#symtomps

[silasamerica]

While I do also subscribe to the riddler being autistic hc wise, I kinda hate how some people act like that's why he's like this.

Like no, his npd and ocd are very important to his character. He's literally explicitly written to be those two disorders in most versions of himself. To view his obsession with riddles as only a special interest downplays his anxiety and it's egoistical nature. It's important that he feels great anxiety about not being the smartest and has to prove that with his riddles! It's important that he convinces himself he's better than other people while hating himself deep down! It's important he has a very badly managed superiority complex which motivates his criminal behavior! His mental problems are not just bad social skills and just a great fixation on riddles!!!

Idk, I just feel like it's assigning a more easily digestible disorder onto him to view him and his problems. I know autism is heavily stigmatized by our society but it feels like some people have that disorder normalized to them and haven't unpacked bigotry surrounding other mental disorders. It's like some people just go by stereotypes for all of these disorders instead of looking into them when discussing it in regards to these characters which kills me. I've seen people genuinely think Edward isn't a narcissist because he's insecure when that's literally what npd is.

This post isn't me trying to discourage other mental illness hcs for Edward, but for me to say that I wish people looked more into the disorders he's canonically supposed to protray and think about it more. Idk I can't word this right but I had to get it off my chest.

[kil9]

never understood why people fake care about "mental illness fakers" like. just leave them alone it's a win/win ? if they really have whatever disorder then you've left an innocent person alone, cool. and if they're doing it for attention then you haven't given them any attention, cool. it's almost as if the ppl "calling them out" don't actually care about mental health and just want an excuse to make thinly veiled cringe comps 🧐

[astraltoon]

if I had the same ability to write fictional stories the same was I can write my entire irl backstory when someone im rly comfortable with Did Not Ask I would be an unstoppable storyteller

alas, adhd

[mewhenifreakit]

multiple people have told me I might have adhd and given examples as to why they think so, starting to notice it in myself and like shocked by how much it would align with adhd

[bl3eding-st4r]

I must have gone crazy fr this time. I SWEAR i brought GRAPES Yesterday!!! So why the hell are there NO GRAPES???

[songofthestarrs]

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[sreefertility12]

Blocked Fallopian Tubes Symptoms, Causes, and Treatment

A part of the female reproductive system the fallopian tube, plays a crucial role in conception. The fallopian tube picks the ovum from the ovaries of a female. The fallopian tube plays an important role in meeting sperm and egg where the fertilization process begins.  It’s a form of a muscular tube connected by ciliated epithelial cells. 

There are a variety of blocked fallopian tubes symptoms that can harm the egg from the ovaries to the uterus, resulting in stopping natural conception. In this post, we’ll understand the damaged fallopian tube symptoms, their causes, and the role of IVF treatments. 

What is a Blocked Fallopian Tubes? 

A fallopian tube blockage may occur when sperm cannot meet an egg waiting to be fertilized. In case sperm manages to meet the egg, the egg still cannot leave the fallopian tube and produce natural conception.

Blocked Fallopian Tubes Symptoms

Women with blocked fallopian tubes may face pain in the pelvis or belly.

Women having blocked fallopian tubes may face difficulty in conceiving.

Regular pain during the period is a common symptom of fallopian tube blockage. 

A fertilized egg gets stuck in the tube due to the fallopian tube. This case is called an ectopic pregnancy. It is not possible to detect by scanning, and a woman suffers from stomach pain on one side of the body during pregnancy.

Causes of Blocked Fallopian Tubes

Once the blocked fallopian tubes symptoms, it’s mandatory to go through some causes of blocked fallopian tubes. Some of these include:

Fibroids– They are noncancerous growths that are produced in the blocked fallopian tubes, causing obstructions. 

Tubal Ligation– It is a part of permanent birth control that takes place when a woman who doesn’t want to get pregnant takes tubes tied to prevent pregnancy. 

Prior Ectopic Pregnancy– If a woman has faced a past ectopic pregnancy, then there is a higher chance of damaged fallopian tubes. 

Pelvic Inflammatory Disease– Pelvis pain, inflammation, and infection could be caused by scar tissue that creates blocked fallopian tubes. 

Sexually Transmitted Diseases–  Pelvic inflammation, obstruction of fallopian tubes, and scar tissue can occur due to STDs such as gonorrhea and chlamydia. 

Prior Abdominal or Pelvic Surgery– Several pelvic surgeries could possibly form scar tissue that negatively harms the fallopian tubes.

Fertility Treatments for Fallopian Tube Blockage

Surgical Procedures

After discovering the blocked fallopian tubes symptoms, the next step should be selecting the fertility treatments for blocked fallopian tubes, particularly when the obstruction is due to scar tissue. 

Fimbrioplasty: The most common type of blocked fallopian tubes symptoms is Fimbrioplasty. When the fimbriae is blocked, this surgery takes place to detect the issue and repair the movement of the egg. 

Tubal surgery: The treatment includes eliminating scar tissue, opening the blocked part of the tube, and producing a new tubal opening. Tubal surgery is always based on the exact area of the blockage.  

Salpingostomy: Creating an opening within the fallopian tube is the main purpose of applying this procedure. The blocked area of the tube due to hydrosalpinx can be treated by this surgery. 

2. Medications

Blocked fallopian tubes symptoms may cause infections but they can be controlled through medications. The doctor will prescribe antibiotics if the blockage is due to PID or an infection. 

3. Tubal Cannulation 

This is the minor surgery used to clear the blockaged area within the fallopian tubes. Hysterosalpingogram or laparoscopy are two main cases where a tubal cannulation procedure takes place, as it can be effective for different types of blockages. 

In this process, doctors use X-rays and ultrasound to discover the exact area of the blockage. Then, inflating a small balloon or using a thin wire are two main sources of removing the blockage. 

4. In-vitro fertilization (IVF)

One of the highly recommended treatments for those who face blocked fallopian tubes symptoms and infections. In this process, doctors retrieve the eggs from the ovaries and fertilize them with sperm in the laboratory. As a result, the embryos are converted directly into the uterus, by meeting the fallopian tubes totally. 

IVF provides high success rates and is a convenient choice for people who are facing tubal infertility. However, the success rates of IVF may depend on the patient’s current condition. 

According to WebMD, the rate of pregnancy for various IVF treatments is around 27.3 percent. That means, a 35-year-old woman typically gets successful IVF, which is given the common nature of fertility. 

5. Tubal Ligation Reversal 

In this case, a doctor detects blockages and removes them from the fallopian tubes that were added while preceding a previous tubal ligation. A lot of cases require extra attention where a doctor surgically performs a tubal ligation reversal by eliminating the blocked areas from fallopian tubes and reattaching the two sides of each tube during the treatment. 

The surgery is generally known as an abdominal surgery and needs at least two weeks for recovery. The surgery is quite effective in detecting the blocked fallopian tubes symptoms and treating them smartly. Moreover, there may be risks of tubal ligation reversal such as bleeding, scarring, infection, and ectopic pregnancy. 

IVF for Blocked and Damaged Fallopian Tubes 

In-vitro fertility (IVF) is a highly advised option for couples who want to become a parent but experiencing blocked fallopian tubes symptoms that cannot be treated. For example- if a woman has no fallopian tube obstruction, she may get pregnant through an IVF procedure. 

During an IVF treatment, a doctor fertilizes the egg at the embryo stage into a woman’s uterus, by meeting the sperm and egg to connect to the fallopian tubes. 

However, there may be risks of IVF including ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome due to fertility antibiotics, enhanced several pregnancies, as well as difficulties in egg retrieval including internal bleeding, pelvic organ problems, infections, etc. 

Conclusion 

Detecting blocked fallopian tubes symptoms can be disappointing, but fortunately, a variety of treatments are available to get rid of this problem. From effective surgical treatments to assisted reproductive technologies including IVF, couples can choose plenty of options to enjoy a healthy parenthood journey.

Discussing with qualified and experienced fertility doctors in the best IVF centre in Varanasi will guide you in determining the best treatment plan based on your medical history. By making the right decision, a lot of women with blocked fallopian tubes have achieved satisfied parenthood.

[kariningss]

just arrived back home and my mom doesn’t even wanna pick me up😞

[ambunyun]

DC x DP Prompt (2)

Danny becomes a dreamwalker, and gains another complicated relationship.

It was no secret that Danny had a rocky and awkward relationship with his rogue gallery, especially after his coronation to become the Ghost King. Imagine the faces his enemies made when they learned that baby half-ghost they used to brawl with was now the Eternal Majesty and effectively their boss.

That was mostly how Danny, in a display of abuse of authority, made Nocturn agreed to help him enter a specific person's dream. More specifically, the dream of one Timothy Drake-Wayne.

It all started when Danny got his scholarship to Gotham University after finishing high school. Finally leaving his ghost-fighting life in Amity Park behind, although he still had to fulfill his duty as the Ghost King.

In his first year at Gotham U, he met none other than the Tim Drake - local celebrity, son of billionaire, genius - as his classmate.

Here's the thing, Danny made Tim extremely sleepy for some reasons.

For one, the air around Danny was chill. Unlike the biting cold of winters, this felt more like the cooling of an air conditioner on a summer day. Which made thing way too comfortable, his body just kept dozing off whenever this strange boy was around, like an animal ready for hibernation.

For two, being the Ghost King meant that Danny had the traces of all the Ancients on him. Including Nocturn's trace as the Ancient of Dream, which induced sleep. This was usually unnoticeable when you were awake, but if you were someone who overworked themselves to the limit of consciousness and survived purely of caffein and energy drinks like Tim did, it got much more effective.

So from Tim's perspectice, Danny was just one big sleep-inducing spell. And this was really ticking him off. He kept falling asleep in the middle of classes, or when he needed to concentrate on a vital case during study time. It was almost impossible to focus when Danny was around, everything was just so relaxing.

The batfam was overjoyed thinking that Tim had finally fixed his broken sleeping habits. In reality, this just made Tim even more paranoid and drank even more caffein than before.

Danny, being someone who had listened to Jazz's rants about the effect of lack of sleep on the mind for all his youth, immediately recognized Tim's worsening symtomps when he saw them. Strangely, whenever he approached Tim to give some advice, the boy just paled and skedaddled away as if he'd seen a ghost (hehe).

So, in true Danny's fashion, he asked Nocturn for help putting a poor classmate to proper sleep. He even manifested himself as the Ghost King in Tim's dream to ease the boy through the process.

This escalated when Tim accidentally developed a crush on Danny in his dreams and was now concerned if he had just developed a crush on a supernatural being in his dream. Or if he had just developed a crush on a figment of his imagination (he couldn't decide which was worse).

Danny was completely unaware of this and patted himself on the back for helping someone while Tim had a crisis.

[suicidal1sociopath]

Ok it might be controversial but I hate: "you can't have xyzPD before the age of 18/21!🤬🤬" oh stfu. I mean, of course you can't have actual personality disorder and get diagnose of PD before the age of 21 because your brain is still developing but you still can show PD's symptomps (even you have to because it would be weird and it wouldn't be a PD if you weren't show symptomps in adolescency and/or childhood) and get "abnormally developing personality with xyzPD traits" diagnosis. First symptomps of PD CAN appear in early childhood. The thing that PD's symptomps appear in early adulthood is bullshit and objectively false. Because a minor's brain is still developing symptomps can change, become more intense but personality is still disordered. Also "hormones" argument makes me annoyed. O/c, I agree PD's, especially BPD is really overdiagnosed and a healthy teen can show BPD symtomps but still those "hormonal BPD symtomps" and real BPD symtomps visibly differ from each other in intensity and impact on everyday functioning. + really late PD diagnosis make it harder to manage and more problematic.

[cbrownjc]

Hi! I hope you don't mind getting an ask from me even though we've never interacted.

I have a question about Old Daniel in the IWTV series, but I don't know how to put it except: what exactly is his current health situation? He has Parkinson's disease (or at least they show us ha has some symtomps, and Daniel says it is Parkinson's), but in ep 01 of the first season Louis calls it an "autoimmune disease" (which Parkinson's is not).

They show us that Daniel keeps a bunch of pill containers on his table in his apartment, which makes sense with how Parkinson's would be treated, but then there's the "levodopa transfusion" scene which does not. (I could try to explain the pharmacokinetic reason if you're interested).

And then there's the meals, during which they keep filling his wine glass, the two Martini scenes. . . why do they keep giving him drinks?They arrange for a doctor to come and administer the "therapy" (I'm not buying that it's levodopa), but he can have all the alcoholic beverages in the world? When they most likely would interfere with the pharmacological therapy he's supposed to be taking?

It all seems a bit suspicious to me. What do you think?

(apologies for any mistakes, english is not my first language)

Hi! It's fine to ask me questions even if we've never interacted before, I don't mind. 🙂

So, as far as we know older Daniel on the show has Parkinson's disease for sure. Daniel pretty much confirmed he does because Louis said he had it and Daniel confirmed it in episode 1x01. And the shaking very much shows he does have it IMO. Because he was specifically shown to be shaking back in episode 1x01 when he was trying to put the Fall of the Reble Angles puzzle together.

Now, as many who read my blog likely already know, I've talked about how my mom had Parkinson's and I was her primary caregiver (before she passed away). So I know a lot already about how that disease works. And so when Armand -- as Rashid -- was talking about "levodopa transfusions" for Daniel being scheduled back in episode 1x04 I was very much "WTF?" about that. The whole idea of that is sus because I know from experience that Daniel should just be taking his levodopa via pills. The only time my mom ever got levodopa administered via an IV drip was when she was staying overnight at a hospital.

So I've long thought there is way more going on with that "levodopa transfusions" Daniel got, and have talked about it here and here. Though at the current time, the theory I talk about in those links might be outdated at this point, though I think there might still be a little something to them.

But, if you know the lore, Dr. Fareed -- the doctor who arrived back in episode 1x06 to administer Daniel's transfusion -- is not only a vampire himself but runs a clinic in the books where he looks into and does experiments regarding vampire physiology. And something else that caught my eye about that clinic he runs as I've been reading Prince Lestat, is that it is said in the book that Fareed and his vampire Maker (and lover) Seth, "ran a small clinic for mortal incurables."

And Parkinson's is very much "incurable."

So yeah, I think something is going on when it comes to Dr. Fareed giving Daniel that IV drip of levodopa. Because even when it comes to the idea of cloning, that's a lot to go through just to get something like a blood sample or something I think. But hey, there's really no saying when it comes to that I guess . . .

As to such as Louis calling it an "autoimmune disease" I just chalk that up to either a writing mistake or, hell just Louis being a vampire. He might just not know the correct medical term to use for it. That is also something that is going into in the Prince Lestat book -- how it can sometimes be very hard for vampires to keep abreast of tech and other things at any given time if they do not encounter it or use it regularly. (Lestat is always forgetting and losing his iPhones). As to the alcohol that, again, could just be the show not really looking too closely at such things (because outside of medical shows, many drama shows don't), or maybe Daniel only being allowed one glass a night and being given some okay about it we never saw. Who knows at this point. 🤷🏾‍♀️

[silasamerica]

me seeing Ed split on Oswald but in. A distinctly bpd way like every time it is never a npd way of splitting only bpd when we have seen Ed npd split on both Kristen and even Lee when they dated for that one week. I’m going insane

[yasukematsudadefender]

hii, i saw you have both bpd and aspd and i wanted to ask if you could explain in detail how these two works for you, i suspect having both of them but I can't really find informations about it

Hi, ofc!

As a disclaimer it's only my experience. I'm an example of really extreme and destructive symtomps. That's the reason I was diagnosed as a minor. Everyone can show it differently. I also have NPD and PPD traits, not as an outside disorders but I have narcissistic and paranoid features.

Anger issues and emotional dysregulation is one of the most disabling symtomps. I have very big problems with emotions, especially anger. I'm angry all the time, I can become furious and agressive because of the smallest thing. I had problems with court because of it. I'm resorting to physical fights often, verbal and emotional agression, destroying things, self harm. Faiting, vomitting and somatic issues because of anger is very common. I have very serious tantrums which I don't remember. I'm often physically violent and threating during these. Besides it, I'm literally unable to regulate myself and I feel things only in extreme. There's things I don't feel like empathy or remorse, and feelings I rarely feel like happiness, fear or sadness but if I do it's only in absolute. I'm not happy, I'm euphoric, I'm not sad I'm suicidal, I'm not ashamed/disgusted I'm devastated, I'm not angry I'm homicidal, I'm not neutral I'm bored and empty. I also border between complete apathy, emotional detachment and feeling everything. I also struggle with homicidal ideation and violent fantasies like fantasy about starting school shooting or burning my school.

Disregard for rules and rights, feelings of others. I hate rules. I hate when someone tell me what to do. I hate authorities. I'm also hyperindependent, I can't stand when somebody want to help me, I feel weak. Everything must be like I want. I don't care about feelings of others, you have to deserve my respect and I hate when someone is mad when I don't care about them, why should I? I often hurt others and I can't see it. I had problems with law and in school because I couldn't stand the rules. I've been breaking them just to make them mad. Now, I'm trying my best to have more respect to others and the rules but then it was tragic. I was stealing, pathologically lying, vandalizing, burning things, bullying others (I was really mean, I'm not bragging I'm talking about symtomps), I was hostile, threating and agressive towards others. I threatning my brother with a knife multiple times, I beat up my peers, siblings and ex-boyfriend (he actually deserved it lol).

Lack of empathy and remorse. I have average cognitive empathy but I will never feel you. I just can't. And I'm mad when someone shame on me because of it. I'm annoyed by people's crying and emotions. I don't feel remorse for any of my actions. I can fake it but not feel it, same with empathy. I feel regret and shame, I'm working on taking responsibility because I'm great at crying and coming up with legal excuses when I do something wrong instead of taking responsibility for it.

I have weird bond to people. I have hard times to bond to someone. I have friends but I don't feel bond to them. It's also very confusing with my BPD because I can feel totally detached to someone and still fear they abandon me. Example my friend. I don't feel attached to her, sometimes I hate her very much but even that, I'll do anything her not to leave me. I border between love and hate between people I'm close to and not only. People say they confuse who I like and who I don't, and idk either. One day I like someone very much and the same day I can start hate somebody without a clear reason.

Exception/favorite person. That's very interesting because he's the only person I'm actually bonded with. I can tell I feel empathy and remorse towards him to extant level. I'm experiencing exception, favorite person and fixation. Exception is a person who I can feel care, empathy, remorse, they genuinely don't bore me and I love them very very much. I'm also very protective over them. Favorite person is someone who help me regulate myself and fill the void in me. I can be very very possesive and jeaolus about my exception and favorite person. I want them all to myself. Fixation is someone who interest me. But not in romantic or sexual way. I'm just interested in that person. I had a lot of people like that, it can be anyone, even someone I don't know. I've never cared emotionally about a fixation, I just had a need to know everything about them. I often stalked this person, have their photos in my phone and know everything about their life. Ik its creepy, sorry.

Lack of impulse control. It's very exhausting. It shows as compulsive spending money, sexual behavior, abusing substances, I'm doing something first and secondly thinking. I'm also very hot-tempered. I often misinterpret words and react inaccurate. I'm very irresponsible. I don't care about my own safety or the safety of others. More than once, harm has been done to me or someone else because of my recklessness. I'm focused on constant pleasure and I can't fulfill work. I need dopamine all the time. Food, sex, masturbation, drugs, alcochol, nicotine, binge watching, arguing and provoking people, watching extreme and brutal things like disturbing video or gore, everything what gives me adrenaline (I have never enjoyed gore, I don't watch it anymore). I can't survive a day without it. I need hard stimulation, I'm so so bored, chronically. I have problems with studying and fulfill my duties.

Paranoia, dissociation and hallucinations this one is strange and idk if it is connected to my ASPD/BPD because pwBPD experience temporary paranoia and dissociation but I don't. I'm not stressed. My ASPD shut down feeling of anxiety. I have depersonalization-derealization disorder and I experience chronic dissociation and I have suspected PPD traits. But besides it, I often see shadows, I hear things or smell things. I'm very paranoid and defensive. I feel like people want to ruin my reputation and destroy me. I'm sure everyone who talk gossip about me and make fun of me. I can find offense literally everywhere. This results in social isolation and agression.

Arrogance. Everyone tell me I'm very arrogant and opinionated. I have big sense of superiority. It switch between megalomania and extreme hatred to myself. But even if I feel like shit and I hate myself, I still feel superior to others and I will never admit that. Teachers, doctors, therapists, probation officers, people working in the court and my family tell me that I have a very grandiose, demanding and pretentious tone and that I don't care about anything. Which is true. I have lack of facial expression. That's why I was misdiagnosed with autism. I can be sarcastic and I can joke but I have serious and emotionless face that everyone thinks I'm fr when I'm ironic.

Fucked up sense of self and mood swings. Lack of indentity is weird. I don't feel like a human, I don't feel my gender, my personality traits or interests. If I have interest, I don't feel like their mine. I don't see myself as a human but like a narrator in a series or game. I also don't see others as a real people, more like an objects. Can't imagine that they have their own life and they aren't characters in my life. Ik it's some kind of developmental issue. It's very weird to explain. And mood swings. Mood swings aren't random but I can feel all emotions in half an hour. I need the slightest stimulus to change my mood, it can be anything. I can be happy and one small thought, a word in a song or a view outside the window can make me fall into a spiral of depression and suicidal desire. It's also a strange and hard to explain.

Exploitative relationships. I can hate someone with all my heart but fawning to them and being nice because they give me something. It can be anything.

I'm very suicidal and self-destructive. I'm trying or I want to hurt myself always when something go wrong. In the opposite of healthy people I can't logically solve my problem, I immidately want to kill myself. I almost don't have any survival instinct, I have fatal health proboems because of my self-destructive behaviors and I don't care. I'm happy when something's happening to me. States of depression are also very common in ASPD. Almost every person with ASPD experience depressive episodes or suicidal tendencies. This is one of less known symtomps. We in bad mood almost all the time. We are often described as grumpy, negativistic, pesimistic and depressed.

Idk if I can say more, maybe I can but I can't remember as much. If I would have any more ideas I will write it in reblogs!

[adamtheawesomecryptidhunter]

How 9-1-1 Saved My Life, and How The Latest Episode Affected Me(spoiler's bewarb)

Hello, my name is Geoffrey(not real name, sorry!) and I've been in the 9-1-1 fandom for more than 3 years now(God time flies ain't it?). And I've been really enjoying each episodes in the past couple of seasons.

The story of BuckandEddie, of Hen ahd Chimney, of Athena and Bobby, Maddie, Albert, Ravi and everyone are just so inspiring and very enjoyable to watch. Each upcoming episode feels like something big to look forward to. They literally give me a reason to wake up and face the day depite of everything that happened so far. 9-1-1 has became an anchor, a lighthouse to steer towards in stormy night. Seeing the way each characters interact and be entwined with each other is something that me and many others wishes we could have.

And the will-they-won't-they thing between Dumbass B(affectionate) and Dumbass E(affectionate) is really fun to watch and really something to look forward to. Although this slow burn is literally had us gnawing our hands off spongebob-style, and the many rescue had us literally on the edge of our couch(almost falling off), it's so beautiful and fun and intense and lovely to watch.

As someone who's recently accepted himself that he might not be as staright as he thought before(never straight at all, actually lol), the story of Buck and Eddie is giving me glimmer feeling of how would a guy fall in love with another guy(speculating, but I do hope they end up toghether!). Because even though I've accepted myself as gay, I'm still in the closet out of fear of someone finding out for me and my family. I live in a rather very religious country(not USA I'm afraid) and the people here can be a bit 'severe' with queer people. So as a closetted gay man, the idea of finding a guy to take to a date is near impossible while living here, and marrying a woman for the sake of 'normality', 'duty' and a 'stable family' feels really wrong, as I don't want to live a lie like that, it's not fair to the woman and me(see that Eddie?? I really feel you here mate). So the will-they-won't-thwy for me is very fun to watch and imagine on how a realtionship like that could blossoming to be.

But Last night, after watching the latest episode(S8E15) I did something stupid, something really really really stupid. I didn't even realized what I did until the morning after. I shouldn't detail wnat happened in short but I really regret doing it But good news I'm still here, still stable, still relatively healthy and currently in a safe and protected space.

I should mention that I suffer from schizophrenia, bipolar and ASD. I was diagnosed back in high school but the symtomps has started since 5th grade(we didn't know abck then my parents just assumed it was the case of 'teen angst'). I'm still on medication, and it has been a long time(almost a year) since my last episode so what happened really shocked me.

When it happened, at first I didn't know why this episode affected me this hard, I've been wacthing many series with MCD, often I could shrug off the shock realtiely easy, but last episode of S8E15 really did a number to me. It messed hard with my head, gave me severe panic attacks among others. Then this morning when I finally wake up I realized it, S8E15 hit me hard because of Bobby Nash reminded me of my dad who passed away 2 years ago.

In many ways Bobby's life and struggle reminds me of my dad's. He also battled addictions(he didn't drink, but liked to gamble and smoke a lot). And seeing Bobby finally decided to toss that book and finally went to get help, it's just like dad you know? After a rather massive natural disaster, the light flipped on in his head, and he immedietally decided to seek professional help and he started getting better and better just like Bobby. And I was feeling proud of him! Just like Buck and May and 118 and others when Bobby stated going to therapy.

In Robert Nash, I see my dad. I see his smile, his courage to change to be better, his fatherly positive attitude even though things were bad and his bravery against all odds that the werld threw on him.

So yeah, I guess it's to be expected, seeing Bobby going down like that gave me flashback to me waiting for dad in the emercgency care. He passed away so soon, he didn't show any serious symptom until late at night, it got so bad that we went to the hospital right away. And unfortunately he passed away in his sleep in the next morning. And seeing the light goes off from Bobby's eyes like that, it's almost mirror when the light left my dad as I couldn't do anything but to watch from the sideline while the nurses tried and failed to resuscitate him.

I don't know why I'm writing all of this, maybe just to get things off my chest? Trying to make sense of everything? maybe a desperate plea for Bobby to come back? I don't know. I wish the showrunners and co. would think twice, three times even four times before doing something drastic like killing off a beloved character because of a sudden "creative idea". I wish they would think of the fans who's been watching them for years, who in their heart already considered these fictional characters almost like a family to them, and how doing something like killing them for the sake of 'drama' and 'creative idea' could really hurt some people. Sorry everyone always told me that I care too much and emphatize much about everything, including fictional characters in a fictional firefighter show.

Well if I could wish for one thing, it's for Bobby's death to be retconned. It has happened many times before in many shows, so I'm certain that this whole thing could be reversed somehow. He's such an important character to the series that his death, while heroic af is just to abrupt and make zero sence ofther than him dying and causeing a whole lot unecessary drama that no one want and the fact that Bobby's death was a "creative decision"? It didn't sit right to me and many others. If I'm not mistaken someone from the crew(maybe it was Oliver?) showed a script of Bobby's actually alive and is buried inside his coffin. That could work right??? It's wild enough and preposterous enough that it would fit in the show, right with the tsunami, truck bombing and the asteroid stuff. So yeah please, if you would, please for the love of God's bountiful mercy please bring Peter back and undo Bobby's death.

So yeah, I strongly wish Bobby woukld come back, and for all of this is just a werid fever dream/hallucination/concussion or others

If his fate is really has been set on stone, well all I could say was thank you. Thank you for making the last 3 years more bearable than ever in my life, especially after dad's passing, I don't know if I could watch the next season, maybe I need time, maybe it's time to drop it off altogether I don't know. And I wish all the actors & actresses, everyone in the production team others the best way forward. Know that at least everything you did so far has really gave this random viewer of yours another reason to fight for day by day.

Okay I rambled a lot so I should end this here, wish you the nbest!

~ Geoffrey(for the love of God it's NOT Jeff)

PS: Ignore the grammar and tenses, english is not my native language and these hand tremors making it hard to type proplery)

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[valkyr7e]

Theres this guy in my class and we talked about how to take care of cats. He told me that a cat would live better in a whole city and that all cats would prefer to live outside because thats where they normally life. He also said that if youre going to let your cat go on a balcony that they needed a whole forest and mices on it 💀 He wouldnt admit that this was wrong and that NOT ALL cats would rather life outside or that its not always healthyer for them. I ended up closing my ears and tell him that he was fucking annoying and then he said that i simply could'nt take critic ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ srsly he argued with me over the most random stuff, even about things he doesnt know about and HE TELLS ME I AM UNABLE TO FACE CRITISM??? There are things that dont need opinion, dude. For example DIAGNOSED AUTISTIC SYMTOMPS. He told me that it could'nt be true that autistic people have issues with motor skills and that they can be really clumsy and this was caused by the austim. HE HAD NO IDEA ABOUT AUTISM WTF Also i grew up with cats, SO HOW CAN HE THINK HE KNOWS BETTER???

[bl3eding-st4r]

You know which of my ADHD symtomps bother me the most? When you're about to do something, walk out the door, and forget what you were about to do. Like WHY THE HELL DO YOU DO THIS 💔 i just wanted to get a glass of cacao 😞 dont make me forget about my cacao!