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You were the first person I was willing to take a leap for, and trust me, I was more than surprised when you caught me and we flew

It's 8:48 pm October 23rd 2019 and I love you so much.

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7/30/21

I think I maybe just felt the baby move. I've been having some sensations that made me wonder, but this one was kind of a rolling feeling that lasted for a couple seconds right in the same spot in the front so I don't think it's gas

I'm excited. 15 wks 2 days by my calendar today

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Not me at every stupid little thing lately. Thanks, I hate it

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6/14/21

This baby hates food. And I hate the fact that I can think about random things, and those random thing thoughts can make me throw up.

OVER IT

I also hate that I am functionally useless, and if I have energy, it is dead after doing one whole task. Rest is not rejuvenating. Rest is maintaining. I've honestly never felt more hopeless and useless and I hate it

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6/11/21

So we paid for an ultrasound this morning and got some good pics. The tech did say that she only saw one baby, so that's nice lol

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Uhhh...hmm....right.....going in for an early professional scan in the morning

6/10/21

So 10 weeks tomorrow and we're about to try my MIL's home ultrasound machine that she uses for her dogs and see if we can see anything 😆

If we can, that's about fifty bucks saved for a sneak peak ultrasound, since they scheduled my very first ultrasound for 14 weeks. I don't want to wait another month!!!!

I'll post the pics if we managed to get any. My abdomen is a bit thicker than a dogs for sure

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6/10/21

So 10 weeks tomorrow and we're about to try my MIL's home ultrasound machine that she uses for her dogs and see if we can see anything 😆

If we can, that's about fifty bucks saved for a sneak peak ultrasound, since they scheduled my very first ultrasound for 14 weeks. I don't want to wait another month!!!!

I'll post the pics if we managed to get any. My abdomen is a bit thicker than a dogs for sure

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6/3/21

On my way back from Washington today. I panicked a little when I woke up this morning because I wasn't sick.

Who woulda thought that barfing and heaving was actually reassuring that everything is okay. I have been taking vitamin b6 consistently now for two days, and unisom at night so it makes sense to not feel gross all the time anymore

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‘I’M JUST A KID AND LIFE IS A NIGHTMARE’ i scream at the age of 23 as i’m forced to make adult phonecalls

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6/1/21

Had to do a depression and anxiety assessment today as part of my ob care and I already have depression.

And we just moved two states as well as getting sick and morning sickness

1. Have you had an upset stomach lately? Duh

2. Has your sleep schedule changed, too much or too little sleep? Absolutely.

3. Have you had multiple days of fear about the future and stress about the present in the last two weeks? Double duh

There was more lol. How do you answer that? I basically had to say yeah but I have good reasons for all of it lol

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5/30/21

So I got rid of the stomach bug just in time for morning sickness. Now I don't have to worry about the food coming out, because I can't get most food in. Currently sitting in a pizza joint again, same one we had last night, because for some reason this pizza went down stupid easy

Most of my nausea seems to be triggered by smells, and I ordered a scent necklace with some lemon essential oils so I can overwhelm anything that's really getting me. On the unfixable side tho, the thought of foods makes me gag. So no going into the pantry to figure out what I can eat

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5/22/2021

So it seems like I managed to contract some sort of stomach bug the first week here in Cali. I am only very very lightly nauseated at times, but my intestines have declared war. I was up about every hour or two last night and the night before to run to the bathroom. I took some kaopectate, which seems to be the safest to take during pregnancy, and I only took half a dose but it has definitely improved symptoms and lengthened time between bathroom breaks.

On Monday I need to get ahold of the doctors office and make sure that I can keep taking my otc antihistamine. I skipped it today and I've been sneezing a bunch. We did get the humidifier going though, which is really nice.

I'm now seven weeks 1 day by lmp and the boob pain is easing up a little finally. I had to go buy new bras yesterday because I snapped the underwire finally in my favorite that I've had for over a year. I ended up going up two cup sizes, which is the slightest bit big but I think I need a little more room to grow. Waaayyy too expensive though. 85 for two bras

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not to be a misogynist doctor from the 1800s but i’m pretty sure my uterus is moving around my body, biting my other organs, and also is possessed by the devil

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Got my dye stealer yesterday and I'm at the doctors today in Cali now, confirming pregnancy and getting medical care set up. This is a kind of stressful process. Everyone talks so fast. They didn't ask me what meds I take

5/18/2021

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I got my second result back from the doctor and it looks like my hcg is doubling appropriately. I'm looking out for a dye stealer any day now. We just got to our new place in California, so now it's a game of how long can we keep this a secret from my mother in law that we live with lol

I also figured out that my insurance goes by a different name in this state, which is great and opens up more obgyn options

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Okay we had to pay for our own, but hcg is looking alright for 4 and a half weeks (pretty sure this table is marking weeks from ovulation/implantation). I've got another test scheduled for tomorrow, so we'll see if it keeps doubling properly