#me if i my ****** progressed when i was still a discourse blog

[nogodsinfoxholes]

yeah ive seen this discourse before but i’m just genuinely wondering how many trans people, that you can verify are actually trans* (see what i mean below before jumping down my throat), were uncomfortable with these jokes. like, even you didn’t say these jokes ever made you uncomfortable.

i did not see a problem with these jokes at all until about a year, two years ago. and i have primarily see trans men and mascs complaining about it. that’s pretty interesting to me because it’s no coincidence that radfems repeatedly infiltrate trans masc communities, under the disguise of being one themselves or a detransitioner who’s “gender critical”. it’s no coincidence to me that a lot of blogs i’ve looked at with this claim — even those who claim to be trans — the blogs are filled with repackaged radical feminism. radfems share tips with eachother on how to disguise propaganda in progressive spaces, including trans spaces.

i’d say also if someone is trans taking their discomfort about these jokes at face value is kinna odd to me too. maybe they’re uncomfortable because they’re still grappling with their own identity.

maybe we’re having a definitional problem that’s making me really confused why this is even rude at all and how it would affect anyone but cis people. i’m deeply confused by what exorsexism is because when i looked it up:

imo non-binary is trans. trans to me does not mean the gender binary. an egg joke to me does not have to be about the gender binary, but i will contend it frequently is. altersex refers primarily to fictional characters who are totally irrelevant to this discussion but it does mention real people, and i’d argue that’s also… trans. i dont get why intersex people need to be here at all, as we have very specific terms for this discrimination already (intersexist or perisexist). i see a case for why egg jokes could be offensive to intersex people who prefer to identify as cis.

"You can't be a tomboy anymore because 'they' (trans people?? The government who hates trans people??) force tomboys to transition to men" "Butches transition because they're insecure about their womanhood, trans men aren't really a thing."

Meanwhile every tomboy, butch or gnc woman I've talked to: "Nobody accepts how I present myself as a woman, so they (largely cis people) constantly try to feminise me and make assumptive statements about my gender. I'm perfectly happy being a woman and largely face no pressure to become a man from the trans community or otherwise, focus is instead on rejecting my masculinity entirely to be a 'real woman'."

Guess who I'm going to believe.

[37q]

dense theoryposting but every time someones like "hey i cant read your senseless prose" or "this is incomprehensible can you translate for regular people" or "i dont think this kind of esoteric language is useful" i want so badly to trap them in a virtue signaling spiral with the crazy tranny defense like oh so transgender perspectives on social abstractions and their interdependent materiality is unintelligible ? you think that us trannies need to mediate and self-police our experiences with the oppressive structures of propriety and sanity ? and you chose to demonstrate that you default to a bad faith reading of the hysterical and cognitively erratic pseudo-woman whos one step away from a stint in an institution of your fantasy ? right so trans womens representation of our interiority is out of touch with reality and how we see & live in the world is so alien to you that it egoistically sunders the orderly social semiosis that you hold so dear ? ok

[jasmineandcedar]

“Put it on me” | Elriel and gendered views on lust and agency

I discovered ACOTAR in 2018. They became like comfort books during the pandemic, and I have reread them many times since then. Particularly, it was Azriel and Elain that grabbed my heart with both hands and wouldn’t let go. Still, I feel equally as impacted by their story six years later. Specifically, it’s the depiction of a deep connection developing between two quieter individuals and how SJM has written them to be the key to the other's character progression in such a tender way, that I seem unable to get over.

When I joined this fandom two months ago, a lot of things surprised me.

One thing being how parts of the fandom have framed Azriel and Elain’s relationship when it comes to lust, after Azriel’s BC. It has fascinated me and made me reflect on my own reading of the introduction of lust into their relationship, and since this blog is where I put my Elriel ramblings, I wanted to write down my thoughts on it.

Lust, agency and consent

Did Azriel feel lust in his BC? Yes. Thank the Lord. However...

I would like to start not with Azriel, but with Elain. Because what puzzles me the most is not that Azriel is at times mischaracterised as only lusting after Elain. This mischaracterisation seems mostly rooted in denial over where SJM is heading with Azriel and Elain, and the preference for another direction. I think it is rooted in shipwar discourse, and I don’t want to get involved in that. It doesn’t bother me what people ship. And after four books of sweet Elriel moments and the very clear thematic trajectory SJM has put Elain and Azriel on, we know it is an obvious mischaracterisation. I’ll just ignore it.

What puzzles me the most is not that. What puzzles me is that Elain’s agency is often removed when SJM's depiction of Azriel and Elain is criticized. And I wonder, why is Elain's lust disregarded? Elain is the driver of everything that happens in that almost kiss of the BC, and it’s so beautiful. It is such a good and heart-stopping sneak peek into the direction of her book that I was ready to join Azriel on my knees before Elain when I read it.

“It's beautiful," she whispered, lifting it from the box. The golden faelight shone through the little glass facets, setting the charm glowing with hues of red and pink and white. Azriel let his shadows whisk away the box as she said softly, "Put it on me?" His head went quiet. But he took the necklace, opening the clasp as she exposed her back, sweeping her hair up in one hand to bare her long, creamy neck. He knew it was wrong, but there he was, sliding the necklace around her. Letting his scarred fingers touch her immaculate skin. Letting them brush the side of her throat, savoring the velvet-soft texture. Elain shivered, and he took a damn long time fastening the clasp. Azriel's fingers lingered at her nape, atop the first knob of her spine. Slowly, Elain pivoted into his touch. Until his palm lay flat against her neck. It had never gone this far. They'd exchanged looks, the occasional brush of their fingers, but never this. Never blatant, unrestricted touching. Wrong -- it was so wrong. He didn't care. He needed to know what the skin of her neck tasted like. What those perfect lips tasted like. Her breasts. Her sex. He needed her coming on his tongue -- Azriel's cock strained behind his pants, aching so fiercely he could hardly think. He prayed she didn't peer down. Prayed she didn't understand the shift in his scent. He had only allowed himself these thoughts in the dead of night. Had only allowed his hand to fist his cock and think about her then, when even his shadows had gone to sleep. How that beautiful face might appear as he entered her, what sounds she'd make. Elain bit her lower lip, and it took every ounce of Azriel's restraint to keep from putting his own teeth there. "I should go," Elain said, but made no move to leave. "Yes," he said, his thumb sweeping in long strokes along the side of her throat. Her arousal drifted up to him, and his eyes nearly rolled back in his head at the sweet scent. He'd beg on his knees for a chance to taste it. But Azriel just stroked her neck again. Elain shuddered, drifting closer. So close one deep breath would brush her breasts against his chest. She looked up at him, her face so trusting and hopeful and open that he knew she had no idea that he had done unspeakable things that sullied his hands far beyond their scars. Such terrible things that it was a sacrilege for his fingers to skin, tainting her with his presence. But he could have this. This one moment, and maybe a taste, and that would be it. “Yes" Elain breathed, like she read the decision. Just this taste in the dead of the longest night of the year, where only the Mother might witness them. Azriel's hand slid up her neck, burying in her thick hair. Tilting her face the way he wanted it. Elain's mouth parted slightly, her eyes scanning his before fluttering shut. Offer and permission. He nearly groaned with relief and need as he lowered his head toward hers.

Azriel is in the backseat in that scene. Every action of Azriel’s is a reaction to Elain’s consent. Elain is the opposite of an object of his lustful thoughts in that scenario. She’s steady as a rock, initiating every escalation of their almost kiss, even if her hands were trembling when she gave him her gift. I have to admit, I might have had tears in my eyes when I read that the first time. There was Elain, hands trembling, acting on her deeply held value that love can trump a mating bond. And Azriel is the antithesis of someone simply lusting after another when he responds to her cues of consent.

That kind of lust? Wholly dignifying. Holy and dignifying. If I had a religion, that stuff would be it. Beautiful. It's a timeless essence of romance.

This is Elriel’s kind of lust:

Elain sneaking out at night, defying the social expectations and pressures that have plagued her all her life. And when she finds Azriel there too, like a wonderful manifestation of her reclamation of agency, she acts. Confronted with yet another expectation thrown at her – the mating bond – she has decided to not fall in line this time. She is coming to know herself and her values – that “love could trump a mating bond”, that a mate is not entitled to her time and affection, that she “belongs to no one”, and that she can give her heart to whom she wishes. And then she acts. She chooses the one who always saw her.

What more? Azriel’s desperate longing, him staring at her gift for a year. Nesta noticing the pain in his eyes. Cassian noticing he is troubled. Azriel staying away for a year because they can’t have each other. And then, as he is miserably brooding in the sitting room after everyone has gone to sleep, there she is, like a lovely manifestation of the sunlight he was robbed of all his childhood. Only this time, he doesn’t stay away – because she invites him in. The substance of Azriel’s lustful thoughts? He’s thinking of her pleasure. Wanting desperately to make her feel good. Waiting for her invitation. Wanting to fall to his knees. Being mindful of how her noticing his arousal might affect her. And then, there it is – she’s aroused too! And then, her invitation - offer and permission – simultaneously one of the most beautiful and hottest lines in the series.

Elain has had such an impact on Azriel that her actions and encouragement (throughout the entire series) has him starting to slowly win his centuries long battle against demons telling him he’s not worthy of romantic love. Azriel pre-Elain is stagnant and miserable. Azriel after meeting Elain is on a trajectory towards character progression. Like Elain has done with Azriel since day one, she once again leans into his touch and encourages it in the BC, and he is fighting his intrusive thoughts of self-loathing because of her.

And what does Azriel do for Elain? He holds back and is attentive. He sees her, like he always has, and doesn’t act without invitation – he waits for her to exert that agency that is the key to her character progression. There is so much beautiful consent between them, I feel like I’ll evaporate into dust if I think too much about it because my brain can’t handle the beauty of it all... I'm starting to evaporate...

This kind of lust? DIGNIFYING.

The good stuff is in between the lines

I get that Elain and Azriel are quiet and subtle, and most characters in ACOTAR aren’t. We have to read them a little differently. There’s nearly only showing instead of telling when it comes to them. But that means we need to really look at what we’ve been shown - we have to read between the lines (which is so exciting!). SJM has shown a beautiful connection between them being built across several books. It was such a blessing to get a tiny sneak peek into Azriel’s mind and see how they communicate without words. We have seen it on page throughout four books, ever since the first dinner with the three brothers and three sisters when Elain sought quiet reassurance in Azriel, and he gave it to her without using a single word.

After all of those sweet moments across several books, if there’s one relationship that cannot reasonably be stamped with the “just lust” label, it is theirs. We didn’t need to hear Azriel describe the intricacies of his love for Elain’s personality in the BC. We have been shown how he’s drawn to her, without lust involved, for two years across several books. Lust is the natural next step.

That doesn't mean he didn't show us his love for her personality in the BC.

Isn't connecting the dots part of what makes reading exciting?

Here are some dots to connect:

The headache powder

Azriel mentions he has had it on his bedside table at HoW to simply stare at when he’s trying to fall asleep. That tells us that the headache powder is profoundly meaningful to him. It also tells us that Azriel is not just some dark and stone-cold torturer and Spymaster. He is, in fact, a deeply sentimental person. Someone who feels a lot. Someone who is profoundly impacted by a meaningful gift. The headache powder that Elain gave him, which made him feel joy that Feyre had never seen in him before, during that Solstice night which was the turning point for Azriel’s feelings for Elain. The point where his feelings for her became so strong, he had to stay away because the torment of them not being able to be together was too much (the torment that Nesta sees in his eyes during their second Solstice).

All of this is in the same BC (and in the books), and it is Azriel implicitly describing the process of falling in love with Elain because she’s kind and attentive and caring, because the gift of the headache powder is a product of those personality traits of hers.

To communicate without talking

Azriel struggles to talk about his emotions – Rhys says no one really knows how he feels. Not even his family whom he’s known for 500+ years.

[Rhys about what Azriel feels about his job as interrogator/torturer] “But Azriel … Cassian tries, I try—but I think the only person who ever gets him to admit to any sort of feeling is Mor. And that’s only when she’s pestered him to the point where even his infinite patience has run out”’ (ACOMAF).

Azriel didn’t need to be pestered. All he needed was peace and quiet, someone like Elain. Because here we have Elain, and Azriel lets us know she understands his emotional struggles without him putting them into words.

He offered her a smile back. "I wasn't sure if I should give you your present." He left the rest unspoken. Because her mate was here, sleeping a level up. Because her mate had been in the family room and Azriel had needed to stay by the door the whole time because he couldn't stand the sight of it, the scent of their mating bond, and needed to have the option of leaving if it became too much. Elain's large brown eyes flickered, well aware of all that. Just as he knew she was well aware of why Azriel so rarely came to family dinners these days.

This is in the same BC, where Azriel also acknowledges that he has never dared to utter any of these thoughts out loud. Yet he didn’t need to for Elain to understand him. This is, again, Azriel acknowledging Elain’s attentive personality and what she means to him – what kind of connection they share.

Honestly, the BC is simply a mirror to their story so far. We don’t need it, but I’m glad we got it. It’s like SJM took a mirror and held it up to Elain and Azriel’s story across four books, condensed it, introduced the element of lust, and said: “remember what I've shown you – because here’s what’s next”. (Kind of like she did with Nessian’s bonus chapter…)

The pinnacle of SJM’s writing

To round off, I think their lust is simply a beautiful and natural progression of their clearly developing romantic relationship. I think it gets misunderstood partly to support a direction of the story that is clearly not where SJM is heading, but also partly due to our gendered views on lust and agency (which is the more interesting misunderstanding in my eyes).

The way SJM progressed Elriel’s relationship in ACOSF + the BCs (both of them) perfectly sets up Elain’s book and the external and internal conflicts Elain and Azriel will have to face to continue on their arcs towards character development. To reclaim her agency (Elain), and to acknowledge his self-worth outside of his duties and usefulness to others - to see himself as worthy of romantic love (Azriel). It challenges deeply ingrained views on gender and agency in society and is such a narratively powerful story.

For me, Azriel and Elain are the pinnacle of SJM’s writing so far. She’s outdone herself with them. This is also why I trust her fully with Elain’s book. I really, truly hope SJM writes more characters like them in the future, because she knows how to write captivating yet quiet, more introverted and introspective characters – and not many do within the romantasy genre. It’s an amazing skill, and a needed one.

I think that almost kiss is one of the best depictions of consent and mutual sexual and romantic desire in the series. I’m sure there will be much more of that beautiful offer and permission when Elain’s book is out. Come to think of it, I think SJM better take all the time she needs finishing up that book because I’m not sure I’m ready for it, even after all these years.

I’ll be questioning my belief system too when Elain goes all “put it on me” again.

[jojo-schmo]

are dedede and meta in a relationship yet in the beginning of the forgotten land au comics or currently in the plot?

Great question! <3

To sum it all up:

The Forgotten Land Roleswap is a story about Love.

...But romance is not a central theme! So at no point before or during this AU's story will they be in a romantic relationship.

I may have answered this a long time ago but I'll go into more detail because it's still important to me! My yapping under the cut:

It's no secret that Metadede is my top ship hahaha, my blog is full of it! Drawing and writing SUPER SWEET fluff and exploring different romantic scenarios is definitely a favorite comforting activity of mine ;P

But to be completely honest? I didn't want to include a... for lack of a better word, "controversial" theme in my story. Yes Metadede is one of the top ships in the fandom, but I also didn't want to alienate any readers off the bat if they aren't a fan. Everyone has the right to not enjoy certain ships or romance in general in the Kirby fandom, and in no way am I using this to persuade anyone or imply my interpretations of things are the right ones! Just like how the canon "Kirby and the Forgotten Land" game on the Switch is for anyone and everyone who wants to play it, I wanted the bar of entry to be similarly open with "The Forgotten Land Roleswap." Anyone can read it, and whether a reader enjoys it and stays for the ride, or decides early on it's not for them, at least more people were able to give it a try! But for all the work and love I'm pouring into this, I didn't want to slap a "this is metadede" sticker on the cover, because there's LOTS of themes I'm excited to explore that aren't related to popular fandom ships or the discourse that can come with it!

For the purposes of this comic, I'll just spoil this right now, there's no explicitly romantic tropes, like a big romantic confession scene of feelings, or smooches, or other stuff like that, that one might find in my work outside of the Roleswap.

But just because I'm not explicitly putting the label of romantic in it, doesn't mean I'm not exploring their relationship, ya feel me? Because by definition, a relationship is still the connection between two people! And those connections between characters and how strong they are is one of the driving forces and central themes to this story!

I'm interested in exploring their relationship to each other as fellow leaders, warriors, role models, and heroes of their land! They're so outwardly different from each other, yet when you dig past the surface-level images these two carefully craft for themselves, one can find a lot of similarities! Beyond that noble gallant knight, and haughty passionate king, lies two individuals with a strong sense of duty to protect their loved ones, and a drive to better themselves to be the guardians that their home needs.

Also, I needed to give them a starting point where there's room for them to develop a better understanding of each other, even if they've worked together before! As of writing this, we're close to the end of Chapter 2, and we've seen plenty of examples of fumbles, miscommunications or misunderstandings between the two. Like when Meta tried to go ahead and split from Dedede for a "more efficient search," or when Dedede took solving the Tortuilding problem into his own hands and executed a projectile-based attack move that was NOT pre-approved by Meta Knight xD And there's plenty of hidden emotions and motivations they are still keeping closed off from each other, and there's room for those walls to be broken down as the story progresses.... And by the end, perhaps they will have gone through enough to understand each other in a deep way that truly embody their title of "Sworn Partners..."

....And whether the reader would like to interpret these interactions as building up to romantic undertones or not.... I was hoping to leave it open-ended for the purposes of my specific storytelling in this instance. Not a big fan of ships in Kirby? Okay! I really try to stick to the levels of interaction between Dedede and Meta shown in Kirby Fighters 2, a very canon game installment! HEHEHE. BUT HEY, if you like romance? I'm not immune to the pleasures of shipping!! But at no point will Dedede and Meta kiss or call each other "mi amor" or other such romantic pet names in my version of the story.

And hey, My Leon and Carol's romantic love is a driving force in the plot and an important motivation for the Beast Pack, so there will be some romance present!

I like to believe Love is one of the universe's strongest forces. And it's not restricted to romantic love, either. Familial love, friendly love... Caring for those around you, forming those deep connections where you can learn new and wonderful things for each other, finding your people and protecting one another even if you're not related by blood... Coming together as a community to combine your strengths and face the world around you with the very best you have...

That's the sort of story I'm hoping to tell.

If you're still along for the ride, thank you and I'm so glad you're here. EVERYONE'S welcome to live in this New World! <3

[bloggingboutburgers]

Some years ago I saw this online discourse about how Bi/Pan/Aro/Ace should not be part of the LGBTQIA+ group because we can "pass as straight". As a Pan, I was really hurt reading this. It felt like the one group that was supposed to fully accept me, was in fact rejecting me. It felt like if you're anything else than Gay or Lesbian, you can't be there. Since then I've been avoiding LGBTQIA+ movements, discussions etc online because I don't want to read that kind of hateful message again. But I saw your comics multiple time on my timeline and it feels like you're a great safe space for Ace and Aro. I hope you keep doing them, they're really cool. Great job :)

Yeah, I really feel your experience here TwT Same for me... The "passing" thing is bullshit (when it comes to orientation, anyone can be "passing" provided they don't look like a walking stereotype of their orientation... Right...?) and being rejected by those society collectively rejects you alongside of doubles the sense of estrangement.

My past experience with this and bullying makes it so that to this day I still have an uncontrollable anxious stomachache when preparing to go to queer events when I even dare to go, even though I know in most cases it's mostly irrational by now as there's been some progress since. It's hard to detach oneself from these past experiences.

Even this blog being the way it is now is total chance - I just decided to draw something about asexuality again one day for Asexual Awareness Week and SOMEHOW this time around people responded positively to it so I decided to double down and keep venting decades of pent-up feelings. That's really just how it went 🙈

[transfemme-shelterdog]

On the kink discourse: //CSA mention, suicidal ideation mention, OCD guilt + shame

Ageplay is another one of those really stigmatized kinks that people hate on even if both parties are consenting (because obviously there has to be some kind of abuse dynamic going on. demonization the Dom as well)

This is something that I've never admitted to in my life, but I love CG/L dynamics. I didn't really have a choice in developing it; I involuntarily age-regress and because of sexual abuse I faced as a child from my father, my brain has crossed wires and made it so whenever I (once again, involuntarily and usually because of a trigger) age-regress, my mind goes into a sexual space (subspace/littlespace). Or if I am in a sexual situation, my brain will cause me to age-regress as a coping mechanism.

For a long time I was ashamed of this, even to the point of getting rid of or hiding comfort items I would use during regression because I wanted it to feel as horrible as possible so it would stop happening (at least, that was my logic). I, at one point, had tried to get into SFW age-regression spaces but upon seeing the sometimes vitriolic reaction they had to CG/L people existing at all made me feel like I was unwelcome because of the unwanted feelings age-regression brought out in me. I ended up leaving those spaces because I felt so guilty that it was making me suicidal (I have Moral OCD, for reference). My brain was a constant stream of 'I'm sorry. I know I'm bad. I don't want this either. I want to be normal. Why am I so broken?' (This isn't to say that SFW age-regression spaces can't be a thing, I just wish there was more empathy for people in situations like mine)

It wasn't until I realized that I was acting in the same neglectful way towards myself that my parent's acted when I was a kid that I started being more gentle with myself. I still feel a lot of guilt and shame regarding this (which is why I'm on anon even while logged in to my kink blog. just having this blog has helped immensely with it, but it's still a work in progress).

(Also, I just want to say that I love your blog a lot. I love the nuance you give to lots of topics. It's oddly reassuring when I'm getting trapped in the OCD thought spirals about being a bad person)

You're more than welcome Anon. You're not a bad person for having agere coping mechanisms, and I hope you realize that. Everyone copes with trauma in their own ways, and no way is more or more less valid than another. It's neither morally good, nor bad to cope the way you are, and that means that you have all the right to do whatever helps with your trauma best.

You're a good person, and deserving of love and support. I hope you know that sweetheart.

Agere all you want and all you need, I'll always be here to defend and support you. <3

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> "... Ignore him. Can you help me in any way? I'm kind of stuck in a weird elevator right now."

> "I... don't know who or what you are, but all I know is a feeling that you can help me. So please, uh, do that?"

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[ohprcr]

Hello! I've followed your art journey throughout the years on several social medias (though I tend to made and then deactivated accounts as often as breathing due to my impulsiveness haha). I want to start learning art seriously, inspired by you. And tbh I usually got motivation to keep going by putting my progress on the internet, even when no one is looking nor gives me validation, it just feels like I did something rather than keeping the progress to myself. Like, I need a visual tracker.

So I'd love to know your opinion on the pro and cons of the social medias you use to share your art? Especially instagram, twitter, and tumblr (Since I plan on making one each). What kind of culture and rules I must abide, what notice I should take. Which platform is the most comfortable for you? And do you always post the same artworks on all your platforms or you have your own classification on what kind of artwork you'll put on instagram, which one is for twitter, etc? Thanks in advance!

Hi!

First of all thanks for asking me! It's so nice to hear that you're planning to share your art ^^ This is probably gonna a bit long and mostly based on my personal experience, but I hope this helps!

The first socmed I use to mostly (and solely) post art was Instagram. My interactions there are mostly reconnecting with art mutuals from the deviantART days and some RL friends/family. I used to post regularly on Instagram but with how the algorithm works now that they're under Meta, I rarely participate in trends or post reels, and I mostly just post finished art and some speedpaint videos. But if you want you can def use the reels feature to create process video, etc. I like the carousel/stringed together image format and it can be utilized to post a lot of images in one post (up to 20 for now). I also use instagram as some kind of portfolio, with how it present a clean grid. I have RL friends and family following me there so I mostly just post general art, nothing too suggestive.

As for Tumblr, I've had it for quite a long time and it can be traced back to the ol'fandom days haha. I don't participate much in fandoms anymore, but I think it's always a good thing to post either original or fanart with proper tags on Tumblr. The comprehensive tagging method lets you scrounge and filter posts under the tag, so my older posts usually still circulate on other people's blogs even years after it was posted (which I'm grateful that they still enjoy my old stuff!). I mostly post finished art on Tumblr, sometimes multiple images in one post but it's a bit limited compared to Instagram. i don't post videos on here. I also use Tumblr as an archive bc it's much easier to track back my old posts.

The most recent socmed I use is Twitter. Maybe it's already a known fact how the site is kinda falling off after it changed to X :" but I still use it mainly to communicate with friends. I post more liberally on Twitter, from finished art, videos, animation, sketches and personal stuffs as well. It's also where my promotional posts get the most reach in terms of visibility (this includes commissions, merch catalogues, etc) and most clients I've had in the past found me there. I think the community is also more active on Twitter, but sometimes it can also lead to discourses/fighting that I don't rly wanna take part in :" I've seen people moving to Bluesky as well, though I personally haven't used it yet.

All in all I think I mostly crosspost my works across all of my socmed, with a few exceptions on each socmed. I hope this helps and happy posting!!

[mithrilhearts]

Mithrilhearts: The Fandom Experience

It's hard to believe that I've been a part of the Tolkien fandom for four years now. Time really does fly when you're having fun, but it has changed (for me) drastically since I first stepped foot into the creating world for Tolkien.

I've tried to engage in other fandoms before this one, with no real luck. But this fandom, Bagginshield, was the first place I felt like I contributed something worthwhile. It was so much fun, and I've made some amazing friends along the way even if some of our fandoms have diverged, leading to other paths, but we still stay in contact. That's been my favorite part.

The friendships.

I won't lie, there have been some mighty frustrations along the way the more I participated. I was new to fandom, I had never experienced "discourse" or "fandom politics”, and I really wish I hadn't. I want to open a dialogue with those who also enjoy [thing] without these things. It's made me want to take a significant step back.

I have learned that I am not a fan of moderating large fandom social groups (i.e. discord servers, or fandom themed blogs), and treating this enjoyment like a regular 9-5 job, where at times my actual job felt more enjoyable.

I feel like I've grown over my time in the fandom, and I want to keep progressing myself, just as I want to fall in love with Tolkien/Bagginshield again - but I don't need to be a part of it always. Thus I am taking a step back in participating. No events, no moderating [big things], and just focusing on what makes me happy.

With that, I'm fully charging towards posting my first Dragon Age fic here very soon! I'm so excited to branch out into other places I love, and hope that some of you are also ready to journey into Thedas! I've loved these games for SO long, and I'm surprised it took me this long to actually make things for it.

I'm applying the same rules for myself when engaging with new fandoms to come: no big social groups, no discourse, just fun. Let's enjoy the fandom(s) together 💖

[genderqueerdykes]

part of me wants to revive my old ace/aro positivity/advice sideblog and part of me still hurts and shies away from it because of the discourse and some of the shit i went through on that blog just for daring to say that aces and aros are queer.

how do you do it? how do you keep a blog like this going when there's just constant nasty bullshit coming in? i miss running it and i miss being the one who got to tell people who weren't sure who they were that they could be whatever they felt and that they were welcomed and loved. but i do not miss regularly getting told to kill myself or that i need therapy.

you know, that's a very good question, i haven't thought about that

it is very hard and i'm sorry people have treated you that way. i don't know why people are so determined to be as rude as possible about aspec people. like folks are just ruthless and it makes no sense because romance and sex are so normalized in our culture that people who step outside of what is considered "normal" for human attraction are very much queer. someone who refuses to partner because it doesn't interest them is very queer. someone who enjoys erotica but not sex is very queer.

it is hard, i will give you that. i do receive a fair amount of nasty messages, but i've noticed they've decreased recently because periodically i go into the terf and rad fem tags to block everyone who is participating in those communities. i'm very proactive with the block feature, i will use it if i feel unsafe, uncomfortable or like that person would be unproductive to interact with. i naturally have a sort of confidence to me that comes with my autism. i know i'm right about what i'm talking about (most of the time). if someone wants to challenge me, that's their business, but i'm generally very sure of myself and what i want to say

i am also heavily medicated, so keep that in mind. i do take several medications for anxiety, bipolar disorder, and so on. so a lot of the time my emotions are kept in check by my meds. i've been in therapy for a very long time and if things arise i can talk to my therapist or friends about it. generally online trolling doesn't bug me because i've spent most of my time online ever since i was a kid. i'm very used to the patterns that manifest when people want to bother someone else. i don't like giving rude people what they want

i remind myself that rude people are entitled. they expect the world to work the way they want it to, but that's just not how life goes. i also have DID, which means i have other people living in my head with me that can take over if i get too frustrated. generally i quickly journal out my feelings, delete the ask, and then move on. the greatest piece of advice i can give you is that you do *not* have to answer every single ask or message. if an ask pisses you off so bad that you can't formulate constructive thoughts on it, just delete it. you don't owe internet strangers anything

generally i'm very socially oriented. i really, really enjoy talking to people. because i've always had very progressive beliefs, i'm very much used to people trying to challenge me on what i know about the world and how things work. i lived with republicans and libertarians early on in my life and saw the fascist patterns in their behavior and wanted nothing more but to discuss how life really can be more gentle, welcoming and opening.

after i started this blog, i realized that there are people who are hellbent on misunderstanding you and that's something you just have to cope with. it's literally impossible to make people all think and feel the same way on a given subject, humanity is too diverse for that. there will always be someone who wants to misunderstand what you're saying in order to suit their own narrative. once i was reminded of the strawman fallacy, i began to realize that so many people literally just make up people to be offended on their behalf. people make up problems where they don't exist. some people literally wake up in the morning to do this and you can't change it- and that's alright. you can always block and ignore them. just because they got under your skin doesnt mean you owe them anything.

honestly, sometimes a person is cut out for it, and sometimes they're not- not saying you're not. it's *very* hard to do this, don't feel like you're a failure or anything. it's very exhausting at times. i take breaks and answer asks when i can for that reason. i don't want a schedule. i don't want to force myself to do this every single day. it's a job, but it's not. i like being an activist. i like helping. and i like changing people's minds. i don't mind having stressful conversations, because they're the ones people avoid the most. i've never been scared of having "tough" conversations. again, my autism helps me out in this regard

i think at the end of the day it's my love for other people that drives me. i've always been selfless and put others before myself. i really care about community and people uniting, it's literally my goal and passion in life. i've always wanted to become some type of figurehead in the community who is here to help. so for me, it's aligned with what i want to do in life. i'm aware that i have to take some blows in order to do it, so i do my best to take em on the chin

i hope that made sense or helped at all. i'm here to try to help spread awareness for folks like you who maybe can't due to mental health reasons. it's absolutely okay to not be able to keep up with it because of the amount of absolutely rude comments. i do what i do for people like you. maybe in time you'll be able to do so again. good luck out there! take care of yourself

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for calling a nineteen-year-old character a kid?

(For context, I (19FtM) am autistic and they refused to elaborate on anything and never asked anything clearly.)

I have an RP character with his own blog, and on that blog I wrote a post from his POV, where he called himself a kid and implored an institution in the fandom (SCP Foundation) to treat him like a person. I had just turned 19 at the time and still considered myself a kid and the adults in my life considered people my age (18-20) to be children who could vote. I know a bit about brain development and had been taught that mental maturation is a physical process. The character is immortal (born 1349) but, because his brain can't age, he's still got the physical brain structure of an eighteen-year-old guy. He's still mentally eighteen and will always be mentally eighteen.

For the next three hours, I was bombarded by anons telling me how creepy that was and that I shouldn't have done this. I didn't understand and defended my choice. I talked about brain development (they instantly turned this into "the character is brain-damaged" and when I said he wasn't but mentioned that I am, they started being pretty ableist about that.) I also mentioned that both the character and I don't do anything with minors and find even the thought to be disgusting (they were calling my use of the word kid to somehow be paedophilic,) and they said that sounded like something a paedo would say. To my knowledge, I did nothing other than call this character a kid and defended it by pointing out the ways 18 is an adolescent and that neither of us were doing anything harmful with it.

There were a few minor issues the anons never directly mentioned (he makes his own medication because he doesn't trust other people not to drug him and because his metabolism is significantly enhanced, they didn't like this. They didn't like him being a level 6 mutant but I think I should be allowed to write a level 6 mutant. Two of his children are white, but all of his children are adopted. He has a husband who is immortal and 19. He uses a name not from his culture, meaning not Aztec, because he survived the Aztec genocide and chose a new one to fly under the radar, which I guess is a fair point but they never addressed that directly.) But almost all asks were about the age thing. They got progressively angrier and started calling me a paedo for calling him a kid, and they told me to end my own life.

When I asked one of the people involved in the discourse (part of the RP community I had reached out to immediately before this all went down,) she was weird. She insisted I should know why calling him a kid was creepy and refused to elaborate. She claimed they had been far more direct about the other issues, but I had a maximum of one ask per issue and none of them even directly called it an issue. I made an apology post even though I still didn't understand what I'd done and she said it just made the issues worse.

At this point, I made a "screw an apology I'm not sorry for anything" post criticizing the hours of hatred and told them to block me, then disabled anon.

Clearly I'm missing something, but they refused to tell me what I was missing and they told me to end my life. Is it really so wrong for a fictional 18-year-old to call himself a kid? If so, can one of you please explain why?

What are these acronyms?

[velvetvexations]

I'm about to collapse into bed but I think I'm gonna take like. A small, one day break from discourse. You can still send asks about whatever and I will answer them! I'm just gonna briefly abstain from starting engagements and going into tags.

Sometimes it's necessary to take a moment and remember I have Actual Anger Issues, like that is a thing about me, I tag stuff where I'm really angry for a reason because it's not just me being mad it's me boiling like an ice cube on Mercury.

Yesterday and today I got worked up enough about Werewolf Comic to snap at someone I assumed was more dickish than they turned out to be. After the first I did search the second person's blog first to make sure I felt like I should be properly pissed at them and we certainly disagree on a lot, but then when they answered my ask it was like...oh, I feel bad now, I think you're a genuine person and we just really disagree on a lot.*

I really need to work on the boundary between addressing things that actually need addressing and just picking fights to vent, because I don't really like that I'm like that. It's embarrassing.

On the plus side, I think I'm already making progress because recently I also held back from being really aggressive twice and both times resulted in fairly civil discussions. I think I need to not necessarily be less angry or quit lashing out entirely, but stop doing so semi-randomly just to blow off steam.

Again, nothing about your behavior changes! Message me anytime anywhere about anything other than what's in my pinned.

*maybe, it a little bit triggers my self-consciousness about how hard it is for me to maintain appropriate aggro when people act patient and reasonable even when they positions they hold may warrant it, but they didn't seem hateful or otherwise deliberately malicious

[pizzapottah]

Hello! I just came to tell you something important: you are loved. You are an incredible author even if you've only written a few chapters. Don't feel pressured to write more. I know very well what it's like to have artist block, and don't let others pressure you and ruin your experience.

It may sound cheesy, but your blog is one of my safe spaces, the vibe you give off, your fun attitude and way of writing gives me a feeling of comfort, thank You for that 💗🤗

this! I love this. thank you so much nonnie, and I'm sorry but I'm going to rant about this like the rat I am because there's a discourse I just can't get out of my head.

so, when I started writing, I knew what I wanted to write. all my fanfics (mostly the longer ones, even the first ones I wrote that aren't on here) have like drama and sad, sad things before we finally reach the happy ending. I wanted to be the writer that no matter how much made you cry still managed to make you happy in the end.

before joining the hotd fandom I didn’t really know what kind of people were in it, but I figured I'd find someone who liked soft family fics like me (even if most "family fics" in this fandom include incest lmao, no judgement tho I can see their point of view in the got universe) and I'm sooo happy that my stories reached such a big audience! I must say that I never received hate asks like other authors on this platform (only some ambiguous ones that I never took seriously and replied to with a joke or two) so maybe that's also why I managed to keep such a safe space around my blog.

let's get to the point: I hate when authors reply to asks badly. like, man, that's one of your followers 😭 I get replying to anon hate with insults, even if I probably would just ignore it for the sake of the nice vibe of the blog (hate breeds hate) but genuinely clueless followers? god.

sometimes I see authors replying really rudely to asks and I feel bad. it's not like they're insulting you and your writing, they're just rambling about your story because they liked it so much. I received a lot of asks that from my point of view mischaracterized the princess or cregan, but that's MY point of view. I know what their dynamic is going to be, how it's going to progress, etc. a reader can't know how it will, so they're free to think about it, and I'm only happy that they feel that this blog is chill enough to share their ideas without me attacking them for it lmao.

so yeah, I hate rude people and I made it my mission to be as nice as possible in my blog and outside of it. the fact that it's now become a safe space fills me with happiness tbh :')

[deejwalker]

Do you know there will be a new Steven Universe spinoff on Amazon in the coming year?

Something called Lars of the Stars.

I imagine many will skip out but for Amazon alone. Politically, I believe most should.

I won't. And I won't have it skepticized of me, either.

I'll just tell you all now. It'll be on the blog at some point in full view and discussion for sure.

Please understand what picking and choosing your battles entails in this fight. Feeling secure in your minority and wanting comfort and peace with the things you enjoy as they pertain to your politics isn't hypocritical in my opinion. I believe that's more consistent than what some would ask me to be.

All that to say, I'm totally pirating the Steven Universe spinoff when it comes out, analyzing it. Talking about it from my own observational realm as a fellow intersectional queer creative, and if anyone wants to argue that with me of all people, the door is there.

Not only is Pink Lars my favorite cartoon character design, SU as a whole, (show, cast and crew) was and still is deeply important to me. I would argue that while a third show may not be, that first is as good as any brick towards mental institutions to queer kids everywhere.

I would not be helping people on tumblr here right now, if that first show never reached me. Argue all you fucking want. I would not be here if AJ Universe didn't have Steven Universe theories on YouTube. I still follow him here in fact. I've discussed his own novel with him and while we are not friends, man, I just respect their voice and brand.

You may not owe progressive creatives in an industry anything and never Amazon, but I want to know if they have new things to say with their metaphor and so I won't have discourse about it here.

I'm writing a queer ass melee combat dystopia of my own this year. Notes from cartoons, Shonen and comics make up the bulk of my own analytical and thematic critique of the genre I hope to write novels in, some kind of YA sci fantasy thriller. As a well as my classical literature and public speaking dogmatic stylings.

In my opinion, animation is finally back as of like 2 years ago, and capitalist politics make it hard and sometimes impossible to support every project.

I wish not to advise anyone to watch and support it, rather. Please understand those creatives who study narratives just like it in the face of boycott.

I'm DJ Walker. A poet, mostly, atm. And I just wanna know, if the new show is as alt as it sounds, does my passion project have the demographic more or less dead to rights, and I'd love to tell you all first if it's not any good in it's personal explorations of cartoon ethics.

So I'll see. I totally will see. Probably will have fun even if I love it or hate it. ✌️

[raconteur-wanpi]

Holy shit I'm so glad I'm not on Twitter, I just saw someone say that if you think Sanji & Usopp have any parallels or anything interesting about their dynamic to be explored whatsoever you must "really hate Sanji" or "be delusional and not be reading the text" like. Huh??????????? Where is this malice coming from what is going on. Usopp hate is insane. What did he ever do to you he's just a silly guy. Where is this anger coming from. This is so foreign to me I'm genuinely flabbergasted. Didn't know that exploring the potential of a character dynamic somehow means you must hate or must be putting down other dynamics said characters might have. Is this Shipbrain? Is this "it threatens my other hot yaois that I like better"? Are we in 2012? No room for interpretation and character dissection anymore? Even on a platonic level this bothers you????

"Sanji ONLY has parallels or interesting dynamics with THESE specific sets of characters, and bringing up anyone else means you disrespect those" what. That's. Not how that works it's not a Limited Resouce. I've talked about his dynamics with Franky, Luffy, Robin, the rest of the Vinsmokes, with Chopper, etc. Does that mean... I hate Sanji??? Huh? Can anyone hear me. Tumblr is such a joyous heaven, what's going on in other social media sites. Hello????

Let love and whimsy into your heart brother, it's OK. Literary analysis is fun. Some things are not direct text, sometimes you have to dig into it and that's part of the fun. It's really fun actually. And it can still 100% respect the original text and not be baseless. You Don't have to agree with every interpretation. Certainly, you wouldn't assume someone "hates" a character they've shown consistent obsession and love for right? Right?

This is a silly shounen manga. It's a book club we're all a gay ass book club here. A gay ass book club about a Saturday morning action comic book aimed at teens and young adults. I can guarantee you my takes, even if misguided sometimes, come from a place of love and passion of the text and its analysis, and it's OK if it looks a bit absurd to you. Sometimes I exaggerate in my excitement when I'm trying to make a point because I'm just rambling late at night on my personal small blog or whatever, and then I think my meta over and come to slightly different or more nuanced conlcusions etc. It's a progress of constant dissection. But such strong language to what I have to say, to the point of wild assumptions and misinterpretation of my points is.... a strange reaction to have. Especially behind the back of the people you're disagreeing with. This Dissing Session Could Have been A Private Discord Bonding Ritual Instead of A Public Display of Condescension.

Sorry for putting all this negativity and petty pointless 2014 level fandom discourse on your dash but I just need to make sure I'm not insane. I'm never leaving this site, I'm so glad I deleted my xitter account like a few months ago.

[harpskae]

for those who once felt stuck in this reality

in other words a rant about my current situation regarding shifting

first of all, don't read this if you are currently demotivated to shift. I don't know what or how much I am going to be writing but this is just a rant about my own frustrations on the topic so I doubt I will say anything too motivating from the perspective of a third party (+ I won't proofread). in fact I don't think I will even link this to my masterlist since I don't want to formally spread negativity in what regards shifting in my blog.

having said that.

I know what shifting is. I might not have experienced my DR as for now, but I know how it feels. and how it is. I have experienced shifting in other ways. and I know it is normal to feel like my "shifting journey" isn't going anywhere, because there is in fact no journey. the act of shifting realities is simply that. an act. an act as brief as blinking to many. my ideas on the topic are clear and settled, but I am human, and hence not only do I doubt but I get inevitably tired of trying as well.

you see, I have been in this for quite a while. I don't keep track too closely, nor I believe my progress/ focus on shifting has been linear during all these years, yet I cant help but feel helpless.

I am confident in my mindset, I know for a fact I can shift. I have done it before. so not only I am sure I have the ability to shift but I am also completely certain that shifting is real. I also know just how real it is and feels, which tbh is an immense privilege that could easily spark envy among the many shifters who have yet to experience any actual shifts on their "shifting journey." so I really am in no position to complain. I know.

shifting is such an abstract skill to get the hang of. the issue is not that it´s difficult, it is simply not like riding a bike. no one can really tell you how to do it, what will work for you. you have to figure it out on your own. and even when you think you have it all figured out, you still might not be able to ride the bike. thats how I feel right now. not because you actually can't, not because you don't know how to do it, not because you don't know how the bike works, and definitely not because some higher entity (no universe, not you, not anyone) is holding you back or not allowing you to.

I guess there is a factor to shifting we still collectively can´t really pinpoint. maybe it is just really a matter of consistency. maybe I don't know. truth is I cant say anything, because just as many many shifters —including both the ones who have harbored tons of experience and the ones who are just finding out about shifting— i don't really and truthfully know anything about what makes us shift.

throughout the long discourse shifting has generated during the past years in multiple social media platforms, the one thing I feel like is slowly becoming the common denominator in everyone's mindset is that we don't really need anything in order to shift. we don't need any specific position, nor to drink gallons of water before shifting. we don't even need a method. we don't need ANYTHING. and thats cool. I love that. but sometimes I wish I needed to do something to shift. I wish there was a fucking factual guide or handbook to shift. I wish I could just do something, check it off my to do list and wake up in my DR. and I know what you might be thinking rn: but lu, you can quite literally do that! and if you are thinking that. you absolutely right! but thats besides the point. I have been doing that. I don't have anything to change about the way I view this whole thing, and although I love researching on shifting so I will forever continue to do so, I have already researched enough on the topic. I don't even complain much about my progress or lack of thereof. I don't consider this vent to be something characteristic of me in any way, since I have always had a very positive outlook on the whole thing. I know I will shift, but why hasn't it happened yet? precisely when I know am not doing anything wrong

thats the only thing I currently despise about my situation. there isn't anything "right" for me to do to shift. so im not doing anything wrong. but idk man. I don't even know anything. I just know I am not the person to give up on anything I know is worth my effort. and experiencing my DRs are worth everything. good night.

thank you for reading.