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aug. 26th

76,3kg -> +0,1kg

bmi 25,8

yesterday’s water intake: 2L

yesterday’s calorie intake: 1020 kcal

fuck this shit how the fuck did i gain when i had less calories than the day before???

ok honestly i’m gonna blame than one long drink i had after work with coworkers ughhh honestly idk it’s so frustrating!! thank goodness only +0.1 tho, if it was any more i’d be livid.

anyways obviously skipping breakfast before work, imma just have a protein drink or smthn on my first break idk we’ll see

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going to sleep hungry, might wake up thinner🤞🏼😋🥲🤪🦋✨

no but frfr if i gain something even worse WILL HAPPEN

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aug. 25th

76,2kg -> -0,5kg

bmi 25,8

yesterday’s water intake: 2L

yesterday’s calorie intake: 1011

omg i’m so happy i was so sure i’d gain because of eating more than usual but no! ahh and also now i don’t feel dizzy anymore, only my heart is pounding out of my chest even tho i woke up just now so idk maybe i’ll have a banana before leaving to work? or an apple idk i feel like bananas have so much calories…😵‍💫💀

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me on a random tuesday after bawling my eyes out

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i feel disgusting, i’ve had like over 900 calories and it’s only 4pm… and the worst part is that i purposely ate more today than normally bc of feeling so weak this morning but i just can’t shake off the feeling of guilt

i’ll probably have an apple later on in the evening ONLY so that i won’t feel like absolute shit in the morning tomorrow but GOD eating more than you’d want to is awful😭

chile anyways if i gain tomorrow imma kms OH AND ALSO i promised to go for after work drinks tomorrow so that’s fuckin terrifying since i hardly never manage to stick to only one drink…

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Reasons to lose weight <3

• being able to wear shorts

• feeling confindent in Swimsuits

• to be the skinny friend

• „i wish i had her body“

• taking pictures and feeling pretty

• your crush thinks you are pretty

• feeling sexy in underwear

• wearing the clothes you want

• not having a panic attack when someone wants to pick you up

• sweating less

• being seen as „fit“

• looking good in pictures

• to show everyone that you can do it

• shocking the people you did not see for a long time

• eating outside and not receiving looks because you are fat

• looking good naked

• „Do you eat enough“

• not thinking it is a joke when someone finds you attractive

• being someone else bodygoals

• people using your pictures for their bodygoals

• to feel your bones

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i know i have to eat a little more than usual today since waking up feeling absolutely horrible but oh god how that terrifies me… i’ve been eating arouns 600-800 cals for the past days and i KNOW that if i have that same amount today, i’ll not make it to work tomorrow, not to even mention through the day…

PLEASE GIVE ME TIPS on what/how/when to eat to feel better tomorrow🦋🫶🏼

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aug. 24th

76,7kg -> -0,6kg

bmi 25,9

yesterday’s water intake: 2L

i’m actually so proud of myself for consistently losing weight and not getting stuck!

also woke up today feeling soooo dizzy so even tho i hate eating early in the morning i had to make myself 3 corn cakes (???u know like rice cakes) with some butter and also had one slice of cheese… thank god i didn’t have work today!

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Everyone talks about being skinny for summer, but oh hell to be skinny for fall

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83 kcal omelette !!🍳🍳

ssooo, i just made this dinner omelette for myself and it was actually quite filling so i thought i’d share the recipe!😋🍳

i used one egg🥚 (70kcal), 25 grams of bell pepper🫑 (7kcal) (i mean not the round one but the long pepper that’s pretty much the same thing but in a longer shape and i don’t fucking know the english word for it), 2 cherry tomatoes🍅 (6kcal) and some salt and pepper.

i just sliced the veggies super small and mixed everything together and then fried it on a small pan. i didn’t use any oil or butter to keep the calories as low as possible and tbh it turned out more like scrambled eggs rather than an omelette but oh well🤷🏽‍♀️

anyways if you’re looking for something low cal and kinda filling, go ahead and give it a try!

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aug. 23rd

77,3kg -> -0,5kg

bmi 26,1

yesterday’s water intake: 2L

chopped off like 20cm of my hair yesterday AND my hairdresser made the layers look so nice i’m in love 🥹🦋

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imagine your cw dropping every morning. now that's what you call self-discipline~

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i opened the fridge to have a little bit of leftover rice and chicken but oopsie, looks like my bf finished the whole pot yesterday and didn’t tell me! usually i’d be livid but now i’m actually happy, might just as well eat nothing at all tonight😛🦋

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aug. 22nd

77,8kg -> -0,3kg

bmi 26,3

yesterday’s water intake: 2L

a bit disappointing to see the scale go down “only” .3kg but i gotta remind myself that even little progress is better than no progress. and it’s not like i have anything or anyone else to blame, i did have like 1300 kcal yesterday… yeah physical work tryna kill me.

anyways working again today and after that i’m going to the hairdressers to cut my hair, i’m thinking maybe about taking around 10cm off of my hair 😛

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if only you were your gw…

(divider @leafsea)

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a reminder for myself

You’ve lost some weight

That’s great, truly! You’re finally seeing some progress. It feels euphoric, like all your hard work is finally paying off.

But you can’t stop yet. No, no you’re not done yet. Sure, you look a little slimmer from certain angles, maybe your collar bones stick out a bit more or your ribs show when you lay down, but that’s not good enough.

That’s not all you want right? To look good at SOME angles? No, you want to be beautiful at EVERY angle. You want to look thin without having to pose for it.

You want your spine to poke out without having to hunch over. You want your hands to be boney and slim without having to flex them. You want your stomach to be flat without having to lie down. You want a thigh gap without arching your back. You want to be skinny without having to FAKE it.

Keep working. Keep starving. You’ll get there, but you cannot reward yourself until you’ve made some REAL progress.

Do not be happy with mediocrity when you can have perfection.