#bpd sad split

[g0thicf0xskulls]

why can’t you just… be as in love with me as i am with you…

[bpderanged]

Whoever is praying for my downfall has got to stop because shit is working

[nightlongnight]

Main character syndrome? I think I actually have minor character syndrome: irrelevant, unecessary and dismissable. Only existing while other people do things that are more important.

[tezriaetho]

suic1de has been heavy on my heart lately

[athenas--ashes--777]

Watching other people get your dream life, being really genuinely happy for them, but also wondering when ur time will come and what u did wrong to deserve any of this

My heart is aching

[abodywithnosoul]

Why is everything so heavy? 😖

[prettyfukinalone]

Go ahead and convince yourself you’re innocent

That kind of guilt would eat me alive too

[biblicallycorrectangelvenom]

Nothing I do matters

[adustoflove]

Having bpd to me is like I'm the loneliest person on the planet, no matter how many people I talk to, no matter how many connections I make or have, I'm a lonely void who will die alone. I have to be talking to someone or with someone every second of every minute of every day. I love people so much, I need people. There's so many people out there with different things to teach you. And then, if I have to talk to one person for more than 6 seconds today, I'll kill them. I'll kill myself. I need to be left alone for the rest of the day, I need no one but myself to be happy. I don't want to partake in anything with anyone because it's all draining and taking out of my alone time. Everyone is the same, they're all boring and self-absorbed. Every conversation feels like I'm forcing myself to be actively present. I just want to be alone in my room with nothing or no one. I don't see a future where I'm happy with anyone other than being by myself.

[tezriaetho]

should’ve taken the chance to unalive myself

[lyrics4angels]

i dont want to know you again. i just want to hear you say sorry.

[bloomdoom1]

I wonder what I look like in your eyes

[prettyfukinalone]

I’m such a piece of shit tbh.

[bleedspink]

rotting fruit

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they liked me better
when i didn’t understand.
when my thighs were still growing
and my mouth was too scared to say no.
when innocence clung to my skin
like something they had the right to ruin.

they called me mature for my age
with teeth in their smiles—
like they were doing me a favor
by looking.
by touching.
by naming me beautiful
before i knew what beauty cost.

i was a prize to unwrap
before i even bloomed,
a secret they could keep
so long as i kept quiet.

and i did.
i smiled.
i played the part.
felt wanted.
felt powerful.
felt sick.

and now—
now that i know better,
now that my body is mine,
now that i walk like i own it—
they look away.
they don’t want women who know.
they want girls
who don’t understand
what’s being stolen.

no one lingers now.
no one whistles.
no one tells me i’m worth the rot.

i am too old to be their fantasy,
too sharp,
too loud,
too aware.

but let them choke
on the silence they left behind.
let them ache
for the fruit they bruised,
for the girl they devoured
and left hollow.

she lives in me now.
and she remembers everything.

[tenaciousearthquakenightmare]

I keep checking the phone hoping I’ll see your name, but it’s never you. Each time I pick up that phone my hopes die a little more

[harmful-tropes]

Please let me die

Please

Please

Please

I can't handle myself anymore