#i wish i could explain it

[inkskinned]

your work matters, and you're not a very good judge of it.

you can have the fancy degrees and the years of experience. you can have zero idea what you're doing and nothing but a song in your heart. the way you view what you write will never be how i view what you write. which is why you gotta write whatever feels real and good and honest to ya.

i forgot this. it's really lonely to be an author. the world you slice through to carve into a page - it can't ever be fully realized. sometimes the sun is butter yellow, and i can never spread it onto toast to serve to you. i can never describe fully the feeling of a new england october, only that a place that is often too-cold is suddenly full of a strange and visceral warmth. if you're not a writer or an artist, the experience is like this: take a flower and study it. without eating it, cook me a meal that tastes like this flower.

so i didn't know how good the book is, only that i hoped beyond a hope that anyone out there might get a kick out of it. maybe someone nice will review it every few days, i thought. i just want it to help any 1 person.

i did a reading recently where far too many people were kind and thoughtful and so gentle with me that i got into my car and burst into tears. i've had a very rough year, and this experience felt like a hug. so many people telling me they love what i read from the book. and in it, listening to the laughter as i read - at jokes i have long since stopped thinking are funny - it sent a bird straight through my heart. oh shit, i thought. i've been so unnecessarily cruel to myself.

you have no idea how many people read your work and don't respond because they are too shy or busy or unsure. i have webcomics i've never commented on that i've been checking on weekly for actual years. there are artists on spotify i will never be able to see in concert. there are paintings in galleries that i couldn't afford but wanted to kiss. i love what you have made, and i have no idea how to tell you. i love you, and it hurt me and helped me and also sent me back home. i wish there was more time and more ways to shine the light back to you.

be gentle. you have no way of knowing if you're good enough, so you might as well make something that feels good to make. someone will love it. and that love is never wasted.

[demodraws0606]

Wait I just realised, if q!Quackity died and GGN are gonna "die" today, will they go to the afterlife ???

Are we gonna see what the afterlife is like on the QSMP

[cherrywinebyhozier]

can't tell if i want him or want to look like him

[unfortunate--moth]

Haven't read much cannibalism but the themes and metaphors are fascinating, especially when paired with yaoi/yuri and perhaps co-dependent relationships

- Milgranon

YOU GET IT!!

its something i want to dissect. its not really an au/trope/etc that i seek out often, but every time i think about it it's weird how fascinating it is i guess. i especially love when it's metaphorical and tied in with codependent themes and separation anxiety.

its also weird how i like these themes more when it's a. non straight couple. that might have another meaning behind it but i have no idea what that could be.

[bunnieswithknives]

As much as I love angst I think it would be funny if he just didnt give af

[10minuta]

I

26 AUG 2023 | Fall Out Boy performing "Uma Thurman" at FanDuel FanFest! (Philadelphia PA)

[spoopdeedoop]

idk if u did a tut abt this already, but how do u draw digigrade legs? :3

[the-preachersdaughter]

I feel like getting him pregnant with my babies every time I look at him.

[sunlight-shunlight]

anyway i think i got more followers since the last time i mentioned this! and it is one of the funniest parts of dai, to me. everyone needs to know about the temple(?) jail(?) where solas pretends to be illiterate

"indecipherable" yeah. i'm sure.

[plentyghosts]

"Gabe's not real you can't feel bad for a manifestation of grief" have you considered that maybe I feel bad for the child he represents? You know, the baby who never got a chance to be the boy Diana envisions him as?

[pavlov-sdog]

I may have watched severance

My two favorite things are combining my interests and drawing over things. Sue me. Anyways am I crazy or is Adler less horrible in Bell’s “memory” (for the 30 seconds we see him that is)

[ratassium]

Them

[claraoswalds]

#mrs flood who are you: time lord edition

[ughtwigs]

i keep thinking about this shot in Conclave, the way the cross/church is in the dark and at Lawrence's back, but the light is shining on Benitez...

[aroaceleovaldez]

reminder that the only reason the "ADHD is actually demigod BATTLE STRATEGIES" and "dyslexia is DEMIGOD BRAINS HARDWIRED FOR ANCIENT GREEK" things exist in the PJO universe is because it's a very direct reference to early 2000s teaching/parenting techniques for neurodiverse and disabled children, which aimed to frame childrens' disabilities and hardships as a "superpower" or strength so that the children would feel more positively about their disabilities or situations. This technique has fallen out of favor since then for the most part since more often than not it just results in kids feeling as though their struggles are not being seen or taken seriously.

Yes, demigods are adhd/dyslexic (and sometimes autistic-coded) in the series. This is extremely important and trying to remove it or not acknowledge it makes the entire series fall apart because it is such a core concept. Yes, canon claims that their adhd/dyslexia is tied to some innate abilities, which is based on an outdated methodology. It's important to acknowledge that and understand where it comes from! But please stop trying to apply it to other pantheons in the series like "oh, the romans have dyscalculia because of roman numerals!" or "the norse demigods have dysgraphia for reasons!" - it's distasteful at best.

A better option is to acknowledge the meta inspiration for why that exists in the series, such as explaining potentially that Chiron was utilizing that same teaching methodology to try and help demigods feel more comfortable with their disabilities and they aren't literal powers. In fact, especially given Frank, there's implication that being adhd/dyslexic isn't a guaranteed demigod trait, which means it's more likely to be normally inherited from their godly parent/divine ancestor as a general trait, not a power, and further supports the whole "ADHD is battle strategy" thing being non-literal. It also implies the entire greco-roman pantheon in their universe is canonically adhd/dyslexic - and that actually fits very well with the themes of the first series. The entire central conflict of the first series fits perfectly as an allegory about neurodiverse/disabled children and their relationships with their undiagnosed neurodiverse/disabled parents and trying to find solutions together with their shared disability/disabilities that the kid inherited instead of becoming distant from each other (and this makes claiming equivalent to getting a diagnosis which is a fascinating allegory! not to mention the symbolism of demigods inheriting legacies and legends and powers from their parents and everything that comes with that being equivalent to inheriting traits, neurodiversity, and disabilities from your parents).

anyways neurodiversity and disability and the contexts in which the series utilizes representation of those experiences particularly during the 2000s symbolically within the narrative is incredibly important to the first series and the understanding of what themes it means to represent. also if i see one more "the romans have dyscalculia instead of dyslexia" post in 2023 i'm gonna walk into the ocean.

[paunchsalazar]

rereading Fool's Errand