#neuro-tic

[little-neuro-tic]

Не приучайте детей к сцене

У меня дикие проблемы с социализацией. И обнаружилось это месяца два с половиной назад, когда я устроились на работу. Потому что тут не только работа -- тут целая куча людей, с которыми надо поддерживать еще и социальные связи. И для меня это дичайше тяжело. Я долго пытались понять, почему. Примерно так же долго я пытаюсь понять, почему у меня не получается вести блоги и даже просто записи в дневник делать. Долгое время это объяснялось моей хаотической натурой, и только сейчас я поняли, почему.

Долгое время �� были тем ребенком, который был в центре внимания. С первого класса -- конкурсы стихов, брейн-ринги, соревнования, олим��иады, роль ведущего мероприятий итд итп. Постоянные оценки моих проявлений и меня, как человека. В контрасте с этим -- травля в саду, в школе, в очень многих коллективах. Одним словом -- социальная депривация.

И это создало во мне установку -- тебя оценят хорошо только если ты "на сцене" покажешь свои таланты. Покажешь, какие ты крутые, умные, творческие, красивые может быть. То есть, принятие, одобрение и внимание, которого я так жаждали в детстве (и которого так-то жаждут все дети) можно получить только если ты выдающийся и проявляешь себя, как выдающийся.

И это породило тревогу. Постоянную мысль о том, что меня будут оценивать. Постоянное ожидание, получу ли я "главный приз" -- внимание и принятие. И постоянное же волнение перед "сценой" -- любой диалог, любая прогулка с другом, любой даже поход в магазин. Потому что у меня не было другого опыта принятия, кроме как через сцену. От родителей его тоже было немного -- меня ценили только за что-то. Оценки, достижения, порядок в комнате, чистые вещи. Что я собираюсь со всем этим делать? Хороший вопрос. Прежде всего -- возобновить заново все свои блоги и писать так, как велит текущее состояние моего сознания. Да, с оглядкой на то, что меня будут оценивать. Но так как в моей жизни больше нет ни "сцены", ни даже оценок за контрольные, а принятие мне нужно, я буду добиваться его через посты. В вк, в тви, здесь, где угодно. Это может показаться нелогичным, но на самом деле интернет-сообщество является в какой-то мере аватаром общества реального. Где людям по большей части пофиг. В реале -- прошел мимо и не заметил, в интернете -- листнул ленту и забыл, что только что увидел. И мне нужно привыкнуть именно к такой реакции на проявления себя. Которая не будет значить неодобрение, ненависть, презрение или что-нибудь еще. А которая будет значить то, что обычно и значит -- просто равнодушие. Которое не конец света и не оценка меня, как плохого писателя/художника/блогера итд. Нужно привыкнуть к такой реакции. Понять, что никакой сцены больше нет. Как и нет жюри, которые будут оценивать меня от одного до пяти баллов. Их нет. Есть только жизнь. Где всем пофиг.

И еще, просьба от моего внутреннего ребенка тем, кто нашел в себе силы это прочитать и у кого есть дети. Не тащите их на сцену с ранних лет. Не ставьте их в ситуацию, где их ценность будет измеряться наличием или отсутствием грамоты. Ребенок не потеряет ничего, если не начнет свою предполагаемую карьеру с пяти лет. Да и кажется мне, что выбор между карьерой и здоровой психикой всё-таки очевиден. Всегда ваш, котик-невротик.

[pier-carlo-universe]

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[someoneq]

yeah, I saw a thing ages ago on Instagram calling them sensory tics so that's how I refer to them. to me it's often for places I don't have tics or things I physically can't do but sometimes it just sits in my neck and shoulders and doesn't go no matter what I do

Does anyone else with Tourette's get massive random surges of premonitory urge that no matter what you tic it won't calm down? It feels like there's flaming electric ants crawling around in my veins all around my body. It's so incredibly horrible and painful. But it isn't like any other type of pain, it's a unique kind of pain specific to this. I hate it so very much.

[chaoticedward]

scout has tourettes syndrome and doesn't know it. constantly finds himself ticcing 'boink!' and 'bonk!' and 'aw jeez' randomly and isn't sure why. everyone thinks that's just how scout is, because it is, and he plays all of them off as things he meant to say.

also keeps flipping people off (tic) and has been doing so randomly since childhood (me too)

thinks he is fucking tweaking out when he has his first tic attack and medic is like "oh. you just have a neuro disorder. it's fine, scout we all know." and hes like lowkey pissed. now hes on risperidone.

[fentrashcat]

So going forward if I'm describing tics in detail I'll add "tic depiction" in the tags as well as on top of the post. Self injurious tics will be tagged "self injurious tic depiction". I want to make sure if you're prone to picking up tics or to start ticcing when they're described (like me on bad days) that you can more easily avoid it.

Also! So long as everything goes to plan, I've scheduled my Tourette's Awareness Month posts. They are roughly grouped into Medical (May 15-21), Personal (May 23-June 1), and Social (June 3- June 15), but some may overlap multiple categories. Anyway, here's the schedule:

May 15: Intro and Overveiw- a general introduction to what Tourette's is.

May 16: Vocab+Slang- quick vocabulary recap and going over slang I've seen used or might use myself.

May 17: Comorbidities- a deeper look into conditions that are common alongside Tourette's

May 18: Rest/Open Day- I've sprinkled in some breaks so I don't get burnt out, but also so if another topic comes up that I feel needs an entire post.

May 19: Genetic or Environmental- Causes of Tourette's were a little iffy at best last year so I want to revisit that.

May 20: Triggers- This will go over common triggers as well as my own triggers.

May 21: Treatments- what treatments are available.

May 22: Rest/Open day

May 23: Diagnosis and Tics- this will be about how I got diagnosed and some of my common tics.

May 24: Day to Day- how my tics affect my life.

May 25: Tics+Art- how my Tourette's affects my art.

May 26: Silly Tics- some of my kind of stupid, kinda funny happenings with my tics (also using humor to cope)

May 27/28: Neurologist Experience/Rest day- I have a neuro appointment on the 27 so I'd like to talk about that, but not sure if I can in the same day though so these are interchangeable.

May 29: Tourette's and Work- my experience as a tourettic person in the work force.

May 30: Applying for Disability- how did applying for disability go for me

May 31: Adapting- some of the things I've noticed I've changed to accommodate my tics

June 1: Tourettic and Queer- since Pride Month overlaps with Tourette's Awareness Month, I figured I'd talk about my experience with both.

June 2: Rest/Open Day

June 3: Tips and Advice- just some ideas to help people with Tourette's.

June 4: What to do for my Friend with Tourette's?- for people who don't have Tourette's but want to know how to help

June 5: Avoiding Abilism- talking about off handed comments that can come off really poorly

June 6: Infantilization of Tourette's- an expansion of avoiding abilism

June 7: Rest/Open day

June 8: Social Stigma- overview of the stigmatization of Tourette's

June 9: Faking and Fake Claiming- both of these are harmful to the Tourettic Community, and I'd like to talk about why

June 10: Tourette's in the Media- how Tourette's is often depicted in media

June 11: Better Representation- what could change moving forward

June 12: Rest/Open Day

June 13: Tourettic Celebs and Creators- a collection of tourettic people you may not know about or may not know they have Tourette's

June 14: Organizations and Resources- some organizations that were very helpful with learning about or spreading awareness for Tourette's

June 15th: Why do all this?- A message about why this is so important and why I'll never stop talking about it.

[queersekai]

♿️ (neuro/persodivergent) niigo and vbs, thank you!

Kanade has PTSD and OCPD, Mafuyu is plural (you choose what kind) and has SzPD, Ena has HPD and NPD, Mizuki has HPD and panic disorder, Kohane has generalized anxiety and AvPD, An has BPD and HPD, Akito has BPD and a chronic tic disorder, and Toya is depressed and has OCPD.

PSD by me!

[maeinthekinning]

Random reminder. Aspd is a neurodivergence.

Limiting neurodivergences to just neurodevelopmental disorders closes off swaths of divergenciencies in neuro (the brain)

If you claim that even though aspd has genetic roots that cause it has symptoms enhanced by childhood trauma and neglect that therefore not a neurodivergence, you are claiming adhd isn't a neurodivergence.

Even neurodevelopmental disorders includes a lot more variety then just adhd and autism.

So, if you are just talking about autism. Say autism.

If you are just talking about autism and adhd, say that.

If you are just talking about neurodevelopmental disorders, say that. But make sure to include things that might make you uncomfortable like tic disorders

And if you say neurodivergence still, include all. Including if it makes you uncomfortable like aspd might for you.

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

leg been feeling. idk how call it. tic-cky? spasm-y? like when you get neuro exam doctor hit you below knee but kick stronger than normal? like before you do any of those things the build up the tension? but same time none of that bc not actual first two n haven’t had neuro exam since these weeks started feeling this way so. SHRUG

[buf309]

Unnamed MTNN story - the basic plot

Neuro and the Demon Emperor were born from a twin set of eggs. Neuro hatched first, thus, was the older one.

Why a twin? Because I need someone with equal power to kick his ass. I haven’t found a satisfying name for The Emperor yet. “Tic” as in “neurotic” is too lame. Need to search for some brain illness in the future.

Neurodegenerative? Degenera? Degen?

For now, just call him Emp for short.

They look quite alike, same coloring, same build, same power level, same sadist personality, etc. but Neuro is more cunning and adventurous, while Emp is more serious and traditional-ish (he believes in “Fate” like all other demons in Hell).

With his power and birth-right, after they killed off the previous Demon Emperor, Neuro would have become one, but he hated the responsibilities, so he gleefully stomped those demons who suggested that into the ground then left, travelled around to search for mysteries (his food source). Emp is very respectful toward Neuro, often let him do whatever the hell he like. That’s why he told Yako that he didn’t look up to anyone in Hell and everyone else had to bow down to him when he passed by.

Neuro eats the negative energy people emit when they try to cover their crime. Emp eats the positive energy of someone who is happy and hopeful. So, when Hell ran out of positive energy, became the dark hole of misery it is today, Emp went into deep sleep, hibernated until things changed for the better, left everything in Neuro’s hand.

About 5 years after Neuro returned to the Above World from his three-year absence, the Demon Emperor wakes up from his hibernation. He calls for Neuro but can’t find him anywhere. When Emp finds out that Neuro moved to human world and has not returned since then, he goes after Neuro to take him back to Hell, because that world is too poisonous for a demon to live in, even if that demon is as powerful as his brother. Moreover, Emp believes that his brother’s rightful place is by his side in Hell, any otherwise options are simply not acceptable.

Move to the detectives, Neuro has almost become fully human, perhaps 70% already. He still stronger than a regular human but dangerously weakened. Yako is 24 years old, beautiful, well-known and very successful. She has her friends, family, her cases, and most importantly, her partner. Life can’t be happier and better in her opinion.

Neuro senses Emp’s arrival. He’s concerned about what could happen but doesn’t say anything.

When Emp crashes into their office, he sees Neuro’s condition, he is not happy. He asks Neuro to return to Hell for his health, Emp doesn’t want Neuro to become human, he wants his brother back. Neuro refuses, his goal, The Ultimate Mystery, has still not appeared yet. Emp doubts that is the reason he wants to stay in this world. He senses an extremely strong bond between Neuro and Yako, so he assumes that Yako has found a way to capture and tie his brother to her.

Emp tries to drain all of Yako’s positive energy so that she will become just a shell of her former self. Of course, Neuro will never let that happen to anyone, who’s under his protection, right in front of his eyes, let alone his dear partner. It’s a territorial thing, not that Neuro has become soft because he is almost a human already, really…

They fight. Neuro, to protect his right to stay in the Above World and his partner; Emp, to kill Yako and free Neuro from her clutch.

Soon, Neuro loses, badly injured. He is simply too weak for a fresh demon just come out of Hell.

Emp is about to take Neuro back to Hell, Yako interferes with Akane’s help and whichever side characters (I feel like drawing when I get to that part) back her up. They manage to distract Emp enough for Yako to take Neuro back from his grasp. Then, Emp squads them away like flies. He’s extremely pissed off. Emp kicks Yako away from Neuro and repairs to kill her for good this time.

But, to everyone’s surprise that he could still move, Neuro takes that hit for Yako. With no energy left to put it back together, his body breaks into dust. He simply smirks at her, whispers a half-heart insult: “What with that ugly face, top-slug? I… just need to shut my eyes… for a bit…” then collapses.

Two desperate screams can be heard that moment. One is inhuman and enraged, the other is in denial and heart-broken.

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Not sure what will happen next yet, just some random ideas.

Ultimate Mystery perhaps is Love. To be specific, the negative energy cause by repressing your love for someone you can’t have or the regret of losing that love without confessing (like in HAL case, Neuro acted like he was sugar-high after eating Hal’s mystery). That’s what Neuro has always been searching for but doesn’t have a clue what it actually is, because love is an alien concept to him.

Maybe? At least, a certain analysis on NeuYako livejournal forum believes so, and, personally, it makes a lot of senses to me. Need to reread it soon.

OK. So, Neuro gets the Ultimate Mystery mentioned above from Yako, and is revived (?) or evolved (?) like a Pokémon. Fight back and triumph over Emp. Teach Emp a lesson about not pushing his beak into places where he’s not wanted.

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PROBLEM:

- After that, Neuro won’t need to eat mysteries to survive anymore, he would stay a demon, or turn into a human, or become what? An angel? (if the theory that demon = fallen angel is true). Oh well, I like that theory so I may just take that ball and run with it. Or a… bird dragon? Hmm… Cool!

- Majin = evil person = a person without a heart. Then, if he gained a heart (aka love), he would simply become a person?

Ending… What ending?... Hmmm… Ok, clearly, Emp has to return to Hell. The two love-birds (pun intent) live happily ever after?

To be honest, there are many people think that Neuro will out-live Yako by centuries. But, to consider the difference in living environment, especially that human world is poisonous to Neuro’s health, I’m sure he will die far sooner than Yako if he keeps on staying there without coming back to Hell in between. In canon, the story happens during the span of more or less one year, live-or-dead battles aside, his health worsens considerably by the end. Becoming human or not, his condition’s going to detoriate as time passes and there’s nothing they can do to stop it. So… no, I don’t think they will ever get their happy-ever-after ending like in fairy tale.

Well, more reasons for Emp to drag Neuro’s ass back to Hell then…

If he has become almost a human, could he still be able to stand Hell’s environment when he came home? Are demon cells automatically revived whenever they contact with poisonous air in Hell?

Basically, human world = the ocean; mysteries = fishes; and Neuro = a seabird who try to live underwater hunting for fishes?

[radiomogai]

[PT: Typing tics pride flag. End PT]

Typing tics pride flag

A flag for anyone with typing tics, that has the compulsion to type their tics, etc :) this may be called coprographia/copropraxia (I believe. But lemme know if I’m wrong cause I just figured out these have a name)

[renee-writer]

The hate being poured out towards RFK Jr. is misguided, and hurts my heart.

I struggle with this subject so personally and deeply.

I know Robert Kennedy Jr. but not because of something that I am happy about.

In 2016, My daughters brain swelled after routine 🥕 It was slow and insidious, peaking at day 21 and resulting in her losing the ability to walk. She was 20 months old.

(Also its sad that im afraid of posting this with some words because of censoring in the past)

I stayed up nightly for years studying 🥕 I wanted to uncover the exact pathophysioolgy of why this happened to her that time.

It’s likely the aluminum adjuvant. Some kids are genetically pre-disposed with impaired methylation pathways.

MTHFR and several other gene variants.

It’s like a perfect storm. Then retained aluminum crosses the blood brain barrier causing a persistent neuro-inflammatory process.

In some kids it tics, allergies, autism, for Addy is was acute encephalitis.

She’s ok now, but Kennedy is advocating to change the adjuvants in the schedule so there is less risk.

I know him because he was at the capitol with us so many times as we faught for our medical exemptions to stay valid in California.

He was our only voice it seemed back then. But we lost. My family relocated because of that.

Pharma has spent billions on PR to slam anyone who points out this risk because it’s more expensive to re-formulate and test a new version of 🥕 than to try to create a safer option.

So I guess my wish is that the conversation could get more honest and nuanced. Kennedy cares more than anyone I’ve ever met. His heart is pure.

One size doesn’t fit all.

Also 73 before age 18 doesn’t make you healthier.

Love,

Laura and Addy

[furyblaze76tm]

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How to Save the Planet With Neurodiversity

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Neurodivergence is a term that describes people whose brains process information differently than what is considered typical. It can include conditions such as autism, ADHD, dyslexia, dyspraxia, dyscalculia, dysgraphia, and tics.

[radiomogai]

[PT: persistent/chronic tic disorder pride flags! end PT]

persistent/chronic tic disorder pride flags!

chronic motor tic disorder | chronic tic disorder (general, can be used for either) | chronic vocal tic disorder

i have chronic motor tic disorder and noticed that, while tourette’s syndrome has a flag, other tic disorders don’t! i’d be happy to receive feedback on these flags from other folks with tic disorders! these flags are first drafts based off of some simple ideas i had, so if anyone has changes they feel should be made, i’d love to hear them.

[wheelchairtetris]

Self hitting tics are getting progressively worse despite upping my medication to the highest dose my neuro is willing to go. I hate it here.

[kkoossuu]

missed a good opportunity to have my neuro appointment tomorrow but there’s no way i could’ve hid it. my parents might neglect me but if they discover im hiding something suddenly they’ll care. they’ve heard/seen my tics as a child and did nothing. now i have to get my diagnosis without making a fuss and while suppressing in front of them all the time. ugh.

[max1461]

I'm getting suicidal and need this to improve quickly.

Feels like normally I have some... mechanism, that has a variety of functions. It pushes away thoughts that are too upsetting, it occurs when I commit to a specific decision, it occurs when I exhibit emotional inhibition. Basically like something that puts the breaks on my immediate mental state and re-focuses my attention on higher level goals and commitments, or something. It's an inhibitory response I guess. I used to perceive this as a basically internal thing, with a physical correlate: usually when this response would trigger, I would feel a slight kind of "gulp" sensation, like a little bit of muscle movement in my upper throat?

Since I went to the dentist, it's felt like something in the back of my throat is numb or immobile, and therefore I can't trigger this inhibitory response. So my thoughts and emotions are all over the place, I keep feeling it trying to trigger and failing, and it's causing me huge problems.

I don't know which direction this goes. It's possible that it's some kind of tic, maybe I have Tourettes as one neuro suggested, and it's a tic that usually goes off, but it can't because of like nerve damage that's physically impeding it, so there's a build up of the premonitory urge? That certainly accords with a lot of the internal experience of this. Other possibility is like: so when I was at the dentist I was having a panic attack, and so I was intentionally impeding this inhibition response (because otherwise I would have been too afraid to get the local anesthetic shot). I do remember doing this, intentionally impeding this response. And I was panicking pretty hard. And when I was given the anesthetic, like I said, it felt kind of good at first, it felt like my panic was stripped away and my whole body felt warm and so on. So maybe I just... unlearned this inhibitory response in that moment? And I don't know how to trigger it again? Neither the psychological nor the physical side of this response seems to be working. There is a definite sensation that something in the back of my throat is "frozen".

And right, the weird mental imagery. As I've said elsewhere, I've always had very vivid mental imagery, including visuals, sound, smells, everything. Now it hasn't been this vivid in the past, and in the past I've been able to control it, obviously. But it usually is very vivid. I could make it as vivid as it currently is by concentrated sufficiently. The problem is it's like that all the time, and I have no control over the content. But the imagery itself isn't totally unprecedented for me. Two neurologists have mentioned synesthesia as playing a role, which I definitely have.

But, really, I have felt since the beginning that there is only one possible solution to this, which is to get that inhibitory mechanism back again. Can anyone help my brainstorm how I might do this? I have already tried a lot of stuff. I have tried relaxing and letting it come, I have tried focusing really hard and pushing it through. I have tried thinking about things that would normally trigger it. I have tried decoupling it from the physical movement, like trying to simply activate the mental side of it and ignore the physical. All of these have almost worked in the exact same way, where it totally feels like it's gonna come and then just doesn't.

One way or another this is destroying me and I really want a solution.

Oh, right. Right. I have other facial tics (that's the term I'll use), as I've said in other posts, associated with specific emotions. So if I'm sad or happy my face scrunches up in a particular way, etc. I would not previously have distinguished these from just "expressions", other than that presently it's clear there's a premonitory urge. These are also not working? But I think a lot of them also usually co-occur with the inhibitory response, so maybe that's why? One way or another, I have felt them coming out in other places. I have felt them try to trigger in my face, fail, and then trigger in my hand or my stomach. It's the same pattern of movements, immediately and intuitively recognizable as the same tic, but occurring in my hand or stomach. And it triggers a similar-but-alien-and-disconcerting emotional response as the one in my face would trigger. And I feel like as these incorrect tics(?) trigger, I am like relearning all my emotions into these crazy alien things.

I just fucking need this shit to stop. Does anyone have any new ideas?