#Autistic Ego

[captain-of-playground]

Monthly Meetings

The Captains were summoned for a monthly meeting. All ten captains were supposed to meet the general in the main hall tonight. Ego moaned when lying down on his cot in the knight's quarters. He yawned and stood up, straining. For once, the otter captain preferred to be lazy today. He couldn't stop thinking about the disastrous night. The knight wanted to hide, but he was already done grieving. The responsibility of a knight, particularly a captain, was to protect others regardless of his own condition. Some may call him a workaholic, but he only wants to take his mind off things. 

Even heroes have problems. Ego had several, but he shoved them down so that everyone else wouldn't have problems. It was his purpose, and he was certain of it. It was Ego's responsibility to ensure that his knights and people were not harmed, no matter how much he was suffering.

After slamming on his helmet, he sighed and looked in the mirror. Gods, he'd be vulnerable without this helmet. People attacked him to get away, just like petty thieves, and he attacked himself too. That is why he conceals his areas of vulnerability so that he doesn't hurt himself with his own face. He took a deep breath and opened the door, only to be faced with blinding sunshine.

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All of the captains sat in chairs around a long, massive table. Ego sat in one of the front chairs, near to one of the more recent captains. A knight with long, upward-pointing orange horns. He looked new. Probably younger than most, but not Ego's age. Ego wasn't in the mood to talk today, so he chose to fidget with a letter he'd been trying to write while waiting for the meeting to begin. He could sense someone looking at him. The orange captain was looking at him, throwing away letter after letter. Ego ignored it, putting each incorrect letter into the trash out of frustration. Before he could write another word, the doors opened, forcing Ego to roll up the paper and store the supplies. 

A demon with golden horns that stuck out of the sides of his head, jagging upwards. General Gold, or his full name Golden Steam. All the captains stood up and saluted, including Ego. 

“At ease, we have business to attend to. Captain Azure-”

The meeting lasted a while, with General Gold visiting each captain and asking for reports on what had happened since last month. Each captain is assigned to a separate area of Playground; Ego was assigned to the area containing the Orchestra House. His tail nearly wagged at the thought. Ego had already given his report, so all he had to do was wait for everyone else to give theirs. Anyone who knows Ego knows he despises sitting still and can't seem to stop himself.

The captain began to hop his leg and noticed a coin on the table, which he picked up and twirled in his hand. He began to spin it between his fingers as he watched everyone speak. The knight next to him appeared to notice this and stared at him. Of course, Ego missed it since he was so concentrated on the general's comments. After a while, the orange captain spoke up. 

"That's very disrespectful, you know." A young but adult voice addressed him in a stern tone. One of the other captains took a quick peek over themselves. Ego tilted his head in confusion. Disrespectful? Did he do something wrong? The other seemed to pick up on his perplexity and stared at Ego in disgust.

“You're quite impatient, aren’t you?” His voice seemed to raise a bit, catching the attention of the other captains. Ego was stunned to say the least. He was confused about what he did wrong. 

“Impatient? I’m just waiting for the meeting to end. I already gave my repo-”

“Yes, you did, so you can wait there without being a distraction.” The other captain that was watching the two stepped in quickly, trying to calm the other down. 

"Keep it down Dragonfire, we are in the middle of a meeting." Dragonfire appeared irritated and was about to snap at the other when the general's voice came from across the table.

"Is there a problem Captain Dragonfire?" All of the captains turned towards them now, with Ego, Dragonfire, and the other knight looking up at General Gold.

“Captain Egobworder is being a distraction sir.” The dragon spit out. The otter now looked over at him instead with more confusion. 

"I don't understand…" The general noticed Ego's utter perplexity; he knew what the otter was like, unable to sit still. Dragonfire was new to captaincy, but he was the one being disrespectful and distracting.

"What was so distracting that you had to pause our meeting?" The avian tilted his head, perplexed. The dragon appears to become enraged and faces Ego, grasping the wrist of the hand holding the currency and smashing it down on the table, causing the coin to tumble out.

"Dragonfire!" The other captain yelled, worried. When it was slammed, Ego barked in pain and then chirped while attempting to lift it. However, the dragon was more powerful. The bird roared afterward, making Dragonfire and the other captains jump.

"Let him go Dragonfire!" All captains were speechless. Dragonfire immediately let go of Ego. The general circled the table and came to a halt in front of the three, his face filled with wrath.

.... Silence.

"Captain Dragonfire is now demoted to Sergeant Dragonfire, you are all dismissed."

[elegantmarigold]

Gwen said "Lena won't be as laid back as I am about this" with so much confidence and then left the room thinking she handled that so well, completely oblivious to the atmosphere of the room. this woman has never read a social cue a day in her life and I sincerely hope it stays that way.

[ohara-n-brown]

Am I the only one that feels like NTs HATE saying 'I don't know.'

You will not believe the amount of times I'll ask a basic objective question about a situation and they'll give me an answer, only for later the answer to be completely wrong. And then when I ask them why they would give me wrong information - they say 'I just guessed.'

I didn't ask you for your guess. I asked for the information. If you didn't have the information don't just GUESS. Say 'I don't know.'

I feel like NT don't realize that WRONG information is worse than no information.

If I want to know when an event will end and you say '5pm' - I'm going to be mentally prepared for 5pm. And if it DOESN'T end then, not only will I be out of energy, but I'll be irritated and confused because I'm in an unfamiliar situation with NO INFORMATION

Had you just told me 'I don't know what time it ends' instead of GUESSING 5, then I would've prepared for the worse. But now I have to literally rearrange everything in my head and talk myself down from meltdown cause I was given inaccurate information and also I thought I was going home.

But they act instead like saying I don't know is a moral failure.

My father used to yell at me all the time to not say 'I don't know.'

He'd always demand I figure it out and come up with SOMETHING no matter how uninformed or vague and that's how you have NTs walking around feeling like it's a crime to admit they simply don't know something

and instead they'll just shamble something together and hope that's good enough regardless of whether in the information is actually helpful or correct.

IT'S SO ANNOYING. JUST SAY YOU DON'T KNOW.

Stop guessing and giving me WRONG information because it only makes the situation worse and more confusing. Say you don't KNOW. It's FINE.

[tumbler-polls]

Which of the following statements best describes your sense of identity?

❤️: I'm an individual with a stable, firm sense of identity. I know exactly who I am and can easily define myself. 💛: I'm an individual with a fluid sense of identity that keeps evolving over time. However, there is a "core me" that remains the same, and I have at least a vague idea of who this person is. 💚: My sense of identity is fluid, and I contain multitudes. I am not sure which me is the real me or if there is a real me at all, which causes me a bit of distress. 💜: My sense of identity is fluid, and I contain multitudes. This does not cause me distress as I don't seek to define myself. 🖤: I frequently experience being more of a 'pure awareness' than a person. Oftentimes I find myself observing the world rather than interacting with it. Any identity I take on in this life feels like a mask / a temporary role. 💙: Something else.

Feel free to expand on your choice in the tags/comments :)

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[punkeropercyjackson]

Leo:If Percy is like your mom,then i guess that makes me your stepdad

Nico:I can,and will,kill you

[kalcifers-blog]

Don't make the rules all of the Jacksepticeye Egos are autistic now.

They already all were but now it's ableist if you try and argue with me /lh

[spaciebabie]

something that has been happening 2 me frequently for like years now and i have no clue why b/c irl i look like the most normal person on this earth

[theadventuresystem]

There’s this sort of bittersweetness to being autistic and having a permanent Spin, and making friends because of that spin. But then time passes (weeks, months, years) and all of your friends interests change and you are still stuck left with that interest and no one to talk to about it. Because it doesn’t feel the same anymore with them. They aren’t just as excited as you are about it anymore. They are into the New Thing while you are stuck with that Spin. And you feel like you just have to start over again and make new friends just so you can talk excitedly about that again. But it never feels the same. It always feels like starting over.

[moe-broey]

I've only read the first volume of Dungeon Meshi but I'm convinced Laios and Marcille are both autistic but two EXTREMELY different flavors of autism, so much so it enables autistic PVP (one sided, Laios is unaware, possibly due to the autism)

[jellyfishdoodler]

OH MY GOD HE'S REAL

Wanted to try my take on Jackie's official (OFFICIAL!!!!) design!

[deakwithit]

I dont subscribe to the house has secret debilitating empathy for people hc..i think he cares, and doesnt want all people to suffer, but he doesnt experience day to day empathy like someone else would. i have next to no empathy and it makes me just a little happy to imagine house having no empathy, because he isn't represented as someone who does only bad despite his lack of empathy, just that his motives are different from "well, ill feel bad if i dont" or "but society says i should care" (this, he would probably call selfish, anyway).

i think he recognizes his lack of empathy but still does the good thing anyway, not because he cares all the time, just that hes not evil, and can make nice choices for others.

[fagbearentertainment]

Watching wir again and noticing subtle details about king candy teehee

[littledeathlittleghost]

My headcanon is that Blank is Unus, remade after he was found by Annus, completely forgotten about and alone in the grand scheme of things

Annus was the pure, untouched sand that trickled down with time, and he found the dark and broken sand and melted it down into glass, an hourglass, for a new use, death

[g3othermal3scapism]

highschool au sydcarmy is just kinda james and alyssa from teotfw

[dreamer-of-all-time]

why can't I have a normal special interest? Girl, what the hell do you mean it's 2015 darkiplier?😭

[lazyveran]

rereading my own work realising i need to make azula WAY more mean and cruel and nasty. sigh. the things i must do for evil women