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i cant tell if I'm real. i have moments of feeling like movie character. my life is not even that interesting. I'm a shitty movie

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a little update on these:

its June 22 and I've read zero books in Spanish. i cooked something good twice or three times. i write occasionally and briefly. my makeup is mediocre i think. i have taken more pictures than usual and some are good but not enough to show them. I've driven on the freeway and its not super scary except maybe getting on and switching to different bridges. I don't drive far so its okay. i try to be more honest with myself. its hard to not fall back on my excuses.

I cant believe I'll be 22 in two months. i feel like a true failure. i have nothing to my name not even a car. I feel so behind and uncomplete. Everyday is like trying to dig myself from a hole. I can't remember clear air

2025 Personal Goals

read more books in Spanish

practice makeup

take pictures

write

spend time with friends

learn to cook

buy more perfumes

drive on freeway

go to the aquarium

laugh more naturally

be more honest

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I'm actually really evil and spiteful. I hate being reminded of any of my responsibilities, and I hate being made less. I hate people deeply for doing better than me. I hate being thought of less. I hate that my weaknesses and faults show so bitterly bright. So open, there's no way of hiding my ugly side. I can't disguise it like other people. I can't dress it up like others. I'll always be this. Underwhelming and disappointing.

And this is why I know deep down I've never been loved it's because the universe knows I don't deserve love. And that scares me that they're right. And no comfort can cure me.

I don't believe there's a cure for how terrible I am as human

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Turned into a princess

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2024 Team World Champions! Final day, over and out -Lando via instagram

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Is everything going to be okay?

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