#lab diary

[elitemaomaosequanimity]

Maomao the lab rat

[sleepyminty]

I want to put them in the room and study them like some kind of lab rats

[snailmilksolution]

so i guess the plan is for this is to be like a little diary for myself as I start out w this new lab and sort of keep track of the kinds of things i've done and learned and how I'm feeling about it

lab notebook, but with feeling

so today! :) 9/13/23

Just got the unofficial offer to join Dr. W's (J's?) lab and I could not be more excited :):):) I think the plan is to leave this lab in the second week of october? but it depends on how much i can get done in my lab that I'm currently in. I really really really want to leave asap, but that's just not realistic at the point I'm at right now. Hopefully I can get the tagged strains and speedrun a purification and let that be my gift unto them as i fuck off into the sunset.

lots and lots of big feelings today. the idea of being desired remains intoxicating, especially in concert with the fact that i did this pretty much all by myself--didn't have to leverage connections, really, and now that I have this, I will have (hopefully) hella connections to leverage in the future. really did myself a solid on this one. im so excited!! this really seems like a great opportunity to work on myself in so many ways.

i feel really weird about leaving this lab. i'm not really close with anyone here (my two favorite colleagues are gone to med school and started classes) and i only kind of get along with my PI a lot of the time. but still, being a foundational member of the lab sort of gives me this weird sense of ownership over it even though i barely feel like a member most days anymore. i literally have next to nothing to do except wait every day. the point which my project is at is next to completely irrelevant to everyone else's, so i dont get told things that are happening until wayyyyy later than everyone else, if at all, and then i fuck up and waste time and resources. theyve got jokes im not in on and problems they solved that i didnt know about. its all very isolating a lot of the time. im so low priority here, and i think thats compounded by the fact that he knows im leaving and that im really gunning to leave.

im not excited about being a baby again, but there is a comfort in knowing that i dont have to be producing right out the gate because they know i have so little experience with this kind of work. thats okay though, because i trust that im going to be trained really well and (maybe) gently. we'll see. it's going to be a huge huge huge culture shock when i get there. i really gotta read their papers a little more in-depth before october.

[bane-of-technology]

Hey gang? Maybe let's sit on this concept a little more, figure out the ethical minutiae

OF COURSE THEY PUT IN A SUBSCRIPTION MODEL

[kayandthegoldendays]

lab days are my favorite, there’s no urgency…it’s only numbers, easy mixing and tons of observations. my professor said my observations were “delightfully descriptive” in a thick British accent and I found myself flowing with ease in the calculations. who would have known I would remember things from nearly a decade ago!

I also made a new friend and I’m excited to have a study partner.

[julykings]

by candlelight

[in-tua-deep]

do yall think constructs like. age? idk if a secunit has uhhh survived long enough to maybe truly answer that question but maybe a comfortunit has

does the cubicle/repair process like. replace organic tissue with young tissue? match or clone the tissue around it? i’m assuming that there’s some organic tissue, like neuro tissue, they have that is vital to function and not able to be replaced without straight up killing them

[kitkatstu-dies]

6/6/2025

I am having so much fun!!! I have been able to work with things that I've learned about, but never got to use (Gel electrophoresis/Western Blot). I feel a lot less anxious about life/everything in general. It's so mind-boggling because this is the feeling that I've been chasing since I was a teen. Just somewhere that feels right? Somewhere where I don't feel ashamed or judged. I know I'm only going to be here for the summer, but I am so grateful for this experience.

[agardenandlibrary]

episode 95 of my podcast Backlog Books (link in pinned post)

The Murderbot Diaries by Martha Wells

I like the world Wells created! The corporations vs non-corporate entities, there are remnants of alien technology spread throughout the galaxy which causes numerous problems, and becomes a major setpiece in the two most recent books. It’s well fleshed out without being overwhelming. And Murderbot is a great protagonist, very physically resilient but emotionally soft and squishy and in deep denial of this fact.  You could probably read these as standalones but I do like them as a full set.

[hoplaventon]

i spent sooo many years talking shit about bug types but now that i 've met coriandre i perfectly get bug enjoyers <3

[silverspleen]

STUPID SHIP MEME DRAWINGS.

I just think they should kiss maybe?

Obsessed (positive??) with the dynamic of guy who betrays his country so he can run off with the militia he's been working with because he gets a case of loyalty feelings so bad he goes and blows himself up X morally upstanding traumatic backstory woman having the worst fucking time of her life (again) who really just needs someone to be as fanatically loyal as possible to her, as a person who is really into the inherent eroticism of the hierarchical military power dynamic focus on loyalty and the use of "yes ma'am" as I love you.

Obsessed (negative) with the propaganda implications that we seem to have ignored of the fact that the three most important people in an arabic woman's life are 2 (two) white guys and her brother, who betrays her and becomes a villain in the later games, and the fucking insidious-ass narrative choice of placing one of said white guys in said militia as like, the tacit fact that this organization is ok only because the western white guys are cool with it. Stop introducing more ULF people just to kill them!!! I SEE YOU WRITERS!!! YOU CAN'T HIDE FROM ME!!!!!!

because, once again, the character dynamic? I am sick for it. He dropped a building on himself for her and then came back???? He came back???? He could have gone anywhere but he came back to her???? I'm unwell. I think I have covid. I need to go lie down.

Anyway my city now my characters now smashing them together like barbies watching that .gif of them staring at each other eighty times reading all the fanfiction goodbye

you shouldn't blow yourself up in the furnace I want to blow myself up in the furnace for you as my own personal choice and you should order me to do it because you're such a good leader what is wrong with youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrgh *gnaws on furniture*

WE DON'T EVEN GET TO SEE HIM COME BACK TO HER. THANK YOU FIC WRITERS YOU KNOW THAT REUNION MUST BE SO ANGST THE COMPLEX DYNAMIC OF SACRIFICING YOURSELF FOR SOMEONE AND MAKING IT OUT AND BACK TO THEM AGAIN!!!!!!! THE GUILT! THE YEARNING! THE LOYALTY! I AM GOING TO EXPLODE.

[elitemaomaosequanimity]

Sazen scratched his head. “I guess you’d know her by the name Suirei. She was the old guy’s helper. You know, the expressionless one. The young mistress’s, uh, older half-sister, I guess they called her.” A shock ran through Maomao, and before she knew what she was doing, she had smacked Sazen on the shoulder as hard as she could. Why hadn’t she realized it sooner? Suirei: a surviving member of the Shi clan, the previous emperor’s granddaughter, and Shisui’s half-sister. “Ouch! What’d you do that for?” “I’ve got it! You just keep sweeping. Don’t slack!” Maomao rewrapped the book in its cloth, then rushed back to her shop to write a letter.

Maomao asking about suirei grandfather the physician.

The “old guy” was presumably the physician who had been banished from the rear palace. He’d been researching an elixir of immortality, or so Maomao had heard. “I wonder if they buried him with it or something,” Sazen said. “Why in the world would they do that?” “It’s a tradition in my hometown.” Well, she wasn’t asking about Sazen’s hometown, was she? But she was curious about the “old guy.” “Why did he die, anyway?” Had it been simple old age? If he’d lived, he would have been about the same age as Maomao’s old man, so it wouldn’t be that surprising. The deceased physician was also said to have studied in the west at one point, so perhaps they’d known each other. “Ah... Well. It was an experiment gone wrong.” “Gone wrong?” “They were trying to create an elixir of immortality, right? And to do that, you’ve got to test it out, don’t you?”

[athena-xox]

I am unwell

“You are clearly your mother’s daughter”

crying, CRYING

Ravens mommy issues go so hard

No but like this coming from Cook, Ravens mother figure had to hurt SO BAD

I refuse to believe that Cook didn’t call up headmaster Grimm and order him to give Raven the weekend off after that so they could have some mother daughter baking time

[1nhaler]

we confessed to each other, sobbed and then promptly started talking about quantum physics. what in the jayvik

[unopenablebox]

im making a wedding guest list in order to. uh. destress. from work anxiety. (we are not officially engaged yet in that we are waiting for our rings to arrive sometime this month and also do not even a little have a wedding date and have not figured out a budget yet. so it's a very stupid exercise. but. i can do whatever i want)

anyway im beginning to worry that i only have two friends? i suppose it's actually good because that will cost less but possibly i have some kind of disease or condition

[anguilliforme]

drink driving today!!