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no you don't understand i am OBSESSED i need him sooooo bad

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Phantom Parade is blessing us with all of these Satoru's frames😍😍😍😍

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sketchie!! i am trying to take some liberties with his design sdjfkl

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society is people understood that their opinions are not facts-

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she’s literally my everything.

forget about the previous design of her it never existed this is the new and improved Irina baby 🫶

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Okay for those of you who aren’t familiar with Narcissus and its elements of mythos- in general he was a beautiful hunter and the son of a river god and a nymph whom everyone fell in love with yet he never reciprocated. Eventually he breaks the heart of potential suitor (in the Grecian version of the myth its Aminius and in the Roman version its Echo) and is cursed by godly intervention to never be able to acquire the object of his desires. One day while out hunting, he goes for drink of water and sees a reflection of himself and falls in love, yet because it is his reflection he is never able to attain or reach his desire and wastes away by the river bank. (This is just a quick summary so forgive me for any missing details)

Now for the reason I say that its such blatant Narcissus reference is because of the very clear imagery here of Luocha staring into a river bank at his own reflection. Very clearly paralleling Narcissus depictions like the below Caravaggio and Lemoyne paintings respectively.

Also the flowers at the river bank are called Narcissus flowers (aka daffodils which are the most common flower in the Narcissus genus) and according to greco0roman mythos believed to have sprung up due to Narcissus wasting away by the river bank. Narcissus flowers are delicate flower very commonly found on river banks.

I'm not very sure what this means in terms of Luocha as a character but it does make me curious which parts of the mythology will be used for his story if any.

(there is also the very peculiar part of his reflection showing the vines that are used in his ultimate appearing to close in on him as though they were about to attack which makes me equally as curious as to what it could mean).

can we please please please have an in depth discussion about how this is the most blatant Narcissus reference ever- LUOCHA THE MYSTERY YOU ARE.

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can we please please please have an in depth discussion about how this is the most blatant Narcissus reference ever- LUOCHA THE MYSTERY YOU ARE.

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BSD SEASON 5 EP 11 SPOILERS!!!! Below the border

my rambling thoughts/grievances on a particular theory floating around about Fyodor and Nikolai and what happened in the last episode of S5

I see a lot of people theorizing that the yellow light that we see as Fyodor is “dying” is not the flames of the helicopter but actually Nikolai’s ability saving him from the wreckage. And while from a logistical perspective I have no issues with this theory; from a character perspective I find myself frustrated with it. 

It’s entirely possible that this was all a plan created by Fyodor and Nikolai in case of a situation like that, I personally feel like it completely undermines Fyodor’s character, specifically taking away his “fatal” flaw and leaving him as this invincible force and it also alters his dynamic with other characters in the series specifically Dazai and Nikolai.

My favorite Dazai and Fyodor conversation is their chess conversation they have while in the prison, because it finally establishes the fundamental difference between them. Dazai uses the unpredictability of humanity to his advantage, allowing himself to trust in his allies and their abilities rather than trying to predict and control their every action, while Fyodor looks at the unpredictability of humanity and attempts to control it, refusing to trust anyone else’s judgment but his own.

Simply put– Dazai trusts people and Fyodor does not. From that conversation, we as the audience are given the “ideal conflict” between these characters. Who will come out on top because of their way of operating? 

Fyodor or Dazai?

And Dazai coming out on top in this particular ideal clash makes perfect sense, given its an ideal that he himself evolved to possess. From how he interacts with people in Fifteen to his current self, we see Dazai actually learn to trust people and their decision making rather than trying to bait them into making the decision. 

[I can go more in depth about this change in Dazai’s character later if it’s wanted; this post is supposed to be about Fyodor and this does not need to be a dissertation].   

Fyodor had allies and he had a very particular ally in Nikolai. Yet instead of embracing Nikolai and such a companionship, he reasoned that he couldn’t control him and thus never allowed himself to trust Nikolai. There’s two instances where Nikolai’s allyship could have saved him both at the beginning of the prison break where we see a very visual representation of Dazai choosing to trust people in picking Sigma as his aid, while Fyodor chooses himself and his plan not once but twice with Nikolai giving him a second chance to change his mind and possibly even choose Nikolai as his aid.

We are all well aware that Nikolai wanted to kill Fyodor which was the entire purpose of the game Nikolai set up– but at the very least in choosing to trust Nikolai his chances of beating Dazai would have leaned in his favor. And at the helicopter, had Fyodor asked Nikolai to man it for him because of his injury, that vampire that he thought he had total control over would’ve never been able to impale him.  Nikolai’s want to kill Fyodor is a very valid reason for Fyodor not to trust Nikolai but his chances once again significantly improve if he simply chose to trust his closest companion. But he doesn’t and that is something I find so intriguing about Fyodor as a character. 

Another issue I have with the theory is what it does to Nikolai’s character. We see him grieve Fyodor and have a vulnerable moment parallel to the moment we get in his fight with Atsushi where he cracks and reveals his true nature before fixing himself and saying what should be in line with the persona he displays. Nikolai fights with himself about if he truly wanted to kill Fyodor, flipping between yes and no a few times when Dazai asks “You wanted to kill him, didn’t you?”. It’s such a heartbreaking moment for Nikolai’s character as he experiences the reality of the “freedom” he wanted. He has killed the one person who he felt understood him. He has killed his “best friend”. In what should be a moment where he is finally able to experience true free will unaffected by human emotions and feelings, Nikolai is the most emotional we have ever seen him. 

In one moment we see the literal destruction of two very flawed ideals crashing and burning to the ground because they chose to run from humanity instead of embrace it. So if it was all an act on the part of Nikolai, it just would reset any potential character growth he could have from this moment. 

Also people have pointed out the moment where Dazai is calling at Fyodor’s fatal flaw, saying that it’ll come back to bite him like Fyodor’s comments about the bond of sokoku came back to bite him. While I do think Dazai’s words will come back to bite him, it won't be his comments about Fyodor’s fatal flaw, more than likely it’ll be his assurance that Fyodor is “no doubt” dead as I highly doubt that is the case. The “vampire cosplay” bit by Chuuya and Dazai displays such a deep level of trust between the two of them that I just can not see being replicated by Fyodor and Nikolai because Chuuya and Dazai’s bond is very particular to their characters. Fyodor and Nikolai doing something similar would just feel like a cheap gotcha moment than an actual display of true bond that we get no build up to. We are shown moments in which Nikolai cares for Fyodor but it’s never reciprocated and even Nikolai’s feelings are clouded by his want to escape from them. 

So while I feel for the Fyodor and Nikolai fans in these trying times, I really hope Asagiri doesn’t take the route that Nikolai actually helped Fyodor get out of the plane and save his life. 

This is just my own personal opinion however so if you feel differently and would like to explain why I’m happy to have that conversation.

a/n: this is actually my first real post on tumblr so expect more of my ramblings about bsd and other animes i know way to much about.

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#im screaming #dear lord #lyn has for it again folks

Bladie. *chews on him*

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more redraws cause bones apparently can't do nun without me 🥴 /hj

more coming soon.

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i- FUCK.

CHUUYAS HANDS FJSKFNJWJF ❤️❤️❤️

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Lyn has provided us with ponytail Dazai I’ll never be the same. Everyone say thank you.

#im screaming #why is he so pretty #and HOTTTTT

I can’t believe we as a society chose to ignore ponytail Dazai concept.

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#why is he so hot #look at him #pretty man

Both illustrations are based on the same concept, so I will post them together.

Thanks again for looking at my fanart. I am so happy to see the tags and comments you all are putting on my illustrations.

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Them honestly <3

im alive.

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Kunikida appreciation >>>>>>

kunikida nation world domination

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BABIES <33333

They are so adorable in the new bsd official art

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my mf wife <3

#i love her #why is she so cool #and hot

Pipe.