#wisdom of 7 y'all

[greennoobartist]

I was planning of a good ending for this but omg THIS IS WHAT BITTERSWEET ENDINGS ARE? ?? *writes it down in my notes* why not give it a shot maybe???

[vitaminseetarot]

PAC: Random Messages You May Need 🌈🎆⛅

Sup, y'all. I'm finally back for another pick a card reading. I really apologize if folks have not heard from me over the past month, I meant to get this reading (among other things) out a while ago. I have not been able to touch tarot for the past few weeks. Life has been… topsy turvy, to say the least. Heh heh. [sweating profusely]

I meant to have another game out and to have paid readings available by now--that is still part of the plan. What was meant for June will be in July. So this blog might go from 0 to 100 mph real soon, to move along with plans as intended!

I was loosely inspired by the Baker pride flag from 1978 for this group selection. These piles are pretty nondescript: each one contains a random message that may resonate with you. Pick based on whichever color of the Prism Oracle speaks to you most, and feel free to choose more than one. Take only what resonates.

Pile 1 - Strength (Red) Pile 2 - Happiness (Orange) Pile 3 - Illumination (Yellow) Pile 4 - Movement (Green) Pile 5 - Flow (Turquoise) Pile 6 - Trust (Blue) Pile 7 - Intuition (Violet) Pile 8 - Love (Pink)

Pile 1 - Strength (Red)

10 of Swords, Insight

You've been asked by the universe to put up with a lot, especially recently. You're reaching a finish line of a very long and brutal marathon. There have been too many times where you questioned whether or not to throw in the towel. If you have, you may also have questioned whether or not it was the correct choice. Sometimes, things don't work out, and it's better to move on. It can be difficult to hold everything up when one thing after another seems to fall apart at the seams, but either way you're being reminded of the light at the end of this long and turbulent tunnel.

Collect yourself, pick up what pieces you can. Time has shifted everything, but the essentials still stand. Gather the wisdom you have learned from this ordeal. There is still beauty to be found in the decay, glittering gems in the rough.

Maybe you don't want to get stronger. Healing may feel like a better option than grinding for difficult experience points. Give yourself the rest and repair you need. Let go of only that which is keeping you from starting again, but you don't need to throw the baby out with the bathwater. You've gained so much wisdom and strength, this trial wasn't without gain. Treasure it and begin anew.

Pile 2 - Happiness (Orange)

2 of Swords, Clarity

Whatever answers you seek are coming to you. Or perhaps they've already arrived; open your eyes and see for yourself. You may be wondering which path will satisfy you more. The process of reconciling this could take forever unless you lean on your gut here. This can't be decided based on intellect alone, for you could get stuck mulling it over for days. Imagining all the different possible outcomes could be taxing for your brain, so narrow it down. Eliminate the weakest links and home in on what excites you. It should feel like an "aha, yes!"

If you cannot see the answer right away, go within to the realm of imagination. Feel your way through. Visualize not just with sight but with yearning. Does the light of the sun make you feel hopeful? Does the cool rain make you feel relaxed? Would an art class expand your capacity to imagine many things, or would taking a science class?

The X mark in 2 of Swords is like a railroad crossing sign. Redirect that train of thought into brighter and more positive avenues of expression. Say "what if" as if you can't wait for something to happen. "What if I saw a shooting star tonight? What if my cute neighbor asked me out?" Let the future shine its beacon for you. It will all make sense in due time.

Pile 3 - Illumination (Yellow)

Ace of Cups, Reconciliation

Have you been staying up way too late trying to figure everything out? Please give yourself a brain curfew: no problem solving or saving the day after 10 pm! I'm getting that you may tend to ruminate on the same strong emotions. For some I'm getting that there is a crush here. There's inconsistent text messaging. I know it's easy to get too nervous about their reply, but try to wait until at least the next day to hear back. They may need time to formulate their words right. They may not even see your message straight away. Take it all in stride and sleep on it; if they want to reach out to you, then they eventually will.

For others in this pile, you may be going through a rough patch with another person right now and could be wondering how things will pan out. Give them time to respond, they could still be processing it. Stay on the more positive end of things with the idea that things will work themselves out. I feel like if you can manage this in a relaxed and non hurried way, the knot will untangle easily. The coffee in the Ace of Cups is very hot, so give it a chance to cool.

There is opportunity in your near future to make up for something that went awry due to a miscommunication error. You may get a chance to make up for a test, appointment, or an interview. You will receive grace for any mishaps. Remember that tomorrow won't necessarily be the same as today, so cherish both the good you have now along with the good that soon awaits you.

Pile 4 - Movement (Green)

IX Hermit, Devotion

Looks like things are progressing faster than you even thought they would. You may be blinking your eyes in partial disbelief: could this ball really be rolling? Indeed, thanks to your efforts, goals are being met and results are more evident by the day. You eschewed a lot of distractions to make this work, so give yourself a pat on the back for the level of commitment you put into it. Some of you in this pile may have just graduated, if so then congratulations! But try not to get too comfortable with your laurels, for you have a long road ahead of you in whatever you do next. This one completion is the start of many.

Does that thrill you? If so, wonderful! On the other hand, some of you may be feeling uncertain about continuing. You may be reviewing your options to see if this really is worth pursuing. Something that requires a lot of dedication and focus on it to the exclusion of all else… yeah, I can see how that can get tiring after a long time. There are folks who can get their Master's right after their Bachelor's, or have another child right after the first, but people can also happily move on to what feels more right for them instead.

It's okay to stop and assess your tracks if necessary. Taking time off is not the same as quitting. It's not losing motivation, it's recovering it. This is your passion and your discipline, not anyone else's. If you need to give other parts of your life more room to breathe, then do so with the confidence that your great work will wait for you.

Pile 5 - Flow (Turquoise)

4 of Wands, Hospitality

Have you been stuck with something for a while? There's a strong sense of a blockage that is being eroded away over time. This process can be sped up by allowing the ice to thaw a little more. "Break the ice." You may be wanting to open up and spend more quality time with other people but don't know how. Or you could be faced with meeting new people and being nervous about interacting with them. Even more so if they're roommates. A few people in this pile could be moving or have just moved. This is a chance to ease up and get to know new people.

This blockage could be a result of the past and of anxiety. The sound of a turning doorknob just jumpscared me as I typed the last sentence. You may benefit from learning about social anxiety and how to manage it. It's not an overnight job for you to fix this, though, but to just be aware of it and not allow it to get in the way of positive change in your life.

If you're struggling to figure out how to deal with meeting new people, I would suggest looking up videos or how-tos on social interaction, especially if a certain etiquette is required for an event. Learn about conversation starters and fun things you could do together like hosting a game night. Practice makes perfect, and over time the blockage will melt into the stream.

Pile 6 - Trust (Blue)

3 of Swords, Conversion

You have a very soft and tender outlook on life, which makes it all the more painful when reality doesn't conform to such a compassionate vision. It doesn't always try to respond to vulnerability in appropriate ways. Much of the time, this isn't from natural events as much as it stems from the ways in which people can treat one another cruelly. You've had some toxic people in your life who have put you through the wringer and attempted to squeeze every ounce of kindness they could from you. Making light of this pain to them only resulted in further deflection and antagonism on their part. The only outcome was to salvage whatever you could and pray for the best.

It is not your job to change their closed minded perspectives. They're on their own, here. Do not concern yourself with their messy inner world and lose any more of your energy. Also, do not attempt to regain what energy has been lost through bargaining either, as much as it hurts to press onward without looking back. You will recover, but you have to move on first and prioritize what you deeply care about most (you included).

There will come a time when your heart will be healed so you can see the brighter side of human connection again. All the beauty that your gentle soul is seeking is still there, shrouded by layers of protective petals that will one day bloom again and your life will truly flourish. For now, this is a time to give yourself all the comfort you can.

Pile 7 - Intuition (Violet)

XII Hanged Man, Spring

I get the feeling that you've been waiting quite a while for some good results to come in. This could either be from something that you started back in the spring, or are waiting to see results which may come around springtime. It is a season of flowers, so you may be waiting for this thing to blossom--that is, to be fully presentable to the public in some way. To have something to show for the time you put in. Like "hey, this is what I've been working on, this came from the seeds I planted." It could be growing in a direction unlike what you're used to, leaving you wondering how it could succeed in such unusual and burdensome conditions.

Lean on your inner guidance when it comes to the right timing. I don't believe that you're currently in a space where you need to push so hard for the best results. You can let things move at their own pace. Over tending to anything can end up in just as much trouble as neglect. There's only so much you can do before you have to let the flower do the growing and blooming for itself.

It's not always easy to sit in the place of uncertainty with the idea that doing more will provide more. But sometimes less is more. What you're creating is coming to fruition and may even turn out better than you expected. Trust in both the knowledge you've earned over time from learning lessons, as well as your natural intuition, to help you decide when it's time to take action.

Pile 8 - Love (Pink)

7 of Swords, Gossip

Let your heart lead the way here, not your worries over what others will think. Sure, you may end up with some people talking about you, but opportunities will keep passing by if you wait for everyone else to catch up to you. Leaning too much on everyone else's perspectives will only distort the vision you have for your own life journey. We all have unique journeys to go on, but unconditional kindness remains at the center of the Love card, the one thing that brings us together. Following life from a heart centered place may result in having others glance over and whisper, but that shouldn't distract you.

There is a rather delicate message here about dealing with friendships, colleagues, or possibly even family. You may have a tricky situation between several other people right now who have beef not with you but with each other. They may be coming to you to air their grievances and ask for advice.

If you care about both of these people, then it's best to approach this issue as diplomatically and impartially as possible and avoid feeding into the conflict. What would an enlightened mindset do in this situation? How would you want the other person to behave if they were in your shoes? Come from a place of pure compassion. They may choose to make amends or not, it's up to them. If their butting heads is bringing you down, it's always okay to step back and take a break. You are not responsible for what's going on in their heart, only your own, so protect yours well.

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2024, @VitaminseeTarot ™

[ego-sum-deus-fractus]

Nero's Imperial Household HCS

⚠️ Anything about the Gods that are written about here refers specifically to the RRverse. I am in no way talking about the actual deities themselves.

• Son of Hermes

- I'm calling him Dolios for now because it's an epithet of Hermes and it makes it easier to remember him.

- Son of Hermes, either one of the athletic epithets or the Psychopomp epithets.

- About 18 years old? Honestly what even was the age limit of Nero's stepchildren?

- Ok so I'm still confused as to what his powers would be but I'm leaning into the psychopomp side of Hermes. Although I'm also leaning on him being stronger than the average person because there's no way Nero didn't teach his step children to defend themselves without using their powers (Also Hermes is the god of Athletes sooo)

- I headcanon the Hermes kid as the oldest, partially because I don't know who else to make the oldest stepchild of Nero, and partly because I have a feeling that Nero would make the "calmer" cabins (AKA Cabin 11 and Cabin 7) really really feral just so he can showcase his strength in a "Hey I made the kids from the calmer cabins really feral HAHA IMAGINE WHAT I CAN DO" kind of way and also because he's an asshole and can't let kids be kids. Also because Nero's a furry.

• Nero definitely gave all of his stepchildren jewellery that represented their godly parent btw. I headcanon Dolios to have something like this.

Because why not? (And no this is not an excuse to show literally every piece of jewellery I have saved in my pinterest board) Meg has half-moon shaped rings that turn to scimitars but I have no idea what weapon these earrings would turn to so if y'all have any ideas tell me!!

• Lucius

- Nero really wanted the entire world to know who his step childrens' godly parent was huh 😭 Anyways onto his character!

- Son of Apollo, specifically Apollo Nomios.

- 16 to 17 years old (probably).

- LISTEN. WHAT DO YOU MEAN THAT THERE AREN'T CHILDREN OF APOLLO WHO HAVE SHEPHERDS AS THEIR MORTAL PARENT. HOW DARE RICK FORGET ABOUT BRANCHUS MY BABY. Anyways in my head Lucius's mortal father was a shepherd which is how he attracted Apollo. Again, I'm not sure what powers he would have but he definitely knows how to fight (because like I said, there's no way Nero didn't teach his stepchildren to defend themselves without using their powers). Also he can talk to ravens. And crows. And sheep. Because how come Percy is the only one that can talk to his father's sacred animals? That's unfair!

- I'm pretty sure he is one of the oldest demigods in Nero's Imperial Household? In my mind he's the second oldest out of them all.

• His jewellery is probably something like this bracelet.

It turns into a Gladiator btw. Not sure how that works but then again we have no idea how Meg's rings work either so yeah.

Also a bow and arrow seemed way too basic to me. Like may the Gods forbid that their children use anything other than the ones their godly parents use.

• Aemilia

- At first I got really confused over what godly parent she could have but then I searched up the meaning of her name and.... yeah.

- Daughter of Athena, not sure which epithet tho.

- Same age as Lucius, about 17 years old.

- Oh gods I know damn well that Nero made this girl suffer. Like you already have people having high expectations about Athena kids and then your step parent is NERO. Like this girl was probably given some big ass sum to solve at the age of 7 or something ( WISDOM IS NOT THE SAME AS KNOWLEDGE NERO). Oh my poor little girl. We know next to nothing about her but I'm gonna make her and Lucius my pookies.

- Either the third oldest stepchild in Nero's Imperial Household or the same age as Lucius.

- Not sure what jewellery Nero would give her tho. An owl necklace? Something that looks like this?

What weapon could this even turn into? A shield maybe? Y'know the thing with Medusa? (RR messed up her myth so bad in PJO that now I'm confused as to whether it's following the Greek or Roman myth).

• Hunter of Artemis

- I have absolutely no hcs about her whatsoever because I'm still confused as to who her godly parent could be. Like we know that Meg is supposed to replace Demeter which means that his other stepchildren are also mostly the children of the god they're supposed to replace.

- Still, I'm gonna have to make her a daughter of Diomedes and an ex hunter of Artemis otherwise I don't know how it'll work. I'm not sure about her name either.

- Younger than Aemilia and Lucius by a year or two, so that makes her 15 to 16 years old.

- She and Lucius are probably always paired together since Artemis & Apollo are twins. I'm not sure what power I want to give her so I'd love to know what you guys want her powers to be!

- Third oldest stepchild of Nero.

- Her jewellery turns into a bow and arrow because that's usually the weapon that the Hunters of Artemis use. I HC it to look something like these two.

How would this turn into a bow and arrow you ask? I have no idea!

These are only for the four oldest demigods, if you guys want I'll make one for the others too! (I've basically divided it into 3 parts, there are 4 children in each group and the groups are -Oldest, Middle and Youngest, the same way Apollo divided them)

Tagging- @actual-gremlin @arihuntress @humburgercheeseburger @sahebro-apollosangel @lesbianbanana @whats-a-lester @please-be-nice-im-sensitive me if any of you want me to remove you next time!

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I'd really appreciate it if y'all actually read it tho....

Please don't let this flop I beg you pls

[blushstarot]

PICK A CARD: what's your genshin impact life like, and what vision would you have based on it?

DISCLAIMERS & CONTEXT: this is important so don't skip it.

Since genshin has 7 types of visions, it felt unfair to me to just do three options to choose from like I normally do, that being said, I'm doing 9 options, with (hopefully) a short backstory, and then based on that, choose a vision. That means probably some visions would be left out of the post, and/or one or two elements could appear a lot. I could try and control that all the 7 elements appear but it wouldn't be a genuine reading since it'll be some manipulation, and that'll be dishonest and I'm not about that. Also in case anyone want to know what I took into account for selecting the visions, unless stated otherwise, I used this as a guide.

Anything said here about your life/ideals/past events is ONLY related to the hypothetical scenario of you living in genshin, DON'T take the reading as guidance, and DON'T feel that you HAD to experience the things said in real life to be able to relate and have that vision. This is just a fun what if based on your energy right now.

With the explanation and disclaimer out of the way, pick whichever picture you feel more attracted to and skip to that pile.

click on the picture to get a better view if necessary. rant and poll at the end.

Pile 1

the moon, ten of pentacles, ace of pentacles.

So, right of the start, without the interpretation of the meaning of the cards, the moon is in 2/3 of them, and what is the moon associated with? exactly, water. So right when I pulled the second card I knew y'all vision was hydro. I have this feeling that in genshin you would be from a kinda rich family, of course you're not feiyun commerce guild rich, but your family is well off and you don't need to worry about money. Talking about family, it seems that you have a good relationship with them, and they just support you and want you to live a fulfilling life.

So, for how you got your vision. It was at night, you were in your room, laying in bed or looking out the window, and you were thinking about your future. You wanted to continue the family business, how could you not?, your family has always done so much for you, and asked so little in return, this had to be right the way to repay them. At this point someone from your family close to you entered your room, I'm getting father figure vibes, definitely a masculine energy. One thing leads to another and you confide that you want to continue inherit the family business, but something deep within you is toughing at your heart strings, as if to trying to tell you something. This father figure tells you to really think this through and that the feeling you have might be because you are not fully convinced in what you want. Before leaving he reassures you that the family business is not that important, that you don't owe them anything, and that all they've done for you has been out of love. Then when you are all alone again and finally realize that you don't want to stay in the family business, but to do your own thing; a hydro vision appears next to you, and you know you've made the right choice, in wanting to pursue what you are passionate about.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 2

three of swords, king of cups, the empress.

This pile is giving me a lot of mixed messages, like in your genshin life y'all are a kind, compassionate person, and also a very wise, but something tells me that is not dendro wisdom, but more like leader wisdom, if that makes sense. With the empress I see that you have children at you care, could be your actual children, but I'm getting more of a head of an orphanage type of vibe.

For how you got your vision, I'm picturing that you are in some kind of meeting with important people, and they are pressuring you sell the orphanage, so they can close it and make something else where it's located. This is a negotiation they've been trying to make for quite some time now, and are trying to convince you with any way possible to sell it, and at this point you were tired of them showing up to the orphanage trying to convince you; probably some of the older kids starting to piece things together and are worried you might abandon them. So you agreed to go to their company headquarters to negotiate, away form the kids so they can't listen. So once you're there they start to bring up the fact that you're the only staff in the orphanage, and don't have anyone to help you finance and care for the children, and after some other valid arguments you start to doubt if you should just sell it and use the money to open a new one some other place. But something doesn't feel right and you stand your ground, telling them that the property is not for sell, that is your home and the home of all the children, you just can give that away like nothing. When you go back to the orphanage the first thing you see is the kids waiting for you, and you figured that everyone was aware of the rumors of you abandoning them, since you could see some of them had been crying. When you tell them the good news, they run to hug you, and only when one kind complains that they hit their head with something that was hanging from your waist, you realize that the gods had looked at you, and granted you a geo vision.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 3

wheel of fortune, the high priestess, queen of swords.

Something about this pile gives me anemo, but at the same time it feel too different from it. In your genshin life, you went through many hardships, and there was a point were you ended up in a situation where you couldn't defend yourself, and needed help to overcome it. This brought a big change into your life, an that's how you were able to obtain a vision.

Now, the story of how all that happened, actually started long before you got your vision. When you were on your lowest, a feminine energy help you, someone intelligent, witty, honest, and strong. She saved you from some monsters that were attacking you, and even tho you tried to fight back, they were way more stronger than you, so when she came to your rescue you felt ashamed for relaying on another person that happened to pass by and were kind enough to help you. You ended up asking them to teach you how to fight, so you could become stronger and better defend yourself. At first she refused and point out that your intentions weren't pure and that you just wanted to become stronger for selfish reasons. After some meditation on why you wanted to become stronger, you reached the conclusion that you actually wanted to be someone reliable, that everyone could depend on if they ever needed your help. After you told her that, she agreed to train you. You spend day and night learning from her, not only things combat related, but also how to be a better and more kind person. By the ending of your training, you viewed her as a mother figure, even to she wasn't exactly caring and gentle, despised her cold and serious face, you knew she cared for you. When you finally finished training and she said you were ready for anything you wanted to do, she gave you your first weapon as a gift, along with a box that contained a another gift she prepared. When you opened the box, next to the bracelet she bought for you, there was a pyro vision placed next to it, although no one knew how it got there.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 4

ace of pentacles, the emperor, queen of swords (reversed).

I'm getting this strong feeling that you would be some business owner, although I don't get a feeling for anything specific. You also probably come across to others as someone really intelligent on the art of business even if you follow these unorthodox methods that look like they are meant to fail, but for some reason for you it always work out. I feel that some might see you as a stubborn, maybe even ruthless person, like you are definitely a serious type.

For how you got your vision, you were probably in your office, just when you started to see profit from your new business. You went through a lot of challenges to get where you were, but you still weren't satisfied and had a lot of goals in mind, so you never let yourself take a break and were always working. You were drowning in paperwork, quiet literally, you couldn't even see the surface of your desk because of all the papers scattered. At this point you had too much in your mind and were starting to get a headache, so you decided to take a short break to eat something. Before leaving you decided to clean your desk and organize all the papers on it, and while moving them, that's when you realized that there was a dendro vision on your desk.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 5

the sun, page of swords (reversed), queen of wands (reversed).

I'm getting really positive and playful vibes, almost childlike, so my guess is that y'all are really young, or that are in touch with your inner child so much that even in a hypothetical scenario about a video game, you still are coming across as someone curious, with and adventurous spirit, and overall really happy and someone comforting to be around, definitely someone who is always playing with kids and helping those in need. With that being said, it may come as a surprise that y'all are involved in a bad organization, and not bad as in "they don't pay extra hours" bad, but more like "we control all the city and we decide what are the rules and the only valid law is ours" bad. The thing is, I don't really have any information about what the organization does, or what is the thing that you're supposed to do in it, so I think you actually don't really know either, and that's why I can't see it, OR there's too much hidden things around you that you want to keep a secret. Like I feel that you want to bring justice to bad people, and that you joined the organization because they basically lied to you and made you believe that they were good guys. I really have a feeling that you found out about what the organization really does but you're unable to leave so you are ashamed of being part of it or are ashamed of what the organization asked you to do, so you don't want anyone to know. Anyway, this is funny because I can't see how you got your pyro vision either, just that it happened near the time you joined the organization.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 6

ace of wands, four of swords (reversed), ace of cups.

Something happened to you that made you isolate yourself from the word, in the literal sense. I feel that the was a heartbreak, not necessarily romantic, that made you so sad that you decided you needed to go get yourself lost in nature, to meditate and work on yourself. I don't have a clear answer on who that person was, but I'm getting the mixed signal that was a lover or a really close friend that betray you, and your trust, and then not long after they got out of your life, either by death or by moving really far away.

So, how you got you vision is a little interesting. Remember I said you went out and got lost in nature? Well I'm not sure if it was 100% true, I can feel that for quite some time you actually were living in this sort of cave, with a river nearby and some sources of food, but also I can see that some weeks before getting your vision you were living in a really really really dark cave and I believe is some kind of metaphor on were you where mentally at the time. But then this beautiful moment happens where you decide you've been lamenting and torturing yourself emotionally for a long time now, so you gather courage and decide to go out of the cave. and of course at first the sun is too blinding, and you have to close your eyes and cover them with your hand at the same time. Then you start to thinking about going back to the comfort of the darkness, but really want to feel the warmth of the sun in your skin again so you continue forward even with your eyes closed. After some steps you can feel that you are outside but are too afraid to open your eyes so you just keep walking until to feel your feet touch something metallic, you look down and open your eyes to see what it is. And the first thing you are able to see is an anemo vision, and at that moment you know is yours, and it feels as if you've been born again.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 7

the magician (reversed), wheel of fortune, king of swords (reversed).

I don't know how much y'all are gonna like this but listen, someone from this PAC had to be the bad guy, surely from 9 piles not everyone was going to be good people... it's you guys, y'all are the bad ones, and you know it and you aren't ashamed of it (remember this is about your genshin life and that I'm not actually saying that in real life y'all are bad people). So, how do I put this. Y'all actually don't have a vision right now, you will, you will soon, I promise, just not right now.

Okay so, give a chance to explain. Y'all are power hungry, ruthless, tyrant, or at least that's how the others perceive you. They see you like an authority regardless of your ethics and morals not aligning with what everyone considers as "good", and they trust your judgment in a way, since you seem so disciplined and don't allow yourself to doubt on what you believe. That being said, I so feel that there's some major event that is going to shake your foundations, and send you on a spiral of some kind of identity crisis, and realizing that the things you believed in were wrong, or weren't even true at all. When that happens and you try to seek support on someone you trust, they're gonna deceive you again and betray you, which in return will amplify all the negative and complicated emotions you are feeling, and somewhere along your journey of change and acceptance is when you're going to get a cryo vision that's going to make you company for the rest of your life.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 8

ace of cups (reversed), four of swords, ace of wands.

So, you guys had a lot going on, that left you in a really bad mental space. With the ace of cups we can assume it was something like a wedding or engagement getting cancelled, but that doesn't have to be necessary it, since I'm also seeing that there was some type of social event where there was something you did and people didn't approve that left you so anxious and/or embarrassed that you had to leave early, so if you're not vibing with the wedding/engagement thing, it could be that. The point is that that event made people single you out and start to be more wary of you and more hostile. This left you feeling overwhelmed since you always thought that you were well liked in the community, like at the end of the day it wasn't that serious to them, but for you it hit really hard and made you see that maybe the world wasn't really like you believed.

At the end you allowed negativity to really set in your life, until at some point you decided that you needed some peace and quiet, make some introspection, relax and really think about how you are going to life your life from now on. Thankfully you found a solution once put your mind into it, and made a plan of moving somewhere else, to start again, so actually in that same day you started looking into it and by the end of the day of the day you had almost everything sorted out. You went to sleep really excited to the though of finally having your life back in control again, and there was definitely this new spark in your eyes and this feeling that almost didn't let you sleep, thankfully you did, and when you wake up you'll start this new life and the first thing you'll see will be this electro vision that accompanied you on your sleep.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 9

two of swords, the high priestess, the devil.

So uh, a lot to unpack here. First things first, like pile 7 based on the story that the cards are telling me, I don't see you having a vision right now, but you will have one in the near future. Funnily enough, you guys also share with pile 7 that you will have a cryo vision. So yeah, I just wanted to be straight forward with it in case you don't care about your backstory that much because it doesn't really mention how you got the vision, I just a very general idea of how it happened.

So your story is that you're feeling trapped, and like if things are out of your control, and that you have to make this big decision between two friends. I feel that one of them is trying yo leave, it could be from town, or organization/institution, or isn't happy with the friend group anymore and how it has changed. And they're your best friend so of course you want to support their decision, but you have another really close friend that isn't happy with they wanting to leave, and this ideals they have, so both of them start fighting with each other. And you are such a loving and caring friend, you don't want to see them fight, so you're trying to mediate the constant argument, and trying for them to reconcile, and it's very stressful because none of them wants to give in and compromise. And this is pretty much what the cards say, except for the high priestess, that is encouraging you to trust what you believe, and take action, follow your intuition, etc. So my guess is, you guys realize that the argument is pointless, and let your friends know, and kinda distance from them yourself from them because you realize they're not the friends you've always loved anymore, and that their change is not really the best thing for you right now, and then when you do that and you accept it and really embrace and believe in your decision, you'll be granted your vision.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Thanks for reading!

I usually write this notes before doing the readings, so I don't really know how it went, BUT I can already tell this is gonna let me feeling really tired.

So yeah, I'm drained, it's been two days and a lot of hours spend on this so future me can worry about spelling mistakes to fix. If I ever do a PAC this long again, I better get paid or something this felt like working 12 hours straight, I had so many issues with the formatting it's not even funny, and don't get me started with pile 5, or that error I had with the poll, or the fact that the cryo users didn't have a vision yet. Anyway, this will be my only 9 option one in a while, the next ones will be back at 3 options, 4 if I'm feeling generous.

All jokes aside, it was really fun and I really wanted to do this PAC, so it's still worth it. Can't wait to read what you guys think, lot's of love! 💕

You can find more of my PACs on my master list, and if you have any suggestions on future PACs you want to see me do, you can send me and ask.

Bye byee ✨

[sunflowersandsapphires]

Heaven Help the Fool

Of Oak and Ivy, Chapter 5

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pairing: Matt Murdock x fem!reader 

summary: In college, Matt Murdock had two best friends, Foggy Nelson and you. However, life had no intention of letting you graduate with him. When he reconnects with you in adulthood, he is troubled to see the hand God has dealt you and vows to use every tool at his disposal to save you from damnation.

warnings: swearing, angsty matthew, hints of matt's jealousy, cuddling? idk this one is relatively tame (especially compared to Ch 4)

a/n: This chapter is pure sugary fluff. I ended up cutting this chapter in half because it was approaching 10k. This is the 1st half :) I hope you enjoy!! Thank you to @madschiavelique for helping me rewrite this multiple times!

Side note: I will probably wait a month or so before updating this again. I'm trying to get 5-7 chapters written so that I can post biweekly for the rest of the year to keep y'all fed!

w/c: 4.2k

Despite the brief hiccup in your friendship–courtesy of one douchebag boyfriend–you, Matt, and Foggy had been getting along swimmingly recently; so well, in fact, that Foggy would only refer to you as “The Three Musketeers”, complete with embarrassingly clumsy fake sword swishing, of course. The thought of the two of you air-fencing as you giggled to each other never failed to make him smile. 

By some miracle, the conversation he’d initiated with you about your growing distance had actually gone well and sparked a positive change. You’d apologized profusely, asking a number of questions, about how Matt was feeling and why, to guarantee your understanding. And, thankfully, he’d been able to answer them without exposing his feelings for you. In the end, you’d promised to return to your original schedule of study sessions, as well as give Matt and Foggy notice if you would need to cancel. Nothing outrageous, just being more mindful about communication and the time you were spending with your friends. 

Unfortunately for Matt, and Foggy who was slowly stepping aboard the “Everett Sucks” train alongside his roommate, you’d also suggested that the two of them hang out with you and Everett in order to get to know him better. The idea was harmless, even adorable if you asked the love-sick part of Matt’s brain, but the outcome was hellish. 

About a week ago, Matt and Foggy had accompanied you and Everett to a haunted house–listening to the macho third year “protect” you from strobe lights and masked actors despite you not being all that scared. Though he had brought a date himself, Matt had barely even smiled at the poor girl, preoccupied with Everett’s fingers brushing over a patch of exposed skin on your waist at every opportunity. Clearly, he hadn’t been inconspicuous about his attention being elsewhere, given that the night had ended with him getting a face full of hot chocolate from his snubbed date. The sticky droplets soaking into his clothes were nothing compared to the irritation he felt when Everett slapped him on the back—shaking his head as he imparted his wisdom to the first year. “Sorry man. Girls will be girls.” 

Then, of course, there’d been last night. The three of you had attended a halloween party at Everett’s place, and the guy had refused to walk you home even though it was cold, dark, and dangerous considering how tipsy you'd been. If Matt and Foggy hadn't been there, who knows what harm could have befallen you? Even before that, Matt had been clenching his fists all night, hearing Everett blabber over you and swat your hands away in front of his peers, claiming he wasn’t in the mood to hold you. If Matt was in his place, he’d–

No. These were the exact thought patterns he needed to avoid to prevent another…mistake like the night at Fogwell’s. He'd been doing a decent job not falling down the same rabbit holes–that would all be for nothing if he started fantasizing again now.��

But how could he not? You were so thoughtful, and intelligent, and adorable, and goddamn magnetic. Every action you took reeled him further into the treacherous web he was trapped in–unwittingly intoxicating him with your kindness. You were unlike anyone he’d ever met, that fact had only been highlighted since he’d embarrassed himself at Clinton Church. 

Shuddering against a gust of wind, Matt continued his brisk pace down the sidewalk as his fingers grew numb around his cane. He was quickly regretting his decision to leave his jacket behind. Hopefully, the bookstore was willing to shell out the extra bucks for a decent amount of heat and he wouldn’t find you as a popsicle when he took shelter.

Huffing out an irritated breath, Matt rounded the corner towards your place of work. It had become almost a habit for him to accompany you during your shifts, keeping you company and working through assignments together. Honestly, it was the best part of his day. 

Matt frowned as he closed in on the bookstore. He was having a difficult time hearing your heartbeat, which was usually pattering away, steady as rain, a few feet from the entrance of the store. As he pushed open the glass door, he could finally make out a steady thump accompanied by your familiar scent in the far corner of the shop. 

The constant smell of ink and stale paper, now mingling with the slightly acrid smell of dust burning in the vents, stuck in his nostrils—as it always did when he arrived here. It was comforting, in a way, reminiscent of both you and the library at the orphanage, where he’d spent much of his freetime as a child.

Smiling to himself as he approached you, he folded up his cane and let his body relax in the warm bubble of generated heat. You were asleep, curled up around whatever project you’d been working on like a cat on a sunlit patch of carpet. Settling on the floor beside you, Matt propped himself up against a bookshelf before unzipping his backpack as silently as he could. It wasn’t the most organized set up to work with, laying his textbook on the floor and holding his computer in his lap, but after the late night you’d had, there was no doubt you needed the rest. 

Body twisting in sudden discomfort, you whimpered beside him, unwinding from your bent shape and towards his body. Readjusting so that your nose was pressed against his thigh, you sighed, brow unfurrowing. Even unconscious, you appreciated his presence. 

The denim of his jeans couldn’t have been comfortable for the delicate skin of your nose, but he was hesitant to move an inch if it meant waking you. Besides, the small pinpoint of heat against his thigh was rather pleasant. 

Listening to your slumbering breaths, Matt was reminded of his childhood meditation sessions–the sound acting as a barrier between him and the rest of the world, clearing his mind without any effort on his end. He matched his breathing to yours, heart rate slowing to mirror yours as he ran his fingers along the lines of braille in his textbook. 

As Matt worked his way through two separate reading assignments, you slept peacefully, nuzzling into his leg every so often with a soft puff of an exhale. It felt like Matt had only spent mere seconds in this unintentional paradise when you began to stir. 

With a stuttering breath, you stretched, the sound of your muscles tightening akin to plucking a guitar string rapidly. As you regained awareness, Matt could hear the spike in your pulse–you must have noticed him, then. 

“Morning, bug.” He murmured. On a whim, he ran a hand over your shoulder gently, not wanting you to feel unwelcome or embarrassed for lingering in his personal space. “Have a good nap?”

Beneath his palm, you relaxed, your lashes fluttering as you hummed appreciatively. “Hi. Sorry for using you as a pillow.”

“No apology necessary. You ok?” He squeezed your shoulder as you sat up, pulling at your clothes to unfurl the wrinkles from them. 

“Yah, just tired after last night.” You laughed, but the sound was a step too high in pitch to be genuine. 

“Ugh, I feel you. I think both Foggy and I spent more time in the bathroom than in our beds last night.” Matt chuckled, trying to quiet the devil inside him with a reminder that you’d come to him if something was actually wrong. 

Grimacing, you knocked your shoulder against his. “God, Murdock–” You giggled, pressing a palm to your stomach. “My hangover is much too present for that image. Warn a girl next time.”

Shooting you a bashful smile, he nodded dutifully. “Sorry.”

“It’s ok, trouble. No harm done. Well, not much.” With a heavy sigh, you rubbed at your eyes, leaning to grab something that had slid beneath the bookshelf Matt was seated against. “Damn, this manual must have been more boring than I originally thought. It knocked me right out.” 

“Learning astrophysics on the side?” Matt jested, smirking at you.

“Oh yah. Astronaut is my backup career.” You laughed, the sound beautiful, and real, this time around. “No, um, setting up a new printer, actually.” 

Confusion pooled in Matt’s stomach, for some reason you were embarrassed by the machine behind you, if the heat flooding your cheeks was any indication. 

“Oh, did the old one break?” He asked, tilting his head.

“Er,” You paused, looking between him and the plastic box beside you. “No, well not yet, but…just promise me you won't be mad. Well, you’re entitled to anger, I guess, because I may have overstepped?”

Thoroughly bewildered now, Matt swiveled his chin so that his attention could focus on your general area. “Overstepped how?” 

“I sort of badgered my boss into buying a braille printer?” The sentence was phrased as a question, but the thing was there, beside you. It's existence evidence that you had definitively obtained one. 

Matt was silent for a moment, processing the new information. It suddenly felt like he had swallowed a golf ball. He could barely make out the pounding of your heart over the blood rushing in his own ears. “Um...”

“Shit, Matt, I'm sorry. I should have asked you before I did it. I meant to, I just—” Your nervous ramble was punctuating with small wisps of heat emanating from your gesturing hands. 

“Sweetheart,“ He interrupted, snatching one of your dancing hands out of mid air and holding it delicately. ”Please breathe. I'm not angry with you.“ 

”Oh thank god.“ Your body slammed into his, nearly bowling him over, as you tackled him with a hug. Your nose was chilled as it bobbed up and down the skin of his neck. ”I don't know what I'd do if you were mad at me. I care about you a hell of a lot, trouble.“ Your lips tickled his throat, breath ghosting over his shoulder as you murmured. 

”I care about you too, sweetheart.“ His voice was strained, his thoughts consumed with surprise and adoration. He didn't deserve you. 

”Hey, don't say that!“ Shit, he must have said that out loud. ”Of course you deserve me, Matt. And you deserve Foggy, and anyone else who you enjoy being around. You're a good person, Matt. You deserve happiness.“ You spoke firmly, not leaving room for his internal doubt. 

Constricting your arms, it seemed like you were trying to meld your body with his. One of his hands pressed into the grimy carpet as he held the two of you up, the other rested around your shoulders, his thumb rubbing circles into the fabric of your shirt. 

”Shut up.“ He muttered, tears pricking the corners of his eyes as he turned his focus to the rough threads of the stiff carpeting beneath his hand. 

”Never.“ You giggled meekly, squishing him to your body one final time before releasing your grip. ”Now I should probably get back to building this printer, if you ever want to be able to use it.“ 

”Did you want a hand?“ He offered, sniffling discreetly. 

”I'd love one! Will you read me these while I reorganize? I got to step 7 already.“ Handing him the packet of braille instructions out of the manual, Matt skimmed the bumps until he found the proper section. 

”You attached the paper tray?“ He asked, waiting for you to confirm before reading the next step aloud.

A few days after painstakingly building a new printer together, you found yourself sprinting for the door to Matt’s building, which was rapidly closing and just out of your reach; you stifled a victory squeal when you were able to step into the threshold of the dorm before the door locked on you. Now you wouldn’t have to ask Matt to let you in the building, and that was pretty fortunate given how on edge the poor kid seemed already this morning. 

You tended to rise early, given your rigid schedule of classes and work shifts, preferring to start your day just after the sun rose and have as much time to accomplish things as possible. Matt wasn't as much of an early bird as you were, but he tended to wake up before 9am on weekends, while his blond roommate would sleep well past noon if he had the option. Because of your similar schedules, you weren't surprised that Matt had called you; you were surprised, however, that he sounded so miserable before 9am on a Friday. 

The conversation hadn't been long, just Matt asking if you'd like to come over and a small warning that he'd ”woken up on the wrong side of the bed“, but you weren't phased. While the handsome law student tended to be on the more reserved and sarcastic side, he was rarely noticeably irritated—tending to play it off with quips to keep his cool around anyone he didn't know too well. There had been a handful of days where you had witnessed his anger slipping through the metaphorical mask that he wore, but he never aimed it at you. Every once and a while, his tone would get a bit snappish, but it never went further than that, and you trusted him to keep his wits intact when he was upset. 

So you came quickly with hot breakfast as a peace offering to provide the help he'd asked for, in his own non-descriptive way. Taking the cement steps two at a time, and deftly avoiding the perpetually damp spots on the landing (ew), you were able to make it from your place and to Matt's door in under 30 minutes. 

Raising a fist to knock on the thick door, you jumped in surprise—nearly spilling the coffees—when Matt yanked the door open before your knuckles had even skimmed the surface. 

”Christ, Matt!“ You squeaked, shaking off the residual adrenaline as he beckoned you inside and shut the door behind you. 

If he hadn't already informed you that he was feeling out of it, his lack of opaque lenses would've immediately alerted you of the fact. Matt was very averse to interacting with people without his glasses covering his eyes, even when the only people around were you and Foggy. You'd never brought it up before, not wanting to add to his clear discomfort about the topic, but you assumed he was self-conscious of the way he looked without them.

Regardless, seeing his hazel eyes darting ambiguously around you made you catch your breath. You'd only caught glimpses in the past, but uncovered? They were stunning. The brown of his irises was flecked with green and the reflection of sunlight made them look like pools of honey. 

Hearing your choked inhale, a peach-colored blush bloomed across Matt's cheeks. “Shit, hold on, let me find my glasses. I set them down last night and I—” Pacing around you, Matt began to frantically rummage around on his bed, where he'd dumped a pile of what looked to be most, if not all, of his belongings. “They're here somewhere, I know it.“ 

Setting the paper cups on Foggy's nightstand, you walked a wide arc around the anxious boy as if he were a startled animal, gently laying your hand on his wrist. ”Matt,“ 

Looking up dolefully, Matt's eyes were glassy as he rambled. ”I'm sorry. I misplaced them. I should've warned you—“ 

”Matty, stop for a minute please.“ You encouraged, waiting for the boy to pause and take a breath before you continued. ”You don't need to wear your glasses around me, trouble. I'm sorry if I seemed thrown off, I was admiring your eyes.“

”You were...admiring them?“ Matt's voice broke around the question and your heart squeezed. 

”Yah, Matty, you have beautiful eyes. I've never seen them up close before.“ Taking his hands, you ran a thumb over his knuckles as he processed your words. 

After a minute of silence, you tugged him towards his desk chair. “Why don't we sit for a minute and have breakfast before sorting through your stuff.” 

Letting you maneuver him into the threadbare seat, he tilted his head as you placed a paper bag and disposable cup on the desk next to him. “You brought me breakfast?”

Chuckling at his genuine confusion, you nodded. “I did. It would help me feel better if I 'woke up on the wrong side of the bed', so I figured it couldn't hurt. It's just a muffin and a latte from Blue Java, nothing special.“ 

Matt didn't say anything, his lips still pursed as he opened the bag and began unwrapping the pastry. After breaking off a few pieces to eat, his frown ebbed. ”Thank you.“ 

”Anytime! So, doing some reorganizing this weekend?“ You sipped your own coffee, trying not to laugh as he wolfed the rest of his muffin down. 

”Something like that,“ Matt grumbled, tossing his balled up trash into the plastic bin across the room with ease. ”Our room was just, I don't know...gross, I guess? It needed to be cleaned and when I realized I couldn't find my glasses, I just freaked. I woke Foggy up, and neither of us could find them, so I started putting everything on the bed.“ 

Matt's lips quirked into a tiny smile. ”I think I scared him because he said he had to study and just disappeared. He's probably asleep in the library by now.“ 

You chuckled, picturing the blond passed out in the rows of old books. ”Well, his loss. I'm a hoot to clean with.“ 

”Is that so?“ Matt remarked, grinning fully now.

“Just you wait, Murdock. I have been told I am a fun AND efficient cleaning partner. Let's get this party started.” Standing up and brushing your hands together, you turned towards the items haphazardly stacked on Matt's bed. “How can I help?” 

Retreating into his shell a bit, Matt scratched at his neck. “Um, are you sure you want to? I mean, Foggy isn't here to confirm, but I have a really specific method for organizing my belongings, and I would understand if you didn't want to be bossed around.”

“Matt, it's your stuff that we are straightening up. You're allowed to be bossy.” You assured, silently cursing everyone who had planted seeds of doubt in this wonderful man’s brain. 

“Ok, just tell me if you want to leave.” Matt ordered. You mock saluted in response.

“Yes, sir!” You giggled as he shuddered with a scoff.

“You asked for it, sweetheart.” 

The next several hours were spent sorting through the deceptively small pile on Matt's bed. Matt tasked you with sorting things into categories, which mostly meant separating clothes from school supplies, while he put things back in their designated areas. After finding his headphones tangled, one of his binders broken, and still having no clue where his glasses were, Matt was sliding back to the edge of his rope. 

His jaw tensed as he grit his teeth, running his fingers along the sleeves of the sweater he was trying to fold in an attempt to straighten them. Growling in frustration he tossed the sweater back onto the bed and ran a hand over his face. 

“C'mere, trouble.” You extended your arms to him and he gratefully collapsed against you. Rubbing small circles into his tight shoulders, you felt a burst of pride as he relaxed against you. “You getting fed up again?” 

Matt nodded, face still buried against your neck. You frowned understandingly, untangling the tousled hair along his nape. “Hmmm, I guess we could take a break, what do you think?” 

Matt whined, tugging your hips toward his bed. 

Laughing at his reaction, you scratched at his scalp. “Ok, Matty. Why don’t we stop for a bit, then? Sound good?” 

“Mmmhmm.” Matt murmured, legs turning to jelly as you massaged his pounding head. 

Using one hand to shove aside the remaining items on his bed, you crawled up to the headboard and positioned yourself against the wall, letting Matt cuddle up to your side. 

You immediately ran a hand back up to his nape, resuming the rhythmic touches that you knew would calm him down. Matt shuddered, rubbing his face into your shoulder as he stifled a yawn. Chuckling at his oddly adorable actions, you wondered if he’d slept at all last night. “You tired, bubs?” You asked softly, grinning knowingly at his affirmative groan. 

“Go to sleep, bubba. I don’t mind.” 

He must’ve been exhausted because his mouth stayed closed, though you had fully expected an argument. After a few minutes of deep breathing, his body began to slacken against your side. Pressing a kiss to his forehead, you adjusted the covers as best you could, given that they were covered in a couple dozen pounds of stuff, and tucked him in. And, with Matt dozing at your side, you continued sorting through the pile spilling across your lap. 

Matt didn’t dream much. Occasionally, he’d have a nightmare; his body experiencing phantom sensations like being hit or feeling someone’s pulse slowly fade, but that was the extent—until he’d met you. It was like you knew you had a direct line to his brain. Your soft touches lingered for hours after the contact ended, his frayed nerves still firing rapidly, replaying the feeling of your fingers in his hair, your lips on his forehead. 

He wasn’t meant to feel the kiss. Not that it meant anything more than platonic affection—he was fairly certain it didn’t—but that didn’t mean it didn’t electrocute every cell in his body, vaporizing the immense heap of irritation that had been building since he’d started his day off so poorly. 

You had that power over him. Haunting his every waking moment and chasing his subconscious while he slept. You were his constant. 

Wedged against you and his headboard, he felt safe, and fatigue had quickly overtaken him. He slept more peacefully than he had in weeks because of you, though the lack of Foggy’s sleep apnea definitely helped. Wading through a field of mental static, he rested, until your subtle movements beneath him popped his bubble of solace. 

“Matt?” You murmured, stroking a finger along his cheek. 

“Hngh?” He uttered, blearily. Was that a word? He was pretty sure that was a word. 

It must not have been a word because you shook with a giggle. Rubbing his cheek with your thumb, he could hear you nibble on your lip. “I gotta leave, trouble. I’m sorry, I’m meeting Evs soon.” 

The mention of your obnoxious paramour drew him fully out of slumber. He dug the heel of his hand into his eyes, rubbing the sleep from them. “Shit, I’m up.” 

“I’m really sorry to wake you up. Did you sleep ok?” Your voice wobbled with guilt and he tried to give a convincing smile. 

“Yah I did. Thank you for staying.” 

“Of course! It’s almost 3:00 pm. I texted Foggy and asked him to bring you food, he’ll be here with it soon.” As you spoke, you slid off of his thin mattress, adjusting your clothes and hair. 

“Crap. I didn't mean to hold you hostage.” Matt grumbled. “I’m sorry.” 

“Don’t be! I enjoyed being your pillow.” You chuckled, but the statement held nothing but honesty, and that knowledge made his heart flutter. “I, um, I finished sorting your things. I didn’t put away anything unless I was certain of where it went, but…” You trailed off excitedly, snatching his hand from the mattress and placing a lightweight item in his semi-open palm. 

“I found your glasses! They were behind your mattress, I almost missed them.” 

Tracing the metal frames slowly, Matt choked on a breath. “Thank you, sweetheart.” 

“Oh you don’t need to thank me, Matt. We take care of each other, remember?” Your smile was evident in your voice. 

He stayed silent, far too concerned with preventing a voice crack to speak. 

Realizing that you may have overwhelmed him, you hovered in front of the bed. “Sorry to throw all of that at you right after you woke up. Did you want me to show you where I put everything?” 

“No,” He spoke raggedly. Clearing his throat, he started again. “No, I can figure it out. Thanks, sweetheart. For everything. Have fun on your date.” 

Your heart stuttered as he mentioned your date. “Thank you, Matty. I will. Call me if you can’t find something?” 

“I will, bubs.” With that final promise, he slid on his lenses and jumped out of bed to walk you out. Waving his final goodbye, he closed the door, falling against it as he gathered his thoughts. 

Striding back to his bed, he let his fingers waltz over the meticulous stacks of his belongings. You’d straightened up his notebooks, folded his clothes, even arranged his textbooks in alphabetical order. All just because he’d been frustrated and asked for your help?

Running his fingers over the sweater at the top of the column of clothes, his throat constricted as wet trails formed down his cheeks. Pulling the garment to his face, he inhaled faint traces of your soap and natural fragrance, the scent embedded in the fabric. As the warmth from your body faded from his sheets, Matt crumpled to the floor, still clutching the woven sweater in his fist. 

Thanks for reading!!!

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[angeloferidia]

If the love interests were halfbloods in PJO, which cabins would they belong to (and why)?

There are currently only 20 cabins, so while there may be a God/Goddess that's a better fit than the 20 with cabins, it's best to assign them to Cabin 11 (Hermes), since it's the cabin where unclaimed halfbloods and halfbloods whose godly parent don't have their own cabins reside, or either choose the next best fit out of the 20 Gods with cabins.

I'm curious to hear all your different answers and reasoning behind them (especially since I'm indecisive, and hearing others' perspectives gives me insight and helps me form/build on my own opinion). I'll start with mines first!

Kuras - I was originally thinking Cabin 1 (Zeus), since Zeus is the God of Gods and the heavens/Olympus, and that'd make sense since Kuras is an angel created by God(s). But I feel as if it doesn't really fit him well as I'd like it to. My next opinion is Cabin 6 (Athena), as Athena is the Goddess of war (strategic) and wisdom, and I feel like it fits Kuras fairly well to an extent. Another good option is Cabin 7 (Apollo), as he's the God of the sun, healing, light, oracles, prophecy, art, knowledge, and truth. Now that I think about it, I believe Cabin 7 fits Kuras the best, though I'm still not 100% sure. I'd love to hear what y'all have to say since I'm so indecisive lol

Leander - Cabin 20 (Hecate), as Hecate is the Goddess of magic, spells, and the moon. Not only does Leander have the two crescent moons, his dagger, and a dangling key on his belt in his design, he also has ouroboros snake earrings! And guess who's often depicted with a pair of snakes/serpents, knives, and keys? That's right, Hecate.

Vere - Ohhh, this one's hard to answer. Personally, my best answer for Vere is Cabin 11 (Hermes), as Hermes is known as the trickster God. Not only that, Cabin 11 is the cabin for unclaimed halfbloods and halfbloods whose godly parent doesn't have a cabin, and I can't really find a God best fit for Vere with a cabin. Was also considering Cabin 10 (Aphrodite), but ehhh, not sure if it properly fits Vere to the fullest. I don't want to boil him down to just some lustful, charming beast when he's mainly about trickery and mischief. Would love to hear what you guys have to say!

Ais - This one's practically a no brainer for me. Cabin 5 (Ares). Ares is the God of war, brutality, violence, and bloodlust. From the demo and other official information, Ais is well known for being a brute of sorts and a fighter. Mans sure does love to throw hands.

Mhin - Cabin 13 (Hades). Hades is the God of the dead (not death), and ruler of the underworld. Mhin's often associated with death, and is clearly haunted by ghosts of the past. It feels like they're constantly living in their own personal underworld of sorts. I also like the idea of Mhin being in Cabin 11 (Hermes) as an unclaimed halfblood.

Sen - Cabin 16 (Nemesis). Nemesis is the Goddess of vengeance and retribution. From what little we know of Sen, Sen is on a mission for revenge.

Elyon - Cabin 19 (Tyche). We don't know much about Elyon besides that he's a wealthy highborn brothel keeper. Tyche is the Goddess of chance, luck, destiny, prosperity, and fortune.

Also, which cabin would YOUR MC be in 🫵? I'd love to see your answers and explanations and learn about your MCs! For me, my MC Victor would be in Cabin 12 (Dionysus). Dionysus is the God of vegetation, insanity, and theatre. Victor's biological family owned farmland, his curse turns others insane (plus Victor's known for being quite insane himself), and their whole life plays like a theatrical drama (and Victor's quite theatrical/dramatic + loves drama).

[lukaherehelp]

Playboyy EP3 - Sacrificing Yourself

okey had my girl dinner, I'm going in!

Just like I did last week, instead of a full commentary, we are going through some pointers, which are A LOT in this third episode.

So!

Ladies, gentlemen and nonbinary dieties, we can all take the clown makeup off, we can leave the river Denial, it was roleplay!

I swear motherfuckers I spend the whole week in distressed thinking this was for real, you assholes! You are still the cutest tho

Let's start with them, shall we?

Soong & First

We dodge the bullet of Soong being an actual psyco and jump into "problems in paradise" which FAIR, cause we've barely seen any communication between this two for this first two episodes. Mind you, it could have being off screen, this roleplay adventures had to be talked about at some point... But I feel like that was the extent of their communication.

I want to remind y'all that the Baddie Bunch is a group of young rich kids (all of them are 21), so the Playboyys are bound to have much higher street smarts and wisdom when it comes to life that the twinks. Soong, in specific, is 3 years older than First.

Why am I remarking this? Because First is clearly drunk in love with Soong but his "love" for him is purely based on them being sexually compatible. Is there anything else that they enjoy apart from rough sex? We don't know, fuck I don't even think they know!

And that's were the whole "we can have normal sex for once?!" thing comes from. Soong seems to like First back, to the point of allowing this now broke kid to stay with him even tho he can barely provide for the two of them. That's also the reason why Soong probably is taking more clients than before, even if that means spendid less time with First and paying less attention to him. First calling him a leech when First is now the leech was so ironic...

But First is so drunk on love that he cannot compute Soong not being there with him physically and mentally 24/7. Again, this kid lived in a golden cage for 21 years of his life, he thinks he knows but doesn't know shit about how real life works, even less so when you are at the lower ranks.

If they want to work out, First needs to have a reality check and grow up, learn that a relationship like the one he wants cannot be based soly on roleplay. And learn that life outside his cage is tough and requires "sacrifices".

Staying with them for another second, we need to talk about this:

Now, we are going wild. Rightfully so, this is the first hint we get that is not attached to Nont's investigation. So I wanna throw my two cents about it:

I don't think this is hinting that Soong was involved in whatever happend to Nant. You see, we have being especulating about Nant doing sex work, obviously, but I don't think he ever actually worked at Playboyy at any point. In any case, I don't think this scene hints at that.

My theory is that he probably was doing sex work in a room in the same apartment building where Soong lives. Could have being during one of the first sessions with Dog Man or maybe another client that went way too far. Either way, my two cents is that Soong probably met Nant after aiding him against a problematic client and that's why First crying in distress triggerd the memory: Nant seems like he's pleading, so maybe he thought Soong would rat him out, not knowing that Soong is also a sex worker.

He could have also asked Soong to not tell anybody about what happend, scared that his "secret life" would come out. I'm staying in that theory for now.

We don't have much about this two afterwards: Soong missing First and First being angry and heartbroken about the whole ordeal. So yeah, moving on!

Now, to the Lovebirds™

Teena & Zouey

Oh lord this was hard to watch... But let's talk about it.

Everything starts good, everything gucci. Teena is acting like a "top-tier" boyfriend see what I did there to Zouey even in front of the Baddie Bunch.

And then we get them being cute in private. You know, cuddleling, kiking about Zouey's friends where did I hear the "do you care about my friends?" line before /s. You know, boyfie behaviour... although they are not dating. Nothing wrong about that. All good.

Things start to fall apart as soon as this two sit up and Zouey goes "be my boyfriend! I'm ready to have sex now!". Oh lord.

Zouey clearly likes Teena and wants to be with him. And Teena also seems to like Zouey back. The thing is, due to the Baddie Bunch, Zouey has gotten this unspoken idea (to us) in his mind that to keep Teena, to be his boyfriend, they have to sleep together. But as much as he "thinks" he is ready, Teena and us clearly see that he is not. Teena tells him again that they don't need to have sex, that he doesn't need to "sacrifice himself" for them to be together.

But Zouey pushes through, saying that he "is in the mood", that Teena has "succeeded in making Zouey want him". Baby boy, you have been wanting this man since you first layed eyes on him, you are just cautious, which I applaud you for. But, with a second assertion from Zoueys part, we have Teena taking the lead and being sweet and slowly easing Zouey into what's about to happen:

picking him up to sit him on his lap while he kisses Zouey's temple

observing how Zouey is still cautiolsy touching him

the tiny kiss to the nose

Teena spends the whole time reasuring Zouey that he would not mock him, he knows how inexperienced Zouey is. He's making sure Zouey feels save.

Now, the downfall starts the moment Teena introduces a safe word. Which is always a good thing to have, but no to relay on solely with a first timer, buddy. also wanna point out how I kept singing red lights by skz everytime teena said red light because I'm that unserious

So, when we are "at the gates" of this taking further, hell breaks loose. Zouey asks Teena to go one step further but quickly regrets it. Now, I'm a girly that firmly believes that anything apart from a yes is a no, so Teena being a little pushy after Zouey shows discomfort already made me go nah uh buddy, but I can see where Teena is coming from...?

Zouey is freaking out, as he has done many times and is trying to make him relax again... but it doesn't work. And that's when the unfortunate phrase comes in:

" If we're going to be a couple, we'll have to do this someday. "

First of all, bullshit. You can have a serious relationship with somebody without the need of getting sexual. HOWEVER, and I can't believe I'm about to say this, I have to side with Teena here for a second.

HEAR ME OUT BEFORE THROWING STONES AT ME! Their relationship has being highly sexual from day one, period. Does that mean that the prospect of taking it all the way someday is there? It doesn't... But Zouey did start this encounter with "be my boyfriend! I'm ready to have sex now!". He's the one that put out there that if they date they will get intimate, not Teena.

Now, it wasn't fortunate from Teena's part to be "we should just do it" as if they were treating this like it was a fear to bungee jumping.

And Zouey, again, uses words that have never came from Teena's mouth (that we know of) to express his discomfort with the situation. Yes, Teena said that they didn't need to have sex if Zouey didn't want to. But Teena never said that they couldn't date because they didn't have sex. That last part, has only happend on Zoueys head. And why? Because that's what he has being hearing from the Baddie Bunch.

The scene ends with Zouey asking Teena to leave and Teena, not wanting to upset Zouey any further, going along with his request.

The last we see on the matter is Zouey and First day drinking at uni (god, I miss sneaking beers into art school lmao) while they compare their heartbreak and talk about abuse and consent. That's a whole post on its own and I still have another two couples to talk about to we closing here.

NEXT!

Keen & Captain

Lord baby jesus, we starting strong with this couple.

That "test" to join the rugby team: fuckin disgusting, I hate men. I don't care if it was for the hahas, nah uh. I'm leaving the gym. Fuck this team. But the team being homophobic... Are we surprised? Maybe is my own experience talking, but I didn't expect less from an sports team of a private university lmao

To light up this post a little, I gotta say: couples that share kinks stay together, so that in my eyes makes KeenCaptain endgame no matter the drama that the future holds for us. I'm going back to Delululand.

They are already giving me Brat Captain and I'm thriving, I signed up for this and I'm getting my moneys worth. Also this:

*fourthreactingtotheearthmixearbiteinthemoonlightchickentrailer.gif*

This sneaky little bitch is recording it and, again, are we surprised, we already knew that was going to happen. WHAT I DIDN'T EXPECT was Captain already releasing the fuckin think and hilariously backfiring on him a comedy I tell you. I fear that tape might get out of the confitment of the rugby team and get Keen, whoms both the team captain AND coach, in deep shit. However, I cannot wait to see what Captain will do with the wig and makeup he requested from Nont.

ANOTHER THING before I get into the last couple:

the gasp I gasped, y'all. Kaya, remind me this weekend to make the kiss/fuck count post, I feel like we are going to need another graphic by the end of this series.

ANYGAY, TO THE JUICE PART OF THIS MYSTERY:

Prom & Nont

Nont is slipping, bruh. To a degree and at a speed I'm starting to get stressed.

Almost getting caught by Captain when he's threatening Phop with penknife, asking for the wrong drink at the house, the accidental slap to Zouey and how not in control he is everytime he's with Prom when he clearly doesn't have ANY control on the situation. Honey, you pretty face and cunty ass is not going to work with Master, sorry to break this to you.

That being said, let's focus on the investigation:

Phop had Nant's laptop but is not truly clear to us where he got it since they got interrupted by Captain before Phop could spill the beans.

Nant was obviously doing webcam.

Now, tell me why Nont is adamant that the person that threw the laptop away was Nant's boyfriend? When did we stablished that Nant had a boyfriend? Nont fits right in into this friend group, another clueless boy that lived in a golden cage and is now seeing the darker side of the world.

the name here is Nant's btw

Here we are introduced with Nuth whom let me pull my guide real quick is described as:

Nuth dreams of becoming a sucessful film director one day, but with the lost of a family member, he has become introverted, depressed and unmotivated, making him currently unemployed. This has made him dive head first into the world of webcam. [...]

Nont, whom clearly has a modus operandi with his way of investigating, jumps right into creating his own account in the webcam site and getting in contact with Nuth after seeing that Nuth and Nant used to text throw the website.

Now, Nuth points out some of his fantasies to Nont:

" Meeting strangers, having sex with twins in a small room, the twins make out and lick all over my body, I wear a mask and I'll make them moan like a dog with the camera on. "

Sounds exactly like Dog Man, doesn't it? Way too soon to be suspicious of him tho, so I'm also putting this under the category of red herring. Nuth does panick the moment he sees Nont's face and blocks him, but I'm not speaking on that for now. Too many posibilities.

With Captain's help, Nont is able to recover the video of Nant with Dog Man and I guess he indeed gets stabbed in the video. I cannot imagine what that has to be like. Seeing something so horrible happen to someone that looks exactly like you... But I guess is not a deadly wound since Nont keeps assuming that Nant is not dead? He could be in denial, that too.

Nont, however, still in the mood to go see Master Prom and I cannot blame him and my brother keeps sliping in front of this man whom clearly knows that he's being lied too but clearly is having fun seeing Nont trip on his feet.

"You used to hate it here", "I had to convince you to come", "I thought you've changed enough to drink wine"... Prom is us, we are Prom. We sharing a braincell with this man, whom clearly is the only motherfucker holding a braincell.

god, now I want wine but I don't have any... sad

The "I can have sex in real life, why do I need to join a call?" line? Sir, I'm free anytime you want me too. I don't have any other responsibility than to please you. What can I say, I'm a simple woman.

"I'll make you moan like a dog". Yeah, I would also get triggered after so many dog references pointing at your brother's disappearance, Nont. That being said, Prom catching that Nont has become terrified and keeps making him more scared... He's making his move in this 3D chess they are playing.

This is him pushing Nont to see for how much longer he can keep the façade. But this leads into a really important frame.

I don't know the rest of y'all, but from my friends that are into heavy bdsm stuff I have learned many things and one is that all the toys, props, accessories, ropes, EVERYTHING is stored in the same place. Is more convenient that way and easier to hide from the prying eye.

So unless it got blood on it and had to be thown away, no dog mask for Prom. Neither the harness for what I can see.

we have a full face mask and I feel like that's the mask he was talking about here and in the foreplay video.

PROM IS AS MUCH OF A RED HERRING AS THAT FUCKING CABINET, I'LL DIE ON THIS HILL.

And with that being said, seems like next week we have more heartbreak but also a lot of mix-and-match and I cannot wait. See y'all next week.

Luka out!

[sublime-is-the-silence]

I'm not defending Calypso. I don't agree with her actions either.

I'm just side-eyeing the way the fandom is hating on her and not all the other gods that have caused Odysseus pain and torment on his journey home. Why does she get the worst of the hate?

Yeah, trapped him on her island for 7 years. But this is also the musical that has:

God of Wisdom raising him to be a soldier since childhood (something tumblr is very wishy-washy about if it's good or bad in media)

Demigod Cyclops who kills his men after receiving an apology and a gift of wine

God of the Sea who creates a storm to keep him from going home, killed most of his men, tried to drown him multiple times, threatens to flood his homeland, stalking him for over 10 years to try and kill him for pride at this point

Daughter of a Titan/Witch who turned his men into pigs, tried to kill him with a chimera, tried to "seduce" him and then stab him

Thunder King of the Gods who put him on that island in the first place after killing the remainder of his crew and destroying his boat (there's no way Poseidon wouldn't have gotten to him otherwise), refused to let him go until God of Wisdom is near death

Most of those gods/demigods are either beloved by the fandom or the fandom at least finds fun to make fun of. All I've seen from people who don't like Calypso is downright loathing. And arguably, what the other gods did was far worse than what Calypso did. Why are they all getting so much love while Calypso is treated like a monster? Seriously, I've seen people thirsting after Poseidon more and more every time he appears, and he's actively trying to kill Odysseus! People thirst after Circe but she did just as bad, if not worse, than Calypso. So where's their hatedom?

What's the one thing that those gods don't have in common with Calypso? (Spoilers; Calypso is a dark skinned black woman).

Y'all don't have to like her. I certainly don't. But the level of hate for Epic's Calypso is seriously giving off "I hate black people" vibes more than "I dislike this character and character's actions" vibes.

this is a lot of lmao for me.

First off, it's not that serious, it's literally a fictional piece of media and people are allowed to like who they like and dislike who they dislike and there does not have to be some deep ideological reason for it. Second, as an actual Greek Mythology buff who read the Odyssey for school and drinks problematic fave juice in general not just for Greek Mythology, I have always hated Calypso and always will so that dark-skinned hater bullshit does not apply to me at least.

Big point here: all the characters in Epic are nuanced and have different motivations for their actions and they can all be understandable however it is up to the discretion of the audience to decide who they like or do not like based on their actions. PERSONALLY I do not like Calypso because homegirl heard the man say he was married TWICE and was just like "well that do not matter I want to keep you as my sex toy/'lover' forever" with no regard for his wishes OUT OF THE DESIRE to not be lonely. And that actually makes it worse for me than Polyphemus, Circe, Zeus, or Poseidon because they at least are acting out of defense of their name, dependents, etc. Calypso is just wantonly keeping Odysseus against his will because she can and wants to and believes she knows what's best for him.

(Also for the record, I hate Zeus and am not exactly fond of Poseidon although I enjoy the songs he sings and understand his motivation even if I don't agree with it. I do also enjoy Calypso's songs even though their content makes my skin crawl as a SA survivor.)

I UNDERSTAND Calypso's motivation but I do not sympathize with it, it is selfish and ignorant and entitled and i do not feel sorry for her at all for getting left alone again, she made her bed. She thinks that because Odysseus washed up on her island, that means he's destined to be hers regardless of what he's saying his wishes are.

I think the big thing you're missing here is that Calypso is a thief of autonomy; a BIG THIEF of autonomy. The shit that goes down with Polyphemus, Circe, Poseidon, and Zeus only takes up three years. Then Calypso takes SEVEN YEARS AWAY from Odysseus. She is the lion's portion of why it takes him so long to get back to Ithaca. She keeps him from even leaving the island. At least with the others, he had the ability to move around but Calypso makes even that impossible. Kind of make sense to hate her now?

Also, she is keeping him hostage with the intention of using him for sex out of a twisted notion of love and whether or not she actually does so is up to interpretation. But as one friend from the fandom put it, if the genders were reversed, the fandom would be in agreement that the captor is a terrible person and there'd be few to no fans. And it makes a lot of sense for the haters to just HATE her if she's at the very least a sexual harasser if not a sexual assaulter. End of the day, she's a sexual predator no matter how far she got.

Anyways this is fandom so I'm not genuinely upset if people misinterpret my reasons for hating a character but long essays of BS deserve long replies herego~ Also another fandom friend likes Calypso BECAUSE she's problematic so sit with that for a minute.

[marsontherocks]

And They Were Roommates Ch 7

Simon "Ghost" Riley x Trans!Hispanic! Male Reader

Summary (ao3 link): Your friend brings you words of wisdom, and you get to talk with Soap.

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So how’s your boyfriend?”  Your friend asks teasingly.

You sighed. This was something your friends joked about after you let it slip that you had feelings for your secretive roommate. After a while, you just stopped correcting them. “He’s fine. He got back a week ago. I finally met one of his friends.”

You and your friend were close, maybe not as much as you were with your best friend, but you still felt comfortable confiding in them. They moved here shortly after you, looking for work, and scoring a job as a pediatrician. The two of you were supposed to be talking about the mural you were going to be doing at the clinic they worked at.

They smiled, “See, it only took 5 years for him to open up to you some more. Maybe you’ll learn his favorite cake flavor in the next five years.”

“It’s chocolate and white swirl, first of all, and two, I’m not sure he even likes me sometimes. Like, why would he take so long to introduce me to just one friend?”

They looked at you with a face that just screamed ‘Really?’. “Dude, he's in the military. Like, as a career, not so he can get benefits. He probably has like, I don’t know, snipers after him all the time.” They pause to take a sip of their drink. “If anything I would say it’s a big deal if you know anything about him.”

You lean back in your chair and huff. They were right. “Okay, so what? That doesn’t mean he’s interested.”

There was a look they gave you before standing up and stretching. “Well, do you want to go get measurements at the clinic?”

You purse your lips as you recall the conversation. You liked Simon, despite not knowing much about him, and only seeing him for short periods of time. There were little things, however, about Simon, that really did you in. Simon’s love for Riley and Willy, when he agrees to sit still so you can use him as a reference for art when the two of you cuddle, and so many other things.

Walking into the studio, you look at your most recent painting. It’s a commission for one of your frequent clients. You were given some free liberty with the painting. It was two young men, always the same two, one in the kitchen cooking, the other on the opposite side of the counter staring at the first. The two were wearing matching wedding rings. It was a soft domestic piece, and you were very proud of it, but you found yourself envying the men sometimes.

You jumped when you heard your name being called and turned to look at the Scottish culprit. “S good to see ya again!” Soap called out, leaning over the stair railing.

“I didn’t know you would be here!” You smiled, approaching the sergeant.

“Aye, just visiting Simon. Great guy, y’know,” Soap grinned.

“Where's he at?” You ask, starting to head upstairs.

“He wen to take Riley out for a walk,” Soap says, following you back upstairs.

You nod in acknowledgment. “What have you two been up to?” You hum, taking your shoes off once you get to the top of the stairs, and kicking them over to the shoe rack before heading over to the kitchen to take things out for dinner.

“Just talking, work mostly. Y’know, LT is probably one of the best people I have ever worked with.”

You glance back at Soap, “Really? Si doesn’t talk about what y'all do a lot… or ever.” You comment, followed by a short laugh.

“Ay, leave it to LT to be the secretive one. I didn’t even know he had a flatmate till yesterday!”

You frown but quickly replace it with a smile when you look over to Soap. You suppose you shouldn’t be surprised he was like this with everyone. Despite the mild discomfort of being a hidden part of Simon’s life, you felt some comfort in knowing you weren't the only one in the dark about the dirty blonde Brit. “Well, I’m glad to have met you, Soap. Are you staying for dinner?”

Soap tilts his head left and right as if weighing his options, before speaking up, “Depends, what are you making?”

You peek into the fridge to see what you can make. “Seems like jalapeno sausage, bell peppers, and white rice are for dinner.” You turn back to Soap and watch in amusement as the Scotsman licks his lips.

“Sounds fucking delicious. Count me in.”

A deep voice pipes in “It’s even better than it sounds, Johnny.”

You whip your head to the entrance. Simon is slipping his shoes off while Riley sits next to him, waiting for Simon to take him off the leash. You can’t help the smile on your face, “How was the walk?”

Simon huffs, “It was fine…Until he decided to try and eat a sandwich out of some kid's hand.”

You bark out a laugh, waking Willy up from his peaceful nap in his cat tree. “Sounds about right.”

“Can I come out now?’ Soap called from the restroom, apparently deciding to take shelter in there.

Simon rolls his eyes and lets Riley off the leash. Without any instructions, the two watch as Riley trots to Simon’s room. You follow after and close the door to the room. “You can come out now, Soap.” You chuckle.

The, supposedly, brave Sergeant walks out of the restroom in relief. “I’d love to stay for dinner, but I don’t want yer dog locked up all day in LT’s room.”

“Aw, well, if you want to join us for dinner another time, you’re more than welcome to.” You smile, patting the man on the shoulder.

“Or don’t.” Simon deadpans.

“Away n' bile yer heid!” Soap scoffs back, before turning to you. “Ay, when I get the chance, I’d love to.”

You escort Soap out of the building with a smile and wave, before joining Simon back upstairs, noting Riley was now sleeping in Simon's now open doorway. You watch as Simon chops up the assorted bell peppers, before joining him in the kitchen.

“What did he tell you earlier?” You ask curiously as you put water to boil.

“To fuck myself.” Simon hums.

You laugh. The two of you work in silence for a bit before you speak up again. “You two are close.” You comment, looking over your shoulder to watch Simon.

Simon shrugs, “He’s a good friend.”

Sure seems like it. You think to yourself with a playful hum.

“How did the whole mural thing go?” Simon asks, bringing you the chopping board with the sliced peppers and sausage.

“Good. The clinic was cute, sick kids everywhere though. I start on it next week.” You say, followed by a quiet thanks to Simon.

Simon sighs as Riley trots up to him, clearly wanting a piece of the sausage. “No, it’s too spicy for you. You whined all day the last time you ate one.” Simon scolds the dog.

You shake your head with a laugh. You were fucked.

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A/N: Simon is also fucked. Like waaayyy more than reader lmao Also, I really recommend eating white rice, assorted bell peppers, and spicy sausage, it's sooo good :3!! Have a spectacular day/night everyone!!!

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[wesstars]

some of your favorite writers, if you had to list 5-7?

god anon you just had to go ahead and ask me the hardest question, huh... here we go

first up is, of course, my day 1 crazyoffher!! she has works for jenna, wednesday, and billie eilish. masterlist here trust me you'll get addicted you won't wanna miss these.

now, in no particular order:

marvelfilth: 🎥 girl tara need i say more?? i will actually say more, because the nat fics are top tier, also i love the wisdom teeth fic so much

alkivm: couple of cards lives in my head rent free. rent. free.

sytoran: you want top!reader? you will have it and then some. office hours and boudoir photography are some of my personal favorites.

somekindofpoet: i think i've read all of their works (LPM is just perfect. missed connections crew out here.)

talesofesther: has some of the first wednesday fics i ever read, sweet calamity (still a favorite) and yours only, i've read the whole wednesday masterlist i think

rollingsins: all hers and three's a crowd chefs kiss. the wednesday fics also yum

now for a very special mention... @evilrawr... coming soon

the list is in nooo way complete or comprehensive, i was indeed limited... but yeah. love y'all

[bloodpen-to-paper]

Heya, I don't plan to talk about it much but due to what happened with forever, who was my fav and really the heart of the project for me, I'm probably not going to post about Qsmp much anymore. Or if I do, it'll take a while. But please read if you're in the same boat as me, its kind of a ramble and you can skip certain parts but I'd like to hear your thoughts. The last couple of paragraphs touch on some stuff that I hope can help be worth your while, whether you're here for the Qsmp stuff or the mental health part.

Now this is absolutely not to say the rest of the project doesn't matter or that people should give up on it. The Qsmp is incredible and should be known for what it has achieved: breaking language barriers and uniting communities. Its wonderful, unique, and still has so much to offer in terms of content creation, so please don't let the whole of it be tarnished for what happened with one creator (we've seen that before already and it sucks). Personally, it got me back into streaming content/mcyt and I'd like to stay more present this time, its so much fun and its nice knowing I can sort of drift back and forth when new things pop up. If you're in the same boat, I encourage you to not feel like its all over immediately if you still feel a passion for this kind of work, maybe you won't get back into it but maybe you just need a bit of time. Whatever you feel, as long as you're happy and having fun you're doing it right.

So, personal feelings (which I suck at but its better than bottling my thoughts and I encourage others to do the same). I'm fucking devastated lmao. His character was my absolute hyperfixation, I'm talking 24/7 brainrot for months. I haven't felt this passionate for a character since dsmp, I honestly didn't know I could still do it. But there's another layer. I live in the U.S., and I'm Brasilian-American. In the U.S., you don't hear anyone saying shit about Brasil. You hear a lot about Mexico, but nothing really south of that, and if you do its usually about sexualizing Brasilian women or narcotics and gang stuff. Not the best representation for little me, admittedly. When you-know-who won the Qsmp Election, y'all I felt something in me spark to life that I hadn't felt since we won the Olympic soccer tournament in Rio in 2016. I'm proud to be Brasilian, I've always been proud of it, but its a pride that's been limited to sports and my own personal experiences. To see myself represented, to see Brasil naturally enter the conversation for a piece of media I loved that I didn't know would have us, and to see us win something, phew, shit got me higher than my wisdom tooth removal. We Brasilians banded together to secure the win, and what's more, my fav cc on the project was the one at the center. I felt so happy, for my country, my community, and for myself. And I know recent events might taint that memory for some of us, but I refuse to look back on my feelings from back then negatively. That was one of the best damn moments in my chronically online life, and I will always remember it with pride and joy, along with the many other moments when this wonderful server made me proud to be me.

So, naturally, when the news hit I was pretty fucked up over it. Still am tbh, but better now that I've had sleep (though it took me a while to fall asleep because of course my sleep gets ruined by bad feelings, bleh). All this to ultimately say it sucks. Like, it really fucking sucks. The anxiety, the disappointment, the sadness, and the uncertainty of "what now?". Might be sounding dramatic but again, 24/7 brainrot/serotonin supply for months that connected me to my culture abruptly cut off because of pedophile allegations. C'mon Satan, I already have to go to therapy, you didn't have to kick this horse while it was down. Joking aside, if you feel as absolute dogshit as I do and have that kind of anxiety where the world feels like its about to end because moments like these leave you with the rug pulled out from under you and the uncertainty leaves you not knowing what to do with your life after this... well, welcome to the boat, bathroom's on the lower deck and snacks are in the lobby. And also I'm here, and everyone else who's been left in the same crummy place emotionally. We're here together, and I hope that can help you, cause I know for me the worst part is feeling alone in it all, but I'm not, and neither are you. We're here, holding hands and cursing existence for putting us here and making us so sensitive and giving us something great only for it to end up hurting us. We're here, and if you wanna say anything, my DMs, comments, asks, whatever you'd want to talk through, are all open.

Now comes the hardest part: acknowledgement and playing the waiting game. Like I said, if you're feeling like me, this kind of anxiety and disappointment has you feeling like its all over. So now's when you gotta remind yourself that the only thing that's over is this moment in your life when you enjoyed a Thing. That Thing can have meant a lot to you, it could have gotten you out of really dark places, and it could be something you'll still think about down the line. It can be something like minecraft cube people that you (I) got way too emotionally attached to. And for whatever reason, that Thing could have meant the absolute world, whether other people would've understood it or not. Its not your fault it ended the way it did, life just does that sometimes, as unsatisfying of an answer as that is. But its true, and its an important lesson. The Thing is over.

You know what's not over though? You. You're life. Whatever the hell you are doing and will do in the future. If this was the best thing in your life you had going for you, I am so fucking sorry. You deserved to be happy with it, we both did. But I promise you, this Thing is a moment in your story, not the whole story. This really was the source of my joy for the past few months, and if its the same for you, I see you. We can feel like shit together, along with the rest of this wonderful community who understand it too. And you know what else we're gonna do? Live, and move on. Not now, maybe not for while, but we're human beings, we persist (sometimes that might look like you're dragging your battered self out of a trench smelling like depression and expired cheese, but you'll get out of the trench, we both will). There's too much to life for this to be what stops you from finding the rest, whether that's some dramatic life change that completely changes the world as you know it for the better... or just figuring out what comes next. Taking a shower, watching that movie you were waiting for the right moment to watch (I'd say this qualifies), setting up a therapy appointment maybe. Whatever you do to feel like a person again, you have that to do, and later down the road you'll have new Things that give it all meaning. So keep yourself going, hit up me or others who would get it, and do what you gotta do to let it pass. Because it will pass.

Deep breaths friend, I'll be cheering for you when it does

[sayitalianolearns]

본 드라마 목록:

Soundtrack #1 [사운드트랙 #1]: ⭐⭐⭐ watched it looong ago but not sure if in korean, english or both. don't remember much but i'd say it was nice

2024년:

Descendants Of The Sun [태양의 후예]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐🎵 fav, first drama i watched in korean after learning the language a bit more properly and despite the "overkill" of the protagonists i enjoyed it

Love In Contract [월수금화목토]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐ good; thought it was a little different from the plot but good nonetheless

Noble, My Love [고결한 그대]: ⭐⭐ didn't like it much, lotsa red flags in the story made me annoyed (7 eps x 45'); endured for listening reasons

Oh My Ghost [오 나의 귀신님]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐🐶 fav, i could have written it some time ago lol

The K2 [더 케이투]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐ good, had to take a break towards the end as it gets a little distressing so not fav

Military Prosecutor Doberman [군검사 도베르만]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐🐶🎵 v good despite ep1 didn't catch my attention at first but given another chance it's v v good

Something In The Rain [밥 잘 사주는 예쁜 누나]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐📝 good; could have been fav but gets v frustrating halfway through lol

Kill It [킬잇]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐🐶 good esp. after first eps; sad ending warning, losta tearing... i tend to cry easily but this is A LOT; it can't be fav right?

Search [써치]: ⭐⭐⭐🐶🐶 great for halloween time, enjoyable nonetheless; tw blood; DOGGOSSS!

Kiss Goblin [키스요괴]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐ v short and cute (12 eps x 10')

Touch Your Heart [진심이 닿다]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐🏆v funny, so many actors i saw in other dramas, felt like family meeting lol; loved the DOTS' recalls

My Dear Guardian [C-DRAMA]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐😺 only skipped a couple of eps in which nothing much seemed to happen, good overall despite it becomes a bit random towards the latest eps

Rich Man, Poor Woman [리치맨]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ fav; nice characters development and... leadernim!! lol

How Are You Bread [하와유브레드]: ⭐⭐ v short and v random web thing, cannot feel intrigued by the plot; finished only cause it's v short... mianhada leadernim (5 eps x 40')

Eye Love You [J-DRAMA]: ⭐⭐⭐📝 nice especially for the korean character/s speaking korean here and there, keeping me interested; took me a while to finish though, kinda didn't want to but there's more spoken korean in the end (10 eps x 60')

Embrace In The Dark Night [C-DRAMA]: ⭐⭐🎵 kinda absurd, almost becomes a different (better?) drama after 3-4 eps; everyone's so aroused the whole time y'all chill (24 eps x 15')

Melting Me Softly [날 녹여주오]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐📝 v v good; not fav bc of the frustrating and fast -for me- ending, some things abandoned halfway and some excesses in the first eps (btw 더 케이투's occasionally joining the chat lol); got 1 got7 lol

Their Wonderful Time [C-DRAMA]: ⭐⭐🎵 once you get over the weirdness and some cringe it's funny and cute, then confusing and absurd… wanted to give up around ep. 18 bc of a spoiler about the ending and boredom but kinda glad i hadn't (26 eps x 30')

What's Wrong With Secretary Kim [김비서가 왜 그럴까]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐ good; there's a bit of weirdness here and there but it's mostly cute and funny despite the sad bg story; towards the latest eps i got more involved into secondary characters stories, i wanted more about them; 2pm on 2pm joke... lol

Beauty Inside [뷰티 인사이드]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐📝 good; loved the story despite the sad sides... it carries nice lessons too; warning: lotsa tearing in the latest eps

Tale Of The Nine-Tailed [구미호뎐]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐ v good; starts funny gets darker towards the end; blood tw; heavy tearing in the last 2 eps; don't get too attached to the "wrong" character like i did (2ML?); love the lead actors sm<3; should but can't be fav cause they killed the wrong guy >-<

The Bride of Habaek [하백의 신부 2017]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐🎵📝🏆 it started as nice but i slowly grew fonder and fonder of it so yeah so very good... okay fav also for the quotes/godly words of wisdom

Level Up [레벨업]: ⭐⭐⭐ at first i didn't like it much but gets better halfway; not a huge fan anyway; a bit of cringe here and there; lead actor reminds me of an italian actor i don't like i caan't i'm sorry really you're better tho chingu

2025년:

My Lovely Girl [내겐 너무 사랑스러운 그녀]: ⭐⭐⭐🐶 starts on a couple of sad notes and keeps that same undertone all the time; i gotta be a bad booyyy; that ringtone will haunt me forever; ep. 16 WHY just WHY (spoiler: tw doggo's ill & lotsa tearing ep. 14)

Birth of The Beauty [미녀의 탄생]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐📝 lots of tough subjects confronted: beauty, self confidence/worth, marriage, love, revenge, trauma, killing/death, greed, cheating, lies, harassment, criticism/judgement…; occasionally strange, oblivious, naive, ?_?; "good" and "bad" characters get mixed; main actor sends leadernim vibes in RMPW and i can't unsee; tw: may cause anxiety especially after eps. 10-14 not fav bc of this

Master's Sun [주군의 태양]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐🐶📝 v good; tw: death/ghosts; nice stories developed almost each episode; would say fav but actors (esp. ML) speak SO fast or maybe it's me not getting all the words/grammar (eng subs are v specific/kor subs are uncorrect); guys it wasn't a screwdriver at first, js; one ep with a dog ç_ç<3

Protect My/The Boss [보스를 지켜라]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐ enjoyable and overall nice; characters are all well written and have different sides to them and present some kind of growth (halmoni<3 lol); sadly korean subs are pretty uncorrect

The Secret Life Of My Secretary [초면에 사랑합니다]: ⭐⭐⭐...⭐ slightly distressing for most part but overall cute and funny and made me want to watch more; tw lies, hiding, deceiving; i felt too bad for the ML until ep.13; nice take on disabled people in society; AWEESOOME<3; korean subs again pretty uncorrect

Suspicious Partner/Love In Trouble [수상한 파트너]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐📝 v good story, got chills in a bunch of occasions; "uri jibeuro gajaa" ugh bro better not this time; my conflicting feelings for ML actor are back but finally 5/5 for him clap yo haneudeu; me falling for liking a secondary/SML character: the saga continues; wikipedia betrayed me saying it's 20 eps x 30' but it's 40 eps x 30' and i've been half disappointed until ep.3 then i accepted my fate and happily fell into it lol

Judge vs. Judge [이판, 사판]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐ at first i was "eh" then "oh": story turned out to be pleasantly entertaining despite the crimes and sadness; sasil i wanted to see actor playing the psycho killer in prev in a diff. role since i REALLY loved his acting BUT why this i- *woah to myself and my SML syndrome*; lotsa law/court-related words that i don't understand in italian either *mi cabeza està ciao.gif*

Three Days [쓰리 데이즈]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐🏆 3days= the amount of time in which i wanted to watch the whole thing but obv couldn't; 3days= halfway forgot the story lasts as much; v entertaining and good pace despite some unclear event; actor in prevs is either a killer or someone who has to suffer immensely, alghessseubnida; cuuuuuties gimme mooore of them

A Girl Who Can See/Sees Smells [냄새를 보는 소녀]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐ ML is a little ML in prev and a little IDEK PLS; funny and occasionally cringy, still interesting and grows from ep.5/6; wish my right eye could be as cool; did everyone forget the title of the drama for a couple of eps halfway or…?; geunde what's with kdramas and prosopagnosia?

Where Stars Land [여우각시별]: ⭐⭐⭐📝 there must be some trigger for me in ML/FL characters so i wanted to watch more despite not being sure (and then got annoyed at them lol -almost wanted to stop watching also cause gets tough after ep.12); far more fantasy than prev despite not being categorized as such; i spy… a couple of actors from 3days lol; do not watch ep. 4-5 if you need to take a plane js… or maybe do it idek; loved to know about airport life

Pretty Ugly/Beautiful Gong Shim/Dear Fair Lady Gong Shim [미녀 공심이]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐🎵 cute and nice, good balance of fun and sad; story gets a bit overly complicated and weird after ep.15 but still good; learned to speak italian the korean way thanks to this drama; actor being a psycho killer in prevprev and a cutie here lol; ma l'adv/product placement così a buffo nella storia? wwhaaat piango

Distorted/Falsify [조작]: ⭐⭐⭐⭐🎵 unclear/slightly confusing beginning but that's the point in crime; gets v interesting after ep.4 or maybe i was too tired to focus when i watched the first eps idek lol; actor being cutie in prev is good at playing this role too; loved all main actors tho; also the link to real story v good; i want a season 2 yuyu

My Sassy Girl [엽기적인 그녀]: ⭐⭐⭐🐶 first costume/period drama i watch, language is somewhat different/very formal (obv); pleasant overall; took me a while to finish but maybe it's a time like that for me; last 4-5 eps are much more filled with events?? or that's my impression lol; fav character didn't disappoint but i wanted more of him; lieutenant of my heart ç_ç <3

완료되지 않음:

Forecasting Love And Weather [기상청 사람들: 사내연애 잔혹사 편]: ⭐⭐⭐ i don't remember much as i watched a couple of eps long ago but it was nice. i think i stopped watching for an unrelated issue (technical problems ig)

My Military Valentine [피타는 연애]: ⭐⭐⭐ watched 2 free eps only seemed good tho

Wok Of Love [기름진 멜로]: ⭐⭐⭐😺 watched a couple of eps, seemed good but can't watch anymore for now (triggers)

Something Just Like This [C-DRAMA]: ⭐⭐ watched 1-2 eps, a bit too cringy for me

Beautiful Love, Wonderful Life [사랑은 뷰티풀 인생은 원더풀]: ⭐⭐⭐ watched 2-3 eps v nice but for now i can't keep watching bc it feels a bit heavy and... 100 eps seem a lot? (100 eps x 30')

Cinderella At 2AM [새벽 2시의 신데렐라]: ⭐⭐ got to ep.5, the story is okay but i don't feel called to keep watching for now?? also i cannot anymore lol it's no more free (10 eps x 60')

My Girlfriend [C-DRAMA]: ⭐⭐ i said i wouldn't have watched another chinese drama then i did bc i wanted to watch something without thinking... first 3 eps are cringe af but it got a lil better so i endured until halfway ep 20 then korean called me again... honestly it feels like it's taking too long to get to a point (28 eps x 40')

My Girlfriend is (a) Gumiho [내 여자친구는 구미호]: ⭐ watched ep.1 but idk there's something i don't like abt it rn, maybe it's a bit too fairy-like or cringy/strange or... boring for my taste

Wanted [원티드]: ⭐⭐⭐ watched until ep.3-4, good but gets heavy so may watch but taking breaks... too bad, had so much hype about it

The Undatables [훈남정음]: ⭐⭐ after ep.1 i'm so annoyed at FL not sure i can watch more; many lovely actors tho

My Golden Life [황금빛 내인생]: ⭐⭐⭐ overall good but gets heavier as it goes; lotsa tough subjects and tw suicide attempt; confusing in a couple of eps cause "fake scenarios?" idek; main characters are 2 families/10 people at least; il nonnino delle alghe e il dongseng ç_ç; it's SO long cause story is OVERLY detailed imo (52 eps x 60'); decided to watch mostly main 2 couples' parts after ep.37; decided to give up (?) at ep.45

현재 시청 중:

Marry Him If You Dare [미래의 선택]

Cheongdam-dong Alice [청담동 앨리스]

Princess Prosecutor [검사 프린세스]: FL seems a bit annoying at first but anyway;

봐야 할:

The Moon Embracing The Sun [해를 품은 달]

Healer [힐러]

Temperature of Love [사랑의 온도]

100 Day My Prince [백일의 낭군님]

The Veil [검은 태양]

Men To Men [맨투맨]

That Winter, The Wind Blows [그 겨울, 바람이 분다]

Remember - War Of The Son [리멤버 – 아들의 전쟁]

Tong: Memories [통: 메모리즈]

Search: WWW [검색어를 입력하세요 WWW]

Why Her? [왜 오수재인가]

Love Crossed [C-DRAMA]

The Best Hit [최고의 한방]

Warm Meet You [C-DRAMA]

My Lethal Man [C-DRAMA]

Bubblegum [풍선껌]

Who Are You: School 2015 [후아유: 학교 2015]

He Is Psychometric [사이코메트리 그녀석]

When My Love Blooms [화양연화 – 삶이 꽃이 되는 순간]

Serendipity's Embrace [우연일까?]: (8 eps x 60')

Uncontrollably Fond [함부로 애틋하게]: (triggers?)

True Beauty [여신강림]

So I Married The Anti-Fan [그래서 나는 안티팬과 결혼했다]

Hotel Del Luna [호텔 델루나]

Radiant/The Light In Your Eyes [눈이 부시게]

Semantic Error: The Movie [시맨틱 에러]

Are You Human? [너도 인간이니?]: (36 eps x 30')

Memorist [메모리스트]

Sell Your Haunted House [대박부동산]

Can We Love [우리가 사랑할 수 있을까]

You're All Surrounded [너희들은 포위됐다]

Love With Flaws [하자있는 인간들]

My Princess [마이 프린세스]

Fight My Way [쌈 마이웨이]

Alice [앨리스]

Let Me Introduce Her [그녀로 말할 것 같으면]

Oh, The Mysterious [의문의 일승]

Don't Dare To Dream [질투의 화신]

VIP [브이아이피]

Entertainer [딴따라]

My Strange Hero [복수가 돌아왔다]

My Sweet Seoul [달콤한나의 도시]

Do You Like Brahms? [브람스를 좋아하세요?]

The King's Face [왕의 얼굴]

Just Dance [땐뽀걸즈]

Who Are You [후아유: 학교 2015]

All dramas found on viki.com (free) and youtube

⭐: overall story, lenght, fun, understandability, comfort (max. 5) 🐶: dog presence bonus lol 😺: cats or other animals (didn't want to mention but... whatevs) 🎵: soundtrack bonus 📝: quotes/something to think about bonus 🏆: may rewatch prize (sth i v rarely want to do when it comes to movies/books, even those i really enjoy)

[noimjustawiddlegobwin]

Calaun stat block for those using him as their final boss for The Blight. Tell me if y'all want his Warlock too, because good God are they a little bastard to fight. If you need a strategy, I recommend leading with Celestial Breath and Divine Order on the strongest fighter. Spell Reflection is good to use if he's targeted by a magic effect.

Calaun

Undead (counts as Dragon too)

Size: Medium

AC: 23

40 ft, fly 80 ft

HP: 247

Strength: 10 (+0)

Dexterity: 22 (+6)

Constitution: 18 (+4)

Intelligence: 19 (+4)

Wisdom: 19 (+4)

Charisma: 25 (+7)

Saving throws: Dex +10, Con +9, Wis +9, Cha +12

Skills, Arcana +14, Insight +9, Investigation +14, Perception +14, Stealth+10, Religion+9, Persuasion+12

Damage immunities: Fire, Poison, Radiant, Force (Radiant can be replaced for resistance to Cold and Lightning)

Condition immunities: Blinded, Deafened, Poisoned, Charmed, Frightened, Exhausted

Sense: Blindsight 60 ft, Truesight 60 ft, Darkvision 120 ft, passive Perception 17

Languages: All

Traits:

Legendary Resistance (3/day, I removed in mine because it's annoying)

Scroll Casting: Calaun can cast the following spells using his Charisma (save 20, +12 to hit with spell attacks. He has 60 spell points, and each spell uses points equal to its level.

Unholy Aura: holy water cannot exist within 30 ft of Calaun, and will be destroyed if it remains in that radius for one round.

Death Sight: Calaun knows the HP, HP Max, and Temporary HP of any creature he can see within 120 feet. This trait does not function if he is Incapacitated.

Cantrips (at will): Dancing Lights, Mage Hand, Mending, Prestidigitation

1st level (1 point each): Charm Person, Disguise Self, Dissonant Whispers

2nd level (2 points): Detect Thoughts, Suggestion, Phantasmal Force

3rd level (3 points): Dispel Magic, Hypnotic Pattern

4th level (4 points): Freedom of Movement, Greater Invisibility, Dimension Door

5th level (5 points): Dominate Person, Geas

6th level (6 points): Eyebite, Mass Suggestion

7th level (7 points): Prismatic Spray

1/day each: Blindness/Deafness, Charm Monster, Holy Aura, Revivify

Actions:

Multiattack: Calaun uses his Overwhelming Presence. He can then make two claw attack and one bite attack. He can replace one claw attack with a tail attack.

Multispell: Calaun casts two spells, using spell points as normal. The combined level of the spells cannot exceed 7.

Bite: Melee weapon attack, +12 to hit, reach 10 ft. 2D10 +7 piercing plus 2D8 Radiant damage

Claw: Melee weapon attack, +12 to hit, reach 5 ft. 1D10 +7 slashing damage

Tail (Bookwyrm): Melee weapon attack, +10 to hit, reach 20 ft. 2D6 +5 piercing damage. The target must make a DC 17 Con save or be Poisoned for 1 hour. Failing by 5 or more, it falls unconscious. While poisoned in this way, the target has 3 levels of exhaustion (ignores immunities) and has the related penalties. Upon taking damage or another creature taking an action to wake the target, they may remake the save. If the target saves, it is immune to Calaun's Tail for 24 hours

Tail (celestial dragon): melee attack, +12 to hit, reach 15 feet. 1D8 +7 bludgeoning damage and the target is Grappled. As an action, the creature may make a DC 20 check to escape. Calaun can only grapple one creature this way at a time.

Overwhelming Presence: each creature of Calaun's choice within 120 ft that he is aware of must make a DC 17 Int save or have disadvantage on all Intelligence, Wisdom, and Charisma saves for one minutes. It may remake this save at the end of its turn. Once a creature saves, it is immune to Calaun's Overwhelming Presence for 24 hours.

Breath weapons, recharge 5-6

Celestial Breath: 60 ft cone. Each creature must make a DC 20 Wisdom save or be Charmed for one minute. While Charmed in this way, the creature is Incapacitated and has a speed of 0. It may remake the save each time it takes damage, and at the end of its turn.

Prismatic Breath: 60 ft cone. Each creature must make a DC 20 Con save or take 12D8 radiant damage, or half on a save. If the creature fails, roll in the Magic Mishap table. This effect lasts until the end of Calaun's next turn.

1: the creature is Blinded, Deafened, and can't speak

2: the target is banished to a harmless demiplane, or sent to their homeplane if they aren't already there

3: the target is affected by the Bane spell

4: the target has disadvantage on saves against spells and other magic effects

5: the target is subject to the Petrified condition

6: any spells or magic effects on the target ends, and magic properties of any non-artifact item it has is suppressed. It cannot cast spells or use magic items.

Spellfire Breath: 45 ft cone. Each creature must make a DC 17 Dex save or take 6D6 fire and 6D6 psychic damage or half on a success. This damage does not effect objects or structures.

Bonus actions:

Change Shape: Calaun turns into a Small Dwarf, while retaining his game stats, other than size. This transformation is undone if he reaches 0 HP, or can be undone using a bonus action.

Divine Order: Calaun orders one creature within 30 ft that is Charmed by him. The creature obeys this command to the best of its ability, but cannot be ordered to commit obviously dangerous activities (no suicide). Any effect causing the creature to be Paralyzed, Incapacitated, or Stunned is suppressed while the creature is controlled this way.

Heavenly Gale: Calaun summons a torrent of wind, forcing each creature within 20 feet to make a DC 20 Strength save or be pushed back 20 ft and knocked Prone. Any spell of Calaun's choice of 5th level or lower ends on him.

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Spell Reflection: as a reaction when he is affected by a spell or magic effect, Calaun forces the user to make a DC 17 Int save. On a fail, the user becomes the target of the effect (or center, if it is an area effect, such as Fireball). On a success, nothing happens and the effect proceeds as normal.

[poorbrokemess]

⚠️✨️I got my reading in✨️⚠️

You guys don't get to see it all. Just a short little snip. It was way too personal for me to share it all.

I considered it. Touched a bit too close too accurate for me to feel comfortable doing so 😅

I will be honest.

I paid for it. With every expectation of garbage. Under $10 on etsy? Giving whatever information you feel free giving? To maybe help calm down my obsession I've had going on with this ✨️presence✨️ and my honest to the Gods, idiocy, blindness, ego? Idk what. But I was willing to pay to see, for fun, to support a small business, whatever my reasons. I finally did it. After talking about it for, idk 6 years?

What I did not expect was to have myself sobbing by the time it was over.

I've only a small part I'll share.

I paid for a commonplace up to 3 deity confirmation read on etsy.

Could give as much or as little information. I gave my first name, a color, and birds.

That's it.

That's all.

This was the little synopsis

It went on to describe each, and to give a message from each.

Loki, if he hadn't of showed I'd of instantly called BS. Because I at least have that one managed, with great help from Loki.

Odin. Also not a big surprise.

He was the first I prayed to outloud I think.

But Athena?

Athena?

Had to be chopped out of Zuses Head, fully formed, Goddess of Wisdom, warfare, and what?

✨️✨️✨️realizes✨️✨️✨️

I have been telling my partner for a year, that I think Athena is with her.

But not me. Never me. Not me who is afraid of my own anger. No war for me thanks. I'm mean as fuck. I don't need help there.

Pass.

⚠️pressure in head builds⚠️

Y'all

Someone.

Someone tell me it is or is not indeed Athena

Because why does my head feel so damn full?

*sees a meme of her mythology.* Remembers she got busted out of Zuses' head by Hephaestus. Fully grown. After Zuse ate Metis( this is all memory forgive mistakes please) because Hera couldn't manage another bastard Olympian of her husband's around.

Ever time I even think of it being someone else I get that pressure.

Then it's like.

But why did I need all the kemetic research if Greek and Norse?

Like. Why need read 35 books on Egyptians?

It's true enough I never felt as connected to them as Loki. But, that's Loki.

What about the turkey vultures ? Just birds ? For a skeptic, I'm skeptical about that.

But the reading was so, grossly, accurate. I felt perceived. 😅

So someone else pop in

With the previous reading I pulled myself. Mixed with other info like the colors crimson red, yellow, dark grey/black. Numbers 2 5 7 an Aquarius. Call me Messy. It'll come. Be horrified at my truth, I suppose.

But tell me, is it Athena ? Is any of it close? Is it all subject to change at any moment?

Ohhhhh she mad 😠

I feel that annoyance even now at my doubty ass self.

Look a butterfly, a baby bird, and the morning Crows

Anyway

Off to listen to this for Athena, because what pleasure, what joy, a good story is to hear. Especially one you get to learn from 😘😍

*update*

Shit got wild. I got another reading.

That's a butterfly. That has nothing to do with Athena. But it do have to do with Thantos, you know?

The Twins?

Some of them at least.

IE : hypnos and thanatos have what appears to have, been delegated to me. Lol

Bed time

[dorkydegeneracy]

I like Tommy, but I just find it incredibly hard to believe that he will be with Buck past season 7.

I just know the BuckxTommy breakup is going to be because Tommy explicitly tells Buck that he can't be with someone who is in love with someone else. Whether Buck figures that out before Tommy tells him is a question I haven't made my mind up about. Right now I'm going with Buck is probably semi-aware but in denial. I'm highly inclined to change my mind tomorrow tho.

Poor Eddie is so lost in the woods right now it's unreal. This guilt story is a great mechanism for him to get back on track, take a self-growth journey, and reevaluate his approach to romantic relationships.

I understand that Marisol purely serves as a plot device, but she has absolutely no likeable qualities to me. She's cute, but honestly kinda annoying. I don't know how much of this character I can take tbh. It's obvious that the writers put no effort into writing for her role.

On a semi-related note, this season is desperately lacking Christopher Diaz. Come back kiddo! I miss your infectious smile and we need you to enlighten us with your wisdom! (And kick Marisol to the curb!)

We will see how this goes y'all! If nothing else I'm all here for the longing looks and PDA.

[serial-serializednovelreader]

okay for the character ask game I couldn’t decide on characters or numbers, so I just threw some random characters and numbers together, and you can decide which apply the most to what character. Whatever you like!

SQ, Jeffers, Garrison, Nicholas, Kate, and Rhonda

1, 2, 5, 7, 8, 9, 10, 13, 15, 16, 18, 20

What do you like or dislike about this character?

SQ - in the show, I like his introspection and that they fleshed him out to not just be Curtain's adopted son who loves art and is under his control (in both a good and bad way). My only issue is that he's not in season 2, we were robbed!! As for the books, I like that what starts out as comic relief ends up being a horrifying realization that this poor teenager is brainswept so much that he can't remember what he's saying. What I dislike is that we never get to see him grow beyond that. Yes, we see him choose kindness (which is great btw) over Curtain, but I wish we had actually gotten to see him in Riddle of Ages besides a quick mention.

Jeffers - I love that he gets to be goofy. Sure the Ten Men in the books were scary, but they let him just be whacky! And why not? I love characters that get to goof around and be silly, especially if they're not supposed to. Plus, you can tell the actor playing him is having a blast and that's how you know a character is well-done. I just wish he had been in season 1, but I'm glad you put him in S.O.S. so I can enjoy him there, Bods!

Garrison - I like that this character exists, first of all. I know book Curtain is the type to want to keep the science secrets to himself, but show Curtain needs a science person to delegate Whisperer stuff to. After all, when would he have time to do this?

(did I want an excuse to put this GIF in again? Yes, yes I did. It was too funny to resist.)

But seriously, I also love that while she does bend to Curtain, she does try to stand up to him in her own way. There's a complicated dynamic there (made more complicated by reading @nobodysdaydreams S.O.S. AU fanfic, which you should read if you haven't yet because OH BOY does it change things about Garrison for you) and it's so interesting to analyze. Also, she's just a little bit quirky and I love her for that.

Nicholas - in the show, I love that they gave him issues!!!! They made him anxious and the way Tony Hale makes his posture more stooped is *chef's kiss* lovely. His "excuse me - *cut to loud screaming montage*" is TOO RELATABLE. I think they were so right for that. Also, making him more directly responsible for Curtain's downfall was a great choice (though I don't actually blame him because he was a literal child it wasn't his fault; if anything, I blame the adoptive parents for separating twins and just not coming back for the other that's so messed up??? Who does that?????). The only thing I dislike was that they basically cut down his narcoleptic attacks to nearly nothing by the second season, almost like they didn't exist. Like, y'all, come on, don't do that!

As for the books, I love his wisdom, compassion and how he always makes time for the children. He always seems to know what they're thinking and is able to encourage them in their darkest hour. Although, I have a love/hate relationship with how they cured his narcolepsy in TPD because on one hand, I hate the "curing disability narrative", but on the other he actively hated it and wanted it gone (plus he had to suppress his emotions so much because of it) that I can't really blame him for wanting it gone...hard to know how to feel on that one!

Kate - KATE MY BELOVED!!! Again, I love everything about her. For show Kate, I love how fast-paced she is. It always makes me laugh when she says something like, "Tower. Scale it. Now!!!" It's so funny to me. Emmy did an amazing job bringing that aspect to life. Show Kate is also rougher around the edges -- I don't hate it because it's more realistic...it's just sad. :(

As for book Kate, I like that she brute forces her way to solutions. Oh she doesn't understand this maze? Guess she's running through the vents. I always admired her agility (and wished I could be that cool!!). I also like that she had to grapple with the dark urge of violence because it makes sense, she's the muscle of the team, why shouldn't she end the bad guys once and for all? A dark theme, sure, but I'm glad TLS didn't hold back on it.

Rhonda - Show Rhonda is so cool because she's so good at mediating within the group and I love that she also tries to fight in her own way against Curtain outside of their work with the society. We love to see some small acts of activism!!! No notes, amazing character.

For book Rhonda, I love how caring she is. She just always finds a way to show the group in big and small ways that she cares about them. I feel like if anyone is neurotypical in that group, it's her, and for once I mean that in a good way (let's be real, someone probably needs to be to remember things and help with social cues) /j. I wish we got to see more of her!

2. Favorite canon thing about this character?

Nicholas - in the books, that he learned ASL for Violet in his prequel book! I took 3 ASL classes and while it shouldn't be a big deal for a hearing person to learn sign language for a Deaf person, many times they won't. I love that he automatically accommodated her needs, rather than trying to make her accommodate him. As for the show, the screaming scene comes to mind, but I like that he reads aloud to his friends, I think it's sweet :)

5. What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

Garrison - Giants by Imagine Dragons

Soooo again I had to manually pick this song since I don't really think of MBS characters + music together (which is weird of my brain to do, but whatever!). The reason I picked this song is because it's about addiction and someone reflecting on what they've become because of it. I think it especially applies to your S.O.S headcanon of Garrison and how she is in season 2. Wish I had a happier answer. :(

7. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?

Jeffers - that y'all gaslit me into thinking his name was Jeepers (s/o to @mvshortcut for reassuring me I was right) and that we have Secure the Perimeter Saturday. I think it's beautiful. 😍 ❤️

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

Rhonda - I haven't seen anything I truly despise, but it definitely irks me when she gets forgotten (or whitewashed, I was worried the show was going to do that). She's such an interesting character and deserves to be included as much as possible!!!!!! Again, it's nothing I've actually seen, but if I had to pick.

9. Could you be roommates with this character?

Rhonda - yes, I think so! She'd get the worst end of the bargain dealing with my eccentricities, but I honestly think we could make it work. I'd do my best to try to make things easier for her living with me lol.

13. What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?

Kate - 🪣 ...sorry, I had to!

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

Kate x Reynie - Sorry not sorry, I've always been a Kaynie girlie!!!! I enjoy that TMBS didn't dive into romance at all because it's good to get a break from that. Unfortunately, I'm a hopeless romantic and, at least in the books, I saw potential for something to grow when they got older (like when Reynie gets electrocuted by Curtain in TPD and Kate holds his hand while crying...that scene BROKE ME 😭 😭 😭 ).

16. What's your least favorite ship for this character?

Garrison x Curtain - idk if anyone actually ships this (I haven't seen it, I'm just adding it to the mix for consideration), but the thought of this makes me want to barf. Just....nah.

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

Nicholas - I've always admired his relationship with Milligan. If you're able to gain the loyalty and friendship of someone who's lost all of their memories, you're doing something right. :) I know Nicholas is always going to feel responsible for Curtain's misdeeds, and by extension, Milligan's memory loss (in both the books and show since Curtain is his brother and Nicholas is too much of an empath to not feel some kind of guilt), but I truly admire how he treats Milligan as someone to be taken seriously and who he wants to help.

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?

Jeffers - I don't know if this crossover is allowed, but can you imagine if Moocho Brazos and Jeffers became friends outside of Curtain's influence? I don't know, I just feel like they would be besties and potentially great together in a fight. Moocho would totally break out some cool helicopter fighting moves and Jeffers would do...something?

I hope you enjoy these answers. This was super fun, Bods!!