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The most selfish act someone can commit is expecting and making someone stay alive when they are at the lowest point of their life and no longer have anything to live for is selfish. You cannot expect someone to keep living in the unbearable mental pain that mental illness causes, when someone dies the people around them grieve for a while but then the accept that the person is dead and they move on. You cant keep living when the only thing that will bring you peace is dying,

saying or even thinking someone should stay in pain just so you don’t have to be in pain is more selfish, and I will always stand by that.

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please i want everything to stop.

theres inly one way i know it will and everyone deems me selfish for wanting to do it?

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People think Ana is about food.

But they don’t understand that it’s so much more than that. Yes, it’s about hating your body and yourself and wanting to feel OK with how you look for once in your life.

But it’s also about control. About trying to dull the pain through self destructive behavior. It’s about wanting to prove you can control something in your life when everything else is out of control: no matter what, at least you can control what you eat and how small you. At least you can prove that you have control over your behavior.

It’s about wanting to be so small you disappear. So small that no one can hurt you anymore.

Ana is about so much more than food.

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People think Ana is about food.

But they don’t understand that it’s so much more than that. Yes, it’s about hating your body and yourself and wanting to feel OK with how you look for once in your life.

But it’s also about control. About trying to dull the pain through self destructive behavior. It’s about wanting to prove you can control something in your life when everything else is out of control: no matter what, at least you can control what you eat and how small you. At least you can prove that you have control over your behavior.

It’s about wanting to be so small you disappear. So small that no one can hurt you anymore.

Ana is about so much more than food.

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i hate myself for missing people who don’t miss me

i hate myself for missing people

i hate myself

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i just wanna know why i wasnt good enough lmao.

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Reblog with who you are. I'm the bottled up

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'i thought you were getting better??'

well im just a lying cunt???

and you couldn't see through that??

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Reblog if

It’s 104% okay to come to your DM and just say, “Hi, can we be friends?” And then start asking you random questions.

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im so sensitive i wasn’t made for earth

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Sometimes I go into states of apathy. And I just don’t feel love or barely feel love for the people in my life. I know that it doesn’t last forever, but sometimes I really do have to pretend to love the people that I normally do love in my life, and it hurts a bit

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Gonna take that one person's idea:

If this post gets to... 500k notes by Jan 1st, 2023, I'll recover.

You have two months! Let the game begin >:)

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i just want to be enough.

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i am my own self fulfilling prophecy.

i fuck everything up at my own expense and then fuck it up some more because 'well ive already fucked up might aswell stop caring and push it even further!' until i hurt someone else, ruin a relationship, end up hated, or feeling infinitely worse than before, argue, split on someone, self sabotage to the highest degree and then once i realise what the fuck ive done have to pick up my shit and try with everything in me to get back to where i started.

im exhausted.

i want to stop hurting.

not just other people but in myself.

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feeling invisible and unlovable