you have to understand that getting a different job takes time. like the whole process of finding a career, interviewing etc. and as well as that, they are probably terrified to even consider looking for another career because of their batshit crazy fans (including me 💀). like can we just cut them some slack and let them get on with their job 😭. and at the end of the day they cant just stop being youtubers, they will never be able to live their lives as regular people now that they have created their platform- i doubt they will ever do anything else bc of the fear of being recognised in public whilst they are doing a more “normal” job.

and for the love of god this is NOT me saying that the triplets are gonna quit youtube. like i said, its their full time job. im just giving my opinion on people saying they are only doing it for the money- and quite honestly they are, but is that really such a bad thing? like im sorry but they aren’t just posting for our entertainment, they need money one way or another.

also is anyone else excited for the stream later like i hope nick will say something about all this and not just stay quiet until it all blows over

i think thats all i was gonna say i cant remember but if theres more then i will say 😘😘😘 sorry i waffle alot