#someone in a discord server managed to find it and posted it to the chat

[blimbo-buddy]

wait somebody commissioned some artist to animate dovewing dying??? what did i miss

lol yeah long story short a popular commissioner (won’t name drop) commissioned a popular WC animator to make an animation of their character coming out and killing DoveWing

They absolute hated her at the time and apparently this caused a huge amount of backlash when the animation dropped, the animator deleted the video and the commissioner came out to tell everybody to stop harassing them and their girlfriend over it

of course it’s weird to hate a female character so much you commission someone to animate your popular character killing her but it’s an entirely different thing for people to go and harass you and your girlfriend over it.

Of course this was a while ago and everybody’s moved on from it but still an odd moment. If you know who I’m talking about please don’t go and bother or harass the person/people involved

[goatgoesmbe]

tw : reader implied to have social anxiety, stalking

A series : discord shenanigans (Next)

AO3

Word count: 1808

rated: T

TF141 x f!reader

The welcome

This wasn't something you usually do, reaching out to strangers, seeking friends, socializing. It was only online, sure-- but you couldn't help the way your heart racing so hard you could feel it in your throat, your palms felt sweaty as you contemplated on clicking the link.

A discord server.

A public one at that.

Dedicated for people who took a liking on this FPS game you just got obsessed with. It was a pretty popular game, so you spent a lot of time looking for the one where it wouldn't be too crowded as to not overwhelm you. And surprisingly, you managed to find one.

It took you a few days to find it, scrolling at a few accounts that seemed to know each other very well. You tried to convince yourself that you weren't being creepy. After all, you followed one of them because you liked their posts which was mostly about games he recently played that you were also interested in, and also posts about a glimpse of his life. GazH8Heli.

You thought the guy was cool, definitely someone you wanted to get to know more.

But of course, you didn't have the courage to reach out.

Until.. today.

You saw his conversation in post replies about a gaming server which was opened for the public, even though the link wasn't shown in any post. Just told once in this particular reply.

Again, this wasn't something you usually do. You were content in being by your loneself with video games as your only companion.

But, this game you're recently obsessed with is a multiplayer game. And you were starting to get frustrated playing on random with strangers who couldn't cooperate.

Though, there is also a slight hope to find some kind of connection with someone. You were starting to get really lonely despite what you told yourself.

Just then you told yourself 'fuck it' and clicked on the link. Your heart racing so fast now that you felt nauseous-

"Welcomee..!!!" A message popped up on the screen, followed by the others who also welcomed you.

You fidgeted with the hem of your t-shirt as you watched the chat greeting you. It seemed like searching for a smaller server wasn't really a good idea. You should've expected this, for people to interact instead of ignoring a user who weren't their friends.

It seemed like there were four members who are active currently. CapBravo6 welcomed you first with a simple message, followed by the guy you followed-- greeting you in a more friendly manner by including heart emojis. The other one, Sexysoap69, spammed the chat with various silly gifs saying 'welcome' and you couldn't help but giggle. There was also a user who was seen as active but didn't appear in the chat, GhostSRK9.

They didn't show their faces on their icons (if Soap's mohawk didn't count), but from the vibes alone you could tell they were all guys who already know each other well.

You already feel like hiding at the thought of simply replying to their warm welcome, but you would overthink about it and feel even more horrible if you just ignored them. And so, you sent a message "Hello everyone, thank you for the welcome ^^"

You clicked sent before you could change your mind or overthink about how well the simple reply would be received. Fuck, you thought the emoji was nice, but now you read it again, it looked like you were trying too much-

Fortunately, the message was well received. too well..

Soap replied with a gif of a cartoon kissing the camera, while the others reacted to your reply with heart emojis.

And you realized that you've been smiling. God, you feel pathetic.

"How did you find this server?? 👀" Gaz asked. It was a simple question really, not a big deal. But you were starting to feel anxious again, like you were being interrogated for some kind of crime.

You couldn't think of anything better to say than the truth. "I actually found it in your social.. i hope it's okay, sorry"

And before you could overanalyze your own reply again, another message came. "Don't worry about it, I assume you're here because of the game then?" Gaz asked again, while you see Soap had been typing for a while now.. but hadn't sent anything more except for the previous gifs. You were thinking about being more considerate and letting Soap send his message first, but Kyle's message got your attention.

At his question, your fingers immediately danced on the keyboard. You proceeded to ramble about said game, your experience playing, how you've been up to date with every news about it, and a bit of bragging about your rank.

When you were done, you felt your heart sink when you saw that you practically just sent a whole essay. But before you could think anything bad about it- and yourself, the four reacted to it with various emojis. You found yourself smiling again.

"You gotta be lying about your rank.. no way" Gaz's message said.

"Yeah! Even Ghost's isn't that high" Soap added. You audibly giggle at this since you expected a longer message from how long he had been typing previously.

Despite being so very anxious earlier, you found yourself getting along with them just fine.

"I'm not lying, i just play a lot.." You contemplated on adding that it was because you have no life, but decided against it since you felt like it would be too self-deprecating for the first interaction.

"Prove them wrong, then" Price sent, the second message since the first one greeting you from when you just got in.

Despite your hands that were a bit shaky from both anxiety and excitement, you quickly opened the game and took a screenshot of your game profile before sending it to the server.

There were a lot of typing from their side before a message appeared.

"Just checked, it's real" Gaz sent before adding another one after. "Sent a friend request too ;)" You felt ashamed to blush at the emoji.

Soap sent another barrage of gifs. "Sent one too" He added after.

"Same here" Price chimed in.

Even Ghost finally appeared in the chat with a screenshot of him sending the request in the game.

You were definitely not used to this. Interacting with people so easily like you've known them for a while, and how well they received you, bombarding you with attention.

Once again, you felt pathetic for being giddy at something other people probably think as normal.

"Okay.. just accepted them all, thank you ^^" You sent it without second thought for some reason, which you immediately regret. What were you thanking them for? well.. for being really nice, but does it show how lonely you have been?

It didn't seem so from their replies which were still very positive.

And that's how you find yourself spending more time socializing online, compared to before where video games were your only friend.

Days passed, and eventually you started getting less nervous talking to them. You haven't got to the stage where you started a conversation first, but you were not as shy as before when replying now. You didn't consider yourself to be active in the server, but they made sure you were.

While you never send a message first, they always tag you in every conversation. Which made you feel like it would be rude to not respond.

The conversation started like how it was at first, talking about the game you've been obsessed with lately. But eventually it turned to something more personal.

You learned that they were in the military together, coworkers. Though the details seemed to be classified. They never talked about it, but from their conversation alone you assumed as much.

There were channels in the server dedicated to conversations unrelated to the game. Memes channel was mostly dominated by Soap where he sent everything he found funny there, while Gaz who actually sent something funny once in a while. There were creative space which also dominated by Soap, and you always replied to each of his drawings with compliments. How could you not when he tagged you every time he drew something. Not that you minded, he was a great artist.

The pictures channel was your favorite because you can see a glimpse of who they are. Price liked to send pictures of beautiful sceneries, Gaz sent photos he took that you would definitely add to your interest board, while Soap updated everyone randomly like a few times he posted pictures of him washing his hands in the sink with the following message "Just took a shit". You found yourself laughing at it every time despite the other's complaints.

Even Ghost was more active (as much as he was) in that channel. Sending pictures of the others sleeping (mostly Soap) without them knowing and photos of a military dog without any words said. Her name was Riley and you adored her.

And there was a vent channel, which was mostly Price scolding them for pulling pranks on him and the others. Soap would whine about injuries he got which made you really concerned, but based on the other's reactions, it seemed like a normal occurrence.

On some days, you were tempted to send something to that channel. To talk about stuff that's been bothering you. But you always found yourself deleting the long message you wrote.

Though, eventually enough, their friendliness made you want to share more about yourself.

"Just think the moon is pretty.. even though my phone can't really capture it, haha" You sent a picture of the night sky one day after multiple times fixing the message.

You still felt silly about sending said pictures, but you tried to convince yourself that the others were doing the same so it wasn't a big deal, shouldn't be a big deal.

"Not as bonnie as you ;)" You saw Soap replied immediately which distracted you from your thoughts.

You didn't see anyone else replying unlike usual, but they still left emojis on said pictures so you paid it no mind.

"You don't even know what i look like XD" You sent with a giggle.

There wasn't an immediate response from anyone which was a bit odd.. but you kept telling yourself to stop overthinking everything.

Unaware of the red light being on beside your front camera, meaning that it had been on for a while.

"The way you type is bonnie" Soap finally sent, but it was lacking gifs and emojis like he was quick to send it.

"Haha, what does that even mean.." You replied, oblivious as ever.

"Just.. how we think a pretty girl would talk like" Gaz chimed in as Soap was shown to be typing for a while now.

"Lol, okay then"

THIS got longer than it should be- so Im gonna put the rest in other chapters

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[pvffinsdaisies]

do you have tips for someone who wants to get into hetalia rp? are you part of any active rp communities?

Hi anon ✨️ as of right now, I'm not in any active RP communities, but I have been part of a few in the past. Instagram, discord and tumblr. Though, I found tumblr a lot pickier than the other two. I actually had a pretty respected account on IG and made a few friends on discord but only managed to chat to 1 person on tumblr and ultimately left feeling unwelcome. So, I dont personally recommend starting out on tumblr, I've had numerous friends who have expressed a similar sense of pickiness around tumblr RP.

Some actual tips though?

Make sure you have at least 1 main muse you're comfortable role-playing. This muse should ideally be the character you develop the most. If you start on tumblr or instagram, sticking with the singular character will work well. Unfortunately, on discord I would say to have a few back ups just in case your main is taken.

I have found a fair amount of hetalia RP became a lot more based around historical hetalia specifically. So i would make sure you have a little bit of history under your belt. There are some servers on discord that dont care for this aspect, however.

On discord, you will expected to follow each specific server's rules. However, on tumblr and instagram it is imperative you set your own rules. These can be as loose or as specific as you like, but they're there to assure your own comfort in the role-plays you commit to.

Figure out which type of role play you like the best. Discord is great for friendship and comedy based role-playing. Instagram can be extremely ship focused, and is better for fluff or angst. Tumblr is the place that works best for one-on-one, angsty historical hetalia. Generally speaking, of course, discord is the place to go for script type role-playing, talking in character. Instagram is usually semi-lit rp ranging to advanced lit. Tumblr is, seemingly, exclusively advanced lit.

No matter what platform youre on, you will always need a bio for your muse. On tumblr and ig you can make your own. On discord you'll be expected to follow a template. They usually feature similar stuff, though. Human name, physical age, nation age, residency, languages, religion, description of the character's appearance, description of their personality, a few headcanon, and relationships. Keep in mind, for relationships its best to just put "TBA" and leave it.

Instagram will require you to make multiple "introduction" posts. Typically its 6 or 9, but you can realistically do as many as you want. Introduction for yourself, rules, bio, headcanons and mains (basically your go-to roleplayer for specific characters) are the necessary ones, I would say. And you will be expected to keep a nice theme, so I hope you have a pinterest board ready.

Hyping other people up on instagram will go a long way. Try and comment nice things on other peoples post, it will make it easier to find friends and other people to roleplay with.

Try and keep an open mind to ships. This was something I didnt do, I searched desperately for 1 specific ship and usually it doesnt work. Being single-ship is absolutely fine, but keep an open mind about what that ship could be. But also, please know you can so no to ship requests. This isn't me telling you to accept a UsUK rp if it makes you uncomfortable.

Some tips for actually developing muses? That is trickier 😅 everyone has their own methods, so figure out what works for you. I tend to look at the current culture and work with that, and add history stuff as I go. I know a lot of people do the opposite, looking at the history and adding modern culture stuff later (if at all). Or, a different approach is to look at an idea personality type you want them to have and work around that. Tools like MBTI or Enneagram are actually great tools for character building. Also, take inspiration from characters in other pieces of media. If you see a trait you like in a specific Arcane character, see if you can use it!

Ahh, I hope this was helpful! Ive never actually thought about tips before? Also! Feel free to DM me with any more questions or if you need help with anything. I'll also happily be a RP partner for you if you want.

[undeadbanjos]

Pls tell us about the divorce over fic

pffft yeah okay. but i warn, it's not as fun as it sounds. so. tw for an abusive marriage/relationship.

story time.

so those who follow me currently probably know me primarlily for being one of three people crazy over wishshipping or joey wheeler in general in the yugioh fandom. particularly writing a good 80+ chapter long fic.

however. this was not my first fic. my first fic... was for in space with markiplier.

for those who dont know, markiplier (yes, the youtuber) actually has his own series of (mostly) choose your own adventure videos. and theyre all connected. his last series of videos was split into two massive parts, and he did this q&a after it was all said and done and someone asked if he'd ever do a part 3.

he said, "no, that's up to one of you guys to write."

well after 3 days of obsessively checking ao3 no one had taken up that challenge and even though i had never written a piece of fiction in my life the hyperfixation was so strong i sat down and started writing.

and dear god something came over me. i had 8 chapters written in the span of a day.

for a while, id post two chapters a day. which is...insane. like why the fuck did i do that? but eventually i managed to narrow it down to one chapter a day (which i know is still insane and for some fucking reason is what i currently do when in my writing fits.)

being this manic long fic writer that came out of no where i started to get some attention. memes were made in support of my story. people were talking about it. hell, i started to make friends, really a first for me in fandom space. someone made a joke about making a discord server. i asked if that was a legitimate interest to anyone and i got an overwhelming yes from several people so, i made one.

my husband at the time, found out i was doing something different in my off time. i'd put the baby to bed and go to my computer and start writing. i was laughing a lot more and checking my phone a lot (for fic comments, a habit i still have while in my posting fits). finally he confronted me.

"What is it you're doing on your phone all the time?"

"I.... wrote a fanfic. I get a lot of comments."

"Is it a smut?"

annoyed, I confessed that yes, there were a few smut chapters. He asked if he could read it. I gave him the link.

he was deeply disturbed by the smut. (He didn't even read the rest of it. like....the actual story I was writing.) the smut? I mean dude you could go look at it but I mean it's pretty vanilla sex between two consenting fictional adults, but whatever. I knew he wouldn't like it. at this point in our marriage he had already stated everything I liked was annoying.

anyway. when he found out I had made friends... he got really upset. he didn't want me to have other "influences tainting my mind." i shot him back with the fact he has friends online, so why couldn't i? he didn't like it, but he warned me to be careful.

then i met sitch.

those of you who know me are nodding their head. ah, yes sitch. those who have stumbled upon this rambling probably can tell this is where the story takes a turn because i know how to set things up. by god ive written like 160 chapters of fanfiction at this point.

anywho. this guy comments on my fic and asks permission to make fanart for it. this was so fucking wild to me. fanart? for MY fic? like who would have thought. i reply enthusiastically with a yes and tell him im on tumblr so please tag me so i can see it. a few days pass and i get a dm. it's the same guy. he's made the fanart. i love it. we chat a little about the fic. about in space. about music. slowly it starts creeping into talking about life. about anything, everything. it was kinda wild how i had met someone and felt like ive known him forever. this of course, is sitch. when the discord thing came up, i decided to ask him for help, because i literally didnt even have a discord at the time.

sitch helps me with the discord. we find some mods. we open the floodgates. swear to god about 40-50 people come in. some are more chatty than others. we all chat like good friends. i update the fic daily. we all find out we relate to each other a lot. we have movie nights and game nights. i continue writing the fic, even getting help from sitch at this point. he's become sort of my beta reader. (and now he's my editor thank god the yujou means friendship people have no idea how blessed they are)

i realize. fuck. these people...really relate to me. like me even. and i like them.

and sitch....sitch in particular...i really like.

i am in deep shit.

at this point, my husband is making it well known how much he disapproves how im spending my time. not that... he wanted to spend time with me though? he locked himself in his office and would play his own games. what he didnt like is i had found people that i relate to. that i could talk to. meanwhile i was reaching the point i was afraid to say literally anything around him.

at this point, he started teasing me about "having a crush on markiplier" and he would "joke" about me leaving him for markiplier or some shit. He started arguing with me about sexuality and gender out of no where, knowing what my stance was on it.

I don't really want to get into what my breaking point was.

A few weeks went by. I started to confide in my friends, and I started to confide in Sitch. One night, my brain came up with some logic that if I told him about the feelings I was developing (because they were only growing) he would reject me and we'd laugh it off.

Unfortunately it wasn't so simple.

For a week we were in this odd stalemate. Living in different countries but talking constantly. Having essentially an emotional affair, but knowing there was nothing really to do. I had no belief that I could make it on my own, and I knew I would get a lot of backlash from my family if I were to leave my husband. The weekend came and my husband got it out of me. I had feelings for one of my online friends. And I had confessed it to him.

My husband took my laptop and went through the messages. All of them. i fled to my parents house and tried to warn sitch that he had my laptop.

The next day, my husband convinced me I needed to delete everything. The discord server. My Tumblr. Even the fic. He essentially convinced me I was at an all time low of horribleness, and I believed him.

A week later I couldn't take it anymore. I missed my friends. Id sadly felt more loved by them than anyone around me. Which yeah, is pretty damn pathetic. I left my husband, and found my friends had already made a new discord, waiting for me. They had downloaded the fic, which I slowly re-uploaded and eventually finished. And sitch and I slowly built our relationship, have now met in person, and we're hoping he's able to move down here soon.

So yeah. I wrote a Markiplier fanfic and it led to me getting a divorce. Which honestly, thank god. I don't want to think about what would have happened to me if I hadn't.

[darkmagyk]

Ask game: 1, 2, 3, 5, 8, 13, 21

choose violence ask game (send me more pls!)

the character everyone gets wrong

Annabeth, Annabeth, Annabeth. In SO MANY ways. Right down to her name, where people decide randomly that Annabeth is a nickname for Anna Elizabeth.

But mostly it's the school thing. Annabeth is always going to be the smartest person in the room, but she would (literally) rather die then demean herself to prove it. She also has ADHD, Dyslexia, and missed grades 2-6. I don't know how you can read about her being unwilling to play the Sphinxes game and then think that she'd be a good sport about school? I don't necessarily think she'd do badly. She is 100% in the "smart enough to coast" category. But she's not going to study, she's not going to apply herself. And I suspect when she finds herself disagreeing, she's not going to be open to listening to most teachers. She'll talk back, she'll argue, she'll get detention. She reads books in greek, she probably doesn't have special affection for her school libraries full of books she can't read. Free yourself from the Hermione Industrial Complex and embrace smart girl characters who's only life goal isn't getting As on tests.

Other things, Annabeth did live in Virginia some as a child. But given that it was in Richmond, her father is from Boston, and they moved at least a little (in TLT her family lives in New York State), the idea that her upbringing would be particularly southern, or that she'd have a southern accent is silly.

Also, she thinks Percy is funny. She enjoys his company. They have a lot of similarities. And she knows he's not as smart at she is (no one is) but she doesn't think he's the dumbest person alive. She doesn't hate him. About 80% of all PJO Incorrect quotes can be summed up as Percy: says something dumb, Annabeth: You're an idiot, and I hate you. And that's just...not what's going on with them.

2. a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom

It's a sexual position they don't enjoy? Let us not confuse sexual positions with gender or rolls in power dynamics.

Now, if you want to discuss power dynamics, Annabeth is a sub and Percy is a dom. Because Annabeth has a long history of feeling unloved, unwanted, and abandoned and wants to feel desired. And Percy has been dismissed and untrusted and wants to feel competent and trustworthy.

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

Recently saw a post that said Frederick had fucked Athena. You know, Athena, the famously virgin goddess.

(The funniest part was that it was part of a very anti-Frederick post, and yet...by saying Athena, the goddess of wisdom, broke her millennia long, life defining desire to not sleep with men, to sleep with Frederick Chase, they were saying he was a giant Chad and extra extra special. And that Athena saw so much in him, loved him so much, she developed sexual feelings for him and was willing to throw away one of her defining characteristics for him. And that...that was kind of hilarious)

5. worst discord server and why

Um, the Taylor Swift one I joined to trade tips for my show is really pretty bad. Everyone is so mean and bitchy and, I say this as someone who is weird about how much I love Taylor Swift, Swifties are the worst.

Otherwise, I can't keep up with servers, or really any chat with more then like 3 people them. So I can't really tell if they are good or bad.

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

See previous comments about Annabeth. But, also, Jesus Christ Frederick Chase. Who is super interesting, and also dealt a bad hand he then played badly. Dude is a Norse Legacy who fell in love with a Hellenic Goddess. He went out of town and his wife ran off his daughter while he was gone. He can see through the mist. He dive bombed a Titan to save said daughter. He's a Red Sox fan and has a daughter who's a Yankees fan. He managed to enchant Athena. Favorite minor character.

Also, everyone is wrong about Poseidon. He's an ass, he's a bad dad (Hades is the best big three dad. And possibly the best godly parents. And that's being graded on the scale that calculates that time he told Nico he wished he'd died and bianca hadn't. That's how bad everyone else is.) And Sally has moved on to bigger and better things.

Combining those two things: Fredthena > PoSally. Fredthena is more interesting, and during the canon of the stories, it's actually still interesting instead of Poseidon just being Sally's loser ex.

Other things: in fic, Luke is Annabeth's looser older brother, not abusive ex. Annabeth is the punk and Percy is the good boy, Jercy wants what Frankercy has.

13. worst blorboficiation

Connor Stoll. He's literally just half a character. And that's fine.

Also Octavian. Who is allowed to just be power mad.

Also...I love Nico a lot, but the way fandom acts about him is...so much.

21. part of canon you think is overhyped

Nico. I love Nico, I think he's an awesome character and have written multiple fics about him. But people are so weird about him. And there is an extent to which I get it. He's one of the first incidentally queer characters in middle grade literature (as opposed to a character who is gay in a book all about being gay). He's got the emo vibes we love. And he definitely went through it.

But everyone is kind of going through it. And yet, people will unironically make posts about how Percy promised to protect Bianca and then let her die when...When Bianca set off a monster and Percy literally was like "I have a plan to get rid of it" and then Bianca said "I'll do it" and Percy was like "No, I will" and then Bianca just did it anyway. That isn't on Percy. Similarly "Percy choked Nico, its inexcusable." You know, that time that Nico helped his father trap Percy in a room in the underworld with no ways out or windows or anything. Nico didn't know, and he felt bad and tried to make it right, but it wasn't unreasonable for Percy to be pissed and attack the dude who behaved like an enemy.

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Quite some time ago, we’ll say … around 2018, I think? I had a very active Discord server, specifically centered around facilitating a space for trans people to gather, chat, and game. This lasted for months and there were zero issues. But, with having a community of any sort related to the trans community, also comes Laurelai Bailey. As most probably know by now, if there’s a position of “power” that she can grasp, she’ll damned well try. And she did.

But, this is also related to my entanglement in relation to her, and the manipulation, and abuse that she caused over the course of almost a decade.

Suffice to say, and without expanding too much on this post on a topic I’m not sure I really want to, at the moment, that server is gone. Has been gone for a long time. This has to do with the aforementioned bad-actor’s friends, and people close to those friends, posting bannable material in a NSFW channel on the server, and banned they got, directly by me. I received threats from Bailey, and in an act of naivety and anxiety, I deleted the whole server.

Some of the members condemned me for banning people over posting lolicon, others disappeared into the void.

I know now that all of this was completely ridiculous, abusive, disgusting, and may well just have been the beginning of my severing from any community I had in trans related spaces, via the hands of Laurelai Bailey. Because I banned her friends for posting pedophilic-adjacent content in my server.

After I managed to get away from her back around 2020, I’ve spent years trying to rebuild. Even if my entire offline persona is of someone who’s functionally back in the closet, hiding. Years, though, and I’m still rebuilding.

I, of course, have the things I do, which are little more than hobbies right now, due to my offline job. But I still make music, I still update things in my Second Life store, and I still write. I’ve got a whole book I want to get finished.

The whole reason I’m really writing this though, is because I have a Discord server that I resurrected in around 2023, and it’s amassed a very modest amount of people, and at the moment it’s not very active.

The server is partially centered around the things I do, and my work, and of course, finding support for it. But, it’s also centered around trying to grasp at rebuilding that community I once lost. So, I’ve got this combination … support my work, and also let’s play some World of Warcraft in an LGBTQ+ safe environment, type of thing going here. But it’s been a couple of years, and it’s tough to get things off the ground, especially when your entire online presence has been tainted and ruined by an FBI informant, cult leader.

I’m doing this, because there are people in my server whom I want to provide an actual space to engage with, and I can’t really do that on my own too well. Especially with having this offline job that sometimes demands way too much of my time.

So, like I did with my forum (which is also connected to the Discord), I’m going to post an invite link, here: https://discord.gg/YB6YWgZfpf and if you’re interested, you should join. Maybe we’ll do some dungeons in World of Warcraft, or we can make a Minecraft server, whatever!

Either way, thank you for reading, and maybe I’ll see you there?

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[itsrainingsimmiesfinds]

Just a few things!

Welcome to my new CC finds and resources blog! I just want to get a few things out of the way before I forget to, as I'm notorious for thinking about doing things and then forgetting!

The first thing I want to note is that this page will only be active when I'm CC shopping for my own games, because everything I reblog here, in the way of CC and mods, I have either already downloaded or plan on downloading myself (I will also probably boost my own creations by reblogging them here, just so they're easy to find. As of right now, those are only a few Sim Dumps though).

This blog is more of a blog for myself and anyone over in Simscord that asks where I've found any CC I have in my games, I am definitely not consistent enough on any form of social media to manage a massive finds blog.

That being said, though, there are already plenty of far better finds blogs out there!! I will be glad to direct anyone to any of those, so if you're looking for some CC Finds blogs for any of the three sims games I cover, feel free to send me an ask!

Resources will be reblogged as I come across them, but unless it is an ask I get or a question I myself have, I'm not going to be actively hunting for them...for one primary reason. That primary reason being that, like CC finds blogs, there are also plenty of blogs out there that already have a trove of resources posted, and lucky for us Sims fans, there is a massive community outside of Tumblr as well that can answer questions, so a quick google search might find you the answer you need anyway.

As for technical questions and troubleshooting issues with any of the three games I cover, check and see if I have resources about those reblogged already and if I don't see if someone else does, I'm not the most tech savvy person so other people can definitely answer some things FAR better and more successfully than I can.

And if googling fails, there are discord servers you can join that might be helpful! Simscord is one of them, we're all friendly over there and there are channels for every mainline Sims game (1,2,3, & 4) for chatting, sharing screenshots, asking for help, etc. (There are also channels for Inzoi, Paralives, Project Rene, Minecraft, and Stardew Valley!) and for The Sims 2 specifically you can also join TS2 Community, which is a public server you can find easily!

As for the gameplay and challenge ideas categories in the masterpost, those will probably be a mix of my own ideas, other players' ideas, my own challenges (I've made a few for TS4 over the years), and other more well known challenges, so feel free to send me an ask if you have any ideas of challenges or gameplay elements that you think should be posted here! I'm always interested in seeing rulesets for Sims challenges and general gameplay ideas!

The final thing that I want to mention, is that while they won't be common, I will be making text posts like this if I need to to either discuss something relevant to the Sims community or write out a tutorial for something I know how to do (tutorials will be few and far between...again, I'm not very tech savvy, I usually have to look things up myself).

Anyway! As I'm pretty sure that's all I wanted to say, I'm gonna leave it off here!

[lacthehumann]

✨ Digital Communities: The Internet is My Hometown ✨

Hey! 👋 Your fave media student is back, and OMG?! Today's lecture EXPLODED my brain 🤯 about how we're basically living in digital neighborhoods now, and I'm officially obsessed! Like, we're not just on the internet anymore, we're in it. It's giving digital nomad vibes, but make it academic. 🤓

Okay,lets go! 🌟

You know that one group chat that's more lit than your actual social life? Or that Discord server where you've found your soulmates (even if you've never met IRL)? Turns out, this is a whole academic field, and I'm living for it! It's called the study of digital communities, and it's basically the sociology of the 21st century.

So, spill the tea – what are digital communities, really? 

Picture this: You're a Stranger Things mega-fan (if not, bestie, what are you even doing with your life?!). You're on Reddit or Twitter, connecting with other fans who are just as obsessed with Vecna as you are. (McCosker et al. 2016) That's a digital community! It's connection, but make it online. It's like finding your tribe, but in cyberspace.

But wait, there's more! 🎮

Gamers, rise up! ✊ These digital spaces are where the magic happens. Imagine fragging noobs with someone from across the globe at 3 AM. Geographical boundaries? We don't know her. 💅 Reid (2016) argues that these gaming communities on Discord and Twitch are revolutionizing how we think about social spaces, and I'm here for this digital evolution! It's not just about the game; it's about the camaraderie, the shared experience, the memes.

Now, let's get a little spicy 🌶️

Remember those activism movements that flooded our feeds? #MeToo? Climate action on the 'gram? That's the raw power of digital communities, bestie! Farrell (2016) spilled the tea on how these online spaces are literally changing the game for social justice. It's about amplifying voices, mobilizing action, and holding power accountable, all through the digital realm. We love to see it! 👏

Okay, time for the real academic deep dive (yes, we're going full nerd mode 🤓):

The job market is ravenous for social media experts! Companies are building entire teams just to manage their online presence. (McCosker et al. 2016) Imagine getting paid to scroll through social media all day?! Dream job alert! 🚨 But it's not just about posting cute pics; it's a strategic game.

Speaking of jobs, let's talk 24/7 hustle ⏰

Social media never sleeps! Companies like Telstra have 24/7 support because the internet doesn't believe in business hours. (And neither do Karens in the comments 💀). These platforms have completely transformed customer service. It's about meeting people where they are, when they are.

Plot twist! 🌀

It's so much more than just aesthetic pics now! Social media managers are modern-day superheroes, juggling multiple skills:

Creative queens/kings 👑

Data whisperers 📊

Crisis management ninjas 🚨

Content creation wizards ✨

Community builders 🤝

Trend forecasters 🔮

And don't even get me started on the platform drama! Facebook's "pay to play" era had brands screaming "Ma'am, this is a Wendy's!" 😭 But they had to adapt, because that's the wild west of the digital world. It's a constant evolution.

But beyond the brands and the marketing, digital communities are about something bigger. They're about connection, belonging, and finding your place in the vast expanse of the internet. They're about building relationships, sharing passions, and creating something together.

Digital communities are changing everything – how we connect, work, fight for what we believe in, and even how we define "community" itself. We're not just posting selfies anymore, bestie, we're building digital HOMETOWNS! 🏡 And honestly? I'm here for it. 🙌

References List:

Baban, E. and Güzel, E., 2015. Digital Activism and Social Movements: How the World perceives the Gezi Movement. Amity Journal of Media & Communications Studies (AJMCS), 5.

EDEALO 2019, FREE International Human Rights Law Course DEAL at edX - EDEALO, Pinterest, viewed 14 February 2025, <https://www.pinterest.com/pin/238620480244663074/>.

Jimenez, M 2024, Unity in Diversity Multicultural Hands Together | Premium AI-generated image, Pinterest, viewed 14 February 2025, <https://www.pinterest.com/pin/776448792042033986/>.

McCosker, A., Reid, D. and Farrell, C., 2016. Social media industries: bridging the gap between theory and practice.

‘Reality is broken: why games make us better and how they can change the world’ 2012, Choice Reviews Online, vol. 49, no. 11, pp. 49–609549–6095.

i just downloaded discord to "research" gaming communities... totally not because i got addicted to that new game everyone's playing 🎮*

ps: drop a comment about your fave digital community! are you a reddit girlie? twitter stan? youtube comment section warrior? let's chat! 💕

[cozza-frenzy]

Terry here. First up, full disclosure - we're a "high communication" system and always have been since discovery. Our switches happen almost seamlessly, it's common for two or more of us to be in control, and we generally know who's at front unless "blurriness" occurs. But even with a more "hard cutoff" kind of amnesia like you guys have, it is possible to improve your communication between each other. Your inner world is a form of communication, but in some cases it can help to externalize things. Other systems have created accessibility tools to help with symptom management - Simply Plural, for example, is a way to track switches and log how long someone was at front. There's also a chat function that alters can use to communicate back and forth, or leave notes for each other, but as we (personally) find it somewhat cumbersome to use, we've instead created a Personal Discord Server with the Pluralkit bot installed. Pluralkit, or PK, allows alters to use proxies that change the account's display name to theirs - if you've talked with other systems on Discord, you might have seen them using it (or Tupperbox, which is similar functionally but is used mainly for singlet roleplaying). Even if you're not able to maintain short-term memories between switches, you can use it to "post-it note" each other in text form. Vivien here, currently co-fronting; Terry already made some good points, but I guess I'll just add, remember to be patient with each other and with the body. Migraines are unfortunately a common occurrence with DID and related conditions, both from general stress, and just from your brain realizing it can do certain things it was suppressing. It's making a ton of new connections, and you might end up with "new" alters (or more likely old ones coming out of dormancy) coming out of that fractal cloud. Your numbers might keep increasing for a while after discovery as the "daisy chain effect" (where memories unlock more memories) sets in, but this doesn't mean you're getting worse. It means your brain feels able to process things it couldn't before. Also it's not uncommon for systems to self-fakeclaim, especially in the early days, but one of the hallmarks of this condition is the more you try to ignore it and deny it, the worse the symptoms will get and the more your brain will try and force certain things (Terry: Believe me, as the host of our system, I know this and it SUCKS). As hard as it can be to realize you don't have conscious control over what your brain is doing, the best thing you can do is roll with the punches, fall back on your friends and fellow systems, and trust in each other to get through this. Especially if your host was once toxic/abusive to other alters, it's probably gonna be hard - but forgiveness is a process, including forgiving yourself, and you will get there. And from both of us, we can safely say that even if things seem bleak, there will be good times. As you guys get used to working together, you'll become friends, or maybe even something like a family. Your inner world might expand into new areas, or become more rich and detailed. You might be able to talk to one another back and forth, make jokes, share meals, learn more about what are essentially parts of your whole, collective self. Just remember; there is nobody in your system who isn't supposed to be there; they are individuals, but also parts of the collective "you". And everybody in there deserves kindness, understanding, and a chance at redemption or growth.

Stay safe. Good luck. And be excellent to each other. - The Magbox

Hey I'm sorry if that's invasive, you don't need to answer this ask if you want to.

But I hope your system questioning is going well :) I saw your post in my dashboard weeks ago and... well... because I found out I'm part of a system this year and it was very hard to deal with, so I know how it is. The thing about suspecting is that alters will hide from you, you will try to see if there's anyone there and they will just remain in silence, only talking to you by accident. I think their idea was to make me think "Huh, guess I'm just going crazy" but it DIDN'T.

Being patient and giving the problem some space, also being supportive to yourself when something new happens instead of freaking out, it can happen figure things out, and here's the thing: It is going to be CONFUSING. And it will take a LONG TIME to get used to it in case you figure out it's real, but it's going to okay, just different than what you are used to.

Byee <3

Ok.. there was much more to this post but tumblr broke and apparently our copy paste only copied so much. During the typing of this post we did end up switching. The majority of this post refers to ("Goldi") who's name is changed due to her sharing our legal name. We wont be retyping it, it was the story and night of our awakening. A few recaps: We have had a headspace for a long time, long before we even realized who we were. To access that headspace required mediation, Goldi learned she could do some toxic behaviour in this headspace, that forced her to disassociate. Over time her privilege to this space was revoked. There were 4 the night we all communicated. -- Its been a struggle, the past few weeks. You all likely saw my freakout post, since then we've gotten waves of support, systems every where reached out. Truely it was a beautiful amazing thing. I, me, uh Goldi, kind of toggles back and fourth on acceptance. There were a few moments that Hit her hard. 1. At first she said it couldn't form she had no ptsd. and Learning that sustained or constant abuse can form (C-ptsd) really shocked her. Plus we learned that we cant actually remember a thing form ages 6/7-12. No friends, major events, nothing. We later learned from her mother that she actually had a night job during this time, and we were left alone and raised by our primary abuser (step-dad) 2. Having had to acknowledge that her next defence was "Well I have don't have like blackout amnesia anymore or anything so it can't be real." - We would describe it as... Its like a very vivid dream, and you wake up, and then its instantly gone. "..Yeah we.. went to the store and.. there was.. we bought food" - This apparently has a term called Grey Amnesia, so another peg knocked over. In times of high high stress in our lives we have had total amnesia, but we haven't had that high of a stress moment in about 5 years. (mentioned in the comic "Words Matter" - Blacking out for weeks living with her mother.) 3. Those closest to us we have come out to, and their response is generally a pregnant pause and then "Actually yeah that makes total sense" Followed by retelling of events we have no real memory of. Even Pleco had those stories, it's hella bizarre. 4. The real ace in the hole is the last few weeks we have been "awake" so to say is that Pleco has been notating our behaviour, having us record our speech, ect ect. To the point shes able to spot when we are blendy, and generally who is out. Others have noticed it too, other Systems especially have a keen eye for it. In-fact one of us seems to be pretty vehemently opposed to meat, While it causes Goldi a great deal of frustration when she suddenly gags trying to shred chicken and cant finish dinner at times, its a bit funny in hindsight. But we can see how this messes her up.

[psychologeek]

new week - new poll!

elaborate:

The Most Dangerous Thing 

You are benched. "You are a kid", he says. "You nearly died. I can't let you do that anymore. You should focus on school and friends". (You weren't a kid for a long time. Not since the last time you saw your mom, broken limbs and breathless. Not since you watched your father bleed to death). (Trauma and healing are not linear, but it doesn't mean it won't get better.) alternative name: Raina Grayson's adventures [ft. trauma!]

Core Skills (problem-solving)

Jason's doesn't want to disappoint his family (or worst, called out by his brothers). Jazz try getting costudy over Danny. I wonder where it all could go. (T for Jason's bad language (TM) ) (For YOTP: January - fake dating)

we'll never be free (lamb to the slaughter):

post-JJ Tim, and psychological affects. include the titan's tower!

Just short of a fairy tale (I told myself that I wouldn't be scared)

Jason Todd was born on August 15th, a minute before the clock changed, to a woman called Catrina. Crime alley attracts all sorts of beings. There is a kid in the backyard, that only Jason sees. He's pale and so small. There are purple circles under his eyes. And he is so, so quiet. All of those are unrelated facts. [or are they?]

wishes are children (careful what you wish for)

still written. inspired by [What We Can Carry by Miss_Lazy_Tuesday] .

If I killed Someone (would you love me?)

Red Hood is still new when Tim discovers who the person behind the helmet is, figure out what is the apparent problem, and go: "I can fix it". Jason finds a disturbing letter in his safe house. it's from the replacement. Can he fix it? (TW: suicide\al context, depression, and just... Tim's mind (TM) , AKA: The Boy Who Blackmailed (Batman) )

YOTP 2 - anger management (still looking for ideas\inspo!)

want to get updates? ideas? news?

want to put your input on my fics?

join the server!

[abyssalbrews]

Concussive Crown

High res versions of the art, a Foundry VTT module, and other formats, as well as a full compendium of our 100+ items can be found on our Patreon

There is a massive world out there and some of the people in it frankly scare me. It seems that someone, through means I don’t dare to speculate on, has manifested a massive, musclebound ram that does their siege bidding for them. It’s hardly something I could believe when I first saw it, and I was even in more awe when the beast was actually felled. The helmet custom crafter for it proved a difficult material to work with, but in the end I was able to form something a bit more suited to the average cranium. I even managed to keep some of the beast’s magics in it.

If you want to see more of our items you can check us out on our Website, Twitter, Pinterest, Tumblr, Bluesky, Threads or Instagram where we post them regularly. You can also find us at our Discord server where you can hang out and chat with the community.

[strangerthingsrpdiscord]

Hello and welcome to the tumblr blog for the Stranger Things Roleplay Discord Server! What a mouthful.

This blog is essentially for managing entry and applications for the discord server I'm going to make for the RP community here to join. As a lot of you know, it's very easy to hit post limit as a RP blog on tumblr, and that's something we won't have to worry about on Discord. Tumblr also doesn't have a group chat feature and Discord is a solution for that as well.

Now, here's a rundown of how this server will be:

18+ ONLY. No minors will be allowed into this server. Full stop. Please do not lie about your age. If you do and mods find out, you will immediately be kicked with NO opportunity for reentry. Ever.

Literate roleplay only. This means writing your thread replies in full, third person paragraphs with proper grammar and spelling. There will be a "group chat" channel where characters can essentially "text" each other in first person. However, for proper threads, no first person or asterisk roleplay.

Each person can have a maximum of one canon character. There are a lot of people who want to be in this server and play canon characters, so letting anyone play more than one really wouldn't be fair.

Dead characters are still playable. We're essentially functioning in an AU where these characters either died and came back (through ooky-spooky Upside Down magic) or had a near-death experience rather than actually dying. You're at liberty to decide how/why your character is alive. Making them undead, a vampire, a ghost, etc. is totally okay.

OCs are welcome. That being said, do not assume a relationship with any other characters without discussing with the writer of that character! That means no sibling/lovers/exes/parents/etc. unless you've cleared it with the person who plays that character. If you play a canon character, you are not obligated to say yes.

If you'd like to change your character a little bit from the canon, that's okay, just make it clear with the mods first. Small changes are fine.

This server will include NSFW. Threads that include smut, gore, death, drug use, or any other potentially triggering topics will be allowed. All I ask is that you discuss these topics with your RP partner before starting a thread. Do not throw these topics into a thread without making sure your RP partner is okay with it!!

There will be both SFW and NSFW channels, so if you aren't comfortable with NSFW, there will still be spaces for you.

If you'd like to play one canon character and one OC, that is okay. Just ask the mods before adding any character(s).

As time goes on, canon characters that haven't been taken will become available to server members. Meaning if we're three months in and no one has picked Lucas, for example, someone in the server who already plays a different canon character would be able to apply to write for Lucas as well.

Underage characters can be written for, just stay out of NSFW channels as those characters. If you write 18+ content as these characters, you will be kicked from the server.

For the love of god, please don't start drama. We're all adults. I don't want to have to manage everyone like you're children, so just... no judgment please.

We'll have activity checks about once a month. If you go inactive without informing a mod that you'll be gone, you'll be kicked to free up that character for someone else.

There will be a strike system for minor infractions; starting fights, posting in the wrong channels continuously, interrupting threads, etc.

Now, as you can probably tell, I've decided that it just makes the most sense if we only have one of each character. I know that's unfortunate and probably disappointing, but I just couldn't really see a way to make it viable to have multiple of one person.

So, if you'd like to apply to be in the server, feel free to fill out the application below and DM it to this blog! Don't be afraid to ask questions, either!

I will make a post to keep track of which characters are taken as we accept people <3 Also, I'm looking for mods! Anyone I interact with often and know I can trust, DM me if you are interested!

Writer Name:

Writer Age (18+):

Writer Pronouns:

Discord (Numbers included!):

Character(s) Wanted:

Writing Example (2+ Paragraph preferred):

What are you most interested in writing?:

Do you promise not to judge/bully?:

Triggers/Nos:

A fun fact about you:

[lyndztanica]

In Lieu of Twitter Going Dark Pt. 3

I wasn’t intending on doing this again on Tumblr, but given what could happen with Twitter, and people’s interests, I figured I would do a big charity thread for as much as I can fit in a post. I may have to split them into multiples, at which point I will edit this one to provide links to the others.

If you find this type of information important and want to learn about new charities (or submit others) I have a discord server that I will also link to in this to join. As always, the goal of this is to showcase places to donate your money or other resources to. Again, they might need more than money! Maybe they need a social media manager. Maybe they need someone else to offer rides or information. If you find yourself in a position to do something but you’re broke don’t let the money stop you.

LGBTQIA+ Advocacy

Sylvia Rivera Law Project :: https://srlp.org/ - [New York-centric] LGBTQIA organization that provides access to information and resources to trans, GNC, and intersex people who are BIPOC and low-income. Named for activist Sylvia Rivera.

Trans Journalists Association :: https://transjournalists.org/ - [US-centric] organization made of trans journalists to support them and other trans journalists make their workplaces more welcome for trans employees. 

National Center for Transgender Equality :: https://transequality.org/ - [US-centric] organization that advocates to advance transgender rights in the US. Focuses on an all-encompassing number of issues. 

Asexuality Visibility and Education Network :: https://www.asexuality.org/ - International organization dedicated to providing greater visibility to the asexual community and better education about asexuality, while also providing an online forum for people to explore the possibility they themselves are on the asexuality spectrum. 

No Justice No Pride :: https://www.nojusticenopride.org/ - [Washington DC-centric] collective of organizers and activists dedicated to fighting for trans justice and ending the LGBT "equality" movement's association with systems of oppression that further marginalize Trans and Queer people. They have a mutual aid fund to help people find housing, employment, and get IDs and other legal documentation with their correct name and gender. They also provide support for DC Area sex workers. 

Transgender Law Center :: https://transgenderlawcenter.org/ - [US-centric] trans-led organization that advocates for the trans community through the courts.

National LGBTQ Task Force :: https://www.thetaskforce.org/ - [US-centric] LGBTQIA advocacy group dating back to 1973, making it one of the oldest in the country. 

The Trevor Project :: https://www.thetrevorproject.org/ - International group and one you're likely familiar with. Suice prevention and crisis intervention organization for LGBTQIA young people. Includes providing a space for children as young as 13 to sign up and meet other members of the community their age to combat isolation. Connects people with a counselor to talk to for support either by call, text, or online chat.

Lambda Legal :: https://www.lambdalegal.org/ - [US-centric] organization that provides free legal representation and advocacy in court for LGBTQIA and HIV-positive people. 

LGBTQ Oral History Digital Collaboratory :: http://lgbtqdigitalcollaboratory.org/ - [North America-centric] oral history project begun by a professor at the University of Toronto, working with other queer community archives to digitize and make LGBTQIA history available online for everyone. 

Transgender Legal Defense and Education Fund :: https://tldef.org/ - [US-centric] organization pushing to end discrimination and achieve equality for transgender people through court cases and briefs. Also has the Name Change Project, which provides pro bono legal name change services to members of the community through partnering with law firms. 

The Knights and Orchids Society :: https://tkosociety.com/ - [Alabama-centric] Organization based in Alabama but looking to expand to the rest of the Southern US, they provide trans and gnc confirming healthcare. Founded and led by Black LGBT people. 

Montgomery Pride Unlimited :: https://montgomeryprideunited.org/ - [Alabama-centric] community center providing a safe space and resources for people advocating for LGBTQIA rights in Alabama. 

Magic City Acceptance Center :: https://www.magiccityacceptancecenter.org/ - [Alabama-centric] initially established as part of AIDS outreach, MCAC provides in-person and online services and resources for LGBTQIA Alabamans and their allies

Shoals Diversity Center :: https://www.shoalsdiversitycenter.org/ - [Alabama-centric] community center and clinic in North Alabama, Shoals provides mental health support with support groups, provides money for people to speak to licensed, supportive local counselors and a space for LGBTQIA residents to feel supported and included. 

Prism United :: https://prismunited.org/ - [Alabama-centric] founded in 2016, Prism focuses on providing care to LGBTQIA kids and teens, and programming geared to educate their caretakers. 

Montrose Grace Place :: https://www.montrosegraceplace.org/ - [Houston-centric] organization that provides food and security to teens and young adults ages 13-24 experiencing homelessness and housing insecurity. Located in the historic 'gayborhood' of Montrose. 

Honor 41 :: https://honor41.org/ - [Mexico-centric] organization meant to promote and provide information on groups and businesses for LGBTQIA members of the Latine community.

Post One. Post Two. Post Four.

[finalfantasyandnerdiness]

Want

Prompt from the discord server by @imlilyyfromff13: “I want to kiss you.” 

Fandom: FFXIII (post!LR)  Pairing: Hope/Light

A short one-shot about Lightning confronting Hope about becoming a self-destructive workaholic again. 

For the eighth time in about the same number of minutes, Hope’s phone buzzed. He picked it up from the kitchen table, glanced at it, frowned, and then put it down again. Lightning sighed. Serah pursed her lips in annoyance. Sazh muttered something about kids and their addiction to anything with a touch screen. Fang and Vanille exchanged a look that probably carried a full conversation only they could understand. Snow kept shoveling pie into his mouth as if he hadn’t even noticed.

Months ago, right after they’d all arrived in the new world, Serah had declared that Sunday nights were family dinner nights. She’d decided that once a week, they would all gather at her and Snow’s house—and somehow, she’d managed to make it a mandatory thing. Some excuses were acceptable, like Noel and Yeul being abroad, but that was about as far as Serah’s leniency went. Sunday nights were family dinner nights. Period.

Lightning had always been a loner at heart, but even she found joy in these little gatherings. Everyone was so busy living their own lives nowadays that if they hadn’t all feared being hunted down by a passive-aggressive Serah, they probably wouldn’t have been able stay in touch like this—a thought of that scared Lightning more than she would ever admit. She finally had a family again, and she wanted to keep it. Even if it meant having weekly dinners in a kitchen that definitely wasn’t big enough for the entire gang.

The room wasn’t quite as crowded now as when Noel and Yeul was in town, but the seating arrangement was still far from comfortable. Lightning had to dodge Snow’s elbow every time the big buffoon reached for something, and her thigh was pressed flush against Hope.

It was fascinating, really, how the warmth of Hope’s leg could somehow be more distracting than the risk of getting elbowed in the face.

Hope’s phone buzzed.

“Could you please turn that off?” Serah asked. “The world won’t end just because you’re unavailable for an hour.”

“You’re giving the world way too much credit,” Hope muttered. He ran his fingers through his silver hair, a deep wrinkle forming between his eyebrows. The ever-growing concern in Lightning’s chest nagged at her. Hope’s eyes were surrounded by dark circles, and every time she saw him he seemed to have lost another pound or two.

When Hope had said that he wanted to work as a researcher again, she’d been happy for him. Of course he’d want to figure out how the science of the new world worked, and of course he’d want to help people find ways to make their new lives work in this unfamiliar environment. What she hadn’t realized was just how much everyone would come to rely on him. Everyone seemed to want a piece of his intellect and his lifetimes of experience. He was being torn apart right before her eyes, and there was nothing she could do about it. Every time she brought it up, he just brushed it off. They’d been partners once, but now, he wouldn’t let her in. He’d shut her out.

“Hope…” She glanced up at him. “The world isn’t your responsibility anymore, you know? Just because everyone wants your help doesn’t mean you have to be there for them constantly. You have to think about what you want, too.”

“I can’t have what I want.” There was a strange combination of heat and sorrow in his eyes when he met her gaze. “I don’t deserve it.”

Lightning fell silent as she tried to get her emotions under control. She sometimes wondered if Hope had any idea how frustratingly attractive he was, with his chiseled jawline, full lips, and ocean-green eyes that still gleamed with an understanding of the universe that no other human on the planet possessed.

She also sometimes wondered if he knew how he made her brain malfunction by simply looking at her. 

It wasn’t his appearance that made her feel the way she did. Seeing him as an adult had only made the final puzzle piece of her conflicting emotions fall into place. And now, when she’d finally realized what their bond truly meant to her, he was shutting her out.

Hope’s phone buzzed.

Serah gave him a glare that could have slayed a behemoth. “That’s it, Hope, you’re turning—”

“It’s okay.” Hope gave the screen a final glance before standing up. “I’ve got to go. Thanks for the dinner, Serah. It was perfect, as always.”

“Hope…” Serah paused. After countless dinners ending the exact same way, they all knew that there was nothing they could do to make him stay.

Lightning watched him leave the kitchen, his narrow frame slimmer than ever, and just… reacted. This time it was her elbow that nearly connected with Snow’s face when she rushed after Hope. She caught up with him in the hallway as he was putting on his coat.

“Enough.” She placed herself between him and the door.

“What?”

“I said enough.”

They stared at each other. Hope’s face went from confusion to annoyance to melancholy in a matter of seconds.

“I really have to go, Light,” he said, giving her a humorless smile. “We can talk later.”

“There will never be a ‘later’, and you know it.” Lightning leaned back against the door, effectively blocking his only escape route. “We’re still partners, right? Or did that change when we arrived here?”

Hope blinked. “Of course we are. Nothing will ever change that.”

“Then, as your partner, I’m putting my foot down.” Lightning raised her chin and crossed her arms. “I’m not going to stand by and watch you tear yourself apart to keep the world afloat. Not again.” She swallowed hard. “Never again.”

“Light…” Hope slowly approached her until their bodies were only inches apart. Lightning’s heart began to race. She refused to look away, though. She was taking a stand, and she was not going to let her emotions get in the way of that.

“If you’re going to say you’re fine, then save it. I know you’re not. Have you looked at yourself lately? Can’t you see what this is doing to you?” A hint of desperation somehow found its way into her voice. “You’re putting the needs of others over your own, and I… I feel like I’m losing you again.”

“I’m sorry, Light. I never meant to… I’m sorry.” Hope looked down. “It’s just that everything’s a mess, and considering the part I played in all of this, I feel like it’s my responsibility to fix it.”

“It’s not. That responsibility lies on humanity as a whole now. You and I… We may have contributed to the destruction of the old world, but we also helped creating this.” Lightning nodded toward the kitchen, where their little mess of a family chatted and laughed together. “A new world. A blank page. We create our own fates now. I know it’s hard—trust me, I know it is—but we deserve a new start too. It’s time for all of us to start living the lives we want to live, and that includes you.” She gently stroked a wayward strand of hair from his forehead. “What do you want, Hope?”

“What I want?” He looked up at her, letting out a bitter sound that wasn’t quite a snort but not quite a laugh either. A shiver ran down her spine. He had that look in his eyes again, hot and sad and hungry. “I don’t think you want to know.”

“Try me.”

He hesitated. “There is one thing I want. More than anything.” He cupped her cheek in his hand, his gaze lowering until it landed on her lips. Another moment of hesitation passed. 

“I want to kiss you.”

Lightning’s eyes widened. Her cheeks burned. Her heart pounded hard enough to drown out her thoughts—which thankfully wasn’t that much of a problem. In this situation, she didn’t need to think.

“Then kiss me.”

Hope’s lips crashed into hers. She wrapped her arms around his neck, pressing her body against his as her back slammed into the door. Her head spun, and all her repressed emotions sprung into life. This was what she’d been craving ever since she first saw him in the new world. This was how things were supposed to be. This was right.

Their kiss deepened. The rest of the world seemed to disappear. All she could focus on was him—his smell, his warmth, his hands in her hair, and his impossibly soft lips.

When he finally pulled back, an astonished smile played on his lips. Soon, he would most likely rush out the door as usual to once again fix whatever it was that someone had screwed up, but this time he’d at least gotten something he wanted for himself—something she’d been more than happy to give it to him. She wasn’t delusional enough to believe that a kiss would change his self-destructive behavior, but maybe, just maybe, it was a start.

“What about you?” he murmured, slightly out of breath. “What do you want, in this hypothetical utopia of yours?”

She smiled. That was probably the easiest question he could have possibly asked her.

“You.”