#just like... be aware this is a long term goal for you (probably). it will probably take 1000+ hours

[rigelmejo]

I'm sure if this applies to you, then you've already figured it out. But just in case. If you are contemplating learning Japanese, starting to study Japanese, I highly recommend you look up 'how to learn a language' generally when you come up with your study plan. Or taking a beginner Japanese class in a school, or on a MOOC like Coursera. Or getting a textbook, and starting with that.

Just because, it would be a good idea to get a sense of what it is going to take to learn a language to the degree you wish to for your goals. Whatever goals those are: to pass the JLPT N1, to work in a specific company that requires a certain proficiency at specific skills, to read manga, to watch shows, to talk conversationally with people, to go to university in Japan, etc. It would be a good idea to look up in general, what things do you study in any language, to reach those goals. Which is generally reading, writing, speaking, listening, to different amounts of skill level (depending on your goals).

It's a good idea to get a sense of your personal goals, and the general things that need to be learned to reach those goals, before digging into what other learners of Japanese are doing.

Because...

1. There's a lot of people trying to sell products, or classes, who may not align with your personal goals, or may not teach all the skills you personally need to study to reach your personal goals.

2. There's a lot of people saying the way they studied is the ONLY good way to study, and many of these people will contradict each other... which can leave you confused about which is 'better' and what to do. The answer of course is, do what works for you. It may be what someone else is doing, or someone else, or what no one else is doing.

3. It may discourage you to see a lot of other beginners asking what to do, and also confused about the conflicting study plans and paid resources they're running into.

4. It's easy to get distracted, trying to chase the 'new best study method/study material' if you're constantly being marketed to, constantly being told X person studied Y way and it's 'better.' Consistency long term is your friend, consistency over time is how you'll make progress on your goals. Restarting study from the same beginner material, over and over, could just delay your progress. Find something that works for you, and stick with it.

Good enough IS good enough. You don't have to be perfect. You don't have to keep searching until you 'find' the perfect study method, or study materials. I know it's easy to fall into perfectionism. It's okay to not be a perfectionist. It's okay to do something good enough, that's working good enough, and just consistently do it.

[majikkulu]

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ PILE ONE the  person  coming  your  way  in  love  is  basically  a  force  of  nature.  full  of  fire  and  energy,  always  moving,  always  buzzing  with  excitement.  they’re  kinda  wild  and  spontaneous  like,  you  never  know  what  they’re  gonna  do  next.   it  can  be  a  lot  sometimes.  they  hate  staying  still  and  are  always  chasing  the  next  big  thrill.  focus  is  not  really  their  thing,  but  they  more  than  make  up  for  it  in  other  ways,  if  ykyk.  they’re  very  good  at  showing  their  passion.  i  sense  some  fire  vibes  from  them,  or  maybe  a  little  bit  of  that  emotional  cancer  energy  too.  they  know  exactly  what  they  want.  when  they’re  into  something  or  someone,  they  go  all  in.  they  chase  hard,  with  this  stubborn,  strong-willed  vibe  that  doesn’t  back  down  easily.  their  emotional  intensity  is  something  you  just  can’t  ignore.  once  they  set  their  eyes  on  you  or  a  goal,  they’re  laser-focused,  super  confident,  and  totally  aware  of  their  own  worth.  they’re  pretty  old-school  about  relationships  too  like,  they  wanna  protect,  provide,  and  make  things  feel  solid  and  safe.  there’s  probably  a  little  bit  of  control  freak  energy  hiding  out.  they  might  be  feeling  kinda  restless  or  bored  with  what’s  out  there  right  now,  not  totally  satisfied  emotionally.

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ PILE TWO this  person,  when  they  love,  they  go  all  in.  they  probably  show  it  through  thoughtful  gifts  or  just  really  being  there  for  you,  spending  quality  time.  they’re  the  type  who  actually  shows  up,  whether  you  need  emotional  backup  or  just  someone  reliable.  what  you  see  is  what  you  get.  they’ve  been  through  some  stuff.  maybe  some  heartbreak  or  feeling  left  out  before,  so  they’re  a  little  cautious  about  who  they  let  in.  they  have  a  big  heart,  but  they  want  to  know  you’re  on  the  same  page,  giving  as  much  as  they  do.  balance  is  everything  for  them.  they’re  probably  the  “date  to  marry”  type,  thinking  long  term,  planning  ahead  which  means  they  might  be  sizing  up  whether  you  fit  into  their  future  dreams.  they  might  hold  back  at  first,  just  figuring  out  if  you’re  really  the  one  worth  investing  in.  right  now?  maybe  they’re  dealing  with  some  tough  stuff  emotional  or  money  problems,  maybe  even  feeling  a  bit  lonely.  that  can  make  them  close  off  sometimes,  worried  about  getting  hurt  or  judged.  asking  for  help  isn’t  easy  for  them.  they’ll  take  care  of  you  for  real.  they’re  tuned  into  what  others  need  and  don’t  mind  giving  their  all  to  someone  who  matters.

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ PILE THREE so  this  person  is   as  real  as  it  gets.  no  sugarcoating.  they  care  about  truth,  even  if  it’s  kinda  tough  to  hear.  and  they  expect  you  to  be  just  as  upfront.  lying  or  playing  games  is  not  what  they  are  into.  they’re  too  sharp  and  smart  to  fall  for  any  fake  stuff.   sometimes  they  might  seem  a  little  distant  or  even  cold,  like  they’re  all  logic  and  no  feelings.  there’s  a  soft,  deep  emotional  side  tucked  under  all  that  too.  it  just  takes  a  bit  for  them  to  open  up.   talking  things  out  is  super  important  to  them.  they  want  honest,  clear  convos,  no  weird  hidden  agendas.  and  they’re  definitely  the  kind  of  person  who  values  hard  work  and  teamwork  like,  they  know  having  the  right  person  next  to  you  makes  all  the  difference.  they’re  probably  pretty  good  at  what  they  do,  maybe  from  work  or  school,  or  just  someone  you  vibe  with  on  that  level.  either  way,  you  two  probably  click  because  you  share  similar  values.  they  get  themselves  and  others  pretty  well.  they’re  not  the  type  to  rush  into  stuff.  they  take  their  time.

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ PILE FOUR the  person  coming  your  way  is  really  intense,  like  seriously  deep.  they’ve  been  through  some  big  stuff.  things  that  changed  how  they  see  the  world  entirely.  they’ve  shed  old  versions  of  themselves  a  bunch  of  times  and  now  they’re  just  raw.  you  might  have  to  stay  on  your  toes  a  bit  around  them.  they’re  a  hard  worker,  but  they  don’t  rush  things.  they  build  trust  slow  and  steady,  knowing  that  the  best  things  are  worth  waiting  for.  they  are  ready  to  put  in  the  effort  for  something  real  and  lasting.  they’re  not  about  flashy,  dramatic  gestures  instead,  they  show  love  through  small,  steady  actions  that  build  up  over  time.  loyalty  is  huge  for  them,  and  their  romantic  side  is  sincere,  even  if  it’s  subtle.  chances  are  they’re  creative  too,  maybe  into  art  or  some  kind  of  self-expression  that  helps  them  process  everything  going  on  inside.  they  love  deep  conversations  but  also  those  quiet  little  moments  that  just  make  you  feel  connected  and  cozy.  they  might  struggle  with  anger  or  frustration  sometimes.  it’s  part  of  what  makes  them  complex  and  interesting.  they’re  stunning  in  their  own  way  and  totally  confident  in  themselves.  they  don’t  need  anyone  else  to  complete  them.

[star-5truck]

A letter to you

Sypnosis:The final letter Dabi Touya sent you before the final battle.

Pairing :T. Todoroki x Reader

Two posts in a day? Its a miracle lowk

Dear [Name],

    By the time this letter reaches you, I’ll probably be dead. I plan on making sure this arrives unscathed at your side, since I’m aware you’d still be in a coma when it arrives. I’m a little disappointed I won’t get to see your pretty face on the battlefield, but it’s better than you getting hurt. To start off, I ask you to forgive me for everything. I know I wasn’t the one who put you in your state, but I still apologize for that nonetheless.

Now, this letter isn’t for me to apologize like some beggar. I just want you to know my thoughts. I’d rather I not die without giving you a clear conscience. I know when I left that night without a word it hurt you. You really shouldn’t forgive an asshole like me, I hurt you in ways words can’t describe when you’ve been nothing but understanding towards me. So, I hope that through this letter, you get to understand me more. Because in the one hundred thirty-six days, three minutes, and five seconds we’ve known each other, I never really opened up to you.

The first time I met you, I thought you were a lunatic. I was injured, on the brink of death, and about to pass in peace but then I saw you. I thought that ‘this is it; I die to the hands of some hero without putting up a fight.’ Yet my demise never came. You took care of my injuries, brought me to your home and treated me like a human being.

What hero tries to talk it out with a villain? Newsflash, you, apparently. I’d like to inform you that you have not changed my views on heroes at all. I still believe they are all self-serving assholes that don’t care about anything other than themselves. I loathe them all… except you. If anyone is going to make the hero society a better place, it’s going to be you.

I don’t think the hero commission took it well when they found out we were having rendezvous’, eh? I always told ya we’d get caught one day. I knew that if I stayed, you’d be in bigger trouble than you already were. I truly believe it was for the better good when I left you that night. Yet with that being said, I’ll never regret meeting up with you every now and then.

You were definitely one of the good things in this hell. I haven’t found myself enjoying someone’s company in a long time. You’re some sort of blessing- to me and the world. I’m not super religious myself, but if there is some God out there, I’m real grateful they made you a part of my life. I haven’t been good enough for the God’s to respond to me, but for some reason they sent me you and I don’t plan on letting you go.

But that’s a lie and we both know it. Technically- I am letting you go. I’ve done it multiple times, actually. Kept pushing you away again and again but you kept coming back. Why is that?

I don’t deserve a soul as kind as yours. You were my light in the darkness, or however the saying goes. I think somewhere along the way I dimmed that light. There are times where not even the brightest of lights work. It’s not your fault, anyway. Because you did get rid of the emptiness I’ve always felt. I ruined myself on my own terms. I’ve always been fucked from the start.

You almost succeeded with your goal on changing me. When you told me to hide away with you? I almost caved in. To tell you the truth, I could never say no to you. You’re everything to me, minus the L.O.V, but they aren’t important right now. You are the one place I’d call home.

It is incredibly selfish for me to say that I’d like to keep you at my side forever. I bring pain wherever I go, and you- dear hero, are too kind to be treating a villain like this. I’d rather you hate me than going off and trying to save me. We both know I’m too far gone. Nonetheless, I appreciate the fact you thought I was capable of change. At some point, you made me believe it, too.

You’ll be the only thing I’m going to miss after I’m gone- that and crashing at your place. The time I’ve spent with you is something I’ll cherish, which we know is rare coming from me. You’d be the seven minutes before my death. I would’ve loved to run away and hide with you, [Name]. You saved me in every way possible. But I am driven by hate that even I can’t escape. I will do anything it takes to take down Endeavor, even if it means bringing down myself with him.

So, for the first and the last time, I love you, [Name].

Love, Touya Todoroki.

[onepieceisreeeeaaalll]

𝗦𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮 𝗙𝗮𝗺𝗶𝗹𝘆 - 𝗭𝗼𝗿𝗼 𝘅 𝗙𝗲𝗺!𝗥𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿

Hey, hey! Here's another contribution from the drafts. I meant to get this out earlier but I've been overthinking it haha. I'm still new to writing smut and I tend to write and rewrite, not to mention I've only just recently picked up writing again after years of doing it intermittently. I'll probably do what I always do and edit it for redundancies, mistakes, etc. This is almost pure NSFW but I did add a little prelude and a fluffy ending. Nothing crazy. Hope you enjoy!

CW: NSFW!! Gendered terms for reader (female); breeding kink; creampie; p in v; mention of overstimulation; use of term 'daddy'; actual talk of starting a family

~1.9K words

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Zoro wants kids. You wouldn't think it, given his typical demeanor, the way he interacts with kids, the big goals he has for his life. He's always liked the idea of little children running around, though - sparring with them, arguing, playing games, and telling stories. Yeah, Zoro wants kids. A family.

So, when you laugh at a comment Sanji makes in disgust about ‘a bunch of stupid green-haired babies popping out of you,' you have to do a double-take at Zoro's response. 

“Yeah? What's so funny about that?”

You blink, a stupid smile still stuck on your face from when you were keeling over at Sanji's remarks. The laughter slowly dies, though, as you start to process his words. There’s something deadly serious about Zoro’s tone that makes your smile fade.

“Wait, what?” You ask, your attention fully turned towards the grumpy demeanor of your boyfriend sitting beside you.

You'd both been sitting in the galley of the Sunny, Zoro only following you in because you were insistent on talking to the curly-browed cook to see if he needed help setting up for lunch. Idle conversation and jokes that had been made seemed mostly tuned out by Zoro. You weren't even sure he was listening until the comment he just made.

“I said ‘what's so funny?’ Don't you wanna have my kids?” Zoro retorts. 

Sanji’s just as surprised as you are, but he lets out a small snort before taking a long drag from his cigarette. “Who would want to have your brats, mosshead?” 

“Who asked you, shit cook? Where the hell is lunch, anyway?” 

Sanji grumbles under his breath, something about Zoro being a lazy jackass, but he reluctantly pads back off to the stove where he has food cooking for the upcoming mealtime. Sanji’s reaction isn’t even on your radar, though. You’re still reeling from Zoro’s question and the tone in which he said it.

“Zoro. You're kidding.” You say, your voice even. “What, you mean - you want kids?” 

“Yeah.”

It's so blunt, treated as something so obvious that you almost feel like you’re in a different reality. You stare at each other quietly, and you're not entirely sure but you swear you can see the gears in Zoro's head turning as well. It’s a pretty big step in your relationship, all things considered. You two had barely broached the topic of marriage once or twice, and those conversations weren’t particularly enlightening about what the future holds for you. But…kids. Zoro…wants kids. That much is certain.

With an awkward laugh, you tell him casually that you’d like to talk with him about it another time in an attempt to brush off the topic entirely. It’s obvious by his reaction that he’s not happy, but he decides to drop it at the sight of your other crewmates entering the galley.

So, that’s that. For now.

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Loud moans and the sound of skin slapping leave the walls of the men's quarters, almost making the sock on the door handle obsolete. At this point, the sock was really just a formality to make you feel better. Both you and Zoro knew that if you were going to go at it like you usually did, everyone on the ship would know to steer clear the moment they walked within a fifteen-foot radius. Honestly, it was a joke at this point amongst the crew. Everyone was very well aware of your active - and loud - sex life.

Strong, calloused hands hold your thighs down against your chest, pinning you down into the bed. Zoro's cock slides into you with practiced ease, pumping in a familiar but hungry rhythm. His brows are furrowed as though he's concentrating, and through your sex addled haze, you can see a bead of sweat dripping down from his forehead. 

“Fuuuuck, (y/n). Pussy feels so good for me.” He groans. 

“Zoro, yes!” You gasp. One of your hands grips against his forearm, leaving light clawmarks from your nails against his skin. The sting makes Zoro hiss in delight.

“Yeah? You like that, (y/n), you like that?! Yeah? You want it harder?!” 

Zoro picks up the pace easily, his hands gripping your thighs as he angles and thrusts himself down into you. He loves the fucked out look in your eyes, the way you coo and keen under his touch. It’s something that he’s sure he’s gotten addicted to, and has even gone as far as to tell you on multiple occasions. 

All of this is so overwhelming, agonizingly intoxicating, and the pleasure building in your body isn’t doing much to help placate the frustration. An impulsive horny thought crosses your mind, though. The inkling of an idea. A solution. It could possibly backfire, but you were at the point of desperately needing a release. He had been going at you for almost an hour now, stopping when either of you got too close. Something about ‘wanting to take his time with you.’ You can’t even remember at this point, you’ve been denied that climax so many times that all you can think about is the feeling of Zoro’s cock dragging against your walls and the need to release the aching tension in your pussy. This move was risky, but hey, it's worth a shot. 

“Harder! Fuck-…put a baby in me!” You exclaim.

This sets something in Zoro off, halting him in a way neither of you were prepared for. He pauses all movements of his hips as if trying to process what he thinks he heard you say. It finally seems to click, though. With a devilish grin, he leans forward, his face only inches from yours. His body weighs down on you, pressing you harder into the bed. Without warning, his cock slides into you only once - harder, more deliberate - as his eye flickers over your face. Your eyes are half-lidded, tears prickling just out of the corners, though the way he slams his cock into you widens them.

“Yeah? That what you want? Wanna have my kids?” Zoro asks, his breath brushing over your lips. 

“Fill me up, Zoro…get me pregnant. Please. Need you to come in me.” You sputter breathlessly, your nose just brushing against his. 

Somehow, his grin widens further, and a small chuckle leaves him. You can feel him twitch inside you and you know for certain that this calculated risk has more than paid off.

“Shit, okay.” Zoro huffs, his movements continuing with a new primal urgency. “Yeah, there you go, pretty girl. Take it. Take my cock.” 

There is something profoundly different about the way Zoro is fucking you now. The mating press he has you in seems more firm than before, his hands on your thighs squeezing with the effort of him ramming his cock into you. The head of his length brushes over your g-spot again and again, that perfect amount of pressure causing you to writhe and groan beneath him. Every sound that leaves you, every tremble of your thighs, only makes him double his efforts.

“Yeah, yeah, just like that. Keep going. Take it! Gonna put a baby in you!” 

You can hardly believe the words you’re hearing growled at you, the way they’re cut through with the grunts and moans. Zoro has always put what felt like the maximum amount of effort into sex. It’s just who he is - he doesn’t half-ass anything he cares about, and fucking is one of those things. For some reason, though, every pass of his cock feels like it’s igniting some kind of new energy in him. A desperation - a need - that’s making it hard to even think of anything beyond the approaching precipice of orgasm. Your walls clench around him as though trying to keep him there, and the sounds that are leaving the both of you are nearly animalistic as Zoro fervently picks up his pace.

“Fuuuck, I'm gonna fill you up. Fill you up with my come and make you pregnant. You're gonna - nnng - be so fucking hot all swollen with my baby. Can’t wait.” 

Your hands clench the sheets with the effort of trying to hold steady, to focus on the orgasm that’s getting closer and closer. His words are only amplifying the building heat, that coil getting tighter and tighter in your cunt. With every pathetic whine and cry that leaves you, Zoro’s hips collide into yours, his balls slapping loudly against your skin. You’re so close, have been chasing this orgasm for so long, and Zoro knows it. And now he wants to get you both there. With no effort on his part, he finally relents, moving a hand down to rest against your lower abdomen. 

“Feel my cock in you, baby? You’re taking it so deep. Just a little more.” Zoro groans, unable to hide his own rapid build-up.

He slides his thumb down from where his hand rests, rubbing up and down against your clit in a steady rhythm. It’s his finishing move, the one that always gets you there, and its effects are damn near immediate. The way he’s bullying your g-spot with his cock, railing his hips into yours, and rubbing over your clit causes the sensations to build and build until-! 

“That's good, baby. Come on my cock. Milk me and make me a daddy.” 

You clamp a hand over your mouth as you ride the high, the ecstasy crashing down again and again. As you’re sent firmly over the edge, you clench hard around his cock which elicits another loud groan from Zoro, his seed spilling into you until it seeps out of your pulsing cunt. You groan and pant together, Zoro’s hips gradually slowing down until both of you have been properly worked through your respective releases.

You barely even register his cock leaving you. The bed shifts with his weight where he collapses beside you, an arm thrown over his eyes as he tries to catch his breath. It’s silent for a while, both of you recovering from the intense influx of chemicals and the racing of your hearts. The silence draws on, though, to the point where you're starting to feel a tension settling in your stomach. A conversation needs to happen, that much is clear, and the unspoken words do little to actually let either of you fully soak in the afterglow. It surprises you when Zoro’s the first one to speak.

“You serious about wanting a baby with me?” Zoro finally says, his voice gruff and low. 

You hum as you turn on your side towards him, working hard to find the right words in response. He’s already looking at you, peeking under his thick forearm that rests on his forehead. Zoro looks wrecked, with disheveled green locks poking out in different directions and a thin layer of sweat glistening over his whole body. His chest is heaving significantly less than before, but there’s still a noticeable effort in the way his lungs extend and contract. You find your hand drawn to the broad expanse of his chest, resting gently against his warm skin.

“Yeah. I just didn’t know when to bring it up. Figured in the heat of the moment was as good a time as any.” You reply, a playful smile rising to your lips.

You watch as Zoro grins in return immediately, his eye lighting up in a way that you’ve only seen a handful of times. It’s missing it’s usual devilish charm, instead replaced with a sparkle that shines radiantly. His hand immediately grabs yours on his chest, holding it in place as if intending to keep it. There’s a pure joy growing in your chest that can’t be contained.

“Then you’d better stop taking those stupid birth control pills Chopper gives you. There’s going to be a lot more where that came from.”

[hunnysnoops]

ミ★ 𝒟𝒶𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒦𝓎𝓁𝑒 𝐵𝓇𝑜𝒻𝓁𝑜𝓋𝓈𝓀𝒾 𝐻𝒞𝓈 ★彡

(+some general)

MASTERLIST

Doesn’t crush often but when he does, he crushes hard

Hot take- we would not choose a study date as a first date

^ I see him as the kinda guy who dates with a long term goal in mind and would want to get to know someone well off the bat

^ Bro is not messing around- he would want a first date where the two of you talk a lot and he can get to know you before committing

^I think his ideal first date would be a movie then a cafe/restaurant. Movie first so there’s a couple hours to ease the awkward first date tension and then coffee/food to talk about the movie and eventually branch the conversation out

He sends those cryptic texts like “be alert…” when there was mugging in town or something

Tags you in every post he sees. You’ll wake up and check social media to thirty messages in your inbox and they’re all from Kyle

The kinda guy to be like “Did you look at the post I sent you about the guy at the bus stop?”

Got his account banned on Twitter and went absolutely ballistic while you tried to calm him down

Runs Hay Day like it’s the navy

Definitely the type to be hooked on his phone until it dies and then complain that you’re on yours “Bro, let’s just talk about the political and economic state of the world right now…”

This might be another hot take but I don’t think he would want a childish partner, he want to be your boyfriend not your dad

^Having to zip up your coat, tie your shoelaces, or cut your food- I don’t think he would mind doing it a couple times but repeating offences would irritate him

Not big on pet names

^ I think he would be one to call you ‘bro’ ‘man’ and ‘dude’ a lot just out of habit but would probably just call you an abbreviation of your name if anything

^ perhaps babe on very rare occasion

HATES PDA

^ I fear I may have many hot takes in this post

^He would be pretty touchy in private but in public? Hell no

^ talks shit about couples who can’t keep their hands off each other in public and absentmindedly wrinkles his nose in disgust

^ the only PDA he would accept is hand holding or a quick hug

Calls and FaceTimes you out of the blue but will immediately hang up if you’re busy or with other people and call back later

He is either the most sound sleeper ever or he wakes up at the drop a pin- either way, he always ends up slinging his lanky arms around you

He’s weirdly good with hair and would have no problem braiding yours or styling it

Super supportive aspiration wise

^ sports games? He’s the loudest in the crowd. Theatre? He’s on the edge of his seat watching. Art? He’s looking at your creations like they’re in a museum.

If you have bad habits (smoking, drinking, etc.) he would try to ease you out of them but if that fails it would definitely cause conflict in the relationship

Has his moments where he snaps at you

Fights wouldn’t be often but they would be big

He would enjoy playful banter and someone who challenges him to improve

I think he would enjoy a lot of the lower beats of the relationship like staying in to watch movies, cooking together, walking and talking, silently enjoying each others company, etc.

He posts Instagram carrousels and every single one has a picture of you in it

Doesn’t even entertain people who try to flirt with him “No, thanks.” “I’m dating someone.” “I’m good.”

Shows you Reddit posts and complains about how obviously fake they are

Gets irritated by bad acting in movies “He called her Courtney Dove, fucking idiot.” “Why does she chew like that?” “Her accent sounds fake.”

Has a secret TikTok account and doesn’t know that you watch his videos on a fake account

He is well aware of rage bait but it still makes him mad because so many people fall for it so he’ll end up commenting anyways

Easily jealous

^ if he sees you talking to another guy he doesn’t trust he’ll insert himself into the conversation and pretend he knows what’s going on

Checks up on you a lot

^ He just has to know that you're okay, he has to be sure that you're safe and that if something were to happen, you would call him without thinking twice.

He wants to communicate but he’s lowkey really bad at it and can’t get in an argument with you without yelling

I imagine him as a runner

^ he’ll probably run to your house at ungodly hours, drink some water, give you a kiss, and keep running

^also lovvvves to show you his stats

He’s really good at cooking and always takes control when you two are cooking/baking together

Didn’t want to dress up on Halloween but you ultimately coerced him into doing a corny couples costume

Has a longer skincare routine than you do

He’s one of those guys to pretend to hate the reality shows and soap operas that you watch- he’ll peak from his phone, then stand from behind the couch and then he’s fully invested in the plot

[paracosmicka]

i've contemplated sending u an ask here for like 2 days regarding ur sonadow art and oufhgh i have to say it is so,, so gentle like the intimacy and softness of it all/pos i hardly see artists that explore the intimate cuddly drawings without the sexual coding so finding your art is so nice?? like refreshing nice as an aroace person bc in my perfect world, many little guys are just cat coded and it's so so cool to me to have found ur art out in the wild also for the mpreg stuff youre literally one of the most normal ppl i've seen draw/bring it up lol, i'm aware so many ppl like to meme on it or make it a fetish which tbh is pretty transphobic, so i'm just really glad you steered it away from that direction and displayed it as something normal and gentle given the context of the au/lh

first off thank you this is such a nice message and i love that people also feel the vibes of soft and intimate from my sonadow art that’s my only ever goal whenever i drew them 😭😭

second off FELLOW AROACE PERSON ACQUIRED 🫵‼️like omg you get it i love thinking about ships in a cat coding way if that makes sense but especially sonadow bc they’re animals so i just love thinking about them as little guys i can put in my pocket just like my cat

like idk if this is an aroace thing bc i don’t hear it described in a way that i relate to exactly so this might just be me but basically: i’ve always loved romance and ships in fiction but as i got older i slowly realized that i don’t think i can feel it for myself. which kinda made me sad at first because the idea of having a partner always seemed so nice, that was the main reason i didn’t think i was aroace at first because i thought i had always wanted to be in a relationship. i did some research and looked into different identities on the aroace spectrum, and thought that cupioromantic was probably the most accurate to what i was feeling, but later didn’t feel like it applied to me because i think the “enjoys the idea of being in a relationship” doesn’t fit right? ig?? idk how to describe it other than i like the idea of relationships, but it took me awhile to realize that i didn’t really want to apply myself in one if that makes sense.

most likely there’s a thing or word out there that already exists to describe that and i just haven’t been looking up the right terms, but basically this is just a very very long way of saying that i feel like whenever i get into a ship it sorta..…attaches?? to my very identity or something?? like i know people can be like “this is my OTP i love them forever and think about them literally all the time” and it’s like YES that’s me but also feels like an understatement, like all of my past hyperfixations on ships are literally ingrained into my soul even i’m not that into them anymore. and i know people compare hyperfixations to relationships and tbh that’s probably the most accurate description but again, that feels like an understatement.

okay honestly idk where i’m going with this i think what i’m TRYING to say is that i feel like because i can’t feel romance for myself my appreciation for ships feels so much more…emphasized, and sonadow is like the longest consistent hyperfixation i’ve ever had on a ship and at that point usually when something has been a “hyperfixation” for 2+ plus years i put it on the special interest display case in my brain except that display case has only ever had like hobbies and fandoms themselves, never an actual fictional relationship that i’m obsessed with but here we are. it might be the development of brain has synched up with this specific hyperfixation but sonadow is the first ship that makes me feel genuinely happy to this degree. it doesn’t make me sad to think about them and also go “aw i’m sad because i’ve never felt that way about another person and probably won’t experience that ever” in the exact same way you would go “aw i’m going to be dead someday” when you think about the fact that you’re alive right now and conscious and exist and have a mini existential crisis of the week. like sonadow doesn’t do that to me, i really just love those stupid fucking gay hedgehogs so much they’ve actually changed the entire layout of my brain and all the neurons and shit they’re everything to me.

ANYWAY JESUS CHRIST sorry for the ramble uhhhh lemme know if you or any other aroace people know what the fuck i was trying to say there hope you’re doing well and also happy new year!!!

[hoiststowline]

_ultra magnus x reader

distraction is scarcely a term within Magnus’ vocabulary. while he may be momentarily pulled from the task at hand due to unanticipated circumstances, he’s never found himself sidetracked by conversations or situations beyond his control. he’s learned to cast any and all doubts aside for the sake of the mission, consistently and constantly in search of the same goal he’s chased for many years. 

you’ve mostly, if not entirely disrupted and turned upside down his definition of adhering to a straight-lined, point a to point b schedule. in normal circumstances, such an interruption would have him seeing red, infuriated with himself that he was so easily cornered and strong-armed into yielding to such uncontrollable emotions.

how he’s ever previously labeled you a distraction was in poor judgment, and something he’d take back immediately if ever granted the chance. you don’t know he’d internally called you such, perhaps you never will- but it still carries guilt each time the memory crosses his path. you are a welcomed change of pace, a well received relief that has breached his gruff exterior and stiff personality. others cannot see what lies beneath, accustomed to his bluntness and unable to bypass his anti-social mannerisms. 

the harder he pushed you away, finding himself undeserving of your kindness, the more you retaliated and laboriously persisted. always gentle, but standing firm in trying to breach his armor to find the long stowed away compassion. little did you know, it was always there, reserved for someone special, never able to deny you in the minutest of situations. 

“That is now the fourth time you have woken yourself up,” Magnus rumbles somewhere above you, the servo that was draped over your legs curls a little more protectively around your form. “If you are tired, rest.” 

it’s extremely difficult to not succumb to the desire of sleep when he is so warm, the hum of his systems practically coaxing your eyes to slip shut. this always appeared to be the end result after a well-deserved reunion, exhaustion consuming you after setting sleep aside for a prolonged time, if only to spend the maximum amount of hours awake with him. last time you checked, it was nearly three am, and if Magnus was aware of the hour, he’d certainly be lecturing you on the importance of a good night's rest, even if his desire to remain by your side is just as potent.

“Are you going to?” you whisper, wondering if he purposely turned out all of the lights to his room, a ploy to drag you further into the clutches of sleep. 

there’s a blink of silence before he answers. “Am I going to what?” 

after poorly stifling a yawn, you attempt to tilt your head rearward to catch his expression. as expected, he’s peering down at you curiously, a simple raise of his brow alerting you all you need to know. 

“Sleep.” you return, head now resting on his upper torso as your palm splays overtop the servo at your front. “When’s the last time you got some rest?” 

a curt ex-vent is answer enough, but he still responds. “I hardly can discern how that is correlated to the matter in question.” 

“That probably means it’s been a while,” as your words begin to meld together, your focus returns to its original spot, the seams of Magnus’ digit as he draws absentminded shapes across the length of your leg. 

“A deal, then?” he hums, and you can feel him moving behind you, carefully lowering himself in full to the berth. 

you find yourself heavy-lidded once more as he runs his lips over your shoulder, then up to your neck, and lastly placing the third kiss at the crown of your head. every time, as if like clockwork, he always deposits the same three kisses in the same three places, an endeavor to try and get you to sleep. 

“I will,” he mumbles, nearly stumbling as you bundle into his side, impossibly tiny fingers grabbing at any plating that was within reach. as if he wasn’t quite close enough, needing him to be within reach at all times. “If you do the same.” 

“Oh…okay.”  and when he finally presumes you’ve drifted off, you slip a little deeper into his slide, kissing the top of his servo in one last unspoken good night.

[broodwoof]

i think about solas after veilguard a lot

with his partner and just... feeling all the feelings. having all the experiences.

at first, deeply affected, overwhelmed... and exhausted. desperate and clingy because he - literally - cannot believe this is happening

then the guilt hits and it hits hard. his regretful "vhenan, you should not be here with me-" arc. the way this manifests would vary wildly depending on who his partner is, what their attachments are, what they "left behind" for him (in quotes because they aren't necessarily leaving anything behind! i'm still team They Are Not Stuck In Prison), etc

probably just nagging doubts at first. he pushes them away - out of respect for his partner's choice, he tells himself. there's just enough truth in that to steady his nerves... for a while

then the real doubt hits like a train. the "you don't know/can't know what you're committing yourself to" bit. this is where i could see him getting genuinely angry. intense, nasty arguments. trying to push them away, perhaps, or trying to make them see reason, because surely, surely, if they understood they would not have come-

the anger is a cover for the fear. he can't allow himself to believe that this will be real, that it is real. that they chose this - chose him - and that they knew exactly what they were choosing, and chose anyway

again, sooo many particular ways this could go. at the worst, i could see him trying to lose them in the fade. not to doom them, but to free them, certain that they would find a way out. or at least, convincing himself that he was certain of it

but, the fade is the fade. and he is powerful, but so too are his desires. i think that he would try to leave them, to escape, only to turn a corner and see them again. he is not actually willing to leave and so shapes the fade subconsciously to bring them back together - again and again

i think he'd wise up pretty fast. and not just to the fact that he can't leave them behind, but to what he's doing. he seems quite self-aware, and he is willing to apologize, and i think he would. and honestly, any partner who decided to take this journey with him... i can't see them holding his reaction against him, not given the circumstances. it is an immense time for him, and they would have to know that

after, he's delicate about his affections... at least, until they're strongly returned

then he's. well. they are in the fade... and fade tongue does count... c: i think there would 100% be a tipping point where not only do they fuck (*ahem* probably so much *ahem*) but also he just Will Not Stop Touching Them

they are constantly holding hands, leaning against each other, one of them sprawled across the other's body when they lay down for a while, etc. once he starts, once he lets himself begin to believe that this is real, he is so selfish with it - delightfully selfish, greedy for touch, for the tactile affirmation of their presence

a kind of normalcy settles across them. they're still working, in a way so like they did long ago, and they fall back into the habit of supporting one another. except now it's just them, and neither has any cause to be reserved about their affections. they joke, they laugh, they tease each other, they talk to spirits, they visit the physical world, the lighthouse...

and they mourn. together. and it is painful, horribly painful. there are many pains, but what is the biggest between them is, of course, varric. and i think... the only way they can really go forward, the only way they can even begin to come to terms with his death at solas' hands, is to understand that he would want them to. because he would. he knew the risks, and he took them, because he wanted to help his friend. as much as varric's goal was "save the world," he ultimately wanted to help solas. to show him that there was another way

and he would have wanted him to find it. he would have wanted them to find it. and i think that knowledge, a realization they would both come to, however haltingly, is what really permits them to have this.

[astroeleanor]

⊹🔥⋆｡✩Mars in Leo: We're done crying. Let's get moving. (RISING SIGN PREDICTIONS)⊹🔥⋆｡✩

MARS ENTERS LEO TODAY!! After almost 6 months of Mars in Cancer, our motivation, ambition, drive & energy are back (Apr 17th-Jun 17th).

The house where you have Leo represents the area of your life that will be energized by this transit. There could be more tension or pressure to succeed here:

ARIES RISING: You’ll be in the mood to play harder, create and dream bigger, or take a few more risks. Your confidence will also be louder. Same with crushes, projects, and anything you put your name on. Be bold, but don’t confuse attention with connection.

TAURUS RISING: You’ll be more assertive about your space and your people. Not in a dramatic way, just clear on what you will and won’t accept. Boundaries at home might tighten up. Channel the energy into making your space work better for you.

GEMINI RISING: You’re more vocal. More opinionated. Definitely quicker to respond. Communication will be sharp, but not necessarily harsh, you just want things to be efficient. Use the momentum to catch up on writing, learning, messages, emails or literal errands.

CANCER RISING: You will feel motivated to make more, do more, speak up more & value yourself more. Money moves might come faster, or you just stop hesitating. Confidence = currency. Just don’t overspend while riding the high of this transit.

LEO RISING: You’re in GO mode. Physically energized, quick to anger, quick to act. People are noticing you, good or bad. Try not to bulldoze people just because you finally feel like yourself again lol.

VIRGO RISING: Restless but you don’t know why. Find healthy outlets for your anger/frustration. You’ll feel more irritable alone, or when nobody’s around. Exercise helps. So does journaling. Keep things moving (Mars)! You might not want to be around people as much. That’s fine. Use this time to recharge with purpose.

LIBRA RISING: You’re more involved (or more opinionated) in group dynamics. Friendships get clearer. Some bonds tighten, others fizzle. Use your energy to move long-term plans forward, not just to react to people.

SCORPIO RISING: Your ambition is BACK!! You’re ready to push a little harder. You could also feel more pressure to succeed during this time. You might take the lead without even trying. Just make sure it’s something you want to lead. Confidence in your work = higher visibility.

SAGITTARIUS RISING: You’re energized by big ideas, plans, beliefs and philosophies that open things up. This is a great time to write, pitch, travel, or speak up. Say what matters, and go somewhere that reminds you what freedom feels like.

CAPRICORN RISING: You’re more direct about what you share, what you owe, and what you want. Intimacy has a sharper edge, but not in a bad way. You’re probably not going to feel like holding back. Good. Say the thing.

AQUARIUS RISING: Conflict or competition in relationships. You’re either fighting more or finally saying what you’ve held back. Mars = not subtle. If you’re angry, it’ll show. Could also bring passion. But tension comes first. Overall, you’re bringing more energy into one-on-one dynamics. Just stay open. Not every strong opinion needs to become a standoff.

PISCES RISING: You’ll be hyper-focused on your work, structure, work, body and health. It’s time to fix your ‘systems’: how you eat, move, sleep, work. It’s more like: “Let’s clean this up so I can feel better fast.” Get stuff done, but remember that burnout isn’t the goal!

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[silverhypnos]

Another chrollo question sorry:

When he fought zeno, why was he so interested in which of the two were stronger? Neither his younger self that we see later of him seemed to be insecure of their power, unless that power was solely to protect the Troupe. It's such a...I wouldn't say self centered, but it is a notably kind of petty question from chrollo. It kind of sounds like the sort of question hisoka would ask. One that note (Sorry two questions) why do you think chrollo give hisoka such a long leash, despite the clown obviously radiating bad vibes, even for the Troupe? As someone who wants to protect his friends at all costs, shouldn't he be more wary of a psychopathic murder clown (who did defeat #4 to get in?)

Hmmm, I think maybe it's easier to answer the second question first. I have pondered on the same thing, on why Chrollo who's brilliant and perceptive allows such a dangerous nut case near his spider family. While Chrollo is brilliant, he is human. He makes mistakes, and he miscalculates situations that later bite back at him. Letting Hisoka in and giving him a long leash was an oversite on his part. So, this is just a theory that I came up with, but I believe the whole 'long leash' was Chrollo's display of saying "You're strong on your own." Chrollo's main goal over the years has shifted into wanting to keep his family safe, especially after Uvo's death. I believe Chrollo has a habit of keeping less combat-ready teammates close, or with someone better at combat. Chrollo was fine when Uvo said he wanted to fight the chain bastard alone, also implying a bit of a long leash there. But when Uvo never showed up, the teams were enforced. That time when he let Hisoka go alone, it was before Uvo's death had been confirmed. When Hisoka watched as the other Spiders were killing the Mafia member, I doubt Machi would have snitched about being teamless. (Heck, she probably preferred it) As long as Hisoka comes back, I doubt Chrollo knows about it. Now in terms of why Chrollo would let Hisoka join, I think it was a gamble on Chrollo's part. I think Chrollo saw that Hisoka could become a problem if they rejected him from joining. I also believe Chrollo is keenly aware that Hisoka's bloodlust is mostly directed towards him. Chrollo made a cocky gamble that if they let Hisoka in, Hisoka wouldn't kill any of the legs because that clown would be focusing on trying to get Chrollo alone. Most of the whole fanbase believes that Chrollo always keeps two members because members being alone is 'against the rules'. But again, Chrollo had no issue with Uvo going alone after that chain user that originally captured him. After Shalnark and Kortopi died, Chrollo was hellbent on going alone and had no issue with Machi and Franklin going alone. Chrollo only teamed up with Bono and Shizuku because they wanted to join him. (Granted, Chrollo is very mentally unwell at the moment) The Truth is, most of the fanbase assumed it was a rule because Hisoka said Chrollo always teams up with two people. And later, after the backstory was revealed, it felt like Sarasa's death reinforced that idea.

But we as the audience have to remember, Hisoka is fickle. So either A, he's fibbing the information to push Kurapika into teaming up with him. Or B, Chrollo did this as a precaution around Hisoka. Now, onto the first question. The Spiders in the York Shin arc were at the peak of their cockiness and recklessness. Both Uvo and Pakunoda's death was the reality check for them to get their shit together. Not just the Spiders, but Chrollo. Chrollo does have moments of cockiness, even when he was a little child. (Like when Chrollo tricked Phinks with the VHS tape swap) I'd argue that Chrollo likes feeling smug, he often tries to suppress it, but he actually likes the feeling. He couldn't help but smile when he successfully stole Neon's nen. He couldn't help but party with his friends when they successfully stole from the Mafia. When Hisoka revealed that he was a fake Spider all along, he let out a chuckle, knowing that his life was no longer on the line as he was allowed to communicate to Hisoka about judgment chain. In short, Chrollo LOVES winning. And sometimes, that cockiness of him makes him say petty shit. He can tell that Zeno is a formidable foe who's also very good at analyzing. Hearing Zeno admit that if they got serious, he might have lost to Chrollo probably felt so good. I don't think Chrollo was insecure at all, the opposite actually. I think he was allowing himself to be a bit childish. Zeno reinforced it when he called out Chrollo for being cocky right after. But, that's just my opinion

[simplegeneral]

Queen Wasp is probably one of the weakest wof villains imo, side by side with Battlewinner and Morrowseer in terms of pure evil and pure blandness.

In spite of being a teens' book, I do wished Tui made something outwordly with the hivewings, like a society nowhere near the Pyrrhian ones, a truly bug one, as much as I hate the idea of bug dragons, at least go full on the idea or enhance it in some imaginative way.

I thought of Wasp as a hulking giant, bigger than Burn or Oasis, side by side with Battlewinner and Morrowseer, as she is old, and more than that, she is a villain our heroes can not outsmart, for she is all the hivewings. She is a villain of strength, so they better show theirs.

So I present you a bit of my AU idea for Wasp, following my WoF AU where Burn and Blaze run the sand queendom.

The hivewings operate much like a hive, their queens release pheromones that somewhat control the will of their workers to pursue their goals, a trait they gained since the beetlewings (which btw, they are descendents of, but there was no Clearsight bs, they just split naturally).

Since the beetlewings' settlement of Pantala, they knew of a specific plant life of the local, called "breath of evil", after its effects. Long ago, the beetlewings had an ambitious queen, who challenged the status quo of the continent, so far peaceful. She inhaled the breath of evil and spread it over her population, its effects enhanced her pheromones' abilities until almost absolute control of her dragons, creating one gigantic organism that moved like one, a formidable army.

She was eventually defeated, but not before the remaining queens and the LeafWings settled into a sacred treaty to NEVER use such powers again.

History was doomed to be repeated.

As a minor queen of one of the hivewings' hives, Wasp, had broke the sacred treaty, believing the hivewings, considerably the newest inhabitants of Pantala, had no business obeying it. Wasp then conquered all the hivewing hives and proceeded to campaign against the rest of the continent, the Tree Wars.

Much like the last time, the Leafwings, Beetlewings and Silkwings battled Wasp. Although a cowardly queen Monarch accepted to submit, the rest refused. It was a total bloodbath, paranoic as ever, Wasp conducted a massive deforestation campaign by causing mass forest fires through Pantala, while her hivewing masses crashed against the Alliance with never seem brutality.

In the end, the Silkwings submitted, while LeafWings and BeetleWings fled north of the continent. Wasp was satisfied, with near total control of her population, she turned the once backwards little hive she inherented into a continental capital in the turn of 50 years, spreading more hives under her subordinates, enslaving the silkwings and exterminating all that stood in her path.

As of 5012 AS, Wasp is aware of an old continent to the East, her minions work day and night producing armors, weapons and supplies, readying a massive army that shall sweep across the post-war torn continent, until there's nothing left but the Hive.

Still, her control over the continent seemed more fragile than previously thought. As the chrysalis launched a full-blow revolt and burnt the Bloodworm hive, her plans are temporarily on halt. While the success of the rebels seems dim at best, a group of leafwing refugees have fled East to the new continent, bringing horrying news to a young icewing queen, who refuses to believe it, yet, she has grow past her prejudices, for the ice queendom will face the brunt of the Sunset Invasion.

[drdemonprince]

you very frequently talk about not seeking out happiness and generally being unhappy and I guess the question I have there is what (as someone who feels like they're struggling) what is the difference between unhappiness and depression? i would also call myself an unhappy person but being in that emotional state of unhappiness causes me literal physical pain so thus i don't think it's tenable to make not seeking a way out of unhappiness a personal goal. (i guess i'm just curious about the language use here and if i'm missing something)

I've always been taken with the Freudian term "ordinary unhappiness." If you really meet and listen to people you notice how sad most of them are, or unfulfilled. To me, it is a bit of a comfort.

But if just living is painful, I'd say that is an issue. Those have been the times I have made some dramatic change or sought help.

I think there's a beauty to being unsatisfied. It keeps a person moving. I find happiness a bit depressing really; it always makes me acutely aware that things are going to end. Ordinary unhappiness, in contrast, feels like an acceptance and a sturdiness that can weather many changes.

I think chasing pleasure or happiness is likely not to be the route out for most depressed people, though finding small things to enjoy or look forward to can be very sustaining. I think though that some people make their own unhappiness worse by expecting that they ever could be happy for a long period, when their life history provides no evidence of that. I probably will always be a bit unhappy, because I always have been. That's fine. I like a lot about my life. I can handle this shit.

That is very different from hating being awake every moment, though, which is usually when I know something is dangerously out of wack and must be addressed. and from the sound of it, that is where you are at the moment. That probably signals something needs to change.

[aestherin]

KEEP MY HEART

goal 09: do you like sweets?

You are fully self-aware that you have delusional tendencies, but you know yourself well enough to think that you weren't that far gone yet to the point that you will start seeing your long distance crush right in front of you.

He's probably real.

Taking notice of your presence, Scaramouche then turned towards you. His face was hard to read, other hand holding his phone and the other inside the pockets of his denim pants. His oversized black shirt was tucked, highlighting his good figure.

'Holy. He's got good style too,' you thought. It was simple, yes. But he carries outfits so damn well.

But what is he even doing here in your uni?

Since an eye contact has already been made, you flashed a sheepish smile and a light wave. Your loud personality online was such a huge contrast in comparison to how you're actually behaving now.

He just stared. 'Oh. So he's the cold type. God, he's exactly my type.'

"Aren't you going in?" You snapped out of your musings upon hearing his voice.

"I was about to. I'm starving," you chuckled. He scoffed. "I could use a bit of food, too."

"We should eat at the birthday party then."

"Kazuha's?"

You nod.

He looked away. "Go and eat inside. I'll find another place to eat at."

You flashed a look of disbelief. Scaramouche raised a brow in confusion. "Dude, you're literally already at a restaurant and you still want to go somewhere else to eat?"

"And you're hungry, aren't you?"

He sighed. "Look, I don't know if you know this, but the one holding a party — well, we're not on the best of terms."

Oh. Yeah.

There's that thing.

How the fuck could you forget that the love of your life is from the rival of your brother's team?

"Ah," You nod again. He seemed to take it as you understanding his reasoning and turned the other way, attempting to head off.

If only you hadn't tugged at his shirt.

"What the?!"

You led him to a lone bench at the parking lot, lit warmly by the streetlight just directly above it. "Sit there and wait for me."

"Excuse me?" He hissed. "What am I? A dog?"

"Your words, not mine." You grinned. "Just do as I say, okay? It won't be long, I promise."

He was about to retort but you cut him off by hurriedly entering the lively restaurant.

When you got back, you easily spotted Scaramouche who was sitting comfortably on the bench where you left him. He immediately scooted over once he saw you.

"Wow," he remarked. "You know I actually doubted if you would even come back."

You chuckled as you sat and handed him his plate. "Do you have trust issues?"

"Shut the fuck up."

"Oh, so you do."

He rolled his eyes.

Your late dinner with him was mostly filled with a comforting silence, with some bits of small talk in between. The only ones left on your plate were delectable desserts, as well as the little pieces of food you left out.

"Do you like sweets?"

"No," Scaramouche speedily replied. "They're disgusting."

You subconsciously frown. "Shame. I like them."

"You can have mine then," he says as he picks up his portion of desserts and transfers them to your plate. Unbeknownst to you, his observant gaze failed to miss how your eyes sparkled in delight at the sight of mouthwatering sweets.

As he did so, Scaramouche also spotted some leftovers on your plate. "Do you not like bitter stuff?"

"My tongue can't handle them."

"Give it to me then instead of wasting food, idiot."

You let out a laugh. "Is that your way of saying you like bitter stuff?"

The man just let out a quiet "tch" before taking a bite.

KEEP MY HEART — scara x reader smau

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SUMMARY —you find plenty of guys around you attractive, but there is only one you’re willing to make the first move on: the guy you first saw during your older brother’s soccer game. spoiler: he's a player from your rival university.

NOTES -> a lot has happened lmaoo i was so busy aaa -> i graduated hs finally :P -> i also submitted my requirements for college haha -> also can u guys believe i'm gonna be in college while my college smau is on going omg -> and apologies for ghosting HASDHADHA (also wtf fontaine livestream tomorrow already whaaat time flies so fast omg)

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[howlsofbloodhounds]

I’ve been thinking about ways Killer might’ve been instrumental in furthering Nightmare’s goals of widespread negativity, and I think he probably encouraged Nightmare to engage a lot more with mortals in Universes that aren’t aware of the Multiverse as a whole.

Universes that don’t know either Killer’s or Nightmare’s reputations or faces, but also don’t know anything about the Star Sanses, or Dream or Ink.

Reminding Nightmare that human mortals have their uses, and their souls are often stronger than most of monsterkind, reminding the Boss that cases like himself, Dream, Ink, Error, and even Killer are basically outliers. Not typically considered the norm.

I think Killer probably came up with the idea of creating cells inside those universes, secretly training and manipulating both human and monster agents to serve Nightmare’s goals, regardless if any of them are fully aware of that or not. Targeting any dumb or desperate fool, especially those who have any political power or authority over a certain place like a country or an army.

Encouraging wars, gang wars, revolts, territory spats, and acts of mass terror in these universes that could give Nightmare all the negativity he needs without anyone being all the wiser.

With everyone being too busy pointing guns and fingers at eachother to notice that they’re being used for something bigger. And Killer will keep the guns of war going by discretely turning everyone against their own groups, spreading rumors and propaganda.

Assuming Killer targets people who aren’t exactly important to that universe’s script, he may even be able to evade Ink’s attention for some time.

So while the Star Sanses might think that Nightmare only has himself, Killer, and possibly also Horror, Dust, and Cross/XChara doing his bidding.

He actually secretly has both deals & agreements with certain Multiverse-Aware universes—supply Nightmare and his Gang with resources & they’ll leave you alone—but thanks to Killer’s idea, he also has billions of regular Joes working for him and they aren’t even aware of it.

And, of course, Killer would be the one out recruiting people. And I think that the information about the operative cells would likely stay classified strictly between Nightmare and Killer, even if Horror and Dust are very likely suspicious.

But if any of them try to confront Killer about it he of course plays the fool, acting loud and annoying so all they’ll want by the end of the questioning is for him to just shut up and go away and they’ll completely forget what they were even asking in the first place.

(Not Dust though. Cuz while I get the vibes that Horror and Cross just wouldn’t want to deal with Killer, I think the similarities Dust sees between Killer and the anomaly only prompts Dust to pay closer attention to Killer’s actions and less his words.)

I think Nightmare’s Gang can be pretty cool if the rest of the Multiverse sees them as mostly a group of ragtag criminals causing mayhem and negativity wherever they go, but it’s just a front for a more numbered, highly structured and functioning organization with bigger, long term plans.

You could walk past a member of Nightmare’s organization and you wouldn’t even know it. The member themself may not even be fully aware of what they involved themself in.

[shadow-the-crow]

soo i'm sort of stuck on s4 of tma. i've somehow lost the motivation to listen to more than 1 or 2 episodes a month. and at first, i thought it was just because of the season's generally gloomy mood and me finding new fandoms, but i think i've figured out another reason.

one of the generally agreed upon rules of writing (which, of course, are meant to be broken if you know how to - but in this case i think it might have been good to respect it) is that you should give your main character a strong long-term goal. they should want something, really want something, and act in order to try and achieve that. whether the goal is killing the bad guy, finding a missing family member or maybe just getting back home to finally rest - it can be anything as long as it's important to the protagonist. this helps give a story structure and appeal, because otherwise, the protagonist tends to just passively float through a story, reacting to the events happening to them, but barely becoming active themself. in this case, the audience tends to feel as lost and confused as the protagonist seems. we're just watching the events happen, not knowing what to hope for - and also not being able to emotionally connect with the protagonist as much, since hopes and ambitions make a character more relatable.

and i think that's what's missing in s4. in s3, the crew was trying to stop the Unknowing. in s2, Jon was desperately trying to find out what the fuck was going on - who killed Gertrude, what the Fears were and so on. in s1, although you might argue it was also missing strong character ambitions, Jon and the others were at least trying to fight off the worms and not become victims of the Corruption. plus, back then, there was still the mystery of what the horrors even were.

now, in s4, there's practically no mystery left. we know exactly what the Fears are, and the statements are often a confirmation of what we already know rather than something for us and the characters to theorize about. and even the minimum goal of survival has lost a lot of relevance, since by now, Jon has lost enough vulnerability and gained enough power to not feel easily threatened by other avatars anymore.

there's a few other "goals" that might come to your mind: stopping the Extinction from emerging, freeing Martin from Peter's grasp, escaping the Institute... but none of these really function as motivations. the Extinction thing is mostly Peter's goal, Martin only agreed to protect his friends, and while him and the others are acknowledging that stopping a new Fear is probably important, they're not really acting towards it. Jon does want Martin back, but again, he doesn't act on it until the very end of the season, he just lets him do his own thing. And he does want his normal life back, to be human again and be freed from the Institute - but these goals don't even seem achievable in any way. it's like: yeah, sure, Jon would ideally like to achieve these things, but there's no possible way out by now. even after finding out he could gouge his eyes out and run away, he knows he has the responsibility to stay and fight off the Fears - and he doesn't even know if he could survive without the Eye. he'll probably never be human again. so, again, not a goal he's actually working towards, since he's aware it's not realistic at all. and sure, there are other short-term goals he has throughout the season, like travelling to Ny-Alesund and stopping the Dark cult - but plots like these are resolved after a few episodes, leaving us once again without a bigger goal.

so yeah. i'm not saying s4 is badly written - when i do listen, i'm interested, it's simply missing an element to keep me hooked and make me want to keep listening. this is how i view it, feel free to disagree with me and do tell me your arguments.

[ahotknife]

Hi!! First of all, I love your fics, you’re incredibly talented and I would eat up anything you write <3

And now, my question! You always write Adam as dominant and a bit of a sadist (which I totally agree with), but yesterday I was thinking about how that fits the canon idea that Adam is scared to death of becoming his father in terms of violence. Because the way he practices sex is violent, and obviously his partners (Ronan at least) enjoy it, but wouldn’t he be afraid of losing control and crossing a line? So, how do we think Adam approaches this?

It’s just a thought that popped out of my mind and I really wanted to know your opinion on that!

Okay, that’s all 🌟 Thank you and have a good day!

hi! yes i have had many conversations about this and will attempt to distill this response into a few main points.

1. the application of controlled violence against a consenting peer is radically different from physical abuse of any kind. kink, and especially impact play or physical punishment, is a form of catharsis and it’s all fun & games for all parties involved. if it’s not, you’re doing it wrong.

2. adam has darker, violent tendencies in canon—messy but true. he wishes he’d been the one to punch his father, he kills whelk (or at least ensures he doesn’t live), he masterminds a pretty extreme way to destroy greenmantle’s life. this does not mean he is doomed to become physically abusive, but the impulses are there. adam likes power. he wants to have power, and he likes to identify power in other people so he can come up with ways to control it—in his daydreams these methods are often physical.

3. to my earlier point about catharsis: people are into what they’re into for a reason. i’m not saying this is a conventional or necessarily “pretty” itch he needs to scratch in his brain, but i think there’s something to being the person who hits instead of being hit. i think there’s something to being able to exercise a compulsion onto another person and then tell that person they did a good job, they did so well, they’re so good and he’s so proud of them. not to be all “you just wouldn’t get it” but if you’re not into BDSM it’s probably not going to make much sense. you’ll just have to take my word for it that engaging in that kind of scene is really fun and everybody involved gets off on it.

4. specifically regarding ronan, it’s pretty clear from canon that ronan is a masochistic thrill seeker. aside from the tattoos, fast cars, and reckless behavior, he starts fights on purpose and does things that will undoubtedly result in injury on purpose. he doesn’t attempt to temper his own physical responses or urges, and he doesn’t shy away from adam’s. also: ronan is bigger and stronger than adam—i don’t think there’s a way adam could really truly hurt him. there is always that risk, but i don’t think ronan’s in any danger of real damage. first of all that’s not adam’s goal, second of all ronan wouldn’t let him do it. (only i know the super secret adamronan safeword that lurks in the peripheral awareness of all my fic.)

tl;dr—adam already has the impulse to be violent. adam already has an innate preference for physical behavior & responses. he won’t be his father, because he isn’t his father. deciding you’re not going to abuse your loved ones is enough—he won’t abuse ronan, because he doesn’t want to. if he had kids, he wouldn’t abuse them, either, because he doesn’t want to. we see him curtail a few outbursts in mixed company—he’s capable of it even without an actual outlet for it. kink would be a practical, consensual way for him to sublimate his desires into something he enjoys. i think he approaches it knowing it’s something he wants and something ronan wants—no point in ignoring or repressing something so huge if you can get some really good sex out of it. kink is like a sandbox—it’s a controlled environment where safeguards are in place to make sure no real damage is done (as long as what you practice is SSC/RACK), so you can have a lot of fun there.

and also: it’s hot & i like writing it, so adam approaches it thinking it’s hot so that i have reasons to keep writing it. but don’t worry, it IS grounded in canon.

hope this helps!