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Cyberpunk 2077 is awful and I'm tired of people insisting it's not. I miss the bugs, they were fun, they made the game somewhat entertaining. Well, I shouldn't say I miss them. I've tried playing this garbage fire even after the release of Phantom Liberty I still haven't had an experience playing the game without some disruptive bug or glitch occurring. They aren't as all consuming anymore but it seems something at the very core of this digital rotten lasagna is fundamentally broken.
The story is shallow. Characters are introduced and die too fast and often for me to really give a shit. The best example is Jacky. Not only is he the earliest but he's clearly the one the game wants me to be the most upset about but why? Most of the character development between V and Jacky happens via montage and after that he's barely around until his insanely predictable death. He feels like a somehow more underwritten Fast and Furious character.
But who cares. A good game can survive a shallow and unintersting story. Is the gameplay fun? No.
Its trying to desperately to create the same sandbox experience as GTA without nearly the amount of variety that makes GTA fun to playa me explore. The world is empty, 99% of weapons all feel the same, the shallow gimmicks thrown into the weapon pool like tech guns or mantis blades hardly have any impact, there's not much reason to experiment with your load out. And with such a bare world there's not much reason to want to.
And the RPG mechanics... Calling them that feels like an insult to RPGs. They're somehow worthless and overpowered simultaneously. In regular gameplay you'll rarely if ever notice their presence, while in stealth they render the game downright trivial. You turn off people's fucking eyeballs in stealth, just turn them off. If you wanna play easy mode regardless of difficulty, just build into stealth.
The games messaging might just be the worst part. It's so backwards and inconsistent I can't tell if any message was actually intended at all. The game clearly wants you to believe it's making some statement but constantly tries to contradict itself. The game tells you cyberpsychosis can be treated and repeatedly reinforces to you the people experiencing it aren't in control of their own actions, but you still beat them to a pulp anyways. You basically kill them but nicer and without the game telling you their dead so despite the fact you shot bullets at them until they ragdolled don't worry it's different this time, they're FIIIIIIIIIIINE. No opportunity to de-escalate the situation, no trying to talk them through this, no anything one might actually do when trying to help someone experiencing a mental break.
But when fucking ROBOT CARS are going ballistic that's when you talk them down and a have a heart to heart? With fucking Cars? CARS?!
I wanted to like this game. I went into every gameplay session hoping to enjoy this game. I repeatedly open mindedly entered this game and made serious attempts to find something to enjoy about it. But I can't. Everyone endlessly praises this game as a masterpiece, I've seen it in so many "BEST [GAME GENRE] OF ALL TIME" lists, even from sources I actually respect the opinions of otherwise and it makes me feel like I'm taking crazy pills every time I boot up this irredeemably dog shit waste of gigabytes.
How in the hell does this game have such a good reputation when there doesn't seem to be even a single lone redeemable aspect of it. Even things I just don't have the energy to discuss, the boring design of the open world that feels like the most cookie cutter, by the numbers cyberpunk aesthetic I've ever seen, the characters designs that range from boring to characters like Adam Smashers who are such walking garbage piles it'd make a Micheal Bay cybertronian blush, it's just so unbelievably bad....
What an insult to the entire cyberpunk genre, both the game itself and the undeserved praise...
Edit: Haven't watched edgrunners, not going to
#Gaming#Rant#cyberpunk#not gonna tag 2077#if you like it that's fine obviously#but im tired of giving this trash heap chances#and no im not gonna buy phantom liberty#why would i pay for more of the game i already hate?#i don't care if Idris Elba's impossibly sexy voice is in it#fps#rpg#fandom#overrated#seriously im not sure the term overrated has ever been so applicable#hate#hate post#bad games#like actually really fucking bad games#development hell leads to yet another steaming pile of dogshit#worst game of the year it launched#unquestionably#not really a discussion#just ranting#feel free to try and change my mind ig#but you'll be fighting an extremely steep uphill battle against my actual experience playing it#genuinely didnt go in in bad faith#i never WANT to hate a game#generally im much more fogiving of “bad” games than most people#its difficult to get me to this point#and yet when one actually does it it's one everybody loves
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Do you have any plans on drawing twice-cursed Lyle in your "things that crawl? au? If he does indeed get twice-cursed?
Nnnot entirely sure if this is the final design I'll stick with but heres something
#The idea for Lyle was like. Leg rib cage. Leg guts. idk. he's less fixed and just more rearranged#Lyle so difficult for me idk why Im never satisfied by my designs for him so its kinda hard to adapt that#I think its funny to imagine that the Visitor has a really skewed view of certain body parts bcs its main pov of human biology is Sam#Who is missing a limb has differently colored eyes and has a mouth shape nobody else has#ALSO minor Sam redesign! not rlly too noticable but I was getting bored with the way I was drawing it#I might see if I can find a way to fuse legs more without it looking stupid so its more reasonable for the Visitor to think its fine.#Lyle keeps the abdomen a little cause he looks dumb and off balance without it but I might see if I can get rid of that too idk#Ooooh wait I could go with the Mental Map justification again. I really like that actually..#Spending nearly 2 weeks as big spider.. you have to start recognizing that as your own body at some point#but he still of course remembers himself as human. So when the Visitor turns him back into what he thinks he should look like#its this clusterfuck of both. Punished for coming to terms with his own body.....#look outside spoilers#look outside game#look outside#things that crawl AU#art#fanart#digital art
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as i work on this series i just want to thank u all for all of the kind words + support!! i truly did not expect my art to reach so many people and to provide the comfort and love it does :,-) eager to get back to drawing unicorns for yall and happy pride! <3
#my art#super doodley but i hope the point still reaches!!!#NOT to get too personal but i had a tremendously difficult start to the year (very poor mental health) and it genuinely had me questioning#everything i did. including art. there was a lot of imposter syndrome. i am very fortunate to be doing a LOT better.#seeing how happy this series makes people has just revitalized my love for creating art :'-) like ya this is the entire point!!! to make#people feel happy and seen!!! its the kindest most softest feeling there is.#so truly from the bottom of my heart thank u guys!!! tomorrow i will be doing sapphic and achillean unicorns ^_^
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embrace durge was also really stupid to me because. again. alongside the Primary Conflict being completely absent from that route. if you're not particularly bothered by doing evil playthroughs your character is literally just having the best time of their life like durge is having a fucking ball
#makes for a really hysterical slapstick comedy movie ill give them thhat#i understand that the embrace run having more benefits is like. the point#but it just felt? kind of shallow?#like. it reminds me of fable 3 where your 2 options were to be a super good virtuous angel or a Horrible Evil Tyrant#and the gimmick was actually the good route gets you the bad ending while the evil route gets you the good ending#(unless you used the landowner time travel exploit. which was hysterical i actually have no notes)#which it sounds interesting on paper but in practice it just took like. all personal motivation out of the equation#ok so being evil means i'll have a big prosperous kingdom and everyone survives and we do not go into the void#w...wheres the drawback....#its just entirely dependent on the player feeling pixel guilt In The Moment as they do the evil decision#you know what im saying. like in comparison theres undertales genocide route right#where doing the evil thing actually has a visible impact on the environment#that might make you think twice if you're playing purely pragmatically#you lose out on a bunch of merchants the battles are SUBSTANTIALLY more difficult#it even causes an irreversible impact on any future run you might have#embrace durge just feels like the random ''sell fenris to slavery?'' option if it was over 100 hours long#not da#bg3
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Hiii! I hope this ask doesn’t come off as rude or pushy but I just have some questions about your opinion on Rick Riordan since I’m new the space of author critiquing.
I guess I’ll add I’m pretty young and a bit sensitive when it comes to things I like, so I automatically assumed since you post so much PJO content you liked his writing. But based on some of your posts, was I wrong? Again, I don’t want to sound pushy, I’m just new to being critical and honest when it comes to authors I like and would like to know your opinion on Rick Riordan specifically. Is he a bad writer? I just got wrath of the triple goddess and I’m not sure if I want to read it based on some of your posts.
Entirely focusing on writing itself and not the content within: I like Rick's old writing. His style when writing first series is dramatically different from his newer material, which I feel has significantly dropped in quality. A lot of the newer stuff feels very unpolished and gratuitous (towards the audience for marketing purposes, not his own interests) and he has a serious bathos problem that stunts the majority of the humor and sincerity that once existed in the franchise - and often severely gets in the way of a lot of attempts at inclusion and representation, to its detriment. Not to mention how condescending it feels towards the reader/presumed audience. It's also very clear he's trying to riff off of his previous success, including directly lifting previous sections and minorly rewriting them to try and achieve the same effect (not in a call-back manner, but just copying his own work).
I won't say his old writing is like, my 100% favorite or the end-all-be-all of literature. I have plenty of authors whose writing is more something that I think is structurally admirable. But Rick's original series writing is good! It became a pop culture staple for a reason! But the quality has dipped so severely as the series progress that it's hard to ignore and it's becoming increasingly difficult to enjoy the books for me because of this. Particularly very recent books like TSATS to me are so excessively full of simple structural errors and similar that it's baffling to me how it even got published or how we got here.
I think out of his post-first series writing, his works I've enjoyed the most are MCGA and Demigods of Olympus - particularly leaning towards the latter. It's simple but very enjoyable to me. TKC to me is mostly fine and enjoyable, and HoO is Just Okay. TOA is tolerable. TSATS and the marketing trilogy though are kind of unbearable for me.
I do love the franchise as a whole and it means a lot to me, which is exactly why I feel so strongly about the drop-off in quality recently. It feels like an insult to something I love and know can be better and has been better in the past - not from a personal perspective, but from as much of an unbiased perspective I can give as someone who has studied writing. So if he's a "bad writer" in general is kind of up to discretion i suppose.
#pjo#riordanverse#rick riordan#rr crit#ask#straightasaaro#unfortunately it's difficult for me to articulate a lot of specifics#i literally have a condition that makes it difficult for me to articulate concepts/description :( which is very ironic for how much i yap#so forgive me for not being able to describe it better#its curious how he's shifted writing styles cause it definitely feels like he's shifting it because of presumed audience#but the presumed audience hasn't actually changed? his target demographic is exactly the same#there's just been a shift in how he views that target demographic#and a shift in his intent with how he's writing#which is interesting and i personally suspect that's due to him being further removed from being a teacher#and because his kids are adults now so he no longer has a direct connection to his audience#so his perception of his audience is getting skewed further from before#audience in question being middle grade readers#which is actually why i like to point people towards animorphs because i think part of it is also a cultural shift at least in publishing#towards a popular ''style'' in writing in general but also attitudes towards middle grade publishing in particular#versus that like 90s-2000s publishing style you see with Animorphs and PJATO#cause animorphs is technically is aimed for younger middle grade! so leaning a bit younger than PJO's target demographic!#and that makes sense! the animorphs books are really short and written in simple language! but they handle the writing so differently!#particularly pacing and themes. its all very interesting.
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I had a shrink appointment today and while I could not see it I knew my doc was going through the five stages of grief while I explained my fool proof strategy for doing my t shots despite a crippling fear of needles: By abusing my vastly more crippling fear of being an inconvenience.
My mother and I play phasmophobia together every week. she usually has a pretty limited time to do this bc she's like. a doctor and a college professor whos always busy. So I asked her to just. hold me to doing them. We don't start playing until the shot is done. so my needle fear doesn't matter because now it's Wasting™ her time and I have to do it quick. Using one neurosis to defeat another.
It's a horrible coping mechanism because it's feeding the inconvenience fear, but it is definitionally a coping mechanism.
#im a 'has a panic attack during every injection or iv theyve ever gotten' type of scared of needles#no it genuinely has nothing to do with pain the needle itself is the fear not the using of it#like i told this story before but i have these sewing pins with lil bow ties on them and i had to get my dad to take all the blue ones out#because they were triggering the same part of my brain iv needles do#just the sight of them with the rest of my cute sewing pins was a problem#And the fear of being an inconvenience is so bad i cant eat around people or be in crowded spaces or talk at get togethers#without being paralyzed by fear of Being In The Way. its so bad ive been avoiding using my power chair bc it makes me take up#slightly more space than i would just standing. and i never took my manual out and about because i moved too slowly in it#and i dont take my crutches on planes despite using them everyday bc they cant fold up like my cane can and so are In The Way#one of the big reasons i dont use the chairs in stores is they have back up alarms. and i hate making noises in public#Yes this is part of the reason i want a Rottweiler for my service dog because i want people to look at the doggie Not Me.#I like people! i like being friendly and talking and making little connections with strangers!!! But i cant be the one to initiate or#be In The Way of a peaceful moment#dont look at me#this is also a big issue i have with making friends or changing the nature of a relationship because like. im autistic#I have Rules for social interactions memorized that i will follow. but moving people from one category to another#is difficult. It is too the point i had problems for litteral years talking to my boyfriend as though#he was a person i knew well and cared deeply for because i kept using the 'rando guy im flirting with on the Internet' script#I have commissioners i want to be friendlier with but my brain says No Stop that is an Impolite and Overly informal way to talk to#a customer™ despite them not being customers when they arnt in the commission process#im like thise huskies who are scared of carpet because its Different than the floor they're currently standing on#its Too different:(#and to be clear i am Completely aware of how none of this makes logical sense and is in fact deeply self destructive#That does not fix it. it is so ingrained in my head that im certain i could convince my brain to let me bite off my own fingers#before i could convince it to let me talk to someone at a help desk or ask my order be corrected at a restaurant
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WAIT SHUROS DAD SAID HE WANTED HIM TO BRING SOMETHING BACK INTERESTING.... AND WHO IS MORE INTERESTING THAN LAIOS....
#he also cited lack of flexibility in thinking. so surely the solution is shuro realising u can like men..........#wait... wait imagine. this wasnt the point of the post but everyone imagine with me#fake dating au but not on purpose shuro Does bring back the fucking king of the risen golden kingdom#but his dad takes it as him bringing his significant other back and says he wins#and laios goes But thats not-#and shuro claps his hand over his mouth like Wait a minute.#and when he gets back everyone agrees its the dumbest thing he could have done#im torn between chilchuck laughing or screaming at him. and kabru straight up murdering him#i dont know if itll be a recreation of the laios proximity disgust meter#or he comes back to a party popper exploding in his face with the banner Congrats on your marriage!#maybe both#god it is so difficult to come up with a ship name for them#but i need to. even if im just populating the tag with my screaming#laishuro????? maybe????#they dont have a lot of overlapping letters...#ok laishuro is free and also this is the only post that comes up if u search it here. weve done it lads#laishuro#dungeon meshi#will that even show up in the tags anymore. im a fool
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i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you
#im reading that post that says artists are directors of audience reaction and not its dictator:#'you cannot guarantee that everyone viewing your work will react as you are trying t make them react. a good artist knows that this is what#allows work to breath. by definition you cannot have art where the viewer brings nothing to the table ... this is why you have to let go of#the urge to plainly state in text exactly how you think the work should be interpreted ... its better to be misinterpreted sometimes than#to talk down to your audience. you wont even gain any control that way; people will still develop their opinions no matter what you do#im thinking abt this again cuz i was thinking maybe the thing that lets adventure time work so well the way it does is cuz it doesnt#take itself too seriously that it gives the audience enough room to fuck with subtext and then fuck with them back yknow. i think it was#mentioned somewhere that they werent even planning to run with the postapocalyptic elements that are hinted in the show but changed their#mind after the one off with the frozen businessmen and dominoed into marcy and simons backstory. on the other side there are stories that#explain too much to let the story speak for itself and i think it ends up having to do more with the crew trying to lead ppl in a certain#direction than expand on what they have and i see a lot of this with miraculous. like when interviews and tweets are used as word of god in#arguments and it becomes a little stifling to play around with it knowing the creator can just interject. u can say its the crews effort to#engage with its audience but it feels more like micromanaging. and none of this is to say there ISNT room for stories that spell things out#theyre just suited for different things. if sesame street tried abstract approaches to themes and nuance itd be counterproductive#a lot of things fly over my head so i need help picking things apart to get it- but it doesnt have to be from the story itself. ive picked#picked up or built on my own interpretations listening to other ppl share their thoughts which creates conversation around the same thing#sometimes stories will spell things out for you without being so obvious abt it that it feels like its woven into the text. my fav example#for this might be ATLA using younger characters as its main cast but instead of feeling like its dumbed down for kids to understand why war#is bad its framed from a childs point of view so younger audiences can pick up on it by relating to the characters. maybe an 8 year old#wont get how geopolitics works but at least they get 'hey the world is a little more complicated than everyone vs. fire nation'. same for#steven universe bc its like theyre trying to describe and put feelings into words that kids might not have so they have smth to start with#especially with the metaphors around relationships bc even if it looks unfamiliar as a kid now maybe the hope is for it to be smth you can#look back to. thats why it feels like these shows grew up with me.. instead of saving difficult topics for 'when im ready for it'#as if its preparing me for high school it gave me smth to turn in my hands and revisit again and again as i grow. stories that never#treated u as dumb all along. just someone who could learn and come back to it as many times as u need to. i loved SU for the longest time#but i felt guilty for enjoying it hearing the way ppl bash it. bc i was a kid and thought other ppl understood it better than me and made#feel bad for leaning into the message of paying forward kindness and not questioning why steven didnt punish the diamonds or hold them#accountable. but im rewatching it now and going oh. i still love this show and what it was trying to teach me#yapping#diary
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woah molly how’d you do that. rambly in the tags
#gonna try workin on this animation again. soooon.#meant to finish it for the 5th anniversary but since it passed i was like ‘what is the point then!!!’#the point is that itd be awesome idiot#i just keep getting the. brain animatic curse that makes me hop to new projects yakno#this is my first lineless/coloured anim#difficult and different but fun in its own way. yummy colours forever#i want to put actual meaning into it. i wanna ramble ab the details#i will do that after its done though. bc i like to see people speculate ab the meaning of things!!#its funn heart emoji#sometimes there is meaning in art that wasn’t put there by the artist but can be seen by others#and that is so cool. i love art#anyway. ill post snippets of this as i continue working on it probably#molly blyndeff#wip#animation#please notice the hair doinker go boing. thanks
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The interesting experience of being pro Sasuke, anti konoha, pro tobirama, anti Naruto ending, pro Sasusaku, anti Itachi, pro Sakura, anti SasuNaru, pro Tobirama×Izuna, anti Madara, pro karin, anti Orochimaru, pro Uchiha and anti Hashirama. And also as much as I hate the guy danzo was kind of hot when he was younger...
#I FEEL ITS VERY IMPORTANT TO SAY THAT I COMPLETELY RESPECT SNS TO THE ULTIMATE DEGREE AND I AGREE WITH THEIR SHIPPERS ON MOST THINGS#BUT THE SHIP STILL KINDA PISSES ME OFF IDK WHY IM SORRY IT JUST RUBS ME THE WRONG WAY I HAVE TRIED TO LOVE IT I REALLY HAVE BUT I CANT#AND MADARA HAD SOME GOOD POINTS BUT I THINK ITS SHITTY THAT HE ABANDONED HIS CLAN AND THEN PLOTTED THE END OF THE FUCKING WORLD#ALSO ITACHI HAD LIKE OTHER OPTIONS!???? WHY THE FUCK DID HE TORTURE SASUKE TWICE LIKE 😭😭😭#WHAT WAS THE POINT MY G WHY ARE YOU TORTURING HIM I THINK THE MENTAL IMAGE OF THEM DYING WAS ENOUGH DIDNT NEED TO GIVE HIM 500000 EXAMPLES#WE AS A SOCIETY DO NOT TALK ENOUGH ABOUT THE FACT THAT WHEN MADARA ASKED HASHIRAMA TO EITHER KHS OR KILL TOBIRAMA#TOBIRAMA GENUINELY THOUGHT FOR A MOMENT THAT HASHIRAMA WOULD GO AFTER HIS THROAT FOR LIKE- THIS GUY WHO HE USED TO THROW STONES WITH!???#ITS SO DIFFICULT TO FIND PEOPLE WHO UNDERSTAND SASUKES TRAUMA AND WHO LIKES SASUSAKU 😭😭#COS LIKE ILL 100% ADMIT THAT THE RELATIONSHIP WAS WRITTEN SHITILY AND SUCKED AND DESPITE THE FACT THAT THEYRE SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE BROTHERS#SNS HAS BETTER WRITING THAN SSK OR NRHN SOMEHOW???? ITS WRITTEN SO WELL PEOPLE GENUINELY BELIEVE THE ORIGINAL PLOT HAD SNS PLANNED#BUT ALSO SAKURA IS SO SILLY AND STRONG AND DID ANY OF YOU READ SASUKE RETSUDEN “Trapped by a body he knew perfectly”#OKAY SASUKE YOURE ON A MISSION??? CALM THE FUCK DOWN 😭😭#NO AND IN LIKE SSK FICS SASUKE IS SOME BAD BOY WHO JUST SMIRKS AND IS EMOTIONLESS AND SAKURA IS SOOOOO EMOTIONAL FUCK OFF YOU TWATS!!!!#SASUKE IS THE KITTEN!! SAKURA SO OBVIOUSLY RADIATES DADDY ENERGY YALL ARE FUCKING INSANE!!!#WHY DO WE GET KITTEN SASUKE IN EVERY OTHER SHIP BUT THE FUCKING CANON ONE!! AT MY FUCKING!!!! LIMIT!!!#FIND SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS THE COMPLEXITYS OF SASUKES CHARACTER AND UNDERSTANDS WHAT TRAUMA DOES TO A PERSON YET DOESNT HATE SSK CHALLENG#Uh oh I went a bit mad there hahaha#I REGRET NOTHING SASUKE DID NOTHING WRONG SAKURA IS GIRL BOSS AND THE NARUTO WORLD IS EITHER UNEXPLAINABLY VIOLENT OR FAR TOO FORGIVING#naruto#naruto shippuden#itachi uchiha#pro sasuke#haruno sakura#Pro Sakura#Sasuke Uchiha#sasuke did nothing wrong#It looks awkward to just go from all those long tags to the iddy bitty ones#Moldy-flowers#Kitten and daddy? Tf am i on about I've been watching too much game grumps shi 😭😭
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I'm 21 now!! Here is a celebratory animation meme uwu
#my art#digital art#animation#meme#animation meme#art#drawings#drawing#capcut#tweening#circle circle dot dot#birthday#its my birthday#im 21 and im still alive#i fought with that damn app for 3 days#its been difficult and i hope it gets better from this point#also i have to get my first fillings tomorrow#which is insanely funny to me#birthday then next day im at the dentist
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#it's strange to have a self contained perfectionism. i know other people who wish they could control other people out of being chaotic.#people who try to make everything black or white. people who want to always be in control of their situation and the big dangerous vehicles#they travel within. but that's not how my control issues manifest. i think people are allowed to be messy and irratic. i like when#situations and ideas are nuanced. i would rather not be in complete control of my surroundings. the only thing i need complete and utter#control of is myself. i am not allowed to be messy. i want everything about myself to be black or white. i want to have complete control of#this human vessel. my perfectionism is self contained. and its deeply irrational. and deeply frustrating because my perfectionism is#imperfect and lazy. because im getting better and its difficult but easier than i would have expected. and rationally i know thats a good#thing but then all i see is my lack of conviction. if i was more perfect i would be worse. if i was more perfect someone would have noticed#how sick i was or would have actually said or done something. someone would have stopped me. so i wasnt really that sick and im not really#that sick now. and its not a big deal. because it all seems so easy now. so it seems like i was just a slightly odd very quiet kid with#control issues who stopped eating and never learned how to take up any space. and i get so fucking frustrated at every doctor i talk to#because they all treat me so gently and talk to me so cautiously and i know thats their job and i know they're saying the right things. but#its not like i stumbled blindly into this. i did it intentionally and maliciously. i know its a road paved in suffering and ending in death.#that was the point. this wasnt born of vanity it was born of malice. and youre only worried now because im telling you to worry so shut the#fuck up and let me fix my own problem. its just that i never intended to make is this far and that me of the past was trying to poison my#future. so i have 15yrs curroded and spongy from wishing death upon myself. and now that the idea of my box of ashes sitting on my dad's#mantle next to my mom's rips me apart i have to find a new path forward. even when all i can think is that i still wish i was worse#resenting that i have to get better when it feels easier to be distructive. if you hand me a knife my instict is to twist it in my gut. so#what now? its just irritating. because i always was and remain a picky eater so i have to choose to choke down whats on my plate.#anyway. just another adventure in the eternal paradox of internal perfectionism while being a compulsively analytical ecologist.#unrelated
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hey, so we all are in agreement that if price, gaz, ghost, or soap die in mw3, we’re going to collectively ignore it ever happened right? great, glad we had this talk!
#activision could show me one of them getting shot point blank and i’d just be like#wow how ambiguous im glad to know he lived and came back home after recovering :D#gaz ? not dying. idc.#ghost ? not dying. idc.#soap? not dying. idc.#price? not dying. idc.#(its honestly difficult to imagine ghost surviving/not dying in combat because i feel like thats the only way he goes out)#(but idgaf hes living because i FUCKING SAID SO)#gaz isnt dying above all the others like i love the other 3 but GAZ IS NOT DYING.#call of duty#cod#cod mw3#my ramblings
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I got a little more done today!! I'm so excited for more of Joel! Been thinking about him!
I take such a long time building new OCs. Building his playlist definitely helps. How do you guys usually go about making characters?
#south park#south park oc#sp oc#my oc stuff#Joel Dauber#once again - *shoves a cowboy in your fandom*#I think I work backwards in creating characters#(and I know there is no written guide)#but I create the playlist before the personality.#i find a certain vibe in music and go from there#its how I was able to slip into role-playing as Ronnie so easily#Joel is a bit difficult for me#characters who tend to go through their “turning point” at a young age baffles me a little#boy had to grow up fast but before that he was an asshole#huge fucking dick; got into too many fights and was getting mixed up with things he shouldn't#that's a small part why his parents moved#ah but I'll yap about that when he's finished!#trying to find that balance of older than the main 4 but still young looking#he's only a year or two older#question tag readers: does he give you older brother vibes? does he look friendly enough?#also do not pay attention to those hands#I know they're fucky#I'll fix em later#BIG OL HANDS#Joel “Gorilla Hands” Dauber#lmao anyway; drink water - eat - take care of yourself! love you#wip hell#sp-growingpains
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rly feel like im cheating whenever i get my grades back for academic writing assessments in the sciences bc of my bachelors in politics and philosophy ..
#the comments r always like 'a real delight to read!' or 'a change of pace'#u rly do get so many points for like . not being as dull as rocks#they will give u such good grades if u just use like an adjective#just got 4.99/5 for smth worth 10% of my grade that i did in 20 mins#yay !#i hope that u read my posts on here n it is so discordant#u gotta understand i been going to war w the poor writing and comprehension of sciences kids everywhere#so much of chemistry was really really difficult of me bc the questions were written for shit#and the lecturer taught everything sooooo confusing#like just. grammatically -> confusing as fuck. incoherent.#bio is a little bit better for this but its a near fucking thing#and they dont value grammar like in general. or see the point in rephrasing. well i DO#science communication my beloved .. for someone else not for me
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fanart is so hard to draw. stupid characters having stupid details that are out of my stupid comfort zone AAAAAGH
#ITS A STRUGGLE#at least pretty much everything is stuff i already wanted to learn but had just been putting off for whatever reason (procrastination) but#first cotl making me draw furries. and then animal crossing making them more complicated (tom nook's nose confused me)#then gravity falls making me draw old people. and now in dbh i am facing the struggle of Markus's subtle facial hair because i cant get away#with just doing a gradient that goes halfway up the face like i did with gravity falls. because it wouldn't look right trust me ive already#tried out of sheer desperation it was horrible#AGH#and then theres the whole thing of translating other styles into yours. especially when thise styles have vastly different levels of detail#compared to yours so you have to decide what kind of details to add and what kind of details to get rid of and AAAAGHHGHHH#also dbh characters having no bangs. most of them anyway#PLEASE bangs are the only thing that can hide how bad i am at hairlines!!!!!!!!#but at least that part is easy to learn. i can draw connor. hes the easiest dbh character to draw probably#hank seems like he'll have easier facial hair than Markus considering hes got an actual beard and also the fact that i will be a lot less#scared if making him look old because well. he is old#i mean hes only the same age as my dad but like..#he looks old. all his hair is gray. unlike my dad. only half my dads hair is gray#anyways point is im grateful for how much drawing characters that are Not Mine has improved my art but its so difficult#i need to draw my ocs...... and then I'll get back to Markus#i say that as if i haven't been drawimg my ocs all day anyways#rambling in the tags#artist
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